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eightspringdays · 19 days ago

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Nate "I knew that your salvation is a part of my life and the only helping hand that will embrace my pain" River

Mihael "My blood, sweat, and tears. My body, mind, and soul. I know well they're all yours" Keehl

#*SLAMS FIST ON TABLE* SAVE ME IS A NEAR CODED SONG AND BLOOD SWEAT AND TEAR IS MELLO'S #honestly blood sweat and tears in intense af so yeah. very him.#i need u too because like #“why do i keep coming back? at this point im just a fool. it's definitely my heart and feelings but why they don't listen to me?”#“why is it you? why did it have to be you? why i can't leave you?”#im going so insane right now no kidding #i know no one sees my vision but it's okay because I DO #meronia

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irishmammonagenda · 5 months ago

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"Mams...you okay?" You grin tiredly and teasingly ask your First Man, who is currently in the process of tearing up, his lips wobbling silently as he attempts to keep it in.

He looks up at you from where you lay exhausted in the hospital bed, attempting to blink back his tears. "Oh aye..." He replies shakily. "I-...I've never bin 'appier....Y-you should g-get some sleep...MC...get yer strength back..."

You grin stupidly at him, eyes closing sleepily as he watches you from the seat beside your bed, his attention drifts to you and his eyes water even more, the sheer lightness of the small weight in his arms making him dizzy as he leans further back into the armchair.

He looks down at the sleeping newborn in his arms. His baby girl. Her little yellow hat sitting perfectly on her little tiny head. He's sure she could fit on just on of his hands.

His bottom lip trembles, heart so full of love for the tiny thing in his arms it feels like it might burst. He holds her to his chest, bringing one finger up to gently caress her tiny tiny cheek. He sniffles, holding back happy sobs as he whispers gently. "Hiya little baby....I'm yer papa....I'm gonna take well great care of ye...I-I..I promise...Íosa Críost...yer tiny..."

Mammon looks over to your sleeping form in the hospital bed and slowly inches his chair even closer to you, so as not to jostle your daughter too much. He grabs his phone off of the nightstand and makes an order for your favourite food to be delivered for when you woke up. He chuckles softly as he texts the groupchat, telling them that you and the baby are okay.(albeit slowly seeing as he's only able to use one hand)

He asks for Lucifer to send over the cake he made with the horrible icing saying 'Congradulation COngratulations, MC, Your You're so amazing' so he could celebrate with you when you woke up from your much deserved nap. He turns off his phone and sets it back on the bedside table next to yours which is charging.

He could celebrate with you after, you could laugh at how he looked like a deer in headlights when the nurse asked him if he wanted to hold his baby for the first time. He could spoil you more than he ever has before (which isn't humanly possible considering how much he spoils you.)

But that could all wait for when you woke up, right now he was content just watching over his favouritest girls in the whole wide world, making sure you were both safe and sound.

But you should never trust a scheming scumbag, MC.

Oh no, fuckhead was already coming up with plans to spoil your daughter silly. That was his little princess, God dammit! She deserved the three worlds combined! And even then she deserved more! And don't get him started on you, you weren't going to even think about doing chores for at least 6 months. You just preformed a miracle. You get rest time. No buts.

In the softening light of the sun through the windows, Mammon holds your baby girl with so much gentleness, as if she'd crack at the smallest touch, his loving gaze flickers from you to her with so much tenderness, you would've thought he was an angel.

#idk mams being a dad is so cute to me idc this man would go to the ends of the earth for his kids (and for you)#íosa críost means jesus christ but i feel like you guys could figure that out so idk #Mammon to his daughter: Right princess; if ye ever meet a small gremlin blob who's callin' me papa tha's Lil D No.2 he is insane. run away.#this is very much self indulgent i want a baby so baf omg #but in this economy? + im 15 + childbirth and pregnancy is scary? not ever gonna happen for atleast another ten years.#ATLEAST.#unless the economy magically fixes itself + nonces stop existing + worked on myself enough to feel like im able to acutally be a good pare #okay i'll shut up now night night #cw pregnancy #cw childbirth #obey me mammon #obey me mammon x reader #female reader #obey me x female reader #mammon x female reader

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candyskiez · 8 months ago

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I'm not a super big ekurei shipper but I have to admit the fact that Dimple can possess Reigen while he's unconscious and yet Reigen will be fully present anyway is Very compelling regardless of your explanation for it. Dimple was very specifically trying to wake Reigen up and used most of his power to do so? Hell yes, love it. Reigen being very atune to spirits because of. Well. The past four years. And going WHAT THE FUCK and waking right back up only to immediately go "oh. It's just dimple." Fascinating scene idea. Looking directly at it. So much potential for a fascinating missing scene there. Ekurei is growing on me at alarming rates. Help.

#mp100 #mp100 spoilers #theyre so INTERESTING augh!!!#i want to study them under a microscope #ekurei #they were using all their energy to go save mob and it makes me insane #dimple literally says its taking my all just to exist #reigen was Near Death #they were single minded with the goal of saving mob. im insane over it #what happened in that gap of time there. what did they say. how did reigen react. how did dimple react to finding reigen like this.#how did dimple come back in that speciifc moment #i need to know EVERYTHING #this can also be platonic. ekurei is just the target audience #they love the weird kid they adopted so much! argh!#i read a very good fic where they were at odds so much but were both kn the agreement of “mob came first”#like that was a line and everything #dimple somehow isnt dead dimple just found reigen without shoes on NEAR death but that doesnt matter right now. their kid is in danger.#thats their priority #theyre so INTERESTING! augh!

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oldwomanyuri123 · 3 months ago

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It is currently 4:55am can someone please draw bill cipher making out with discord from mlp and then ford catching them and then it cuts to ford and bill filing for devorce because of the affair

and then it turns out discord is bills devorce loyer and the candy girl from right now kapow is fords lawor and um the judge is pink pie or something also I want um Herbert west involsedin sum wa y

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hellonerf · 3 months ago

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i love crazy contrasting 1p2p in every way(not every way). so i always subconsciously have 2P rusame be friends. unlikely friends etc. in whatever weird school au theyre friends. meri was probably bullied until he started hissing at other kids or something while rus2 was just like huhh okay yeah okay what fine. rus2 found him in a broom closet and it was as awkward as it sounds. in the weird stuckin1Pcoldwar au i have theyre friends also in the torturous existence. 1P rusame is too weird life is too short lets tomodachi✌️

#in comparison 1p rusame would be school insane psychological games social competition nerds MID OFF #2ptalia #i like the jp fanart where 2p ame is pitiful and gloomy. its cute #a little wannabe edgy but spare him he was left in the rain in a cardboard box when he was 2 years old.#i keep imagining a gay school au sorry. im gonna say shit now #rus2 is blunt and kind of. bad at reading signals. accidentally drags him and meri into karaoke with ame(enigmatic popular kid)#meri is like fuck my life... but he has a killer bitch face so people are like uwaa scary... hes brooding...#rus2 is like ah sorry i forgot you never had a normal teen friendship and clung onto (nada) all the time #meri is always coping like these people... dont get it... hes half right #they go to karaoke and ame sings really off key #actually i have a common daydream where ame's elusiveness is really funny to meri #he's like hahahaha what the hell that kids crazy ahahaha. like laughing at a cartoon #and then somehow he keeps being approached by ame (slow trying to step away) hes like noo... i dont actually wanna get close to u at all...#meri and rus2 probably play observers theyre quiet kids who go hmm im nooticing!#observing 1p rusames weirdship that everybody can see but they don't think anyone notices their crazyship #and rus2 is like oh two people talking and interacting alot. theyre friends. its just like a rivalry thing yeah?#while meri is like fuckkk the fucking golden boy is talking to us when ame talks to them rus2 is like #why dont you invite (rusia) to the karaoke arent you two friends #(ame mania face turns around)#okay thats all i got bye

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clouwn-core · 6 months ago

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*CHAT IM GOING CRAZY MY THEATER TECH KID HEART IS GOING INSANE

*i just watched a production of my favorite musical ever (Ordinary Days by Adam Gwon) at a college and OH MY GODDDDDDDD it was so good like genuinely insane how amazing the actors did.

*and this SET

*its so gorgeous it was literally built all from scratch like it's just so cool. I would've loved to talk to a set designer for this one and GODDDDDDDD its so amazing im gonna scream and cry and like eat my shorts im so insane

#ordinary days #adam gwon #musical #set design #theater kid #theater #tech theatre #im going insane right now please please please this set is so insane and cool #clouwn yaps

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vse-kar-vem · 1 year ago

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joker out boys with flowers since bojan is obsessed with shoving them into the mouths of his instrumentalists

#reposting since it didnt show up in the tags the first time 😢😢 jonation like this so i feel better /j #joker out #kris guštin #jan peteh #bojan cvjetićanin #nace jordan #jure maček #anyways im actually going insane for them its bad im not kidding 😭😭😭#but i cant draw bcuz im on holiday 😭😭😭#IF I CANT DRAW SLOVENE INDIE ROCK BAND JOKER OUT GAY KISSING RIGHT NOW IM GOING TO EXPLODE‼️‼️‼️‼️#ok im normal now #just know that in the future. there will be boykissing on this blog yesyes #maybe i'll try my hand at ficwriting instead 🤔🤔#also the caption sounded a bit mean but i fully support his vision the flowers increase jokerout's heartthrob factor by at least 500%#my art

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pleafyistired · 3 months ago

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this thing i do when i have not consume anything about a media but this guy who makes art about that media is really good and im gonna follow them. And also its probably because of the sunglas- [I AM SHOT DEAD]

#.this tumblr user is having a certified category 7 insanity #I should never have watchh that old first media i consume. Strangling my 10 years old self WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME #Even if that fandom is the first introduction to gay people young me have seen and normalize gay people so much for me #Fandom did lots for me tbh its good for my 10 yrs old self. Despite that fandom havibg a bad rap #It actually didnt do what people accuse it of doing at all it did not do it to me at least #I was young and all i care about was how stupodly funny it was and holy god good animatics #I LITERALLY DONT CARE ABOUT THAT BAD PART i literally dont even know it exists until later on in my second relaspe #But like i only consume it on youtube when i first interacted with it i dont have social media at that time #And due to it i have been pointed in a VERY good direction #Thank god i didnt become brainwashed by a random evil channel as a kid on unfiltered youtube #And was instead too busy watching gay dudes kissing #Thank GOD for that fandom it did a lot of good for me. BUT IT NOW FUCKED ME OVER SO BADD ALSSOOOOO #I dont know if i ever will admitwhat it is except to a few close people #But i will forever curse out the main guy FOR INFLICTING ME WITH INSANITY WITH SUNGLASSES FIGUREEEE FUCKK YOUUUUUUU #And the dude hes shipped wwith DAWGGG FUCK YOUU TOOO FOR AFFECTIBG ME WITH YOU DISEASE TOO #Except the second guy? You gotta be really specific to get the dude right. And its rare to find a character similar to him that i actually-#-like! Its a whole weird thing with a second dude. I have conflicting feelings about him #But basically the first dude impact on me is much more obvious (see: sunglasses) but yeah the second guy did numbers on me too #TL;DR: WHATEVER! IM GOING INSANE! ^_^

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imflyingfish · 8 months ago

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#i have no idea how to respond to the whole qsmp situation right now #i mean. i dont watch it or interact with qsmp ITSELF #only the fans around it #I have made fanart for it but not really because i have any particular attachment to specific characters but just because #its a very good springboard for character design and inspiration #Im very involved with the fanbase though as the QSMPnews discord is one of my main discords #and I mainly use the fandom space as a way of practicing/getting into foreign languages #although i dont watch qsmp it still has impacted my life massively in the last year #this clusterfuck of project management is difficult to unravel and know what to do with #and its difficult to know exactly where to turn your attention #or who to blame #since theres so many levels of miscommunication that hasnt been helped by the sharing of it online #i think. even if QSMP doesn't survive #it would be ludicrous to state it as an inherently harmful server #since there has been an evident change in the minecraft gaming space because of it in multiculturalism.#heck IM direct proof of that as someone who does not reguarly engage with the server itself via streams #the fact that as a result of a 21 year old kid deciding to start a sever I can end up with a group of spanish speakers trying to explain #various concepts to me in my language while i respond in theirs is. insane #so do i think that the qsmp will survive?#um. look i dont see how it can.#I've never thought that it could #but i dont think that im going to demonise fans or avoid content relating to it #considering how integral the fanspaces around it are to me and my personal quest for language proficiency #however I will attempt to keep qsmp posts on my french/spanish blogs #well that was. long-winded #idk this is a very self-centred look into the qsmp and this whole situation #obviously I hope that the staff get paid but. I really have no idea where Quackity Studios might get that money from or how the #server should either end or continue

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chaotictomtom · 7 months ago

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got teary eyes at a video abt a guy drawing dannygonzalez 100 times bc i got emotional abt someone starting to draw and pushing through how hard and discouraging it can be like this dude started right away with portraits. portraits that need to look like the person. what a mad lad. anyway idk what's wrong with me i think the beauty of life and humanity and ppl trying out art and getting back up after failing got me a lil

#idk him going “i started here!” while showing the first ever drawing right after his final portrait...#idk seeing a random dude seeing his progress in smth after beating himself up and going“wow im proud of myself for that”...sniffles #i sometimes wish i wasn't the type of artist who started since. like you're a baby and start making art #cos i don't feel like i've learned the basics of anything #i can say that i've drawn my whole entire life but. i don't feel like my art reflects it.#it's frustrating to see ppl starting like 5 years from now and getting insanely good at their crafts when. you've been doing it your entire #life but ig too much as an hobby/mindlessly/not seeking the fundamentals as a kid so now you're. stuck in-between #wanting to learn basic stuff while getting frustrated abt having to stqrt from the beginning when you have years behind you of practice #and relearning certain things you've assimilated long ago #anyway #ily art ily humans ily humans trying out arts and figuring out what's fun for them

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serendipitous-mage · 3 months ago

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......... who's gonna tell him ... .. ill do it @markiplier

#IM KIDDING ALKJNFGADFBG IM SORRY MARK BUT YOU'RE THE ONE WHO NAMED THIS PLAYLISTTTTTT #actually you know what on the slim to none chance i submit this at Just the right time and it gets a bunch of notes #and he somehow does actually see this post #(hi sappy/backstory tm incoming feel free to continue scrolling lmao>>)#mark you helped my mom so much #she was sick for 5 years and in that time as she got weaker and more tired what she had an abundance of was Time #and as someone who since losing her has now also become extremely depressed i underrstand Even More how horrible that kind of Time can be #to have and go through and be frustrated and devastated and bored out of your mind #but some of my friends started me in watching your videos #and she was my best friend #i shared everything with her #so of course i shared your videos too #and we would watch a lot of them together but you also have so many on your channel from so far back in addition to the new ones #that she had plenty to go back through and watch on her own while i was at school #we always felt like your humor and mentality fit right in with the rest of the household like you were a longtime friend #or neighbor from just down the road who we spoke with regularly or smth idk it was just so easy for your videos to be engaging and upliftin #she could have a playlist on to fall asleep to and be distracted from everything coming up...and that means more #than i could ever begin to thank you for #i think fnaf had been one of the things id been introduced to you through..and then tiny box tim we loved tiny box tim #back when you were first getting into making shorts and improving equipment/editing quality i always thought it would be so cool #if we somehow ran into one another on the street somewhere and i could offer to help #because i was watching those videos too! i want to make them as cool as possible and im going to school for it i know tips and tricks #and by now im sure youve probably surpassed what i know haha the INSANELY awesome and frankly gorgeous cinematography and impressive #but anyway... i know she had those videos to fill the Time when i was at school #and sometimes when i wasnt but when i was too exhausted #and i know you made her laugh and smile through it all #and that means everythingto me #ok well thhat got sappy fast sorry everyone christ #ive thought so many times over the years about trying to write something in the comments on a video or send an email or something and like #i feel bad same time cos i know soooo many people have similar stories or treat youtubers/celebrities like theyre actual saviors and angels

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andi-o-geyser · 1 year ago

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liam o'brien on liam o'brien violence

#yes i finally started watching rebels #and i am already on my crit role bullshit lmao #clone wars bad batch and now rebels? baby im on a ROLL #summer of start wars here we come #also the found family dynamics have instantly taken me by storm and i am in love with the entire ghost crew #star wars rebels #rebels #star wars #liam o'brien #also the ghost crew truly just fucking kills stormtroopers and they're so right for that #murder those fascists! idgaf #star wars kids shows go so hard its insane and i adore it #andis thought geyser

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stuck-in-the-ghost-zone · 1 year ago

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stfu ART cannot be dead. surely not. this book is lying to me

#someone better say sike RIGHT FUCKING NOW im so upset. im SO upset #although i do incredibly love murderbot having an emotional breakdown.#when the one alien (<< i think theyre aliens ar least) said they deleted art and amena looked at murderbots face and just said 'oh shit'#like fuck yes i love some murderous revenge moments. thats so delicious. but also i cannot accept the fact that art is dead #MURDERBOT HAS REFERRED TO ART AS ITS FRIEND MULTIPLE TIMES SINCE IT AND AMENA WERE CAPTURED #IT HAS NEVER DONE THAT BEFORE. WITHOUT ANY SNARKY SIDE COMMENTSRY #IT HAS THOUGHT THE WORD FRIEND. GENUINELY. MULTIPLE TIMES.#IM GOING TO START EATING FIBERGLASS. RIGHT NOW #SOMEONE SAY SIKE PLEASE. I MISS ART SO MUCH #<< DO NOT ACTUALLY TELL ME. IM STILL READING.#reaction time #im fucking UPSET !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#but also i LOVE murderbot feeling unbridled emotions . more of that please. its pissed its grieving its miserable #it cant think about art too long without completely breaking down. it has let its guard down around dangerous entities so many times. it #never fucjing does that. especially while it considers amena a client and ESPECIALLY because shes dr mensahs kid.#what the hell im feeling so insane rn.

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gibbearish · 7 months ago

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am finally back home and can say without a doubt that i am just fundamentally not built for long distance travel however the train was much nicer than planes

#that being said. pressurized cabins drive me insane a little bit #and also it gives you pretty intense sea legs for a While #like. the ones from the first trip hadnt gone away by the return one. so. might be stuck with that for a few days #we shall see #also ajr live fucks severely #the albums were already incredible but that was a goddamn religious experience #like. idk the way i think abt it is theyre more djs than a regular band esp w their performance showing the making of way less sad #like their music is very electronic‚ theyre making mixes of their own sound effects more than singing in one go #so like. the vocals were a teeensy bit rough at times #notably times it has taken me Literally Hundreds Of Hours Practice to be able to consistently sing along with #and times ive found its literally physically impossible to like. no matter what #idc how big your lungs are‚ there is no human on earth who can do that final run of karma in one breath #much less to An Entire Stadium After An Hour Of Jumping And Dancing And Singing Loud As Fuck #so like i dont blame them for that‚ you dont go to live shows expecting it to be 100% perfect anyways jwbdjsbfksb #the trumpet however. well she was certainly playing sometimes. and was very enthusiastic about her flares.#however. in most of their songs they use midi trumpets to my ear at least #meaning she was likely an addition specifically for live performances and in my personal band kid opinion #prooobably was not in any of the like. higher tier bands? idk just. a lot of the mistakes she was making were hitting as stuff that got #taught out of us the instant we joined any band beyond regular concert #so i would guess she was probably just like. a friend who happened to play trumpet in high school or maybe even just middle school #and they knew that the trumpet parts in their pieces were big and distinct enough that like they /had/ to get a live player #and just kinda. didnt anticipate the audition -> performance gap #like. her tone was really fried the whole time like she was playing as hard as possible #which. she was mic'd. have the sound guy turn her up.#the way they did it made it sound like she was using a mute but not. like she only got the bad parts of a mute from it yknow #her tempo and timing were. bad. theres no nice way to put that one it just Was Bad‚ like the trumpet runs in ajr songs arent. complicated #like. quite literally if you handed me the sheet music right now i would have it down perfect in a week at absolute most #and better than that player on sightread. like. we did so many sightreading drills.#like ill share my band kid creds if anyone cares but i need to emphasize this isnt me being braggy like. they genuinely just arent hard #fuck im out of tags. w/e i think only like one of yall also listens to them anyways so i can leave it there

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ohboywonder · 7 months ago

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#life's a fucking nightmare right now #my boyfriend broke his foot a week before i was supposed to go on a final class trip with my class #the kids are leaving this year and it was supposed to be fun!!#but now I can't go the entire week #im working 24/7 #care work is insane i run the entire household myself #have to go grocery shopping cook clean wash dust hoover etc #have to take care of the bins #have to be in work and plan and prep #have to accompany my bf to the hospital and help translate everything #it is just so much and it doesnt stop #hes getting operate on friday and i cant come into work the entire day tomorrow because of pre op appointments #my kids are going to see the jungle book as a puppet show tomorrow and i am missing out #i hate it here right now #i am so tired #i have to run to doctors and the hospital #his work and my work #it is so exhausting #i dont have free time at the moment #i hate it here #personal #liv talks

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astronomical-bagel · 2 years ago

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you ever see a video of a cat playing in the sunshine on some warm concrete and get so jealous that you start crying?

#guys im not joking i Need to see the sun #im not even joking i need to be warm so badly #i just want to sleep in the sun #im going insane /neg i just. i jsut need the sun to come out #heating pads and hand warmers and hot showers and hell even cuddling with someone just isnt doing it #i need to be in my tank top and shorts lying on the concrete with the sun warming me up from the skin to my bones #and theres a nice breeze every once in a while that prevents me from getting too hot but its not too much #i need that right fucking now and im Not Kidding #im at the end of my rope I JUST WANT SOME SUNSHINE. AND WARMTH.#I NEED IT TO BE IN THE 90s. AT LEAST LIKE THE 70s OR 80s. PLEASE #god. god. god. god.#guys seasonal affective is just too much im like. scratching at the walls

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