I Love You. Im Sorry.
SUMMARY : Angst , no happy ending , heartbreak , mention of y/n
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hello private account π
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USER : what happend to y/n?
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Y/NBURNIOLO : chris?, what is this?
βͺοΈ CHRISTOPHERSTURNIOLO : y/n. I Can explain
NICOLASSTURNIOLO : chris? what the fuck. call me
MATTSTURNIOLO : really? cheating on y/n with a bougie bitch
βͺοΈ Y/NBURNIOLO : Ily matt
USER : this was NOT your private account.
βͺοΈ USER : no shit sherlock
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After seening chris new post on instagram i didnt know how to react. Do i be mad, Sad? Im honestly both right now. He made me look so stupid, Atleast i know the reason hes been ghosting me. For some rip off blonde bitch thats been wanting to be me?. I always choose the wrong guys. I feel like a fucking fool.
INCOMING CALL β Chris π β
I pick it up β What Do You Want Chris? β i spoke softly into the microphone waiting for him to start talking. β Y/n You Have To Let Me Explain! β he says quickly β No Chris You Left Me For Some Bougie Bitch. β I say hanging up starting to tear up all over again. I hear my door open β Chris?! What The Fuck Get Out! β i say shouting at him with tears coming down my face
TWO AUGUSTS AGO .
β Please Y/n, Im Sorry. Let Me Explain β He spoke softly β Why Chris?, What Is There To Even Explain. β I say sitting back on my bed avoiding any type of eye contact with chris. β Y/n It Was A Honest Mistake. I Promise. β
THATS THE WAY LIFE GOES .
β Chris.. We Have To Stop Seeing EachOther. We Either Have To Break Up Or Take A Break. β I spoke firmly holding back the tears that im fighting β Y/n We Cant Break Up. β He Says Sounding Hurt But Im Not Gonna Fall For His Tricks Anymore.
I LOVE YOU, IM SORRY.
β Please Y/n. I Love You, Im Sorry. β He Spoke confidently sitting down next to me trying to hold my hand. β But You Still Cheated On Me Right? And You Choose The Girl i HATED The Most. β I say pushing his hands away from mine
YOU WERE THE BEST BUT YOU WERE THE WORST
β Y/n Just One More Chanc- β I cut him off β No Chris. Leave My House, And Dont Call Or Text me. β I say making my final decision And pointing at the front door giving him a sign for him to actually leave. β Fine. Bye Y/n I Love You β
THATS JUST THE WAY LIFE GOES
His i love you sounded so real but maybe im in denial. I hate men, They never know what they want. I feel Like a loser for whatever just happened just now. Its not like chris but maybe its my mind thinking that.
Y/N HAS CHANGED HER INSTA USER β0hnoy/nβ
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The β I love youβs β that are repeated in my head like a music note.
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USER : Bye y/ns Really pretty π
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βͺοΈ 0HNOY/N : I agree MY FAV ONE GOT MESSED UP.
CHRISTOPHERSTURNIOLO : i meant it
βͺοΈ USER : what does this mean ?
βͺοΈ 0HNOY/N : Idk him
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CHRIS π
y/n please talk to me
Y/N πβ€οΈ
What?
CHRIS π
Can we try over?
Y/N πβ€οΈ
Not a chance chris. Stop texting me or im blocking you.
CHRIS π
But!
*a contact has been blocked*
A few months later I made a song called β I love you im sorry β Publishing it. It blew up and i gained more support and followers supporting my music i even gained some fanpages and edits. Until i seen a dm from someone i never wanted to see again.
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A/N : sorry guys deal w that ending cus idk how to end this story AND I LIKE NEVER WRITED BEFORE SO THIS IS KINDA MY FIRST STORY PLS GUVE TIPS OR SMTH THANK U.
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on another note, going to college has literally been the start of healing for me. i feel so happy just waking up every morning. theres no dread no dooming feelings. like i just like waking up. maybe this experience will be short-lived, but im honestly excited for my classes too. im waking up before 9am, im eating breakfast, im eating 3 meals a day, im going out into nature, im dressing myself properly, im brushing my teeth, im just like existing, im talking to people, im laughing im smiling im literally happy. i miss and love my friends and family but it feels so fucking good to just be alive and be happy for it.
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-(totally unrelated-to-everything-that-are-going-on) real-life situation but I am freaking out, so irl rant-
Wish me luck! π
Tomorrow morning I'll have a talking with the institution I'd like to study from February. And I'm totally panicking right now.
(And I really hope the administrational site for my application won't be glitchy - the deadline for everything is midnight. I uploaded every necessary document which I have in my possession but the page still says those are 'under processing'. - which about I have a constant 'mild' panic and I couldn't sleep at all.)
Anyway, just now, trying to figure out what they will ask tomorrow from me, I wrote a little draft about my related knowledge and experience in the field that my hoped studies are. I tried to seem wise with the wordings but damn, writing anything more serious is much more harder than writing fics - where I rarely care about to be seemed smart.
Good thing is though, that writing in English and having half of my thoughts in English by now (due to writing fics through the past few years) meant help, but still. This is much more different now!
I'm freaking out. This is what I want. And this is what I want since I finished my BSc studies last year. But I am so scared about it right now when finally MSc is an armreach away. I'm excited but at the same time damn scared.
(Sorry, I had to let this out...)
Once I'll have that talk tomorrow, and once the administration is done too, everything depends on the other candidates and on their points. I don't dare to say that everything is a straight path from there but people are not really that masochistic to learn Master's Finance in a foreign (2nd) language... So, (I hope) that I don't have to much to worry about since that point.
But I am panicking now and I fear to have a panic attack about it. Just imagine the green light: once, I am in, I have to give my 100%+ focus on my studies to understand it, then, during the last semesters write a thesis in English. No wonder I'm panicking...
This is my dream for a while, but still. What the hell!
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