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Not really sure what incongruous means so I'll look it up after but it does feel like as i get older life gets more complex theres more things i understand now that sure i knew about them before but not in great detail but it feels like I've become so fucking complex as a person that if i tried to explain what i actually think and feel it would just overwhelm a person so i try and section myself off into pieces and just use different parts of me with different situations or people and it may just be because ive spent most of my time these past 2 almost 3 years now alone with nothing to do but think and figure myself out that when im asked what i think about something slightly personal its kinda hard to say it just got lost in my head somewhere and that whatever i think will change at a moments notice like i can bring up memories of lots of things and remember nostalgic times but i spent so long thinking about why i feel a certain way or what makes me feel a certain way in order to try and get a better hold of myself that ive kinda forgotten alot of my past like so many memories that i made are just gone because remembering them made me feel a way i dont want to feel like i remember realizing the beginning of 6th grade that i had completely forgotten 5th grade and the reason why was because that time i had was so nice yet not at the same time my brain just frogot because it didn't want a reminder of how good yet not something can be like great teachers who for the first time ever actually seemed to care as far as i could tell class mates who were generally friendly and occasionally checked on me if i seemed off yet i felt so alone cause nobody there really seemed like a real friend like the friends i had before who even when we were in deep trouble wouldn't rat me out and would stick with me who genuinely cared and missed me if i was sick getting older and not having anyone to socialize with for really formative years off my life has made understand those really old dudes who are nice and always up to make friends but just seem extra lonely for some reason despite knowing so many people i guess technically being that alone did hurt me but i kinda learned that im just not alone ever when im outside theres always some squirrels birds or plants nearby that make it more lively its why ive grown so fond of certain forested spots they are always lively and it feels like hanging out with all my friends its also why i enjoy making things like with metal or wood stone or even writing and painting those things feel alive in a way same with music and having time to think so much has made me reflect and realize that no day is the same and even when something changes something else stays the same or gos back to how it was in a weird cycle like growing but remembering where you were growing older for me anyways is like gaining more skills and more knowledge not just on the stuff around me but on myself too obviously people change sometimes pretty quickly too but getting older makes you learn more about yourself which duh that how life works but still it feels weird to be aware of it at 17 when it feels like i should still be trying to figure out my favorite youtuber or something not contemplate who i am as a person and what makes me feel the way i do but its a good kind of weird and theres always more to learn and find so i still have plenty of room to learn more about myself still not being able to really fully let a person know you kinda sucks but to be fair that is a rather special thing its also nice being able to put into words why i feel a certain way so that i can actually explain myself instead of just going quiet cause i dont know myself that well still kinda funny to know your own problems but not be able to jusy fix them when you know its a very deep problem even when it seems surface level and damn i got kinda personal there woops also just noticed that im shaking so might be overwhelmed remembering 5th grade which is probably why i frogot it or at least thought i did
anybody else feel that being human is like being a long-time syndicated cartoon character watching the world get more complex while your own design stays the same until youre incongruous with the reality around you??
#Anyway im gonna see if i can calm down and mabye froget 5th grade again#not remembering stuff can hurt sometimes so dont try it i already fucked up learn fro. my mistakes
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hi!!! im new on here and ive been binge reading all of ur stuff đ im not sure if this is where you send reqs but if it is in begging for an older brotherâs best friend trope w katsuki đ i absolutely adore this trope and i js imagine katsuki pretending to be so annoying w picking you up or âbabysitting youâ for his friend bur he secretly rlly likes it. thank u sm! <3
OMG HELLLOOO!! THANK YOU FOR BINGE READING MY STUFF!! this is where u send requests and Iâm totally inlove with this idea you just opened my eyes. 2 POSTS IN 1 DAYYY?? Iâm spoiling all 50 of my followers đ
Off-limits, Right? â katsuki bakugo
IN WHICHâŚkatsuki was your older brothers bestfriend, you hated him, he hated you, I mean why else would he constantly tease you? so yeah, you guys hated eachother. rightâŚ?
Pairing; Katsuki bakugo x Afab!reader
Content contains; fem!reader, SUGGESTIVE! mdni, swearing, corny scenarios, katsuki uses âprincessâ in a mocking way, reader is 19, katsuki is 21, and brother is 22, swearing.
Word count; smth over 1k
A/N; this was a wonderful request Iâm sorry I couldnât do it justice !! đŠ I hope ur happy with the result nonetheless!! <3
he was insufferable, he just couldnât leave you alone. everytime he comes over to hang out with your brother, you avoid him and stay in your room at pretty much all costs; yet he always finds a way to still get under your nerves.
the stupid calls behind the door as they make their way to your brothers room,
âaww princess, you donât miss me?â he yells behind the door, you can hear the cocky bastards smirk. you groan and just ignore him as he laughs with your brother. stupid boys.
it doesnât stop there though, if you ever decide to come out of your room you better prayyyy hes not down there because heâs teasing you to absolutely no end.
âoh the beast has awoken I see?â he smirks and rests his elbows on the kitchen island, eyeing you up and down like you were a piece of meat. you roll your eyes and continue to open your fridge and get a drink.
âwould you just shut up for once katsuki?â you bite back and he lets out an airy mocking laugh, putting his hands up in fake defense.
âeasy there, just playin around sleeping beauty.â that stupid smirk never leaving his lips, you groan and grab your drink before descending up the stairs back to your room.
and you see, it would be a lot easier to avoid katsuki if him and your brother werenât constantly in eachothers back pocket. It was frustrating, all you wanted was for him to leave you alone!
and then the worst possible thing happened.
âyoo, y/n.â your brothers voice speaks, tapping you on the shoulder, you tilt your head to look over your shoulder and hum a response. âokay donât kill me but..memomanddadaregoingtoabarandkatsukihastobabysityou.â you stare at him blankly.
âokay what the actual fuck did you just say to me.â he takes in a deep breath and repeats himself slower. âme mom and dad are going to a bar and katsuki has to babysit you.â he has an anxious scrunch plastered on his face, prepared for you to blow up.
âwhat the HELL?â you slam the book you were reading closed, the sound echoed through the house. âI donât need a fucking babysitter! Iâm 19!â he sighs and attempts to calm you down.
âI know, i know, I agree! I tried to tell mom and dad that but I guess they just didnât trust youâŚâ you scoff at this and slouch in your seat with another loud groan rumbling past your lips.
âso they decide to have fucking katsuki babysit me? you know how much I hate him.â you glare up at him and he sighs for you.
âyeah I know..look itâs only for one night! Iâm sure youâll survive right?â you scoff at him and slam yourself up from the couch and reach your room, spending the rest of your time there before katsuki shows up.
âding dongâ you hear the doorbell and immediately plant your face in your pillow, mentally preparing for the night youâre about to have. you can hear him buttering up your parents, talking about how their âprecious daughterâ is in wonderful hands. what a fucking joke. the minute everybody left, he sighs before yelling up the stairs.
âyou gonna sit up in your room the whole time?â you can hear the cockiness dripping in his tone even through a whole staircase and your door. you sigh, bouncing off your bed and opening your door walking down the stairs with the least pleasant expression on your face.
âah thereâs the princess, wipe that look off your face. Iâm not any happier about this.â you scoff and continue your walking down the stairs, reaching him at the bottom and glaring into his eyes. âyeah right.â you remark sarcastically and push past his shoulder and walk back to your spot on the couch. he sighs to himself and grouchily walks over to sit next to you, creating a respective distance.
âthe tv remotes right here,â you toss it at him and he catches with no problems, gosh fucking loser has to be good at everything. âput whatever you want on, I donât care.â you dismiss him and open your book again, deciding thatâs the best way to drown him out.
âoh so the princess isnât always cold hearted?â he bit his lip partially with a slight smirk, you couldnât help but shy away from his gaze back onto your book and stutter out a âyeah whatever..â he put on some creepy ass movie, you werenât even watching it but the noises and jumpscares were kind of getting to you, you put the book down for one second and then got invested into the movie, katsuki took notice of this but decided to not say anything to scare you off just yet.
a certain jumpscare got to you, and you flinched with a high pitched âeek!â he only laughed at you and looked at you with a faux mocking pout.
âaww princess you scared?â his pout turned into a smirk, and he licked his lips slightly. âs-shut up katsuki.â you roll your eyes and attempt to play it off before he just has to open his mouth again.
âcmon you want me to hold you so the monsters wonât get you?â he opens his arms and laughs when you immediately protest. âew, katsuki! quit!â he nonetheless throws your âstupidâ book across the room and before you even have time to think heâs grabbing you by the shoulders and planting you on his lap.
âkatsukiâ eughâ let me go!â you whine trying to wiggle out of his grasp, he sighs before speaking, âkeep movin like that on me and youâre definitely not going.â you gasp at his comment and hit him on the arm.
âgross katsuki!â he just laughs and you eventually accept your fate on his lap, trying to avoid the fact youâre on your older brothers bestfriends lap. You continue on with the movie, eventually relaxing into katsukis hold when another jumpscare causes you to jump in his hold, he mocks you with a laugh and suddenly his mouth is very close to your ear, you can feel his hot breath trickling down your neck and it causes you to stiffen. âyou scared, princess?â he whispers deeply into your ear, you try to shake off the flustered feeling and shake your head no.
âare you sure? maybe this will help take your mind off things.â and before you can even think to protest, your being spinned around on his lap, face to face with him. your legs were straddling either side of his now and he rests his hand on your lower back, pushing you closer to him.
âkatsukiâ mm!â you were cut off to him pressing a kiss to your lips, even though your mind was telling you âno, no, back away!â your body seemed to have a different idea, leaning into his touch and kissing right back causing his signature smirk to envelop his face, smiling into the kiss.
it turned into a heated makeout session, your hands resting on his neck, one of his hands rubbing down your back and the other behind your neck, pulling you impossibly closer. the only thing that could be heard was the movie you had both long forgotten about and the smacks of your lips colliding.
âyou donât knowââ he breathes out before planting another kiss to you, ââhow long Iâve wanted this.â you continue your assault to his lips and only pull away for a short response back. âyeah?â he hums an agreement into the kiss, at this point youâre practically grinding on eachother, your brows furrowing and mouth parting slightly, and suddenly it all hits you.
you pull away abruptly, his lips chasing yours before a look of confusion wipes over his face. âwe shouldnât be doing this.â you speak and nervously tuck your hair behind your ears. âwell itâs a little late for that princessâŚâ you groan and bury your head in your hands, what were you thinking?
âI mean we donât really have to stop nowââ you shush him quickly, he rolls his eyes but listens nonetheless, as if on que you can here the doorknob jiggle, you spring off his lap and back onto your designated place on the couch, katsuki grabs a pillow to cover his crotch which you gave him a disgusted look for, as if you werent practically leaking through your panties right now.
they walk through the door, everybody greeting their hellos before your mother speaks up at the sight, âaw look at you two! finally getting along I see?â you grumble at her words but katsuki speaks up with a sly grin, âyou could say that.â she gushes over this fact, katsuki was always her favorite friend of your brothers. only you and him knew the true meaning behind his words, eventually everybody gets ready to part their goodbyes, and youâre about to ascend up the stairs again before katsuki calls your name.
you spin around to face him, and stride over he unexpectedly hugs you, which your mother âaweâsâ at, little did she know he just whispered âcall me.â in your ear, leaving you a flustered mess, you say your quick goodbye and rush up to your room.
what weâre you gonna do.
a/n; if this does well Iâll do part 2 but prolly not
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Couple Questions
You and Logan answer some cute couple questions!
professor logan howlett x professor fem!reader - established relationship (y'all married), cute, fluff, teasing, no y/n used, your an english professor, logan is a history professor
read on ao3 or find more parts for the series: here
a/n: not the usual update but I saw some couple questions on pinterest and thought you know whatâŚim gonna do this because itâs cute. i may or may not also have headcanons for them lol.
What were your first impressions of each other?
You : grinning "I thought he was rude. He barely said hello when I first arrived at the mansion, just mumbled something and walked away like I wasnât worth his time."
Logan : smirking "To be fair, I had a lot on my mind."
You : "But then I caught him staring at me in the library one day, and I thought, âHuh, maybe heâs not as grumpy as he looks.â Turns out I was wrongâheâs grumpier.â teasingly nudges him
Logan : chuckling "You done? âCause my first impression was that you talked too much."
You : mock gasp "Excuse me?!"
Logan : shrugging "But you had this fire about you. Didnât take crap from anyone. Thought that was⌠different." pauses, his voice softening "And your laugh. First time I heard it, I couldnât get it outta my head."
Describe the moment each of you knew you had feelings for each other.
You : thoughtful smile "I think it was when Jean told me Logan liked me. It just⌠clicked. All the banter, the little glances, the way heâd hover nearby even though he pretended not to careâit all made sense. Once I realized it, it was like⌠yeah, I like him too. It was terrifying and exciting at the same time."
Logan : scratching the back of his neck, pretending to look annoyed "Sheâs makinâ me sound soft already."
You : "You are soft."
Logan : ignoring her "For me, it was probably when I realized she wasnât offended by my attitude. Thatâs when I knew she wasnât just anyone. She was my someone."
Did either of you fight your feelings, or was it easy to accept?
You : snorting "Oh, we both fought it. He avoided me a lot of the time. I overthought everything âdoes he like me? What if Iâm imagining it? What if I ruin our friendship?"
Logan : dryly "You do think too much. Me? I didnât avoid you."
You : glaring playfully "You literally avoided the library for two weeks, and thatâs your favorite place!"
Logan : grinning faintly "Alright, fine. Maybe I fought it a little. Was scared Iâd mess things up. Didnât think someone like you would want someone like me."
You : softly, brushing his hand "Youâre an idiot for thinking that, but youâre my idiot."
When was the first time you said âI love youâ? What prompted it?
You : "It was after a nightmare. Logan woke up in a cold sweat, muttering apologies for scaring me. But he hadnât scared meâI just wanted to comfort him. And in the middle of me rambling about how it was okay, it just came out: âI love you.â"
Logan : quietly "Didnât think Iâd ever hear those words from someone. But when she said it, I couldnât stop myself. Told her I loved her right back."
You : smiling softly "And then you called me a âdamn foolâ for putting up with you."
Logan : shrugging "I stand by it."
Who is the big spoon, who is the little spoon?
You : "Oh, Loganâs the big spoon, obviously. But sometimes Iâll be the big spoon when heâs had a rough day. He pretends to hate it, but I know he secretly likes it."
Logan : grumbling "I donât need a damn cocoon, sweetheart."
You : grinning "But you still let me."
Whatâs your favorite quality about each other?
You : "Loganâs loyalty. Heâll protect the people he loves with everything he has, even when he doesnât think he deserves to be loved back."
Logan : looking at her, his voice softer "Her heart. Sheâs got this way of makinâ everyone feel like they matter. Like theyâre worth somethinâ. Thatâs rare."
You : teasingly "Stop, youâre gonna make me cry."
Logan : smirking "Good. Payback for all the times you make me feel stuff."
Who is the messiest?
You : raising her hand immediately "Me. Absolutely me."
Logan : snorting "Finally, somethinâ we agree on."
You : "Hey, at least I know where everything is in my mess. Your âorganizedâ piles confuse me."
Logan : "It ainât hard, darlinâ. One pileâs for weapons, the otherâs for books. Whatâs so confusinâ?"
Who sings in the shower?
You : grinning mischievously "Logan does. And he doesnât even realize it half the time. Itâs adorable."
Logan : deadpan "I donât sing in the shower."
You : "Oh, so the other day when I walked by and heard you mumbling âSweet Carolineâ under your breath, that wasnât you?"
Logan : grumbling "I was humminâ it. Thereâs a difference."
You : sarcastically "Sure, tough guy. Whatever helps you sleep at night."
Who likes horror movies? Who likes romance movies?
You : grinning "Logan likes horror movies, obviously. Heâll sit there, all serious, like nothing phases him. But I swear I caught him flinch once during The Exorcist ."
Logan : gruffly "Did not."
You : "You did. Anyway, I like romance movies. Logan pretends to hate them, but he always ends up watching them with me."
Logan : smirking "Thatâs âcause I know youâll cry, and I gotta be ready to hand you tissues."
You : rolling her eyes "And yet, who was tearing up during The Notebook last week? Hmm?"
Logan : groaning "Alright, fine. I might like some of âem. But donât go tellinâ anyone."
You : "Oh, your secretâs safe with me. But Iâll totally remind you next time we watch Pride and Prejudice ."
Logan : grinning, pulling her closer "Youâre somethinâ else, sweetheart."
Whatâs your favorite memory of us?
You:thoughtfully smiling âThatâs hard to pick. But⌠I think it was when you planned that romantic getaway for my birthdayâyou bought me that dress. Or when you wrote that for me poem and gave it to me for Christmas.â
Logan:grinning faintly âYou mean the one where you cried âcause I wrote you that little poem in the book?â
You:mock gasping âYou wrote me a poem , Logan. Of course, I cried! I still have that dress, by the way.â
Logan:chuckling, his voice softer now âThat was a good one. But for me? I think itâs our wedding. Just you, me, and those vows I wrote on a scrap of paper. You called me an idiot for cryinâ halfway through.â
You:sniffing dramatically âAnd Iâll call you an idiot for it again, but only because you cried first. You set me off.â
Logan:smirking âYou werenât even gonna cry âtil I pulled out that damn lucky pen you gave me.â
You:âWell, yeah, itâs our lucky pen, Logan! What did you expect?â
Hugs or kisses?
You:grinning slyly âKisses. Definitely kisses.â
Logan:raising an eyebrow âReally? Iâd say hugs.â
You:blinking in mock surprise âLogan Howlett likes hugs? Who are you and what have you done with my husband?â
Logan:shrugging, smirking a little âWhat can I say? Thereâs somethinâ about you wrappinâ yourself around me that just feels right.â
You:melting a little before recovering quickly âOkay, you win that one. But kisses still come with extra perks.â
Logan:grinning wickedly âOh, I know.â
Who finds it harder to admit theyâre wrong?
You:âOh, Logan. 100% Logan.â
Logan:gruffly âWhat? Thatâs not true.â
You:glaring playfully âLogan, you once argued with me for three hours about the best way to cook eggsâonly to realize you were wrong and never admit it.â
Logan:grumbling âThatâs âcause your way still doesnât make sense.â
You:crossing her arms âOh, it makes perfect sense, tough guy. Youâre just stubborn.â
Logan:grinning faintly âAlright, fine. Maybe I donât like beinâ wrong.â
You:âMaybe?!â
Whoâs the boss in the marriage?
You:smirking, pointing to herself âObviously me.â
Logan:laughing softly âYeah, you think so, huh?â
You:âLogan, who does the meal planning? The laundry schedules? Who makes sure you actually remember birthdays and anniversaries?â
Logan:grinning âAlright, you. But who fixes stuff when it breaks? Who makes sure no one bothers you when youâre havinâ a bad day? Who makes the coffee in the morninâ exactly how you like it?â
You:softening, smiling sweetly âAlright, fine. Weâre both the boss in different ways. But letâs be honestâwhen it comes to arguments, you fold first.â
Logan:mock scowling âOnly âcause you give me those damn eyes. Ainât fair.â
Who has the best jokes?
You:grinning smugly âMe. Hands down.â
Logan:snorting âYeah, okay. But only âcause your jokes are so bad, theyâre funny.â
You:âExcuse me?!â
Logan:grinning âSweetheart, half your jokes are puns. Donât get me wrong, I love seeinâ you crack yourself up, but best jokes? Nah.â
You:frowning in mock offense âFine, then letâs hear one of your so-called âgoodâ jokes.â
Logan:deadpan âWhyâd the history book break up with the science book? No chemistry.â
You:blinking, then laughing despite herself âOkay, that was actually pretty good. Damn it.â
Who is grumpier?
You:âOh, Logan. No contest.â
Logan:shrugging, unbothered âYeah, probably.â
You:giggling âYouâre basically a walking thundercloud until youâve had your coffee. And even then, youâve got about an hour before you start growling at people.â
Logan:smirking âThatâs true, but youâre no ray of sunshine when youâre hungry.â
Who gets angry when theyâre hungry?
You:immediately âOkay, fine. Thatâs me. But in my defense, you always know when to feed me before I get too hangry.â
Logan:chuckling âDamn right I do. Learned that the hard way on one of our first dates.â
You:giggling âOh, you mean the time you forgot to feed me after making me hike five miles, and I almost bit your head off?â
Logan:grinning âYup. You didnât even wait for the food to hit the table before tearinâ into me. Thought I was gonna lose a hand.â
You:grinning sheepishly âHey, at least you didnât run for the hills.â
Logan:softly, leaning closer âNah, sweetheart. Iâd take your hangry self over anyone else any day.â
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i was one of the people who saw the early leaks post and i remember trying not to read too much of it but i had a moment of being like wow this cant be real but also it definitely could be. i remember reading about the damn caitvi sex scene and i thought to myself thats so ass why would they do it in a prison and then i realized the writers probably thought it was some meaningful parallel or something about vi being able to transform being imprisoned with something good
then the act dropped and i saw the damn parallels with cait finding her in the cell and i was like ok yeah. they basically had that as an idea. amanda overton was talking about it in a watch party and said they love their parallels and it was meant to symbolize vi addressing her trauma and im like. i see what they were going for and i get it I GUESS narratively but i really feel like this is such monkeys paw shit like we got this scene at what cost. and like the scene ITSELF was very good and sweet and lovely but like could it not have happened ANYWHERE ELSE?
i feel like the biggest problem with arcane s2 was that the creators rlly wanted to push the bar with animation storytelling. amanda talked about this too and like i feel like it kind of highlights the problem. where bc this show is so amazing graphically the animators wanna highlight that with as much action as possible instead of focusing on smaller scenes and more intimate quiet moments. i watched arcane s1 all at once after it came out and there were def parts that felt a little rushed in certain acts but it was nothing like s2. it just feels like they had all these story beats they wanted to hit but didnt give it the time it deserved and it sucks bc they said they always meant it to be 2 seasons so like why does it feel like this. they wrote them back to back around the same time what happened between s1 and s2. i just feel like the caitvi sex scene is a microcosm of the larger problem. they had these emotional beats and story moments that in isolation are really powerful but its almost like we didnt get a proper A to B transition. its like we skipped several steps for sooo many story beats.
such complex characters with real ass lives causing real ass problems. cait's privilege being an issue, how gratifying that could be to have explored. viktor's experience being explored more in depth. just so much more about zaun. like all of it was there in tiny slivers but it was never given the depth to GROW or properly BREATHE bc five million action scenes and plot points had to be squeezed in.
ultimately i love arcane overall. i think it has broken boundaries and done some amazing things. but its blemishes are really... painful at the same time. and knowing how the writers did such a good job in s1 makes me just like. cmon guys. you had it. YOU HAD IT
anyways sorry for blowing up your ask with so much rambling i just... idk. what are your thoughts on this stuff do you agree with my assessment or do you think the culprit is something else
No prob, welcome to the symposium~ Yeah, I totally get what the writers were going for with Vi. Which is why I am so shocked they thought it was a good idea. Like, okay, she is addressing her trauma in the sex scene... But why should her trauma get addressed by being locked in a jail cell by her sister, who just spent days being wrongfully imprisoned in there by the girl she's about to have sex with, and who then told her she was gonna off herself. If anything, the thing I was feeling was pain because it happened again, a Zaunite was thrown in jail by the Enforcers after she helped and saved them without any rights, and she was reminded she was less than them and her life is worth nothing... Mmmmm, the perfect memory to overwrite prison abuse!
I too felt s1 had some strange pacing choices, Vi and Jayce teamup comes to mind first, and that was, surprise surprise, a fight scene. But those were pretty minor, and still left time for other scenes to develop properly. It only becomes a real problem when it happens scene after scene, character after character, until no one is acting in character and you constantly feel like you have skipped a scene or two. I too remmeber them saying they wrote the seasons back to back, but. Dare I say it. I think s2 was so majorly rewritten by the time it went to recording that only the bare bones remained. In fact, that might be why we feel this way - maybe they DID have a frame they wanted to follow, but the rewrites warped and twisted the characters so intensely they ended up making no sense in the context of that frame. That's right, I'm talking about the way they decided to more closely follow and collaborate with LoL in s2. Jayce's final speech to Viktor only makes sense for game Viktor, and goes completely against s1 Viktor. Vi deciding police brutality doesn't really matter all that much makes sense for game Vi, and foes completely against s1 Vi. Jinx giving up on ever being loved or accepted by others makes sense for game Jinx, and goes completely against s1 Jinx.
So yeah my thesis is: Arcane knows it looks good, and sometimes it prevents it from being well written. It also decided to throw in its lot with LoL in s2, and no amount of good intentions from the writers could have saved it from crashing and burning.
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Sonadow fan child mega dump
Still working on the ideas, still not 100% sold on a name... Im trying to picture Sonic and Shadow's playful banter on kids names, making fun of each other's suggestions.
Naming:
I originally thought Sky or Star or even "Terra" which is Earths name. You guys gave a lot of really good ideas, too, thank you so much!!Sunny is cute, too and Rouge calls Shadow "sunshine" a lot. Maybe something to do with water or planetary stuff, given Shadow would have looked out of the ARK with Maria a lot.
I even thought about "beauty and the beast", naming her bell relating to how Bell was "like maria" or rather, the concept of clarity bells and chimes and the sound/mysticism of bells in history as spiritually healing.
Plus it's funny to think of her being like Sonic and pulling a "DING! times up!" and destroying Eggman's future projects.
"Beauty and the beast?? Isnt Maria your sister--" "I won't entertain your crude humor. Bell accepted the beast for who he was, not what he was called or what he looked to be. Despite what she was told about him, she wanted to offer him a chance to be happy. A chance we all deserve... Regardless how it ends, the beauty of that story, at least to me, is not the romance, it's about love. Love isn't strictly romantic. She saw his heart and showed it to him, and he learned that the world might label you, but it's you who decides to accept or deny that label." "Heh, you should start a podcast-- call it stuck in a PODcast :)" "I hope she get's my humor." "And what humor is that?" "I can be very funny, Sonic. You're just... too slow." ":0"
Story one, the failed son:
He's created in the lab, hidden from GUN, but using their resources. Shadow's basically desperate because a child, to him, represents Sonic's immortality. Sonic will die one day, and Shadow fears what that means--but he also is living through the child. He wants a better version of himself, a "pure" one.
Doom's blood is removed, but several embryos fail completely. He finds a new "stabilizer" in the way of a chaos emerald shard, which Sonic would have never allowed, had he known. I think at some point Shadow would become as obsessed as Gerald, which causes Sonic to back off a bit...
Basically this creates a chain reaction:
Shadow abandons the kid with Sonic, after Sonic learns about the shard and warns Shadow that this could be a disaster. Shadow hides on the ARK, fearful that one day he will be the only one strong enough to destroy/stop his child, should he lose control to the Chaos energy coursing through him. Using the power only harms him, but really, it's turning him into a uncontrollable vessel of chaos, like biolizard.
Somehow Shadow hopes that losing any attachment to the kid will allow his destruction to be easier, but to Sonic, he gave up, accepting the kid as doomed. Sonic resents this deeply, even if he doesnt outright say it...He wonders if Shadow could have helped him manage his powers.
Ultimate power:
In reality, the child's need for validation is the very reason he would lose control in the first place, desperate to control his powers. Sonic would try to convince him he can just be his normal self, not to use the powers, as they damage him each time. But the kid eventually loses it and tries to draw shadow out of the ARK by destroying everything he can, until Shadow can see him from space.
"You love this planet more than me... Then defend it, coward--"
Damn, the fight scene would be awful-- I picture him warping in and just decking the kid, how heart wrenching. I'm sure Sonic would be stuck between, unsure what to do. I'm not sure how it ends?
Myabe they remove the emerald and he dies? or he becomes goop like Chaos? maybe a chao egg is left behind, which might hint at something bigger within Shadow himself??
Idea two, Birth:
Basically, Shadow's body evolves to grow an egg, maybe a normal Blackarm's thing that happens from time to time, maybe something to do with some Blackarms leftover idk, but point is he ends up hiding and pretending to be at GUN or on missions until finally Sonic tries to track him down and finds him laying in some forest, in labor. Technically this is Mpreg, but visually they look the same.
He reassures him, but Shadow can't understand why sonic isn't horrified.
"What do you want me to do, call you a freak and leave? I'm sure all mobians are freakish to humans, just like humans are freakish to mobians-- Hey, my little brother has two tails with a messed up joint that lets him fly! And your dad turned into a giant demonic root ball, even that comet was made of living goop all glued together, Shadow--laying an egg is the least of your worries!"
He jokes that he can have a melt down about the pregnancy being hidden later on, instead he'd rather focus on helping him. He has 3 small eggs but one begins to grow roots like the Blackarms and it takes over the other two, only making Shadow more distressed.
He wonders about taking it to the ARK, working with the commnader until they can determine that it's safe, but Sonic jokes, "You can try, but you know I won't let you take 'em, hehehe" But Shadow can feel the serious threat underlying. He doesn't want it to be treated like a monster either and wonders what the best course of action is.
"Do you really think humanity will accept this child if it looks anything like the Blackarms? If I looked any more like them?"
Story elements:
A lot of this story would be focused on Shadow's gradually rising tension as the egg grows, while sonic seems to be in a weird state of normalcy, but also struggling to actually comfort Shadow.
"Yknow, knuckles was born in an egg." "Sonic... we have no idea what's inside of this... I wasn't suppose to be fertile, let alone this! This sint a joke, sonic! What twisted creature could come from this-- what if this is just another facet of Doom's plan?! I already lost control of my mind, now I don't even have control over my body?!" Maybe Shadow and the commander already talked. He'd want to know why Shadow's suddenly requesting so much time off, only for the professor and Shadow to reveal everything. To their shock, the commander would support shadow... "Maria was like a sister to both of us... I think in her eyes... this might be my niece or nephew." The words make shadow tense, he wasn't prepared for this conversation, let alone the commander's unusual response. "You know I hate failing, Shadow-- Ive already failed her enough. I won't fail anymore. *Ahem* I expect a full report, given you've already met my grandchild..."
Remember, the commander offered shadow to come see his grandchildren in shadow the hedgehog (2004), so I'd like to think he's trying really hard to be better.
Really feeling this scheme
Guys can you help me with sonadow baby names
I have no idea what to say, but I want it to feel meaningful to Shadow, but maybe they have a real name and a "cool" name, like Sonic, Tails, y'know?
Might go with a girl? I just wanna make one to know what that looks like.
Thinking Navy. Maybe Ashen color. I think there'll start Ashen purple, later becoming darker, indigo-navy color, possibly stripes but idk, they would still have Blackarms DNA
#shadow the hedgehog#sonic the hedgehog#sonadow#shadonic#shadow fankid#fan child#fan kid#sonadow fanchild#sonadow hc
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Idk f theres been a lot of people sending in requests
Could you do a story with James where he had a bad day in the studio and he came home late so you comfort him? (if this makes sense)
JAMES HETFIELD
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â đ/đ; I WANNA HOLD HIM đ˘ i hope this is what you wanted, if not send me a dm or another ask and ill fix it! IM IN MY ACTIVE ERA GUYS OMGG!!
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i was laying in bed, waiting for him to get home. its 11:13 pm. james has been at the studio all day. of course, i missed him, but i knew he couldn't help it. they were trying to finish the first album they've done in years, while trying to work together as a band...and find a new bassist. i knew james had a lot on his plate, which is why i toughed it out, waiting for him.
i tried to wait for him every night, and i usually did. sometimes, i would fall victim to sleep before he got home, though. around about 11:40, he finally got home. i heard movement in the kitchen, guessing that he was probably eating the leftovers i put in the microwave for him.
usually, i tried to give him some space when he got home, before he came to bed, but tonight it took him a while. i decided to get up. when i got to the kitchen, his food was gone, and so was he. the tv was on in the living room, while he was sprawled out on the couch in his, recently, usual attire of jeans and a tanktop.
âyou okay?â i ask, sitting on the edge of the couch. âmm fine.â he muttered. âyou didnât come to bed..â i say, gently cupping his cheek, running my thumb over his skin. his response is just a shrug. âdo you want me to leave you alone?â i ask softly. i understood when he got distant or quiet. ânoâŚlets go to bed.â i get up with him, following as he takes my hand.
i lay down with him, feeling his big hands on my waist, âhow was your day?â he asked. âsame stuff as everyday. how was your day?â i mumbled, my eyes meeting his in the dim light. âshitty.â he grumbled. i knew his days were stressful.
âwhat happened?â he laid down more, his head resting on my chest. âwe still canât finish a few songsâŚâ my fingers gently card through his hair as i listen to him talk. âand lars is really pissing me off, more and more everyday. the therapy shit too.â i listen, kissing his head. âi'm sorry, hon. i wish it could be better."
"we may have a new bassist..i don't know yet." he mumbled, slowly relaxing more into the mattress. "thats great, james. what's his name?"
"robert. he's played for ozzy."
"well, if he's played for ozzy, he's gotta be great," i say as my fingers gently card through his hair, "have you guys been able to get to know him yet?" james nods, "a bit. he's alright." but i knew what that meant, the band was most likely going to hire robert, james was just being subtle. "i don't care, though, it's just another bassist."
my eyebrows furrow a bit, "hey, none of that..he's not just another bassist. he will be your bassist. this time, you need to do different, yeah? knock off the tough guy crap, treat him with respect." he sighs, "i know, i know."
"if you know, then you shouldn't have to worry about it. just let it happen. if he seems like a cool guy, i bet he really is." i say, "and for everything else going on, i know it sucks, but just remember you can always fall back on me. i'm always here."
"i know...i appreciate you more than you know." his arms wrap tighter around me as he nuzzles his face into the crook of my neck.
#bl00dycraniumm#writing#axel writes#axel writes đŚ´#metallica#james hetfield#x reader#james hetfield x reader#fluff#fanfiction#metallica fanfiction#ăâ
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i havent been reading scientistsfic for a long while and i feel really guilty about it. im sorry ao3 tagbot there is a yellow line between us
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#my art#harry du bois#kim kitsuragi#disco elysium#disco elysium fanart#harrykim#kimharry#or whatever they're called#let this man have happiness or so help me#im a firm believer in harry getting a slow post-recovery glow up alright. it's the least i can do for the guy.#man i was listening to so many banger songs while making this#im still getting back in the flow of painting so most of my stuff is kinda messy still#but i suspect ill find a middle ground between this and my last piece style-wise#gearing up to drawing kim in all his glory too now that ive finished two different side profiles of him. only a matter of time now#also fun little fact. i drew over half of this (~4 ? hours) using just my finger on the trackpad of my laptop lol#sometimes it helps me to just put shapes and colors down. when ive got a pen i get too nitpicky about being perfect/using fancy techniques#sometimes all you need is. finger đŤś#OH!! i forgot to mention someone spotted it in the tagsâyes this is based on that one leyendecker piece!!
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Little bright colored outfit with a fun vest ~
(shoes from ebay like 10 years ago. everything else is thrifted)
#ootd#jfashion#fashion#fantasy fashion#mori kei#....like... adjacent... lol#no idea what style this would be lol.. makes me think of like whimsical vaguely fantasy themed childrens book character#finally posting one of my aforementioned seven million drafts of actual outfits and costumes i have finished and edited#the photos for but just never feel like posting lol..#I need to find one of those people whos like 'omg i am ADDICTED to social media ugh i wish i could get off of it#im just browsing and posting like 60 times a daaaaay!!!' and take a little magical bottle and suck some of the social media#enthusiasim out of them. for moi. In exchange they can have some of my 'literally just never in the mood to post or interact with the#outside world ever' energy. We can balance each other. huzzah and so on#Though I think maybe it's part of the general thing I've heard of like.. I can't remember if it was in reference to adhd or just some sort#of general execcutive functioning issue type of thing - but the idea that things have to be ''just right'' before you do something. like#'oh i need to do this task. but i have to wait until XYZ first' or 'oh i can do this but only if X specific condition is met' or etc#The fact that I even have to be in a Specific Mindset to post. or sometimes will delay posting on social media because like 'oh well#I'm going somewhere tomorrow. somehow this matters. i cannot spend 5 minuts posting TONIGHT. clearly it will interfere#somehow schedule wise with the doctor appointment i have 15 hours from now. yes. yes. i must wait until my appointment is over#tomorrow afternoon. THEN i shall post' or etc. etc. lol. NOT even taking into account the many days#I just genuinely and physically sick and it's not even a mental thing. I just physically dont feel like sitting at the computer lol..#ANYWAY.. trying to get back into it. trying to get a business bank account.. make a proper paypal so i can start selling sculptures again.#selling clothes and sculptures.. posting about such things then of course as one must. etc... chanting to hype up and motivate myself lol#But yes. this is my favorite outfit out of the bunch so I am posting it first I guess.. maybe others later..#Also the purple dress says its from shein. which I've heard is bad fast fashion stuff. but maybe okay since its second hand? I havent#been to the bins since like 2020 or late 2019 even. and I think stuff like shein and temu has only become poular in the past few years#but I bet if I went to the bins now I might would find a good handfull of that stuff. Probably now not much different than what you#find in a walmart or a forever 21 or actual physical stores you can go to though. I hear quality of clothing is down everywhere no matter#where you get it or whatnot. What bountiful joys unfettered capitalism and exploitation bestows upon us (<being sarcastic).#Wearing one of my favorite little vests though. I love the texture of it and the clasps on it
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Did you retire
heaven forbid someone take some time away from fandom to get their health back to normal lol
no, im just biding my time in the gutter waiting for you to walk by
#ask me stuff!#this is the second time ive gotten a message like thisrecently#cool your jets#i can assure you i am still unhinged about my blorbos#and im finally playing the stardew update so im hoping to get back to my stardew au soon#i am however still dealing with health stuff both not great and obnoxious so just#have some patience or find some other fandom people to follow for the time being#like i wish i could retire FROM MY JOB so i could make gay art and pottery all day#but who knows if ill ever get to actually do that in however many decades#now pls excuse me i have to go schedule an MRI for my wrist bc i think the cyst has grown and started pressing on my ulnar nerve there#thats the obnoxious health thing#forgive me im cranky lmao
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hhhhidea...,,,, CUTE idea (kinda?) dust reading to phantom papyrus during night to lull him to sleep,,,, but really its just a way for him to pretend that everythings not really that shit (as if phantom paps isn't just dust's denial incarnate) and to help him NOT wake up because of a nightmare again or something
(and just because i can't resist now im imagining this with mtt. not that dust stopped reading to paps in place of killer and horror (because he wouldnt he simply wouldn't) but now the two join them for storytime. horror knocks out pretty damn fast and eventually dust falls asleep too after he makes sure that paps is satisfied with the amount he read and then killer's just left to sit there. maybe he tries to fall asleep maybe he doesn't,,,, maybe he picks up the book and continues reading but EITHERWAY,,,,,, this scene in my head so đĽđĽđĽđđđ)
#sweet soft mtt taking OVER triglycercule's brain has been invaded with them.........#horror probably sleeps like a rock man. dust is a very very very light sleeper. killer doesn't sleep at all and when he does#its just like that half asleep state. better than nothing tho....... those weeks of not sleeping probably leads to the most delicious naps#now in an ideal world killer learns to get a proper sleep schedule even if he can't feel his exhaustion#however in MY mtt dominated world killer doesn't fix his sleep habits and instead just takes a shitton of naps everywhere#they killerfied the house (made everything softer to sleep on) and killer always has 2 walking pillows to sleep on#sure he might not get 8 hours of sleep like during night. but he got that over the day so its ok TRUSY#this surely wont have any bad side effects but whatever its the mtt since when do they care about PROPER habits. if it works it works#ik i aaaaalways say hrkl wouldn't like phantom paps and find it weird but also now im considering#like. them being jealous of dust for always having kinda papyrus with him#like damn..... horror fucked up his brother permanently. he will never get the old paps back#and killer doesnt want to see his papyrus again because then he thinks hell just ruin everything again#but dust gets to talk and laugh and joke with his paps all the time!!! he got it better than them and thats just cus he hallucinates!!!! wt#i mean phantom paps isnt a 1:1 version of papyrus but hes close enough in my eyes#another idea....... horror (and maybe killer if he warms up to it) hanging out with dust JUST to talk to phantom paps#dust could easily just lie about what phantom paps says (although unless he had a reason he wouldnt risk upsetting paps like that methinks)#but theres something there. something something toxic mttpoly dynamic or whatever idc man. im in the mood for FLUFF!!!!!!!!!!#i think it would be funny if phantom paps says dusts deepest thoughts about hrkl. and then if he wants to say it dust has to filter it a LO#they could be sitting near killer and phantom paps would provide a detailed description of why killer has the mannerisms of a cat#and then dust would (hesitantly) agree to everything paps said (he was thinking it too) but when killer looks back at him#(he's been staring at killer for the past 10 minutes to see if what paps said was right) dust just says like. you remind me of a cat#OR BETTER YET he doesn't wanna admit that he thought of that so he just says paps says you remind him of a cat#insert horror version of this moment here. and killer quickly realizes that dust's just using papyrus as an excuse for why he says stuff#like that sometimes. horror just thinks dust's a weirdo freak (but unlike killer he takes the little observations to heart. loser)#killer sans#horror sans#dust sans#murder time trio#utmv#tricule hc
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Jitterbug
#whenever my meds kick in it feels like im gonna piss myself. not literally but its really really feels like it#and now whenever that happens my mind goes back to pancho (grandmas dog) at a xmas party years ago#bc he peed when we arrived bc he was so excited to see ppl and my cousin had to clean it up :o)#well for better or for worse i know that feeling now when im pumped on 20mg of adderall#im still getting used to this whole diagnosis thing cause ive gone untreated and undiagnosed for the longest time. so theres probably a lot#i still dont know and have to learn to get myself to be.. functional on my own? self managing????#i even set up reminders on my phone for work periods meals and stuff. but the problem is actually getting myself to stick to that to a T#because the minute i slack off or something gets in the way it throws it all off until i can be bothered to get back on track. it sucks#at least ive built up other habits like writing notes and setting alarms ahead of time.. but i feel like i could do better#its always hard to change something if youve been doing it wrong for the longest time. especially behaviour and thinking patterns. sigh#in other news my glasses bailed on me so i have to get a new pair sometime. i just realized i never draw my sona with glasses but thats#mostly bc i forget. id love to get some browline glasses like my old pair but im picky and its hard to find one id like for the next 5 year#i also finally managed to collect all the fish in my animal crossing file!!! pulled out a char last week and boom now i have a poster :o)#THAT was a moment where i almost peed myself for real. id love to get all the bugs but i cant stay up late on the switch :o(#yapping#my art#myart#doodles#personal#diary
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there's something so comforting about artists you admire talking about their own struggles and insecurities
#txt#was watching supereyepatchwolf's video on chainsaw man again and listening to fujimoto express regret about things he didnt learn#and how he's clearly envious of his peers is so... comforting?#i think about my own strengths and flaws and often times i get so frustrated with my shortcomings#im not good at drawing feet; my backgrounds are purposefully simplistic and lack a lot of detail; sometimes my designs have a tendency to#overlap or feel very 'safe' in terms of what i really want to do#its why; despite my love for clowning on media and animated works. i never want to feel like its from a place of malice#the joy of art is always seeing those little mistakes and nuances. its also noticing the achievements other creators have made that you#still lack#even for a certain hell-based show i love to poke fun at for its many. many issues. its undeniable how incredibly passionate the work is.#and i do respect anyone who is willing to get their flawed media out there (myself included)#i see stuff about people calling me their inspo or how flattered they are when i compliment their work and its like. gee. i hold myself at#such a high bar and even still im always surprise when people tell me how much my work moved and changed them#i really love writing just little fun things that i just dont really see anyone else touching and its kind of fun how despite my own#personal grievances with my own flaws and mistakes#people really do find things that they love within them.#anyways I know this is getting long but Iâve just been getting sentimental abt the creation of art#sometimes people make fun of me for love of drawing women and lesbians and bugs and so on#and while I will never let me deter me from my process. sometimes it does get to me#but then I remember that I love doing this and could ever see myself holding back#and knowing despite how other people feel. I have so many followers who resonate with my weird ass shit#that itâs all worth it. ya know?
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I always enjoy it when people come up to me while im drawing as long as they're nice about it, and especially kids. And while the last two weeks only seemed to have obnoxious parents (at one point a kid was pointing like 'i want to be able to that!' and their parent replied 'you can't' and i was like ???? Wtf), this week there was a mom and two daughters who were really interested in art and were standing behind me while i sketched for a long while. Neither of the girls could have been much older than 10, and they were super shy, and were asking their mom questions, and i answered one of the questions. And the mom laughed and said 'see, she can hear you, don't be afraid to ask her questions!' and then i turned around and introduced myself a little and explained what i was drawing. And then they just stood and quietly watched me draw for like ten minutes, it was so sweet. đĽš
#Freebooter4ever#Also like....whenever im drawing im usually eavesdropping on various conversations around me#Adults are the funniest to listen to#Kids are mostly running around#And thinking about that lol...i realized what a weird child i was#When from the age of 6 i started going with my grandma to the kubota gardens in seattle#and we would sit and calmly draw or write for hours instead of me needing constant entertainment#I had a moment when i realized that if i had kids there would be no way to know if they would like drawing or if they would#Even be as quiet and calm as i was back then#Its not like i have not thought about having kids and how that would mean my time and choices would no longer be my own#But as i get more and more wistful over wanting kids#I catch myself thinking about stuff like this and realizing ok with a small child i probably wouldnt be able to do this anymore#And then i try to genuinely analyze whether or not i would be willing to give up whatever it is#And to my surprise the answer is usually yes#I find that im not thinking about it in terms of giving things up which is how society or advice books seem to paint it as#But rather adjusting to fit in a different kind of joy#I dunno ignore me im getting sappy over kids again
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im largely an outsider so take my opinions with a grain of salt but one thing thats been disappointing me in the few omegaverse stories ive read, despite how much the genre intrigues me in theory, is the like.. biological monogamy? with the biting stuff? i dunno i dont care for soulmate and soulmate adjacent stuff in general and tbh im not super invested in the horny aspect (although i do respect and appreciate it. guards impregnate that man etc etc) as much as i am in the speculative fiction biology+exploration of human sociopolitical landscapes through an anthropomorphized lens so this is a me problem but i do just know too much about too many animals so the claiming bite stuff being anything more than just bedroom play completely breaks my suspension of disbelief. all this to say i do keep telling my irl loved ones that i need to make the white throated sparrow based omegaverse i see in my minds eye. i see it so clearly. i see it so clearly.
#of course all omegaverse stories ive read have been original fiction i dont really read a lot of fanfic (and i dont go for AUs very often)#and also i think theyve all happened to have been m/m now that i think about it. so other forms may have different commonalities#from what i can tell a girl having a bunch of alpha dudes or whatever is kind of common in m/f? maybe? im not sure#but yeah i dunno i do not care for that marking stuff i think its soooo lame sorry HKJDSHFKJSdfds#1) again i just dont find it sexy or romantic personally but more importantly 2) animals looooove having super complicated mating situation#they loooove breaking up they loooove having multiple partners they looooove getting back together they do whatever they want#i think specifically about birds a lot and lemme tell you....... TECHNICALLY yes a lot of them have like#1 partner at a time. technically. but they go elsewhere. they decide never mind. even some mate-for-lifers will break up on occasion LOL#red wing blackbirds have like one guy with a bunch of gfs nesting in his territory but if i remember correctly#those girlies will go find other guys if they feel like it or if their guy is too fail or his territory sucks#they dont give a shit they do what they do. im so sorry im this kind of bird nerd. im so sorry.
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a friend who'd wait :)
#im posting this very late because i was sort of weary of how it came out and ended up messing w it until it was like 4am oops.#and i have plans tmrw so... oh well! i did my best and ill put it out while i can!#and i tried to make the scene match barnard's colors lol#finn's ocs#finn's art#i know i said id do more sillay stuff with the simpler screentone only style but i had a couple more of these in me#and this is the first piece im making thats like an actual part of the story too rather than just setting stuff for fun#i wanna write something to go with it too but for now ill just sort of briefly explain the context in the tags here:#barnard has a pretty bad case of OCD and his compulsions have made it difficult to make friends in the past#he was never outright bullied or anything but people just didnt really have the patience to deal with it#he has compulsions that include stuff like walking through doors until it feels right and needing things to be perfectly aligned#which in group settings has lead to people having to wait for him to finish his rituals and join them#they might find it tolerable at first but eventually they grow impatient and hes just... not invited to stuff anymore#but juno is a newer member of the guild who ends up frequenting the same library. hes also kinda a little weird#and they dont become fast friends or anything but just sort of naturally spend time in the same place#though they never plan meetups they eventually fall into a routine. around the same time theyd just both be at the library#and read next to each other. and maybe talk a bit. and eventually they end up walking back to the guildhall together#since theyre going to the same place after all. and juno always waits for barnard outside the door#eventually barnard asks if this bothers him. juno kinda just tells him 'of course it does' without any malice or anything. just a statement#barnard is surprised and apologizes and juno says not to. but the next day juno doesnt show up at the usual time.#barnard assumes hes committed somekinda more by bringing it up. he ends up staying there late reading to get his mind off it & not ruminate#but when he leaves juno is in fact still waiting for him down the hall (see pic) having collected a bunch of books literally abt ocd#he fell asleep bc barnard stayed later than expected. and hes an eepy guy generally. and also one very bad at expressing himself#but now barnard gets that juno's 'of course it [bothers me]' had the implication of 'but its worth it' which no friend has previously done.#and from the interaction juno was also able to understand that this isn't something barnard just does for the hell of it so. he studies.#and checks a bunch of stuff out because he thinks it could help his friend too (theres ocd workbooks and such- i remember working w them)#and thats the point where they became more ''friends'' than ''pleasant library acquaintances''#from there on they also do get into juno's problems. whole other bag of worms. but this specific scene is more about bernard from his pov#sorry about when i said briefly explain. i lied </3#but compared to the whole sequence im picturing its brief so shhh
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