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me: finally accepting theres a good chance im autistic and starting to work up the courage to ask my parents to see if i could get a diagnoses but being scared to
my mom: do you ever think you have adhd? if you want to do a screening for add next time your at the doctors you can
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#for context im terrified of being the person who sees stuff online and diagnosis themselves and then is wrong#which is why it took me so long to accept im —probably— autistic (bc now i have done research and stuff for it)#and id see adhd things that were relatable but i felt i related more to the autism + self diagnosing both felt weird (for me not in general#but now like. my mom is willing to accept i might have add??#(there was a long talk in between her asking if i ever thought i had it and her saying i could get a screening where we both agreed that#—if i did have it— i didnt have the hyperactive part. hence the add vs adhd thing)#and now that kinda through off my plans because like. what if i do also had adhd. or something#so yeah small crisis woo#i need to actually look i to symptoms and stuff for adhd though#because im not saying anything til i know more about it and if i actually do have a lot of the things#but this also gives me a chance go write about the autism things as well bc i told my mom i would look into the adhd#so now i can hopefully find a way to bring that up#ive mentioned that autism is a spectrum recently which i didnt think she knew before#so progress i guess#wow long rant in the tags whoops#jasper’s posts#moots have some jaz lore i guess
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I love your depiction of Hamilton and Lafayette, it’s so funny! Lafayette is so sweet and happy and Hamilton just has beef w/ the entire world. I can’t wait to see more of their brotherly relations in ur AMAZING art style
God, they're so narrative foil coded
Seriously though, there's some fantastic contrast between them. They're just similar enough (both roughly the same age, both insecure and glory hungry, + their "shared father" or whatever Lafayette said) - and yet they manage to be exact opposites at the same time.
I could say more but I think this bit from Mike Duncan's biography about Lafayette basically gets at what I'm trying to say:
"Like Lafayette, Hamilton grew up without a father. He also lost his mother to a fatal illness at almost the same age Lafayette lost his. But where the tragedies of Lafayette’s childhood made him the heir of a fabulous fortune, the tragedies of Hamilton’s illegitimate childhood left him systematically cut out of his family’s inheritance. So where the dark clouds of Lafayette’s life were lined with silver, the dark clouds of Hamilton’s life were simply dark. Lafayette emerged from childhood buoyant and effusive, Hamilton cynical and reticent. But even though Hamilton started life a penniless bastard on the periphery of European civilization, and Lafayette started life an insanely wealthy heir in the heart of a great kingdom, they fell into an easy friendship. French was not the only language the two young men shared. The also shared a code of personal honor and a desire to prove themselves to the world." -Mike Duncan, Hero of Two Worlds, The Marquis de Lafayette in the Age of Revolution
Now, I am not qualified to speak on the real figures, but I do like to write. So, there is a narrative opportunity here that drives me insane.
Like, cast Hamilton as brilliant, but overly cynical with a habit of assuming the worst in people, and give him a negative character arc where he comes close to recognizing the potential good of humanity but ultimately falls into his more authoritarian tendencies. Then contrast him with Lafayette who's more naive. He's not quite sheltered but unfamiliar with the sort of selfishness and greed he'd have encountered if he grew up in a more vulnerable financial position. In coming to America he, like Hamilton, is forced to reckon with contempt, greed, and the failings of democratic government. But, unlike Hamilton, still manages to come out of it with a generally positive opinion of humanity.
I'm just saying, if I were writing history to contain ✨themes ✨ they are a perfect opportunity.
#this is the most I've ever ranted outside of my tags#it feels weird to have thoughts publicly lol#even if this is still generally nonspecific#is Lafayette's optimism just a symptom of his comparative naivete or do Hamiltons existing prejudices blind him to positivity#ok im done for now#amrev#alexander hamilton#marquis de lafayette#also I am glad people like my art style#because I#well Im pretty sure yall are talking about the way I color but I have spent ages trying to figure out how the hell human faces work#and I still dont get it#I spend most of my day on construction drawings which is a completely non-transferable skill#anyway literally the only thing to be done about it is to keep practicing so
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AUEGH
#ruby rose#rwby#obligatory tiny distressed ruby#my art#HELLO I HAVE OFFICALLY FINISHED YET AGAIN ANOTHER ONE OF MY SEMESTERS#and holy shit it was the most awful by far#i felt like absolute shit the entire sem and was behind in literally all of my classes#it was so shit that i actually skipped a class because of the stress of being behind on work. which i had never done before.#i am a criminal now lmao i feel so bad#also a little mad at myself because i know i could've done better. i've been doing the bare minimum and cutting corners#which was very noticeable lol#im gonna actually split my upcoming semester this time my ass and health cannot do this anymore#BUT ANYWAY I FINISHED MY SEMESTER RAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#COUGHS OUT BLOOD AND SINKS BACK INTO EARTH'S CORE AND EVAPORATES#IM DONE!!!#also my eyes are really red now for some reason#probably from the lack of sleep or the long hours staring at my bloody laptop idk#probably both#yeah i should go sleep now lol bye#ranting in the tags because i don't know how to talk like a normal person lmao#sorry if you read all this nonsense jkdhkfsdhfkhd#but i should be more active around here again!
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mtt therapy moment except dust keeps taking breaks to talk to phantom papyrus and horror just wants this to hurry up so it can get to his turn because he couldn't give two shits about dust and killer's trauma and killer physically cannot discuss his issues and just starts zoning out while crying for some reason during it
and i'm the therapist listening to all of this writing down notes fervently because ITS CANON MATERIAL CANON I NEED TO GET THE CANON MATERIAL
#i have to break apart like 34 potential fights with my otherdimensional godly creator powers#i would be an ass therapist i will not lie. infact i would make them worse with my knowledge of their lives. never put me in a room w them#OH MY GOD I JUST REVISTED THIS IDEA AFTER LEAVING IT TO COLLECT DUST (hehehe) IN MY DRAFYS FOR A MONTH#ANS TJIS IS SO FUCKING FUNNY HELP 😭😭😭😭😭 HELP😭😭😭😭😭😭#still real tho highkey i havent changed 1 bit. ITS CANON OMG WRITE THSY DOWN WHAY WERE THE EXACT REACTIONS#ive got these guys wearing microphones i got cameras in the room i got advanced psychologists watching to explain every detail#is it a therapy session or just a badly disguised interview#nooo nooo its therapy......DONT LEAVS!!!! (activates the chains (that coincidentally all are connected to eachother) (heheheheh))#now youCANT leave😈😈😈😈😈 not until im done asking my questions ASSHOLES. dont question the handcuffs that keep you guys together please#actually id probably get like nothing out of them because theyre all repressed and defensive and whatever. BUT im simply more determined so#tricule rant#killer sans#horror sans#dust sans#murder time trio#utmv#sans au#fandom event if the mtt ever became real. we're all lining up to the facility to ask one question#world's hardest challenge: if you could ask the murder time trio one thing what would it be#FUCK idk...... id simply hav too many questions!!!! UGH!!!!!!!!!#triglycercule do your homework SHUT UO RESPONSIBLE VOICE IN MY HEAD!!!! I WONT!!!!! NOT UNTIL THIS IS DONE#fall headcanons for the trio when. i'll think of them once i'm done with homework#see a reward system! now i have a thought that i dont wanna say in tags this will be going to the side blog#anyways! i think that's enough drafts undrafted and posted i REALLY need to do my homework#i dont even have that much it's literally 2 assignments but i know damn well doing 1 of them is gonna bring me to dream and nightmare's age#sigh......... i hate school bring me back to summer break i wasSO productive. SMH
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it's always so funny to me when i get a new follower and they have shit like "proship DNI!!11!1!1" in their bio or pinned post. like brother my blog is not a safe space for you (neither is the entirety of the real world, but I don't think you people are ready for that conversation. on account of being probably 12 years old. cus that's what you're acting like.)
"censorship is bad" should not be a radical take in the year 2024. stop trying to sanitise the internet into some uber-puritan, ultra-virtuous, squeaky clean space. like what are you, catholic? i beg of you- grow up.
#shut up rowan#proship#proship safe#anti anti#anti censorship#i know I'm gonna lose followers for this#and I'm probably going to receive (at the very least) some threats from children online that don't know better#but i am so tired of this bullshit#if you can't be mature enough to navigate the Internet without getting fucked up over a picture of two fictional siblings fucking or smthn#then this space is not for you#the internet at large is not for you#real life real world spaces are not for you#if you want to avoid that shit go live in a hole underground#that's the only way you'll ever be able to fully get away#just take responsibility for your own online experience#block tags block people block websites and keywords and search terms if you have to#but expecting everyone else in the world to conform to your warped views on morality is childish and short sighted#ok im done ranting now srry
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hey guys remember the time zelda became a magical girl
closeups under the cut :>
#love love love the new zelda game!!#amazing how they combined the old style we love so much with the newer sandbox open world stuff#stayed true to the series AND also my girl had an adventure:)#love how they made her just as gremlin as link#oh and on the topic of link- I love his backstory in this game ??? And hes canonically mute ?!!?! epic stuff#anyways. good game. rant over#the legend of zelda#loz#echoes of wisdom#loz eow#art tag#loz zelda#procreate#oh and small note- I’ve only finished like half the game. But I’m pretty sure she doesn’t have the triforce o wisdom in this one#ignore all the innacuracies in the art :)#OK OK IM DONE NOW#BYE CHAT#:D
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i finished this in the last 20 minutes of lesbian visibility week after not drawing at all LETS GO
#lila art#genshin#genshin impact#genshin fanart#arlecchino#arlecchino genshin#navia#navia genshin#arlevia#navicchino#i dont think thats a ship name that anyone uses but im tagging it just in case#arlecchino x navia#this took me SO FUCKING LONG you would not believe#to be fair it was because i kept getting distracted by youtube or twitter or the thoughts inside my head#but STILL#i am very proud of this though this is one of like. two kisses ive ever drawn that look Good and the other one i didn't finish lmao#i was kind of impartial to arlevia until like. Yesterday#and now they are very important to me#arlecchino has a big polycule full of all his lesbian girlfriends and one bisexual woman (clorinde)#im also lowk obsessed with drawing sideprofiles because i am fascinated with drawing different noses#and giving characters different nose and face shapes#it is so beautiful how humans are so diverse in even the shapes that our bodies make#i went on a rant with my friend about this a few weeks ago#ANYWAY i was going to say this earlier but i forgot#i am Sorry for those two panels being so rushed and bullshitted#i had been working on this for like 8 hours and i wanted to be done SO BAD#but i needed to finish before lesbian visibility week ended!!!!#ok going to farm for father before i pass out good bye
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Its 1am, so I am once again posting a wip/preview thing of a comic im physically fighting myself to just finish up
#i dont think its a good habit to post wips#buuuuuuttttttt#to be fair this is more of a preview#and i think its my favorite panel on the page#and. and. more importantly#i wanna :U#lol i literally only have 3 more panels to draw#if i would just sit down and focus i could knock it out#but im absolutely not gonna do that#heh heh this is also an excuse to tag rant#i read and watched annihilation so now theres mushrooms everywhere#imma start the 2nd book once this is done
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insomnia? do u mean my true crime podcast time
#u know bc now I can convince my brain I slept a little bc I had my eyes closed for like 2h while listening to it#it’s like u can almost gaslight it into thinking that that podcast was actually dreaming bc we for sure were asleep yes#also this sucks bc it’s ahead of its schedule; I can’t sleep during summers so like what is this then#the climate change is affecting my insomnia cycle damnit#real unfortunate tho if it keeps going for longer (just been like 2ish weeks now) bc I got a thesis plus other shit to do#(also to anyone who’s unclear on the subject; yes I have slept during these 2ish weeks I'm not dying i'm just hella tired bc it’s not good#refreshing long sleeps bc mf it takes like 5 hours to fall asleep)#(except today bc it’s 7am and I’m giving up on it & hopefully will have a nap sometime during the day idk)#(im tired and getting increasingly more stressed abt becoming more tired and then not having the energy to do things that I fully neeed to#get done and how the stress just yes helps ah nice)#(sorry for ranting in thr tags; weird state of mind here bc of aforementioned)#march 2024#2024
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Could I maybe request a Dias and/or Moses?
something is wrong with both of them
#what a strange situationship#ty for the req anon o7#distortion detective#moses distortion detective#dias distortion detective#project moon#art i made#request#theres like one bajillion wips i have for both of them .... im never finishing those i dont think.#ok i think im done with reqs for today#if anyone else wants to send in any ill be closing them tmrw#so like. send it now or NEVAAHRR#ill probably open them again someday but commissions come first id like to save up money for better mobility aids and#id love to buy a tattoo machine that isnt the cheapest shittiest one i can find. itd be nice. i cant handpoke anymore from nerve pain#which was the original plan but alas! my body has other ideas#ok thats enough ranting in tags.... ill get to the other requests from tmrw on i need a break
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meet my son his name is maunder he has br-HOLY SHIT DID ANYONE ELSE JUST SEE THAT?
#now that i look back on this sprite i shouldve done his buttons n cheeks with circle tool . Oh well#cosmosdex#fortuna#the tragedy of fortuna#sterotypical art tag#i got nofin to rant about this time . surprisingly .#OHHH WAIT . im using him in a dnd campaign thats like the worst ever#(its 5 apollos a cupid(IN AN ARTEMIS SHELL.) and a bia)#the bia has been named our twink rangler because otherwise were gonna tear eachother apart#Also willy wonka is on our crew .#insane shit . i should infodump about them sometime . Not now though ......#*ALL BEING APOLLOS WASNT EVEN PLANNED I. i just called up whopping 6 fortuna friends and was like#hey man do you guys wanna play dnd.#and they were all like Fuck yea man.#the bia isnt really a fortuna fan theyre gonna read it but their computers broken.#i get to infodump to them about all the important game mechanic stuff#its great !!!!!!!!#anyway the apollos wasnt planned we just all ended up pulling up with our horrible twinks.#aw. fuck i ranted too hard . UM WHAT EVER!#just ignore that =]#edit i realized after posting this that its spelt wrangler not rangler. Fuck my stupid fungus life
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hey guys so I just started reading Flatland by Edwin A. Abbott and OMG AHSBNSBSBSNSNBSHZHSHDBFHGGHFHGRJ2KSHSBSNSK AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I LOVE THINKING ABOUT THE RELATIVITY BETWEEN DIMENSIONS!!!!!!
#probably the nerdiest thing i will ever read in my entire life but I AM SO HAPPY#Its the unabridged and corrected 1992 republication btw. if you wanna get specific#the only book in which i have actually decided to read the introductory notes and i do NOT regret it because the editor's one IMMEDIATELY#brought up the “oh but surely the second dimension has thickness how else would flatlanders see anything” AND GAVE A REALLY GOOD ANSWER.#which i cannot tell you here. bc it is several paragraphs long and idk how i would shorten it. i would hit tag limit. if thats a thing.#anyways. I'm only a little bit into the first part which basically explains how Flatland works as a society so i haven't even gotten to the#sphere yet but OH MAN I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO EXCITED ABOUT A ROUND OBJECT IN MY LIFE#IM LOSING IT OVER THIS BOOK AAAA :D#me: im so glad i dont have a math class during my senior year! now i dont have to learn anything math-related!#also me: but what if i started studying a complex and almost entirely theoretical part of geometry#bc YEAH i didn't just buy this book bc of gravity falls. I BOUGHT IT BC IVE BEEN RESEARCHING THE 4TH DIMENSION WOOOOOOO!!!!!#one thing i will say i dont like. introductory note suggests the the 4th dimension might be time. this is ok tho bc its followed up with#also saying that time is not a spatial dimension and exist across the 0 1st 2nd and 3rd dimensions which. that epuld mean we live in 4d#already. so. i was worried for a second but THANK YOU THANK YOU OH MY GOD PEOPLE TRYING TO SAY “OH THE 4TH DIMENSION IS TIME” I HATE THAT SO#MUCH AAAAGGHHHH AT LEAST RECOGNIZE ITS NOT SPATIAL!!! TIME IS NOT A SPATIAL DIMENSION!!!!!!! IF IT WAS THEN 4D TRAVEL AND TIME TRAVEL WPULD#BE FHE SAME THING AND DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY MUCH COOLER POSSIBILITIES WPULD BE THROWN AWAY IF THAT WAS THAT CASE!!!!! AND. AND. IF THE 4TH#DIMENSION IS TIME. THEN WHATS THE 5TH?? 6TH?? YPU CANT KEEP GOINF ON FOREVER LIKE THAT. YPURE JUST MAKEING MORE 3D WORLSS WITH STUFF IN#ADDITION TO TIME. INTERESTING BUT THAY IS NOT ABOHT HIGHRER DIEMSBSJSNSBAKAJSHDHDHHDHDHDJ#sorry for the rant. jsut. agh i want a spatial 4th dimension. i dont think tesseracts exist through time that would just be an aged cube#anyways yeahhh i love the 4th dimension. new hyperfixation or new special interest? ill have to wait and see. anyways i have done it i have#an oc whos 4 dimensional now and she is the coolest ever i love her#but yeah this book is sosososo good i am literally gonna bring it to school to read instead of draw bc i would lose it if i didn't#10/10 would recommend to anyone who wants to Think
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Despite the MANY flaws of Tim Burton's adaptation of Sweeney Todd, the one thing he ate was the By the Sea sequence (most of it, anyway). The outfits make me giggle like a kid every time. But ALSO I love how subtle they make Sweeney's tux for the wedding look like a straight jacket. And with the tortured face of a man who does NOT want to be there. Mwah. I'll eat it up every time.
This is unrelated to the intent of the post but I have to share this while I'm seamaxxing.
HE LOOKS SO PROUD AND SO STUPID
#didnt want to be a hater on the main post so ill rant in tags#the one thing that wouldve made By the Sea perfect was if sweeney showed more energy in thr beginning#and then got more and more exasperated like he did in the musical#and i get thats what burton was going for with sweeneys entire character#but i just didnt like that decision in general LMFAO#it takes away from the comedy aspect of sweeney todd being a dark comedy#like even in the string of pearls novel there are comedic scenes that split up the gore and depression#but most of the characters in burtons adaptation are just. vapid?#i dont know. i just wish they kept sweeneys occasional bouts of whimsy#here are the boring tags im done now#sweeney todd#the demon barber of fleet street#sweeney todd 2007
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TRANSPHOBES WILL NEVER BE TRUE PATRIOTS AND THEY'RE ALL TRAITORS TO AMERICA! I WILL BLOW THEM ALL UP! I HATE TRANSPHOBES!! AAGHAGHAGHGGG!!!!
#this isnt targeted im just getting weird transphobes and radfems recommended to me#transphobes will never be welcome here you all smell so bad#i started ranting in the tags TWICE so im done now im just posting it#wont tag with normal soldier things because its not *really* roleplay but /shrug#maybe i should make a tag for more serious character breaks idk its fine i dont need to
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Is it just me or do new-engine video games feel like they're getting worse rather than better. Like yeah the textures and physics and FX themselves are improved, but at the same time why does it feel like I'm playing a game from 2001. Something's wrong here.
#//personal#//rant in tags incoming#idk mannn#it's like we're diving back into the uncanny valley or something#ever since the new unity engine came out in like 2020 or smt i've been getting weird vibes from all the new AAA games#my personal theory is that game devs don't know about art or film principles anymore and everything is TOO high resolution.#like the way our eyes process info we don't see every single object in 5000p. if u pay attention to ur periphery it's all smeary right?#so in video games when the unimportant assets are half-assed that's kind of a good thing (if u know about impressionism u understand me)#now it's like. where's the depth of field. and the atmospheric perspective. the subsurface scattering and anti-aliasing. the COLOR THEORY??#not to mention that like the physics themselves are also a bit janky and off-putting#like i see a human character with hair that doesn't hair right and no weight to their movements and it's like looking at a skinwalker or sm#i can't animate for shit but im not getting paid by AAA so. we can do better. we HAVE done better. what happened.#anyways. that's me.#i am very passionate bc im spending thousands on a video game major ty
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@messrsrobyn
Your tiktoks give me life
Be my friend
Adopt me pls😭😭😭
#now that ive humiliated myself i'll go make some tea#this is what happens when im bored#i just needed to say something#I've also got a banging headache lol#i feel like a creep#my tiktok is#what.does.t.moo.cow.say#i made it years ago and i dont have it in me to change the name😭😭#i think the name is like ♡🇵🇸#i should stop talking#im running on so little sleep#ill regret this rant in an hour#why did i tag him idk#i have no energy#i feel like a caveman cuz i dont have the willpower for intelligent thought rn so my head just goes 'sad' 'happy' 'ow' and that basically it#alos this whole post is weird and ive just given myself such embarrassment i shouldnt be allowed on this earth i have done humankind wrong
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