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Have you considered showing some of that care to yourself? You wouldn’t want your friends going back to people who make them feel like crap ): you deserve better
whatever I got is chronic unfortunately ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
#asked and answered#anon#i’m sorry I know youre saying this from a good place#i am just. not good at caring for myself like that and do not respond well to people attempting to convince me to#anyways#its really not that bad#im not being mistreated or anything#i just chronically put my entire self into loving people I decide I care about#and its frequently not returned#and thats allowed! no ones expected to love me back simply because I love them#but i find myself in…awkward more than friends but also nothing more than friends situations#with a lot of tension and history and complications#and whenever I reflect on these relationships and how much i care about people and how much it couldve been#it hurts !!#i go through it about once a week its not a big deal#ill eat some chicken tenders or somethin and be fine#anyways as I said#genuinely appreciate your care#🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻
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C!Q + vylette's fit from Jawbreaker
(aka an idea I've had for every conceivable holiday for months and decidedly couldn't put out on an appropriate date)
#i feel a little off posting this during such a time of distress but my own misery wont help others so I'm doing it anyway#also hi!!! I've been offline a lot but after much stress and a week being mildly mistreated at the hospital i finally know what's wrong!!#PM/SSc overlap syndrome you can look it up. they caught it early tho so none of my connective tissue is damaged#nor do i have any major systemic effects so yay. im taking meds for it and im praying for the best#anyway enough of my life hi folks this is the first thing ive drawn in MONTHS sry im rusty#sidenote in light of the tumblr panic never hesitate talking to me about anything I'd love it im just socially anxious#anyway i love yall hope yall enjoy <3 I'll leave yall now xoxo#my art#dsmp fanart#cquackity#fennec.art
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Sugishita’s Team:
Greavard
Weavile
Heracross
Tangela (gifted)
It’s the boy! Umemiya’s number one stan and his most feral guard dog! I went into this with no clear picture for what he’d have, except for what I mentioned in another post regarding guard dog characters getting dog-like pokemon to match the vibes. Stumbled on Greavard and almost skipped over him except—
I haven’t read the latest chapter yet so I don’t know how he met Umemiya but this seemed too good to pass up in terms of this AU. Umemiya picked up a puppy dog who just. Never left him again.
Also I liked him having a ghost type since he comes across as a little gloomy in canon.
Weavile is… almost purely because of the little smug face he makes sometimes with Sakura. You know the one. I wanted Sneasler originally and then realized that’s from the Arceus game and therefore probably isn’t obtainable in the present. So Weavile it is! Plus, like, it’s just fitting. I don’t know I see it.
Heracross is based on the fact that Sugishita looks like the kind of person who would’ve collected stag beetles as a kid. Also ramming people with its horn is Sugishita-like behavior and you can’t change my mind.
And finally Tangela! Tangela was hatched from an egg that came from a Ditto and Umemiya’s Tangrowth mating. Sugishita — self-proclaimed apprentice who gets up at the ass-crack of dawn to check on the pokemon — was the one who found it, and by Umemiya’s logic that means he was the one to decide what to do with it. And because it’s Umemiya’s Pokémon’s child… Sugishita had to raise it himself. Obviously. (Kotoha thinks this is both the cutest and cringiest thing in the world; Ume just appreciates how dedicated Sugishita is to the daycare).
#king’s court#wind breaker#kyotaro sugishita#sugishita kyotaro#pokemon: verdant winds#taking suggestions for literally anything about sugishita’s character in this au because like kaji im drawing many blanks#I just know he winds up at the daycare somehow and latches onto Ume IMMEDIATELY#I do think unlike sakura he knew Ume was the champion originally#and admires him even more for choosing to walk away from that (even temporarily) to do something as thankless as being a daycare worker#taking in mistreated and abandoned pokemon#lots of hero worship going on#maybe sugishita found his own mistreated pokemon and didn’t know where to take it?#got directed to the daycare and meeting Ume was like being struck by lightning#possibilities~#anyway someone remind me I wanted to do Kotoha next I have a cute idea for her
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I certainly have my own concerns about the treatment of moo deng but um. well i think some of you may just be racist
#this ^ isn't directed at any post in particular but instead a lot of comments ive seen. but now im gonna talk about other posts down here#and prefacing anything i put in the tags here with DONT TAKE MY WORD FOR IT DO YOUR OWN RESEARCH#but the biggest post ive seen going around rn about moo deng being mistreated and the general quality of khao kheow zoo is questionable#claims that the enclosure is mostly concrete seem to be false from all the sources i can find#the concrete section looks like its specifically around the feeding area which fits zoo care guidelines which specify that the feeding area#be a surface that can be easily cleaned separate from the substrate and is a surface present in other zoos#the lack of deep water also seems to be purposeful? older videos of the same enclosure show deeper water areas#and looking back through the news every baby pygmy hippo announcement from every zoo i could find mentioned periods where the baby had to#learn to swim and was slowly introduced from shallow water to deeper water as time passed#this was also corroborated by fowlers zoo and wild animal medicine volume 8 which suggests keeping the mother dry and then slowly#introducing water as the baby grows as a potential best practice#damn im treating this like a paper now. anyway the negatives#there are absolutely things that strike me as bad eg. public access to the hippos and the way the keeper interacts with them#for the keeper stuff in particular i'd really like to see input from someone who has experience as a zookeeper with pygmy hippos#the public access is something that i def think the zoo could improve on and even older footage from years ago shows people sticking like#selfie sticks and shit off the side of the railings and right into the hippos faces#however again the zoo seems to be making efforts to curb visitor behavior which is tough when you go from having 800 visitors a day to#4000+ and you can't remodel the whole exhibit right then and there#all this to say! just do your own research and take somewhat inflammatory comments on the internet with a grain of salt#also just to make it clear im not making any sweeping statements on khao kheow or the treatment of moo deng im just summarizing what i foun#based on what's being said in the most popular post on the subject ive seen.#for the potential like three people who will read all this hi :) hope ur having a nice day
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if someone ships avenday/sunturine (specifically with the characterization of aventurine falling in love with sunday in any way shape or form) i will automatically assume that deep inside they hate aventurine and dont give a single fuck about his character
why else would you mischaracterize him in such an insulting way ?😭
#very angry post because this makes me MAD#i adore aventurine and when he gets mistreated by fandom like this#its so sad#SUNDAY HAS NEVER ONCE APOLOGIZED TO AVEN#EVER#UNLESS THAT HAPPENS I WONT EVEN CONSIDER THE THOUGHT OF THESE TWO#AS A ROMANTIC PAIRING#😭😭😭#hsr#honkai star rail#star rail#sunday#aventurine#hsr sunday#hsr aventurine#honkai star rail aventurine#honkai star rail sunday#kakavasha#no shade towards sunday i like him alot#i respect his character development#but he still has not apologized to aven at all and#thats why im convinced aven would not ever consider even being friends with him#PHEW#again#sunday ur cool but you need to earn my wife's trust first#i dont think sunday is horrible i actually respect him a lot#but churin deserves a sincere apology before anything else
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repeating “jealousy is a disease get well soon bitch” in my head every time i block rude anons and delete hatemail so i can try to brush it off but i am not ur strongest soldier so can you all stop being mean 🩷 please
#♡.gabi barks#im okay i prommy (im crying rn)#like omg seriously what did i do!!!!! i dont do anything but mind my fucking business!!!! and talk to my precious little friends!!!!!! but#apparently i cant even do that bc no matter what i always get meanies in my inbox 🤞#like im seriously not doing anything i just came back and im already receiving asks telling me to kms and deactivate like do yall realize#im a person too.. like im literally real and i have feelings and im not a complete ditz#like what is so hard about treating people with kindness!!!!#ive spent all morning blocking mean anons and deleting asks and trying to brush off the mean words i see and receive and it hurts!!!!#im just a girl#if u send hate or tslk meanly to or about me im assuming ur a LEWSER and have no life bc i dont even do anything fr!!!!! im coolin!!!!!#i was gonna post this with the jealousy is a disease get well soon girl meme but i couldnt find it#anyway im fine!!!! (as im actively texting my therapist)#no bc im so upset and so angry WHAT AM I DOING WRONG#what am i doing to deserve this like please give me a valid answer so i can fix it im so tired of being sad and mistreated and bullied :(#i know i promised i was gna try to be more active but my little heart is so heavy and sad
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Sometimes I forget I'm an Omega until I randomly get into playing an otome game for fun and a fictional man shows me just one single ounce of respect and kindness and genuine care, and I'm immediately planning a wedding and considering whether I'd be willing to give birth to his kids after all if he REALLY wanted kids and adoption wasn't an option.
#for the record this fictional man of the week is Haku Kusanagi from Tokyo Debunker. he's the first guy the MC properly meets#and possibly the only one who has never been anything but genuinely nice chill and earnestly concerned for MC's safety#at least as far as I've read#he's just. genuinely concerned for MC#understands MCs emotions and struggles and is patient and respectful#but also can be very funny and is always very laid-back and helpful#like yknow. a decent person.#it really doesn't take much to impress me huh#basic respect and genuine care? I'm planning our wedding already /hj#it's one of those unfortunate side effects of trauma. when you're used to being mistreated#things that most people would consider to be bare minimum expectations#instead feel more like... grand gestures#like how could I possibly deserve this kind of kindness and care#bc of being so used to feeling undeserving and unworthy of kindness or care etc#anyway im yapping way too much I need to sleep#gamietxt
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so many of you talk about the cruel adults in your childhood that negatively effected you and caused lifelong insecurity yet you're still perfectly fine with being that mean stranger to any kid that has the misfortune of existing around you and thats just really gross !!!
#like i get kids can be overwhelming for a various amount of reasons but its not going to kill you to treat children with basic human decency#adults can be just as overwhelming or annoying—if not more. yet if you talked to an another adult the same way you do to a kid#then ppl would fucking hate you and not want to be around you because youre not being cool and witty—youre just mean!!!#everyone has experienced the frustration of being a kid being mistreated by an adult. some more than others#rather its ignoring your bodily autonomy (from sa and assault to hugging you when you don't want to be touched to not letting you#make your own harmless choices like a haircut or whatever). everyone has been talked down to or had their opinion treated like its nothing#or that their thoughts or input doesn't matter. everyone has a childhood experience with a mean or judgemental adult#yet over and over ppl are fine just repeating that cycle of abuse and hatred#like youre a young adult and youre still getting treated like shit by older ones. but youre able to have a drink or you graduated or smthn#so now you feel like you earned that right to be judgemental & angry & mean to a group of people that didnt fucking do anything to you#anyways. this is because im sick and had to go to the store to get groceries and meds#so its a 20 minute walk to the nearest store in 108 degrees bc i dont have gas money and then in the store im ofc using a face mask#like im sweaty and feel disgusting and like shit but this kid was SO fucking excited about his spiderman toy and wanted to talk and#his mom said ‘i told you no one wants to hear about that crap leave her alone’ and like?? no fuck off let a kid be happy?? hes not fucking#doing anything wrong?? so we talked and he showed me the little tiy that lights up and asked if i saw the new spiderverse movie#and i told him i havent! so he asked why so i explained i have photosensitivity and what that means and why i cant see it#(‘even though i heard its super cool!’) and HE WAS SO SWEET... like immediately hid the toy because oh! flashing lights can hurt me!#and then immediately said dont worry because he'll tell me about it so its like i saw it instead!#and like. guys imma be honest with you. i stilm got no fucking idea what this movie's plot is.#but you bet your fucking ass i was pretending like i was following along & was going ‘no way!’ ‘so it's a parallel universe...?’ ‘oh wow!’#like yea its unnecessary. i felt oike i was gonna collapse and im still struggling to breathe at home now. but also i been the kid#who just wanted to talk about my interests and no one wanted to or was dismissing it.#i know it's not a end of the world deal but i also know that crushing feeling. you gotta be the kindness you want to see in the world yknow#anyways. be nice to kids or im not going to be nice to you. they're one of the most vulnerable members of our society and deserves kindness
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"loki is akechi's hate" "loki is destroying akechi's psyche" you're all cowards. loki is akechi's anger and outrage at being trapped and abused. and that is NOT a bad thing
#☢️.txt#yknow how ppl say that being upset at your mistreatment is a form of self love? i think loki can be that.#tbqh i tend to fall into the featherman seeker theory but like. i dont think wakaba implanted anything or even intended a 2nd awakening?#in my head wakaba is kinda akechi's maruki. she was Definitely using this kid as a human experiment and very fucked up shit was happening#but she /did/ care about him and told herself that it would all be okay in the end. right up until she realize oh right shido is horrible#anyways. i think that at some point during the experiments he did have a moment of actual anger that caused loki's awakening#generally im on the 'wakaba's death is one of his few regrets'#and i think his feelings on her are extremely complicated. she was an adult who was actually nice to him and expressed concern about him#unfortunately she was also using him as a lab rat and never tried to actually get him out#god. that theory drives me insane. what WAS wakaba doing. why do akechi and futaba have the same rare blood type#also do you ever think about how while loki is a trickster + god of chaos#he's trapped and prevented from interfering until ragnarok?#and akechi is a wildcard unable to truly use his power + seems to be a bit of a control freak#despite his main power being to make people lose all control?? and how if he does manage to unchain himself it'll mean the end of the world?
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Vent: tw: torture in tags
I know that something is wrong. But there's nothing I can do about it right now.
#cheeseburgerboy#it really distresses me. i can't function well not knowing.#i know I know#i sometimes think. what if im wrong.#but i cast it away. because im so scared. i don't know what ill do. but im concerned.#i hate not being able to do much. but being closer may not be a good thing.#i fear everyday. when i comes. i think to myself. what will i do.#will i try really hard and still end up in the same place? will things change? and can they? is it even possible?#im not one to give up on another person. even if im not there. i continuously think about people. it doesnt go away.#i know.#the people ive known will sporadically pop in.#it is stressful.#i fear for my life in a way. worried ill have to suffer it all over again. but prepared to have my life ruined for another person again.#i think about this being my life. sometimes believing in a perfect world i am being tutored. and i am then able to watch myself struggle#like that. but for real this time.#maybe i wouldn't get anything from it. and i shouldn't. but i can't help but feel like im meant to walked over and mistreated. because#how else could you be lifted up. if not for myself being dimmed#i know its loser like. but.
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wonderful insight past me, thank u
#getting personal in the tags brace urself#oh my god i fucking hate the whole breed of abusers who talk like therapists#or worse! actually go into the field! fuckin hell#man i sure wonder what mightve happened at the beginning of the year that made me write that down#anyways dont trust discord strangers bc its like 50/50 on if theyll turn out to be a fucking ghoul#and hey. this also goes for the ones who talk about being abuse victims. whether or not theyve been abused is irrelevant to how they treat#personal#forgot to put that earlier. lol#maybe im just writing a letter to my past self. just to prove i didnt deserve to be mistreated. none of us deserved that.#that other people hurting you just means they hurt someone and it doesnt say anything about you#whats the stage of grief after rage again. bc i think we went thru the sad and angry already#ill look it up. its fine#3-4 is think about feelings time i guess lol
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sorry for continued pjo posting but. man so many people in that fandom are so fucking allergic to people pointing out problems in the books and the fandom lmao
#rr crit#‘s0langelo isn’t a bad ship and it’s not a bad thing that will is nico’s doctor and oversteps his boundaries#it’s not ableist you’re just reaching’#can you people. gather up one (1) braincell and realize that literally so much of s0langelo’s canon moments are bad at best#idc if it makes you upset to think about your precious gay babies being an ableist ship but that doesn’t mean you can just ignore disabled#people and their very valid criticism of the ship#like. i do not know how some people can look at that ship and not even briefly go ‘huh there’s a weird power/maturity imbalance and will is#kind of a dick and constantly ignores nico’s boundaries and bosses him around’#you can still ship it by all means! but i think it’s important to address these problems and themes!!!#esp because the books are for a younger audience#i personally don’t think that having one of the only queer couples that gets significant attention be……. Like That#nothing as romantic as almost gaslighting someone about their mistreatment and then getting mad at them for not hanging out with you#when you didn’t even say anything about wanting to see them#or constantly ignoring their agency#and also again it Sucks to pair the disabled character off with a healer im sorry. it just sucks#dove talks#also the age gap is bad#rick’s timeline and canon ages are#so fuckin messy#and he retconed will’s age#hes supposedly like 14 while nico is 13 (think he turns 14 at some point in toa but i never read it)#but he established will to be like. 15#and usually a 2 year age gap is fine but the difference between 13 and 15 is uhhh very large#so there’s that.
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I'm not okay
#good omens 2 spoilers#Good omens season 2#Good omens#Literally how dare you#Like emotionally I am Not Okay that was so#Might as well have just killed one of them#That's how I'm feeling#Mourning??#Metatron sucks in spn and good omens lmaoooo#Surely aziraphale should have known that crowley would never want to be an angel again???#He doesn't like being called nice or good#Not because he believes he's bad but because those are things associated with heaven#And he (and azi) was so badly mistreated by heaven of course he wouldn't want anything to do with them#Pls how did he not know this#He did know this right????#Gentle and romantic????#Gaiman?? Not to mention heart wrenching gutpunching pain#Im#Screaming crying throwing up
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very happy with this composition
#i feel guilty about being unable to draw anything other than my interests during artfight especially but forcing myself to draw something#i dont want to feels like masking in a sense. im so tired and im at a point where for the first time in my life i cant mask so i think#artfight stuff would completely take it out of me. for right now at least#anyway.#.png#im delusional about ruby. no one gets her like i do#i want there to be something sinister almost vaguely religious about this#the representation of idol mistreatment and glorification in onk feels reminiscent of some sort od religious derangement
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I find it weird that parents think the only people who can give parenting advice is other parents, because while experience with actually having children is of course invaluable, most parents are dog shit parents. Like sorry guys deciding to have a kid didn't make you an expert on children, it made you the hostage holder of an actual human being a shocking number of parents will abuse while claiming it's for the kids own good while denying any and all expert opinion or opinions from adults who's parents had similar parenting styles just because their ego can't handle being told they're shit at parenting.
Like no offense to parents but having a kid doesn't actually make you qualified to say shit about parenting when any idiot can have a kid, but actually raising that kid is a totally different ball game. And in my experience most parents fucking suck at it and refuse to hear that they do because they think being biologically capable of reproducing is a replacement for actual expertise.
#winters ramblings#seriously parents are often the most annoying assed people claiming their experts when they often dont know ANYTHING#about ch6ikd development. a fucking 14 year old can have a kid debra thats not a fucking STARTING POINT of expertise#anymore than handing me a hammer and letting me lose on a construction site would make me a sufficient construction worker#simply HAVING a kid or multiple kids doesnt make you an expert in anything and MANY people know a fuck of a lot more about kids than YOU do#the amount of parents who defend their mistreatment of kids and their shitty ridiculously hugh expectations of kids#has taught me the only thing parents are experts in is defending their own egos against being told their wrong#THEYRE* wrong wtf im having a stroke
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i really just want to get the conversation over with
#im exoecting her to still be defensive#to not take back anything she said#or act like nothing is wrong#this is just another stressful outburst#and it will take some time to get her to realize how serious i am#i cant make her care about my opinion of her#i cant make her listen to my point of view#i hope she does#i hope she cares that she hurt me#and still wants us to have a relationship#i hope she hasnt been pretending to like me this whole time and these last texts are just emotional outbursts#i hope she realizes these outbursts are not ok#and she needs to change her behavior#im still so scared that im being abusive toward her#and this is punishing her for being justifiably angry at my mistreatment#but if so. then i wouldn't be considering ending the relationship right?#avoiding someones company isnt abusing them#j barely have time for my own therapy. even tho i want family therapy#ive suggested it before#this isnt the first time shes said such harsh things#about my whole personality. not just an action i did#i hope she realizes how serious i am#dear diary
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