#and i think when my coworker told me she knew. and im like hmm. makes me wonder what to do

[avatar-aaang]

oh okay so she can send out an email about staff birthdays but not the fucking schedule. got it. Priorities.

[nish-with-no-niche]

When No One's Around...

Chartered accountant!Jaebeom x Software engineer!Reader

Summary :

Ever wonder how much alcohol tolerance can Jaebeom have for you? Read till the end to find out ;)

Warning :

1) This chapter.....is a long ass ride.

2) I know some people prefer using their name, but I only realised it later that instead of (Y/N) I accidentally gave reader-nim a name, i.e, Yeseul. So kindly bear with me as it's my first time writing a 2nd person perspective and just imagine your own name in its place. Thankyou and.....enjoy!

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You finally had finished your board meeting and were heading out of the office building with your co-workers to retire to your humble abode.

"It's 7:37 pm ladies and gentlemen, and we are finally free for the night.", said Sarah, one of your close colleagues.

"Aaaand we're leaving 2 hours later than the designated office hours. This is over time!", exclaimed Kyunghwan, your senior, and sales manager. It was totally unusual but justified for everyone to feel this way. After such a heated discussion about the proposals everyone was exhausted and acted dramatically. Even though they were your seniors, almost everybody still treated each other without the honorifics outside of work; albeit they could seem eccentric given the time and place. You yourself had experienced it first hand and maybe tonight had just a little bit more in store for you.

" Everyone, I totally understand how you must feel.....", stated Mr. Yoon-ho, the team director. "We, are not getting paid enough. Let's go to a restaurant and give ourselves a well deserved treat. The person who is wearing blue today will be the ones to pay up!", came his suggestion.

Hearing his sudden offer, each person constituting the 8 people group cheered and hooted but started checking their dress colours as the realization hit in. 'Oh thank god, I'm wearing anything but blue today' , everyone thought simultaneously.

However everyone's eyes landed on you as you were the only one wearing a turquoise blue ruffle shirt with beige coloured cigarette pants. And everybody knew exactly where that suggestion in the director's mind had come up.

' Oh lord, it's Yeseul again.'

Firstly, Yoon-ho was a huge-ass spend-thrift. Even if he knows he wont eat or use something, he would still spend money on it. Especially when it's someone else's money.

And secondly, he despised you. You and your intelligence. And the fact that you were humble made it even worse for him.

Atleast one can hate on arrogant people for their arrogance. As for humble people, we can't even hate them for anything, much less like. Tch.

Sarah, concerned for you asked if you were okay with that. Not that you really had a choice in the first place.

But you had stopped listening-in to their conversation, midway. Because your eyes were solely fixated on this unexpected visitor, standing right across the road, leaning against his car and looking right at you.

Im Jaebeom, your soon-to-be fiancè, in all his glory was right in front of you and you had no idea what he was doing there.

"Sarah, I'll see you later."

Coming to your senses after 3.57 seconds, you waved back at him and quickly crossed the road to reach him.

" Yeseul, hey" started Jaebeom.

"Uh, hi! I didn't know you were here. How have you been?", unsure, you asked him.

"I've been good. I got off work early today so I decided to pick you up like a responsible boyfriend", smirked Jaebeom.

He had his hands in his pant pockets the whole time, was wearing a suit with his hair gelled up and looked like the epitome of a perfectly successful banker.

"How long had you been waiting?", you questioned. "Not too long, about 20 minutes? .... Yeah. Don't worry though, I was busy on my phone." He lied. He knew you'd feel even worse about the truth because in reality he had been waiting for you since two hours thirty-seven minutes and sixteen seconds.

But even then you insisted, " Now this makes me look really bad. You didn't have to come all the way here. Why didn't you call me?"

"I wanted to be here", he replied cheekily and pat your head. "And it was a good surprise, wasn't it?"

(Sighing) "what if I already went home or I was staying in late?"

"Well then lets just say I got lucky" he smiled.

You were about to say something further, but he cut you in, " By the way, your...... colleagues, they seem... expectant?" Looking back at them you see them all wide-eyed and smiley-faces as if they just didn't come out of an exhausting office day. Realizing their expressions , you turned and asked Jaebeom, " oh, um, Jaebeom-shi, you're not too tired, right? Have you eaten something?"

"No, not really, why?"

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" HA, HA, HA, HA, HA! WHAT A NIGHT MAN, WHOO!!" roared a drunk Mr. Yoon. "Wow, Yeseul, you have such a nice boyfriend, he's a keeper, hahahaha. Everyone! say, 'THANKYOU IM JAEBEOM-SSI!'.

Bashfully, everyone complied, giving you sorry smiles and yet enjoying the food and drinks in front of them as if it was their first time eating.

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Since the time the talks of you about to being engaged rounded up in the halls of your office, everybody had been eager and curious to meet this Mr. Perfect who they had only seen in photos. Everyday not only the women but also your male coworkers would come over at your desk asking you to set up a get together with him.

They all wanted to know who this mysterious person was, taking a liking for someone as stoic as you. They never imagined you being in a relationship with anyone- always holding the title of 'Fashion Femme Fatale'.

So now here you were- with Jaebeom- and a gang of 8 people who were doing nothing but wasting Jaebeom's hard earned money.

Yes, he offered to pay up in your stead.

Ah! So chic!

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You were getting really uncomfortable because you felt bad for Jaebeom who was nothing but sweet to everyone all this time. You were barely starting off in a relationship and now he had to witness all of ....... this.

You wanted to just take your bag and run away with him.

"Hmm, Yeseul , how long has it been since you guys started dating?" Asked Yoon-ho.

Huh?

" uh, it's been about...... 2 months?" you replied looking at Jaebeom for confirmation. After getting his nod of approval you continued, "why do you ask though, sunbae-nim?"

"Ah! I didn't get to congratulate you. First of all....... let me pour you a drink!"

"What, out of nowhere?"you retaliated.

"Ahem! I'm your superior."he countered. "You didn't even touch anything yet, Drink~ bottoms up~~".

In the midst of his coercions, you contemplated- 'Why... do I get intimidated by Yoon-ho ssi? .... Soju's too strong ...... Jaebeom won't be able to drive if he drinks it.... house is far tooo. *sighs* it's over for me if I get drunk and act like an idiot in front of them.... hhnnngg. But if I refuse, the mood will get cold.... last time I was fine for the first few drinks, right?-"

"Give it to me."interceded Jaebeom.

"Huh?"

Turning towards the crowd, he stated, "Yeseul's bad with alcohol. I'll drink for her."

"Ooo~ hahahaha~~"

"playing the knight for your girlfriend ? ~~ "

"so cool!! Whoa~"

Sighing you looked at him, starting to get a little worried. But suddenly everyone chimed in- "still! We're not satisfied with one drink!"

"Let's get Yeseul-ah drunk~!"

"Me too!"

"You cant resist our drink! We're your superiors!"

"Aah~ now, let's not push her too hard. Take it slow. Slow~" said Yoon-ho, giving you his ever so sweet smile.

'It is you I hate the most!' You thought.

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"Aah~ Jaebeom-ssi drank them all"

"~Food is great here!"

"Heard this is the hidden place for gourmets."

After a while things seemed to settle down, your thoughts again wandered towards Jaebeom-

'He keeps on tapping his fingers and feet.... all the while maintaining his smile. I wonder if he's getting bothered by them..... ' -

"Hey~ she cant take her eyes off her BOYFRIEND!" chirped Yujin( colleague, same age as you). Following suit everyone got started off- "He's good looking right?" " you didn't even glance at the others ~" "what ? No, when did I.. " you tried to defend yourself. Sarah who was sitting next to you all this time whispered, "don't take them too seriously 'seul- ah, they're only teasing you, and you know everyone is as good as drunk."

Suddenly Kyunghwan, who was sitting opposite to you, waiting for the right opportunity slipped in~ " You can take mild Brandy right?"

"Ah yes, I can"

"NO." Jaebeom interceded. Again.

He took the glass from his hand and drank it.

"Aish intercepting it all, gosh!"he exclaimed.

But leaving no stone unturned, he kept pressing, "hey! You guys are a couple, atleast show us a kiss!" And everyone started hooted demanding such a public display of affection.

Hearing this, your ears flared up, " oof, what's with you all? Dont you think it's too much? ..... please stop it already. I dont really want to do it. ........Why do we have to do it in front of you?"

Now this... was just too much. Right when you were about to give them a piece of your mind-

"Okay."Jaebeom announced.

" ...... "

" ....... "

" ....... "

What.

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The truth is that both of you had never really kissed before, the closest form of affection you were able to showcase for now was simply a hug, that too only when you were alone. You had no idea what went through his mind when he agreed to everyone's plea. Was he finally drunk? You had never seen him drunk before, all though a few of his friends that you had met told you he had a strong temperance. Maybe this was okay for him?.... Did he probably hear it wrong? Not being able to make head or tail of the situation you questioned him, "Jaebeom-"

"You....... and you." Cutting you off, said person pointed at Kyunghwan and then at Yujin.

"If you two do it, we'll do it too. In fact, it doesn't matter if any other two do it either." explained Jaebeom with a smile.

And then you realised what he was actually doing.

"Don't want to, right?..... I stink of alcohol and 'seul said she doesn't want it. Moreover, it won't look good, if a lady's colleagues at work would act like this, much less her seniors."

"Uh. . . . " a flustered Yujin tried to speak.

" Well I wasn't going to force her to do that" resigned Kyunghwan with a pout.

"Yeah let's just forget about it, okay guys? ", Sarah spoke.

"Wow~ get married already Yeseul, reqally" Said Yoon-ho.

"Such a perfect couple. Tch" mumbled Yujin.

However, when everyone went back to their own, Kyunghwan caught Jaebeom giving him a side glance with a poker face who then turned to look at you. Even though such a gesture unnerved him, the alcohol immediately brushed off that feeling.

You on the other hand were getting more and more worried about Jaebeom, you lost count of how many glasses he must've had on your account, and tried one more time to check up on him- " are you alright? You've been really drinking a lot." But he only gave you a smile in return.

(Sighing) 'He drank way too mu-' *plop*

His head suddenly on your shoulder now, he spoke, " I want to rest."

Looking at you Sarah whispered," He must be tired, you should go home now, don't worry, I'll take care of it here."

"Okay. Jaebeom-ssi ....... Jaebeom? Let's go home now, ok?" You asked.

"Seul."

"Yes?"

"My head aches."

"What? Headache?"

"Its too noisy here..... my head aches.....". Alarmed by this sight you wondered ' 'why's he like this ? Since the start he seemed a bit off. Is his head hurting from being drunk? This was such a bad idea."

You see him gently lift his head up and stare at his hands. Or the table. Or the plate? You see jaebeom blink.

"..."

And he blinked again.

'Ohmygod,he's definitely drunk.'

" uhh, hey- let's go get some fresh air, okay?" You asked holding him by the shoulders. You never witnessed something like this before. But he just stared at you.

'Answer me already.' You thought. Helping him stand up you took your bag, "okay, Sarah, we'll be leaving now, I'll catch you tomorrow, take care!"

"Yeah, you too, goodnight~" returned Sarah.

Once outside you tried to remember where the car was, since the restaurant didn't have a parking lot. You walked a few meters and then stopped. Due to him leaning on you, your back and neck hurt a little, so you decided to sit on the nearby bench. 'Ah, I'm out of strength.'

You both just sat next to each other like that for a while and then you asked him where the car was kept.

But he just smiled at you.

Heaving a sigh, you stood up and started searching around. "Just sit here, and dont move Jaebeom- ssi, I'll be right back." He saw your retreating figure as you left.

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After about 10 min you find the car at the backside of the building and return to where Jaebeon was.

"I found the car, give me the keys and I'll drop you off home" you said.

"Yeseul."

"Yes?"

He smiled. Again.

"Seems like you won't get up for a while." So you sat down. Did he even listen to a word you said? And no sooner than you did, he reached his hand out to touch your face, whereas you instinctively moved back. He paused for a moment, mid air, and then touched your cheek. "You look tired", he said thoughtfully.

Well he wasn't completely wrong.

He let his head drop on your shoulder, and again with the same sweet, mellow voice recited you name," Ye.seul.ah."

"Yes, yes I hear you." You laughed.

"I should've just left with you after work was over rather than come here. Everyone just wanted to meet you so bad. I'm sorry."

" . . . "

"Plus I didn't want you to pay for those guys." You confessed.

"Pay?", queried Jaebeom. "seeing how they sat and behaved with you , it's obvious that they were trying to leech off." He finally spoke.

" Yeseul, I want you to be very cautious and smart about who you associate yourself with in that work place and any where else. I won't always be around you, so you must be wary of people like Kyunghwan. Got it?" And then he lifted his head up to stare straight ahead.

So that's what was bothering him.

Trying to lift the strange tense atmosphere you spoke in childish wonder, "how dare they think of you as a pushover! In fact, why did you even drink whatever came my way, I could've handled-"

"What would you have done?" Cut in Jabeom.

You fell silent.

"Those two men and that woman, those three were your seniors. And anyone could notice how they exploited their position. I understood you couldn't do much from where you stand", he reprimanded you.

After a pause he continued, now in a smaller voice- "I dont think I can drive, how will you get back home?"

" Well thanx to a certain someone, I'm completely sober. So I'll drive your car to your house and drop you off. Then I'll take a cab to mine."

" 'seul?"

"Hmm?"

"You like me right?"

"Huh", you sat up straight, taken off guard by his question.

"You're sincere to me right? Whatever I do, I have always been sincere towards you."

Suddenly flustered by this uncharacteristic side of him you just tried to avoid his question, staring straight ahead.

"Just give me the car keys, let's go home now..." you said in a daze.

'Its definitely the alcohol in his brain.'

"Yeseul!"

"Ah, yes-"

chu!~~

"Wha..."

Chu!~~~

Jaebeom kissed you.

And the realization hit in.

Huh.

Huh???!!

" #$%@&**?! Jaebeom-!!! "

" ? "

"What are you ?! Why did you?!-"

"Hm? What? No one's around."

And he kissed you again. This time properly. Making you feel nothing like ever before.

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Sadly, he ended up passing-out right after and you drove him back to his house, aided the house-helper lay him on bed, took a cab, went back to your home, changed into your night clothes, slipped in your bed and you laughed. You laughed until sleep graced you with her presence.

Except she never came.You were awake the whole night, rewinding and playing the scene again and again with the thought that would nag any other girl in your shoes- 'How do I see him after tonight! '.

Adjshklllajsldgddhddfffff !!!!!!

Eeeek!

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That's the end readers! I hope you enjoyed it my very precious people. If you did then do like and comment. Feedbacks are highly appreciated 🤧🤧

And I wish for your good health in such times and hopefully I was able to help make this quarantine maybe a little more bearable for you. Thanx for reading and dont forget- You Da Best!!!

[knicole0527]

How Did I Fall For Unwritten History?

So I’m in a whole relationship right? Like a whole fat ass relationship. Like me plus her equals nobody else . Its kinda dope and kinda like coccaine . If she was a drug I’d take it . She grounds me . She makes love to my mind , heart , and then my body . Her way of words sometimes makes me feel stupid because she uses words I cant imagine using . My vocabulary aint that big . But ask me about math or science ? I’m definitely ya girl . She was my missing piece . If that makes any sense at all . We definitely have our rollercoasters but I’ll killl anyone over her and I stand on that . Best part its with who I chose and not who my parents chose or approved of. I actually dont care whether they approve of me or not. Mom didnt want kids anyways. As she put it, she likes “ a return to sender kid “ I know she used to joke about it but I later found it to be true. So at this point either you like my happiness or you dont. But anyways, So we met the first time at work, Afni Call Center to be exact. She was a bet. By bet I mean with green money with coworkers. So I bet that I would get smashed by this girl and they would each owe me 50 bucks. I mean who can turn down money. Plus she was kinda cute and I know she was watching my little booty when I would walk away . I was 80 pounds lighter when we first met .

But here lately things have gone to shit . I can admit I fucked up . Well in the beginning . I cheated . She found out . But I was honestly gone tell her everything but she found out I broke her heart all that and then some . Since I put all my business out there . Only reason why I cheated was because I wanted a kid . I wanted her for sure but I wanted a kid . As time passed us by I realized she doesn’t want kids at all . So I had to make a decision , kids or stick around for my one true love in my adult life . So I looked her in the face , I probably had tears In my eyes and told her I chose her . She looked at me with confusion for a little and I dont think she anted me to flat out give up kids. But I was gone doe what I had to do to keep her by my side .

Now before we get to me cheating . I had an apartment on Old Morgantown Road . I loved that damn space man . Hard wood flooring . Storage unit . I had a w/d hook up . I had a good apartment and I could afford it and be able to live my best life . Rent was 475 a month . Utilities and water ran me about 80 . So I was well within my budget . But my dumb ass got involved with this man who I thought I could change . I was trying to hear from nobody about nothing . I wasnt trying to hear that he was cheating because I felt like I gave him no reason to cheat . I was giving him everything and then some . Hell I let his stupid ass cousin stay on my couch . So they were living rent free right , I know stupid Kendra always doing dumb shit . I should have opened my eyes but I didn’t .

Well he and I are definitely no longer together . He got my little cousin pregnant . I dont know whats worse . That she knew he was still living with me . That she knew we was kin . That he knew we was still together , fucking and living together and I never ask for a dollar . Or that my bosses had to call me in the office with another one of my cousins and sit me down to tell and show me that he was cheating and she was pregnant . It even shocked me that she tried to question me about my niggas car . Like girl he and I live together so yes maam I’m gone drive his car . and she was in shock to see me in the drivers seat . huh . Aint that funny how it all played out though ? But you know , karma got took his dick for a minute . He got the worst news of his life . His heart was just as shattered as mine . His trust was screwed if not worse than mine . He found out that while he was too busy cheating on me , she was getting knocked down by his cousin . LMFAO SERIOUSLY . He did all that cheating and got that girl pregnant and ended up getting played himself . So while I was his woman , he had a side bitch who had a side nigga , but THE SIDE NIGGA HAD A SIDE BITCH . I hadnt had sex with him in a while because things started getting to me and I was becoming very suspicious so I was still going to get checked anyways . But yea . What a fckd up love hexagon . Crazy how we all worked together . But when I reached my snapping point . I became a little on the ratchet side and called his mom and told her come get her sons belongings because he was homeless again . My cousin didnt have her own spot so somebody had to come take care of him because by that time I was done pretending .

Shit got bad for me mentally . I had me fckd up . I lost my job and went broke because I drank and popped it away . I know definitely wasn’t the right thing but I just wanted to feel numb to everything . I didnt really care how I got high just as long as I as high I was okay and at peace .

Alot of time went by and my past came back . She made me feel safe . And she saw me ; like the actual me . She knew something was up . Hell I gained 50 pounds since the last time we seen each other . But when she came back . I dont know if I was more so excited to see her or trying to fuck her right there on the floor at work . I walked in the door and the moment I seen her ... I didnt care who I was talking to , I think Wanda , I’m sorry boo but I seen my old boo and just had to do it . I could not help myself I had to hug her before I did anything else . I had a little more weight on me too because during our last encounter , hmm hmm , I was a bit smaller and hadnt grown boobs yet . So when she seen me running 90 mph to her ; baby girl was in for a shock .

Time went by and we started seeing each other a little more outside of work . Then she started to spend the night . But when she started doing that , I think I made things a little complicated for her at her moms . I had no intentions of doing so but it kinda got weird because she wasnt coming home very much any more . But yall , when I had her all to myself . Do you know how many times I undressed this girl with my eyes . I mean she standing there fully clothed and I seen EVERY INCH of her thru them clothes . It was bad yall . lol . She kinda eventually sorda moved in ; even though I thought she had already moved in . Time went by and things were okay ya know . We were just in the “ talking “ phase and just filling each other out . She started to grow on me a little more than I planned . and then I wanna say it was my birthday or after ? Baby girl was so drunk . She , our mutual friend , and I went to go grab food and drinks . Weeellllllll , I trapped her into drinking and drinking and drinking . We got home ? and she drank and and got funnier as the night went on . I remember that day like it was yesterday and the videos I have are absolutely the funniest videos I have ever recorded . “ butt clouds “ and the car honk that about gave her a damn heart attack .

Anywho times have went on . We decided to go to hilltop and live there . Who would have thought we would live together because I was stern on not wanting to live with her . It was weird living there . Always wondering if or when we were going to get a roommate . Then ? Thats the first time I ever broke a heart . See , she was always wanting to like distinguish a title. Meanwhile I am petrified of titles and labels and shit . Plus I have labeled myself for so long I didnt want to put a label on she and I . So I waited and waited and waited and decided to test waters . By testing waters meaning , I caught baby fever BAD . LIKE BAD BAD . I wanted a kid so bad I didnt think about talking to her first , I was just hoping one day I could be like , surprise baby we are having a baby ; butttttt I was gonna tell her how I got pregnant IF if actually happened . But she kinda beat me to it . She seen the messages on her tablet and as you know it went to shit from there . I broke her heart . I wasnt sure if or when she would or could ever forgive me . ( its JAn232021 ) and I know she still hasn’t forgiven me for anything . Not sure if she will ever get past it enough to love me love me .

We made it official , May 2019. By that time the only things that mattered to me were building a life with her. Come August 2020 . We got a place together and as time went on, I knew something was wrong but I would rather ignore it than have to go to the doctor because that just aint my cup of tea. I hate doctors.. they always wanna diagnose people with shit. I just didn’t wanna be one of those people so I held out as long as I could before it got to the point of being unbearable . I lost yet another good job . At first they thought it was covid and it wasnt . I tested negative for covid . Then I had like 5 appointments that following week . I was put on all types of stuff . I was throwing up everything . I was crying non stop . I was doing things not in my normal regimen . Thats when things fell harder on her . Harder as in bills , and stress and everything . I became that burden . I became the thing in the relationship that puts everything on the line . I became the complete failure in the relationship .

I wasn’t able to help like I planned . in fact my checks were so small that every pay day because I had all my bills and people I owed money to on auto pay and I kept making promises, put me in the negatives . I was in the negatives for 3 to 4 months . So imagine being the one in the relationship who didnt feel welcome . Who didnt feel like I deserved the love and things like that . All I wanted to do was help out and I couldn’t . Made me want to pack up and wait until I knew she was gone so I could leave . I didn’t know what to do . But I knew I was pretty much of no use . I knew that she resented me . I knew it pushed things back so far it may never come back to normal .

But now , Im better than I was still struggling though .  But I have this amazing job . I have a job where I can do my part and not hurt . I have a job where I can finally help out now . But its not enough . I’m not enough . The love is not enough anymore . I have became disposable . I have become the one who broke and shattered her heart and trust in her adult love life . How do I come back from it ? How do I rescue something that may have already died ? Am I worth it ? Am I better off without ? Do I deserve her ? She deserves the world and I want to give it to her I do .

But idk , maybe my mom was right . just maybe the only things I’m good at are singing and laying on my back . Havent accomplished shit yet . Got banned from a job because I tried to put my hands on someone . Got fired from 3 good fucking jobs because of my health .

Im crashing at this point . My future is on edge . I am on edge . this is not cool dude . But I will play the hand I’m dealt . Maybe I will win and marry the woMAN of my dreams . Or maybe I will just fck it up once again . We Will See .

[noona-la-la-la]

Noona, do you have any bad interview experience to share? I went to an interview today. Once I entered the room, before I sat down the interviewer already asked me to start introducing myself & that she’s busy so I need to make this quick 😐 guess what I actually waited 30 mins because the previous interviews overran The whole time she was keeping a straight face and talking in monotone, also does not show interests in my work (I’m a graphic designer) 1/2

She asked why did I quit my last job so I explained that because there wasn’t a career path and she immediately goes “Same here!” I explained to her that I’m well aware of it but I’m interested in working for a museum. At the end, she showed me 5 exhibition leaflets they’ve done in the past and asked me what I like about them. Tbh I started criticizing the designs in my head the minute I started looking at them (because of my designer instinct lol)

All I could think about was things I didn’t like about the designs When she saw me quickly flipped through all 5 leaflets, she literally says - are you done? Are you ready to talk about it? (in a rude manner) I was like - hmm am I supposed to talk about what I like? And she says I can also say things that I didn’t like LOL so I started criticizing about one of the leaflets, I listed a few points and she suddenly goes - Then what do you like about them!? 🤡

After the interview,I looked up her name on google I found out she’s a senior designer so I assume she approved those leaflet designs even if it may not be designed by her She might be pissed that I’m criticizing her works 😂 I feel so dumb cause she simply looks like an old housewife to me I thought she’s some supervisor who doesn’t know design at all LOL Im always being honest at interviews and sometimes it’s hard to filter what I say when I’m unprepared😅 I need help

1.  That company doesn’t deserve you (or anyone else) if they are going to treat the people who interview with them that poorly.  Interviews are a two way street -- meaning while they are interviewing you to see if you fit, you should also be interviewing them to make sure this is a place you would really want to work.  Would you really want a woman who was so inconsiderate to a job candidate to become your boss?  

2.  Pretty much everyone has blown an interview at some point or another.  It happens and being unprepared for the question is one of the main reasons people give less than stellar answers.  That’s okay.  So consider this practice and think about what might have been a better way to answer that question.  Next time someone asks you something similar, you’ll be prepared.

As for my own bad interview stories?  Oh, man, I have MANY stories I could tell.  Also, I’ve often thought that if I ever wrote a book for money - it would be about interviewing.  I have tremendous experience in this area.

To keep it manageable - I’ll put the rest of my thoughts under the cut.

How about the time I interviewed for a job and the recruiter was describing some of the new business practices and technologies they were adopting and I said, “I think it’s great that Company A is embracing these new, progressive approaches to business problems.  So many of the companies I’ve interviewed with rely on old-fashioned approaches because they are comfortable with the status quo.”  AND SHE FLIPPED OUT ON ME!  She said things like “What’s wrong with being old-fashioned?  This company was based on old fashioned principals like hard work and loyalty.  Our founder believed in doing things the old fashioned way!” 

Or the time I went in for an interview with Company B, met with a couple people, was there for almost 90 minutes and then they excused themselves.  They left me alone in the interview room when all of a sudden some other guy comes in and says he is the Director of Sales and that the previous interviewers thought he should talk to me because of my background.  Apparently they thought that I might be a good fit for a job on his team ( a job that I didn’t apply for) . So this guy proceeds to start interviewing me for a completely different role and I don’t even understand what it is.  No one is even bothering to ask me if I’m interested in doing sales (I’m not, FYI) and I’m completely unprepared.  He and I spoke for maybe another 40 minutes when  the original interviewer/hiring manager comes into the room and asks to speak to the Sales Director.  They excuse themselves and go out into the hallway to talk AND I CAN HEAR THEM.  The original hiring manager asks the Sales Director why he’s wasting his time talking to me because the original interviewers already decided that they don’t like me and don’t want to hire me.  So the Sales Director pops back into the room to grab his notebook and says to be that an “emergency” came up and he has to go.  So I’m alone again, for maybe 10 minutes when the receptionist opens the door, pops her head in to say the hiring manager to her to tell me “That you can leave now” and then she pops back out and is gone.   I gather my stuff and walk out of the interview room.  It’s like 6:30pm on a Friday, the building is now empty, it’s a huge office building and everything looks the same and I’m completely lost because it was a number of twists and turns when they brought me to the interview room and I end up wandering around this empty office for a while until I stumble upon the lobby.  The receptionist is already gone and a security guard had to unlock the door to let me out.

Or how about the time that I interviewed with Company C and the interviewer asked me a question about the most creative way I’ve ever solved a specific type of business problem.  She really emphasized the “creative” part of the question, so I knew she wanted something way out of the box.  Unfortunately, I wasn’t really prepared for that, so I started to tell her the first thing that came to my mind... and it was a doozy!  I start telling her this story which includes hiring a bunch of strippers and half way through telling her this completely inappropriate story, I realize that I don’t know how to end it because in real life things did not turn out well and included people transporting controlled substances across state lines, some minor theft, and a few people arrested for prostitution. The moral of the story was that not all creative ideas are good ideas.  Not exactly what the hiring manager was looking for and needless to say, I didn’t get the job.

So these were all terrible experiences - some my fault, some there fault. I’ve got dozens more examples of interviews gone bad.  It happens to everyone.

But these were also good learning experiences.  Every time an interview goes badly, I walk away a little more knowledgeable and a little more competent at interviewing.  I just recently told a relative of mine who is looking for a new job that he should apply for a few jobs that he doesn’t really want just for the interviewing practice.  Because if you haven’t done interviews in a while, you can assume that the first few might be a bit awkward as you work out how to present yourself and your experience in the best way.  So it’s better to do a few interviews with companies where you won’t care if they don’t hire you - just to get the practice in.  You don’t want to turn yourself inside out to try to fit what you think a company wants, you still need to be your natural self.  But there are ways for all of us to make our natural selves come across as the more professional and business savvy version of who we are.  But that comes with practice -- and lord knows, I’ve been in the business world for what feels like 10 million years now and I’m still learning how to be the better and more professional version of me every day.

Also, if you’ve read this far... I have an epilogue on those three bad interviews:

Company A turned out to be too old fashioned after all.  Their business changes didn’t really take effect the way they wanted them to and now it’s become such a miserable place to work, they are losing talent rapidly.  How do I know?  I have hired multiple people from that buisness - they are very talented and all tell me the same horror stories of what it was like to work there.  So thank god I didn’t get that job.

Company B went bankrupt.  The original hiring manager, who treated me so unprofessionally eventually went on to be a vice president at a service company who is a vendor to the place I work now.  She was terrible at her job and we just fired her and her company from ever doing business with my current employer ever again.

And company C?  I didn’t get job after telling them my awful stripper story.  However, a few years later, I applied for a job with them again... and they are my current employer.  They work me like a dog, but I’m generally happy with my workplace and my coworkers, I’ve been promoted once already and I’m well compensated and treated with respect. 

The moral of this story... karma is a bitch and not every lost opportunity is lost forever.

Good luck with your job search!

[krreader]

So yeah I wanted to request BTS fic where V, Jimin and reader are in relationship. And it would be the two male teasing her or other way around. Like Im sucker for dirty talk and ugh V's voice is so sexy.

title: teasing daypairing: kim taehyung x park jimin x readerfandom: btswarnings: poly!relationship ; teasing; sex;  threesome ; anal sex ; oral sex ; dirty talk (I mean, it’s a threesome, you can guess, I suppose haha)genre: pure smut

summary: teasing days were your favorite days.

a/n: got the request originally on my @rreader blog, but moved it here! anyways, thanks to the person for sending it to me it was BLOODY FANTASTIC AND LET ME JUST MAKE IT CLEAR THAT WE SUPPORT AND LOVE POLY RELATIONSHIPS HERE. THANK YOU; END OF ESSAY. now enjoy the smut (because seriously, that’s all this is.)

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Teasing days were your absolute favorites.

With Taehyung and Jimin’s jobs, it didn’t happen too often, both of them being a little too busy with sexting and the likes, but when it happened, it was glorious.

It would always end with at least one of you screaming and begging and, truthfully, that usually was you, not that you were complaining. 

Both of the boys had left a little earlier than you and it had started when you wanted to get into the shower and found a little note that said: “had sex here this morning. wanted to wake you, but you looked too pretty asleep”

You snorted and immediately decided to get back at them, sending them a nude, even though you knew they weren’t alone.

Soover the next hours, you would exchange numerous messages andselfies, showing each other just how needy you were.

Theywould tease you with pictures of them touching each other‘innocently’ that would have you squirm in your seat and you would inreturn send them selfies of yourself with nsfw text messagesunderneath.

Itwent on for a while, until you just couldn’t take it anymore andcalled it a day, walking over to your coworker and smiling sweetly athim.

“Dan?”

“Yes,noona?”

Perfect.The fact that he was calling you ‘Noona’ meant he’s in a good mood today. You could use that to your advantage and convince him to cover for you.

“I’vegot this emergency at home.. you think you can cover for me if anyoneasks?”

“Sure,noona! Just take care of yourself,” he smiled brightly and youwould almost feel bad for using him like this, but were you lying? Because insome weird way, this was an emergency, wasn’t it? Getting home to win this ‘game’ you and your boyfriends had been playing all day long?

“Thankyou, Dan! I’ll buy you dinner next week,” and with that, you rushedout of the office and into the elevator, making your way home, beforefinally falling into bed twenty minutes later and calling Jimin without a second thought.

Itdidn’t take very long for him to pick up and you could hear Tae inthe background, asking if it was you.

“So..I’ve got this problem and since neither of you is here, I have totake care of it myself.”

“Reeeeally?”you could practically hear Jimin’s grin, “Elaborate.”

“Well,”youwere already taking off your skirt and let your hands travel betweenyour legs, “Not really sure how to explain it, but it’s a reallywet problem, you know and..-” you moaned into the phone when youbegan touching yourself.

Taegrabbed the phone out of Jimin’s hand and whispered, “We’re notalone, Jagi, you can’t..-”

Didyou care? No. Did you continue? Absolutely. They had started it this morning, now they had to deal with the consequences

Ifthey were so busy, they could have ended the call. But they didn’t.No, they listened to every single moan and every single time youbegged them to come home to finish it.

Neitherof them said a word, so you just assumed they were quietly enjoyingthe show.

Thatis until the bedroom door suddenly got opened and you found both ofthe guys standing in the doorway with the phone in one hand.

“Wewere in a meeting.”

“Notanymore, apparently,” at this point, you were completely naked,your fingers glistening with your own juices, when the first,Taehyung, made his way over to you and pulled on your ankle, so thatyou were sitting on the edge of the bed.

“Peoplecould have heard, you know?” his hand came up behind your head andhe pulled on your hair a little, so that you were craning your neckto look at him.

“Iknow,” you grinned.

“Didyou come?” Jimin stood next to Taehyung, gently stroking yourcheek.

“Notyet.”

“Good.Turn around and get on all fours.”

Andwith that, the gentleness was completely gone and you knew this wouldtake a dark turn. Still, you grinned when you did what they wantedyou to do, just because you were so excited at the thought of what would come next.

“She’sa little too happy about this, don’t you think?” Taehyung leanedover to Jimin, who instead of answering, took of his sweatpants andwalked around the bed, so that he could kneel in front of you.

Itshouldn’t have surprised you that he was rock hard already,especially after all that teasing from all three sides.

Frombehind you, you could hear Tae take off all his clothes, then youcould feel his hands on your hips a moment later.

“Jiminhas been whining all day long, princess. He’s been so needy, wantinghis cock inside your mouth. I don’t think he can wait any longernow.”

Jiminwas surprisingly quiet and just looked at you. That was when he wasscariest. When his expression was blank and you couldn’t read him. Soyou immediately wrapped your hand around his shaft and a second later, yourlips around his tip. You wanted to be slow, but he wouldn’t have anyof that today. No. He grabbed your head and buried himself insideyour mouth as far as he could, so you had to gag for a moment.

Inthe meantime, while Jimin was fucking your mouth without mercy,Taehyung let his fingertips run over your lower back, before youcould feel them at your entrance.

“You’restill so wet. You enjoy Jimin’s dick so much, don’t you?” helaughed and grabbed your hips, aligning himself with your entrance,when he was sure you were wet enough. And you didn’t deserve foreplayafter you’ve teased them with the phone call, “Well.. I can’t blameyou. I do too.”

Andwith that, you were filled both with Taehyung’s dick and Jimin’s in your mouth andyou were once again reminded why you were so often on the verge of passing out after sex with the two of them. They drove you insane. Always had.

WhileJimin was fucking your mouth like there was no tomorrow and the tearswere already threatening to run down your cheeks from trying not togag anymore, Tae took his time.

Hewas the complete opposite of your other boyfriend right now.

Hishands were on your waist, gently entering and leaving your body againand again, while he watched Jimin fuck your mouth. Every once andagain, he would tell you how good you were doing and that he wasproud of you for doing so well. He was proud of you for not gagging,while Jimin shoved his dick into your mouth as far as he could.

“Hermouth feels so good, Tae,” Jimin’s head fell back, his mouth agapeand low moans were leaving his throat.

“Hmm,”suddenly, you felt incredibly empty when Taehyung fully left you andwalked around the bed, so that he could kneel besides Jimin, “Youwant to taste yourself on my dick, princess?”

Jiminslowed down and you released his dick with a plop, while right aftertaking Taehyung’s into your mouth. He didn’t do any work, unlikeJimin. This time, you had to do it all. And he was right. You couldtaste yourself on him and it turned you on even more. So much, thatyou moaned around his penis, the vibrations sending a shock throughhim, making him moan loudly.

Jiminpressed gently kisses against Taehyung’s shoulder, his one hand onhis boyfriends’ lower back, while his other stayed behind your head and brushedthrough your hair.

“Yourmouth feels so good wrapped around my cock, princess. Shit,” he bithis lip and his head fell back, his chest heaving heavily.

Jiminwatched the scene a moment longer, showering Tae with kisses all overhis neck and shoulder, until he couldn’t take it anymore and took theposition that Tae had before, aligning himself with your entrance.

“Fuck,she’s dripping.”

“Itold you. She likes being fucked like this, don’t you?” you triedto nod, while you still sucked him off, another moan leaving yourbody when you could feel Jimin enter you.

Itwas always interesting how different the sex was each time.

Sometimes,it was very loving, you lying on your side, while one of the boys wasbehind you and taking you softly, while you were making out with theother one lying in front of you. Sometimes Jimin was the gentle oneand showered you with love, while Taehyung fucked you so hard, thatyou knew you wouldn’t be able to walk the next day. On other days, it was like today,were the roles were reversed. And then on some, both boys would notgive a shit and just fuck you into oblivion.

Youliked it all, really. What mattered to you was that they both werewith you. And even though you sometimes only had sex with one ofthem, you always preferred (both Jimin, Tae and you) to havethreesomes, rather than fuck with just one other person. Because after all, you loved each other equally.

Jiminhad a tight grip on your waist, slamming into you so hard, that thesounds of skin against skin echoed through the bedroom. Yourmoaning became louder and louder and Tae knew that he wouldn’t beable to hold back for much longer with the way those moans of yours felt around his cock, sohe pulled himself out and smiled when you started pouting.

Hewiped the bit of cum from your lower lip and got down on his knees, so that he could press a gentle kiss against your lips.

“Whatdo you think, love? Think you can take both of us today?”

“Please.”

Aw,now that is what always had the two of them smiling. They loved it whenyou were so needy that you begged them to fuck you at the same time.

Jimingrabbed your hair and pulled you up, not stopping his movements,while Taehyung laid down beneath you.

Youturned your head to the side, finding Jimin’s mouth against yours amoment later, while his hands wandered across your upper body,squeezing both of your breasts tightly and rolling your nipplesbetween his fingers a moment later.

Youarched your back against him and let out a loud moan, falling againstTaehyung a moment later, when Jimin gently pushed you against him.

Whenbeing in a relationship with two guys, anal was a topic thatnaturally had come up eventually,  even though it had never been something that youreally gave much thought to, you had often wondered what it wouldfeel like having both of their cock’s inside you.

Andthen one day, when Taehyung had fucked Jimin and Jimin’s head wasburied between your legs, you asked them if Tae could fuck you likethat as well. If he could take you from behind. Both boys immediatelyburst with excitement and had put in all effort to make it aspleasant as possible.

Andit really was. People often said that anal hurt every damn time, butby now, you were sure they were just doing it wrong. True, it didfeel a little.. uncomfortable at first. But if the guy was one thatwas experienced and cared about his partner, he would know not toshove his dick inside without any preparation.

Soboth Tae and Jimin always made sure to prep you for it, even if youwere often whining that you were ready to take them.

No,they had much more experience in this. They KNEW when you were ready.

Andyou were obviously thankful for it, even if it sometimes didn’t soundlike it, because it was absolutely always mind-blowing how good it felt.

Sowhen you straddled Tae and rode him like a queen, plastering wet kisses all over his neck, Jiminbegan fingering your ass, stretching you out and making sure you wereready for the real deal.

“Doyou want Jimin to fuck your ass, sweetheart?”

“Yes,”you breathed against his neck, fucking yourself on Jimin’s fingersand Tae’s cock.

“Doyou want him to fill you up, while I’m already inside you?”

“God,yes, please..”

Bothboys began chuckling and Jimin grabbed the lube from the bedsidetable, returning a moment later.

“Whatwas that about us punishing her? Because we’re doing exactly what shewants,” Jimin laughed, while the tip entered you slowly andcarefully.

“Howcan we not, when she’s being such a good girl now?”

Jiminpressed on your back, until you were flat against Tae’s chest, whoimmediately wrapped his arms around you and held you close as Jiminentered you more and more with each time.

“Doesit feel good, (Y/N)?”

“It..it does,” you bit your lip, pressing yourself harder againstTaehyung.

Asalways, Jimin took his time, while Tae eventually started pushinginto you again.

Thefeeling of both of them inside you drove you insane, even thoughJimin was barely moving.

Yourfingers were digging into the sheets beneath you and your moans wereslowly turning into screams, especially when Jimin finally was allthe way inside and you could feel him stretch you out so perfectly,that the pain turned into pure pleasure.

Itdidn’t take long for the boys to find the right rhythm, slamming intoyou at the same time, at the same speed and with the same force.

Andafter a few minutes, they were pounding into you so hard, that theentire room was filled with your screams, mixed with moans from theboys and the dirty sound of both of them fucking you.

“I..I can’t..-”

Thatwas enough for the guys to use up all the rest energy they had leftand fuck you so hard, that you were sure your neighbors would end upknocking at your door for screaming so loudly. And as if on queue, bothboys spilled themselves inside you, while you were still screamingand shaking from your massive orgasm.

Youcollapsed against Tae, your limbs feeling like jelly, while Jimincrashed on top of you, covered in sweat, but a content smile on hisface.

“Ilove teasing days,” Tae whispered, pressing first a kiss againstyour forehead, then against Jimin’s.

“Metoo,” the other boy whispered, pushing a strand of hair outsideyour face.

Youwere not in any position to move right now, still seeing stars frombefore and your body still shaking.

Butyou couldn’t agree more.

Thosedays were your absolute favorites.

[thekaeb3412-blog]

The Story of How I Fell In Love With Unwritten History

So I’m in a whole relationship right? Like a whole fat ass relationship. Like me plus her equals nobody else . Its kinda dope and kinda like coccaine . If that makes any sense at all . We definitely have our rollercoasters but I’ll killl anyone over her and I stand on that . Best part its with who I chose and not who my parents chose or approved of. I actually dont care whether they approve of me or not. Mom didnt want kids anyways. As she put it, she likes “ a return to sender kid “ I know she used to joke about it but I later found it to be true. So at this point either you like my happiness or you dont. But anyways, So we met the first time at work, Afni Call Center to be exact. She was a bet. By bet I mean with green money with coworkers. So I bet that I would get smashed by this girl and they would each owe me 50 bucks. I mean who can turn down money. Plus she was kinda cute and I know she was watching my little booty when I would walk away . I was 80 pounds lighter when we first met . 

But here lately things have gone to shit . I can admit I fucked up . Well in the beginning . I cheated . She found out . But I was honestly gone tell her everything but she found out I broke her heart all that and then some . Since I put all my business out there . Only reason why I cheated was because I wanted a kid . I wanted her for sure but I wanted a kid . As time passed us by I realized she doesn’t want kids at all . So I had to make a decision , kids or stick around for my one true love in my adult life . So I looked her in the face , I probably had tears In my eyes and told her I chose her . She looked at me with confusion for a little and I dont think she anted me to flat out give up kids. But I was gone doe what I had to do to keep her by my side . 

Now before we get to me cheating . I had an apartment on Old Morgantown Road . I loved that damn space man . Hard wood flooring . Storage unit . I had a w/d hook up . I had a good apartment and I could afford it and be able to live my best life . Rent was 475 a month . Utilities and water ran me about 80 . So I was well within my budget . But my dumb ass got involved with this man who I thought I could change . I was trying to hear from nobody about nothing . I wasnt trying to hear that he was cheating because I felt like I gave him no reason to cheat . I was giving him everything and then some . Hell I let his stupid ass cousin stay on my couch . So they were living rent free right , I know stupid Kendra always doing dumb shit . I should have opened my eyes but I didn’t . 

Well he and I are definitely no longer together . He got my little cousin pregnant . I dont know whats worse . That she knew he was still living with me . That she knew we was kin . That he knew we was still together , fucking and living together and I never ask for a dollar . Or that my bosses had to call me in the office with another one of my cousins and sit me down to tell and show me that he was cheating and she was pregnant . It even shocked me that she tried to question me about my niggas car . Like girl he and I live together so yes maam I’m gone drive his car . and she was in shock to see me in the drivers seat . huh . Aint that funny how it all played out though ? But you know , karma got took his dick for a minute . He got the worst news of his life . His heart was just as shattered as mine . His trust was screwed if not worse than mine . He found out that while he was too busy cheating on me , she was getting knocked down by his cousin . LMFAO SERIOUSLY . He did all that cheating and got that girl pregnant and ended up getting played himself . So while I was his woman , he had a side bitch who had a side nigga , but THE SIDE NIGGA HAD A SIDE BITCH . I hadnt had sex with him in a while because things started getting to me and I was becoming very suspicious so I was still going to get checked anyways . But yea . What a fckd up love hexagon . Crazy how we all worked together . But when I reached my snapping point . I became a little on the ratchet side and called his mom and told her come get her sons belongings because he was homeless again . My cousin didnt have her own spot so somebody had to come take care of him because by that time I was done pretending . 

Shit got bad for me mentally . I had me fckd up . I lost my job and went broke because I drank and popped it away . I know definitely wasn’t the right thing but I just wanted to feel numb to everything . I didnt really care how I got high just as long as I as high I was okay and at peace . 

Alot of time went by and my past came back . She made me feel safe . And she saw me ; like the actual me . She knew something was up . Hell I gained 50 pounds since the last time we seen each other . But when she came back . I dont know if I was more so excited to see her or trying to fuck her right there on the floor at work . I walked in the door and the moment I seen her ... I didnt care who I was talking to , I think Wanda , I’m sorry boo but I seen my old boo and just had to do it . I could not help myself I had to hug her before I did anything else . I had a little more weight on me too because during our last encounter , hmm hmm , I was a bit smaller and hadnt grown boobs yet . So when she seen me running 90 mph to her ; baby girl was in for a shock . 

Time went by and we started seeing each other a little more outside of work . Then she started to spend the night . But when she started doing that , I think I made things a little complicated for her at her moms . I had no intentions of doing so but it kinda got weird because she wasnt coming home very much any more . But yall , when I had her all to myself . Do you know how many times I undressed this girl with my eyes . I mean she standing there fully clothed and I seen EVERY INCH of her thru them clothes . It was bad yall . lol . She kinda eventually sorda moved in ; even though I thought she had already moved in . Time went by and things were okay ya know . We were just in the “ talking “ phase and just filling eachother out . She started to grow on me a little more than I planned . and then I wanna say it was my birthday or after ? Baby girl was so drunk . She , our friend Ladaya , and I went to go grab food and drinks . Weeellllllll , I trapped her into drinking and drinking and drinking . We got home ? and she drank and and got funnier as the night went on . I remember that day like it was yesterday and the videos I have are absolutely the funniest videos I have ever recorded . “ butt clouds “ and the car honk that about gave her a damn heart attack . 

Anywho times have went on . We decided to go to hilltop and live there . Who would have thought we would live together because I was stern on not wanting to live with her . It was weird living there . Always wondering if or when we were going to get a roommate . Then ? Thats the first time I ever broke a heart . See , she was always wanting to like distinguish a title. Meanwhile I am petrified of titles and labels and shit . Plus I have labeled myself for so long I didnt want to put a label on she and I . So I waited and waited and waited and decided to test waters . By testing waters meaning , I caught baby fever BAD . LIKE BAD BAD . I wanted a kid so bad I didnt think about talking to her first , I was just hoping one day I could be like , surprise baby we are having a baby ; butttttt I was gonna tell her how I got pregnant IF if actually happened . But she kinda beat me to it . She seen the messages on her tablet and as you know it went to shit from there . I broke her heart . I wasnt sure if or when she would or could ever forgive me . ( its JAn232021 ) and I know she still hasn’t forgiven me for anything . Not sure if she will ever get past it enough to love me love me .

 We made it official , May 2019. By that time the only things that mattered to me were building a life with her. Come August 2020 . We got a place together and as time went on, I knew something was wrong but I would rather ignore it than have to go to the doctor because that just aint my cup of tea. I hate doctors.. they always wanna diagnose people with shit. I just didn’t wanna be one of those people so I held out as long as I could before it got to the point of being unbearable . I lost yet another good job . At first they thought it was covid and it wasnt . I tested negative for covid . Then I had like 5 appointments that following week . I was put on all types of stuff . I was throwing up everything . I was crying non stop . I was doing things not in my normal regimen . Thats when things fell harder on her . Harder as in bills , and stress and everything . I became that burden . I became the thing in the relationship that puts everything on the line . I became the complete faliure in the relationship . 

I wasn’t able to help like I planned . in fact my checks were so small that every pay day because I had all my bills and people I owed money to on auto pay and I kept amking promises, put me in the negatives . I was in the negatives for 3 to 4 months . So imagine being the one in the relationship who didnt feel welcome . Who didnt feel like I desrved the love and things like that . All I wanted to do was help out and I couldn’t . Made me want to pack up and wait until I knew she was gone so I could leave . I didn’t know what to do . But I knew I was pretty much of no use . I knew that she resented me . I knew it pushed things back so far it may never come back to normal . 

But now , Im better than I was still struggling though .  But I have this amazing job . I have a job where I can do my part and not hurt . I have a job where I can finally help out now . But its not enough . I’m not enough . The love is not enough anymore . I have became disposable . I have become the one who broke and shattered her heart and trust in her adult love life . How do I come back from it ? How do I rescue something that may have already died ? Am I worth it ? Am I better off without ? Do I deserve her ? She deserves the world and I want to give it to her I do .

But idk , maybe my mom was right . just maybe the only things I’m good at are singing and laying on my back . Havent accomplished shit yet . Got banned from a job because I tried to put my hands on someone . Got fired from 3 good fucking jobs because of my health . 

Im crashing at this point . My future is on edge . I am on edge . this is not cool dude . 

[mysmesecretvalentines]

Soulmate AU

@sleeping-and-dreaming-is-living

Hi cutie I am your Mystic Messenger SV <3 ~ Happy v-day!

I decided to do the soulmate AU and also added few things of my own I hope thats okay! (the MCs name is Trinity!)

Without further ado here is your fic and also Im getting used to writing fics! I hope you enjoy it~

A/N: I am so sorry I wrote so much! I don’t know if it will make sense to you , I hope you will like it. I left it there because I felt if i wrote more i would’ve wrote something that didn’t have sense. If you like this a lot and want me to write an epilogue I will. This is like the first time a write a big fanfic like this.

Word count:2,714

Sengoku Period (1467)

I saw him… he was going .. I saw the life in his eyes leaving suddenly .. and you felt your body also its life leaving you thought…

“No not now … please… why both of us … I just wanted to live a life with him…”

“Trinity… please don’t you die too…”

I guess Yoosung doesn’t realize that we are dying…

I pray that we find again ourselves… God please let me find him again let our souls find ourselves again….

We both grabbed each other’s hands and say “I love you” to each other .. as our lives in our bodies leave.

2017 (550 years later… )

A/N : They found each other every time but they always died either early or close to old age and they always died together.. but in their last life they promised to each other they would live to old age and they would find each other soon or later…

“Good morning Trinity! , you look as pretty as ever hehe” my coworker said , seriously this guy doesn’t give up. I work in SKY University library in Korea, I’ve been working here for the past 2 years. It’s close to Valentine’s day and my coworker seems to notice.

“And once again I will have to disagree, so no I won’t go on a date I am sorry but I got plans for V-day.” I look towards him and his face goes to a smirk grin.

“Oh don’t worry I’ll be successful by the end of this week to take you out on Valentine’s you’ll see.” My coworker leaves and my friend Hye-mi just looks at me like “he won’t give up” look.

“I know I know , anyway I need to go to the main office let them know that we are waiting on the new stock of books , I’ll be right back , I’ll leave you on the lookout Hye-mi” you smile as you leave and you hear Hye-mi say.

“I got you!”.

Walking towards the main office you see the same group of guys you usually see around lunch time and they start to head towards you.

“How are you Ms. Cutie” you see they have smirks in their faces and you notice they aren’t how usually they’re and you start having bad thoughts that something will happen.

“Is Ms. Trinity to you since I am staff here, and if you excuse me, I have business in the main office” , you try to pass them but they stop you.

“Trinity we just want to ask you if you would… be available for Valentine’s .” you see one of them blush and you see what’s going on..

“You see I have plans with friends on Valentine’s day , but I will be here on the morning till afternoon so if you want to come and chat , it would be nice but I can’t accept your date invitation I am sorry.” you look at them apologetically and smile .

They look a bit sad but put a smile when they hear you say you can come “chat” , “Alright then thank you! , we’ll see you later on.”

You keep walking towards the office, on your own thoughts , feeling that there was a reason something might happen today but you weren’t scared  I guess it was good kind of way?.

Yoosung was running late for class, he was running on the hallway .

“If I take the short cut through the office, I can make it ”

He thought , then he slammed against a girl. “Oh no, not now”  he thought while he looked back and noticed the girl dropped her files .

“ I am so sorry , I was in a hurry to get to class…” 

He looked at her and he felt like he got chills in his body , and felt like electricity was running through his veins and that something clicked. He felt it was fate for some reason to meet her …who was she?.

“Oh don’t worry about it is okay..” 

She looked at the guy who was staring at her. Why was he staring , oh my god did something happen to my clothes? . Trinity started looking at herself but everything was fine , then she stared back at the guy , and she felt strange like for some reason she knew this person but they never met before.

“Um, is something wrong?” 

You stare at the guy while asking him this and you see him have a shocked look on his face like he just processed that he was staring at you.

“Oh sorry I didn’t mean to stare , I just um.. oh no I am going to be late!, I am really sorry again about slamming against you but I got to go for now , um my name is Yoosung Kim later!”

Yoosung starts running again down the hallway while thinking “ She looks just like her… the girl in my dreams.. it can’t be ..”.

That Afternoon while I was getting ready to leave the library for the day , I keep having thoughts of that guy named Yoosung , like he didn’t even let me say my name and he ran off , I mean I guess he had class.

Hye-mi stared at me while I was putting away my things and smiled , 

“ Oh, what’s going on here , Trinity is smiling eh , did something happen? hmm?” 

She smirks at you and you stare at her 

“ It just a guy slammed to me this morning while he was running late for class and he started at me for what it felt like an eternity and then told me his name and ran because he was late for class. But the thing is that I feel like for some reason I was meant to meet him today…”  

You stare off into space until Hye-mi starts giggling.

“ Did you fell in love with a guy who you just met?” she smirks again ,

“Oh come one Hye-mi that’s not it! , he just looks wait no , he feels familiar like I met him before but I’ve never met him! , I don’t know any way we got to go remember friend date” 

You smile at her and you both fix everything and close the library and while walking out of the University , you see a familiar figure and stop and gasp.

Hye-mi stares at you . “ Trinity what’s wrong? are you okay ? you’re a bit pale and blushing?” 

Hye-mi looks in the place that you’re staring at and then smirks. 

“Oh so this is that guy you were talking about “ Hye-mi whispers at you ,”He is kind of cute you know “ . 

You glare at her then both of you keep walking and get close to him and you see he starts walking your way and you start to look away.

“Wait! Please the girl from this morning right!?”

You look at him and he is staring at you with a smile. 

“ Um I want to apologize again for slamming into you and also , to introduce myself properly , my name is Yoosung Kim , what’s your name miss?”

He is smiling at you and also staring at you like he knows you and cares about you.

“My name is Trinity, I work in the library here nice to meet you , and is alright about this morning don’t worry about it”. 

You smile at him and for some reason you feel like you want him to hug you.. wait what are you thinking Trinity you just met the guy! .

Hye-mi stares at you and sees you’re blushing and then says “ I am Hye-mi I also work at the library with Trinity nice to meet you , you’re welcome anytime!” Hye-mi giggles and Yoosung smiles at her 

“ Nice to meet you too , also Trinity I wanted to um”.

Trinity sees he starts shuffling his hands and staring at you like wanting to say something. “Yes?” 

“ Can you come to the coffee club , I want to make coffee for you! To make it up to you”. Yoosung blushes a bit and stares at you . 

“Um sure how about tomorrow around my break time, I wouldn’t mind having coffee ”. She smiles at Yoosung . 

“Alright I’ll see you tomorrow and also can I have your email or phone number , I can send you a text where the club is.”

“Sure , here’s my um phone number” she gave him her number their hands brushed and they felt an electricity between them and they pull back and blush a bit and Hye-mi stares at them and smirks .

“See you tomorrow Trinity!” Yoosung walks away with a smile on his face while Trinity waves. Yoosung then keeps walking home while thinking of her “I can feel its fate for some reason , is it her? the girl from the dreams that I had since little? ..”

Next day

While in the library Trinity receives a text from Yoosung telling her that the club is on the second floor and that she can come now .She starts smiling and says “Okay I am heading to the club and taking my break!” 

Hye-mi smiles and waves “Go get the man!”

“Hye-mi is not like that! later ~”

At the club Yoosung was fidgeting, should he tell her that he’s been dreaming about her since as long as he can remember … were they fated mates, he thought this was like the red string of fate his mom told him when he was little, could it be real?.

“Yoosung? may I enter?” Trinity comes in and Yoosung smiles at her. 

“Sit down Trinity I’ll prepare a cappuccino for you what kind do you like? Do you want it with chocolate flavor or plain or vanilla?” He smiles and blushes.

“If you don’t mind I would like chocolate with whip cream”

She smiles and blushes a bit, she starts looking around after he goes to prepare her drink , she looks around and her eyes keep going back to him moving swiftly his hand as he makes her drink.

“Why do I feel… like I want to be with him…also that I know him, last night I had a the dream I usually had when I was little … of a guy that was looking for him and for some reason that guy looks like Yoosung..”

She was lost in her thoughts that she didn’t notice tears were forming in her eyes.

“Alright Trinity here is your… oh my god are you okay?!”. 

He puts the cappuccino next to you and grabs your hands.

“Why are you crying , are you okay?”. 

He looks at you with a worried look and goes around the counter to sit next to you and wraps his hands around yours. “Are you okay Trinity?” 

You look at him, at his beautiful soft purple eyes as your tears run down your face. 

“Yoosung,.. I know this may sound absurd and of course very weird but, I feel like I have met you before and thats impossible because I just met you yesterday , but since yesterday I haven’t been able to get you out of my mind , also a dream I haven’t had in a while now re appeared again and for some reason I feel like the person in that dream calling to me is you Yoosung..”.

 You look at him and you see he is not in complete shocked at all , why doesn’t he look shocked usually guys are shocked right.

 Your thoughts were all over the place mostly because Yoosung wasn’t shocked.

So it is her she is the girl in my dreams. 

Yoosung thoughts were all over the place to , he also felt like he knew her , specially when their hands touched , his heart was beating so fast he thought she would hear it. 

“Trinity… I also feel like I known you since forever, I have dreamt since I was little that a girl was calling out to me , telling me to find her , that she needs me , she had a sad look in her eyes and she looks like you”

He stops to look at her while she has a surprise look in her face.

“Trinity let me ask you… do you believe in fate and reincarnation? , I believe in it since my mom would tell me stories on different things , then I started to have these dreams when I was little of this girl who wanted to see me and needed me , I always thought she was my princess or mate”

He stops to laugh a bit and blush “ So when I saw you and after I ran to class I thought about my dreams and how the girl looks like you , and I came to a conclusion last night , maybe  you are her and the dreams I had are memories from my past life with you” .

 Yoosung grabs one of my hands and holds it and then smiles at me.

“Yoosung.. you had dreams too? I had dreams of a person, a guy who was looking for me telling me to find him, that he wants me to be close. I didn’t pay attention much when I was little but as I grew up I kept having them, so when you ran in to me yesterday and I looked at you staring at me I thought I feel like I met this man before… and now this huh”. 

She smiles a bit sadly but she is a bit happy to.

“May I ask you out if you would accept, I want to get to know you a bit better, I won’t let anything happen to you” 

He smiles a bit childish “I know we just met but I want to get to know you and maybe even be together with you in the future?” he looks at you.

“Are you saying we are fated pairs?” she looks at him in a caring look. 

“We can’t see it but I feel like there is a red string of fate around us and that it was fated us to meet in this era and we go to the same university, we live in Korea, like that’s way too much of a coincidence”. Yoosung says while smiling a bit.

Trinity giggles “Okay, you can take me out plus is it okay if we go to the town library I want to find out something, I want to see if we can find something about our past lives, to be honest I feel a strong connection to you like I love you .. Oh! sorry!”

Trinity starts blushing a lot. Yoosung put his palm in my cheek 

“Is okay , if we are fated pairs , and we been dreaming about each other since little and we finally found each other I don’t plan to let you go so even if you love another person I won’t allow it because” 

He gets close and whispers “ Ever since long time ago you have been mine .. Trinity.” he looks at you and kisses your cheek then eyelids, he kisses your tears away, then your lips.

“Yoosung..I missed you .. I don’t want that tragedy again… don’t leave me alone okay.” She sniffs and smiles a bit 

“ I won’t I promise”.Yoosung smiles and hugs her.

After this Trinity and Yoosung found out that they did have past lives and apparently they met in every life time but a tragedy always happened that separated them in death… they vowed to protect and help each other out , since Yoosung was studying to become a veterinarian , you promised to help him out . Trinity and Yoosung may have declared their feelings for themselves that day but they didn’t start dating till 4 months after.

They had a V-day date at the library first, then went to eat ending with going to the park where Yoosung gave Trinity roses.