#nothing as romantic as almost gaslighting someone about their mistreatment and then getting mad at them for not hanging out with you
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sorry for continued pjo posting but. man so many people in that fandom are so fucking allergic to people pointing out problems in the books and the fandom lmao
#rr crit#‘s0langelo isn’t a bad ship and it’s not a bad thing that will is nico’s doctor and oversteps his boundaries#it’s not ableist you’re just reaching’#can you people. gather up one (1) braincell and realize that literally so much of s0langelo’s canon moments are bad at best#idc if it makes you upset to think about your precious gay babies being an ableist ship but that doesn’t mean you can just ignore disabled#people and their very valid criticism of the ship#like. i do not know how some people can look at that ship and not even briefly go ‘huh there’s a weird power/maturity imbalance and will is#kind of a dick and constantly ignores nico’s boundaries and bosses him around’#you can still ship it by all means! but i think it’s important to address these problems and themes!!!#esp because the books are for a younger audience#i personally don’t think that having one of the only queer couples that gets significant attention be……. Like That#nothing as romantic as almost gaslighting someone about their mistreatment and then getting mad at them for not hanging out with you#when you didn’t even say anything about wanting to see them#or constantly ignoring their agency#and also again it Sucks to pair the disabled character off with a healer im sorry. it just sucks#dove talks#also the age gap is bad#rick’s timeline and canon ages are#so fuckin messy#and he retconed will’s age#hes supposedly like 14 while nico is 13 (think he turns 14 at some point in toa but i never read it)#but he established will to be like. 15#and usually a 2 year age gap is fine but the difference between 13 and 15 is uhhh very large#so there’s that.
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How to TRULY move on...
“This is a long post but I have to get it out because it’s been killing me.
Me and my ex had been close friends for almost 3 and a half years. We met our senior year and from that moment on I had a huge crush on him. It wasn’t until the summer before our sophomore year of college that I admitted I had feelings for him. To my surprise he felt the same way. He was bi but that didn’t bother me. We weren’t official till school started but I assumed we were exclusive because of how he felt about me. Two weeks before classes started he told me he had to admit something. While I was away house sitting he had a short fling with a girl from his work. He made out and sent nudes back and forth with her. I was devastated. During his fling he’d visited and acted like everything was ok. It took me till school started to even speak to him. I knew I should have ended things right there but I was a stupid 19 year old girl who finally had a guy who liked me. I told him as long as he cut all contact with the girl I’d forgive him. He said he did so I did. For the next months we were happy. I even told him I thought I was falling in love with him and he said he felt that way too. It wasn’t until November came that I felt the change. He became distant and would leave me on read. I chalked it up to midterm stress. After a week of barely talking or even seeing each other I confronted him. I told him I didn’t understand what was going. He told me it was nothing and led me to think I was over reacting. By Thanksgiving I’d had enough. When we were on the phone I told him I wanted the truth or I was breaking up with him. He again told me I was overreacting and nothing was going on, but I couldn’t take it anymore. I wanted to be with someone who cared about me and didn’t gaslight me. I told him I was done and if he couldn’t be honest with me I couldn’t stay around. He didn’t try to stop me or even say anything. I hung up in tears and cried myself to sleep. A few days later he posted a very intimate photo with a male friend of his. My heart broke. The entire time we were in a relationship he was cheating on me with him. The fact that it was a guy didn’t bother me it was the cheating. I didn’t care what gender the other person was all I cared was that he cheated on me. Word spread fast through our friend group that he left me for a guy. They talked about how he only dated me because I wasn’t girly and I was basically a guy with boobs. I avoided all of them for the rest of the semester. I went to class and went home. My depression got worse and I thought very little of myself. Over break I took a lot of time to myself and worked on liking myself again. When school started again my ex wanted to talk. He said him and the guy broke up and he really wanted to be friends again. I told him I couldn’t, he broke my heart and destroyed my self esteem. But he didn’t understand. I walked away and haven’t spoken to him since.
People say I need to forgive and forget. But I can’t. I need advice on how to move on and pursue other relationships and not feel like with everyone it will end like this.”
I’ve been absolutely ITCHING to respond to this. I’m sorry in advance for how long this is going to be lol, but I have a LOT to say.
First, I’d like to say that I appreciate how difficult this has all been for you, especially considering how long he has been in your life. But the quicker the grieving process begins the better and easier it will be for you in the long run. You’re going to cause yourself more hurt by holding onto the past and the memories. He’s shown you who he really is and what he’s really like. Believe him. Don’t make excuses for him. The longer someone has been in our lives, the more inclined we feel to hold onto them and not let go. But as the saying goes, quantity does not always correlate with quality. Yes, he has been around for a long time, but in hindsight has be actually added anything positive to your life? Has he made you happy in all of that time? Has he considered your feelings, and has he ever been concerned about hurting you? NO. Are you better off without him? YES. Which is exactly why today is the day I help you officially be rid of this undeserving ****.
When you first got with him, you weren’t wrong to assume that he felt the same way about you. I mean he gave you the impression that you two were exclusive, right? He made you feel special, confessed his feelings. So, don’t feel regret or blame yourself. I myself have no clue why people are like this. Some people just love to play games, some people are just complete narcissists. They make us fall for them only to go back on their word and hurt us. And it sucks that we get tangled up with these types of people. And it sucks even more that it’s usually the pure-hearted, sincere people that end up in these helpless predicaments.
Just know that you did the right thing by leaving. A guy who genuinely likes you will never ever consider cheating and will never entertain other people, even if this does just include a “harmless flirtatious text”. I don’t care what anyone says. That’s why I think no one should ever condone or make excuses for someone who cheated on them. And I know it’s easier said than done which is why people forgive and get back together with someone who cheated on them. And I know people have their reasons for doing this. But I believe cheating should signify a definitive end to a relationship. I believe that people who give second chances are doomed to a life of insecurity, regret and negative thoughts that will slowly eat them apart. A relationship without trust is not a relationship at all. I feel even more passionate about this having witnessed a genuine relationship, a relationship full of love, trust and understanding. Now don’t get me wrong, no relationship is perfect. But if your partner shows, not only through their words but their actions too, that they are completely devoted to you then this is more likely to be the person you spend the rest of your life with.
When someone truly loves you they will prioritise your well-being and happiness; make sacrifices for the good of the relationship; listen to you; acknowledge their mistakes (big or small) and commit themselves to making things right; make time for you; respect you, and will NEVER make you question their love for you. Also, you will not have to pretend or compromise your identity with this person, they will love you for you. Which sounds cringe I know, but it’s honestly the truth. If a person is not putting in the maximum amount of effort, then they are showing that they don’t care whether they lose you or not and thus are not deserving of you. A guy who likes you will never leave you on read, ignore you, become distant without an explanation. It shows they aren’t thinking about you, do not care about upsetting you and simply do not care. Do not settle for this type of treatment. Never settle for less than what you deserve or sell yourself short. There is someone out there who is desperate to give you what you deserve and treat you the way you should be treated.
You not ending things immediately, despite everything, does not make you stupid. Maybe a little naïve but then I guess I am guilty off the exact same thing. All the warning signs were there but I sub-consciously chose to ignore them. The feeling of being liked and worth someone’s time is so SO addictive. Especially when you’re not used to that type of attention and I guess when you’re a little insecure too (because that annoying, nosy insecurity bitch always likes to get involved).
It takes a really strong person to put an end to things and realise the toxicity of a relationship despite the temporary (fake?} comfort and happiness it provided for us. So guess what? That makes you an extremely strong person even if right now you’re feeling weak and defeated. And that is a key step to moving on. Do not victimise yourself but instead view yourself as a strong individual. After leaving a toxic relationship it is normal for us to blame ourselves. Our instincts are to remember the good times but forget the manipulation, the control and the isolation. Our minds rush to remember the kind words, romantic gestures and the undeniable chemistry you and your partner shared. But this is the same person who left you broken and emotionally traumatised. This is the person who made you feel so much self-doubt, insecurity and loneliness. So I am going to help rewire your brain and help get it back in check. I am going to remind you that you left him for a reason - a reason that is COMPLETELY and UNDENIABLY valid. Never try to compromise your decision or give it a second thought. He treated you like shit. You are a queen yet he treated you like a peasant.
Please please PLEASE get mad with me. Does this not make you mad?! I am mad for you. I am mad for all the people out there who have been mistreated and unjustly disrespected. I am mad at all the people out there who think it’s okay to play mind games and toy with people’s emotions as if they are not human beings. I am just straight up MAD. Please don’t allow yourself to get sad anymore, I’m sure you’ve had your days where you’ve cried and helplessly broken down. And you are completely entitled to these days, we need to get it all out of our system to truly allow the moving on process to begin. But now I just want you to think of him for what he is. A dishonest, manipulative, insensitive piece of ****. This is the motivation you need to allow yourself to move on. You need to reprogram your brain. You are a boss ass bitch. You need to channel that. Rather than spending your time thinking about him, spend that time on yourself. You deserve your time more than anyone else. This is a step that really helped me move on. And I’m still in the process of moving on, so trust me, I’m not going to preach to you like it’s easy, but a start is better than nothing. We can do this together. We’re strangers but gurl I feel so connected to you right now.
You know what you should do? Go to the gym. Work on bettering yourself and making yourself feel good for YOU, not for anyone else. You think someone liking you is an addictive feeling but that has NOTHING on the feeling of self-love and self-appreciation. Nothing is more empowering than that. We don’t need any man to make us feel happy and good about ourselves. Sure it can help add to it. But that’s all it should be. An accesory, not the complete outfit. (Did that make sense? in my head it sounded like poetry but writing it.. i’m not so sure anymore lol). You don’t even have to go to the gym - it’s all about doing things that you genunely want to do and want to dedicate time to. Whether that be yoga, reading a book, going out with friends…
Oh and that’s another thing. That “friend group” of yours is no friend group. You should be around people who uplift you and bring nothing but positivtiy and good vibes. After my break-up I spent the weekend with my best friend, eating an abundance of food that was bad for us and screaming the lyrics to enpowering songs. These are the type of people you need to surround yourself with. Not people who bully you and make you feel bad about yourself after a traumatic experience. Hell, I’m more of a friend to you than them and we don’t even know each other. Girl, talk to me. You don’t need them.
I’m so proud of you for walking away. I tried being “friends” which someone who broke me but it was just impossible. I don’t know how people do it, but it’s just not possible for me. Why burden yourself with the constant reminder of the pain someone caused you with no remorse? The worst thing is, as you said, they just don’t understand. They will accuse you of “over-reacting”, making you feel stupid for feeling the way you feel. I tried talking to my ex just to try and understand why he did what he did, to get some “closure”. But it just ended up doing more harm than good. People claim we need closure in order to move on but I don’t think this is always the case. Sometimes we just have to accept that some people are shit and that they do shit things. It’s not on us, it’s all on them. Why they are so shit is something they have to figure out, not us. You need to rid yourself of him. Delete his number, block him if you have to. Don’t message him. Don’t have any association with him. He’s not worth your time or space. Also posting sexy ass pictures now and then doesn’t hurt either. Show him what he’s missing. Because he really IS missing out.
And I know you fear getting into another relationship because you are worried it’s fated to have the same outcome. But trust me, when you spend time prioritising yourself and when you eventually grow to fully love and appreciate yourself, you’ll attract people who are good for you. You’ll learn to set boundaries and know your worth and NOT tolerate any bullshit. You’ll keep your standards high and will be able to detect the lying, conniving assholes from a mile away. You got this. The same thing won’t happen again because you won’t allow it to happen again. You hear me?
I’m so sorry for what you’ve been through. You asked for advise on how to move on and I’m sorry the answer hasn’t been so straightforward. I think the important thing is that you constantly remind yourself of how amazing you are and how wrong he was for treating you the way he did. Yes I don’t know you, but what I can tell immediately is that you’re a compassionate, loving and genuine person – someone who a guy will be extremely lucky to have some day. Also, another important factor is time. You need to give yourself time. Everyone says this but it’s true. Don’t beat yourself up if you occasionally relapse and find yourself broken again, it’s all a part of the process. But just know you WILL get through it. And remember, if you ever need someone to talk to, I can assure you that I am here. <3
I’m also going to make a mini playlist of songs that helped me feel empowered. Something as small as the music you listen to can also play a big part in changing your mood and aiding the moving-on process. BUH-BYE to songs that make us feel sad and nostalgic.
Playlist
· Lil Boi (Big Talk) [Ayanis ft. Queen Naija]
· Unlove You [Ann Marie]
· Heard It All Before [Toni Romiti]
· B.I.T.C.H [Megan Thee Stallion]
· Switch Up (Part 2) [Toni Romiti]
· Who Dis [Toni Romiti ft. Russ]
· I Know [Toni Romiti]
· Need Me [Toni Romiti]
· Unimpressed [Toni Romiti]
· Time To Leave [Toni Romiti]
· Options [Toni Romiti]
· None Of Your Concern [Jhene Aiko ft. Big Sean]
· Rebound [Savannah Cristina]
· Self Care [Savannah Cristina]
· Self Love [Dreameville, Ari Lennox & Bas ft. Baby Rose)
· So What [Amaal]
· Later [Amaal]
· Just Might [Summer Walker ft. PARTYNEXTDOOR]
· Not The Same [Sybyr ft. Landfill]
· Unleash me [Sybyr]
· I Don’t Like You [Sybyr]
· No Scrubs [TLC]
· See Me [Melii]
· Best Thing I Never Had [Beyonce]
· Why Don’t You Love me? [Beyonce]
· Freakum Dress [Beyonce]
· Irreplaceable [Beyonce]
· 6 Inch [Beyonce ft. The Weeknd]
· Freedom [Beyonce ft. Kendrick Lamar]
· Sorry (Original Demo) [Beyonce]
· I Don’t Fuck With You [Big Sean]
· Be Careful [Cardi B]
· Bodak Yellow [Cardi B]
· I’m Every Woman [Chaka Khan]
· Deuces [Chris Drown]
· Handle It [Chris Brown (ft. DeJ Loaf & Lil Yachty]
· Grass Ain’t Greener [Chris Brown]
· Cheetah [Chris Brown]
· Zero [Chris Brown]
· Level Up [Ciara]
· Needed me [Rihanna]
· Wild Thoughts [DJ Khaled ft. Rihanna]
· Bitch Better Have My Money [Rihanna]
· Sorry Not Sorry [Demi Lovato]
· Games [Demi Lovato]
· Say My Name [Destiny’s Child]
· Survuvor [Destiny’s Child]
· Nice For What [Drake]
· 7 rings [Ariana Grande]
· breathin [Ariana Grande]
· in my head [Ariana Grande]
· thank u, next [Ariana Grande]
· Broke Up With You [Toni Romiti]
· A Woman’s Worth [Alicia Keys]
· Right Back [Ar'mon and Trey]
· 2 [H.E.R]
· U [H.E.R]
· I Won’t [H.E.R]
· I Will Survive [Gloria Gaynor]
· Crooked Smile [J. Cole]
· Love Yourz [J. Cole]
· Ain’t Your Mama [Jennifer Lopez]
· Love Don’t Cose A Thing [Jennifer Lopez]
· Stronger [Kanye West]
· I Hate You So Much Right Now [Kelis]
· Poetic Justice [Kendrick Lamar ft. Drake]
· Bitch, Don’t Kill My Vibe [Kendrick Lamar ft. Emeli Sande]
· Alright [Kendrick Lamar]
· Leave Me Alone [Michael Jackson]
· Love Me Right [Moxie Knox]
· Feeling Myself [Nicki Minaj]
· Don’t Cha [Nicole Scherzinger]
· Medicine [Queen Naija]
· Karma [Queen Naija]
(I know I said a MINI playlist but I couldn’t help myself…)
Also, I’m going to add some youtube videos that helped me a lot. They’ll help remind you that you are, and always will be, a boss ass bitch.
· https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Jo1rSII6vU
· https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RTFp8cuBVLk
· https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m1SLA7cmeHo
· https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I64AVJKsaWc
· https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2dh1W-1Ulgo
· https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jUjwVVxW0Mc
· https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hMOPCvTM0o8
· https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_hcJ9vxn2yY
· https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X-NqX-g99jA
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