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Just learned what incongruous means also dont really remember most of what i wrote in the last post so I'll have to reread that later anyway time for bed

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Not really sure what incongruous means so I'll look it up after but it does feel like as i get older life gets more complex theres more things i understand now that sure i knew about them before but not in great detail but it feels like I've become so fucking complex as a person that if i tried to explain what i actually think and feel it would just overwhelm a person so i try and section myself off into pieces and just use different parts of me with different situations or people and it may just be because ive spent most of my time these past 2 almost 3 years now alone with nothing to do but think and figure myself out that when im asked what i think about something slightly personal its kinda hard to say it just got lost in my head somewhere and that whatever i think will change at a moments notice like i can bring up memories of lots of things and remember nostalgic times but i spent so long thinking about why i feel a certain way or what makes me feel a certain way in order to try and get a better hold of myself that ive kinda forgotten alot of my past like so many memories that i made are just gone because remembering them made me feel a way i dont want to feel like i remember realizing the beginning of 6th grade that i had completely forgotten 5th grade and the reason why was because that time i had was so nice yet not at the same time my brain just frogot because it didn't want a reminder of how good yet not something can be like great teachers who for the first time ever actually seemed to care as far as i could tell class mates who were generally friendly and occasionally checked on me if i seemed off yet i felt so alone cause nobody there really seemed like a real friend like the friends i had before who even when we were in deep trouble wouldn't rat me out and would stick with me who genuinely cared and missed me if i was sick getting older and not having anyone to socialize with for really formative years off my life has made understand those really old dudes who are nice and always up to make friends but just seem extra lonely for some reason despite knowing so many people i guess technically being that alone did hurt me but i kinda learned that im just not alone ever when im outside theres always some squirrels birds or plants nearby that make it more lively its why ive grown so fond of certain forested spots they are always lively and it feels like hanging out with all my friends its also why i enjoy making things like with metal or wood stone or even writing and painting those things feel alive in a way same with music and having time to think so much has made me reflect and realize that no day is the same and even when something changes something else stays the same or gos back to how it was in a weird cycle like growing but remembering where you were growing older for me anyways is like gaining more skills and more knowledge not just on the stuff around me but on myself too obviously people change sometimes pretty quickly too but getting older makes you learn more about yourself which duh that how life works but still it feels weird to be aware of it at 17 when it feels like i should still be trying to figure out my favorite youtuber or something not contemplate who i am as a person and what makes me feel the way i do but its a good kind of weird and theres always more to learn and find so i still have plenty of room to learn more about myself still not being able to really fully let a person know you kinda sucks but to be fair that is a rather special thing its also nice being able to put into words why i feel a certain way so that i can actually explain myself instead of just going quiet cause i dont know myself that well still kinda funny to know your own problems but not be able to jusy fix them when you know its a very deep problem even when it seems surface level and damn i got kinda personal there woops also just noticed that im shaking so might be overwhelmed remembering 5th grade which is probably why i frogot it or at least thought i did

anybody else feel that being human is like being a long-time syndicated cartoon character watching the world get more complex while your own design stays the same until youre incongruous with the reality around you??

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Made tuna salad i fuckin love tuna salad

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Chilling in a slime is very nice tho just remember to bring acid resistant clothing and chug a potion of acid immunity before hand the good one last about and hour or two and can get you very clean since the germs grease and dirt will dissolve also sometimes helps with infections similar to maggots

being inside a slime or some kind of ooze is actually really enriching for adventurers and lets them explore new avenues of self expression so if you want to make an adventurer really happy you can throw them into one of us

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WHO WAS GONNA TELL ME WE COULD DO THAT?????

[tumblr] WHY DO YOU JUST HAVE THIS FEATURE LAYING AROUND

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Grow giant forests if there are no consequences than nothing gets hurt or unhomed in the process somehow also id dig a giant hole like say 5 miles across 4 miles deep and fill it with tunnels

If there were no consequences, societal or otherwise, what would you do?

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I remember having a really funny(in hindsight) experience thats kinda similar was feeling like shit and went to the doctor and they had trouble figuring out what waa wrong with me so they x rayed my chest and just said "theres something there" thats it didn't say what just gave me some medicine and sent me on my way still have zero clue why i was sick and what i was sick with

You know you've fucked up when you go to a doctor and the thing you have wrong with you has been named after an occupation that isn't a thing anymore. Like imagine a doctor looking at you and going "yeah you've got ox-drawn ploughman's disease. We don't even test for that anymore. Yeah the reason you've never heard of it is because the last known case was in 1927 and happened to some guy who was like 98 years old and didn't believe in modern medicine of the time. What the fuck have you been up to."

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1.my grip exercise thingy

2.the pumpkin riding ghost plush that has been promoted to sheriff

3.plants

@airon2-0

What are 3 things that are nice around you? We gotta remember that positives exist.

1. My green velvet sofa, it was flat pack and terrible to assemble on my own, by its comfy and green and a pleasing texture.

2. The collection of stuffed animals on the back of my couch. They are all good for cuddling on bad days.

3. My sunset lamp, it's nice to add a pop of color to the living room in the long dark of winter.

Tagging @o-nekosan @justawanderingbabbit and @aurawolfgirl2000 if you'd like too. No pressure.

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Why you gotta call me out like that i remember watching this short animation video back when i was like 5 or 6 on my moms laptop at college and the atmosphere and video combo was great it was this small lunchroom that smelled like grilled cheese and the video was this little guy made of smoke who kept breaking shit when they tried helping or socializing and my tiny brain felt just really understood it was on YouTube and anytime ive looked it just isn't there

“what’s posted on the internet stays there forever” is true for everything except that one piece of fanart you saw when you were 10 that changed the trajectory of your life forever. you will never find that again it is gone forever

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If magical video game logic was real and anyone could just slap together a stamina potion with some flowers the government would be forced to consider pretty much every food a drug and could therefore restrict food to poorer or rebellious areas but it would also be damn near impossible to stop people from making more without just blasting the ecosystem to death basically alchemy is broken as shit most of the time and is so common place that nobody really talks about it

writing tip:

if you push buttons on a keyboard, letters will appear on the screen. and with that power you can do anything

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Im not sick anymore anyway

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Also try training more evil wizards to increase the amount of evil deeds done so even when you die your apprentices and their apprentices take your teachings and make it better also just leave alot of traps around cursed items around that usually does the trick

I want to be an evil wizard. but I keep choosing kindness

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Imagine a game where your a soldier who joined hearing stories of heroes and legends the best of all being some dude thats like Jesus levels of popular and become somewhat of a hero yourself having saved a few villages and one day in the middle of a really bad battle you get knocked out from a blast and you wake up in the infirmary hearing a voice in your head claiming to be that mega popular hero saying that your compatible and that you need to go tell one of your higher ups so you do because spirits and possessions are kinda common on the battlefield cause of the souls of soldiers refusing to accept the wars over and as it turns out that mega popular hero is apparently capable of reincarnation and has been searching for a compatible body one that could contain their power so they try and take you to a old room with sigils to fully reincarnate the old hero obviously you were not informed of this when you find out you fight back trying to save yourself from being destroyed soul and all and indoong unlock the old heroes power blasting them with a spell and so begins the journey of adventuring from place to place gaining more power and experience while trying to keep the old hero at bay who slowly is gaining more power slowing down the journey and sometimes attempting to possess you while you search for a way to remove the old hero ending in your character having gained access to the old heroes power and the old hero being removed and reincarnated into a different body there could be a sequel where you have to go fight your homeland cause as it turns out what people consider a hero long ago really isnt much of one in the modern time so you have to try and prove that while the old hero slanders you so on the good ending at the final fight you defeat the old hero and end they're reincarnation cycle and through said process end up leading the country to try and fix what the old hero did and in the bad ending you die and take his place in the reincarnation cycle and have to watch yourself slowly stop being a hero not necessarily because you changed alot but because the times have changed again

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Just learned that apparently vampires used to be able to just kill someone by looking at them obviously that had to be changed but imagine being like a really young vampire talking to a really old one and the old one just being confused like "y'know you can just kill a guy by staring at them you dont have to bother dirtying your hands" like imagine that

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Im from iowa so i dont really get the appeal of beaches but if its humid enough to get fog or mist regularly and is decently cold than i think thats rad as shit so which ever of those gets those the most id say thats the best

Can someone at NJT explain the thought behind this ad campaign to me

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You ever be chilling than get the urge to just punch or wack something not like out of anger or anything just get really hyped up for a sec and have to calm yourself down