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tiredofthehumanlife · 4 months ago

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Recovery is not linear. We have bad and good days. Recovery is not linear. We have bad and good days. Recovery is not linear. We have bad and good days. Recovery is not linear. We have bad and good days. Recovery is not linear. We have bad and good days. Recovery is not linear. We have bad and good days. Recovery is not-

#i had a rough day #ed recovery #anti ed #edrecovery #i will not go back.#nurse he got out again #pro recovery #recovery #im having a hard second day too

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courfee · 5 months ago

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remus is very unimpressed, sirius is very happy :)

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#i spent like 1.5 hours on this that i definitely should have spent studying instead considering i have an exam tomorrow :')))))#anyway enjoy it extra hard to wish me luck please #remus lupin #remus lupin fanart #harry potter #harry potter fanart #marauders #marauders fanart #Hp #My art #marauders era #Mine #he was supposed to look like a malnourished noodle but i failed at that #and didnt have the time to actually put effort into it #Ive not gone through the process of letting it lie around for a couple days tp find all thr mistakes #So noe im already spotting them but its too late to fix #(Or rather. You guessed ir. I domt have thr timr)#Like the first one is fime but i have several issues with thr second one #But oh welllllllll who cares yolo and all tht jazz

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puppyeared · 1 year ago

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doodles of my fav sillies

anton belongs to @poicyss

#my brain is a barbie dreamhouse and theyre all just living in it #im especially fond of the second one because my mom used to hold me like that all the time <3 #im drawing them a lot lately because im being crushed by the horrors and have to compensate for it somehow #homemade comfort blorbos......#watch me draw anton inconsistently bc i can never decide if i wanna draw him close to how he actually looks #or yassify him and give him soft fluffy hair and kind eyes and defined features. head in my hands #i dont really have a lot of drawing ideas for them bc they dont have like. a canon storyline or anything methinks #its just stuff me and bow toss around and giggle abt thru messages lol. maybe ill draw infant vincent one of these days #i just come up with stuff and draw them doing it. it makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside #cuz like anton works for lobocorp as an abnormality BUT hes super duper chill and cute and does his funny little tasks so its fine #AND hes unkillable. auggie is an oc ive had since like 6th grade and i smushed them together. and vincent was for fun but i got attached #i dont have much of a read on anton either bc i think hes meant to be more of an insert character??? if im using that right #on one hand i dont think too hard abt anything being ooc since im not taking it seriously. on the other hand i just hold them in my hands #and stare into space until i can come up with something to draw since i dont have much to go off of. but its fun to build on small tidbits!#i think bow called it an au so i guess??? its an au????? im not really sure. bow if youre reading this im just willy nilly #the only thing i know for sure is that they boink like rabbits. im talking gomez and morticia levels of boinking #maybe ill go back and look at my old doodles for them and redraw em lol #myart #my art #my oc #oc #friend oc #augusta #anton #vincent #sillies family #doodles

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alexandriaellisart · 2 months ago

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So now i have migraines apparently 😭

#wahh #it started this morning and i had to lay down this afternoon #all the stress of the past 24 hours i guess #it’s like a nightmare #literally having flashbacks to 2016 #not as bad the second time lol starting to get used to it #real dark #never ever underestimate how much america hates women #the saddest part is that u can just See It #all of the men / a lot of them / where i live act like him #big fat misogynistic jerks #they’re all such cruel bullies #im trying not to let it get to me but it’s hard #one day at a time #there’s so many good people out there too #kind nice people #idk #kinda feels like drowning rn #but u gotta keep going #sometimes thinking about all the art i want to make is literally the only thing that keeps me going #so that’s good!#make stuff #draw paint write whatever #and fuck trump #notes tag #i couldn’t stand the thought of there being any doubt #so #i hate trump #boooo

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bogkeep · 1 month ago

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okay i am giving myself permission to not worry about anything other than my hairspring exam for the next two days. obviously worrying about the exam isn't gonna help me in any way either but i can't stop myself from being stressed about SOMETHING

#just to stop giving myself headaches by thinking too hard #'why do i keep bringing up unpleasant thoughts to myself like a ritual' <- diagnosed with intrusive thoughts #idk how it's gonna go... if i can finish in time it's gonna go ok #and if i can't. well. more time to practice before retaking the exam and ill definitely manage on second try #but i hope to get done with it just to lessen my Worry Load #right after the exam ill have three full days to work on my thesis.#so i shouldn't try to guilt myself into working on it when im like. let myself rest for the exam

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nomidreams · 3 months ago

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god i finally watched new episodes my honest reaction is jgiwoaoKzmxmkwkakkak

#it kinda doesnt feel real for me idk why #like i do not actually process all of it??#tho I DO have ideas and thinking i did pay attention #maybe i've just had a wild day i guess #but also oh god vex'ahlia broke my heart #twice #first time were when scanlan was talking how he couldn't be at two places at the same time to help 'em and she said nobody gives a fuck #i feel so bad for scanlan rn i love him #haven't watched campaing to the bard's lament yet but oh fuck im too spoiled i do know what happens where (a little bit)#the second time was when she said she really cares for percy i started crying at that moment #also im a lil bit disappointed cuz i thought we would get percys death and vex's spech but we got “i open the door completly naked” scene ->#and im very happy we got it like oh wow i didn't expect that #but idk im just a girl and i love percahlia's slowburn #since i watched 64 eps of actual campaign it become hard for me to not compare campaign and tlovm cuz obviosly its very different #but with percahlia in tlovm we don't have hours and hours of campaign context #(we don't have percy making her arrows)#and i understand why cuz 100+ streams 3+ hours each is one thing and animated series with 12 eps of 25 minutes is another #but as i said previosly it is very hard for me to not compare it #by the way i do think changes in tlovm make sense #cuz like?? i think vex is more sharpy in tlovm than in campaign?? like #like she punced scanlan in first season and in campaign they are kinda good friends and i really love them??#*punched #and i think she's more ?? bossy i guess?? idk how to put it into words but in my head it makes sense “i open the door completly naked” ->#goes earlier than “i shouldve told you its yours” cuz shes playing pretend even more than in campaign???#acts like its casual when its actually isnt AT ALL #and im glad percy said “what is it i want” to vex cuz its kinda like that scene in campaign when percy talked to vax #when he called them all family for the first time and said he's trying to find what he wants in life #i love percy and vax dynamic btw #i wanted to write even more here but apparently i can do only 30 tags wtf #they want me to actually write posts oh no. hate to put it all in tags but im too nervous abt posting on the internet

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faaun · 4 months ago

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ok let's catch up quickly

#so i went on a few dates w this guy. long hair beautiful face kinda looked like a girl (good) said yes ma'am when i told him to do smth #(also good) film student great at photography including candids. made a sheath of leather for a sword pin i have . et cetera.#he asked to cuddle and i was like iggg and then i felt Nothing and i was like ohhh yh ok ok yep lesbian #like he meets almost all my criteria but. yeahhh no . also at the end of that date he had some weird takes. anyway broke up w him and told #him actually im p sure im a lesbian (again) and he was like yk thats the second time this has happened to me this week but its ok bc ive #fallen for this girl from berlin. and then we cooked together. anyway . met a beautiful butch lowk in love w her. weve been on (1) date.#have two exams in a few days havent studied enough going to like end it all basically. my research partner kicked me off our research #(expected(it was always skinda sketchy)) which was devastating + it happened in a lidl 15 hours into a journey from bordeaux #to go back to the UK. my friends were kinda busy paying for baguettes but also they heard this whole exchange and are kinda mad at him #my friend of 10+ years is coming over in a few days. my evil ex situationship person that i decided to stay friends w because i kept #insisting they are a good friend and not evil and also extremely beautiful? turns out shockingly enough they were evil. tried to fix them #and then i realised due to their entire friendship group being ppl like me (Every Single One of their friends are ppl they met on dating #apps then led on then dumped and proposed staying friends w) and are collectively extremely attracted to them and not over them they #keep validating the most diabolical shit they say/do to hace a chance w them. they broke up w their ex and the way they keep leading #this poor girl on and making her heartbeeak worse and saying that they want more power over her and want her to beg for them back etc...MY #JAW HAD DROPPED esp bc i didnt even know the ex was in the picture BECAUSE ME AND ONE OF OUR FRIENDS (that they also dated) HAD JUSR SLEPT #NAKED TOGETHER IN THEIR BED W THEM. GIRL. anyway that is the least of the diabolical stuff they said but no we are moving onnn #this was b4 the beautiful butch btw. anyways . i have a mitski concert tmrw i think?? idek anymore #i used to have a crush on this guy very briefly and then it disappeared and then i realised if he fundementally changed everything abt #himself then maybe id like him but ofc i didnt tell him that but i still think abt it sometimes but anyway thats irrelevant now bc 99% sure #even if he did id still not find him attractive (lesbianism). please recommend good overnight moisturisers btw i have super dry skin #right. the friend of 10 yrs. we had a hard convo abt why she essentially bullied me in year 8 and it made me highly bitter but i also love #her and ik things are diff now its been like . Many Years . and shes going to stay a while I HAVE TWO EXAMS I DONT HAVE TIME but i love her #its fine. i think i might just switch into medicine and do the whole become a neurosurgeon thing (which was my plan B) bc plan A is looking #kinda impossible rn. I WANNA TALK MORE ABT WHAT THE EX SITUATIONSHIP PERSON SAID but i wont bc i dont wanna be too mean but also . MY GOD #i had a conversation w a philosopher friend about whether i have a moral responsibility to try to fix them bc unleashing this on society #feels wrong and he said 'probably but...run' so yeah im not talking to them atm. second date w beautiful butch on monday btw IDK WHAT TO #WEAR. she said she likes fems. im just gonna wear the shortest ralph lauren skirt i have w the cute leg warmers and hope 4 the best #its 1:15 AM im abt to drink coffee and start studying bc what the FUCK man. also almost finished watching the boys its very good #one of my best friends is struggling rn it is breaking my heart i want to take the burden from her i miss her very much

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spacejammie-eimmajecaps · 7 months ago

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Had a doctor tell me quite sincerely this morning that my "life seems miserable" because of my health problems and it immediately made me think of the damn bitch you live like this meme

#like i cant stop thinking about it #he wasnt even the doctor i was there to see #the nurse called him in because my heart rate was high and it scared her #but like thats just a normal flare day for me #so anyway this guy i dont even know comes barging into the room to listen to my heart and ask about my symptoms etc #and then he says that its not sustainable to live like this and how i must be miserable #and im just like lol okay like tell me something i dont know #oh and when i told him i usually get through flares by staying in bed for a day or two #his response was to say how that would make going on vacation hard because i might end up having to be bedridden for part of it #and like #first of all #im too broke for vacations lol #second of all #i can barely leave the house bc of my health so what vacations would i even be attempting #idk like he did seem genuinely concerned #but i was honestly not in the mood to hear all that #like i was (and still am) feeling extremely unwell #i just wanted to go home #did not need or want the pity of some random doctor

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lae-zels · 8 months ago

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i realize how little i have in common with my peers simply because im not constantly on tik tok/instagram/facebook 👴

#first i just dont get 80% of the references bc i simply dont engage with them/im not curious enough about them #second new people or those that i know cant go 15 minutes without scrolling on their phone or texting #the few friends who would let me stay at their house would always sit on their phone the entire evening not really engaging with me #or trying to engage with me by showing me something they found on their phone.... girl-#i broke up with my last partner bc they were chronically online and wouldnt go to sleep without at least 1 hour of phone time in bed #im mainly complaining about the bed time phone usage thing bc it used to drive me crazy as an insomniac #and considering how many people do it just makes me completely disinterested in sharing a bedroom with other people #i am old so that must be it tho #i barely use my phone that thing can last 4 days on one battery charge (it's a good battery but still) despite my occasional yt usage #i like in person talking and i just think people lost touch with their social side the last few years :(#and it's hard for me to feel like im having an engaging conversation with someone if they're constantly checking their phone #it makes me feel really lowly of myself it hits my self-esteem hard bc this behavior shows me im too boring to have their attention #even tho they were the one to invite me over/go out with me... bro.#personal #delete later

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hecksupremechips · 9 months ago

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Honestly though I think it’s really a bad sign when I look at Shin Tsukimi and literally feel like he’s a self insert 😩

#the klock keeps ticking #yttd #i wanna replay yttd so bad but i also like Gotta play other stuff with the time i have akskks #but yeah the brainrot this specific character has given me idk if I ever really talked about it but it was BAD #i like obsessively played the game in like 3 days and it was not a good idea lol but just like shin #i had to take like a week to recover from this guy cuz i couldnt stop thinking about him and how hes just like me fr #first off just the very inconsistent personality hes got going on that is very me he has these different personalities he wears to cope with #all the traumatic shit happening hes both so helpless its comical and so manipulative its terrifying #and idk its really interesting how like good and bad he is at being manipulative like hes very smart and can analyze weaknesses and lie so #good not even he knows the truth but hes also grasping at straws he doesnt think things through at all #like the second main game he just didnt prepare at all hes fumbling his way through everything its going so bad #he just wants to go home he wants to outdo the game makers but hes being used by them so bad he wants it to STOP #and its just the way that like. it hits so hard cuz you know hes really not a bad person not at all he doesnt want any of this hes just #being horribly manipulated and doing whatever he can to survive but its also really scary how #well hes able to lie and manipulate and claw his way through but hes also weaker than a grade schooler #and you never forget that either and as much as he cheated his way through he still failed it was all just a cheap trick in the end #and all of this hits very hard like his personality is eerily similar to mine and just the way he thinks and acts #cuz im the same like im weak and a dweeb who likes funny cats but im also emotionally detached and observant and selfish #but where it hits the hardest is his relationship with midori like oooof that one was too real just like #the first person who was ever his friend was horribly abusive and treated him like a child and didnt respect any boundaries #and he just got sick pleasure out of seeing shin be upset and he was like. a groomer #and shin was fucking relieved when he died but also kept his scarf and adopted his personality to survive #and still goes by sou after ch2 and the scene that gets me the most is when shin ai is asked about his relationship with midori #and you can just SEE how horrified shin is because his deepest shame his abuse is being shared to everyone without his consent #and hes reliving it all in that moment and literally seeing who he used to be experiencing the abuse #he just curls into himself and like covers his ears and pulls his hair thats literally what i do AAAAAA #im just so grateful for the direction they took this character kokichi ouma wishes he was shin tsukimi so bad #and yeah just like damn. its scary how similar i am to shin like damn i really am going through it huh oof #I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I WILL DEFEND HIM WITH MY LIFE HE DID ALL OF THAT STUFF YOUR HONOR BUT LISTENNNN #have you considered that hes cute and smart and weird and maybe just needs friends who arent assholes

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thedrotter · 9 months ago

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sweet sweet re:kinder community... I would like to ask y'all how you came upon the game and your experiences with it because i wanna know. im genuinely so curious to hear about other people's experiences and little opinions about this game because of how wild the game is (/pos) I'd love to hear it. do ramble to me about it

#re:kinder #not art #so in my case i once saw someone talk about it in a video and some scenes with the very vague context really struck with me #i was like wow...that is so sad... i wonder what goes on #but the thing is i watch videos talking about games like that ALLL THE TIME while im multi-tasking so i FORGOT FOR A YEAR?!?!?#until one day i was sick in pain on my bed could not move. and then it came to me. yes. “RE:KINDER. I SHOULD PLAY IT.” LIKE OUT OF NOWHERE #i will never understand how i dying of pain remembered a game i saw once BY NAME AT LEAST A YEAR LATER when jve heard of so many games #and you wanna know why it stuck with me. i saw in the video an image of the “as if id be reborn as a princess” line #i did not know the context but it was devastating #AND WHEN I PLAYED THE GAME when that scene game i was shocked to silence😭😭 BECAUSE I BASICALLY WENT COMPLETELY BLIND??#I DID NOT KNOW THE LITTLE KID WOULD BE THE ANTAGONIST???? AND THAT HE WOULD HAVE SUCH A SAD STORY??#like. i saw the sad coming i knew it was bound to happen yet i could have never been prepared for how hard it would hit me #I HAD TONS OF FUN but at first when i finished it i was so confused and so lost i was like welll.....what a game... TOO STUNNED FOR WORDS #then i thoughr of it for 20 minutes and bawled my eyes out and realized it was art #so when i got to my second playthrough i CRIED LIKE CRAZYYY😭😭 I WAS BLOWN AWAY IT REALLY HITS YOU #personally it admittedly hit close to home and while it made me bawl my eyes out it was also very comforting i felt very understood #AND IT WAS CRAZY FUN TOO i was not bored once the first time i played through it i was sleepy but i was so excited to keep playing😭😭#its funnt becayse i was initially apprehensive about playing cuz im sensitive to stories where sad things happen to kids #but i played it regardless because i was like “but what if its one of those scary media that hit close to home and i enjoy”#AND I WAS RIGHT. BUT NOT ENTIRELY BECAUSE I DID NOT THINK IT WOULD HIT AS INTENSELY AS IT DID😭😭 IT WAS MYCH MORE THAN EXPEVTED #many ways in which it impacted me but if i started listing them i would not shut up . so for now it is enough #IN SUMMARY WOW.. WHAY A GOOD GAME!! PLAY RE:KINDER!!!#i rambled more than i intended to i do apologize

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muirneach · 6 months ago

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aaagh. i try not to worry so much about money and whatnot because its my number one anxiety and im sooo happy i have my job because its really easy and also tennis themed but they are NOT giving me a lot of hours. i wanted to work full time (or at least like 30 hours a week) this summer because i didnt work all school year and i really really need cash for university. some back of napkin calculations tell me id make an extra ~1.5k if i was working back at my minimum wage job this summer. and i would be doing two jobs if i could but my hours at the tennis club are not consistent (like, it’s not as if i work every thursday or whatever, i just work whenever and i cant schedule around it) so i couldn’t plan my second job around it. and i know i could be firm and tell each place i can work xyz days but i hate doing thattttt. someone give me ten thousand canadian dollars please ! okay complaining over

#like yeah my pay is higher at the tennis club but it does not balance out the lack of hours #im not working at all this week #and the next few weeks i have more hours because one guy is going on vacation #but i know that when he comes back im back down to like. 15 hours a week #I NEED MORE THAN THAT!!#the issue with the club is that they hired too many damn people #weekdays theres only one shift a day and weekends theres two shifts a day #and they have like. five people for this #and im glad they hired me but fuck they really should not have #it’s technically okay i have a good amount of savings from my old job and i can get a new job in university #but i just wish i could work more now and worry less during the school year #ugh i wish it wasnt so hard for me to have found a job i wish i had worked during this school year #anyways. no sense grieving the life unlived. no changing the past. onwards and upwards everyone #but in said onwards and upwards. do i get a second job? help meeee

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puppyeared · 1 year ago

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if escape rooms as team building exercises became popular im not sure if id be more excited or terrified