#im feeling it today fellows....

[sneezeshame]

// mess

someone whos spent days battling a horrible head cold, the wettest and heaviest they've had in years, but no matter what they do they just can't sneeze. they huff and snort and sniffle and blow their nose in loud burbles and start to hitch, and hitch, but it just never comes. they feel so full and uncomfortable no matter what they do, and when they come home from work that day they realize they're sick-sick with this thing, and all night its incessant. they keep trying to sneeze, their body is trying so hard to get all the gunk and virus out of their swollen passages, but they just cant. it's waking them up a couple times an hour and their head is pounding with pressure and they're so miserable they want to cry.

around 1am, their partner wakes up and turns the lamp on and offers to help, saying how terrible they sound, and they feel so sick that they agree. the next time they start to hitch, their partner takes two q-tips and slips them up their red, chapped nostrils, then rotates them both at the same time so they tickle every nose hair and chafe against every sore, swollen, cold-ridden membrane.

they sneeze once, but it stifles against the wall of snot. they try it again, and it stifles a second time, but their sniffles sound a little looser, like something is about to break. sure enough, on the third time, the sickie's red nose explodes, and it rockets violently up their sore throat and blasts their overswollen sinuses apart long enough to shoot out both qtips and two ropes of snot onto their partner's hand. before they can stop it, another sneeze causes a second eruption from their cold, this time both shooting snot everywhere and spraying it. a fourth and fifth sneeze disloges even more crammed into the swollen folds of their sinuses, and their face is pounding with the shaking force of it all. their poor nostrils flare again, and another rope of snot connects with their partner's neck and stays in a long string that ends back at their sick nose.

the sickie sniffles, dazed. "Oh doe, Ibb so sorry, uubbb--" then they sneeze again. and again. now the sneezing is incessant and wet and violent and a theme for the rest of the night.

at 6am the next morning when their alarm goes off, they moan and call in sick, then try to fall back asleep breathing through their mouth, clutching an icepack to their throbbing sinuses in the warm dark. their partner coaxes a thermometer in their mouth, and they struggle to breathe around it while its under their tounge, and it comes out with a warming temperature of 100.8. as their partner removes the thermometer, they sneeze again and again, exploding their cold all over their partner for the hundreth time that night, and then they sniffle and sink miserably back down into the pillows as they start to nurse their chills.

"I hobe I didn'd gibe you by code," they rasp. "this ode is really bad-- HETSCHOO! Guuhhh, SNNXT... I really dodd feel well ad all..." it was terrible when they couldn't sneeze at all, but now that they can, it feels like the cold really is in full swing. it feels like the virus has spent the night hitting their sinuses with a baseball bat.

their partner blames their tiredness on having spent half the night tending to the sickie, but the truth is that by the time they say that, their own throat is feeling a little sore, and they aren't sure they're feeling their best, either.

[cyndraws]

im such a simp help me. Kaito simps unite!!!!!

pls send help

ft. Kaito and me (thats my sona) squishing his cheeks and being a simp. Cause that's me in real life. yeah

I cracked out the highlighters for this one cause I need colour to express my love properly

(Oh god the compression, anyways feel free to ask me what my depraved handwriting says 👍)

inspired by this:

ALso, noting that my style looks different? Yeah, I often use round shapes like this depending on the mood im feelings. round... soft...

[hyuck-xix]

do you ever feel

like a plastic bag

like you're the world's biggest loser and even when you accomplish things you never thought you could do, it still doesn't make you feel any prouder of yourself because you know you're still more of a loser than everyone else you know and then when someone from your past reaches out and asks how you've been you just want to run and hide and scream "dont perceive me i'm hideous and pathetic"

[koskela-knights]

😳⛓

art ref 18+

Companion piece to Ilmo

[lupismaris]

Didn't get to smoke before work this morning (also not at all confident I took my meds) and while I'm managing the immense stress of the day (hello three new projects) rather well I'm reminded that the ritual of a spliff and a cup of coffee does in fact help keep my teeth dull and my temper subdued

[orcelito]

I love....... community 🥺

[sydmarch]

spent months like I need prescription for my mental health give me prescription please please & now that I have it I'm like hm. do I want to have to take meds, actually

[purplemoonabove]

this may be my first birthday where it is depressingly draining.

what I’ll do when home, waiting for this day to end:

[missingn000]

[crescentfool]

i cant believe i forgot that im a fire emblem enjoyer 🙄 i was reading some of my notifs/tags from that one post about the video game series you've played the longest and oh my god.

i would like to apologize to fire emblem for forgetting that i've played it even though it's probably one of the longest standing series in my life next to pokemon and xenoblade... 💀 (<- they have 565 hours in fire emblem, 170 in awakening, 45 for fates, 75 for sov, and 275 for three houses and perhaps a few hours from feh but we don't talk about that)

anyway. did you know i like fire emblem. and that i like reading tags. i hope you all have swag times with whatever game series makes you happy! 💙

[transgenderfivepebbles]

nonhuman struggle of being put off by certain physical traits and feeling guilty about it even though it’s just because of an instinctive aversion to the human body and its characteristics

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

[phagodyke]

another wellbeing appt this morning can't wait to have to lie through the skin of my teeth + play down how mentally ill I am once again bc despite how desperate I am for help I'm equally desperately scared of losing my autonomy

[napping-sapphic]

mine is bad too... are we the same person? 😭

nahhh that's valid, whenever i talk too much it makes me self conscious?? like i'll realize "shit, that's a lot im annoying as fuck" and be quiet-- i prefer listening too!! i like letting people talk and listening to their interests yk, i wonder how funny it would be if you and i talked and we're holding ourselves back because we both like listening 💀🙏

real!! how was your sleep last night?? :0

i'm glad that you're kinda getting it under control <3 don't worry about annoying anybody though, i mean, lots of people like listening too so. don't silence yourself too much ^^ plus, maybe one day, when i'm brave enough to introduce myself to you, you can feel free to talk to me !!

– 🖤

love the Bad Memory Curse™️ top ten afflictions fr

And that back and forth actually ends up happening to me a lot with a few of my friends! It’s always very silly and leaves for a very stilted conversation unless one of us catches on and points it out lol😅

My sleep last night was, finally, very good again :)!! I had a few bad nights of sleep in a row so i was getting stressed but even though it took me a while to actually fall asleep it was a good sleep when we got there which i am very grateful for :) <3!! I hope yours was good as well <3!!!

And no worries! It’s less silencing myself and more filtering lol and i rarely have to do it once I’m familiar and comfortable with someone since then it just sorta comes more naturally! It’s fun growing up because you get a much better handle on yourself i feel

[lupismaris]

My therapists keep telling me to stop othering myself and I'm trying but it's really fuckin hard when I'm being othered

[imaginesomethingrand]

It's a funny thing, being in someone else's head all day.... you start to think in similar thoughts, some of their thought patterns rub off on you (of course this is temporary)

But it'd be nice if some of Navalny's relentless optimism and sunny personality would rub off on me and settle permanently in my mind...