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Whyâd no one tell me heâs hot !? Pt.2
Rumble x human!readerÂ
Summary: you thought the cassettes were supposed to be mini including for you lolÂ
Pt.1Â Â Pt.2
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As youâre both finishing going through the first stack of albums, Soundwaves head lifts up as he straightens his posture.
You can hear some type of beeping start coming from him.
When it stops, he vents a bit as he rubs his face mask where his brows would be underneath.Â
âIs everything alright?â
He looks down towards you lowering his arm. âAffirmative: no critical problem.â  You just stare at him with doubt. Heâs voice may be the most robotic type youâve heard, but after knowing him for a good while you can tell something is up. However you choose to not pry further.
âAlright, Im choosing to trust you.âÂ
You lower your gaze as you look again at the framed picture.
Deciding to change the topic you go back to asking him about the minicons. âSo, when exactly are the minis going to get here?â
He looks towards you again then towards a strange looking clock on the wall. âThey will be here soon.âÂ
The excitement was evident on your face. He could see you twitch a bit trying to hid your joy.
Also glad to see you so excited he goes to pet your head, but as he does so, he canât help but see some thoughts that you were thinking.
From what he understood, you clearly havenât realized the true sizes of his cassettes. And he had no plans on ruining the surprise factor for when you truly found out they were all bigger than you.
Instead he gets up to go back to work on the other side of the room. But before he can even get there Lazerbeak crashes into the room, his body making a screeching noise when he landed on the ground.
â Lazerbeak â
Seeing soundwave rushing to attend one pf his cassettes, you hurry down a ladder to see if you can help. When you reach them, He picks up Lazerbeak and takes him to his desk where he will further assist his mini.
Curse his long legs, It was moments like these that truly made you despise being smaller than your average cybertonian.
âOh, I didnât know we had guest.â
Turning to see the voice behind you, you came to recognize them as Ravage. Still a bit shocked from the change of situation you hurried yourself to respond back. âUm, hello. Sorry about that, I also didnât really have time to notify my arrival since the arrangement was made really quick.âÂ
They nodded and didnât say anything else. Simply walking past you over to where his boss dad was. You didnât really mind their attitude. You were a bit glad the conversation ended since you felt a bit too drained to make the effort as well. Thankfully, it also didnât take long for Ravage to be noticed.
âRavage.â
Looking upwards acknowledging their call, âinterrogative : where is frenzy and Rumble.â Oh he looked a bit pissed.Â
You knew from the stories he shared with you that those two always seemed to get themselves in trouble.Â
âI donât know where Rumble went after speaking to Megatron, but I saw Frenzy heading towards the east side of the nemesis.âÂ
Soundwave nodded as he processed the acquired information. âThank you Ravage. You are dismissed. New order: rest.âÂ
And at that he got up and left with Lazerbeak on his shoulder. Most likely on their way to find those troublemakers.Â
Returning your gaze back to were Ravage was you saw that he was no longer there. In fact, he was already curled up, in what you assume was his berth, recharging from his previous mission.
Seeing the con sleeping, you made the room lights more dim. You could barely see anything, but surely the bots had no problem getting around.Â
As you were about to head back to your personal quarters, the door is slammed open and whatever it was came blasting in at tremendous speed.
You didnât even manage to move out of the way, and before you knew it. Whatever it was crashed into you quite hard tumbling the both of you onto the ground.
You groaned a bit as you tried to lift your head, yet they were still on top of you and they were not light. Moving a bit trying to get out from under them, you started to hear them move as well.
Also groaning a bit as they lift themselves up a bit from you. Not fully off, not fully on.Â
They were practically straddling you.Â
It was a bit embarrassing, but you guess that was still better than having them completely squish you with their whole weight.
The room may have been a bit dim and your mind might have been spinning, but that didnât prevent you from seeing their face.Â
They were cute.Â
Crap, they started staring at you funny. Then they quickly looked around before their optics widened once more as they look towards you again.
âHuh? Youâre not frenzy.â
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#Woo! Part 2 is out!#transformers x reader#x reader#megatron#maccadam#tf rumble#transfromers#transformers x human#rumble#transformers rumble#cassettes#frenzy#ravage#lazerbeak#soundwave#tf x reader#fluff#transformers#rumble and frenzy#cassetticons#laserbeak#ratbat#buzzsaw#Rumble x reader
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im in need for sweet, cuddly ivy
Rainy morning
You stirred, the sound of rain against the window pulling you out of your slumber. You had come over late last night after driving for hours just to get to him. The plan had been completely different. You were supposed to be there before Ivy returned from the tour. Clean up for him, drop Cinnamon back but your work had given you a big fat L and left you stuck in the office till past 9. So you and your boyfriendâs lab had taken a night trip, one that Ivy wasnât too impressed with considering the terrible weather. But his grumbling had stopped the moment Cinnamon had nearly took him out and even more so once your lips were on his.
Now the feeling of his arms wrapped around your middle as he cuddled into your neck made your stomach feel all fluffy. The weight of Cinnamon lying across your feet was a nice grounding touch too. Making it feel less like a dream. âSo much for a white Christmasâ, Ivy grunted, nuzzling closer to you. âItâs pouring downâ, you whispered. Letting the sound of rain and wind wash over you. âPerfect excuse to not leave the bedâ, Ivy muttered. You slowly turned into his embrace, moving to face him. His eyes were closed a light frown upon his face. âYouâre too far away nowâ, he grunted, reaching for your hips. âI want to see youâ, you muttered with a chuckle, reaching out to brush messy strands of hair away from his face. Ivy peaked through his closed eyelids, his blue eyes open only to grant you the biggest smile as your eyes meet.
âMissed thisâ, he hummed, softly massaging your hip, âHotels and white walls get bit depressing after a whileâ. You softly caressed his cheek, âWe missed you so muchâ, you muttered, âI showed Bunbun all of the videos you sent me. Should have seen her turning her head every time your mask was in the shotâ, you chuckled, lifting your head to look for the fully passed out lab, completely unbothered by all the talking. âYouâre fucking adorableâ, ivy sighed, making you turn back to him. âMe?â, you frowned slightly. âYes, who else is showing a dog a video of their ownerâ, Ivy snorted. âFirst of all that was a very rude sentence Iâm glad OUR baby is asleepâ, you shook your head, âAs a father you should know betterâ, you narrowed your eyes at him only for Ivy to pull you back down. A light scream made the said fur baby instantly lift her head with a growl.
âLook who graced us with her presenceâ, Ivy chuckled after kissing your lips softly. Paws digging into your side as Cinnamon gracefully climbed over the two of you. Plopping down in between you both with a huff. âDid we wake you up?â, Ivy cooed, scratching her ear as she plopped her head onto his chest. You turned slightly, draping your arm over her and letting your fingers linger over Ivyâs lower stomach. âThis is a dreamâ, he sighed, closing his eyes once more, âmy two girls, a warm fucking bed with no springsâ. âDonât get fooled he called you a dog five minutes agoâ, you whispered to Cinnamon making Ivy let out a laugh, âI love youâ, he muttered turning his head to you slightly. âI love you even moreâ, you smiled, nuzzling against the Bunbun, watching Ivy watch you.
#sleep token imagine#sleep token x reader#sleep token x you#sleep token fanfiction#sleep token iv imagine#sleep token iv x reader#sleep token iv x you
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im also tired because I only got 4 hours of sleep today but who's fault was THAT (I....I have no idea. idk why I said that. it's just my body clock trying to keep a daytime schedule and being used to waking up at noon like I've been doing). but I can't sleep yet or else I'll wake up at 8 and this whole cycle will begin again. but at least I only have four more shifts to get through
#we're powering through!!!!!#I'm actually really enjoying walking all my stuff over#new place all clean and pretty hehe#bringing all my items over and slowly emptying out my old place. very satisfying#I'm calculating the number of trips I have left#maybe 8-10 for my pots and pans and food#but I think we can do that when my parents come with a car#and I need more boxes so I'll have to unpack some stuff over there and bring those boxes back#I should do that on one of the free days I have next week...#this heavy-duty moving cart is great. I should have bought one years ago. I'veinjured myself so often moving things#that are heavy in that dinky little shopping cart#this is a sturdy like long low moving cart with fabric reinforced sided and bottom#im not even returning it like I planned to#cor.txt
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I love them! So much!
#detroit become human#kara ax400#luther tr400#i love them so much and have something planned for luther in the hes a 10 but series#i may have spent a lot more time on this than i planned (aka two! doodles!)#but you know what 100% worth it i love them and i love him supporting womens wrongs and and#i got so emotional the first time i saw his status updated to family im like crying over this family#also kara having the ability to not only die in almost all her chapters but also kill in almost all her chapters#like girl please i love you and i love that you are willing to be rational and not let luther kill a guy returning a glove#but also you are unhinged and i love you there is no downside to kara i love her#also she gets to not only be a blonde menace but she rocks brown and black and white hair??#truly a lady who can do anything is2g#this suggestion added a year to my life cause it was technically the first one received#even though its the second i drew - i got it first
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Thinking about the what if El was never interested in Mike romantically, she just assumed she was discourse on the tag today and how it's very possible what could make El fully realize this, is when in s5 she see's Will's love for Mike in real time, for the first time, and she's just like damn! That is not me!
#byler#no but arguably that already happened..#remember that! you're the heart#el listening: you're the what now?? im sorry but that's corny as hell. could not be me!#i feel like this could be how el confronts will in s5 about lying to mike#i think it's interesting they had that talk with will and el about her lying to him with will calling her out#if to not circle back to it in some way for her to be like hypocrite much?#tho i doubt that's how it would happen#i have a feeling el is going to understand in will's case in contrast to her and mike's argument#like will and el are siblings so yeah they fight#but i just get the feeling she's going to sense something is up with them (already does)#and something big will happen and i feel like she's going to see the truth before they're able to#and i think will is probably going to realize last because he really does not think it could ever happen now#and also because of el i think will would feel like its wrong unless he was confident she would be okay with it#so i could totally see will not allowing himself to be happy in that sense even if he realized mike could return his feelings#but by then mike's already made his peace with el and they're good#UGHHGHHG s5 arrive now!#no but isn't it kind of side eye that they've never shown us el be confronted with mike and wills friendship at all?#like in s1 and s3 at the end Mike mentions will in his plans with el#and that's about where it ends#we have not seen her exposed to their dynamic and like reacting to it before#UNTIL THE END OF S4!!!
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THE TERROR (2018) S01E03 "The Ladder"
There'll be nothing. You hear? Nothing lives there. Nothing grows. You'll eat your shoes again. You'll eat worse.
#the terror#theterroredit#the terror amc#amc the terror#tvedit#tvgifs#sir john franklin#francis crozier#silna the terror#lady silence#cornelius hickey#james fitzjames#henry goodsir#william gibson#fitzier#mine#gif:terror#im giffing these while watching this show only for the second time and theres so much stuff i forgot/noticing only now#i really loved the moment where francis and sir john have that talk in this ep (about sending a rescue party)#and james was listening behind the door. possibly hearing all the arguments francis made that were very reasonable#so he might have finally more understand him despite saying nothing after that conversation. with either francis or sir john#and then francis returned to his ship with the plan of leading the rescue party himself. telling blanky that 'erebus has a spare captain'#i just really liked that. francis knowing what james can be capable of even without sir john. and by the episode well..#its a necessity to step up#yeah im glad i finally gave this show a chance#tw blood#tw gore
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idk if i've discussed it before (i have certainly THOUGHT about it) but someone on my kuwa suffering ep 89 comp mentioned it and i just had to go off about it like. ok. sensui tells yusuke something along the lines of "you heard itsuki" when itsuki's inside the uraotoko, implying that not only can sensui hear those inside the uraotoko, but that he expects yusuke to be able to as well. which means that yusuke Almost Certainly Heard And Kind Of Ignored kuwabara's prolonged mental breakdown and wailing about how much he needs yusuke to live etc. which. guHHH i hate him yusuke you ass but also listen.
the only acknowledgement yusuke gives to this (if any) is when he says something like "sensui you're sooo fucking cooked this plan's going perfectly (my friends are going to get strong and kill you when i die)." he's trash talking to sensui, ignoring the others because, i think, he doesn't want to acknowledge what he's doing to them.
yusuke is explicitly recreating the experience he had with kuwabara's "death" at the hands of toguro, complete with the announcement of intent (and power) to kill, the inability to impede the threat in any way (barring a power-breakthrough), and the target in some way racing towards/volunteering for their death. yusuke learns through doing, and through tough love-style approaches. it's only effective if it hurts. watching kuwabara die like that was devastating to yusuke, but it sure as hell fucking worked. he beat toguro because of that maneuver. so even if he has to (re-)traumatize his friends in the process, this method will make his friends stronger, and he feels confident in that. but he never had to live with the consequences of kuwabara's death, not really. that's something hiei makes clear before they enter the cave as well, that there are no fake-outs ready to make him or anyone else stronger. the only deaths here will be real. the only power gained will come at a high, permanent cost. hiei's warning is an attempt to keep everyone alive, to keep yusuke from being stupid. and then yusuke decides to take that fatality into his own hands, but it's kind of his friends who would pay the price. he's going to make them live through the days, months, years without him, the actual permanency of loss (assuming they survive for that long), something he never experienced with kuwabara (a new facet of that traumatic scenario), AND he's escaping the emotional fallout of this choice through death. he doesn't have to see them mourn, won't get yelled at, won't watch them fail to move on. he's tapping out and choosing to believe they'll be fine.
but i think he feels guilty. just a little. i mean, yusuke couldn't even believe that people cared about him enough to want him alive in episode one. he's staked everything on his friends, which means he still kind of... doesn't value his own life, at least not compared to theirs. but he believes his friends love him and want him around, and we know that because he has to, or else he wouldn't make a plan that depends entirely on that love. he is actively leveraging the care he doesn't think he deserves, trying to hurt them in a way he is intimately familiar with (only worse), for.... what, exactly?
this is kind of my sticking point tbh. i don't think the answer is... super clear, but let's start with what it's not.
yusuke is not doing this because it is the most practical way to save all of humanity; that would be the mafukan, which he stopped. it could be a gamble to save all of his friends? the mafukan strategy would guarantee koenma's death/eternal imprisonment, whereas this strategy gambles all of humanity on the chance that his friends come out of the Easy Break Oven strong enough to avert the end of the world. if the sacrifice of even one friend is completely intolerable, perhaps he'd accept those slim odds and their steep consequences. yusuke tends to take risks like that, especially when he's got fight-induced tunnel vision. he doesn't think things through too much; his schemes are usually dependent on surprising his enemy enough to oneshot them. truthfully, i think this is the closest we'll get to an answer, and it's a more conventional one for this kind of story. but there is another layer i haven't been able to get from my mind.
i think yusuke is gifting each of his friends an honorable warrior's death.
so, in case it needs saying, yusuke, kuwabara, kurama, and hiei all (at least once, if not several times) exhibit a desire to die in combat in a way they deem noble to give their lives purpose (usually by self-sacrifice, but sometimes by another metric of honor, like hiei's duel with shigure and his desire to die in mutual defeat against an evenly matched opponent; or even kurama's decision to fight shigure in his human form, displaying a sort of passive suicidality via placing being true to himself in this (somewhat symbolic/inconsequential) way over survival). they need to make their lives count for something, because they feel guilty for being alive (kurama and hiei feel guilty for their past actions (hiei's is most evident in his distance from yukina, though that's not its primary reason), hiei, kuwabara, and yusuke have all been ostracized and made to feel like burdens on/unwanted by their caregivers and general society; all four of them have felt profound isolation even from their loved ones (yusuke and hiei are rather obvious; kurama can never tell his mother about the majority of his life nor what she truly means to him in the context of it; and kuwabara is separated from his peers for his spiritual awareness and his "stupidity" (plus his parents aren't around? and he is Desperate to define manhood/manliness through a broader pop cultural one which includes the warrior sacrifice thing bc he has no male role models BUT that's for another post) (i will admit kuwa's the most tenuous one here irt isolation)). they want to die for a cause so badly it's actually physically painful to me. it is passive suicidality, and they define their lives and identities by their relation to, engagement with, and skill at doing violence, etc. they live to die by the sword. anyway. nobody talks about it but i think it's very important to understanding what yusuke's doing here.
because i think he knows that about himself and his friends. they're kindred spirits. at the very least he knows this about kuwabara, who literally made a speech about this before diving into toguro's fingers In The Event That He Is Recreating Explicitly. he is dying nobly like they all want to on the chance that they'll get to break out and fight sensui rather than dying without even getting to take a swing. it's about his pride and theirs. but i don't think yusuke necessarily believes they'll win. he knows better than anyone how strong sensui is, and how wide the gap is between sensui and team urameshi. his stated position that humanity is doomed and that he doesn't care about its fate is, i think, not completely genuine, but if we take it at face value, he's not killing himself so that his friends can survive the end of the world. something's going to come around and kill them eventually. he's doing it so they can survive long enough to fight sensui. he needs them (specifically kuwabara) to be strong enough to free themselves to begin round two. but he's given up on their side winning, on humanity surviving, on his own victory---why should he think his friends are capable of winning? this could be another case of yusuke's fight-blinders. it could be another gamble, more blind faith put in his friends. but honestly it reads more to me that yusuke's giving them a chance to die together on the battlefield. them winning would be great, but it's not his goal. it's a pipe dream.
he knows he's going to be killed. they're probably going to be killed, too. but to make it so they last a little longer against sensui, to make the odds a little more even, so they are killed not like livestock, but like worthy fighters, he'd die a little faster. it's the best kind of death someone like them can have; and he'll deprive himself of it just to make their ends a little sweeter. even if the road to that is far more bitter.
but it's not like yusuke's friends know what he's thinking or agree to it, and he can't exactly make his case for it in the moment. he's making that choice for them. whatever his intentions, whatever odds he thinks they have of beating sensui, he's kind of sealing all of their fates. so how the hell is he supposed to acknowledge kuwabara screaming at him not to die, trying desperately to express what yusuke means to him in what could be their final moments together? this plan is going to hurt his friends terribly. it is already doing so, and he can hear it. his choices to stop koenma from using the mafukan and to die for his friends' strength are both selfish in some way, no matter how you read the scene. if yusuke comforts kuwabara, he might not get strong enough. if he twists the knife, well... how could he forgive himself? and either way by responding he would have to face them all and say yes, i'm doing this regardless of your feelings (with the intention of hurting you). so i think he does what he often does. he avoids it. he lets that emotion glance off him and his bravado and his one-liners so he doesn't have to deal with the fact that he's hurting people, that he's scared and guilty and unsure of himself. that he's about to die again, about to put kuwabara through the grief he saw at his wake again, only worse; about to put his quieter friends through something similar.
yusuke is confronted with the responsibility one has to the people who care for them, and he runs from it in an attempt to give them some small peace. just like when he died before and thought hey, at least my mom and keiko won't be burdened by me anymore. because the only thing he can really do for them is die.
#UGH. sick of this stupid show (<- pathologically obsessed with it (it's just on a downturn rn))#anyway hi welcome back to my terrible mind here's another excruciatingly long yyh meta post no one's gonna read that i should just make a#video essay because nobody wants to squint through all that text but MAYBE they'd listen to me read it out. anyway#i actually made and then abandoned another post comparing yusuke's sacrifice here to genkai's death by toguro if anyone's interested in tha#anyway yeah sorry if im rusty in uh talkking about these guys. they're still rattling around in here dw#that comment just fucking hijacked my brain. my first thought was to make an ep 89 yusuke pov fic but since that's Probably not#gonna ever Actually get done (sorry) i figured i'd put the analysis behind it here bc this fucking choice makes me want to rip my hair out#(in a good way in a painful way)#yeah this gets derailed. ugh i hope all that stuff about yusuke's motivation in this gambit makes sense bc i still don't feel 100% about my#reading of it. his ass IS very much an unreliable narrator. but in what way? ehhhhh it's hard to say for sure in this case. to me.#yyh#yu yu hakusho#yyh meta#yayyy#yusuke urameshi#literally wrote for so long the sun started rising (<- not impressive since you don't know when i began writing. but i can't tell you bc i#don't remember lol)#also: his relinquishing of this fight is very interesting to me. he loses his shit when raizen kills sensui and deprives him of that victor#and he tells the others to stand down once he returns. so clearly he still Cares about beating sensui himself#but when he thinks there's no other choice he's willing to settle for passing that torch to his friends#he's like well they've earned a good revenge killing. as a treat#the real answer is probably something like 'it would fuck with the pacing' but fuck that lol it's in the show i'm going to talk about it#and a lot of this still applies even if he Can't hear them bc he Has to expect the begging and crying bc 1. he's lived it via toguro 2. his#plan depends on it. even if he's only imagining his friends' heartbreak he's choosing to ignore it for the sake of his plan#ANYWAY the real answer for. pretty much everyone is to give up fighting and find something healthier to attach their worth to#which is why kuwa not being in the final arc is a good thing (as much as it hurts me not to see my boy)#yyh really said YOU HAVE TO BECOME WELL ADJUSTED. DYING WILL NOT GET YOU OUT OF IT#i only skimmed thru this once sorry if it's ass
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the more i think abt goldica the more i like it
#mine#like yes i get it theyre boring straight people booo but hear me out .#the fact chica is goldens main motivation for joining the animatronics triggering his whole arc?#the fact chia is the beakon of what golden wants? a good person who will love hil wothout asking anything in return?#and their first meeting perfectly encamsulates that? when golden is feeling miserable and as lonely as ever and she comes in out of nowhere#and does a nice act for him without getting anything in return?#and he follows her wherever she leads after that because he truly believes no one else would love him like that?#and the way he loves her strange quirks that have pushed people away bc his loyalty to her is unshakable?#and it just adds to her being different from all the people who have claimed to love him but ended up using him?#and how she sees golden not sjowing up for practice as a betrayal because she trusted him and at the end of the day#it was chica who created the band and hisbloyalty to her should also be to the band? so him flaking on the band is flaking on her?#and the way neither of them want to show their weak moments? the way they never speak of what haunts them? and that is effectively what#makes their relationship fall apart? even thougj they lobe wach othee deeply? because they simoly cant be vulnerable and honest?#because they dont want to be weak in front of the othee?#can anyone hear me#im going insane#ive been planning an analyisis of goldica but i havent gotten around to rewatching the series to make it#and its driving me crazy i think#fnafhs
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anyway, iâm leaving for my upstate eclipse trip on friday morning. gonna be about 8-10 hours in the car all by myself. i desperately need entertainment to occupy me during it. can i PLEASE get some music recommendations so i can check it out during the drive
#preferably entire albums !!#but im planning on making a whole playlist so i guess individual songs are fine too BUT PLEASE ALBUMS#just to fill up more time if nothing else đđ#literally please drop any recommendation whatsoever i need fucking 10 hours#nvm the return trip which will be another 8-10 hours#You understand my desperation .#im even thinking of maybe audio books but like idk i really cant do them and i cant guarantee i can pay attention while driving#but if i get truly desperate i might turn to that#brot posts#not only is it 8-10 hours alone in the car but its also fucking upstate ny#aka just nothing but the same mountains ovwr and over again#the same fucking road for hundreds of miles#so its not even just the time thats mind numbing. its also the lack of change of scenery#staring at the same damn thing for 10 hours#SO PLEASE GIVE ME RECSSSS
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my grandma passed late last night. she was 94 and ready to go. the family is in chaos and my mom is demanding that i drop everything and show up to "help" with everything, despite being across the country. i am stressed..
#i know this seems selfish#but i don't actually get any paid time off work at all#and also have stuff planned which mom says they will work around but 'only Jesus knows'#is the funeral in washington or ohio? 'only jesus knows'#but both of those places are a decently long flight for me#what am i supposed to be helping with????#i can't take weeks off to help clean an apartment.#nobody is communicating anything to me other than my mom demanding i return#when is the funeral?? 'only Jesus knows'#like... other than that im not sure what there is to help with#my dad vs. his siblings already had a messy legal battle over the inheritance like SIX YEARS AGO before my grandma even passed.
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#riddlebat#edward nashton#fanart#digital illustration#a lovely friend helped me out with the light placement#this is kinda part of an au i have in mind#in it bruce shoots someone in a moment of desperation while also chasing after ed#who decides to help him get away with it since he recently also killed someone for the first time#in ed's apartment bruce reviews the footage from his contact lenses#and ed decides that what bruce is doing could be enough atonement for his father's sins if he steers him right#bruce on the other hand feels like he can never return to alfred or gordon#and thinks that ed is the only one who can relate and understand him#and so they carry out ed's plan#i do have like some pages planned out of this but im unsure if i could actually make a coherent story out of this#or even actually finish it lol#i might try it out i got nothing going on#you are allowed to steal any of the vague aus i put in these tags btw#and thank you for readingÂĄÂĄ have a nice dayÂĄÂĄ
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Rewriting/editing Feathers is in interesting experience because as I go along, I realize stuff that should've been given more weight than it got in the original.
Right now, I'm dealing with the aftermath of the fall of Mount Justice, and in the original, Morgan is rightfully completely pissed, but the moment he pushes back and lets her in on some of his struggles, she folds. And then the next day they're just.. good?
Morgan should've had serious problems with trusting him after that. She should feel incredibly betrayed. She should be grappling with the fact that she's been falling with him, and then realizing that she doesn't truly know him.
In the new version, they don't resolve their talk that night. It ends in a very uncertain place. Dick asks if she still wants him as her mentor and she answers truthfully that she doesn't know. She has no idea how she can trust him again.
And that's it.
Neither of them know where they stand now. The mood is greatly altered, but I know once they've worked through this, all of the domestic and cute moments will feel that much sweeter.
I've added some stuff with Morgan going to the Hall of Justice to give her statement on what happened that night to Dinah, and Dick is unsure if she's planning to expose him. And Dinah finds out that he's out here working with a concussion and she forces him to go home and rest. So Morgan and Dick are essentially both put on house arrest, giving them ample opportunity to work through this. It'll take some time, but they'll get there.
Basically, I'm really enjoying adding some emotional depth that was lacking before. I feel like I was bad at calculating the long-term consequences to their actions when I first wrote the story. I simply didn't think far enough.
This moment of Nightwing's secrets being uncovered by Morgan should've been one of the biggest crises the two of them go through, but it just wasn't given the proper weight in the original version.
#idk if anyone here is even reading the new version lol but i promise its good#or i guess I think its good. I do sometimes wonder if return-readers hate it lol. Because ive been changing a lot of things#not the structure of the story or the plotpoints. Ive just been rewriting a lot of stuff and altered emotions or actions a little bit#I feel like i have more emotional intelligence now than i did at 18 so Im better at figuring out an appropriate emotional response#also im upping the intensity on the romance a bit. theyre both aware of their feelings a little earlier#there are a few more charged moments#the Kiss (tm) will obviously still play out the way it does in the original#but im planning a few close calls leading up to it. its more fun if theyre a little more actively aware of whats going on
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i have this fic in my brain with like. two parts. possibly three. and that's 1) ted teaches trent, of all people, how to make his famous biscuits. this implies a few things:
a) trent is now the biscuit successor. ted's always handing out biscuits. trent finds himself doing the same thing. (this would be the hypothetical third part, if you'll forgive my nonlinearity--trent, and the community, and biscuits.)
b) i like to think trent would enjoy making it bc Autism. idk about yall but i love following a list of precise instructions with little treats along the way with the end result of a thing i can not only hold in my hands but eat??? anyway trent gaining a new hobby for his spare time (that his daughter LOVES to "assist" with lol) and maybe he even starts experimenting himself--the biscuits are never going to be exactly like ted's, but they have something special of their own, too. (and it's still made with love :))
c) ted and trent baking together and the cute (but ultimately bittersweet) shenanigans that ensue.
2) rebecca is missing biscuits with the boss and girl talk, now that ted's gone, when trent hesitantly ducks in with a pink box.
3) again, as beforementioned, trent inadvertently getting roped into making these regularly. first it's one off thing--cheering colin up or it's mentioned that he used to make them for someone ELSE'S kid's birthday and trent knows from experience that's not to be missed, and then it's just. becoming a thing. he is regularly making biscuits now. he is ted's biscuit man successor.
#of course there's all sorts of other things i can do with this#the bittersweet nature of ted leaving and people filling in holes he left. if ted ever comes back seeing how things have changed--#ways trent's changed his process/recipe in ted's absence and how he's had to build around the hole ted left and now has his own way of#doing things (trent crimm independent huh!) and being ''replaced'' but also in this hypothetical return scenario which wasn't even the plan#for the original fic but i can't help but think of bc im a sucker--also just. yes trent was your 'successor' but that doesn't mean#there's no room for you. and now they're that baking couple lkjfgh biscuit husbands if you will#that's a whole other optional sequel fic i think. anyway im just spinning this idea in my brain#ted lasso#trent crimm#rebecca welton#ANYWAY regardless of a potential tedependent fix it sequel#i just think like#trent finding hobbies he enjoys something that is connected to ted but he genuinely makes his own#trent and building those community bonds and a support system...#idk its not perfect but i enjoy it#gertspeak
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amazon is off their shit w the way they put ads in everything i HATE how the new âpremium modelâ is just ⌠without ads. like buy an amazon fire tv & have ads built into ur television. a billboard in ur living room
#stream#ads are fucking EVERYWHERR#like fire sticks have ads#KINDLES have ads#everything has a fucking AD !!!!!!!!!!#like honestly i was going to return the apple tv & just stick w the hdmi cable & my computer connected to it but itâs just#a) not feasible b) investing in the apple tv works bc im always on my fucking phone ALSKALKSLAKSLKSLA#my phone or ipad which r both apple#BUT ALAO THE STEAM DECK FOR APPLE TV#THEN U CAN STREAM UR WINDOWS COMPUTER ON THE TV#so yea thereâs that at least#but the cost âŚ.#it was over 200 FUCKIN POINDS#i hate my LIFE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#but i use this tv constantly !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#& i can just plug it into a separate monitor that i plan on getting at some point in the future !!!!!!!!!!!#bc i do need a separate monitor truthfully i do ive like a 13ââ computer & ive open a billion fuckin things at once#like i use my computer + ipad as 2 different computers but its a PAIN bc i canât just âcopy & pasteâ over to the OTHER SCREEN#i donât even LIKE amazon i HATE amazon w a PASSION#i just have to use it here bc the uk has destroyed themselves in terms of the high street#i.e. there are no more âbusiness districtsâ or liek âshopping districtsâ bc a) rent too high b) interest rates too high c) nobody has any#fucking money d) amazonâs business model is to undercut EVERYONE to drive them out of business bc AMAZON IS A FUCKING MONOPOLY THAT THE US#ADAMANTLY REFUSES TO BREAK#like if u build & manufacture all ur own shit ⌠in ur own factories ⌠then send it to the customer ⌠through ur OWN mail system ⌠and SELL#it though ur own STORE FRONT âŚ.. & SELL EVERYTHING ELSE THROUGH THE SAME WAY âŚ..#ITS A MONOPOLY#like for example: the apple tv on amazon i got for 20ÂŁ less than apple even though theyâre both#british#not âtheyâre both britishâ i mean the apple tv are uk versions not us versions#apple: undercut. but also apple doesnât change price per currency. 59$ for whatever is 59ÂŁ thatâs it lol itâs not less bc $ is weaker
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once again at my wits end bc of men
#rant ////#i hate being afab sometimes bc no matter what i do ill always get shit in return. this is the second time the hospital cafe staff has been#little âtoo friendlyâ w me already and it hasnt even been a month(::: this one patient is strating to drive me crazy bc istg if u dare ask#one more personal question im not responsible for what will happen. no i cant give u my pen bc u already got one and why do u specifically#want mine?? its nne of ur business if im wearing a white coat or scrubs??? stfu and let me redo ur bandages over ur catheter#MAYBE IF U HAD S KEPT QUIET INSTEAD OF CONSTANTLY ASKING ME IRRELEVANT THINGS THAT R STARTING TO FEEL LIKE HARRASSMENT MAYBE IT WOULDNT HUR#but also u kno what? i just applied over the flaster to FIXATE so yea i have to apply a little pressure. dont âouch it hurtâ me ur a grown#ass man tf#no i told u tons of times idk ur treatment plan nor am i responsible for it stop asking me stop calling ot for me LEAVE ME ALONE#if youre told u cant leave ur room to wander off whya re u asking me again??? thne going "yea well ill go n if they ask ill say my disciple#doc allowed meâ no i didnt?? âwell my number is written there anywaysâ so?? its not my concern? just stay put ur average bp is 17 and u r#stil going out to smoke do you have a fucing death wish or smt#also leave me alone and no u cant call me anything other than doctor. stop acting like a douche u dont act like this to my friend. is it b#im afab and hes not? yeah im sure it is BC THATS ALWAYS THE CASE IN THIS GODDAMN COUNTRY AND IM SICK OF BEING EITHER TREATED W DISRESPECT W#WHEN I TRY TO MAINTAIN THAT FRIENDLY DISTANCE A REGULAR DOC PUTS ON JUST BC IM NOT A CIS MALE. bc wow when youre afab youre eithre asking#for it or youre a rude bitch its no inbetween im so tired
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im still thinking about yesterday when after the cinema i mentioned than when i get home i'll help one girlie from uni with her project because she's stuck to which one of my friends asked why am i helping some random girl instead of my roommate
#the thing that actually angers me the most is that first and foremost why should i do that#my response was that my rommate is not doing this project#but to be fair it's mostly because i always feel after helping her#takes my help for grated and can't even say thank you. zero understanding for the fact that i forfeited my free time for her#when i get the choice to help her or someone who yeahvi know only briefly but who is genuinely trying and it just doesn't work who asks for#help and thanks for when it's given to them then i don't mind going for the latter person#me helping is my good will and putting on the second plan my own things to do and my free time#the least i expect in return is understanding of the fact that i decide to spend this time on that person to help them#and not laughing it off or treating as some minor thing well it wasn't a minor thing to me#especially that when i need help i don't have anyone and have to take time to find solution myself#to be fair i don't know if im more angry or sad at this point#im slowly coming to a conclusion that i actually don't like being around my friends and don't like how they treat me#but i so don't want that to be true that im still trying and each time it turns out the same#sigh#the lady in those development/therapy meetings said that i should change people around me but easier said than done to be honest
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