#im rambling and insane but i need to say this i remembered why i was so attracted to her at age 16

[peanutalergy]

Mr. Winston - SR x reader

The BAU doesn't really need your help with the case. Spencer does. tags: post prison! spencer, fem! child psychologist! reader. cm type violence (blood, murder, etc), traumatized child. pre-relationship yearning MAYBE ? maybe fluff also sorry i still don't know how to classify these things. the synopsis doesn't really make any sense because this is kinda spencer's pov but idk guys sorry im really tired. w/c: 1.5k (this was originally 5.4k words but then i reread it and found that i actually hated every single one of them so...) a/n: okay so wow... i had so much fun writing this (let's ignore most of my posts from the past two weeks) THE THING IS i sorta already had a pt2 to this but then i thought well we can't have that without the beginning so i did kinda write this in a rush im really sorry that it's so short and shitty. . . ALSO i really love this reader & i'd love to write more of her but if you don't like it then i don't like it either and i'll never write again if you tell me not to. i do not think this is good by any means. i do hate it but if i stared at the google docs page for any longer i'd go insane.

Spencer doesn’t treat her like she’s made of porcelain because she’d be easily broken (though, she would, but neither of you say that since you can tell how hard she tried to look strong before coming to the precinct). He treats her like she’s fragile because he can’t remember the last time he didn’t break something like this — wide-eyed and shaking, holding onto something soft like it’s the only real thing around.

He was the one who convinced the team to ask for your help when the kid got involved — he always is. They insisted it wasn’t needed, you can deal with her yourself, you’ve always been good with children, or whatever, but your office got a call from him anyway.

No one knows why he sticks around. Maybe it’s the way you hold her; the gentle hand that runs through her hair, much warmer than the tiny fingers with chewed off nails and blood stains. Maybe he’s trying to memorize the tone of your voice — soft and sweeter than the apple juice she didn’t open, rambling about the silliest things you can think of — to imitate it next time he finds himself having to question kids. Maybe it’s the teacup in your other hand (the one he made you) and the way you so casually sip from it. As if this delicacy came to you as easily as taking a breath, while he struggled even with breathing.

Either way, despite his hesitance, he’s always sure to be around if you’re working on a case with them. Watching from the corner in a way that might have seemed creepy if only you didn’t smile so often back at him.

Amelia Murphy, 6 years old.

She sits at the end of the couch, legs tucked up to her chest like she’s trying to make herself as small as a crumb on the untouched sandwich going stale by her side. Spencer stands at the edge of the room, a smile threatening to peek through as he listens to your stories about the stuffed animals on your bed.

“You can’t tell any of his buddies, okay?” she nods, small but enough for you, “Mr. Winston is my favorite teddy out of all the ones I have.”

“Why?” You and the agent have to hide a surprised expression at the sound of her quiet voice, ragged and hoarse, coming out for the first time tonight. 

“Because he’s been with me since I was very, very young.” You chuckle lightly, “I must’ve been around your age when my grandma gifted him to me.”

“How do you know my age?”

You look at Spencer. He takes that as an ask for help (it really wasn't) and moves before you can speak again, still as careful as possible as he sits on the armchair next to the couch and joins in on the conversation like you suggested to him so often. “We don’t, actually.” She doesn’t flinch like he feared she would, so he continues with a soft smile, “I’m sure my friend was just trying to say she was young, like you are.”

Amelia tilts her head, small brows furrowed as softly as she mutters, “Really?”

“Yeah.” He nods, “We don’t really know how old you are.”

“I’m… six.” Her fingers, miniature sized when compared to Spencer’s, struggle for a second before arranging into a six, “This much.”

You smile and pretend to write it down on your clipboard, “That’s a lot.”

He laughs in half disbelief, half joy when she asks, “Well, how old are you?”

“Do you want to guess?”

“Uhm…” Tiny hand scratching her chin, she examines him like she knows what she’s doing. He looks to you in pure confusion during the seconds she stays quiet. “A hundred?”

He holds back a snort, “Not quite, no. Do you wanna try again?”

During most of the time he talks to her, you stay quiet. He often looks to you, hesitating, asking for some sort of reassurance that he’s doing this right — you always give it to him with a barely there nod and a big smile.

Always, except for the moment he started talking about his job in almost too much detail when she prompted what are you?. Though, that time, he didn’t need your confirmation or denial to figure it out. All it took was a different knit to her eyebrows for him to go back into smaller than regular talking tone, from the bordering robotical lecturing mode.

“I wanna be a model when I grow up.”

“Oh, yeah?” you giggle breathily. Thankfully, she doesn’t take it as an offense like both of you thought she would. She just nods back at you with a proud smile. 

“And do you know what models do at their job?” Spencer inquires.

“They sit pretty in their pretty clothes for the people to watch,” the girl shrugs, speaking in the same way one would say the sky is blue. “Like her.”

He laughs when she points at you. “Being pretty isn’t all she does, though, Amelia. She’s not really a model.”

“She should be,” she whispers and you pretend you don’t hear it.

“Yeah, she should.”

He’s still careful even in the way he looks at her. Like she’d feel his cold hands if he said something too loud, too much. Every time she shows any sort of reluctance, he goes even softer — like he’d learned from uncountable hours of watching you do this over the years.

The very first time you met — interrogating an unsub’s daughter, before all of it happened. Before Mexico and Maeve and Gideon and Dilaudid and Emily. Before his jaw was screwed permanently clenched and his brain painted foggy. When he didn’t think of himself as a ticking time bomb and wasn’t scared of what he saw in the mirror.

Even when he didn’t feel this way about children as well as every other aspect of his life, he admired your work and yourself. So, it only makes sense (to him) that, when he sees himself as some sort of monster, you look like you’ve hung the moon and the stars even though the only thing you’ve ever been is yourself.

“And, uh, Amelia…” he mutters, pointing to the stuffed bunny in her hands, all love stains and frayed stitches, “Your friend over there. Does he have a name?”

She shakes her head, then spins it around to show the bow hidden on the back of its head, “She’s a girl.”

“Oh, yes, of course. I’m so sorry,” he laughs awkwardly.

“She doesn’t have a name.”

“Is there a reason for that, sweetie?” you ask as soon as there’s a pause from both of them.

He just watches with a grin while you work with her to find names for her teddy.

The markers were Spencer’s idea. He didn’t mean for it to be anything more than a way for her to express herself — you’d both been drawing animals and trees and numbers. Though, when her page became full of red scribbles and what seemed to be portraits of her parents, you realized she might have more to say.

“Who are those people, Amelia?”, he places a hand on her shoulder. She’s so focused on her tiny fingers wrapped around the marker, that she barely shows any reaction to him. When her bottom lip goes wobbly and her hands impossibly shakier, he takes away the paper with a “Okay, that’s enough.”

She fell asleep on his shoulder after half an hour of sobbing while telling what she remembered of the story.

He can’t help the warm feeling that floods his chest when you tell him, “You did a good job.” after getting as much as one can out of a kid who just witnessed her parents’ murder. His expression and words go against it, though. With a small shrug, he mumbles, “Oh, it was nothin–”

“No, don’t do that,” you cut him off, “You did really well.”

“You would’ve gotten her to say a lot more in a lot less time. It takes you an average of five minutes and for–”

“Shut up,” a giggle.

“Would you please stop cutting me off?”

“Not until you admit that you are actually still amazing with kids.”

He sighs. “How’s Mr. Winston?”

“No, no!” you slap his arm playfully, “You don’t get to change the subject by mocking me for my friends.”

“I’m not mocking you,” Spencer raises his arms in defense, a smile brightening his face. “I’m trying to get to know you and your friends better. I can’t do that anymore?”

“Not if you’re mean about it,” arms crossed over your chest and a half fake pout on your lips, you mutter.

“When was I mean?” he cocks his head to the side.

“I can tell from your tone of voice. It gets higher and weirder when you lie. You’re not the only one who knows about psychology here, buddy.”

He just shakes his head with a laugh. “I’m being serious. How are they doing?”

“Well, if you must know, they’re doing amazing.”

“I’m glad.”

It takes 43 (he counted) chimes of the clock on the wall for anyone to say something again. It’s him, in a whisper, “Do you really think she liked me?”

00:09 doctor reid genius guy

Amelia’s aunt just picked her up. She said her bunny was now named Mrs. Winston.

[darabeatha]

I F.UCKING LOVE MEN IN SUITS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[volfoss]

i cant even like post about the horrors that are going on currently because im gonna get too mad but oh my god. like i would give her really good credit for writing a character like marius that has 0 self awareness about his insanely disgusting behavior bc like. that CAN work. you can make the reader feel disgust and see things through the eyes of someone who is horrible while not romanticizing the behavior. clearly anne did not get the memo for this one.

[mutedeclipse]

Hot take: we collectively should portray pretty bomber as more insane.

Reason: shes really weird and deranged in the classic series i think her being a bit unhinged is more fun than being pink 2. R give you nothing have fun with it dont be afraid

[seraphicloves]

𝒚𝒐𝒖'𝒓𝒆 𝒃𝒆𝒆𝒇𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒂 𝒇𝒊𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒆𝒂𝒓 𝒐𝒍𝒅?

⊱✿⊰ summary: the overblot aftermath except yuu has my personality lmao

⊱✿⊰ warnings: book 2 spoilers, lowkey bullying leona (but nice), yuu is reader, fully self indulgent, fluffy tho, like a few refs to reader being small cuz im smaller than even ruggie so yeah. Thats like the only physical depictor i think

⊱✿⊰ notes: i had this dream last night and boom bam i made this. I think its preppy and also its lit ny personality and also leona is like 😍

your eyes slowly fluttered open, the bright fluorescents adding to the dull ache in your head. as your vision adjusted you realized you had quite a few people surrounding you. ace and deuce and jack and grim? what happened...?

"what happened?" you muttered out, sitting up in the...cot? you were in the infirmary but why? the last thing you could remember was playing the special round of spelldrive and grim mentioned something about a special move.

"at the beginning of the second half grim threw the disc at your noggin and knocked you out." ace answered barely concealing his snort, "don't you remember?"

"no i don't remember." you grumbled, narrowing your eyes in a glare. ace gave you an apologetic smile that you weren't sure held any real sorry in it.

"i was trying to aim for victory!" grim exclaimed, pumping his fist up. he smiled widely at you and plopped into your lap. despite your annoyance you curled your arms around him, letting him snuggle into your chest.

"you amateurs need to work on your throwing skill." jack replied with an eyeroll.

deuce quickly interjected with a gentle smile, hoping to ease any tensions that might appear. "i for one am glad you're awake! i was scared the hit did some real damage."

"true, you were asleep so long you even missed the closing ceremonies. they're taking everything down now." ace said, still trying not to laugh. evem through your annoyance you couldn't really blame him. it did sound kind of funny that you got hit by a disc because of grim's terrible throw.

"which dorm won?" you asked suddenly, words falling from your lips hurriedly, "how did savanaclaw do?"

even with leona being so underhanded you still wanted him to get what he wanted. he just wanted to feel like he was good enough, something you could relate to heavily. you hoped none of them could tell the way your face warmed with your rambles. maybe you could blame it on pain meds..if this place even had them.

suddenly that growly rumble of a voice filled your ears, leona saying, "diasomia won, unsurprisingly."

your eyes jumped to where leona was, him and ruggie in cots side by side. leona looked goregous, with his long hair still braided and a few bandages scattered across his dark tanned skin. you really ought to focus instead of fangirling over his looks like a silly school girl.

"there was nothing we could do to stop it." ruggie added with a sigh, looking slightly more healed now, "it didn't help that we took a beating from every other dorm before we got to them."

you winced sympathetically, unsurprised the other dorms had gotten their revenge out during the game. even still you felt bad, but perhaps that was your annoyingly empathetic heart talking.

"housewarden! ruggie!" jack exclaimed, turning his body around to see the others in their cots. you slowly sat up, ignoring your dizziness in favor of getting the chance of getting closer to leona. you are surely going insane, why were you wanting to comfort leona after everything he did? why were you wishing to kiss his hurt away in front of your friends no less.

leona tsked, his arms crossed over his hardened chest as he said, "being stuck in the infirmary for anything other than a mid-day nap is about as lame as it gets."

his eyes wandered over to you and you felt your body warm, self conscious about the way you look. you could feel that your hair was a bit tangled and your clothes were slightly frumpled, making you wish leona would suddenly forget you existed. did he think you look bad? you looked at your hands, trying to cease your racing heart.

"and what's worse? none of the diasomia kids ended up here." ruggie pouted, his ears flattening aganist the top of his head. you felt your lips quirk in amusement, finding the small boy's annoyance kinda cute. he reminded you of your friends from your world (though that thought suddenly made your heart feel heavy.)

ace nodded and started talking about the head of the diasomia dorm, apparently being a major powerhouse. you didn't doubt it, seeing as half the guys at this school were insanely large or annoyingly good at magic. they still scared you, seeing as you were neither of those things.

"with that attitude you're never going to beat them." jack said with his fist clenched, all good old determination, "i didn't beat them but i will next year! i'll do anything it takes."

"does 'anything' include your capacity for evil?" leona asked with a slightly malicious grin. you felt mildly deranged for wanting to kiss it off of his face.

"have you learned nothing?" you asked, fighting the urge to get closer. once his grin widened, deliciously evil glint in those pretty brown eyes you felt your resolve wavering.

so you did get a bit closer, sitting on the chair beside his cot. he didn't seem displeased with your proximity as he said, "i didn't realize this was an after school special."

you couldn't help the laugh that bubbled past your lips, eyes lighting up with amusement. he was insufferably wonderful. "i didn't realize you knew so much about those after-school specials."

ruggie interrupted with his infamous laugh, making you feel suddenly aware of the way you were sort of flirting with leona. you backed up and looked shyly away, grateful your friends didn't seem to notice the way you had been half tempted to settle your and leona's debate with kisses.

"there's the leona i know!" ruggie said, making jack roll his eyes. jack reminded you of captain america if he was part of the omegaverse, but the boy's brain might explode if you tried explaining that to him..

"i can already tell this won't end well." jack muttered with a slight shake of his head. you felt your lips curve into a grin at the same time as leona. even though you most definitely didn't want leona try to cheat his way to the top you also liked his...ambition. you were far gone.

deuce, ace, and grim chimed in talking about how they wanted to play in the tournament for real next year. a small part of yourself wondered if you'd still be around by next year or if crowley would have found a way home for you by then. then you quietly wondered whether you would return to your old life or stay in your new one.

suddenly a little boy with red hair bounced into the room, jumping onto leona without a care in the world. your eyes widened, surprised by the freaking kindergartener entering the infirmary. he was adorable and sort of reminded you of your younger cousins, who were all around his age.

"unca! there you are! i finally found you!" the child giggled, hugging up close to leona. leona looked shocked for a moment before his face relaxed to his usual pissed off look and he hugged the kid back.

"unca leona...?" jack mumbled, matching your confusion. all the boys seemed equally confused that this tiny person was calling leona uncle and cuddling up to him without getting beat into a pulp.

"this is cheka, my brother's son...my nephew." leona explained boredly, ruffing the boy's hair. your eyes widened, reeling at the sudden revelation.

"so this is the next in line for the throne." ruggie said in a low tone, amusement filling his expression. you were still shocked this adorable little baby was leona's nephew.

"unca! i saw you play, you were sooo cool!" cheka giggled, his hands tapping against leona's shoulder in a badly attempt at rhythm, "teach me how to play pleaseeeeee!"

"fine, fine just stop screaming in my ear." leona grumbled, plucking cheka off his body and putting him down. which made cheka notice everybody around, particularly you.

the tiny redhead ran to you, jumping onto your lap. he was very similar to your cuddly baby brother so it was easy to just wrap your arms around cheka and let him hug you. you giggled, amused by leona's nephew.

leona was about to protest, and you could have sworn you saw a light dusting of pink across his cheeks. it gave you the smallest glimmer of pride, close enough to the third year that you saw the tiniest details.

"so the source of all leona's anguish is..." jack began, struggling to understand what was happening. everybody was to be quite frank.

"this innocent angel." you finished for him, ruffling cheka's hair. cheka giggled and squirmed in your arms, eyes wide and happy as he looked at you.

"shuddap, all of you." leona grumbled, "stop gawking."

you grinned and couldn't help the way you decided to sit on his cot beside him. you were small enough that you could fit on the bed at his side. cheka seemed happy by this decision because he could now crawl freely between you both.

despite leona's annoyance, he wrapped his arms around your waist to prevent you from falling off the cot. ruggie raised his eyebrows in silent shock, probably surprised to see his big scary upperclassmen cuddle with the random girl who just appeared at the school.

cheka rambled incessantly, asking questions and talking to leona. cheka seemed to idolize leona, making you wonder if he realized that. does leona know how much cheka loves him?

ruggie was laughing like a maniac at the new side of leona they had all discovered, probably wanting to use this as blackmail. you did think it was funny, but it was also freaking adorable seeing leona so soft. leona nuzzled his face into your shoulder, glaring at the first and second years all laughing their heads off.

"are these your friends?" cheka asked, turning around to look at them all. then he looked back at you, "is she your girlfriend?"

"oh for sure. we're besties with leona." ace grinned, even happier when cheka asked about your relationship with leona. you felt your cheeks warm, lips opening to deny the assumption.

but leona didn't give you a chance as he grumbled, "i won't forget about this."

though the boys were still amused they decided to leave, laughing and talking about "unca leona". the older boy glowered, tightening his hold on your body. hell even ruggie left, feelinf well enough to leave the infirmary for a moment.

"you gonna marry her?" cheka asked, bouncing on leona's stomach. leona groaned and pulled the kid off of him, so he wasn't treating the third year like a jungle gym. cheka glanced at you and added, "what's your name?"

"my name is [name] but everybody calls me yuu." you said, ignoring his first question and especially ignoring the way your heart throb at the idea. it was silly, you were a teen and thinking about marrying leona.

leona also ignored the first question just mumbling out a quiet, "furball always trying to start stuff..."

suddenly cheka jumped up, hearing the voices of his attendants. the little redhead ran away as quickly as he came, probably going to cause more chaos. he really was lucky he was so adorable...and the fact he was a prince.

being alone with leona made you acutely aware of the way he was cuddling you. his arms wrapped around your waist and his tail curling around your shin. he was warm, his firm body pressed aganist your back in such a comforting way.

"i didn't say this earlier," he began, his low timbre full of the beginnings of sleepiness, "but im sorry for hurting you when i overblotted. i didn't mean for you to get involved."

you blinked with surprise, your heart stalling as a lump in your throat. maybe he really did feel remorse for what he did, the thought sending a flutter of excitement through your tummy.

slowly you turned so your front was against his, faces inches away. you were both laying down on the small cot, his strong arms keeping you steady and grounded.

with that delightful dizziness in your head, you leaned in and pressed a small kiss to the corner of his mouth. he froze, soft gasp of surprise falling from him. his arms tightened around you, squeezing the skin on your waist.

"its okay, leona. i'm not mad." you replied softly, gifting him your forgiveness like you were sent straight from god. not that you knew if he even had a god in his world. perhaps even without a god, you wondered if he knew how to worship one. if he might worship you like you were one.

lori © 2024. please don't copy, modify, or do anything weird with my writing! i like reblogs and comments but please be kind as this was my writing.

[sturniolo04]

Can you do one where Madison’s ex boyfriend leaks her nudes all over her school, and she refuses to go to school and Chris, Nick, or Matt have no idea why but she’s to embarrassed to tell them and she knows she’ll get in trouble

A/n:  ofc! I put a slight spin on it! I absolutely love these requests I have coming in, you guys are amazing!! I hope you love it! And remember to leave requests in my inbox! If you don’t like the pre added name in my works you can simply put in your own or don’t read it, it up to you :)-Charli

dividers: @issysh3ll

Madison had been in a relationship with this guys she was friend with at school and the triplets knew that relationship was a legit thing. What they didnt know was that relationship had a very sexual online presence. Meaning the secret photos he and madison where exchanging on snapchat were the thign they didnt know about.

It wasnt until madison had told them they had broken up because they had gotten into a heated arguement realizing that it was toxic to be in relationship where she had to argue with her partner was not in her best interest which is why she was currently single.

Madison didnt factor in how petty her ex would be about the decision until she recieved a text from one of her close friends.

"fuck fuck fuck fuck no no no no no no"

madison mumbles under her breath to herself in her room reading the text basically saying her nudes that she thought was only going to be for her ex's eyes at the time would remain in that long forgotten text thread. i guess not

"what am i going to do they are going to kill me"

she mumbles to herself now panicking. It was true she knew she would not only be in trouble with her dad Chris but also her uncles Matt and Nick if they knew she had sent those photos in the first place there was no way she could let them know that was the case.

"um why arent you at school"

nick questions seeing madison lounging at the island counter in the kitchen. They never really had to question why or when she needed to be at school because she had her own car thanks to Chris on her 18th birthday.

"um not feeling well"

she lies quickly grabbing her belongings and scurring off to her room before he asked her anymore questions.

"weird"

nick states to himself shrugging it off continuing to do whatever he was doing in the given moment. It wasnt two days later that chris and matt both notice her frequent habit at this point of missing school so they knew something was up.

"madison what i thought you were at school today"

chris asks as she comes downstairs still fully clothed in her pjs.

"um i just decided to come home early i did go just didnt stay"

she lied. yikes and to chris too

"okay but you have been home and "coming home early" for the last couple days mads whats up"

matt chimes in as she knew she would have to come clean she takes a deep breathe holding it.

"whats going with you"

chris asks her as she exhale exasperately.

"my fucking ex leaked my shit"

madison mumbles under breath trying not to confess it fully just yet.

"what are you saying"

matt chuckls out at the low volumed response.

"my ex he leaked my nudes"

madison blurts out growing insanely red on the face. Chris and matt take on a collect shock at the statement that left her mouth. They didnt know to be mad at her or mad at the boy becuase she trusted him or even be mad at both of them.

"um come again he did what"

chris asks again making sure he heard her right.

"he leaked my nudes dad and i know i shouldnt have taken them and sent them but i trusted him because we were best friends before we ever started dating and he promise me he would never do that im just so stupid that i believed him"

she rambles out nervously picking at her fingers.

"your not stupid just young"

matt sighs out as chris collects his emotions on the whole situation.

"im sorry"

madison mumbles out chris lets out a sigh.

"its okay we will talk to the school and see what we can do but you are grounded i hope you know that"

chris states not really having any other idea on how to give her a consequence for something that she did weeks ago.

"yeah i know"

madison sighs out turning on her heels heading to her room.

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[dysfunctional-doodle]

i keep saying it but dude you need to be lighter on yourself, like have you seen your art recently??? Youve improved a stupid amount like??? That leo pic??? DUDE. i wish you didnt delete your old work because i wanted to compare and show you what i mean

you said you started drawing like 3 ish years ago??? Bro this is insane, youre cranked. but take care of yourself too no one minds if you slow down! you have so many posts already

also can we see that Mikey design in your last pic as full art? It seems so cute THE FRECKLES

only when you get a break! you sound really tired and im worried sending my virtual hugs <3

(also you know warrior cats? i remember you wrote a fanfic idk if it’s still on your account. Ive been following your stuff for a LONG time lol and your writing is also dead ass better than the warrior cats books or most things I’ve read on a professional level. do you do anything professionally or commissions? or those warrior cats writing comps at least? or any writing comp? get some recognition im serious you have something here thats brilliant)

sorry for rambles annanakasjj

Thanks, though there’s definitely better artists than me out there! I keep doing it every day until one day I will be good enough lol which is a long time yet.

I am…existing right now that’s all I can say. Very busy, very unmotivated to do my work I didn’t want to do, it’s not good with someone with the attention span of a fish. Literally my schedule died so bad I now have my ‘daily’ meal at 1am, like what happened here 😭. So yeah everything with schedule is slow and I prioritise art commissions over blog updates, but thanks for understanding <3

You’ve been following my fanfics for a long time, wow. I haven’t done warrior cats shit since I was 16 or so at best, that fic is before that even. I am aware of warrior cats and do draw them as commissions yes, hence why sometimes cats float around my kofi lol.

And thanks for the kind words on my writing! I would love to make a career out of it but like, I just write fanfics man. I don’t offer fanfic commissions because I wouldn’t know how to do that, but if enough people are interested I can figure something out. I’m not fantastic in my opinion but it’s something I used to enjoy before I had to stop and everything just became so damn tiring

Maybe in summer I’ll be able to write something again and try and improve :) I have a lot of tmnt fics I want to explore that I’ve promised people but never done.

[lesbianardoo]

okay. the day the world broke theory time

so guess who just finished chapter 31

me. i finished chapter 31

so we all read about those four containment cells with the dimension z's IDENTICAL counterparts (the mutant mayhem turtles, most likely) i've seen a few comments on the chapter theorizing that our turtles, dimension z, are the clones. but i don't really think they're clones (this post will be so embarrassing if thay turns put to be the truth)

the 'phases' are what bring the other turtles (07, rise, 2012, etc) into dimension z, and i remember from an earlier chapter somebody mentioned how the 'phases' are TCRI attempting to fix their mistake. they'd tried to create a pocket dimension, or (i might be reaching) at least enter a very similar, almost identical reality.

now im going to be reaching here but, theory 1, it could be possible that right as the z turtles had left for the fast food place, the first phase had happened and that was when the mutant mayhem turtles entered dimension z. TCRI had expected to take the dimenzion z turtles (do i have any evidence to back this up? kinda.

in the steven's video logs about project blueberry, he says that it will initiated at 9:30, the EXACT time that the turtles had left for burger buster. because tcri already had sights set on the turtles, if they had their locations (as mentioned by steven), if they had arrived to detain the turtles, and the mutant mayhem counterparts are identical, well there it is

now, for a second i wanted to lead into the idea that the dimension z turtles were the secondaries. however, steven mentions 'the cue', which happened exactly a year before project blueberry was initiated. this leads me into my second theory, which is that the mutant mayhem turtles had somehow phased in exactly a year before. this would explain the containment cells- where would tcri have the resources to build these during the apocalypse?

if tcri already had the mutant mayhem turtles in their building, why would they need the 'primaries' locations?

if the mutant mayhem turtles had phased in a year before, it would have definitely given them the time to locate 4 identical turtles in their own dimension, and because the dimension z turtles are from tcri's own dimenaion, they would have been labeled the primaries.

tcri initiating project blueberry obviously went wrong. i don't have much to say on what dimension must have merged or been let into dimension z.

so, i don't think the mutant mayhem or dimension z turtles are clones of one or the other. however, i do thing it's possible that they are two very close, almost identical realities- one where there was a much larger mutagen event much longer before that caused the larger mutant population of dimension z, and one where that didnt happen at all and the only mutants are the turtles, the mutanimals, and the various mutants in mutant mayhem series tales of the tmnt and the game mutants unleashed.

the phasing bringing in the other turtles is likely tcri trying to bring the dimension z turtles closer to the mutant mayhem turtles, which is why the phases would stem out from the tcri building. obviously something must have gone wrong setting it up, or it's just because the mutant mayhem turtles don't belong to their dimension, but the phases bring in other turtles to our z turtles. it's likely that tcri thinks that bringing the two groups of turtles together could fix something.

do these theories have a MILLION plot holes? yes. how did the z turtles go missing for 4 months in what was only like 10 minutes for them? zero idea! how are the mutant mayhem turtles also not phasing in and out? no idea!

do i know what im talking about? 100% no. but this fic has me in a chokehold and i need to talk about it so..

okay hope you liked my ramble it's 6 am and ive been up since 5 this whole post will be so embarrassing if im super wrong

@saladmix you're actually insane and this fic is crazy

[june-rambles]

omg PLEASE elaborate on ocd emma bc like. you’re so right

HIII YESSS I WILL !! thank you for enabling my insanity several things, this might not just be ocd emma there is some highlight on just traumatized emma..

most of this stemmed from a fic i started where emma has a diary, and its very mental health focused. i might reference it a few times when its relevant.. also shameless promotion.. (one day i will finish it..)

and im looking at this through a lense of canon.. i have my own separate swanqueen + ocd emma thoughts but.. (also prepare for me inserting a lot of gifs by my favorite ouat gif makers 🙏🙏)

so with aspects of being the savior:

it begins with henry. i think of this quote,

shes not his mother. she can't be, she gave up that right when she gave him up. so she has to take on another role. she becomes his hero. she has to be someone he idolizes.

then august comes around and tells her shes the savior of the entire town. she didn't sign up for that, like she says. shes henry's savior. she's henry's hero. and now she has to be everyone's savior?

in that scene i kind of imagine her thinking, "why do i have to save everyone when no one was there to save me as a kid?"

with her taking on the role as the savior, she kind of starts to make it her whole identity. i dont think it was just a weird writing choice i think it does reflect a purposeful thing with her character. that she has an absence of identity. (because of growing up as a foster kid and all the times she's been abandoned in her life)

she really isn't given a choice with becoming the savior. once she breaks the curse, its pushed onto her, and she can't just leave henry so she kind of just has to deal with it. and then she slowly starts to accept it and internalize it.

because it becomes what every interaction is centered around. someone needs saved. she has to fight a villain. she needs to save someone. every interaction she has with anyone except henry is savior, savior, savior.

"IF I DON'T HELP PEOPLE, THEN WHO AM I?" and finally she has parents who are proud of her. which she has wanted her whole life,

to quote myself from another post of my emma ramblings,

because that IS all she wanted. all she wanted was her family and she had to put up with so much to have them. she overlooks all of her own trauma because in her mind its like, "Hey why am i complaining. i have a family". and NEVER speaks up for herself.

she can't really complain that her parents are putting her on this pedestal, because she has her parents now so she should just be grateful. (and to be fair she does get snappy with them at times but in my opinion shes eventually (like after season 2/3) starts repressing the years of anger at the people who "gave her up" unless shes really upset)

constantly, through out the entire show, her entire life is just savior, savior, savior, savior, savior-

its compulsive. do you get what i mean. its her routine and if she isn't the savior, she's the same person who gave up henry and ran away from everything. and she can't be that again. its so black and white to her. shes extreme with it.

she makes it her entire identity. i mean this goes on for 6 seasons.

and her fear of hurting people is another ocd trait, which is DEFINITELY SOMETHING HIGHLIGHTED IN THE SHOW:

the ingrid arc when shes convinced her powers are hurting people. so she runs into the woods and isolates herself. like she stays in that car for almost like a day i think? i could be remembering wrong. i know she atleast sleeps in there. she almost completely gets rid of her powers until at the last moment elsa talks her out of it.

she becomes the dark one (more on that further on) and, well, canon spells it out for me:

i think this is ALL SUMMED UP BY THE CONVERSATION HER AND INGRID HAVE

because ingrid wasn't just saying shit. this is emma's deepest worst fears. her truest thoughts.

oh and her relationships/friendships/partnerships reflect this too

magic has a price. i think she'd start believing that the price of being united with her family is being the savior. she stops questioning that putting her life on the line all the time is just what it takes for her to have a family.

i think she suffers a lot from not understand unconditional love. i think she'd imagine all these different expectations and condtions that people put on their love for her (like her parents). i dont include henry in that, i think thats the only person who she believes really loves her

excerpt from my fic, "This is the price of having a family. This is what I have to do to be enough."

and killian. oh, killian..

at first, its not love. but its something. and killain really likes her and maybe hes not so bad, so she gives him a chance and goes on a date with him.

the dark swan plot line happens and emma is now trying to balance her feelings for hook and being a mother and being a daughter and being a sister and being the savior and trying not to give into the darkness. but killian is there to support her if she lets her walls down, she can start to see a future with him. but then killian, the fucking idiot, gets himself fatally hurt. then he'll be gone. just like neal. and if she loses him, then its proof shes not supposed to be happy. if she loses him, then its her fault, she failed as the savior, and she can't lose her identity on top of losing him

it's horribly paradoxical in a way. she's the savior, so she has to save people. she has to save killian or she's failed being the savior, but to do so she has to give into the power. so she has to decide which is worse, losing him and losing her identity or risk losing her sanity and falling too deep into the darkness.

and so she does the very thing she swore not to do. the very thing everyone was afraid of happening. she fully gives into the power, into the darkness so she can save him. to save HIM.

to me its like, she promises to herself she'll make it up to them and she wont let them down after this. one last time. one last failure.

("How many times have you saved them? How often have you felt more like a savior than their daughter? And all it takes is one tiny mistake, one accident, and you and your powers go from being their salvation to their worst nightmare." - Ingrid)

and she takes everyones memories of everything that happened in camelot and she almost achieves it. but then hook gets his memories back and goes dark and curses her entire family. then everything she's been holding back for months kind of crumbles.

she resolutes it in her mind that theres only one solution; to sacrifice herself to stop killian and to save her family. shes the savior, after all, isn't that what shes supposed to do?

killian stops the curse by sacrificing himself. and then everyone else is grieving but moving on. but emma is stuck there. she can't move on because hook was supposed to be her future. he said it himself. and regina is with robin and her parents have her baby brother. everyone has purpose and she's just a failed, broken savior. shes just kind of stuck. so she thinks its hook. the answer has to be with hook. getting him back would fix everything.

excerpt from my fic, "My happy ending is gone and it seems like no one sees that. My happy ending was belonging. My happy ending was being loved. My happy ending was falling in love with someone who will love me back."

so she goes into the underworld. and i dont have anything really remarkable to say about underworld but heres these two things:

in the end, she gets killian back, but at what cost? robin died. she ruined regina's happy ending.

excerpt from my fic, "Everytime I choose myself, everytime I think it’s my turn for my happy ending, it’s at the sake of someone else's.

It’s either me or them. That’s the price I have to pay. That’s the price that magic demands."

season 6 doesn't really add anything specific that i haven't already put here. the only important thing is the therapy session between her and archie which i've mentioned already. if i have more thoughts i'll add to this later. but i am tired as hell so.. here. sorry if this is messy and entirely not cohesive.

sources for the transcript

(i say all of this with a person with highly suspected ocd but i had to cut off my old therapist before i could get the official diagnosis btw)

[storkmuffin]

hi!! im having so much fun reading your analysis posts! it's so funny because i remember talking to my roommate and saying "yunho seems so normal. he presents himself so normally, but then you remember that he became insta-friends with mingi." just because i don't think mingi has much of a filter (so i doubt a filter even existed when he was 14) and i think who a person keeps as their friends says a lot about them. also yunho spending all of his free time playing valorant. i don't know how much of a gamer you are, but I've grown up in these spaces and the friends I've made in them are ALWAYS the wildest, willing to try anything types. I try to put my puzzle pieces about yunho together from little things said by the rest of the members.

Also i completely agree with you about wooyoung and his masculinity. Shippers always put him in the more "feminine" role. I don't ship but I'm always like 😭 he is so insanely masc to me. The things he will do to win, the way he physically interacts with other members, etc. I do think a lot of the perception comes from white americans (I'm sure other groups too but I can only speak as an american surrounded by white american culture) because masculinity here is VERY unaffectionate and stoic.

Sorry about the rambling. This is all stuff I think about all the time. we have the exact same brand of "fangirling" i guess hahaha. I'm also new to the culture!! But I find it difficult to find people who want to discuss them in this way so I've been so excited reading your posts!!!

ABSOLUTELY THRILLED at the Wooyoung Is a Hypermasculine Alpha Actually thesis agreement!! He's very much a big bro too. After I got into Ateez I realized that Wooyoung was the guy who had done a stunt with the extremely fae looking Felix of Stray Kids during the Kingdom Show, the one where Felix has to take a running leap at Wooyoung and land with his FEET on each of Wooyoung's thighs. During rehearsals, Wooyoung tells a very nervous looking Felix, Only look at me, your big bro, when you make the jump OK? Eyes on me, Felix! and I was like, That is one really manly guy. (Didn't watch Kingdom at the time bc i wasn't into kpop, and I've only seen the Felix stunt clip because at the time I was getting to know Stray Kids).

We actually call this 형아미 - Hyung-a-mi, meaning, Big Bro Magic (the literal word is beauty but i think magic is the closer meaning). Some dudes just have it, where they're great at being the 형 or 오빠 in the familial sense - the nurturing, protective side of masculinity. American men have a longing for this sort of big bro too, but the few places they seem allowed to have this are within sports movies (the coach often walks the line between Big Bro and Dad) or war movies, where the cool experienced older soldier will take some newbie under his wing and 'take care' of them.

Gaming is another thing I literally know nothing about, so I will take your word for it that Yunho's gaming choices indicate that he's on the same level as Mingi in terms of being kind of an oddball and an artist, just with more social gloss. Maybe that's why they're such good friends - Yunho wants to protect Mingi bc Mingi is unabashedly something that Yunho represses in himself, and Mingi needs someone with Yunho's social gloss to make it through the world.

[alebrijediscordico]

i need to sleep soon, but i've been rotating pastra's new video with his own retelling of the jeff the killer creepypasta and. mein gott……

first of, Go Watch 🔫

and second of, spoilers under the cut, bc im gonna ramble abt it now!!

so there's thing ive noticed of a few rewrites i have read before is that many times the authors take a lot of creative liberties while rewriting and, well, many of them interested me a lot ngl! most of them are full rewrites with almost no similarities to the og story that isnt the characters and maybe one or two plot points, and i think about them and it amazes me how one can change a characters story and still make it feel like the same character

but the thing about pastra's rewrite, is that they understands Who jeff the killer is and What jeff is, and not only gives the original story's Feeling an actual structure, but a Why for it too

and that starts with the who. jeff is a villain in most narratives that had included him before, even if the original creepypasta aimed (?) for him to be sort of the empathetic, like. back then he was but a kid, maybe a violent one, but a kid that fell to his most destructive urges nevertheless (and with this extra, irrational fear that i think was more of a personal observation when i first hear of this creepypasta when i was Really young, of "oh god, what if turn out like Him" since he was around my age then, but anyways.)

but this jeff is not a kid anymore, is actually of college age, and for most of this rewrite's narrative he is this looming terror on the loose; death with a rotting, self made smile. and as more things are revealed, and both the detectives and audience get closer to jeff, at first one would think is going with the same, empathetic route like the original, with the bullies and stuff, but since we already know how that goes, pastra actually Uses that to get people by surprise and… no, he isn't just a kid, or in this case a man, Driven to madness by circumstances. he starts a villain, ends a villain

which perfectly pictures what jeff as a concept was and is in essence:

a brutal, unpredictable force of violence; a monster

and that's what makes him scary again, because he is still a human after all, but his actions slowly take away that until only his appearance, no matter how mutilated it is by that point, is what anchors him to his humanity; a tether to it made out of a spider's web string

like i remember listening to the narration in the background while playing splatoon some days ago, and sometimes having to pause the game just to listen more attentively. and in some parts, specially towards the end, making me actually feel kinda scared, not only for liu (which is also Very well written and the role he plays to connect jeff's past to the present and reveal his true intentions is Amazing), but for every single one of the witnesses too

and then that part. that one part after staying convinced most of the video that this rewrite would follow a similar plot as the original, liu says "but no. it was just… jeff" LIKE- that legit gave me Chills, and minutes after jeff's infamous phrase Actually used well??? like as i said, this actually brought back some of that fear from the original, tho it mostly impressed me for the execution, but genuinely what the fuck (legit said out loud while listening "are they gonna- no they won't- HE DID…")

n. well, this is less about the creepypasta now, but just me thinking how good pastra's storytelling is, the story's structure feels so clean and interconnected, the pacing is so nice but it has that touch of his that is across all his videos. and the voice acting!! the man genuinely sounded insane when jeff did, is incredible :D

[readingwiththestars]

₊˚⊹♡ THE GRANDEST GAME

["Riddles are for people who enjoy playing,” .... “Do you consider yourself playful, Mr. Hawthorne?”]

| ✮ 4 stars |

THOUGHTS ° ᡣ𐭩 . ° . [!!!!SPOILERS AHEAD!!!!] this is very long guys sorry

ok so *cracks knuckles* lets talk about tgg

!!warning i'm finishing this like four days after i read tgg so i might've forgotten things because reading until 2am and remembering what i read is apparently a hard thing for me to do!!

first of all.... JLB, you and i need to have a chat because that ending was not okay. you literally just left us with no answers. seriously. what the hell????? and while i wanna kick my feet and scream because we got two kisses and then you had to go ahead and ruin it in the span of two or three pages and give us that shitty ending.

i would like to point out one question i had through out the book, which was why was grayson playing? what was the point of that???? like seriously was there an actual need for him to play or was it just jameson, avery, xander and nash fucking with him? whatever it was it didn't make sense and just felt like jlb was trying to shove lyra and grayson into forced proximity so they could interact.

speaking of thatttt i love graysonlyra and rohansav (more thoughts on sav later) the banter the looks the touches the everything i love it sm omg AND AVERYJAMESON!!!!!!! THE CRUMBS WE WERE GETTING MADE ME SO HAPPY OMG!!! I CAN DIE HAPPY!!

i will say i feel jlb really did pull out all the stops for this book the different levels of everyone's connection and knowledge of how to solve the riddles/puzzles (i was literally CLUELESS) like how does one make all that connect. the level of detail was insane connecting books and characters together just weaving some kind of intricate web of characters.

and at first i did feel like the game felt really short but i think that was just my 2am dumbass brain forgetting this is only the first part of the game lol. i did kinda hope there would be more like running around and trying to solve things on the actual island not stuck in a house though but who knows whats happening in the next book soooo

it did get very confusing there with calla (who is fucking INSANE BY THE WAY!!! SHE TORTURED KNOX??? WTF????) and the whole calla lily thing with lyra and odette was confusing af. so its like calla (the person) has a connection with knox and brady and then a calla lily has a connection with odette and lyra (also kinda gray cause he knows abt it i guess)

and and and and im a die hard gigislate shipper (and brady daniels hater) so im praying that we get an enemies to lovers with gigi and slater where he's forced to be mean/hate or wtv because of *gags* eve and then its like oop no im breaking you out of here idc what eve thinks because i only care abt you. ESPCIALLY because gigi was talking abt how no ones ever looked at her the way jameson looks at avery throughout the book (SOMEBODY HIRE ME FR)

OK THATS ENOUGH RAMBLING ITS TIME TO FOR THE CHARACTERS

CHARACTERS ° ᡣ𐭩 . ° .

lyra - ok i love her. she was such a good strong character it was so much fun to read about her interactions (with grayson 😏) she was actual so wife material but idk why i felt like i wasnt allll that into her character too much like i love her but didn't really feel connected with her?? idk she was a very good fmc to read about tho!! but i do wanna know about miles end and her whole connection with her dead dad (who btw is an ass who tf kills themself in front of a FOUR YEAR OLD???) and whoever's stalking here (honestly i had a whole ass thing thinking its ALL PROBABLY EVE LIKE SHE WOULDA DONE THAT MUCH RESEARCH OR SOMETHING or maybe eve was js there for gigi) but now i think it might've been something to do with alice. who knows honestly

gigi - this is my time to shineeeeee. if gigi has zero fans i am dead (and slater bc im delusional like that) i love gigi so much omg. she's my no 1 girl i love her. my girl just needs someone to love her fr she talks through out the book about how she wants to be looked at with so much love (she thought it was brady BUT NO EW) i loved reading from her perspective abt how she just wanted to prove that she was good enough to be in the game AND SHE IS!!! im still bitter about her getting kicked out of the game - AND IM NOT EVEN GONNA TOUCH ON THE WHOLE KIDNAPPING AT THE END (GIGISLATE ENEMIES TO LOVERS WHEN????)

rohan - marry me. thats it. honestly just marry me. u need to work on ur nicknames tho- it was super interesting to read about his way of think and the whole labyrinth thingy lol. there wasn't too much more about his backstory tho WHICH IM SO INVESTED IN FR. WHAT DO YOU MEAN HIS FIRST MEMORY IS DROWNING????

savannah - girboss fr. she could step on me and i'd say thank you. its really interesting to me how (obviously) she's been manipulated by eve and it'll be super interesting to see how jlb will play out her whole revenge plan. she's extremely driven which is admirable and a good characters (she's literally like a female grayson imo - which also reminds me of that one scene where she goes "i am grayson hawthornes sister" which made me smile so big fr)

there are so many characters oml

knox - ok so my buddy boy knox. broski, brozilla, broville, brother from another mother, u need a hug? i didn't really like him in the beginning tbh he was a moody lil girl working through his issues. but after a while when he warmed to gigi it was nice to see the softer side to him (which tbh wasnt for very long until oop trauma dumpppp) but seriously oml knox baby the scar???? imma find calla fr (jlb cant write new characters also why complicate the shit out of everything and have a calla lily be relevant to lyra and also have calla be a person???) i did like how sweet/soft he was with gigi when she fell though that warmed my heart.

odette - iconic grandma shit tbh. she was third wheeling the entire time and at some points actually seemed like she was shipping them but then two seconds later she was warning them? saying no? idk the whole 'seizure' thing seems faker than eve's lies. and the fact she instantly gave brady the watch after gigi said no. like um what about knox? idk if thats js my brady hate coming through here though so yeah idk if i trust her or not (bet everyone is working for eve except for gigi, lyra and rohan)

grayson - marry me. love me. choose me. pls. i'd do ANYTHING. my simping for this man aside. IT WAS SO GODDAMN REFRESHING TO SEE A HEALING GRAYSON. like yes. it made me so happy to see him admit he was wrong but also know that its okay to be wrong skdjhaasd. this is so short because i love him and cant write proper thoughts about him fr.

brady - *cracks even more knuckles* brady daniels....... you know i've always wanted to know what it'd be like to write a hate paragraph. i guess im finding out now. i hate him. literally. i have unbridled hate for this man - who by the way still shocks me that he's only 20 he acts like he saw the fucking first world war. its one of the reasons i never liked him like he sooo took advantage of gigi's smartness and kindness like HE DID ABSOLUTELY NOTHING during the game gigi carried the entire team and when she refused to take odette's watch and then him instantly taking it. ICKKKK don't even mention how he lied abt his mom like dude just admit it you knew you were fucking cooked in that fight and the only way you could win was by lying. AND WHAT ABOUT THE WHOLE BOMBSHELL ABOUT HOW (i cant remember his name but the dude who raised knox, calla and brady) died??? and then being a little shit and dropping gigi's heart. like we get it u dumbass man child u think you're clever cause u can speak so many languages and read even more but NO. i was onto you, i never trusted your crusty old man ass. like he even touched gigi without her permission (on the stomach) which so gross to me, the dogshit under my shoe can do better than you brady. seriously. i hate him. i'm the leader and founder of the I HATE BRADY DANIELS CLUB. so thats at least something to sate my anger. help this got so long 😭

QUOTES ° ᡣ𐭩 . ° . [i'm putting like two because this already wayyyyy to long for anyone to actually bother reading.]

"you will come back to me, or i will make you come back to me." - grayson

"Beside Avery, Jameson was looking at her like she was the sun and the moon and the stars and eternity, all rolled into one." - gigi

"give me your eyes sweetheart." - grayson

if you're here at the end of this *APPLAUSE* i commend you on getting through that kilometre of my shit thoughts. have a piece of cake 🍰

[dragomer]

i like your julia & jane analyses ^_^ its telling that julia asks for jane's permission regarding andrew, not her opinion. i dont think theyre as overtly toxic as andrew & ashley are but part of that is circumstance - not being starved to death for organ harvesting, for one. though i think her support helps somewhat. julia doesnt capitulate to andrew in their in person meeting like she did when confronting him on ashley. speaking of, that meeting has a finality to it that makes me think we may never see jane (theyre side characters, afterall). ...but im still hoping to know more about their dynamic. fingers crossed!

Thanks, I'm glad to hear that! I love talking about the game so much, especially the more 'vague' parts of it since there's so much room to speculate while the main part of the game is so fleshed out!

Yeah, that's something I noticed too, especially since Jane's opinion is already clear cut and Julia shouldn't need her permission regarding anything in her relationship with someone else, that's part of why I think we're not supposed to see Jane's aggressiveness as fully positive (Andrew getting the last word in their argument is also pretty telling).

Of course, Jane and Julia are clearly not meant to be anywhere near the level of insanity Ashley and Andrew are on or even toxic at all (since while Jane's overbearingness is counterproductive and push Julia to stay with Andrew more than anything else, she clearly means well and is trying to help her sister), they seem more like a healthier / more sympathetic mirror of them.

Which mean they also mirror the negative effects some of their behaviors can have on the others. Jane's overbearingness make Julia clam up and push her toward staying with Andrew despite her own doubt while Julia's wishy-washiness makes Jane's aggression go into overdrive out of frustration and protectiveness as well as potentially jealousy.

Just like Ashley's overbearingness push Andrew toward Julia despite Andrew's own preference for Ashley and reinforce his denial / attachment to a veneer of normalcy while Andrew's wishy-washiness make Ashley's aggression boil up into a murderous rage out of frustration, insecurity and definitely jealousy. And both sides are blind to the fact their flaw is feeding the other's flaw.

I think you make a good point: Ashley and Andrew's situation kinda made all their behaviors and issues reach critical mass, while their case is extreme, it's important to not forget that under normal circumstances, both their issues and general behaviors were a lot more controllable.

Julia doesn't capitulate to Andrew while meeting him in person but you have to remember that's not attributed to Jane, it's attributed to Julia's own work on herself. Meanwhile when Julia is contacted by Andrew with Jane in her ear (who's even telling her what to say), she crumples like wet paper (which make sense, hard to stand by your words when you're just repeating someone else's).

In both Shots and Such and the Cliffhanger phone call, it did sound pretty final, I agree so I doubt we'll get anything more of them in that route. BUT I think it's basically guaranteed Julia will come up in Burial (Not sure she'll survive it tho, even if Decay already surprised me on that front).

It could definitely be funny to have Ashley project her incestuous standards on Jane like she does on that random female cultist with the hamster and have that influence how she deals with her and Julia.

I rambled on way too much, sorry XD

Thanks for the ask ^^

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Hiiii!! It's me again! Guess who has a bf now 🤭✨ Need to mention I am the class leader and he is the vice president of the school so we both pretty much can suggest ideas and he can make the changes happen.

Sooo I did avoid him (my heart is too nervous and running tracks that I can't think clearly, sorry emma 🤧), playing hide and seek, cause tell me why did this boy come to school today when he had no reason to as it's lab exam season and our class is divided into three groups for the exams. He is not in mine nor he has an exam today. Avoided him like crazy till the school ended. Everyone was pretty much confused why I was avoiding him as we are like that duo that you see with each other everyday. That was embarrassing to go through but anyways. Late at night, one of his friends call me and he was like "OH! SO YOU CAN ANSWER THEIR PHONE BUT NOT MINE? SO YOUR PHONE DOES NOT WORK FOR ME??" yea, he is a little sassy and sarcastic. Bro made me call his number so he can talk to me from his phone. We talked things out. Apparently he was rejected a year ago. Moved on but didn't tell anyone cause she told him not to tell anyone. He had been crushing on me for few months now. I didn't believe him at first and he literally send screenshots of him gushing over me with his friends. I was surprised he send me all that cause I DID NOT EXPECT THAT FROM HIM, he didn't even hesitate and wouldn't stop rambling about me. Yea I was too flustered to even say something. Said that he only has Spotify blend with me, even when his crush asked him to blend Spotify he turned it down cause he and I has more similar taste than they do. We have 99% btw. He also wears my friendship bracelets everyday cause I made it for him. He still has all my little notes that I pass to him in class and those stickers and mini toys that I gave him when I get from snacks. His storage was full so he deleted nearly everything and stored the essential ones in a sim but he never deleted our photos together and already has section for us. There was a school event and for this, teachers has told us boys and girls can't dance together but he made it possible for our class as he is part of the student council all because me and my girls were this choreography would be call if we done it together, extended our school trip to three days cause I mentioned how the school trip would be hectic with tight packed schedule to the place we are going which I have often went to. More more things he has revealed but this is getting long. This all might seem like highschool drama cliché, it's all REALLLL and I remember that I have been listening to highschool love story and crush subliminals.

https://youtu.be/Mg6fBFR-vrk?si=-xaWUNs5IzTEc2Us

https://youtu.be/wtdRe4e5aqg?si=jrVF62NISIkm-gkz

https://youtu.be/gNwcVInD8iU?si=stm1HIiHnUPfvu3h

My conclusion is that manifesting works y'all, MANIFESTING WORKS, KEEP PERSISTING AND VIBE WITH IT and I'm fucking nervous, excited, happy and giddy after the call now, it's 2am now and now we are texting again 🤗✨ and lastly, thank you Emma 🤩🤩🤩 As it was you who enabled me to make the first move 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗 GIVING YOU BIGGEST WARMEST HUGS AND KISSESSS (づ> v <)づ♡♡♡♡♡♡

im actually crying for you !!>!!>!?!?!?!? i have a horrible moral compass.....but my heart does swell for romance.

let me like sit with for a moment as i stop maniacally clapping. replying like i’m on a sugar high rn

OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDD. OH MY GOD. oh my god oh my god oh my god. ANIMAL NOISeS. you are the high school movie protagonist. this is actually insane. this is enemies to lovers without the enemies. this is student council romance. this is literally a wattpad fic but in a good way. ACTUALLY THE BEST WAY. a cult classic wattpad fic that people screenshot and tweet about in 2027 with “real love used to exist” as the caption.

he STORED YOUR PHOTOS. HE KEPT YOUR FOCKING ??!L@KQ#FHUWHGVIUHWFJBIFWJEB NOTES. HE TURNED DOWN A SPOTIFY BLEND WITH HIS CRUSH BECAUSE HE WAS ALREADY BLENDED WITH YOU??????? HELLO?????? THIS IS SO. INSANE. BOLLOCKS. PSYCHOSIS INDUCING STUFF HAPPENING TO YOU, MY FRIEND. IF A GUY DID THIS TO ME I WOULD ACTUALLY COLLAPSE LIKE A VICTORIAN CHILD. WORSE. by the end they'd be dragging me into a padded room.

and the school trip thing??? and the dance thing??? my girlie my sweet girl my little class president baby angel of a sugarplum fairy, you were out here thinking you were manifesting him but he was out here paving roads for you. FAWK OFF OKWRGNURHGIUHRFJWHJ you weren’t just wishing for him, he was making actual policy changes for you. ROMANCE ISN’T DEAD. IT’S ALIVE AND IT’S IN YOUR CLASSROOM. i'm robbing you. i'm mentally robbing you.

i am screaming. i am twirling. i am clutching my chest like a maiden in distress. YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND. YOU ARE WINNING. i love you. go be disgustingly in love now. i'm so happy for you. i will be shifting to your wedding....as a priest xx !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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GUYS GUYS GUYSSSS IM LOSING MY MINNNNDDDD TRANSFORMERS ONE WAS SO GOOODDDD THIS IS LEGIT ME RN:

Okay, but seriously though, I really enjoyed it and want to make plans to see it again. So if you haven’t already, I highly recommend the film. It’s criminally underrated in terms of the box office, so go show it the love it so rightfully deserves!!! 🥰

Anywho, if you want to hear nonsensical spoilers, feel free to read below the cut.

Childhood me would never think I’d be somewhat shipping Optimus and Megatron but like… yeah I understand what y’all are getting at in your tumblr posts. (Fr though, their friendship was so sweet. D-16’s betrayal really did hurt. And it’s been a while since I’ve seen such a well done relationship like that in the media. They’re just two silly lads who genuinely cared about one another and yet got driven apart by vengeance.)

Every single time Bee said “Badassatron” I’m sobbing— He’s such a goober. Bumblebee was always my favorite as a kid, so I have a soft spot for him (even if Orion and D16 were my favorites in this film). “KNIFE HANDS” he’s a safety hazard. (Also him being slightly insane and making inanimate objects his friends to talk to and being self-aware that they’re fake— I AM STEVE?!)

Sentinel essentially saying “Nu-uh” to D-16 when he was rambling about his plans.

Why did they keep saying miner? 😭

Starscream is such a neeerddd per usual. Dang he’s simping for Megatron (I’m kidding y’all, I miss poking fun at the silly plane man)

Trion basically adopted these tiny 4 robots and yes it is canon 💯 (Bro shouldn’t have died, I wanted silly dad shenanigans 😭)

Orion- “Hey Darkwing, my finger can transform”. Meanwhile D16: *knocks Orion the heck out and then proceeds to get punched by Darkwing* My favorite part of the movie ngl

I am very Bumblebee core tbh. He’s just a silly little guy. A silly guy with knife hands.

Bee saying his dream was to work for the government had the theater and I howling (this was a very fun theater experience actually, loved the vibes)

The boys are just casually scared of Elita. Girlboss 💅 (Also I love that her and Arachnid had a fight. I vaguely remember them having a fight/maybe rivalry? In Transformers Prime. Speaking of which, I need to rewatch that. Its been years and I never finished it)

I’m sorry but the whole “Starscream” namesake and then D-16 damaging his vocal cords is obvious irony but still. Nice touch.

”Why did you gag him?” “He wouldn’t stop talking.” “Even when he was unconscious?” “ESPECIALLY WHEN HE WAS UNCONSCIOUS!” Bee’s certified yapper moment

Orion’s whole arc and relationship with D-16 is sad when you pair it with how they are in other iterations. Like, the reason Orion/Optimus would’ve been a stickler for the rules and order was because he was afraid of losing someone again like he lost D-16. (I can’t remember if their backstory is the same all across the board, its been a while since I brushed up on transformers stuff)

The animation was genuinely very pretty. I love the little magic sand particles and the way Megatron’s eyes have a glow trail as specific examples.

The child in me kept kicking my legs and screaming at the references. The mask! Roll out! When D got his signature arm gun I internally lost it. And Chris Hemsworth’s voice at the end of the film was a really really good Optimus voice.

“Is it… getting closer?” Meanwhile Bee: *running away for his life* (both him and Orion running at the start of the film absolutely took me out)

Okay I might do a follow up to this tomorrow, it’s late and I have work in the morning. I’ll think on some more things I want to add as well as some headcanons! Stay tuned!

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HI I JUST FINISHED TNG AND AM AUTISTIC I NEED TO TALK (warning long ass post, ramblings)

Q in his stupid fucking judge outfit???? Oh my god i love him so much?? And like?? I dont even think he wanted to put picard on trial at the end he says it was the continuums orders so did he even want to do that too him? Who knows!! We do know hes gay as shit though oh my god. I love him.

The past, the Encounter At Farpoint, picard yelling for Q on the bridge and everyone probably thinking hes insane. Picard not telling any of them whats going on, even though it doesnt affect the other timelines. Tasha Yar???? Hi Tasha!!!!!! Worf with his old sash, the old uniforms, the shitty dress deanna wore in the first episode (it slayed), data being. So autistic. Liek actually hold on can i talk about tha

This episode, with all its converging timelines, really shows how data grows- not just as a character just in general, as the years go by on the ship, he starts understanding idioms, somewhat. He. He gets more human. He really does. His movements more fluid, hes smarter. He really does grow, something about his neural net constantly evolving or something. Oh my god.

The shitty future?? Worf liking Deanna Romantically Cannon??? Riker was still holding on to the relationship this whole time?? (I never noticed really. Im. Autistic.) PICARD AND CRUSHER GOT MARRIED. And then divorced BUT STILL. Picard back on earth?? Tending to what i can only assume to be grape plants or something, like his brother. Data teaches at Cambridge. He has grey hair, thinks it makes him more distinguished. Geordi has eyes! Like in two different timelines he has eyes.

Thats another thing actually, like i could have sworn at least in the earlier seasons, he didnt want. Eyes? I thought?? But like. It seems like a minor Thing, cause it showed up in that one Riker Gets Kidnapped By A Child Alien Because Its Lonely episode. And again here, and probably other places i can't remember because ive consumed all of tng in 2 months.

The present. I dont have shit to say about that actually. It sure is season 7.

OH MY GOD THE BEGINNING OF THW EPISODE BEFORE Q REAVEALS HIMSELF?? How we dont know if he Is travelling through time or if hes Going Senile. The cuts?? I mean the cuts through the whole episode is so good the cinematography in general!!!! Oh my god. The close ups, the panning, THE ACTING?? TASHA YAR??? EARLY WORF? OLD WORF? I like worf. GEORDI? DATA???? love brett spiner.

And i mean who remembers the judge scene from the first episode at this point? The foreshadowing with the jury(?)/audience(?) i didnt even. Realize until they put Picard on the stand again.

DEANNA BEING FUCKING DEAD IN THE FUTURE HELLO?????????????

Oh my god but the end scene. The end shot of the poker game? Imagine seeing the future, all your friends, drifted apart, tense at each other with worf and riker. Seeing that. And then coming back to reality, to Your Time. And seeing your friends as they are right then. Why didnt picard join them for poker?

No like actually. Did. Did he have a reason for that? Some like, weird captain thing? Or like. Some weird barrier wall thing? Thing where he feels like he should isolate himself.

But the point is, he joins his friends for some poker, i dont think he had probably played poker in years. Its just. Amazing.

You know. I think this is one of the first times ive seen her again and not cried, which is progress because every other time it was. Not great.

But now that tngs over

Hey does tumblr have a word limit? We're about to find out.

But now that tngs over, theres still a lot i have to ask. Like why the fuck did they do that to wesley? Do we see wesley again? Is still dont know who b-4 is. Whats Ro doing now? Is she good? Do we see her again? Does she know kira? Do ro and kira meet? Probably not actually. Itd probably be cool though. Do worf and deanna get married? Please. I ne- oh wait no they cant bc worf has a thing with jadzia at some point. What the fuck is up with worf and jadzia? And also where is alexander now? When does worf join ds9? Probably season 3 idk. Or Barclay? Cheif o'brien? Cause the show ran concurrently for a bit. WHY DONR WORF AND DEANNA GET MARRIED THEYRE LIKE PERFECT???? What the fuck is that guy with the ears damar? Gamar? I think its damar? Idk. Why he look like that? IS RO GOING TO DIE??

Oh hey i get to meet sisko, hes cool. He gets like visions or some shit. Q doesnt like him i think "picard never hit me ):" "im not picard."

Q and Quark. Odo and Q. Do we get to see the cunty judge outfit again? Why does he have a mustache when hes boxing sisko or whatever?

OH I GET TO SEE FUCK ASS DUKAT THEOW DARTS AT HIM EVIL. Fun.

Okay yeah im done