#im so nervous guys HELP
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I'm very nervous at joining new bandoms cause I've been apart of a lot that were 90% just disgusting people. but also. kglw bandom dosent look half bad. So here's my album ocs insp by kglw albums. There's probably gonna be more so dw if your fav album isn't here
I know the fishing for fishies one is literally just modbear han-tyumi but I tried ok
#kglw#king gizzard and the lizard wizard#furry#album ocs#albums#ocs#kgatlw#im so nervous guys HELP#my friend is the only reason im into kglw shout out to mikey#kglwalbumocs
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Connor. Please. You can't say that in a police station.
#detroit become human#connor rk800#hank anderson#chris miller#gavin reed#whyyyyyy was today and yesterday days i caved to the violent tendencies in art#im not even in a bad mood i just ???? who knows#also semi unrelated to the art but related to dbh#you guys im so concerned with how cute my art is because it makes everyone appear more innocent i think?#and really its unintentional so i really am not trying to uwu-ify anyone please know they are all assholes in my heart#but like asshole (affectionate) ya know?#they have their issues and all are capable of murder yet my style is more simple and cutesy and doesnt portray it#and also i like light banter and not taking my art seriously which doesnt help so i get nervous posting some of it
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these are kinda old,,
fanart,dishjsndhrijendynsnn yes.
#bfb#battle for bfb#bfdi#battle for bfdi#battle for dream island#bfb au#bfdi au#who made this au#i don’t know guys#im so nervous#WHO MADE IT#HELP#bfb blocky#bfb bubble#bfb pencil#bfb pen#bfb eraser#bfb match#bfb fries#bfb leafy#bfb teardrop#bfb woody#this isnt my au help </3
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I JUST FUCKING MET DAVID TENNANT
#and he signed my program GODD#i was a bit worried I wouldn’t be able to get to the front bc im a small and sort of timid kind of guy and there was a massive crowd#but this really nice girl at the front helped me get through to stand next to her which was ??? so nice#I didn’t ask her to help I think she just saw my nervous aura and stepped in#anyway he was so cool and nice and the show was amazing#seeing him as macbeth…… GODD#also the lighting and sound design were so sick I can’t even begin to explain how good it was#I will never get over this#oh also one of the cast members just gave me a program for free like I was talking to him and he was like hey do you want a program i have#a spare#i guess it’s be nice to park day idk why everyone was being so kind to me
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i am so stressed out about ep95 uhhhh
hoping for a comfort scene between orym and dorian after the big ordeal. i can only imagine orym’s probably still very shaken up about it and stuff, (maybe a little bit mad that neither fearne or dorian *immediately* sided with him; especially from his lines of “would anyone like to tell her why it’s so important to me?” because both fearne and dorian both know why specifically and didn’t respond?? idk). LITERALLY I JUST WANT DORIAN TO WALK OVER AND COMFORT THE SHIT OUT OF ORYM.
that would help a lot with this pain and suffering
#dorym#critical role#campaign 3#bells hells#c3#dorian storm#orym of the air ashari#dorian x orym#cr spoilers#guys i’m going insane#PLEASE HELP IM SO NERVOUS#ORYM DONT BE MAD DORIAN WAS CONFUSED#c3e95
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I FINALLY got off work and have nothing to do for the next few hours.
In an attempt to actually enjoy the ending of my favorite show (instead of mindlessly horking all of it down in a single sitting) I shall take my time watching through the episodes and write posts regarding my feelings about each one.
I am SO incredibly nervous and excited. Six years of being a Dragon Prince fan all led up to this. Here's hoping that it'll be a fantastic conclusion!

#guys help im actually so anxious#i haven’t been this nervous since they announced s4 after the hiatus#its been an honor ✊️😭#tdp#tdp final season#tdp s7#the dragon prince
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oh my gyat . guys is that james drawing 🤯..!
anyways i am ignornf my arthritis pain bc um princes ocs better 😛 ok so liek yay i like casisus a lot hes so goat or whatever u youngins sau nowadays ,, im now realizing some mistakes but guys I have no spoons \(//∇//)\
They know me as the rizzler or whatever anyways .. this is @dervampireprince’s oc …
I’m very nervous to show this so I may delete in fear tee hee ,, im shy guys (・・?)
( — 🍀 and 🦴 are front ,, drawn by 🦴! )
#SUPPORT ME ON TWITTER !! @/totghostly#queer#queer artist#trans#trans artist#transmasc artist#disabled artist#oc art#not my oc !!#artwork#original art#art#artists on tumblr#my art#digital art#crippled artist#commisions open#taking commisions#mdni#im so nervous to post this#send help im shy#PLS#like pls#like for a smooch!!#i don’t know how to tag this#how to tag#please ignore how I messed up on the front side .. pretend the jacket is there#he’s smug guys I don’t know how to do expressions..#autistic artist
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"We can get through this by working together, reach out to your friends, community is all we have, a social network will be your security in the world, now is the time to lean on others!"
I do agree, and it's scientifically sound (pretty sure there is data about how people with better social networks live longer and etc) but also....augh..... what about the severe social issues, difficulty to leave the house, physical issues which lead to like zero socialization energy a majority of the time, etc. etc. Social support can be a replacement for structural support, but.. I guess I just wish it didn't have to be. Community is extremely difficult to build, even moreso if you're someone who has issues with social cues or group conversations or even just being around others in the first place. And blah, nuance, of course I'm just complaining or maybe being too negative or maybe misunderstanding, but, I hardly have the energy to brush my hair once every 2 months.. how am I supposed to maintain a wide social network and be active in a Community and Join Groups lol... sometimes it kind of feels like "er.. well if thats my only option then...... ruh roh". It's overwhelming
#Kind of like some post I saw a long time ago talking about how even the meanest shittiest most difficult to get along with#elderly people or whaever still deserve to have some sort of systems in place to support them so they're not just relying on the#grace of relatives or etc. who may not be able to deal with them. Not saying that I'm like mean and cruel or anything#but the fact of the matter is in most social situations either I am compromising or the other person is. Not in like an ~`ouuu im so weirdd#nobody willever understand my quirky swagg hee heee~' way but like a.. Just factually the things that make me happy and comfortable#are often incompatible with people. The way I communicate and process things is different from the way other people do and that#is always a barrier. I cannot have ''easy''' interactions. Even with 'understanding' people there is nearly always a significant#amount of effort. You can't walk into a group of people and then be like ''okay you guys all have to wear#masks and you also cant play music too loud and also we should communicate turns of speaking very clearly so group conversations#arent too stressful. and also i need this and that and we have to do this and that and '' etc. etc. You CAN. And some people will#go along with that. but they will ALWAYS secretly resent you for it. You will be the one person they're relieved to not have to be around.#theyre glad when you dont show up since they can go back to doing things however they want and not masking and all these boring#annoying things. OR you can say none of that and just deal with the loud music and the talking and the unmasked people. but then#YOU'RE compromising. and no matter how nice they are it's exhausting to be around and youre just further alienated#while in the presence of people and uncofmrtoabel the whole time.#Which I'm not saying the only form of community is a group setting specificially but just giving that as an example lol#I just wish there were a better option than ''well learn to socialize normally or just suffer then'' . Which I know is not what people are#saying. I guess I just always feel a bit scared when 'community is the answer'. Since its not like 'oh im just socially anxious and need to#get out of my shell~!' or something thats really that remedy-able. It's like.. my mostly unchangeable physical health issues combined#with the mostly unchangable literal way that my brain processes sensory informationand other things means that interacting with#others in a normal and easy way is incredibly difficult and often exhausting especially to maintain in any longform fashion. So then#when it's like ''the answer to staying safe is to maintain longform social connections!! :3 just reach out!!'' then.. ermm... O_O#also I'm not even one of the cutesy shy emotional hermits that's nervous. I'm the Bad Stereotype emotionless robotic cold seeming#looms in the corner of the room type of thing so people have less pity on you in that way. -_- ANYWAY gghj#I need like.. a designated social representative or something.. When I did work in that bookshop forever ago they gave me a#person who basically was just with me to help communicate with others on my behalf and supervise me and stuff. I need that.. Some#more extraverted person I can latch onto and they can maintain the Social Support Network for me and I can just be their +1 to all#of the Social Things and community. I have helpful skills I can contribute to other people and stuff it's just like.. I cant socialize lol#I cook food or something for you.. then you keep me in contact with Community.. a deal. (but then what about when I'm too sick to#contribute? as is often the case. there's not much place for people like me in communities sometimes i fear.. sigh.) ***
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the nervouserrr <- guy who is going to london a few days after he gets back from america
#i am always a nervous beast to be honest. but london scary#ive already opted not to take my wheelchair because actually what if they all hate me. and also because im scared of needing help#what if i cant manage it and i need someone to push me? its not hard but its embarrassing and noone wants to do that#and theyd hate me. but i am also so scared theyll hate me for literally everything . im still gonna have my walker what if im too slow#or take up too much space or im too tired or dont wanna go somewhere with them and then they hate me#and i thought id be on PIP by now and im not so i wont have a tonne of money#scared frightened scared#and then theres the possibility of anything like ireland trip happening . which ive reduced by booking my own room but still#also im gonna need to take a vial of insulin and mounjaro thus also needles and gonna need a fridge#and ive never met up with these guys before. scared scared scared#i worry if they hate me online what if they do irl. what if im too ugly and annoying :(#delete later
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Wish me luck that the interview goes well, that the people are chill and i dont feel superduper dysphoric the whole time 🥺
#like i said im not sure i want the job but i do want this to be bearable#this is the first interview i have as a guy so i hope it works out fine and they dont misgender me and shit#especially cause i cant find my fucking binder since the move (its not lost think it probably ended up in one of my bags of clothes to sort#i mean its not like it makes that much of a difference in my appearance but it would feel different yknow#then again i already struggle with breathing when anxious and the binder wouldnt help that#anywayyy im nervous af and i just hope i do well!!!#mine
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You're doing so well! Woohoo! Keep going! Keep writing! You can do it! <3
Wahhhhh thank you 🥺💕
#asks#writing has been really fun but. its also made me nervous since im so new at it#the support you guys have been giving me genuinely helps so much
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scare the hoes more and keep yapping about ekky (& others) getting used to maffhew, it delights me. and say even more about how sasha handles this feral and sweet omega that gets dropped into his orbit. smth smth “feels like i’ve known him 10 years” or whatever vows sasha recited to the press, cameras, and god

apparently we are taking more tumblr user ratatatastic abo yap thoughts for 500 may god hear our screams up wherever he is. big man in the sky you fuckin owe me one.
i think theres so much in particular to say in concerns of 1619 and how quickly they gelled irl but even more so in an abo au
ive always enjoyed when people assign matthew stronger scents that take getting used to if you don't like it already and i know ive read a fic where his scent notes did skew towards stronger cinnamon foods/drinks
anyways on that note it wouldnt surprise me that sasha takes so easy to this spicy little omega.
Like of course he does, he smells like the pastries he used to eat back at home, the pastries he eats now because he's found an established Finnish bakery down here that makes them homemade every morning, the bakery he likes to frequent with the other Finns when he can.
Is it ever a wonder that the cute omega that sent him such a terribly sweet text when the trade news broke out (you know, after the initial excitement worn off because Sasha does chuckle at memory of the brash "Fucking, right!" that pinged on his phone the very first time from an unknown number) smells like... home... No matter all the rumours that have swirled around Matthew, the rumours Sasha has personally experienced himself playing against him...he smells nostalgic. Like Sasha could be at home right now—you know, home home—lounging outside his cottage with tea and pastries on the little table that he's set out. The warm cinnamon that wafts from the typically sterile room they've assigned for pressers smells divine, for lack of a better word. It smells indulgent. Because Sasha can't have those homely pastries all the time, what, with his training regiment.
It's why he doesn't quite believe it that Matthew's the one that's the centre of it all. He's absolutely convinced he's hallucinating because the season is about to start and he's had to cut back on all his favourite sweets as much as it pains him to but for the betterment of the team? He'd do anything. And yet despite the way he rubs at his nose to at least try to clear it, he smells that cinnamon. That cinnamon that's definitely coming from new omega they traded over who's laughing so obnoxiously at the lectern they have set up that if his scent didn't catch your attention, his loud mannerisms certainly did. His voice is practically bouncing off the walls in big loud echoes that should hurt Sasha’s ears. Emphasis on should. As it is he finds his heart melting more than it should instead.
It's been quite a long time since someone's scent has moved him this much. All the people that have, have been in his life for so long he's forgotten what it's like to feel instant scent compatibility. His nostrils are flaring and he's trying his best not to open his mouth to huff in big gulps of it because it's rather impolite to be so obviously scenting the new guy. It could be misconstrued as Sasha taking offence to the new presence in the room.
Some part of his brain is still trying to catch up to the idea that Matthew even smells at all because the first time he met him (down here for some joint offseason ice-time) he didn't particularly smell like much, if at all really. Whether it's because he put on blockers to not intrude on pack territory until he smelled more like them, or he was still on suppressants even in the summer, Sasha wasn't sure and he definitely wasn't going to ask about it.
Known him for 10 years? He feels like he's known him his whole life. But 10's a safe number, 10's a number that won't scare off this new omega, right? 10's a number that conveys "As Captain I want this to work out, I'm opening up my pack for you, I won't shun you, you're welcome here," and not "If I stick my nose in your neck right now to scent you, they're gonna have to forcibly evict me from the new home I've found in you, and it's not gonna be a pretty outcome."
It's also why he's a little nervous when Media Day is over because despite how much it dragged along in years past it practically blitzed by and now Sasha has to—
You know, properly scent the new addition. Give them the purring acceptance of their Pack leader's scent to carry with them. And it's nothing big, it's just some chaste wrist rubbing... something subtle and not too overwhelming for everyone: the pack, and the newcomer alike. It's not like Sasha is going to mouth at Matthew's neck glands. He doesn't think he can even handle that right now but that's a problem for future Sasha—for when Matthew is really part of the pack and not like a goldfish in a plastic bag being dunked into an aquarium to get used to the water temperature. He just has to rub his wrist against his, it's like basic Alpha etiquette. It'll be fine, mostly. He hopes.
And it's as anticlimactic as he thought it'd be: gentle reintroductions and reignited chatter of excitement about the new season that's about to start... maybe just with the new lingering scent of sweet and spice in the background as if someone lit up a candle without Sasha even noticing it. It's a struggle to keep his eyes from closing from how heavy they feel, from how relaxed he feels in the presence of this new omega he knows has pissed him off on several occasions as composed as he was about it.
Matthew presents his wrist in a flourish successfully managing to divert his attention back to what they're supposed to be doing all alone like this in the dressing room like this, "I'm sure you've been dying to do this huh, Cap?"
Sweat starts to break out at the back of his neck. He knows? Sasha doesn't think he's been sending off any signals that could've hinted otherwise but Sasha admits that he's well out of practise, he hasn't had to reign in his scent this much in such a long time, and maybe Matthew picked up his weird fixation—
Matthew waggles his eyebrows for extra effect an offbeat later when the joke doesn't seem to land the way he wanted it to.
Oh, thank Christ, he's just teasing him. It's a joke. He doesn't actually mean it in the way Sasha thought he meant.
"Yes. Yes, I have," Sasha chuckles in relief, shaking his head at Matthew's attempt to lighten the mood.
"10 years, or so I've heard, bud."
"You heard? Uh, listened to the..." he trails off.
"Kinda hard not to when the setup made it sound like you were in the middle of the Earth, my guy. I don't think my ears are ever gonna recover from that."
"It's the first day for everyone," Sasha lightly chastises, not particularly aggrieved at all but wanting to keep up the banter to stall for time, so he can prepare himself. Quite honestly he feels like travelled back in time to the young anxious Alpha he was breaking out into the league for the first time.
"Be gentle, I bruise easily."
"Right, gentle. I'll treat you better than my clothes on the delicate cycle."
"Is that supposed to be a line?" Matthew says in glee, his voice pitching into incredulity.
"Line like fishing?"
"Oh, come on! You know what I'm talking about! You've been in this country long enough to pick up on that!"
"Yes, yes, that."
Matthew shoves at his shoulder playfully. "Just go on and do the thing already."
"Doing the thing."
Matthew snorts but his wrist is limp in Sasha’s hold. And as much as it was a dumb joke he does feel delicate between his fingers like that. So delicate that when he rubs his own wrist against his—to transfer over their pack scent—he feels like he's going to break it if he holds onto it for too long. It's why he drops it as quick as he took it, hands scrambling to his sides in an effort to remain polite but also to get a handle on himself so his pheromones don't go haywire with the new stimulus. It's a bit of a losing battle because he knows his scent just. But he can play it off as the excitement of an Alpha being able to claim another member to his pack, it's a possessive kind of thing.
"Well, see you around! Call it a hunch but I have a feeling we'll be seeing more of each other." And the joke wasn't funny the first time, truly the equivalent of leaning on the office fax machine and going "You come here often?" to your coworkers who just want to get their work done—and just as sleazy too with the greasy grin Matthew has permanently stuck to his face but Sasha still laughs like he did the first time he heard it.
And it's only now that Matthew is gone that Sasha realises the room smells strongly of cinnamon, so potent that anyone with a working nose would be able to tell that. Like Matthew was doing his best to ease Sasha’s obvious nerves when Sasha should've been the one to calm the omega who's been uprooted from their own pack and thrown into a completely new environment, himself.
"Jesus, it reeks in here. Smells like cinnamon," Aaron wrinkles his nose, wandering back in after his own media duties were done, finding Sasha all alone in the locker rooms.
"It does?" Like he can't tell the room smells like the equivalent of someone knocking over a Yankee Candle into an open fire.
"Yeah, like an awful lot." Aaron scrunching up his nose, trying to fight off an incoming sneeze. "It's strong," he says without thinking, swallows before his eyes shift over to Sasha and then to the floor, "Not bad just... strong..." The I can get used to it is left unspoken between them.
"I like it," Sasha admits because if Aaron is confessing to things without thinking then he might as well too. They've known each other long enough.
"I can tell." Aaron snorts, "You reek too."
Sasha lets out a questioning little noise, tilts his head to the side as he silently urges Aaron to continue.
"You have no idea what cinnamon and cardamom smell like together, do you? I feel like I walked into a bakery when I should be at the gym right now."
"Is that bad?"
"For you? No, of course not," Aaron's eyes soften, and while his scent wasn't anywhere close to abrasive, it does lighten up just a tad bit in the presence of his pack Alpha. "For me? I'd rather dunk my head in a bucket of coffee beans." A bit of an exaggeration on Aaron's part but the wry grin he has on really adds to the fact he's just joking—just a little, maybe there's some truth hidden in there. He knows how Aaron is, the way he tries to downplay anytime he bristles about something. Peace and vibes, and all that.
So Sasha can joke as well, "Forsy's stall is over there," and motions his head towards it across the room.
"Oh, hilarious."
"If I was funny I would say jock."
"You know, what? I think I will hit the gym today, thanks for reminding me."
"Mmm, anytime." And when Aaron's half out the door he adds, "Ask the staff where they put the jerseys we used today!"
"I'm going! To the gym!" he echoes back, not bothering to turn around as he shuffles down the hall in a hurry, and decidedly not going in the direction of the gym. It's not surprising when he hears chatter pick up and shoes scuffing briskly into the direction of the laundry rooms.
#ask#instead of actually writing the things i wanted to get done i did this instead thanks guys#not to “controversially new hot younger girlfriend” maffhew but im gonna#timeline here doesnt make sense like quote wise so like you know#chat... matthew was not joking when he said well be seeing more of each other#he was fully intending to sit on that knot the first time he saw sasha#sasha is just dumb#god can you just imagine the ways in which maffhew would drive this nice polite alpha absolutely insane#can you imagine the way sasha accidently brushes his hand across the back of his neck because hes trying to wrap an arm around his shoulder#in camaraderie and sasha is so apologetic about it because dynamic classes in finland are intense and hes so remorseful about it#and then in the midst of all that maffhew just turns into this little purr machine and sasha is like oh i think i touched a button i should#not have touched at all oh god oh fuck#and maffhews like mmm? whyd you stop#pan to sasha silently freaking out#not to say sasha doesnt enjoy scruffing his omegas because they love it but he hasnt met one who enjoys it as much as maffhew does#and it kinda fucks him up#also speaking to ekky getting used to maffhews scent like oh boy i can see sooooo many ways that can go down like maffhew is respectful#of ekkys boundaries but also at some point ekky has had enough time to mope and for lack of a better word he does need to grow up#which is why maffhew starts off subtly you know standing on the dman side of the lockers for a few minutes. chatting up the guys over there#before ekky walks in you know leave a ghost of his scent around. its not strong and its not offensive but it certainly is there#eventually he just full on starts chucking his dirty socks at ekky after games#going oops sorry missed the bin didnt mean to snipe you (he absolutely did. he gets extra points if he hits ekkys face!)#sometimes a stray jersey too. if he really wants to make ekky mad he will just slingshot his biohazard-in-training-jock over.#i also think when ekky gets the yips when he starts pacing a little harder than usual when his chuckles turn a little too nervous#maffhew has enough and just like a worried hen of a men just manhandles ekky around in his arms and shoves at him till he puts his nose#in his neck and ekkys arguing the whole time like this isnt necessary im fine-#and matthews like right im sure thats why your teeth are chattering worse than a fucking woodchipper eh?#ekky cant really reply to that and maffhew tells him to just shut up and start sniffing#and it does help and he hates that he admits maffhew was right that he just needed to be clucked over by another omega#opening yapdoras box the lot of you. utterly awful. I HAVE THINGS TO DOOOOOOOOOOOO
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hi hi hi! lapperdoodlelikesurart here! I LOVE when artists become self indulgent so fuckin much. it’s so fun!! You get to create whatever the hell you want! Draw whatever you want too! Draw yourself kissing characters or characters kissing characters—doesn’t matter! If you wanna draw robots MAKE YA ROBOTS! ITS FUN!!!
If it makes you happy, then create it! This is no one’s world—this here blog just happens to be yours! And what are your rules?? WHATEVER YOU WANT BUD LETS GOOOOOO
go crazy. Thats all. Also I still love your art, makes me want to binge puppet media. Always will love your art. Even if I don’t know whose bein’ drawn, you should draw to your heart’s content, I came here for your art not someone else’s media
LOVE, LAPPERDOODLELIKESURART!

OH MY GOODNESS THIS IS. SO SWEET EVERYONES BEING SO NICE TONIGHT THIS IS CRAZY IM SAVING THIS ASK FOREVER 💗💗💗💥💥💥
THANK YOU SO MUCH I FEEL SO GIDDY I CANT STOP SMILING YOU GUYS ARE SO NICE
#im sobbing and crying and rolling around on the floor#THIS MAKES ME FEEL SO HAPPY I ALWAYS GET NERVOUS ABOUT BEING SELF INDULGENT THIS MAKES ME FEEL SO MUCH BETTER#why is everyone so nice ITS LIKE 1AM AND I FEEL ALL INSPIRED NOW HELP#you guys are all so sweet i love the internet so much sometimes spinning everyone around big awesome circle
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levyfox
#maru doodles#ptn#path to nowhere#ptn fanart#path to nowhere fanart#ptn levy#ptn mr fox#hey guys im having finals these 2 days and in july and i was bored last night and also nervous so i drew these#that was a long tag sorry LMAO#im also not drawing tonight because im sleep deprived from drawing these last night and i have another exam tmrw so#enjoy!!!!!!#im so levyfox pilled rn i might DIE please help#also i swear as much as i think my art is sweet i really feel like im violating them by committing ooc crimes sorry guys but they are heali
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not me curling my laptop charger wire the way you curl band equipment cords HAHAHA god i miss it
#i really said “okay big performance in the city square let's make this work” and i did but absolute fuckery of the manager just made me...#and she also used to complain about being an opening act-- like come on that's a nationally-renowned band and we're not there yet 😭#we used to fight a lot though so ack i really should have taken that as a red flag#but i was 14 and stupid 🤷♂️#being solo way better uM i shouldn't say this yet but i got a commission today audhauagah i don't even have a portfolio#fuck guys i'm so so so nervous from big changes in life because uM god i just came from actual hell with various things working to make me#kms#but uH we're uH not too keen on that anymore atm and uH it's probably going to all fuck up after i share that i have good news in life#but yk what#let's keep challenging god#i know he hates me#but we will not be defeated we will strangle him by the tie#AHHHH help me i want to get into music again pls pls pls pls pls#anyway back to my old band manager#she was known for being a shitwad in the scene anyw but i was young and stupid as i sais#and i defended her and rationalized her behavior because “we're friends right”#i'm starting to get why my mom is wary of people i get to know#i'm tbh a fucking idiot i would never admit that elsewhere (nah i do) uM my brain is bouncing off the walls#i took a bargain with 7pm coffee and look where it got me#i was also getting up there in my 5 days of uni absences agsgshags#DOES ANYONE ACTUALLY READ THESE I KINDA HOPE NOW NO ONE DOES#IM KINDA UHHH MY CHILD THERAPIST SAID UNCONVENTIONAL#I THINK SHE MEANT FUCKING CRAZY#sorry#oh yeah i walked tf out the band after that big performance set up just for us because i couldn't keep working with that kind of environment#other bands started flocking to recruit or proxy after i was let go by my famously fucked-up ex-manager LOL#but um i have issues so i'm not among them and i think they get the message tbh#appears and disappears#that is actually my brand
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i really need to talk to my doctor about trying out a mood stabilizer my bipolar has been driving me fucking nuts lately
#im in my manic era iif you guys couldnt tell.#and jesus christ the mood swings are killing me#top of the world happy laallalala immediately to worst misery ive ever felt. and then back up again.#and not sleeping is Not Helping. i did the classic 6am to 1pm gambit and im exhausted#ive got my disability medical review tomorrow too so i need to rest up for that...... bleh.#i havent left the house in like a month so im nervous about that but whatever. if im neurotic that just shows them more reason to give me#money. you dont want me loose on the streets.
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