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ne0nlightzz · 17 days

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"I wanna be a dog trainer when I grow up" -Me most my childhood cuz of those dog trainer school commercials and I didn't even have a dog then.

"I wanna be a writer" "I wanna be a photographer" are more recent ones I've said. But now? Fuck I just want motivation to freakin do my school work and have the energy to do those hobbies....and dog training? Lol kid ya are delusional because this puppy we found and kept is making me want to lay in the road and actually do my school for fun instead of trying to train and raise a puppy cuz i ain't got the patiences for this little dude, my stress levels ain't been this high inna awhile...

...who the hell in my family though it'd be a good idea to keep this puppy and give me the full responsibility...I can't even take care of myself because I get burnt out from just existing and get overwhelmed by the damn sound of my ceiling fan...now i sure as hell ain't taking care of myself cuz I'm actually applying myself to this puppy ontop my usual chores and can't do school (home schooled...unschooled ifykyk.) And haven't had time to write, do any hobbies or anything or even shower haft the time...

#slight vent #vent ig #idk man #wtf am i even doing #ne0nlightzz rantz #lolz #adhd post #adhd things #puppys are so much work #i hated when we had our other dog as a puppy and he wasbt even my full responsibility #that dog used to make me cry.#im doing my best with this puppy #but its alot and overwhelming and very sudden #and my birthday is next month and im scared to get older.#and this puppy js giving me a responsibility i wasnt ready for and am constantly being judged abd shamed with because im getting no help #with this puppy

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cowardlykrow · 3 months

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“don’t lose it now, old boy.”

With @ratb4stard3

#They are Applewatch to me amen godbless #They are swapping nametags because they are also so gay #tragic gays 😔#but for now they are happy perhaps #Also called old man supreme yup #happy fricken pride month #look how he drew john with his love sick puppy eyes its killing me KILLing me im dead i am dust #ALSO YEAH back at it again with another collab with the brother bet you were NOT expecting this one 😏😏😏#Cause he's my best friend #he's my pal. He's my homeboy #my rotten soldier. He's my sweet cheese. My good-time boy.#Also i could NOT do wilburs other eye so i did the oldest trick in the book #ALSO ALSO.... you don't even KNOW how hard it was to not draw a mustache on him you dont even KNOW #Wilbur cross #general john macnamara #john macnamara #uncle wiley #Black friday #black friday starkid #Hatchetfield #tgwdlm #The idea was for them to be dressed up casually but sir wiley looks like he is about to take this man out for the most expensive fucking #dinner imaginable #perhaps before #before the #befo

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whinydrippypuppiesparadise · 5 months

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bottom surgery but i have no idea what's going to happen because my owner handles all of it, they're the one who has the conversations with the skilled and highly specialized surgeon, whenever they bring me in i'm blindfolded and have headphones blasting so that i can't hear what they're talking about as they examine and poke and massage and trace their fingers over me, my owner probably edging me or making me cum a couple times just to show something to the surgeon, all of the decisions are made in regard to my owners desires and priorities for me, i just have to trust that whatever ends up happening, my owner had a reason to do it, and my owner knows what's best for me

#puppies howling #in my fantasy my owner knows what i actually do secretly desire already and keeps my actual worries and fears in mind respectfully #but maybe still not doing everything exactly as i desire. maybe i ask for something because im embarrassed about it and they leave it #or it's something completely surprising but that ultimately is what's best for puppy and will make puppy the happiest #whether puppy fully agrees at first or not. who said that #mutt tax #or maybe there's never actually a surgery it's all just an excuse to let a stranger molest me with my owners supervision #and scare me so so so bad making me think they're actually gonna operate on my puppybits

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waitineedaname · 4 months

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I love that the best emotional acting when it comes to facial expressions comes from Lan Wangji (microexpressions) and Jiang Cheng (macroexpressions). Lan Wangji doesn't emote much but when you're keyed in, the tiny little changes in his facial expression are Devastating. Meanwhile Jiang Cheng is feeling Every Emotion, All The Time, and you are going to see it on every inch of his face. He'll go through twenty different expressions in the same amount of seconds and that face journey will be but a brief glimpse into the awful emotional rollercoaster that is Jiang Cheng's life

#mdzs #also on the list of best facial acting is wwx simply because it was fun watching him go from bright and smiley full of joy and life #to his descent into madness and grief and death #but i feel like lwj and jc really take the cake for opposite reasons #it was wild getting to the point in the show where i could easily read lwj's face #and it would be like how. barely anything changed. how do i look at this and know immediately that you are absolutely smitten #and then there's jiang cheng my love absolutely sobbing SO OFTEN #wzc seriously did so good conveying jc's range #i think about the miserable kicked puppy expression when jingyi accuses him of killing wwx So Often #it's so subtle on the first watch but on rewatch ohhh my god #speaking of i kinda wanna do a side by side comparison of wwx's two death scenes #the one in the first scene and the one much later #bc i know it's shot differently #but im also p sure it's acted differently #if i remember correctly jc looks more angry in the first scene #and more conflicted the second time #but i might be wrong

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killerpancakeburger · 9 months

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Not getting over the duality between when you meet Rugan for the first time and he plays the Big Bad Zhent, promising you that Zarys will have your head if you steal their cargo, threatening you to be sure you don't cheat him if you convince him to make a deal "the Black Network had eyes and blades everywhere", kinda showing off with "I'll tell my associates to expect you".

And when you reach their hideout and Zarys just fucking roasts him publicly non. stop. "YOU GAVE THEM THE PASSWORD??" "You have fire in you, if only Rugan was like that we wouldnt be in this situation". "The Zhentarim look out for one of their own - even if it’s Rugan."

She's really like "Yes Rugan is the moron of the crew urgh Im so done I will complain about him to every single person walking by"

#also the face he makes when zarys berates him 😭 hes so shocked and sad like a kicked puppy. like buddy what did u expect 😂#the duality of man #rambling into the void #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 rugan #rugan #she just hates him so much its funny #meanwhile im just like. stop kicking down my man. hes doing his best. well not really #but insulting him to compiment me wont make me ally with you ma'am

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dragons-and-yellow-roses · 9 months

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Me, while manically cleaning my room at 3:27am: I should make several large, life-changing, irreversible decisions.

#so ive been in a bad mental state lately #because of many things. but the biggest being (yes i know ive complained about this in multiple other posts)#that my best friend and my ex gf were fucking. without even asking or telling me. i got no heads up. just figured it out on my own #which sucked and now im not speaking to either of them #and when i first found out i was in a bad place physically too #i had a terrible ear infection that was so fucking painful #and i realized i could concentrate on both things. so i focused on healing #and then i remembered ny family is coming to visit for Christmas #and thats a lot to deal with. so now im focusing on cleaning the apartment. specifically my bedroom #so im manically cleaning at 3:30am while angry and stressed and trying not to focus on this thing that makes me really upset #and in the middle of cleaning ill suddenly think 'should i quit my summer camp job?' or 'should i move states again?'#its not good. but i havent acted on anything #AND in the middle of cleaning i found all of my meds #i havent been taking them for months. but i decided im gonna start taking them again #i have a few refills left but then ill have to find a psychiatrist. i dont want to. but its definitely for the best #im trying to get my life back on track and build and better it #but then something hits me and completely derails everything and makes everything so hard #so anyway im gonna go do some more cleaning and try not to make life-altering decisions. and maybe build a desk #btw i have to get up at 9am to take out my puppy. and at 11:35 i have to get ready for work. again its 3:30am #and im full of manic energy #tomorrow is going to be very bad but at least I'll have a semi-clean room

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bmpmp3 · 20 days

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ive mentioned before my like. fascination and incomprehensible attachment to mysterious ambiguously brown man characters in schlocky fantasy romance media marketed towards women and a lot of it is from like, a like. nearly anthropological standpoint as someone heavily interested in orientalism in narrative media from a visual culture and art historical point of view and a part of it is also from being mixed race and ambiguous IRL LOL BUT there is one other angle i havent really touched on thats on my mind a lot. you know that bit we all go through where someone reads something like mediocre and it sticks in their mind more than something well written? the "I COULD FIX THISSSS" curse..... im like this with ambiguously brown characters. holds loosely (LOOSELY) south asian coded love interest from some romance comic #8997485344534984875943 tenderly in my hands..... my brother i know you weren't written with this depth but i know the truth. i know about your complexities as you navigate this fantasy europe as a racialized man. i know your truth

#sorry im reading another villainess manhwa. its pretty good - villainess's stationary store or whatever the full name is #like the kids are adorable the main character is hilarious and its a fun comic. the comedy in it in general is some of the best #ive seen in a long strip comic for a while especially with how they play with the format #the characters are all great. but i am. of course. specifically obsessed with isaac #main love interest who doesnt even show up meet up with the mc for the first third.... talk about a slow burn #but i love him he is a normal man with something slightly wrong with him. black coffee with a single blueberry shot type of guy #BUT also his design is pretty south asian coded which is a welcome surprise in general but like. you know me. sees one cartoon brown guy #south asian brother??? west asian friend? southest asian bestie??? north african pal?? maybe even carribean family?????#(in the tone of new shoes? are those puppies new?) brown king? brown king? is that a brown king?#SURPRISINGLY they did actually point out how like. much he stands out in the cast like once or twice #but you know ive already grabbed him and put way more layers on him than he actually has. like unconciously LOL #kids loving him vs societal views of him... his success as like the Biggest Wizard vs him as a very visible minority #only in my minds eye as i read. but thats okay. sometimes thats what happens when you read enough pulpy genre fiction as i do <3

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hecksupremechips · 5 months

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Persona romance routes are all pretty bad but damn they really hit rock bottom with p3p femc route like the misogyny is very blatant and it’s almost hilarious like look at the Shinjiro romance. When you do his social link he’s like very clearly respectful of Kotone as a leader and explicitly says stuff like "oh yeah you’re clearly the best fighter we have, I don’t really know much about fighting like you do, I hope I’m not dragging you down, you’re doing a good job as leader just remember to take care of yourself, everyone looks up to you I know you can rely on them" etc. like he has faith in her leading abilities. But then when you romance him he’s like got dialogue like "bwah bluh i gotta look after you because you’re a GIRL and you need to stick by me, a big strong MAN so you don’t get hurt" and "don’t wear that revealing outfit in front of other guys 👺" and it’s like. Does he respect her or not and also like it doesn’t make sense for him to look down on her for being a girl cuz he literally has never not been led by a girl leader during his time in sees and Mitsuru in particular really has her shit together when it comes to being responsible and a good fighter and she’s always known the most about Tartarus

It’s also like. Idk maybe its just me I’m not a girl so FUCK IF I KNOW but to me the appeal of romancing Shinji is the fact that he’s sweet and sensitive and gentle and has respect for you despite the fact that he acts all scary. That’s like, what made me like this character in the first place. But the writers seem to think what women want is for a BIG STRONG MAN to protect them because they are just DELICATE WOMEN who are inferior in every way it’s like. Shut upppp thanks

#persona #persona 3 #shinjiro aragaki #this is soooooooo obviously not the only romance route that sucks in this game yall know which one im referring to 🤨#and i actually tend to think of the shinji romance as the best one in the series cuz at least his confession scene is the only unique one #that really highlights who he is as a character and goes with the story #but ughh just idk its so annoying how the writers cant decide if hes sexist or not its really weird and its like #really shows how poorly the writers think of women playing their game its like all the romance options are trash and then your boyfriend is #sexist to you and its so clearly done in a way thats supposed to be romantic which is. ew #like idk if my partner was like talking about how i need to stay close to them because im a weak girl and they are strong man #especially when im literally the leader of the team and have been doing perfectly fine thus far and am clearly the strongest here #id simply run him over with a bulldozer #and its like this will all the guys in this game its like girl shut up and eat glass #meanwhile when youre a male protagonist your gf will kiss your ass to the point its infuriating #and their character arcs can never be too grand cuz then they might not wanna fuck you if they realize they have worth #uh sorry my brain is all over the place basically i hate persona romances lol and i hate how they wrote shinji in his #like dammit i dont want him cuz hes gonna protect me like a man i want him cuz he isnt great at fighting and prefers cooking and puppy dogs #and has respect for me and trusts my judgement and asks me to talk about my life and interests and smiles sweetly #but god forbid a woman in this series be respected i guess

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grandmaestershibe · 14 days

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#me #my dog bono #and my cat violet #bono has been in my life for almost 12 years he is my best friend firstborn soulmate love of my life. he very much saved my life when i was #a depressed teenager and he still keeps me steady as a bipolar adult #recently he's started having serious health issues #a heart problem that has developed into a lung problem causing sincope #for the last few weeks he's been fainting has been lethargic and he seems sad #im afraid always afraid his time is coming soon #i remember the first night when o got him #i cried all night long thinking about how this moment would be #but it seemed so far away #he was a 4 m/o puppy #he had years to live #i was going to be at least 24 when he died #basically a whole life time away #but next month I'm turning 26 and he is just getting sicker and sicker #i honestly dont know what i will do when he passes #i wish so much that we had more time together but no amount of time would ever be enough #violet is still a baby #barely 3 y/o #a scardy cat and shy girl that likes scratches on her chin and ears #she has two dimples on her cheek and her nose is two colors #we don't know each other as well but i can feel everyday out bond strengthen #I love them both so much and don't know who I'd be without them #anyways #just something off my chest #personal #don't mind me im just feeling lonely even though thanks to them im never alone

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florida3exclamationpoints · 10 months

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Real question should I drop $300+ to visit my friend who I haven't seen since June even tho I don't have a job yet ,,,,

#bc like on the one hand i want to have a paycheck before i spend that much #but also once i do have a job it might be hard to get the time off #my therapist said hiring slows down during the holidays so it might be harder now anyway #she was kinda pushing me to go but also understood that its Expensive™ lol #bc i still need to save money to move . and im gonna move to live close to them #and its been months and i still dont have a job #but its been even more months that i haven't seen my best friend :(#AND her parents just got a new puppy!!!!!! i need to see the puppy!!!!!!!#but .... money :(

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stillcominback · 2 months

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#still around I promise!#life’s just been REALLY stacked 😮‍💨🤪 finding time for tumblr just isn’t there right now *cries*#between working on my small shop - looking for work and/or freelance work - and puppy mom life #it’s been a lot! lmao #if you like fandom merch check out my shop!! recently dropped house of the dragon and musicals are next!!#but I miss you all dearly and miss writing and all of this 🥲🫠#PLEEEEEASE PLEASE PLEASE hmu on discord or IMs to chat and plot or write! it’s easier for me than tumblr rn and I do really miss it!!#wishing you all the absolute best and sending a million big smooches! ❤️❤️❤️❤️#00. // OUT OF AMMO ( OOC POST. )

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shdwtouch · 5 months

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anxiety came out to play. ; ; paranoia just like, hey bitch. gonna go hide for a bit ♡ sending love to the dash !

#《 ° puffin.exe 》 im a puffin ! i dont do much #° mobile post !#° to be deleted !#me: -minding my own business-#my paranoia: hey people are talking shit about you. theyre spreading rumors and making people hate you. people hate you. dumb bitch.#me: oh. okay. i have no reason to believe you but im feeling anxious so you must be telling the truth.#me just putting good vibes into the universe. doing my best. constantly worried im somehow toxic or problematic.#and my brain is just convinced that im blacking out and kicking puppies so everyone hates me

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turigirl · 6 months

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ive decided i shall just Not sleep

#moo.txt #im really tired bht i dont. want to let myself sleep #i sont. deserve it #punishment. or whagever #sorry i really do feel bad venting on here all the time because im just forcing everyonr t #*to. well maybe not listen to me but at least look at my thoughts #instead of like just venting to one person or a server or whatever #but its not like i Have anyone to actually properly talk to #im everyones second choice At Best #and this probably sounds depressing but its not like im wrong. whenever i ppst this stuff i get self conscious but im just. saying it how-#-it is.#like yes im just burdening people but thats already what im fucking doing every minute of my life #i could say [REDACTED] and itd probably get ignored regardless so who cares at this point #ive tried so hard to push people away nobody understands. and i keep coming back like a fucking lonely puppy snd just hurting people more #i need to just be put down #i donf know what to do anymore i feel guilty when people dont talk to me i feel guilty when people DO talk to mw because either way its-#-a reaction to whatever ivs said on here typically #i dont Knkw whst i want anymore orher than [REDACTED]#maybe someday ill get angry enough and just stop censoring myself at all but at least right now i wkll #theres no winning with me because its like. i get sent a message About what ive said and i feel extreme guilt. i get sent a message thats-#-off topic and i feel extreme guilt. i dont get messaged at all and i feel extreme guilt #oh whatever im sitting here spiraling and writing a post that nobody except myself is gonna read least of all pay attention to #an extremely suicidal teenager what else is new.

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mdni · 6 months

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my husband btw guys

#HE IS SO PRETTYYYYYY MY HEADD MY MINDDDDD #I NEED HIM SO SO BAD !! SO FUCKING BAD ! IM GOING INSANEEE #I literally would do horrible horrible wretched illegal things just to spend a single night with him #please my head my mind #I would start wars for him I would walk into traffic for him I would boil a litter of puppies for him I would point a gun at my best friend #you don't even understand how many feelings I have for him I have done horrible things alone in my bedroom at night over him #stop looking at me I'm weak rn

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truthdarespinbottles · 7 months

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every so often my depression causes me to impulsively look up my ex best friend and ex boyfriend from high school a million years ago on Facebook and ya know? I always feel better about myself afterwards

#karma is my boyfriend karma is a god! karma's a relaxing thought aren't you envious that for you it's not!!!!!!#they said id be nothing without them ☺️ and my sources tell me they don't have anything really going for them #and like i dont want their lives to suck they're not TERRIBLE people #but i cant help but 🤭#ex best friend is on her second husband and we're 24/25 years old which isn't necessarily a bad thing #except one mutual friend of ours who only keeps tabs on the ex bff in order to get the tea says that this dude is as shitty as the last #and that he only married her bc shes pregnant #and ex boyfriend WAS engaged a year or so ago but she broke it off 👀👀👀#which is sad and all but he literally broke up with me out of the blue FIVE TIMES in high school then a few months later gave me puppy eyes #and asked to get back together again and me being a stupid teenager always said yes!#cause karma is the thunder rattling your ground 🤭🤭🤭#i have less info on his life but from what i do know he's not having a good time #meanwhile im married to a wonderful man and have a stable job i love

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teabookgremlin · 1 year

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really hate that any time someone seems slightly upset with me i cry

#like oh you’re taking to me slightly sternly? looks like im just gonna sob whether i like it or not #i always feel so bad for it like i promise i’m not trying to use tears to get my way i just naturally do this #this post is brought to you by my dad and stepmom trying to protect me from having more puppy raising issues but all it did was #make me feel like im making the wrong choice by deciding to keep puppy raising #like my stepmom in particular is really concerned that my next dog is gonna go how iris and justice went #and like i don’t know how to make her understand that a) me having two difficult dogs was just bad luck and #b) what is best for the dog may not be best for my feelings but that’s fine bc its not about me #like im already having a hard enough time letting myself be excited about this new puppy #bc im so scared that something’s gonna happen or that i’m doing something wrong #that my dad and stepmom trying to help me and urging me to discuss with trainers how the trainers will support me if something is hard #is making that anxiety worse #and is making me feel like continuing to puppy raise is the wrong choice even tho i know i need to keep doing this i’m just so drawn to it #and love it so much #and i know that they want to protect me but like they’re making me more stressed about shit

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