#im not in any distress

[living-undead]

Y'all don't understand. My mind is really fucking with me. Like, I cannot stay consistent. I'm constantly spinning and wheeling between multiple different ideas at the same time. Multiple thoughts that feel like they're coming from multiple sources, and I'm just sitting here being told by all of them to choose one. I want to give them all a try but I'm just one person, I only have 2 hands, there are only 24 hours in a day.

I may need to change how I handle this blog entirely if I'm gonna be able to keep up with the way my brain wants me to do things 😂

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

[ofswordsandpens]

thinking about a world in which RR actually committed to the path he set Percy on in hoo (wherein Percy has become jaded, angry, and resentful at the gods for breaking their sworn promises, is frequently sympathizing with Luke, is getting more and more powerful, and frequently losing himself to wrath) and instead of the subsequent Percy Jackson books being about getting recommendation letters, we could have gotten a trilogy exploring a fallen hero arc for Percy (that would ultimately have a positive resolution to it.)

[treeprince]

never let it be said that shen yuan doesnt fight for his man with bloody teeth

he started off already risking being sent back to his dead body to protect baby binghe the best he could on his first meeting and then continued to do so once the ooc shackles came off, made sure he felt loved and safe and at home on cqm, gave him every advantage he could think of (and then wondered why binghe got out of the abyss 2 yrs early, honey...), but bc those scum villain blinders were on so tight, he doesnt accept that he (the man shen yuan inside the character shen qingqiu) can change his own path enough to not be killed, and plans his own death accordingly bc he wont ever fight against binghe again if he can help it, i just...

this man loves binghe so much that he couldnt even conceive of a world in which binghe loves him back - and thats not just the comphet olympics in his brain talking, sy genuinely believes he's unlovable and only maybe sort of likeable by his fellow peak lords, and part of that comes from being forced into a scum villains role and not knowing the bigger picture behind sqq's actions (not even touching on how sy barely saw the entire cast of pidw as people until binghe actually looked hurt to him), but the rest was already preprogrammed before he transmigrated, and i want to know who hurt him so bad - bc all sy could imagine is that the whole world should love binghe, bc thats howmuch sy loves him the story is supposed to go, but all he could imagine for himself was gratitude at best and his demise at worst, until the very moment that it becomes clear that lbh has done everything, fucking EVERYTHING, to get sqq to love him back and i just SCREAMS

i cant imagine that sy would just let binghe go if he should ever decide to love someone else, the possession goes both ways with these two, and sy would fight tooth and nail to keep binghe for himself

[christakisbang]

yes, lee know-ya i see you aging along with me you're the second oldest but, to me you'll always be the maknae~♡

[noxious-fennec]

C!Q + vylette's fit from Jawbreaker

(aka an idea I've had for every conceivable holiday for months and decidedly couldn't put out on an appropriate date)

[starry-bi-sky]

welcome back to another game of 'starry gets Emotions about her aus that SHE Made as if she were a viewer' aka im analyzing my own characters again. today im having spontaneous feelings over Danny's facial scar in Things in Threes and his perspective of it vs everyone else

danny got his facial scar when he was five, protecting damian's cribside from a spontaneous attack by a pair of intruders. It narrowly missed blinding him and cuts down diagonally across his face. At five, it was jarring and incredibly noticeable, stretching from his hairline to his jaw. At 15 its still painfully noticeable, but scars do not grow with age, they shrink as your body grows around it. Now it only goes from the middle of his brow to below the center of his eye.

Danny's facial scar is a point of pride for him. Despite horribly traumatizing him he refused treatment to get rid of it because it was a physical reminder that it was him who got hurt and not Damian, that he was able to protect his family. Not once does he ever feel shame or disgust towards his scar, because to feel that is to feel ashamed of protecting Damian, and he is not.

To him, his scar is a trophy. A physical reminder of his capabilities and a reminder to keep honing his skills so that he can never be hurt like that again, nor allow anyone to get close enough to him or Damian to be able to hurt him like that again.

To everyone else it is a point of tragedy. To Sam and Tucker, it is just one more physical reminder of their best friend's sad, terrible background that he refuses to share with them. All they know is that it came from him protecting his brother when he was five, something that deeply horrifies them.

To Bruce and the rest of the family, it is a reminder of what Danyal has gone through. The leeching horrors of the league that resulted in a five year old boy killing two grown men and being permanently scarred as a result, and seeing that scar as something to be proud of.

There is so much to think about about Danyal's scar.

[itsdefinitely]

caught.

[muchmossymess]

hey we all agree that ed gets nightmares about ling absorbing the philosophers stone right

[good-vs-evo]

more tgcf characters as shitposts 💖 but ooc and specifically stuff my online friends of 4 years have said hehe

xl, fishing for info about hc: who’s the red guy… what’s his name

mq, not wanting to tell him anything: red guy

swd: you only get one (1) pronoun each

swd: only one.

swd: choose wisely

sqx: is it my turn on 'they' 🥺

pm: AM I SEXIER THAN MR CLEAN????

lw: aww im doing good hbu?

pm: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

hc: i just sneezed

hx: prob cuz ur gay

hc: bitch

hc: say bless u

[oceanwithouthermoon]

me yapping about aus literally nobody in the world but me would care about again

ok i think its like universally accepted that link and saiki are very similar, and saiki would be link in any given tdlosk zelda au.. BUTTT skyward sword kubosai au..... saiki being zelda and kuboyasu being link....... LIKE UGH yasu being the hero with an unbreakable spirit who would do literally anything for saiki, a god reborn whose being sought after for his power...... UGH.

the wing ceremony??? THE "i used you.." SCENE???? oh my fuckkkk dudee..

[kkoct-ik]

the lesser known did symptom of not knowing anything about your life because not only do you not remember anything (and the memories you Do have are heavily fragmented so you have no idea when they occured), but you also consistently destroy all traces of yourself during dissociative episodes. rip every diary ive tried to keep and almost every social media account. i will never know what i got up to or who i was during those years

i have a spreadsheet i use for documenting memories that turn up before i can forget them again. where i also do my best to estimate what year or season or month they came from. but its all just such a mess. even 2021 onwards which are supposed to be my therapy years are very very patchy. i wish i could just know my life

[rottenkadaver]

NEVER FORGET WHAT WE COULD'VE HAD

[floofymeow]

i love towa not in a platonic, romantic or carnal way, but as if he’s the small animal in a tank and I’m the one tapping on the glass trying to desperately get him to look over my way. it’s the joy of watching a tiny reptile wander around while understanding he’s just a silly little guy and I cannot force him to do things but by god i will harass him every step of the way (affectionate). i just want to pick the fleas out of his dirty alley cat (loving) hair and pinch his cheeks and pat the dust off his shoulders (he will stab me and that’s not ok but im fully aware of the risk).

[everyones-least-favorite-bard]

collector's item

[phagodyke]

the masculine urge to take a saucepan off thr draining board and bash myself repeatedly over the head with it until I pass out and no longer have to experience feeling Bad 😍