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spookypanda04 · 3 months ago

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IT IS 9 PM CURRENTLY AND I'VE GOTTEN EXACTLY 1 HOUR AND 20 MINUTES OF SLEEP IN THE PAST 24 HOURS. YOU'D THINK THIS MEANS I'D GET SOME SLEEP, BUT

NO

I can't. Not till I get off shift at approximately 7am.

#sighhhh #despite this #im not half bad currently #i have had all 3 meals today and 62 oz of liquid #spooky rants

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mochasucculent · 1 year ago

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Yea idk how I haven't shared them here yet but here's some doodles of Tabitha and "Apathy" (she ain't got a name yet), the two protags of my ghost story!

Grieving after the sudden loss of her grandmother, Apathy accidentally becomes bound to the spirit of Tabitha, a young girl who was murdered in the 1870s. Stuck together in unfamiliar circumstances, the two must discover how to send Tabitha on to the afterlife, and if they even can.

UPDATEEEEEEEEE Apathy's name is Naomi :)

#i draw tabitha all cheery usually but she has a very very rough time at the start #very vengeful and confused and inconsolable and angry #as one would be if they were murdered #the first drawing was a couple months ago but the last drawing was from maybe like a year and a half ago?#so they look a lil different #i change their designs slightly every time i draw them lol #but yea i imagine this as an animated series!#its a love letter to the PNW (my home baybey) as well as like. my attempt to utilize the vehicle of horror for character exploration #if u know i love midnight mass and haunting of hill house then the mike flanagan jumps out immediately lmao #tabitha bennett #naomi evans #ghost girl story #i dont have a name for any of my stories either #i thought maybe of calling it 'mortis operandi'#but idk what their usual way of doing things would be to make the modus operandi part of the title make sense lol #also the tagline would be something like 'life after death for those who have lost someone and those who were lost'#so then i thought of calling it something like 'those who were lost' but ghosts are kinda a rarity in this universe so #it feels like that shouldnt be the focus of the title #idk im REALLY bad with titles #i think the character writing for these lil dudes that currently only exists in my brain is some of the best ive done tho #grabs u by the shoulders: talk to me about the irony that tabitha teaches apathy how to feel alive again despite being the one who's dead #my art #ocs

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paulmccartneymybeloved · 10 months ago

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this is going to sound silly but

yknow that club night that I go to that I have mentioned on here a few times

the day after tomorrow I'm getting a tattoo for it and I'm so excited!!! I cannot wait!!!

#my fav dj from the club night designed the tattoo im getting #and im so excited to have it on my body forever #i realise it may sound a little silly #but this silly little club night means so much to me #and whilst there will be a time i stop going #(though that hopefully isnt for a good few years yet)#even when i do stop going #i will always have it on my skin #and i will look at it with fondness #because it isnt just a club night #its so many good memories #with good people #its a community #its something to look foreard to when i have had a bad week #i dont knoe what the last year and a half of my life would have been without that silly little club night #even if i regret the tattoo in the future when im old #im currently so excited to be getting it because it means a lot to me

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purpldawne · 7 days ago

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do i give in to the urges and blow 50 bucks on azu dakimura. . .

#im so tempted but also. hashtag embarrassing.#ive been eyeing it for a while now tho. . .#but im also like. is this really what i wanna ask for as an early holiday gift. do i really want my parents seeing this.#the standees im looking at will be half off for black friday so if i just ask for 100 i could. i absolutely could.#i feel bad for the long cat that currently carries me thru life so i figure what better to replace it than my own professional cuddler :)

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toytulini · 5 months ago

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wheres that post about how its hard to have like a fucking depression spiral or whatever while knitting bc lemme tell u im sitting here fighting back tears while actively crocheting and its not fucking working

#toy txt post #depression spiral self worth spiral the world sucks and everything is bad and stupid spiral #whatever you want to call it. im fucking miserable and my eyes keep watering and making it kinda hard to see the fucking stitches #guess thatd be less of an issue if i was doing a standard moss stitch instead if a modified variant w half doubles and working into the #stitch under the space instead of in the chain space which is a little more annoying and fiddly to find than the chain space #whatever. its all the same stupid fucking shit anyway. whatever whatever whatever whatever #nothing matters everything is stupid and sucks and whats the fucking point! god #and then dad will just get home and sternly scold me for not looking for a job anyway #as if i could currently fucking handle being asked what my fucking strengths are or whatever #and i bet fucking period is not fucking helping cos hormone fluctuations do weird shit to emotions i fucking guess. whatever #i feel like my head is going to explode #'just let yourself cry let it out!' no. its fucking inconvenient and doesnt even release all the stupid fucking feelings it just leaves me #exhausted and wasting a bunch of fucking tissues. whatever #im a stupid lazy bitch whatever and im Not. but i am #what does it matter #i cant even deal with the fucking ants in my bedroom im just hiding from them in my brothers empty room #i washed all my bedding but havent remade the bed bc im like oh i should wait for the ants to be gone #cant do anything. cant do fucking anything at all ever #i should get out of the house and touch grass and that would be good for me but like. where #i shouldnt even leave the house bc im not insured and what if i get into a car crash? i hate everything #negative #whining

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odetolovers · 10 months ago

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it is absolutely wild the way i’ve allowed people to treat me

#every year i write an end of year recap i’ve been doing it since 2019 #this year So much happened but one of the big things was breaking up with my ex #and it genuinely blows my mind how badly i was treated and the fact i stayed as long as i did #year and a half of clownery when i knew after 4 months i’d been sold a lie 😭#i feel so bad for past me because girlie you didnt deserve that!! nobody does!!!#it’s helped me sm in my current relationship because i know what it’s like to be the collateral for someone’s self hatred #it’s motivated me to heal and develop self esteem so i dont do that to my wonderful partner #they have really shown me what love is and let me tell you! it’s nothing i experienced with my ex!#mind blowing mind boggling i am never letting Anyone treat me that appallingly ever again #literally crazy i wish her a lot of healing and growth cos goddamn how are you terrified of being a bad person yet treat people like you #treated me. no wayyyy no way #i so believe in that thing of what people are most scared of they’re most likely to do #goddamn! 2023 man. wild time #valentina talks #i definitely made many a mistake which is why im not really like. Angry at her because i understand and i’ve had to change a lot and grow a #lot too. i think everyone just is perpetually making mistakes and growing and that’s okay. but it doesn’t mean the people you hurt need to #forgive you or think your actions were okay #just yeesh. i’m glad it’s over and i moved on

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casual-eumetazoa · 10 months ago

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hi does anyone have ideas for ways to occupy your brain so that it doesn't blast intrusive thoughts 24/7. activities need to also be not super brain heavy and able to be done in bed if needed. for now I'm playing a lot of mobile games and watching a lot of youtube but it's getting repetitive and starting to lose the effect. thank in advance

#chronic illness #spoonie #intrusive thoughts #disabled #my current list of issues is. uh. its a lot #started with severe autism burnout #which caused EDS and dysautonomia to flare like hell #then it turned out i also have hyperthyroidism and probably need surgery #then it turned out what i always thought was just anxiety is actually OCD #and its also flaring like so bad #i had to go back on the meds i was on when i was 18 which are first gen antipsychotics #just to be able to eat and drink without the intrusive thoughts telling me it will kill me #now I'm on two psychiatric medications at once and its still kinda hard to do anything #half the days im stuck in bed because of dysautonomia/postural hypotension #i can't concentrate on shit because of the thyroid and burnout #so even reading and writing are super hard #but i need to constantly be doing something or the thoughts get overwhelming #so like. any advice is appreciated #its also quite likely i will lose the spot in the PhD program because of this #because there is no system for medical leave for us #so me and partner will lose our only source of income #but for now they're still paying me even though i havent showed up for a whole month #so that's a problem for another day #oh i also need a wisdom tooth removed ......#feels like my life has been repeatedly hit with a hammer

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euclydya · 2 months ago

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ok we're back. what the fuck

#really interesting couple of hours #dark and wil dot exe are not working currently. NO idea what happened to shut them down #mark is perfectly fine??? i mean he's... partially on fire but that's not causing him any harm it looks like. he's red aligned so that also #makes sense that he controls fire actually.#bill almost shattered I think. looking at Him He's got big cracks down His back? and He said earlier He heard the headspace start crumbling #no idea what happened there but everyone is fine #uhhhhhh ..... the body cried. a lot. but everyone is unharmed. except bill. whom again. has a giant ass crack in Him.#but i dont think it's hurting Him??#you may be like 'that sounds like a sign that you should sleep' we're not tired at all #sighs. and all this on cosm's birthday too. fuck.#im worried the headspace DID shatter some but we've been holed up in mine amd Actor's room for the past couple hours #lmfao we're all too scared to check #if it... DID shatter then I reckon half our crew is out of commission actually and unreachable #which sucks.#because that means dark and wil are also unreachable.#y'know. 2 out of 3 of our hosts. fhfhdjdjfjdjsj #at least we can still reach ego brains...? probably???#we'll see.#pk;m Ciel🧑‍🚀#tl;dr: stress sucks bad. this is the aftereffects of a Lot of it i guess.#........ ohhh yep that's. a good chunk of Spacehead missing. don't know how long it'll be til we get that half back.#Cosm was in that half. christ alive.#fjfnxnxnxnzn #sorry to sound dramatic. this all correlates to: WE'RE STRESSED! least we aren't splitting anymore. fncjxndnf #deletey

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avatar-aaang · 3 months ago

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oh okay so she can send out an email about staff birthdays but not the fucking schedule. got it. Priorities.

#personal #every single new coworker ive met lately has the same opinion of her that my usual coworkers do:#she should absolutely NOT be in this position. she is bad at it and doesnt listen to any of us #also. i think her hiring was maybe... racist. like shes a white woman. fine whatever #but i was speaking to one of my coworkers whos an older Black woman (one of my new fav coworkers too shes a hoot)#and she said that she and about r or 5 others were on a panel to sit in for the interview process that hired current manager #and she started listing everyone else who was there and i was like huh. every she mentioned is also Black. interesting #and she said not a single one of them picked current manager and gave their reasons why #and it seems to me that all of their opinions were so neatly ignored. so like why invite them? for diversity points? to look inclusive?#to make it seem like we even had a choice?#bc that is not a good look!!!#id say a third to half of my entire coworker group is Black and to find out that a small group of them were ignored when actively asked for #their opinion on a very important decision? yea no that doesnt seem right #and i think when my coworker told me she knew. and im like hmm. makes me wonder what to do #i mean i will be emailing hr soon enough bc current manager is not just annoying and incompetent but also ableist lol #i just need to get together with some coworkers so we can draft one large complaint bc umm. yea fuck this stupid bitch oh my god. ive had it #with her and her antics and the librarys too since they wanna ignore my coworkers apparently!#most of whom are older and retired teachers and actively and always know what the fuck theyre doing #id trust literally any of my coworkers to do managers job before manager. bc i know literally any of them could do it

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scp-69 · 10 months ago

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i think car insurance should be free if youre cute

#why are they making me pay a grand......... i know its like my second year as a Car Driver Person but please thats so much money...........#ive never been in a crash ive only ever hit walls and out trailer a couple of times my car is a piece of shit anyway cmoooon u wanna give #me free insurance soooo so bad. you do not want to take over half my savings in one lump sum. you love me so much. cmon..#staring at the £6.15 in my bank account currently. im turning evil #bloop

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djinn-ale · 5 months ago

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at this point not even a khr remake or some other adaptation would save me i need my world to be rocked by a piece of fanfiction

#im so sick.#sorry. nothing canon can save the way like half the cast (the women) is treated.#currently slogging it through a 500k (sorry soha) tyl+ fic just to feel something again guys its bad #guy who is cursed to enjoy nothingburger pieces of media: why is this piece of media such a nothingburger

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lightnersdream · 3 months ago

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in order of best to worst:

creatures&petz (tied) > aj (classic) > aj (playwild) > neopets

#i'd rank neopets higher but im also factoring technical functionality as well #and currently like half the site is completely broken and inaccessable and has been since flash died #dib noise #ajpw is also a bad game but it atleast functions fully #at full functionality i'd rank neopets above ajpw

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lightbulb-warning · 1 year ago

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wip! based on the fte!! this was supposed to be a small doodle!!! It’s me and my compulsive urge to overcomplicate my life against the world!!!! (/exasperated!!!!!) /lh