#im just going to keep adding to this actually

[logicroute]

its a fairly well-known thing that nankidai designs the hallucinations in a way that mirrors how it 'started' (in quotes), at least to what i know. so :3 im going to talk about my personal thoughts on how they r designed and how nankidai plays around with it in sprite work! kinda short ramble and this is just. my basic thoughts compressed due to my fear of being far too talky and going in circles

(rant undercut!)

the ones that are red/black stem from guilt, believing you are at fault for what happened to them (usually death!) ie the hallujoe and mr policeman + the ones seen in ytts. using a base sprite and then coloring it with red + black leaning into the horror side of yttd, empty eyes a never ending grin.. you get the picture. its interesting how nankidai draws them... having all of them stem from the base idea of the hallucinations being a 'monster' of some kind.

compared to kannas 'kind' ones, seeming to keep the characters og colors but adding a white overlay. a fairly large contrast to the ones that seem to harm. playing into the idea of it being a 'ray of light' in a way (in kannas eyes at least). even if at first kanna felt like she was at fault for kugies death, she was able to realize that if she was alive.. kugie would want kanna to live. so she carries kugie and even shin with her.

andd then i get to shins (WHICH IS A HALLUCINATION!! I DONT CARE!). the shadow. shadsou. being pitch black instead of when it opens its mouth and the outline. unlike the other ones which have some sort of color, either being dark reds or light colors in general. compared to the other two which had an actual death tied to them, shadow comes from the 'death' of shin tsukimi, being how it convinces shin to go by sou. and like the other hallucinations, mocking shin but instead of it being about how its their fault for their death, its about how shin will die.

anyhow. in short. the way that yttd shows hallucinations is super interesting to me in a theming sense.. all of them stemming from the idea of someone dying.

i have soo many more thoughts abt this topic.. but this is good enough for now :3 feel free to ask any followup questions if you wish.. my ask box is always open! if this is messy. oops. i just got home and had to get my thoughts out.

[vermillionbedfellow]

being young and british right now is just a fucking trip

I have a bleeding heart and empty pockets and the best I can hope for in the upcoming election is the grotesque marionette doll of the corpse of the labour party , i have a complex degree that i worked for for years with a view to saving the world and i pull pints for money, I'll likely never own a home,nor would i have children if it meant condemning them to a future of insecurity and fear and conflict. the world is on fire and I am donating my minimum wage bullshit income to families millions of miles away just so that they might not have to face certain death under a regime that I am also funding involuntarily through my taxes. My trans peers might not live to see 40. It will take me over a month to get a gp appointment and even then I'll likely be told that I'm a woman and that i should just be less stressed. There's shit in the water. It's been raining for days. The police want to hurt us. Everything is expensive and nothing is worth the price. The catcalling is getting worse. A man old enough to be my grandfather smacked my arse today. The prime minister wants to send kids to war to teach them British values, but for all I can see, the only persistent British value that there is is taking the fucking piss.

[gibbearish]

love when ppl defend the aggressive monetization of the internet with "what, do you just expect it to be free and them not make a profit???" like. yeah that would be really nice actually i would love that:)! thanks for asking

[liquidstar]

How is tumblr going to ban porn and then show me ads where two triceratops are straight up having sex

[megumi-fm]

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[coriander-candlesticks]

I'm sick so I'm sorry if this doesn't make sense, but I've been thinking about the nature of myths recently as I've been exploring hellenic polytheism.

For context: I'm ex-Mormon. I was raised in the church and, because of that, was taught biblical literalism but in, like, a more subtle way than most? I was raised believing that Adam & Eve and Noah's Ark, etc., were literally true, but that the story of Job specifically was not; I also always knew evolution and the Big Bang to be correct, despite there being a verse in the Doctrine & Covenants (a Mormon-specific religious book) where God apparently told Joseph Smith that the world is 6,000 years old- a passage I didn't know existed until my senior year of high school. I didn't realize I had believed in biblical literalism until I'd left the church, actually.

Now that I'm aware of it, it's a mindset I'm actively trying to combat while I explore Hellenic polytheism. It's definitely been a task to separate the nature of the Gods from their myths, as brutal as they often are. And it's something I've noticed within the community, too, which I think is interesting. It makes sense: Christianity, at least, has had a chokehold on much of the world for a long time, and so many of us have experienced literalism as our first interaction with any sort of holy text (though, of course, Greek myths as a whole aren't that) alongside our first experience with divinity as a wrathful God whose flaws are waved away, or ignored, or twisted into positive attributes. This also means that I'm trying to re-approach several deities with an open mind (Zeus, Hera, and Ares in particular, but many of them to some extent) while also trying to un-condition myself. I was already in the process of doing this, of course, but trying to figure out how to interact with a completely different pantheon has made that especially clear.

It extends to things like prayer and offerings, too. Prayers were very formulaic growing up, even though most of the time there wasn't a strict script to follow. There was always something you ask as part of the prayer, even if it's just 'please help me do better tomorrow' (alongside giving thanks, of course), so trying to craft a prayer without adding *everything* I'm used to including in makes it feel incomplete and, therefore, disrespectful. And daily prayer is something I'm resistant to because of prior experiences with it. I don't want to offend any of the gods by asking for something or asking for too much, especially so early on, and there's always a promised offering the few times I *have* asked. Add worries about exact obedience on top of that and it's proving to be a difficult thing to untangle. And I know that the gods are difficult to offend, figuring out how to do this takes trial & error and that's okay, it'll get better the more I do it, etc., etc.; this is more an issue with my own overthinking than anything else (hooray for ✨ mental health issues ✨). I'm not really asking for advice here, necessarily, just thinking out loud because I'm not comfortable talking to people in meat space about it yet.

[peapodsplace]

ive never seen the fox and the hound, is it a happy disney film or unnecessarily sad like some of the old ones can be LOL bc i might need to watch it?!?

Hehehe it's a sad one! It's honestly one of my favourites even though I haven't watched it in years, I keep waiting for the right time. It's about a fox and a hound (obviously) but it revolves around upbringing and how hounds are meant for fox hunting so I'd be careful if that's upsetting for you! I think it really captures innocence really well and I remember always wanting a friendship like Todd and Copper had.

[mysticdeath]

skipping the pleasantries, while i consider myself highly critical of the tvdu, i am still very cautious about the things i say and do in front of other people. i would never belittle a character or ship someone writes to their face, nor would i tear apart the things they choose to hold as canon simply because it does not align with my own thoughts. i would never allow my personal feelings of certain characters to bleed into my writing and affect how my muses act to those characters. and unless prompted, i will never share my personal thoughts and feelings on specific subjects. i would appreciate if this could be a sentiment that is returned.

[ectonurites]

i just need to like. make everything explode forever. <3

[evg]

can't stop thinkimg about modding games

[nobodieshero-main]

okay. aaaa. idk how to put things into words!!! *frustrated writer noises*

okay, so, mordred. destined to die, and knows it. how? nobody tells him, because 1. nobody knows his destiny and 2. it's incredibly taboo to share someones destiny with them. you're not meant to know it. but mordred does, because the knowledge appeared in his head one day.

like, he literally just blinked and the fact that he's going to die was in his brain like it had always been there. and i've been going back and forth and twisting myself in knots trying to figure out when and how that happened, because i know it's a result of ahuru's death, but him knowing the moment she dies feels too small a window.

like, what, he realises he's supposed to die in 2 days and then doesn't? NO. and then i decided that ahuru literally took mordred's place, that she died at the same time on the same date in a similar manner that he was meant for. so then it wouldn't work bc then mordred's moment of realisation would be so different. it wouldn't be this big dramatic 'willing sacrificial lamb' that i accidentally created for him, it would be a young noble pausing in the street, unable to tear his eyes away from a specific spot and feeling a shiver run down his spine. which, like, it kind of cool but it's not who mordred is now lmao.

and then i was like "okay what if he was born like that? born to die, and born to know it." which did start leading me on a tasty little crumb trail where mordred is meant to die on his birthday - i've mentioned before somewhere that ahuru's death does Huge Things, that it basically sends a shockwave through the cosmos that rewrites the story, and we end up with nobodies hero. well who said the universe is linear?? time is WHACK, it's MADE UP, and this is a fantasy so i can do what i want actually so i was thinking that some of those ripples just skipped over linear time completely and thats how mordred finds out.

it's just a ripple.

anyway, i was thinking about it more and mordred dying on his birthday would really be one fun little full-circle moment for him so i think i do want to keep that - i could even include moments where atlas mentions his little brothers birthday coming up, and how he's glad he sent a letter in the last town with a post office because it should arrive in time or smth. - but instead of it being something he's known since birth it's going to happen a little bit later in life.

like still when he's a kid, but i want to give him time to accept and embrace that this is his fate and he can't escape it. and then it's ripped from him and he's forced to live.

[yumeyumeappleo]

donnie <3

me?

actually drawing something?

wow

also i made the background like that cause it’s more fun to draw when it’s not just an empty white void staring back at you after two days of no sleep

[dumkana16]

Whatever the fuck kinda fuck ass hormones are happening in my body right now I'm mad at them. pmsing pre-period-ing whatever you wanna call it and I'm so mad. So grumpy. And I can't help it! But I'm aware that I shouldn't dump that on people so that means that I'm mostly just silent or making noises to myself. Also mad for other reasons but last week I was able to handle it somehow. Premenstrual me struggles to handle it much more tho

[piplupod]

mother: "theres this great job where you'd be on-call to come in!"

me: "ahhh i don't really want to be on-call, that would stress me out a lot because I'd always be on edge,,"

mother: "no you wouldn't, you could make it your thing!"

me: "...my thing?"

mother: "being on call! it'd be great! :)"

me: "i would probably be crying like... a lot ahaha. because I would always be on edge never knowing when to expect having to go into work, yknow?"

mother: "nooo, you could just make it a thing!"

me: "sorry, what do you mean by thing?"

AND I NEVER FOUND OUT !!

[starlooove]

I alluded to this in tags awhile ago but like. IK continuity doesn’t work this way and when things shifted from kooky and silly 40s stuff with psas scattered to like dark brooding whatever we’re supposed to take it as like either time passing with some hand waving to personalities or ‘it was always like this for them trust’ but thinking about dick specifically going from holy galloping grasshoppers Batman to dealing with Bruce in spyral and shit is so so so sad I can’t articulate it well rn but like everyone kinda agrees the shift happened after two face and jason but like no dick saw it all he saw it while it happened he saw Bruce taking tim to baseball games and then gaslighting him at 16 he saw the man who’d take care of a random baby on the fly threaten to send his youngest son back to the league he saw the man who helped usher in a new era of young heroes treat Steph like shit he saw the man who inspired hope for a future in civilians heroes and enemies alike take advantage of cass’ suicidal thoughts and separation from her own humanity he saw everything and he just has to. Deal. To everyone else this is just Bruce and ppl like Tim and cass justify it to an extent bc they love him and get exasperated and when Dick is angry but how couldn’t Dick be angry? That’s his dad and he’s being so fucking mean and idk I’m rambling

[eggwishing]

little peek at somethjing i am cooking up ...