#im just a nervous person is all

[somedozenlines]

brief summation of the vibes: i've run amuck on tumblr for some time now. however i am now cursed and blessed with actual work in the arts, which means all the energy and brainspace i used to give to whatever tv show seized my attention is now going towards my professional/artistic endeavor of any given moment! so this is where any loose thoughts rumbling around about pieces i'm working on (or other theatre/art of interest) will get thrown. cheers. expect a lot of elsinore in the coming year

[dnpbeats]

so interesting to me how we've heard phil's perspective on meeting dan for the first time but haven't heard dan's at all (aside from the mr. burns comment lmao 💀). like i wonder if dan would agree with phil and describe himself as being confident, or if he was also nervous and either was good at hiding it and/or phil didn't see it through his own nerves

(slightly unrelated but i just realized this so i'm gonna put it here: dan and phil are COWARDS because why have they answered two different questions about first impressions and only talked about their impressions when meeting irl.... like why are they still withholding their first impressions of each other online (¬_¬))

[jasperyourmutt]

hi everyone <3

I have a bit of a life update. To make a long story short, last week I was diagnosed with PTSD. I have been having a... very hard time coming to terms with that. For most of my life I believed I just had a bad anxiety disorder, but I am now realizing that is unfortunately not the case. The past couple months I have been in a near constant state of fight or flight, fear, panic, whatever you want to call it- without really realizing it. and man. it has been exhausting, mentally, physically, spiritually. I just thought it was normal to feel like this all the time. i assumed everyone felt like this. my therapist has helped me realize I am in a lot of pain right now and it is not normal. so. the good news is that there is an intensive trauma therapy that I will be doing for the next couple months that is going to really help me recover. i love and trust my therapist with my whole heart. there is a light at the end of the tunnel. i am finally getting the help i need. so. unfortunately I am going to step away from tumblr for a bit. i dont really want to do this, i love being on here. i love interacting with all the friends i've made here. kink has become a very important and healing part of my life. but it is just a little too much for me at the moment. I'm not sure when I will return, could be a couple weeks, a couple months. I'll return when I feel right. I feel like this may be a little odd to share here, but it's important to me to acknowledge and share that I have been having a really hard time. i tend to downplay when i'm in pain. i feel like people usually don't care about me (i know this is very very much not the case. im trying to convince my brain of that too.) its really hard for me to tell people when i am struggling, especially in my real life. so i am taking baby steps and starting here. so, until I return- chase your tails for me, roll in the grass, bark at the squirrels. take care of yourselves. if you are struggling, know youre loved. get the help you need. i will be curling up in my dog bed and taking a nap in the sun. ruff ruff. wag wag. much love to all of you.

[moomeecore]

here's that essay i accidently hyped up (sorry) on how fionna & cake did a poor job of concluding betty & simons characters + story in the final 2 episodes. sorry it is so insanely long. i don't know what my deal is. sometimes a show just does such a bad job of handling your favorite characters that you have to write 19k+ words complaining about it, i guess. im linking it as a pdf bc i DO NOT want to have 2 copy & paste this all over to tumblr & i kinda don't think tumblr would be happy with me making a post that long.

[ilynpilled]

i hate to be all “um acksually 🤓☝️” but jaime does show interest/sexual attraction towards women other than cersei and brienne, despite the copium, and i do think its p important when it comes to him navigating his sexuality that his understanding of is pretty skewed as a result of the whole ‘destructive codependent incest since like age 7’ thing, he just never acts on it. so i never really understood where this interpretation of him only being attracted to two women (and analyzing the potential implications of him only being attracted to these specific women) comes from

[groovylittleclown]

Wowie!! Look at that!! Mack made the Elite Trine in Pony Town!!

They have cutiemark things too!! Starscream has a star, Skywarp has a cloud, and Thundercracker has a lightning bolt!!

I also made them little holiday costumes and a second Screamer where he has a crown!

I'm really really proud of them!! I've been hanging out around the gravity falls section as Skywarp because my friends like to go as Bill and Ford!!!

Also the campsite as Starscream when all the bubbles get to be a bit too much.

If you find me, say hi!! I'd love to be friends!!!

[daily-hanamura]

[icewindandboringhorror]

"We can get through this by working together, reach out to your friends, community is all we have, a social network will be your security in the world, now is the time to lean on others!"

I do agree, and it's scientifically sound (pretty sure there is data about how people with better social networks live longer and etc) but also....augh..... what about the severe social issues, difficulty to leave the house, physical issues which lead to like zero socialization energy a majority of the time, etc. etc. Social support can be a replacement for structural support, but.. I guess I just wish it didn't have to be. Community is extremely difficult to build, even moreso if you're someone who has issues with social cues or group conversations or even just being around others in the first place. And blah, nuance, of course I'm just complaining or maybe being too negative or maybe misunderstanding, but, I hardly have the energy to brush my hair once every 2 months.. how am I supposed to maintain a wide social network and be active in a Community and Join Groups lol... sometimes it kind of feels like "er.. well if thats my only option then...... ruh roh". It's overwhelming

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

sometimes ya just gotta scribble your favorite character giving you words of encouragement. even if that favorite is a guy from your own brain

[solargeist]

despite my previous post, I don’t know how to handle when people talk abt things I don’t know or understand bc I focus too hard on my own reactions so I don’t accidentally offend them bc there’s only so many times you can say “oh really?” before you sound sarcastic ‼️💥

[guardian-angle22]

TK/Carlos + Looks

↳ 2.04 Friends with Benefits

[cozystars]

The one who carries the Mushroom Kingdom on her shoulders.

[brickcollector]

life update

so im (formally, will informally still be working on a contracting basis) leaving my job in December and moving to western Maine where ben is and like.... very scary!! but also exciting! - going to commandeer the local historical society (already in the works with that :)) and also try to get an apprenticeship doing historical restoration (not going well)(considering posting on MAM or NEMA abt it) and also maybe either just start grad school online or work on getting my writing more formally published

so yeah

genuinely devastated to be leaving my job though me and my boss both cried but also!! excited to sign a lease longer than 6 months??? and live with ben and the cats again???!

so that's my life update, generalized

[theygender]

Google search "how to act normal around your gf's potential new fwb"

[the-knife-consumer]

I feel lame for not having many ocs tbh. Whatever i do what i want forever

[tumbles-the-clown]

see, as mira's #1 fan I think I should be very pumped to see her again this chapter...and I am but... while everyone is going insane over whether gun or johan's gonna die or johan's ending or whatever, I'm over here feeling underwhelmed by mira's reappearance and her reuniting with johan. i imagined it being more grandiose... and you know... mira getting more than 2 panels? especially with how traumatic their last time together was for BOTH JOHAN AND MIRA.

but alas, every scene mira is in has to be about a man in her life. if not zack then johan. I have accepted that mira is just not important to the plot on her own and I should stop dreaming of the day PTJ gives her depth (lies, I will continue to imagine her in the most poetic lookism spin-off about her and other lookism girls)