#im not proud of it either ok
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sugar daddy eclipse is real finally
#fnaf daycare attendant#fnaf dca#dca fandom#fnaf eclipse#dca eclipse#eclipse oc#ok well i initially intended him to be more blue but.. ube flavored eclipse#aftoncore ig idk why i am so drawn to purple its not my favorite color either#either way im a little proud of this and i wanna draw him more#treat her with great care she's kind of a freak /aff#pingdoobles#thinking of answering this ask for him cause honestly i giggled seeing it at work#sugar!clip
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snnnnrrnnzzrzzzzzzzz (v1 hit him so hard that he got knocked out)
#ultrakill#gabriel#Um. i hope this one is safe#i really like figure art ok#with NO REFERENCE either im proud
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but when they're out on that river bank alone, what javier should be loyal to doesn't feel as confusing anymore
#also known as 'he wants so badly to run away with his boyfriend and marry him and live happily ever#after'#but his commitment to dutch and the gang breaks his heart#i want them to be happy SO BAAAD SO BAD IM GOINGN TO THROW YP#also the top right one comes w a headcanon#which is that kieran can only bathe if javier is there (and only javier) because otherwise he's too terrified of being k*lled for either bei#ng trans or just in general because he's alone#so that's why he's usually stinky#he really hates being stinky but he doesn't consider it worth dying over#anyway i love them so bad and their little fishing dates#kieran infodumps the whole time and javier feels so lucky to be alive because he knows kieran doesn't talk around anyone else near as much#if at all#javier knows 99% of the fish knowledge but he never interrupts and is always happy to listen to kieran yap about every other topic too#i need to put javi in an 'i ❤️ my autistic boyfriend' shirt#ok i'll shut up now#also i know this composition looks like total shart i'm literally the worst at doing them </3 be nice to me#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#kieran duffy#javier escuella#javieran#am i allowed to say that i own this ship#considering i literally made it LOL i feel so proud even tho it also makes me miserable that i bascially have no one to talk to abt them#image#art#hero draws sometimes
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demon kyojuro!
in this au he survives mugen train and goes thru a lil corruption arc that starts with senjuro getting killed by humans (sorry senjuro!) and ends with kyojuro becoming disillusioned with the corps and possibly killing senjuro’s murderers. he still doesnt get turned willingly (also not by akaza) and in fact forgets everything except how much he hates akaza (as a human had come to resent him) and having a weird obsession with killing ‘strong’ people/demons (his need to protect the weak → need to stop the strong). i promise it still ends up being renkaza somehow ahgdfgvnfhd
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the first scene that the first image is based on reminded me of kabuki with how theatrical the pose seemed… and it turns out that kyojuro likes watching noh and kabuki (based on fanbook one)! so the makeup is very much based on sugiguma design, which is supposed to represent a hero with great strength but also anger. it is also consciously meant to reflect akazas markings, which also seem to resemble the villainous kugeare kabuki design…?
it being only a ‘mask’ reflects the idea of his playing a role (doing what you ‘should’ do, putting on a brave face) and the whole theatricality aspect… but that his face is ‘painted’ that way beneath an actual mask kind of shows who he Really is?
beneath the hannya mask, representing a demon consumed by anger and revenge, he’s still a ‘hero’ at heart
colors are intended to oppose the demon slayer uniform
fading to black → ash, burnt, but also literally ‘dirtying your hands’
the horns are just there to look cool LMAO but I guess also reflects the very real belief he might hold/have held before being turned that he had done something unforgivably wrong
as you can tell from the drawings he Does eventually start to remember things and stops akaza from offing himself because how in the world is that fair when he has to live with himself?? but he also probably has it in his head that once he helps defeat muzan as a demon hes gonna walk himself into the sun as penance and not take the cure. maybe we have a fun lil role reversal and akaza is the one to convince him to live as a human. i have not thought this far tbh
#rengoku kyojuro#rengoku kyoujurou#demon slayer#kimetsu no yaiba#im not gonna tag as renkaza cos. theres nothing here adhgsdfgdfg even though in my heart it is...................#art#body horror tw#just in case. cos of the fucking. face#akaza is there but i wont tag him either. anyway#IM PROUD OF THE COMIC PAGE OK..................... and also the scene redraw ahdgdsfgnvdf#did u know that i started thinking of a corruption arc with the express purpose of somehow getting him to WANT to turn into a demon#and it still ended with him . not turning into a demon adfghdhfgdfg. hes just like that
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no one should be a billionaire btw not even taylor
#leah rambles#‘no one says this about beyonce rihanna Ariana etc’ ok im saying it they shouldn’t be billionaires either#love and am proud of her tho#congrats! donate it (like I know you do!)
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trying to make some tweek designs just to like practice or somethin idk ell oh ell im not feeling very confident in my art anymore lowkey
big yap fest for each design under the cut !!
Barbarian Tweek
"ive never really thought of tweek as afab outside of TSOT, but i feel more comfortable drawing top surgery scars [than i do like.. nipples.] ive always seen tweek as trans, usually non conforming/non binary/androgynous in general, but ive never considered transmasculine. but i like the idea!
this is probably my least canon compliant design of this bunch. i feel like the fantasy of TSOT is just so ripe for headcanons. i NEVER draw sp characters with canon in mind really, probably the autism taking over or somethin, but i always at least age them up [more in the main tweek design]. for this design, i was thinking more of what tweek thought they looked like, if not the more au version of TSOT. like, The Thief by Wintergrew on ao3 kinds of non canon compliant. thats also most of the inspiration for basically every TSOT thing i do ever. i love that series (i did cry) (a lot)"
Tweek Tweak
"its the original guy lets have a round of applause honestly..., not my favorite time ive drawn bro. he looks so boring when hes just standing there. i always see tweek as non binary, just because i project on them a LOT.. like. i know that hes a guy and probably doesnt care [in canon], but i just headcanon like that i guess. i also age him up, along with every other sp character, to be around my age so like 14-17. i know thats controversial [and by "i know" i mean i saw someone on sp whisper pinterest say they hated it] but i just dont know how to write kids. theyre kinda boring. i can project more onto teens i guess. thats kinda all there is to say. sometimes i draw tweek with brown pants, but thats because i just like the earthy aesthetic [on them]"
Wonder Tweek
"this is the most canon compliant one. im just not that much of a TFBW guy honestly (which is sad because its the only source of not really canon twenny sigh) but i guess its also the source of some of the best creek. i am not a creek hater but sometimes its hard to fight the allegations when i start crying over them having a cute scene in a video game [not because im mad its because i miss being in a relationship] [frowney tumblr loser behavior] when i say this is the most canon compliant one, i mean it. this is SHORT HAIR TWEEK. [i usually draw tweek with like longer hair like 2021 wolfmullet hair and with the little twin sideburn things idk what theyre called, mostly because i didnt know how to draw short boy hair before getting into sp and thats just how i drew them instead but a year later i finally decided to just do it and thought it was okay for startin out] code red. sound the alarms. theres not a lot to say besides that. (can you tell i hit my peak with barbarian tweek.) [i ordered this by order of how i finished them and yes you can tell sigh]"
#south park#tweek tweak#barbarian tweek#wonder tweek#the stick of truth#sp tsot#tfbw#sp tfbw#brief mention of creek#im not interested in my hobbies very much anymore but its ok#ill probably get out of it soon i hope#ok so since this is probably gonna get buried... ive been.... watching hermitcraft.#im still super super super not a dsmp fan the last dsmp fan i thought was nice and cool was my ex and he was a whole can of worms#i dont dont dont dont dont like dsmp ever no#just knowing how many problematic people are in that series is just so ick i couldnt ever see past that shit#also its just not what i want in content besides that#but ive really taken a liking to hermitcraft and the life series and yeah its cringe but like.. idk its captivated me.#and ive.... been... drawing fanart#vine boom sound effect plays the room shakes the earth splits in half gasp sound effect “you need to LEAVE!!”#but im really disappointed because of the overlap of dsmp fans in the life series/hermitcraft fanbase#so its either i post hermitcraft fanart and risk the dsmp fans liking my stuff and interacting#which does remind me of my ex unfortunately sigh#or i just.. dont post hermitcraft fanart. sigh#i dont ever worry too much about who interacts bc i dont want to gatekeep my art#like dsmp fans have interacted before#but i just... dont want to associate myself personally with that fandom#i KNOW theres good dsmp fans but me personally if i was supporting that group i wouldnt be very proud of it either#just wanted to get that off my chest (TOP SURGERY JOKE)#tumblr tags are literally my diary bro oh my shit
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thinking about a fierce pjo fic featuring sally and percy …. but alas …. odesta week is calling
#ok alas is a bit too strong of a word#like realistically this fic idea is not going anywhere it just took hold of me at an inconvenient time#but like#who else is up having sally jackson thoughts#should we have a class discussion about sally jackson#shoutout to sally jackson i love her but i also resent her i am proud of her but im also disappointed#no one warns u about loving books u read as a child well into adulthood bc wtf sally jackson#wait or is it sally blofis now…? idek#ooh wait cos don’t get me started on that either#like glad u were able to compartimentalize those feelings as an adult but percy had to process all that as a kid#ooh i have to go i can’t be getting so heated over a fictional character rn it’s not that serious
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Oc Pride Appreciation Week 1: CHRIS
Say hi to Christian! Also known as good ending void gang au.
She found out she was trans and aroace after the events of undertale with monsters up on the surface, and god was it just a breath of fresh air.
Before the events of void gang, she worked as a pastor, didn’t feel like the job for her, she quit, and now she wants to try become a doctor. She was also dealing with a lot of pent up anger that she eventually learned to calm it down, but it was still around and she never really knew what it came from. Overall tho, nothing ever felt right for her, like a hole she didn’t know what to fill with, until the surface when she started experimenting with “the new human things” just to do some joking around, but it actually just made her feel so much more comfortable and happier then she was before.
And thus lgbt questioning began and now we’re here!!
But then again, if you noticed the “good ending” attached to the au, and the fact that chris is a gaster follower character, Chris never made it to this point, “dying”/ “grey-ified” before frisk falls down and going to the surface. So it makes me sad that i don’t have much about her at her best, but ain’t it that there’s probably a lot of people who probably don’t make it to this point as well, and so i still be proud of her knowing she was gonna figure it all out :].
And that be it for this weeks oc pride appreciation! See you next week!
#have a good day#my drawings#chris#void gang#pride month#trans#aroace#Aromantic#asexual#lookit my goth girl she be doin some kind of kick flip without the board wthhhhh#look people i may not entirely be in the lgbtq community (im in that questioning area so its a real ‘’i dunno’’)#and either way if i am or not. im not particularly full on pride in that area of myself#its more of an ‘ok thats a thing. anyways’ sort of thing#BUT as they’re creator and therefore literally the only person who really knows their stories—#im HELLA PROUD of my characters#they may not be real but *sniff* I LOVE YOU MAN!!#GOOD GOING MY GUY#👏👏👏#im happy for them and perfectly happy seeing them be able to thrive#haha anywho#there’s day one for ye#see you next week!!#hope it was enjoyable#oc pride appreciation
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still thinking about Hurricane is the only song listed as a theme to a character. like yeah some of the songs have listed narrators/writers but Hurricane specifically is Johnnie's song and his song alone
#what does it meeean#more like what DO it mean HA#im hilarious (lie)#making myself emotional over this because of my own headcanons#just like. the vn movie heavily implied Johnnie isnt actually part of the PR#(or at least they're willing to play without him and not notice his absence)#but like. he's the narrator of two of their songs#either A. they wrote about him either pre or post his death or B. he wrote the songs and they performed it#im more partial to B because like. he's the youngest and both of his older brothers are the leaders of something (either TWE or a band)#and like. ok maybe it's a personal interpretation of him because im me but he always seemed like he was trying to prove himself kinda#he's the youngest. the wild child. the reckless one. both your brothers are so talented and recognized and then....there's you#you just want to be seen and listened to#like he can help improve the world enders if he can get Alex to listen to him. if he could prove to Alex that his idea would work#hurricane is *his* song. that's something *he* made and I imagine he'd be proud of that#ugh none of this canon and we dont even have confirmation that johnnie even is the youngest (he is)#but here I am making myself emotional over this dumbass#anyway ignore me im having a moment of projection. despite being the middle child I DO remember what it was like to be the youngest#dani speaks#lord huron#johnnie redmayne
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P L E A S E send me things you are proud of that you’ve posted so i can reblog and fangirl in the replies and tags. i don’t mean to miss anything <3 ! you will not annoy me but i might i annoy you so it is a gamble—
#ok also even if you’re proud if smth and didn’t post it and you have no one to send to im here as well like i need to make everyone#understand that just doing is literally incredible and so be celebrated idk if it’s objectively mediocre like celebrities do the bare#minimum and are saints like consider your mediocrity can be worth celebrating because you did the damn thing in this world without having#100 dollar bills as your loo paper idk exactly what i’m saying but we’re conditioned to be so modest about or accomplishments while#nepo babies run free !!! love and celebrate your efforts or#*or i will…. i will either way but still#evidence of life
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ohhhh thinking about the parallels between odin/maya and frost/marlow/valerie rn
#the way it all comes down to the need to be in control#like theres more nuance to it than that and there are multiple factors in each dynamic but maya and valerie were both isolated#and their respective toxic relationships w their families were allowed to fester and break them bc of that isolation#man. always imagined that valerie was closer to cheri but maybe she should connect more with maya#maya and cheri are sorta aware of the situation? but they dont know just how bad it is and unfortunately theres not a lot they can do#without marlow denying them access to valerie at all the way he did to felicity and aisling#i think maya would try to talk to him gently without oversharing but he’d probably be quick to shut it down#and even if he did know mayas backstory hed be like ‘’wtf im not like that guy at all!! that guy got aggressive with his kid i dont do that’#which is also what he does with frost. ‘’no ofc im not like my mom. my mom didnt give a fuck about me. i care so much about valerie!!’’#tfw you try so hard not to be like your abuser that you end up being toxic in the opposite way#echoed voice#tbh very curious to know how marlow will be recieved#assuming he’ll either be hated or all his worse actions will be shrugged off as ‘’oh its ok hes dad of the year anyways’’#maybe both w no inbetween whatsoever#personally i like him. hes my personal little trainwreck. he fascinates me. i want to put him in a tube and study him#he needs therapy sooo bad but unfortunately hes way too proud for it#also in his own way sakura does want marlow to stop self isolating w valerie#like hes not as clear about it as like cheri would be. i think hes mostly motivated by their rivalry. he wants marlow to better himself#and be a more worthy rival for him basically which is why hes constantly rubbing souvenirs in his face#sakura likes valerie but i think he kinda like. disregards her compared to her brother. he hasnt really picked up on whats going on based on#their interactions. but hmmmm…: perhaps now that hes staying in serenade for an extended amount of time….?
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audhd rizz, but i just show you my desk that i impulsively decorated and reorganized
#its almost 6am im supposed to be asleep for work idk what the hell happened#also reorganized my desk and i already forgot where everything is oh boy#idk what ill do when i run out space here cause this is in my living room#im so proud but so tired and so screwed for sleep but its ok my desk area brings me joy and happy stims#pingyappathon#irl shenanigans#everything is on my walls are either stuff from small shops. merch. or stuff made by me/friends ough#yes my help wanted 2 calender is in january purely because sun is there <3#ok im sleeping fr consider this an update from me while im not drawing much
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guys. guys !!!!
#vanu is rambling#ok idk this is gonna b a happy post but i think there are lots of people who love me in this world. or at least enjoy my presence.#like i always always always ALWAYS doubt if my friends or family like me and in my head they all secretly hate me#but like for these past couple months things have been different.#i don’t feel so left out (like i usually do in groups) or alone.#like my friends genuinely want me there like they always ask me to go places with them. and i almost always say no because im so busy or#i just cant but they still ask me everytime. yesterday the whole group was calling and playing a game and i got a bunch of texts like hey#where are you u shud join the call it’s rly fun ! but i just couldn’t bring myself to talk to anyone at that moment.#today they were rly happy when i joined the call and idk it made me feel like. oh. maybe my friends do like me#and also i have two moods: i’m either super talkative or i go into my little shell and don’t say anything/add to a convo. and like during#those moments they’ll be like hey u ok? or they’ll just listen to me talk about ceramics and how fun it is or how much i hate eating pears#and like. we laugh so much together. like i have so much fun with all of them i love every single one of them omg#and scary thing is we might not even be friends after we start college. but yk what? that’s okay i don’t wanna think about that.#because like who cares? i’m not gonna let my fears ab the future ruin my friendships. i’ll always love them anyways. and we’ll always call.#i’m glad i met them. they’re all such beautiful and funny and amazing strong willed-people. they are my friends.#it’s just so crazy to me that they willingly want to spend time w me and are sad when i can’t. and they’re so understanding at the same time#they don’t get mad about it. and like they have mad eng last year in high school so much more enjoyable.#someone told me that this is ur last year do things so when you look back you don’t regret anything- so you can be proud of what you did#and my friends helped me with that. and like i still feel lonely the majority of the class because despite this there’s like a permanent#stain of sadness right there at the bottom of my heart. but they make the hard days more manageable.#like i’ve been on call with these people until ungodly hours at night just laughing and i go to sleep feeling a bit lighter.#they introduced me to the tech side of theater which i never thought i’d get into but here i am. they teach me silly facts and words in asl.#they taught me dances- knowing full well i SUCK at it- because we all had fun with it. theyve taught me it’s OKAY to be vulnerable in#friendships and that sometimes being open/yourself is quite literally the best thing you can do for your own soul and others. they’re cool#people really. really cool people
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brian, the new shoe manager and cookie's nice guy sweet little church boo that magic homoerotically dommed and destroyed out of sheer prideful bloodlust should DEFINITELY be looked into as a casting option for a sam cooke biopic bcs .. WOW??
LIKE AM I TRIPPING OR
#add the lil bump in his nose#and mwah 🥰🥰#cooke in general has a littler nose#but more abt winning time... i am rlly enjoying it so far!!!!#i personally like the 4th wall breaks!#the style is rlly cute and quirky !! keeps ur attention#when it does stuff at the right time it's like OOO but sometimes it doesnt (alot of cuts..) but thats ok!!#i cant wait to see kareem and magic interact (im on ep 3 rn!!) they do such a good job at emphasizing kareems#'i know more than you.' attitude LMAO#i normally have a lovehate relationship with multiple character focuses but bcs all the ppl are meant to be viewed as#kinda immature and kinda shitty (either in a pos/neg sense.. it flips) i rlly like it cus it doesnt force u to like one specific person#everyone has flaws!!!#idk maybe i like it cus one of my fav books is the great gatsby lmao#norm refer kareem as cap whenever he wants his attention/wants to get something he wants... i know what you are .#magics mommy issues go insane#leos when they dont think someone they want proud of them isnt proud in the way they want them to showit/be#or in what THEY want them to be proud abt..... yikes. so the way he treats/views women and then the ppl close to him#.... ej please#him and brian shouldve been endgame instead that was quite hmm! cookie deserves better than the both of them tbh#dr buss or whatever reminds me of every guy who could save themselves with charm and no soul/hardwork#n that playb*y affliation immediately raised red flags. hes very interesting and irritable to watch i like it#AND I TOTALLY CALLED TARK THE SHARK BEING A TURK!!! thank u godfather ANYWAYS i love the show it's great#need more gayness... hope isiah shows up in season 2 so i can clap n whistle like a marvel endcredit character reveal#ZEKE WILL RETURN
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just remembered that one linguistics unit where i only did half the final assignment and handed it in like a week late and they still passed me for the unit
#i dont think i was on disability anymore at that point so they just really believed in me 😭😭😭😭#to be fair i also remember doing an assignment for that class that i was REALLY proud of#and got good marks for. like lightbulb moment#so i guess it seemed like i knew what i was doing i just had Problems.#wait i might be mixing up two different classes.#anyways the reason i remembered this is becos i have a whole ass linguistics degree and i remember#precisely none of it <3#ok either im mixing up two classes OR i did the same thing for both of them.#i actually would have handed it in 2 weeks later but. the tutor (professor?) emailed me#and said i Had to hand it whatever i had. hence why it was unfinished
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Finally getting round to reading the Scarlet Pimpernel (free eBooks my beloved) and while I am really enjoying the story and everything is pretty easy to follow, the sheer royalist tones the book has is a lot
#i mean i knew that would be in here#given that pimpernel is a noble who rescued “innocent royals/rich people” from the guillotine during the reign of terror#and the book is set in england AND france#but its still a lot lol#its honestly nice so far#im managing two chapters a day which im really really proud of considering i cant remember the last time i read a book#well ok last one i read was beowulf but that wasn't too long (version i read anyway)#this book has like 29ish chapters? idr#its also worth noting the author herself was a baroness#and that her backstory involved her fleeing to england when she was 3 because the locals rebelled against her family and burnt down#the family home#which while im sure it was justified must have been terrifying for her#i cant lie either its interesting reading from this and seeing her perspective on things as much as i despise royalty i am very interested#in the whole system if that makes sense? its just fascinating to me#i think im gonna blame tlk for this one LMAO#but yeah good so far#also yeah im sure you guys know why im reading the book LMAO#if not well im sure you could probably guess 💀#to be fair the reign of terror was a pretty fucked up time so like i can see the need for pimpernel... somewhat#also fun fact for anyone interested but this book is actually what started the whole hero with a secret identity#and pimpernel is said to have inspired the likes of zorro and batman!#idk i just thought that was pretty cool
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