#im so full of emotions rn

[iftitah]

talked to school bestie 2 hours on phone god im out of breath with my chest hurting but it so worth the talk

[halevren]

*sobbing, overwhelmed with emotions* hoot growl... hoot growl... hoot growl...

[pickled-flowers]

Went to Afro Drag tonight and hhhh no words 10/10 the energy was soooo good, everyone was very nice and I danced with strangers and my God some nights you really remember why it is you get to live

[bkgbstard]

i just read the most heartbreaking bkdk fic Ever and i feel like throwing up. i legit feel so sick

[ivoryratdoggerythethird]

reading dazai, chuuya, age fifteen for the finally and now i'm just mad i didn't read it earlier like

first of all why does this have the best first chapter of all time ever like this french waiter lookin ass nameless grunt looks like he smakes cigars and shotguns with hiroutsu tell me i'm wrong you can't

and chuuya chuuya chuuya chuuya chUUYA OH MY BELOVED i am suddenly personally connected with dazai on a spiritual level because i too would become obsessed with this dude if he stomped on my face. i'm already obsessed without him stomping on my face.

ALSO WHY DOES NO ONE TALK ABOUT THIS WHY IS THE ENTIRE FANDOM SLEEPING ON THESE PANELS

"what's wrong? i'm just on my tippy toes" chuuya sweetie i am going to go fucking FERAL

ballerina chuuya agenda real

also

everyone else go home like i'm sorry i really am. kunikida babe i love you with a gun dazai you look good with one too tachihara you're my baby but like none of you ever use bullets again please your fully grown asses are embarrassing once i've met fifteen year old chuuya catching bullets in his mouth and blowing back a literal kiss of death back at you like look at his hand at the end there, i'm losing my mind

[wizardnuke]

this is a lighthearted little informational about parasomnias (disruptive sleep-related disorders) that happen when you're falling asleep/waking up. because some of the tags on my exploding head syndrome poll are blowing my mind. more than the ehs does. i am not a doctor i am just parasomnias georg.

hypnagogic/hypnapompic hallucinations are hallucinations that happen when you're falling asleep/waking up. they can be visual, tactile, or auditory. i most often experience auditory hallucinations, and i hear footsteps and indistinct voices. a lot of people hear someone calling their name. when i was little, i had tactile hallucinations that felt like someone was touching/holding my hand. 70% of people experience hypnic hallucinations at least once, plenty of people experience them regularly, and they're completely harmless and they're also not a warning sign that you have or will develop any mental illnesses that involve hallucinations/psychosis.

hypnic jerks are that falling sensation you get as you're falling asleep. we know this one. it's harmless.

exploding head syndrome (or episodic sensory cranial shocks, which doesn't sound any better) happens when you hear a very loud sound (banging, crashing, gunshots, etc) as you're falling asleep/waking up. some people also experience visual/sensory effects (flashing lights or a popping sensation) with it. they're uncommon but once again, completely harmless despite the whole "feels like brain exploded" thing. ive recently learned that a lot of people only hear a sound/see lights and don't have a corresponding popping sensation in their head, which i am jealous of.

ehs is not the same as hypnic hallucinations - hypnic hallucinations can absolutely be startling/scary, but they don't have a jumpscare factor. if you hear someone whisper your name and it kind of wakes you up, that's a hypnic hallucination. if you hear someone scream your name and it makes you startle awake kind of like you would with a hypnic jerk, that's ehs.

hypnic hallucinations, hypnic jerks, and ehs are all exacerbated by stress, a lack of sleep, and medication use. i 100% have them more often when i'm stressed/overtired, and fairly recently i managed to triple-threat myself by starting a new medication and had like ten instances of hypnic jerks/ehs in one night. but that's okay! the brain does weird things when you're stressed and tired, and it often continues to do weird things even when you're not stressed and/or tired just because that in-between sleep/wake state is a weird liminal zone for your brain and sometimes it sets off the wrong signals. they're not a sign of underlying mental or physical illnesses! of course talk to a doc if your symptoms are concerning or getting in the way of sleeping, but. yeah. it's all good!

[infizero]

im feeling like. patriotic about splatoon right now. anyone else feeling like that

[iamtheoneandonlyever]

OKAY so this is the alley rose byler analysis, here you go!

Btw this is purely from will's pov :)

I picked you up from the corner store

Your eyes were red and your lips were torn

So much to say, that's subject sore

So much you'd change since you were born

You wrapped your fingers around my neck

And pulled me into your desperate breath

The way you kissed me hot and fast

I knew it'd be the last

Okay i imagine this to be the post vecna defeat, right after they win. And we get the ✨️post-war suspense kiss✨️ bc just let me, okay?

You told me "I'm just so nervous, dear"

Well, how the hell do you think I feel?

I waited all year at your feet

Like maybe you'd love me

Imagining this to be the season 4 airport scene bc mike was so nervous there, no straight boy is hesitant to hug his best friend of a decade. Also Will pining for Mike for a whole year.

And I don't even care if it makes me sound insane

I ran my fingers through your hair

And I thanked God to touch the flame

'Cause I swore necks were made for bruising

I swore lips were made for lies

And I thought if you'd ever leave me, that I'd be the reason why

Definitely Will being sappy and in love post getting together while also being insecure bc he thinks he can't have good things in his life.

And I don't even care if it's just a summer fling

If it's all experimental and you go back to safer things

But I swore hands were made for fighting

I swore eyes were made to cry

But you're the first person that I've seen who's proven that might be a lie, so

Again, Will being insecure about having things for himself and thinking Mike could still very much go back to 'safer things' *cough cough* heteronormativity *cough cough*

And also, Will being abused by Lonnie mention, but they last three lines? Its definitely a metaphor for his abuse and also all the upside down stuff goung down, while Mike beung the only one who nakes him feel safe and NOT A MISTAKE

Don't leave me hangin' alone again

I thought that i was your only friend

Oh, where'd you go, go?

Alley Rose

Oh, where'd you go, go, go?

This is the chorus which is repeating multiple times so I didn't mention it above. Everywhere i can see it as season 3 and season 4 pining bc Alley Rose (Mike) is gone.

AND THAT'S IT

God i hate them so much (affectionate)

They literally make me so sick

Anyway, conan is a byler and byler is endgame. Amen

[fredmundo]

all of us @ bi buck being canon

[krisseratops]

HE'S BAAAAAAACK!!!!!!

HOLY FUCKING SHIT

🤍🖤🤍

[clowningcrows]

i fear i cannot mentally or emotionally handle being conscious much longer so im gonna take a melatonin and hope to god it works enough to make me pass out by 8:30 tbh

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[chipjrwibignaturals]

no matter what they could NEVER make me hate you (season 8)

[critterbutt]

fuck man. cirrus has been clouding my thoughts nonstop and it's starting to influence what media i consume

[bunnyboy-juice]

blah blah blah blah blah

[pacdevil]

the desire to want to walk around my own home in just pants and underwear (no bra) is so overwhelming. i shouldn't need to have a flat chest to be able to do this....