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codependent relationships are such bullshit because what do you mean I can't sleep anymore?
#personal#im fucking miserable actually#i know i made the right choice but fuck dude i kind of wish i hadn't#im okay during the day but nights are starting to feel impossible#i miss him#i almost wish I'd spent more focused time with him before making this distance#but he wasn't treating me fairly and id already prolonged the inevitable enough#still#i can't help but wonder if i made a mistake#vent
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you ever think about how fucked up it is that shen qingqiu's first mission out of sect was him subduing the skinner, a demon who targeted and replaced people no one would really miss?
very fun how the skinner ended up getting killed and destroyed by someone else who took the place of a person no one really missed
#i think about it a lot#fucks me up#like. shen jiu is a prick and was miserable to be around but it really is fucked up that the only person who missed him is yue qingyuan#and all of the other peak lords were like “well it's weird but he's actually better to be around now”#(no shade to the other peak lords. i love those guys and they did run a bunch of secret tests to try and make sure it was their shixiong)#(not their fault that system let sy cheat)#like. that fucks me up a lot.#pip speaks#svsss#btw im not saying that shen yuan or the skinner are equivalent in any way. intent and what you actually do with your life matters#but it is an interesting parallel
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i drew this like a month ago and i am TERRIFIED to post anything on here but ive been convinced
#joshua graham#edward sallow#sallowgraham#im so fucking scared to post man i think i might actually cry#fallout new vegas#fallout#fnv#caesar fnv#fucking wild this thing has become my magnum opus.#im miserable#everyday i rethink the actions ive taken that have lead me to the point i am in life now#i feel like this is to blame for most of the bad things that have happened to me in the past few months#my legacy is nikocado sallowgraham#and i dont think i can ever recover from that.#my life is ruined. i am an artist forever haunted by his past.#anyway i still let out a giggle everytime i see someone reblog this again#i take it back i NO LONGER giggle whenever i see someone reblog this.#i hate it. this thing is a MONSTER.
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soukoku shippers can NEVER come after kunizai now with the excuse of them having no angst i think they honestly win tragic yaoi of the year award WAIT UNTIL DAZAI HEARS HIS PARTNER GOT TURNED INTO A 7/11 $2.50 FROST GLACIER SLUSHIE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
#ITS SO OVER WHAT THE FUCK………#IVE BEEN JUMPING OVER SPOILERS LIKE ITS THE OLYMPICS BUT NOTHING PREPARED ME FOR HAVING TO CONFRONT THE FACT#THAT DAZAI WILL HAVE TO COME HOME AND REALIZE THAT KUNIKIDA IS GONE#head in my hands i’m fucking MISERABLE right now#IMAGINE BEING TORN FROM YOUR FAMILY AND COMING BACK TO REALIZE THE ONE PERSON WHO MADE YOUR HOUSE A HOME#WHO HAS GUIDED YOU INTO YOUR NEW LIFE#WHO HAS STAYED BY YOUR SIDE AND TRUSTED YOU WITH THEIR ENTIRE HEART#IS NOW DEAD? AND YOU HAVE TO MOVE ON WITHOUT THEM? WITHOUT THE STEPPING STONE?#IM ACTUALLY GOING TO KMS THIS IS NOT OKAY ASAGIRI#bsd 117#bsd#knkdz
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are you capable of being good for something? i have the vague ambition to be.
#this is a mess color wise but im actually quite fond of it#it’s hard because half of grantaire’s aesthetic is just enjolras#les mis#les miserables#grantaire#enjolras#enjoltaire#put a black and white filter over this and it fucks
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just how can i protect your smile?
#you guys like yaoi? can i get you some yaoi#pjsk#prsk#project sekai#proseka#tsukasa tenma#rui kamishiro#ruikasa#AUUUUUGH.#this is what finally makes me actually draw riks. vocaloid autism#putting the link in the caption because NOBODY FUCKIGN TLAKS ABOUT SCISSORHANDS EVER WHERES THE HYPE I NEED HER. SONG OF THE DECADE(2009)#this song makes me incredibly normal. my bad. i saw the miume choreography when i was like 11 and my brain shifted#i wanted their outfits to look like mikus in the mv so bad. Fuck my life for that btw stupid fuckign frill trim. why did she have to slay#tried to think of smth other than butterflies for kasa but i have no brain and tbh i hope his life is miserable so its fine#me posting this only to tmblr and not twt because i fucking hate twt#im drawing more song covers that live in my mind palace so i'll pist them there all together. and maybe here all together. who give a shit.#emnn skeleton orchestra next and it will fix me#Good lord. sorry. Im so caught up posting this for no reason. Get me out of here#im supposed to have a lecture in 3 hours but post covid symptoms say otherwise. im so fucked#i have a cyberpunk dead boy wip with them but idk i dont like posting wips on here its like an archive. n i want to actually finish it#but dear lord rendering it with their stupid outfits. clutches my chest falls to the floor. AUUUUGH#wxs killing me killing me taking damage augh auugh aughg
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im not kidding mouthwashing is maybe one of the most on the nose explains itself As It Plays Out horror game possible and the fact its breached containment and is now outside the sphere of people who like horror and the MAIN MAJORITY of people posting about it are people who cannot understand the IN YOUR FACE BY THE OWN GAME base level ppppplot points of characters not being good people or mentally well or Experienced In Their Fields and are nonstop posting shit like "guys why didnt they just not hire jimmy are they stupid?" come back to the tag when you can even begin to fathom that jimmy is not the only antagonist of the game because youre fucking 1/3 right now and the game is NOT SUBTLE.
#its like actively killing me getting mouthwashing on my for you page you are all so fucking stupid im actually losing my mind#and somehow people think hashtag yaoiheads are the blight of the fanbase and its like well ive seen maybe less than 10 yaoi people#and over 200 jackasses who earnestly think curly is a hashtag women respecter who hates jimmy#well the plot of the game is you Wish. you WISH curly hated jimmy.#mouthwashing#im putting this in the tags because i am begging people to block me to make my mouthwashing fan experience even a fraction less miserable
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I just want to be a person I can be proud of around her
#i finished playing dr 2 and watched all of the dr 3 anime and im so incredibly miserable about hajime and chiaki#fuck my actual life actually GODDDDDD not her dying twice like 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#hope’s peak you will pay for your crimes#hajime hinata#chiaki nanami#danganronpa#danganronpa fanart#my art#izuru kamakura
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!!! FLASHING LIGHTS WARNING!!! [IM NOT FUCKIN AROUND!!]
REACHED THE CUSP OF 'THIS MAY NEVER BE ABSOLUTELY FINISHED N IF I DONT SHOW IT NOW, IT WILL NEVER SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY.' SO HERE, A PROJECT IVE BEEN ORBITING AROUND UHH SINCE 2021 OR SO.
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi riptide#gillion tidestrider#cw flashing lights#LOOORRD OF LIGHTNING SAAAAVE ME!!!!#RAAAHHHH I LOVETHIS SONG SO FUCKIN MUCH AND I LOVE GILLION SO FUCKIN MUCH RAAHHHH!! RAAHHHH!!!#BUT YES YES I HAD LIKE A WHOLE OTHER HALF TO THIS SKETCHED OUT BUT IT WONT FINISH COOKIN FOR A MILLION YEAARS!!!!#MAYBE SOMEDAY.....#ANYWAY. this is my first time actually syncing audio to my animations. normally i domnt know howww.#i animated it all in fire alpaca AND THEN i mixed everything in a pirated movie maker. it kinda uh. sucks. but its WHAT I GOT BAYBE!!#i relaly like how i animate swishy hair... i was inspird by eris from sinbad. i can only HOPE i got on that level w the watery flowyness#LIUGHTNING IS HARD TO ANIMATE TOO. I WATCHED ALOTTA VIDEOS ABSORBED MINIMAL TUTORIALS AND UHH I THINK I DID OKAY!!#better than bad!!! but i can still do better. eventually. ugh. FLASHING LIGHTS TOO HUH? U LIKE ANIMATINGB FLASHING LIGHT?#U LIKE MAKING THE BLACK N WHITE FLICKER RLY FAST UNTIL UR EYES BLEED OUT UR SKULL?? YEAAAHH YOU DO!!!#im also vry proud o the title cards i made at the beginning teheheheh. dependign on where riptide goes i MIGHT change it#BUT HEY THEORY TIME? I HOPE ONE OF THE GODDESSES COMES DOWN TO PILOT GILLIONS BODY SO THEY CAN BEAT THE FUCK OUT O THE OTHER GODDESS#WHO IS ALSO IN SOMEONE ELSES MORTAL BODY. GODS COMING DOWN TO WREAK HAVOC OVER PETTY DISAGREEMENTS OOOGH HOW FUN!!#GOOD ON YOU CHAMPION!! YOUR VESSEL HAS BEEN TRAINED TO BE STRONG AND HARDY. PERFECT FOR CHANNELING DIVINE ENERGY.#OHHHH WHAT A PERFECT WEAPON YOU ARE. NOW GO AND IMMANENTIZE A WATERY ESCHATON#PARAGON OF OCEANS WRATH I WANT TO SEE YOU DROWN THE LAND. DESTROY!!! EAT!!! BURN!!! RAAAGHH I NEED GILLION TO GET MORE POWER!!!!#ALSO in other news i uh. actually posted this onto twitter forever ago but forgot to post it here bc i can only post it from pc and BABY!!#IM NOT ON THE COMPUTER OFTEN! NOT ANYMORE!! NOT ANYMOREE!!! IM FREE BAYBE!! i used to be so miserable. sometimes i think abt that.#ANYWAY. pls enjoy. just this much took so long. i love makin the lil guys move.... ouh.... hava good day if u get the chance to.
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it is time for The House Spreadsheet
so yeah for those who don't know i have spent like two years making (and constantly mentioning that i am making) a spreadsheet to track several things in the 2004-2012 tv show house md
I'll probably rb with details/graphs but without further ado:
Here it is!!!
some disclaimers:
I may have got things wrong!!!!
PLEASE note above, i am just one person with a poor attention span, i did my best but may have missed instances of something im tracking.
if you do notice something wrong you can let me know (timestamps please) and if i verify i'll update the sheet
please don't take the notes seriously, they were just a stream of conciousness reaction to keep me sane
re: the things wrong point, i definitely got the medical categories wrong so if anyone has better suggestions i am Begging You please come to me
If you make anything with this i'd love to see, so please tag me when you do :)
#house#house md#hate crimes md#this wasn't actually that fun! except the formulas i love formulas#the worst part of this is no matter how miserable it became i still want to do this for like 3 other tv shows#ouat and criminal minds being the ones that immidiately come to mind#criminal minds would be so easy bc a very similar format though i never finished the show#ouat because its so fucking funny#counterpoint: id have to watch ouat again AND i couldn't skip when it gets boring#honestly i don't know what the banner is about i made this post over a year ago#i don't stand by it i think it looks ugly#but let's give her this#im going to reblog this 15 million times maybe
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My personal head canon is that Richie is the type of fuck who does really well in school without putting in literally any effort and Eddie is the type of kid who tries so so so hard to get good grades but he's like. A b or c student at best. He fucking hates Richie for this.
#simetimes richie tutors eddie but more often than not it just ends up pissing eds off more#bc richie is HORRIBLE at explaining things since he doesnt really#understand what exactly the issue is. like he'll sort of just gloss over parts bc hes like “well duh this is obvious” but its rly not to a#lot of people. he just doesnt get it.#furthermore richie hasnt done a single homework assignment since 4th grade the latest and at this point his teachers have given up#theyre just glad he actually understands the lessons so they mostly let it slide#his guidance counselor on the other hand. that poor bastard. this dude tries sooooo hard to get richie to put LITERALLY ANY EFFORT in and he#flat out refuses to. hes like “richie u could probably be the fucking valedictorian if u actually tried” and richie shrugs and goes “eh i#dont want to give a speech“ like BITCH#<-btw all of this is projection from me. im richie hi. it fort of ruined my ability to train other people at anything ever.#and my ability to study i would have failed miserably had i tried college bc my ass would NOT be doing homework or studying#i would have dropped out sooooo quick lol#anyway. done now have this#Richie Tozier#Eddie Kaspbrak#IT 1986#IT Stephen King#spam brain
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OWEN THOUGHT SHE WAS STILL ALIVE HE NEVER EVEN KNEW SHE DIED HE DIDN'T EVEN KNOW. THAT AS HE WAS FACING DEATH SHE WAS DOING THE SAME. THEY DIED TOGETHER AND HE DOESN'T EVEN KNOW AND I DON'T KNOW WETHER THAT'S A GOOD THING OR A BAD THING BUT IT'S FUCKED! FOR SURE! I need to eat the blades off my ceiling fan
#sorry im so fucking miserable#I used to joke that chris chibnall should pay for my therapy for making the doctor who (favourite show) episodes so boring#no he like actually needs to pay for my therapy now for real. coming for his head#dude#torchwood#torchwood spoilers#exit wounds#mine
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last train home
#the sims 4#sims 4#s4#sims#simblr#ts4#sim: bear#spoiler yes. hes always this miserable when hes in public#ive been editing these over n over#and now im just like fuck it have these!#lighting? my n1 enemy actually.#I like the first pic a lot more but the pose in the 2nd so cute#his codependency is kicking in he hasn't seen august in approx 3 hours#ready to claw out of his skin in an attempt to get closer to august the second hes in bed with him
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so we all agree that 430 was complete and utter shit right
#bnha 430#i want to write a whole like. dissertation essay on everything horikoshi fucked up#and the extent of what a crazy fucking horrible ending this is#but i like#dont hav the energy#im so fucking disappointed#im miserable i hate this#almsot in genuine tears over it#i stay a diehard fan of this series for almost 6 fucking years and it ends like this#im going to sell most of my mha merch /srs because i actually cant fucking bear to look at it anymore#mha#bnha#mha 430#mha spoilers#bnha spoilers#mha leaks#casey talks#my hero academia
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started watching link click this is actually so sad i am actively losing my mind oh my gooooood wuaghgughguhrsklckmlak cheng xiaoshi and qiao ling siblingism is soooo important to me........
#i cant stop crying#literally just finished episode 5 im so miserable rn#cheng xiaoshi#link click#shiguang dailiren#theyre so siblings im losing my mind#these past few episodes r just so fucking sad#this is so sad#i hate time travel actually
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Poor girl experiences the tragic entanglement of hyperfixation-fuelled motivation and executive-dysfunction-fuelled paralysis and she is being so brave about it
#why cant i FUCKING WRITE THIS FUCKING FANFICTION IVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT ALL WEEK#this house is a FUCKING NIGHTMARE#(the house is having adhd)#this is actually a psa to anyone following my fanfiction soz no update today im incapable...maybe tomorrow though#im STRUGGLING#adhd problems#les miserables#les mis#victor hugo#les misposting#enjoltaire#enjolras#grantaire#booklr#courfeyrac#exr
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