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writteninverses · 2 years ago

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the way uni is just destroying the little mental stability i had left at this point. im on the floor choking on my blood while uni keeps on throwing fits at me, i’ve already given up but uni can’t seem to be satisfied. im two punches away from DYING and uni is going to keep hitting me endlessly until i cant breathe anymore and i just die

#im so fucking sad #like genuinely #the burnout gifted kid syndrome is real #i miss high school ew ew #im literally deleting all my social media #bc i've decided that im pissed at everyone #i dont need to know if people are happy #im sad #i dont wanna see how others are here passing every module #i dont care i just dont care #i need everything to stop for a second #im choookingg im drowwwninggg #im not deleting tumblr though #i like it here

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clambuoyance · 1 year ago

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I’ve never been so obsessed with a character so bad that I literally can’t do anything else I’m like the squidward meme watching SpongeBob frolic outside the window stretching a hand out to all the pretty paintings and animations and comics I see in my head but being unable to feel any motivation for it . If only i could use the energy spent to create 20 kon doodles to sit down and concentrate on a single finished full piece I used to be able to make like 5 page comics what happened to me

#sighs yes before anyone says anything IK it’s probably adhd related 😭#BUT ITS GOTTEN SO BAD I CAN FEEL THE DIFFERENCE IN MY BRAIN HOW DID IT GET WORSE #it’s probably a mix of burnout too but I don’t get tired of drawing ?#it feels like when u get dizzy or change glasses or so #and it’s either everything is wayyy too in focus and you can see literally everything clearly that it hurts ur brain #which doesn’t help given how saturated w information the world is always #and simultaneously somehow everything is blurry or out of focus and I physically have to strain myself to hone in on one thing #I JUST WANNA READ COMICS AND FINISH A DRAWING AND HANDLE WORK AND SCHOOL AND TALK TO MY FRIENDS #ALL IN OME DAY #BUT MY BRAIN IS LIKE. TODAY IS ONLY FOR COMICS. YOU CANT DO ANYTHING ESLE #😫🫶 I’m deleting this later I’m just ranting LMAO #I’m highschool it’s crazy bc I did okay and then honestly i just think my ability to concentrate has deteriorated as the years have gone by #free me!!!#either way I want to lessen my social media and just pick One bc girl I have an Instagram a tumblr and a twitter this is horrible for me .#honestly I’ll probably pick instagram and just post on tumblr when I have art #I already do that #I mean when I have Good art.#IM RAMBLING IDK

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bunnihearted · 4 months ago

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i like actually dont want this blog anymore i've always loved my precious safe space but recently i've started to resent it...... but maybe instead of deleting it i should just log out and dont log in again for a while at least...

#and no idc abt what anyone thinks or im not saying this for any attention -_-#i cant say shit on here all of a sudden without rude comments and its like #im just some fkn miserable loser #im not an influencer (💀) or have like a lifestyle blog i want to advertise to ppl like #this is my diary yet (some) ppl think that everything i write is a personal attack or anyone else's business and im like... bruv wth 🙃#like idk its just not fun bc i have this blog as a diary not in a way to try to even get any attention #i dont even tag most of my things bc i want as little 'exposure' as possible 💀#im even anxious abt anyone reading this and judging me and laughing at me for #'thinking im all that' its just wild bc im literally just some good for nothing loser T-T #i mean also i get that this is the internet but i've been on the internet for so long and it is sm better #when u only have a small circle of ppl u interact w on social media like whatever app it is #the less ppl interacting observing and following the better bc like .. sksksksk idek 🤙🤙🤙#i feel like so far away from humanity and the world and too many ppl are just trash and i feel like im becoming the joker #and idk why i hold onto this blog and dont delete it #i dont know :(( i dont think anything really matters anymore but my blog is like a friend to me #and idk how to just cut the cord lolz 🤙#also being publically vulnerable is like so bad and never does anything good but like idk where to turn my blog is what i have atm :c #gah 😖😖😖😖😖

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widevibratobitch · 1 year ago

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my god. skinny people really just have like. No Idea huh just absolutely not a single clue lmao it's almost funny to watch fr but then id lie if i said i wouldn't fucking kill to be able to be that ignorant

#girl i am SO sorry people react with surprise when you say you're studying to be an opera singer because you're #*checks notes* skinny and attractive. so so sorry that must be literal hell for you huh how will you ever recover :((((#no no please keep talking about how equally bad that is to the brutal fucking fatshaming and ED glorifying #in the industry that me and the only other fat girl in the room were talking about before you interrupted us <3 #anyway. we were talking about this one review of a quite famous professional music critic whose only comment about a fat mezzo in the cast #was 'miss xyz.... lose some weight'. not a single word about her singing/acting/whatever. but yeah no you're too sexy for an opera singer #and THAT is the real problem here girl i totally understand yeah <3 thoughts and prayers dearest.#earlier that same day this same girl was standing next to me in her bodycon dress and went #*pointing at her stomach that's so flat its almost concave* 'ughhhh what do i have to do to not look pregnant in this dress 😩😫'#and i said 'girl' and just looked at her and like the sudden horrified realisation on her face was lowkey hysterical #like omg you really did forget you're not talking to your other skinny friends with whom you can pat each other on the backs #and reassure each other that 'dw girl ur not fat at all ur so so sexy!' huh sjshsjshsjs #but yeah i dont like making people uncomfortable irl so i did reassure her she looks hot and pretty and skinny as all shit #let at least one of us have a nice evening and not feel Absolutely Fucking Disgusting ig <3 #and the day before that after i saw our (last ever btw never photographing myself with them ever again <3) picture and had a mini break down #the other even skinnier and smaller and petite-er crouched down next to me with the most guilty fucking expression and quietly asked me #if im alright and do i want her to delete those pictures (that she posted on two separate social media pages) and like #the look of immense fucking pity on her was even worse than seeing those pictures #like i know she meant well and was trying to be nice but my god. this really is how you all see me huh #like looking like me would be fate worse than death for yall #not even gonna mention the thing i just learned this friday that the retired ballerina who leads our ballet classes said about me #trying to cheer up the other fat girl who happened to have a bit of an emotional breakdown in the middle of the class :)))))))#like i am sooooooo so glad and honoured to be an inspiration to you. really. always happy to help. the exemplary Fat Girl Who Fucking Sucks #But Doesnt Let It Bother Her <333333 #like on one hand. yeah it really does make me wanna jump off a cliff. but on the other. its just hilarious sjdgsjsgsj #you sure are right miss ma'am. i sure don't let this bother me at all. i am famous for my uncanny ability to Not Be Bothered by all this <33 #but shes new. its ok. how could she know about the last two years when i was getting panic attacks and sobbing myself to sleep every tuesday #but yeah no. [lauren cooper voice] am i bovvered? am i bovvered tho? i aint even bovvered!

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lesbuoyant · 7 months ago

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everybodys all lets condemn people with Morally Impure Interests until all of a sudden you have an interest that is suddenly considered Impure and wanes in and out of Public Opinion for many years because nobody actually knows how to think for themselves online. personally i think we'd all be very lonely if we chose and broke friendships based on.... What Video Games They Like and like absolutely nothing else regarding the person's character

#like consider the fact that Steven Universe was considered Irredeemable Media 5 or so years ago #which sounds like me just bitching about the fact that ive been getting into pretty NOTABLY muddy media as of late (which is true)#but even when it comes down to it...#you start talking to people in real life and its like hey everyone has a voice and opinions outside of the media they consume #You know #and it doesnt just end there this is rlly why ive looped back to supporting self expression and supporting victims above all else #in supposed “darkfic” “proship” “discourse”#its just kinda like..#well none of these things are cut-and-dry. there is context behind why people do anything that they do #social media exists to curate a limiting digital image of yourself therefore people make judgment calls based on very small parts #of your whole character #and this is why i deleted twitter #because its like an ocd torture simulator #anyways i know im being incredibly vague and i mean OBVIOUSLY there are always outliers ie actual literal propaganda art and all of that #im making a sweeping statement because this type of discourse has become so aimless that words dont even have meaning anymore #like we just need to destroy the whole thing and start over.#anyways i might delete this later its just on my mind #becuase of those maia crimew posts lol

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lipstickontheglass1985 · 2 months ago

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honestlyyyy i lowkey need to burn down my smartphone

#so close to deleting all my social media apps. yes that does include tumblr.#but its like. ok i get info abt upcoming events in my area via instagram. ig i could delete facebook but i dont even use it that much #so like guess i could delete it but whats the point #tumblr is definitely eating up a ton of my time but also where would i be without it.#cannot delete it at least until i have my physical diary on me again #i also follow a bunch of journalists on insta but ig i could just keep up with their stuff over at like. the actual agencies they publish in #some of it is paywalled and i dont neccessarily respect the agency as a whole to give it money but. well cope i guess #ao3 is not a social media platform but i do spend an embarassing amount of time using it #and i know i could spend that time reading like. actual books. which i am lowkey struggling with!!#but like if im reading 40k word fanfics then it means i do have an attention span for reading long form fiction #its just that a story with a setting and characters im already familiar with is much easier to 'get into' than something totally new #and like i do know it cause once i got hooked on the witcher saga last summer i literally read all 5 novels within a few days!!#like the attention span IS there. its just that the - to put it in a nerdy way - activation energy feels much higher than it used to #like the hardest part is truly to start!!!#sooo like idk. might delete this godforsaken app starting oct 1st. probably would still log on via desktop #but limiting my tumblr screen time would be sooo good for me. and like im considering giving myself an alotted time for some stuff #like ao3 etc. this simply cannot continue.#thots

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strawberrysweater · 2 months ago

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#i wish i could just have one normal conversation where i say the right correct things that are normal #in the right tone of voice and everything #this isnt about anyone or any friend stuff it's about me getting a phone call for a job interview & fumbling it #like idk what it is but the way i talk and interact with people is always incorrect #im saying this on the verge of tears. i try so. fucking. hard. to interact and be social #and make connections with people and it feels like im a fucking space alien making a fool of myself #i dont belong in any group ive ever been in and i never will #and i can't even answer a phone call about my availability without my brain melting out of my ears so i forget #everything ive been trying so hard to remember and say and do better #..... i wanna feel like an important person in a group #i wanna be part of something and feel important and like im needed #and i would be missed if i was gone #i think i could just quietly delete all my social media apps and disappear from every place ive ever been in #and nobody would even notice. i literally dont add anything #im just gonna be some awkward random freak in whatever job i get too #im not ever gonna be liked or depended upon or needed for anything #every other job ive had ive always just felt in the way and awkward and clueless #nobody ever makes small talk with me or comes up to me or invites me to stuff #am i doing something wrong? was friendship supposed to come out of it? what did i miss?#im so sick of being a fucking failure i just dont wanna talk to anyone ever again i just wanna be alone forever #its impossible everythign is impossible

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vulcannic · 2 years ago

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it’s weird to me that tumblr is the only place my art consistently flops because like… this is my house!! my home!!!

#text #delete later #the fact that instagram is where my art does best even though i literally just post and close the app #because i loathe it so deeply #though don’t get me wrong im so grateful for all the love on my art across all social media #because i think about this time last year where i was just crying every week about how i feel like im not making progress with my art #and how alone i felt #i feel so SO grateful #its just interesting to me that i’ve been on tumblr the longest and it’s like posting to the void #i mean it could be because tumblr is more dead than i thought #but my art blog has around the same amount of followers as twt and ig so what is the truth

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midwestblue · 2 years ago

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the internet is just so fucking mean now. its so hard to be active anywhere

#.txt #I mean like just everywhere its so fucking mean #im kind of fucking sick of it lmao there is more to life than #being mean to people on fucking social media #nothing even happened to me I just see it all the time so often #literally deleted my (barely active) twitter because of it. twitter is the worst imo

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typheus · 2 years ago

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im trying to work on the crochet blanket but...... i want to knit...............

#other #t talks #ever since i started knitting those dang socks ive been only thinking about knitting 😩#especially now that they are finished #they are so nice. i love em #not posting picurtes #ignore typo #cause 1 not posting feet. and 2 i deleted tumblr off my phone. and im too lazy to redownload iy #it. ill get to that whenever i get to it #also good lord ive messed up like a billion things today :/ i need to just. chill or somethin idk #literally uninstalled all my social media apps n sat there like ....... 🧍‍♀️why didnt they open?......... whered they go? my brain was GONE #itssss fine. i was running out of space on my phone anyways #anyways instead of working on the blanket im gonna make a hat :)

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avatar-state-kate · 2 years ago

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I really hate that I can’t be honest about the fact that I don’t use amazon or don’t use twitter/instagram without having everyone feeling the need to defend their life choices to me. like you asked me why I don’t use them, I’ve told you, and now you need to defend yourself? I literally don’t care. If the fact that I don’t indulge in these things makes you feel insecure maybe that says more about you, and the fact that you also might not like that you use them, then it does about me, who couldn’t care less because like....I literally have no idea what you do online I’m not there, and I’m not checking how you purchase items. So like maybe this isn’t me being a pretentious bitch for honestly answering a question/explaining myself and is instead maybe something you need to work on

#like delete your account or don't i literally don't care #but i also never said you should or suggested it at all #im speaking personally about my personal experience about myself - ie not about you #this grinds my gears so much #like if you didnt want me to talk about social media bad then dont ask why im not on it #like what do you think my reason is going to be i think im too ugly???#im just to lame for social media??#idiotic #social media #personal

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duck-era-lexi · 2 years ago

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my twt thread about how discord was actually ruining my life and i never rly realized

#personal #also i can confirm that deleting social media 100% makes you happier #but im not thinking i'm better than ppl for not having social media #i think i just don't like shallow stuff and it annoys me #my best friends all have social media but they're not super active like the popular ppl #like ok istg i'm not saying this to preach but genuinely i hate communicating online #like i literally had the worst depressive episode ever last fall and yet i was the happiest ive ever been in my life #because i saw my friends like 4-5 a week and i had a good relationship with my family and dog #life just feels better soft like that

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antivivziepopparade · 4 months ago

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Vent: I live in a helicopter family (due to my disabilities) where 90% of my life, my social media access, my political access, my clothes, all of my ssi money (I havent gotten my own money for MONTHS!), my information, and everything else is controlled and I cant do anything about it because im schizophrenic, autistic, and have chronic pain.

Without a way to bypass parental blockers, I would be without anyone to relate to personally and I would feel alone, uninformed, and afriad of the outside world. Especially after my dad took my phone and looked through it without my knowing, etc.

I hate this feeling. I just want to have my life back.

Im more stable now! Why are my parents trying to control EVERYTHING!? IM ALMOST TWENTY ONE I SHOULD BE MOVED OUT BY NOW! I HATE LIVING THIS WAY!