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#wyll#wyll ravengard#bg3#baldurs gate 3#my art#larian job openings but none for wyll fanartizt … hmmm….#.. change that and get back 2 me ok. …#anywyas . <looove saying anyways ~#rediscovering this brush and its kind of fun tbh.. i love the patchiness of the marker but this is soo round and full#and i like the opacity shift on the ends bc it looks so smooth .. like the subtle blending#do u see the mizora .i almost drew her w but i didnt want to make wyll scowl and you know he doesnt gaf abt her like thagt so.#aug.anyways . im soo soeepy .tired snzzz snorrkkmimi#MANN!!!! i havent played since they fixed the wyll glitch and i want to soosos soo bad (crying hamster pic)#k mneed to . draw more fomplete stuff again sry for headshot soft smile number 332#this feels more him to me .. i dont like the first pic i posted . whichever one is colored#🫵🫵🫵 i cant render faces for shit w color .woe is me#on the right track though i do like this 1 more . not there yet but SOON.for wyll at least HELPPPP i drew a few astsrions and shadowhearts#but no1 else ..
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I FEEL SO STRONGLY ABOUT THE CHAMBER'S REACTION TO KEL OK
kel is the lump, a stone, the calm surface of a lake- but ONLY on the outside- ONLY to make dealing with people work better
the chamber hammers your weak spots trying to make you BREAK, but KEL, WENT TO THE CHAMBER, AGAIN AND AGAIN, she GREW AROUND it like a TREE
the day came when the chamber had it's chance- to strike her as HARD AS IT COULD
and
there was almost nothing left for it to even aim at
because kel had stuck HERSELF already, had BEEN hammering herself this whole time- had been TESTING herself every step of the way QUESTIONING HERSELF AND asking herself how she could be and do better next time
for the sake of those who need someone when no one sees them as people. for the sake of unwanted animals and overlooked humans- kel became her own ordeal
the chamber couldn't break Kel. SHE broke IT
so it had nothing to do, except make her an ordeal in the real world-
the nothing man, child killer, the promise she will stare evil in the face somewhere somehow, that tantalizing and USELESS knowledge burning her as she is given charge of convicts and refugees and not enough soldiers to defend them and her old desire to be like the Lioness, her inspiration, to go out there and STOP THIS SUFFERING FROM HAPPENNG HERSELF
the chamber jammed this thorn into her heart and THEN it chose to Watch Her out there
as she.... chose people. Again. chose care over glory. everyday duty over heroics. obscurity to wider world- but a friend to a small corner of the world that desperately needed someone to see them, fight for them, and not ever look away... or abandon them
the chamber saw that. it NAMED HER- didn't chose her- didn't make her- gave no gift other than pain to her
but it was glad, to have seen her
Protector. of the Small
gently burying dead sparrows and scoffing at such a silly name
#tortall#the protector of the small#keladry of mindelan#tamora pierce#im not crying thinking about it im not im NOT#gods#you get to her last book and you realize there is an army of people who will follow kel anywhere- even when she tells them not to#because they love her#even the ones who think she's daft will risk death to make sure she doesn't die#everyone is a person to her#so many people feel that#and answer it by being better or braver or kinder people in turn#anyway#kel#the kind of character to change your brain chemistry tbh
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I think the Bad Kids deserve to cry a lil. As a treat. IT’S CATHARTIC!!!!!!!!!!!
#my art#described#dimension 20#fantasy high#fantasy high: junior year#the bad kids#ima be tbh. I did mostly just wanna draw Gorgug crying WJDBDJSB#I hope we get any kind of acknowledgement about what Gorgug saw in the forest… I’d love to see a scene where he asks digby & wilma about it#ALSO I LOOOVVVEEE THAT THEIR PRONOUNS ARE THEY/THEM BCUS THEY ARE A SET. DO NOT SEPARATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#also. hope that the time thing Brennan mentioned is an actual plot point and not just A Convenient Retcon Function#like pls brennan… I respect ur storytelling so much I do. if I wanted retcon excuses I’d go back to TES and read about the dragon breaks#especially since like. I love the seven so much. I’ve joked before like. t7 is frankly FHJY for me. we can skip right to sen. year JY is T7!#so if hes walking stuff back esp stuff that was established in T7… idk im not gonna be like. mad. I have a Life lmao. but maybe a lil sadge.#ANYWAY zac once again making one of my fave PCs. gorgug is so sweet guy…#also hope we get to see the artificing class & teacher!
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Serendipity should be required viewing material before anyone tries to analyze Homestuck; not only is John Cusack a universal constant, but the themes and vibes of Serendipity are so fundamentally woven into Homestuck's DNA that several of Serendipity's thesises and conversations could be lifted directly from one to the other.
In particular, the way Serendipity utilizes coincidence and circumstantially simultaneous events in order to suggest - nay, decree - that the two leads belong together, is highly reminiscent of the way Hussie uses foreshadowing, and not just for romantic couples. It's also a major window into the ultimate stance Homestuck takes with regard to romance, fate, and destiny, and also more specifically, a really good look at Karkat's own personal philosophies of romance. There's a running theme in his movies of meeting someone that perfectly matches your freak, someone you don't ever need to compromise yourself around, who brings out the best in you.
Also, some of yall need to watch a shitty romcom every once in a while and develop some emotions
#I'm genuinely not joking#if you want to understand Karkat and Homestuck better you need to watch Serendipity#at the very least so you can understand what the comic means by soul mates#i mean it's literally NAMEDROPPED during the troll romance section as the ultimate expression of finding your soul mates in every quad#people literally will be like 'i like karkat' and not watch serendipity smh#anyway the karkat movie list is serendipity • hitch • 50 first dates#he calls serendipity and hitch specifically 'pure magic' and yes. yeah.#i know we all love to clown on karkat's love of embarrassing romcoms and we're right to do so it's hilarious#but hussie also unironically calls it the best character trait he gave karkat and hes soooo correct about that#and you can tell from the way serendipity and even 50 first dates are described that those are kind of hussies genuine feelings toward them#hes right 50 first dates DOESN'T make you want to punch adam sandler#despite the occassional uncomfortable lowbrow comedy segment everything about the romance is played so straight and so genuine#maybe this shitty adam sandler romcom made me cry maybe im man enough to admit it#and idrk how else to describe serendipity besides 'pure magic'#tbh just watch it for yourself#homestuck is like 30% serendipity by volume
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great hawk the adorable the terror doodles!
#great hawk the terror#dol great hawk#dol#degrees of lewdity#dol related#fan art#art#mine#my fan art#my art#dol pc#eri the orphan#great hawk x pc#kind of?#BHREFBJEHRF#its just a silly doodle#because ive been missing my hawk husband#HES SO CUTE#like actually#how is he ... the fucking harpy that kidnaps us to the highest part of the tower#not as scary as the fucking caretaker that handles the orphanage???#idk whether to laugh or cry tbh hRBERHF#i understand i am in the minority (mayhaps) but#i humbly request the dol gods to give pregnancy content for great hawk#kind of fucked up his face in this one :/// will try to redo it when im less sleepy!!!
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Blyke in Season 3.
This is my prediction. With the way Season 2 ended, I think they’ll find Blyke months later looking something like this.
Shit happens to people in prison. Terrence was murdered in his cell, Rein was worried about being killed by other inmates, hell, Blyke’s already pretty banged up in the finale and he’s been there for 2.5 seconds. Not to mention that the Authorities seem to have no problem torturing kids *COUgh* Keon.
Perhaps it’s a bit pessimistic, but the story’s been getting a lot darker lately. I doubt Blyke’s getting out of prison without a little extra trauma at least.
Latest Chapter as of Prediction: Side Story — Triple Threat (1)
#blyke unordinary#unordinary#Prediction#Drawing in my diary again#art#unordinary spoilers#normally the spoiler warning is at the top but not this time bc it’s an image post#I changed his expression so many times#I was going for that resigned kind of dead inside look#At first it looked too angry#and then it looked just like nothing#totally nuetral face#then it looked too sad#like he was gonna cry#and then I got this#many more iterations along the way#Was worried about damaging my paper the amount of times I erased his eyebrows#Tbh I think I still fucked it up#Also I spent awhile on the background and you can barely see it#could’ve just made it gray ngl#I also spent a long time on this band of light on him#like as if someone had opened a door and light shined through#but I got rid of it#Waste of my DAMN time smh#I’m rlly proud of the hair though#Shit happens in Lovun Prison#Is all of that blood his? Who knows.#also I drew all those cuts in different stages of healing be proud of me#This was supposed to be a doodle/warmup I did NOT expect it to take all day#Ngl Im really glad I turned my sketchbook sideways for this one bc the lined paper reminds me of prison bars like this
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its official !!!
#camera talks#we got the certificate late last night and my mom showed it to me this morning#im totally crying#im so happy#im so proud#god im struggling to put words together honestly this is crazy#i know ive been posting about it a lot sorry but its such a dream ?#if i could go back into time and tell my past self we were going to get to change our name i think he'd cry too#we didnt think we'd get to until we were eighteen at least tbh#i keep tearing up every time i look at the certificate lmao dear lord#this is too much to be happy about at 8:40 in the morning but <33#and i still have to go to work today gah </3#also thank you to everyones super kind words last time i posted about it. yall are so cool and sweet mwah <3#anywayss#we're gonna get a cake lol
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Currently having a breakdancing session with myself<333
#im Turing 21 tomorrow#im gonna cry#I don’t want to spend time with my family#i don’t understand#they don’t even like me xjsjhjdhs#its sad that the moment I move away I’ll be low contact with all of them://#my life is going no where#I want to leave#but I’m disabled and not mentally stable enough dndjhdjxks#but they just think I’m lazy#like bro I have doctors appointments smsmjsks#I faint when I’m out in public#i hate my birthday#so much#im not in the closet but at this point I wish I was sjjsjdks#the only reason I’m still home and not kicked out is because my dad cared well he tires#my mother would have kicked me out#girlie gonna kicked me out for shaving my head#and getting a binder#both my parents are transphobic but they’re both different kinds of transphobe#dad is ignorant transphobia#mother fucking dislikes us teehee#she’d rather kick me out#can’t believe I let this women beat the shit out of me everyday for 13 years#whelp#im not ready to be 21#I wasn’t ready to be 20#I wasn’t ready to be 18#I suck at everything wtf dnmdnddm#man idk why I’m still kicking tbh
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theres a really. special kind of despair in the uncertainty brought about by moments of success and achievement. the inevitable “what now” of reaching your goals. and i kind of wish someone had warned me how hollow graduating university would feel, tbh
#taylor.txt#im miserable primarily for other reasons right now but i dont think i appreciated how much this just…wouldnt feel like anything#i think especially in my case as someone who so desperately needed ‘going away to college’ to get out of my childhood situation#and now for the past 5 years everything ive done has been for the purpose of getting my degree and finishing school#like im fine i guess i just kind of wish i could feel proud of myself or happy its over instead of like dreading the ceremony and feeling#like everything i have to do for grad is just one more thing i have to check off a list. getting my grad photos done felt nice but idk#it kind of feels like no one really cares which. idk why i would expect it to NOT feel that way. but yeah#tl;dr im around Kinda…need to finish stuff up but im over the really busy part of this all. kinda just coasting to the end here tbh#when this is over i’m gonna get to my request fics. prommy. wanted to do them over the long weekend but i was sick :(#anyway like to be clear im fine. people have been pointing out today i seem down and i think embarrassingly a collection of my students#noticed me crying on the bus today but thats life i guess you make do. im sad and thats ok. tbh
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Handing you .. fanart of your Juniper mask >:] I promised to myself I'd draw this ever since you dropped the design it's SO COOL!!! i hope you dont mind!
I'M GOING TO CRY YOU'RE TOO KIND OH MY GOD,,,,,,i NEVER mind ppl drawing my designs Im honoured you liked it so much to DRAW IT???????? I'm grinning like a bastard this has made my day, thank you so so so much
#screaming crying sobbing /pos#you're so kind im losing my mind over this#im never living this down you're so talented and you drew MY SILLY DESIGN??? overwhelming /pos#im so im so !!!!!!!!! AUUUUU#tysm like fr this means so much im so full of thank yous I've been rendered speechless#asks#[Agent: genebeanz]#[fanart]#<- AAAAAAAAA#ieytd#john juniper#im so. auu im gonna be riding this high all day#sobbinf........#im just staring at it man AUUAUAUA so kind im so im so i cant explain the emotion but i can feel it in my whole body#pure joy methinks#im a simple man.....one juniper drawing and all of a sudden im buzzing and then square that feeling because it's YOU????????#genuinely your comments on my art is such a huge inspiration to me for keeping at it man#this whole fandom has that effect in me tbh like it's so kind and close knit#auuu#okay im gonna stop rambling because I'll be here all day but one last time thank you oh my god#i react normally to things 👍/j
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its probably just me or whatever but genuinely one of the tropes that upset me the absolute most in media was like. when the villain kidnapped others and made them a comfortable home or smth, and was nice, and still the kidnapped ppl just kept going on and on about "can i go home now" "i want to go home" "when do i get to go home"
i know its absolutely irrational but i always felt incredibly bad for the villain and totally related to the anger when they eventually snapped. they did so much!!!!!! they were nice!!!!!! it was a nice place!!!!!!!
#actually please let me know if im not alone#or let me know what this says abt me lmao#im fairly sure its rooted in the fact that i never wanted to be home and if i was kidnapped and subjected to the cruel fate of#having to stay at a comfortably furnished place with a person who was nice to me completely free of charge and responsibilities#i wouldve never looked back#so on one hand i was jealous#on the other i feel like i also felt personally attacked when i saw someone's efforts not being acknowledged?#i understand. it was kidnapping and THEN niceness. i get it. i understand.#BUT VILLAIN WAS *NICE* WHY ISNT IT BEING ACKNOWLEDGED AND RECIPROCATED#so many feelings#like even just writing this out i feel that horrible urge to cry and also break things#it makes me feel so much#i need to write shit like this#its a little grace core tbh#somewhat. she has no illusions. she knows shes not trying to be particularly kind#but she does throw irrational fits like that
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I once said that I thought Steph would make a great Black Canary, and I still think that's one of the realest takes I've ever had.
Like, this moment seared itself into my head and never faded:
{ Robin 80-Page Giant }
#stephanie brown#dinah lance#spoiler#black canary#me learning about how dinah lost her cry which was as much BULLSHIT as steph's death btw okay hold on i need to get this out of my system#because they had to nerf her SO HARD for that to make sense and it STILL DIDNT BECAUSE ?????? SHE'S THE BLACK CANARY???? THAT GUY WAS A#NOBODY WITH A KNIFE ARE YOU JOKING??? and then the story that follows isnt even really ABOUT dinah it's about ollie and im so. ohhhh my god#JUST like how steph's death was largely brished aside to deal with bruce and jason's angst like. yeah i wanted there to be angst but it#wouldve been nice if it had been about HER for more than five seconds. honestly im so mixed about her death and return tbh. the way they#went about her passing was so weirdly inconsistent through the issues that bruce managing to get her to leslie in time does make sense but#then they do that weird thing with leslie and it's like ???? wha???? i go back and forth on how i feel about steph's return. on one hand i#love how she comes back more focused and stronger largely by her own means but on the other i did want#... something. i wanted her to be angry a bit longer and to deal with the complicated emotions between her 'failing' and bruce's 'failing'#and what that meant for her now. idk i love her batgirl run but it wouldve been nice if she had a bit more space to grieve herself.#anyway later in this issue dinah agrees to mentor steph for a bit and her rules are pretty much the same as bruce's when he made her robin#and if dinah had mentored steph instead of bruce she never would've died ok send tweet#wjshshsk#i love the panels of them looking at each other. dinah looking into steph's eyes and recognising the look in them.#i love how she smiles at stephanie both times. it's so gentle and kind. ily black canary#love posting on blogs where no one follows me. i can just say shit#comic ref#freya talks comics
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I just found an old journal of mine from like 2016-2018 while searching for something else in my apartment.
After reading through it, I just wish I could go back and thank my past self for getting me here and tell him that I love him and that it all turned out better than he ever hoped. He went through so much. Horrid mental health, body image issues, what I can now see was a lot of dysphoria, self medication, ect. He didn’t give up despite wanting to so many times. Despite not really identifying with the person I used to be, I am still so thankful for all he did for me without even knowing it. I may not be him anymore but I still love him.
#tw dysphoria#tw dysmorphia#tw substance abuse#tw sui ideation#sadposting#Had a good cry after reading through the whole thing#but it was the good kind of crying#The kind where you realize that shit actually can and does get better#not really sure why im posting this tbh#guess I just wanted to shout it into the ether
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The ‘cat batch’ AU by @/cloneenthusiast has me feeling some type of way and I couldn’t rest until I drew doggirl Brea for catboy crosshair 😳❣ so...nya I guess!
#artfarts#self insert#self ship#self shipping community#self insert community#self insert x canon#star wars self insert#the bad batch self insert#crosshair tbb#again. a bit bold of me to tag as such -blows note on pitch pipe- im..insane in the memembrane!#on god its a little too late for me to care#im sleepy and I JUST WANNA THROW THIS OUT HERE TO FORGET ABOUT IT#DIE CRY HATE#HOW CAN I HELP IT WHEN HE'S SUCH A PRETTY KITTY#gghhhhhh#and its kind of a whole thing when he normally calls the reader 'kitten' in fics im throwing up#how did this happen#anyways i was gonna schedule this#but tbh i dont want u guys to see it YOU'D BETTER BE COOL#so ill go ahead and post now at 1;15 in the gd morning \#im mentally ill#but i had my friend jude help me out with the dog/cat ear anatomy a little bit#theyve been a furry ever since ive known them#and for coloring the fur at least for brea i went a bit chili heeler for it#my bff pointed that out which i thought was kinda cute#anyways turn your eyes away from this wretched thing good NIGHT#🎯 baby shot me down 🎯
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had the worst fucking day ever
#꒰ ✒️ : cielle's diary ꒱#so much things happened#and theyre not the good kinds#tbh im getting rlly overwhelmed i need to get out of this campus asap and just cry in my bed
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what if i plopped down a little plotting call here? whether we started already and you have the time to chat or if we haven't plotted anything and you want to start. we can build crossover verses or just cry about our muses, it's just about vibing together
#im trying to fast track through da:v - esp since i write during work days / while me and the hubby watch movies#so while i have the free time i figured that's what i would focus on today to turn my brain off#but yeah#whether you're just down to chat or want to figure out some plotting together#i kind of just want to cry about serana tbh#. . ˚ . ooc .
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