#im definitely so influenced by him
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had such a good time im going to think and smile to myself for the next two weeks
#talked to THE senior for first time oh my god i can try to act nonchalant but he's definitely something not the college trophy for nothing#im definitely so influenced by him#he's graduated now and i thought id never get to talk to him but i see him in person in starstruck more than ill ever be for any celebrity#my eyes keep looking at him all the time just to makeout what kind of person he is#and ofcourse hes just normal but thankgod i got to experience it#the confrence the people everything was so grand it makes you want to get better and bigger in person#and to remember how it feels like to speak again its a shame i don't do public speaking enough even after seniors asking me to do it#its so powerful i was so good at school and i know ive the potential for being a good orator no idea why im holding back#the only way for me to feel alive is to attend these conferences and talk to great personalities and realise how big the world is which can#seem so small when you're stuck at the same university between same hundred people#argghgff my heart is glowing bright red
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i think for me the unique difficulty in nailing the Stede Voice is partially that he does actually say things like “amongst” and “dramatic upsets” and “immoderate use of the citrus” in casual conversation except that they’re seamlessly woven in with things like “a whopper” and “yeah right” and “it was whatever” and striking that balance can be pretty hard
but the other thing is that a lot of his voice’s distinctiveness happens in the way rhys darby delivers his lines. i’m of the understanding that he’s done some voice acting work, so maybe that’s influencing his habits here, but stede’s speech is brimming with inflection, like, virtually all the time, even for lines in private one-on-one conversations that call for very low levels of energy
it creates the impression, to me, of someone giving a presentation on something they’re passionate about while acutely aware that the audience in front of them is losing interest. a kind of subtextual preemptive “i already know you think what i’m saying right now is stupid and useless, and that i’m stupid and useless, but! listen to me! listen to me! HEAR ME OUT!!!” like if he treats every word that comes out of his mouth as though it’s interesting and important, maybe his audience will consider the possibility that he’s saying something worth listening to. like going “MmMMm!” while making a show of eating a gross-looking vegetable in front of a kid who refuses to try it. actually, now that i think about it, his children were probably the first people in his life whose attention made him feel like he was actually being taken 100% seriously when he spoke. yeah i can see that coloring how he interacts with the crew at the beginning of the series
i had another point in here somewhere. hang on. btw for all my autistic stede trutherz i also see the exaggerated inflection as an element of his autism, yk what i mean
#its been over a decade since i read good omens and i havent seen the show so im definitely not being influenced by any aziraphale#but i HAVE noticed im often in danger of making him talk like bilbo baggins.
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i will cashapp $10 to the first person who can name 3 real life harmful things bob bryar did without accusing him of thought crime
#wordvomit#this isnt to say the things he said or thought are good or justifiable- just to point out that he never ACTED on them in any capacity#meanwhile he is being socially prosecuted to the extent as if he has. during such an awful time for his loved ones who are the only ones#who will be exposed to all this hate. possibly including the members of mcr#i understand thinking the things he said are sick and disliking him and being uncomfortable at the discussion but.#i dont understand how you can honestly morally justify half of the stuff people have been saying- like 'he deserved it' and whatnot#without contradicting the 'thoughtcrime isnt real' sentiment i see get thrown around so often ?#isnt the Overarching issue with conservatism as a whole not the idea of . moral purity and puritanism and#'everyone. everything and every idea ontologically different from mine and my communities-#they are objectively worse and i deserve power over them as retribution for what they've done'#ie colonialism. racism. yadda yadda#these are false comparatives bc discrimination based on unchangeable factors vs backlash to opinion is vry different but i still think#the core idea of 'no one who has not enacted harm deserves harm wished on them' kinda shines through it all#and there is a semantic debate to be had about the definition of harm but in this case i am using it to mean anything more Tangible#something that has a wider influence than 'the people who read/heard it were upset and uncomfortable' yea ?#im been waffling about this a lot and why it hasnt been sitting right with me as someone who is incredibly uncomfortable with a lot of his#final statements#it just reminds me so much of my dad and what ive watched him go through#as well as other people in my community during the pandemic#i cant disconnect myself from the humanity of that. especially while condemning him for lacking humanity
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just read the new mutants issue where Charles chose to stay behind in space and my god the juxtaposition between Charles trusting Erik and Erik joining the hellfire club and wondering at his own trust worthiness. I wonder how much of Charles decision was him ultimately trying to avoid the fact that his first class had seemingly betrayed mutant kind and not be willing to face them and how much of it was Dani and Illyana's reaction to him having Karma mind control Illyana. the fact that Illyana was depending on him to ease her mind through limbo and in choosing to stay he forced karma to do it instead, probably fucking up their relationship in the process.
I love him, this is crazy, how much of this is him trying to runaway and how much is this him not trusting himself to fix things and how much is it just him trusting Erik?
i keep trying to put into words my exact thoughts about the sitch but there really is a lot for one issue aintit... oh charles you and your brain...
#snap chats#thats why we have tag rambles AHAHA#ok so to tackle things one at a time charles ultimately deciding to stay in space despite his expressed want to return to earth#obviously it was when lilandra pointed out if her sister took charge of the shi'ar then the universe- earth included- would be in peril#charles notes his position as a losing one: whichever choice he makes he loses#he goes to earth then the universe could be at stake/he stays in space he loses his kids#of course charles COULD just put his faith in the starjammers but is that a risk he wants to take ? evidently not#charles' reoccurring flaw is he's willing to sacrifice personal relationships for the greater perceived good#even lilandra acknowledges this- that charles' homesickness for earth was an inevitability just as she is indebted to protecting the stars#so now his ruptured relationship with illyana and co- esp right after comforting a split illyana last issue#we've seen charles act more coldly/rashly when he's about to lose people (i think of his first death with the og5 mostly)#i mean it's a key part to charles' chara that he doesn't favor mind controlling others and im sure he has the same regard for his students#he's aware of the damage it can do and in this instance- for one reason or another- he orders it to be done regardless#im sure he does this as a form of defense: if his kids are upset with him they won't feel too bad about losing him and it'll be less painfu#obviously we still see sam wish charles farewell and wish for him to come back soon but yk.. worthy attempt..#and it's not as if charles wants them to hate him ENTIRELY.. he's still touched by sam's goodbye no.... fickle man he is..#i dont think charles is totally afraid to confront the og5- its what made him want to return to earth with the nms initially#tho again.. could his decision to stay in the stars be influenced by that? that maybe he ISNT prepared to confront them like he thought?#who's to say... not me i dont got that psych degree yet..#erik being charles' trusted confidant definitely made his decision easier on top of that: i mean is he needed if he has a substitute#i think charles DOES wholly trust erik: charles really doesnt approach his x-men half heartedly. from his pov ofc#if he didn't genuinely believe in erik's potential he wouldn't have picked him; hes a comforting thought when charles decides to depart#'although i'm gone erik understands me and my goals enough to continue my work as good as i would have so i have nothing to worry about'#which. yk. makes the whole White King thing kinda awkward VJAELVJEAKL charles you fool#i have no idea how this saga ends though... tbh im only on ish 45 of NM i just read 50 and 51 to get context for this ask#so i can only wait and see how this saga turns out... once i finish reading house of m/secret invasion stuff jvLKEJKA#idk im tired and rambling dont pay attention to me.. ramblin bout charles' brain is a good day for me regardless if i make sense jVLAJ
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- Why was Ryouga the only one immune to the Trinoid's attack? - Ryo-chan doesn't hate anyone or anything!
#it's scary how many screenshots i have of him. i edited even more caps but decided these are already enough. he's definitely my favorite#imagine you're a 23 year old—young adult who lost all your family except for your niece#so you selflessly decide you will be her dad/guardian. but no one taught you how to take care of a child. you're not sure if you're doing#the right thing for her. oh no mai chan is influenced by a bad TV program. it must be your fault for spending too much time with your#abaranger obligations and not enough time taking care of her. you must be a terrible father for mai chan. but even you are struggling#you picked up so many odd jobs and niche talents growing up just to survive. for the two of you. the apartment you lived? gone#during the bakuryuu attack. so now you're living under someone's shelter. yet you never lose hope patience and kindness for others#that extends to even the evil doctor who always gets in your way because you believe in the goodness in everyone#HAKUA RYOGA I LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH. i saw that poll asking if ryouga is the superior dilf. and while im not sure about the dilf part#no one surpasses ryouga for me! abared all the way!#hakua ryouga#伯亜凌駕#nishi koichiro#西興一朗#bakuryuu sentai abaranger#爆竜戦隊アバレンジャー
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hmmm hwon
#speaking.txt#trying to sort through how i feel about the whole situation im hoping rambling here will help#subjectively i don't feel much of anything regarding it all. if you know me you know that im generally emotionless so this is#not unique. objectively though i feel upset it got to this point. i think?#looking at the timeline of events without dates cuz i don't have them; rumors about him working at a host club start popping up#they spread. generally on the international side at least no one cares if this is true or not because whatever if he does#people notice that a lot of basic facts about the group in the posts are wrong so who knows if it's even true#gfent just announces they're taking legal action then silence. which i guess makes sense if they are pursuing legal action#america tour ends. more rumors about him having a partner start spreading. blows up. hwon is announced on hiatus for health#reasons. the general assumption is that the health reasons stated were mental health reasons given everything that was going on#silence about his condition for a few months. then one random morning his departure is announced for vague reasons#if it's his choice to leave then that's his choice to make. i hope he can live peacefully from here on out#but if it's related to all the rumors and stuff spreading one would think better artist protections with definitive statements about#everything would help some; no?#if there's one thing gfent is it's vague idk how many times they make clear statements on matters#and i get. that not everything in life is clear cut there's grey areas everywhere. but when it comes to the artist under your label#shouldn't you want to help them better? if the rumors were false be clear about that from the beginning. if you investigate and#they're true and they're harmful be clear about that. if they're true and not an issue be clear about that#i don't get why you'd say nothing the entire time about them which would probably really influence his choice to leave#i don't know him ill never know his reasons for leaving ill never know if gfent actually pursued legal action. and that's fine im a fan and#theyre a business at the end of the day but it's just so weird i guess. i do feel bad for hwon. and i will miss him in the long run i think#i just can't help but feel if everything was handled better it wouldn't have to come to this y'know#or if it did come to this it'd be more justified. or something idk
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(heartbreak high) that one babysitting format meme
but my fun lil spin on it
#heartbreak high#fyp#netflix#netflix heartbreak high#ok ill explain#quinni is the best out of all of them#makes schedules and everything; takes job very serious#amerie is an older sibling she's been babysitting for free#malakai probably is like “this is the next generation-- we have to raise them right”#ant kind of just lets the kids play fortnite with him#missy is rlly popular with the kids she babysits. the parents not so much#cash is scared of the kids. is genuinely afraid they'll shatter like a vase if he drops them from too high#jojo is the definition of wine aunt#harper gives older brother core energy but sister if that makes sense#also is shown to radiate big sis energy#dusty probably tries to act cool but probably just comes off lame#darren doesnt like kids. plain and simple#woodsy gives off strict elderly babysitter energy IM SORRY#sasha is just rlly lame. probably makes kids go to bed rlly early so she can just goof off so comes off as mean#fuck chook#spider is self explanatory#cash's nan may seem jarring but im not sure she seems like the type to secretly be a bad influence
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my zatanna is transfem btw
#shes stated as unlabeled in my carrd bc i have my own thoughts on homo magi gender & sex and i cant like...#put all of that into my one-line bio so shes unlabeled (which she'd say herself if u were to ask!) bc its the most accurate to her feelings#but ill always be associating the trans(/fem) flag w/ her bc its also true#need to write that homo magi thing out tho dont i...long sigh.#that means it has to be coherent and i cant end it with “u get me?”.....longer sigh#me saying that is not in anyway implying that ill work on it any time soon whatsoever btw#just take note that i will write my own origin & general identity for the homo magi. it might take canon influences but yeah#giovanni is definitely a man who had homo magi blood in him but was raised in modern society and norms and therefore expectations and such#he worked to wield and harness magic as a tool (while he still appreciated it its different than direct descendants!)#while sindella has a more larger connection and life to magic itself being a direct descendant. love the idea of being made of magic!!#has a natural synchronization with magic/energy/soul/etc and its own way of enlightenment#they had managed to fall in love which is so sweet but they experience the life of magic completely differently!#zee has a natural disconnection from gender norms & such due to sindella but she still GREW UP in modern society w/ gio#homo magis have an innate agenderness to them perchance......idk wtf im saying im high as bawls#either way untuck queen xoxo
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The themes of abuse in this one are so ????
#what the actual shit#besides shahra obvious betrayal there are so many layers to this im s o#normal rn#erazor's influence on the world & how shahra constantly belittles herself against him even when he's not there#shahra apologizing over & over whenever she has the chance. shahra constantly blaming herself & feeling guilty & incompetent#Sonic's promise to her & how it isn't just about saving her world no it's about making her smile#allowing her to be happy outside of erazor's control#Sonic uplifting her spirit & being so supportive & how she receives his positivity with such strangeness & unease#the way she's STILL sad about losing erazor by the end cuz the connection she had to him was REAL it wasn't just some sort of mind control#or magic bond#she LOVED HIM & she was upset to lose him even after all the bad things she did & IT MAKES SENSE#IT'S NATURAL#and it won't be easy to deal with the truth that losing him is BETTER FOR HER#and that's why Sonic wants her to cry as much as she wants becuz he knows it's going to be hard#and im way too emotional over this#shahra was definitely a victim of abuse & if not deliberately then the metaphor for it#gang what the FUCK
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hey what if i just started tmnt posting. what then
#tmnt#i just rediscovered a tmnt au i made when i was 13 and now im obsessed again#its a fan continuity <3#but i grew up with tmnt 2012 so that definitely influenced it#and as much i hate bayverse theres also parts of that#i havw yet to watch rottmnt and im not rlly interested but who knows#might check it out in the future. but im not a fan of how everyone’s characterized#i could NEVER not love any iteration of mikey tho so i might watch it for him <3
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realizing that it sounds kind of mean for me to be referring to this fic as the “cringe loser” fic if you don’t have the extensive lexicon i’ve created in my head for the lengthy opinion essay i haven’t written about how most people don’t actually want “good” autist-rep, they want “cool” rep even at the expense of ‘accuracy’. just believe me i say “cringe loser” with the highest degree of absolute affection
#N posts stuff#brief overview is: abed is generally one of the only characters i see lauded as Good rep#but there’s no way to quantify his representation in a way that successfully singles him out in the convo#ie; people claim it’s Good bc Harmon is autistic — doesn’t hold up bc post-music sia now touts a diagnosis#so either you think she’s lying for obscure internet clout OR having an autisticwriter in the room isn’t The Thing that makes it work#‘if they would hire autisticactors tho’ but that doesn’t hold up either bc abed is portrayed by an allistic man#and when that MH cartoon with the autistic character dropped people immediately started mocking the voice acting#even tho she was played by an autistic actress. so that also doesn’t hold up#so what differentiates abed?#shaun murphy is ‘cringe’ bc he talks weird and has meltdowns#and wendy please stand by is ‘bad’ bc she lives in a group home#and attorney woo is ‘embarrassing’ bc she has motor skill issues and makes odd facial expressions#and the MH girl is ‘childish’ bc she talks weird#etcetera and so on. so why is abed different? i don’t know if his portrayal Is significantly different#i think he just ‘looks cooler’ than these other characters so people like him more#the deficits he has are usually throwaway jokes instead of things that are given narrative weight. so you can ignore them if you want#and if you wanted to argue that the Narrative of the show is what makes a difference then i would also disagree with you#bc abed is pretty extensively mocked in the show. a lot of his autistic traits are just the punchlines of jokes about his characters#(i mean every character on the show is so at least abed isn’t single out but i wouldn’t exactly call it Respectful)#and if you argue that it’s good bc it’s ‘unintentional’ bc harmon didn’t know he was autistic at the time#then i’d point out that abed is made the punchline of an autism joke within his first five minutes on screen#so they knew Enough about what they were doing to make him the joke. so i don’t believe that holds water either#anyway the argument doesn’t cumulate in the opinion that any of these shows are definitively Good Rep#bc the notion of Good Rep is so shakily defined that it’s hard to quantify and also a lot of the examples i chose aren’t like#‘good’ narratively even if i like the characters so im not arguing that they’re better or worse than community or whatever#it really is just an argument about people wanting things to look ‘cool’ more than they want it ‘real’#and that’s why you see autistic influencers literally bullied off social media by other autistic people for acting ‘cringe’ by.. stimming#and that’s it. bc they didn’t look Cool Enough when they did it#so i think we desperately need to embrace Cringe Losers bc i think the Cool factor is a bad one to measure by
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do you think Leo is a misogynist
nope and i'm not just saying that because he's my favourite character. calling leo a misogynist is just objectively ridiculous; the most "misogynistic" behaviour he ever exhibits is flirting awkwardly and thinking of himself as a casanova but even then when he gets put in his place it's not like he gets angry or violent or even all that upset. it's clear that his flirty behaviour is just another coping mechanism that can manifest negatively like, say, his bullying frank. he's best friends with piper, is intimidated by annabeth, and becomes close with hazel and reyna. all characters with which he has completely normal and meaningful interactions with. frankly i don't get at all how people see him as some raging misogynist—the most he has is a minor sexism problem that is typical of most teenage boys, one that even percy has.
tldr; no. nothing leo does is ever that serious.
#leo valdez#heroes of olympus#this is an ask with suspiciously good timing considering what i saw on twitter today#which i think ill post about actually. just to be a hater.#anyway yeah nothing leo does in hoo is ever bad enough to be classified as misogynistic#the most his behaviour does is slightly aggravate the girls#and he doesnt have any inherent discriminatory beliefs about women#compare that to for example sylva1n—another character i love who is most definitely more of a misogynist#HIS actions actually result in far more serious consequences compared to just annoying girls slightly#(the women he dates actually get emotionally toyed with and hurt)#and HE actually has beliefs about women that are hurtful (though he admits that its nonsensical)#but those beliefs influence his actions and how he treats women around him#now leo? doesnt do either of those things. of course because its not the point of his character like it is to sylva1n's#so consequently its just not something about leos character to. yknow. worry about.#like i said: at most he's just got a case of the teenage boy flirt combined with “whoa strong women exist?”#but the idea that he actually hates women is. laughable lmao.#ricks not capable of writing that kind of protagonist#anyway anon i am SO sorry for this rant. holy shit.#i even threw a fire emblem character into the mix im sorry fksjsks#in my defense you asked me about LEO VALDEZ and also im a sylva1n liker so i have lots of thoughts about misogyny in characters#but yknow apologies are due anyway 🙏 forgive me#ask#thanks for the ask :]#riordanverse#meta
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concept: ouat peter pan being forced to “babysit” disney peter pan and the cgi peter pan
#this would be hilarious trust me. he would go insane i’m sure.#maybe he’d even enjoy it a little because he is also pretty childish but like only for a while eventually his murderous side would shine#through and the other two would end up fighting probably. idk if they would lose or win tho#bc he does technically have magic and i don’t remember him ever being shown fencing which the other two definitely can but they don’t have#magic (except for the ability to always fly) (technically the cgi pan can also influence the neverland weather but that only matters if its#his neverland that they’re in (if they’re in neverland at all) so im not counting that)#anyway i want to watch this tbh#moi#fandoms#neverland#peter pan#once upon a time#ouat#ouat peter pan#peter pan ouat#the new adventures of peter pan#cgi peter pan#disney peter pan#crossover#bonus points if the 3 different tinkerbells go on an outing together as a b-plot#oh and fuck it the 3 hooks will meet as a c-plot. (early) ouat and disney hook would team up and probably kill or capture cgi hook and then#ouat hook and disney hook would also turn on each other. i think ouat hook would win probably but i wouldn’t bet on it#also the wendys could meet in a d-plot (sorry for this amount of plots) and the cgi and disney wendy would be super confused why the ouat#wendy doesn’t like pan until she actually tells them why and then i think cgi wendy would go full mom-friend-protective mode with disney#wendy comforting ouat wendy and cgi wendy would want to get second hand revenge probably. in a wholesome way bc of the whimsyness of that#show but still yk? she would not just let that stand.#also the smees might as well meet too. ouat smee would at first be an outisder but they’d possibly get along eventually
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“So, what’s the prognosis, Doc? Am I gonna live?” lyney @ lynette he's stupid you are allowed to bully him (affectionate) | @unknownths
"The probability of your survival just dropped 5%." Lynette deadpans, staring at her brother, unblinking, while finishing wrapping a bandage around his leg. Her ear flicks as she finally drops her gaze, pushing his leg off of her lap.
"You need to be more careful." She knows better than to think this will work, but she can't help herself. "There are major arteries in the thigh. If that glass had cut you a little higher, you really could have died." It's unlikely, Lynette knows that. But it's just a brush too close with something serious that sets her heart off to the races, panicking just at the thought of losing Lyney to something like that.
She turns, busying herself with repacking the first aid kit to stash in the greenroom again.
"We do plenty of life-threatening work for Father. We don't need to take any undue risks elsewhere."
#immediately following the fontaine aq i think she's v jumpy about lyney#and about making sure he's safe and okay#feels Too Close to losing him part 2: electric boogaloo and she's Not a fan#im just imagining a trick going sideways in rehearsal with some shattered glass cutting his leg#and lynette is being SO normal about it and definitely has NO unprocessed trauma#that could POSSIBLY be influencing her reaction#writing | lynette#unknownths
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1:30am. plagued by thoughts of michael and everything going on in his tiny 10-13 year old head :(
#like obviously. problems and issues then on and before SKDJFMG#but yeah while a lot of his behaviors as a young teenager are influenced by home life (ranging based on portrayals but i always make sure#it’s got similar roots and feelings) as well as social standing a LOTTTTT OF IT is very extremely tied to mental illness that did not get#acknowledgement or treatment.. that was the age his very intense depression started to come in Swinging along with increased anxiety/panic#and. neurodivergence is still a greyer area because it’s definitely there in the way i write him but how it mixes with ptsd#(plus the question of how much of that is just. Me LMAO) always has me ??? about making the call i’ve talked about this#BUT YOU GET THE POINT THERE’S A LOT!!!#he’s gutwrenchingly depressed and in pain and has been TAUGHT by observance and emotional neglect and [insert other aftonisms here] to Bury#that and is so convinced his emotions are a sign of weakness and That’s Why He’s Not Good Enough so he compensates however he can#and there’s no excuse for what it snowballs into but ohh my god JUST GET THAT BOY ON SSRIS#he didn’t even have the words for so much of it but there were so many aspects of himself that he was utterly convinced made him wrong#his actions become as drastic as they do because it’s EVERYTHING around him reinforcing the root problem#how am i supposed to sleep when im sick about him#⁂ ・゚: i was looking for a job‚ and then i found a job‚ and heaven knows i’m miserable now ➛ ooc
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Been on a major skyrim kick so here's my skyrim guy! My sneaky wizard with every disease <3
#his name is nirith beloth and he has lived in skyrim (windhelm) since his early teens#parents sent him there because it eas the closest place without tons of smoke and ash#and he has breathing problems so that was An Issue#he went from sickly kid always reading books to sickly adult who searches for forbidden knowledge#armor: dust adept armor. mod is just called dust adept armor iirc#setting for the images is tel jerdain which is the telvani wizard tower home from the mod tel jerdain#both very easy to find and nice mods i like them a lot#he loves books a lot he will always help the college librarian find books in dangerous locations#(also he will be collecting the black books he just does not know that yet)#he mostly worships azura at this point but Hermaeus mora is definitely calling to him#i use the mod that lets you actually follow a diety#and i technically have him as a follower of Hermaeus mora rn. but im trying to rp it as he still considers himself a follower of azura#and still prays to her#and thinks the boons about knowledge are just her giving him knowledge for the future#and the eldritch texts hes finding are just odd pages hes collecting because hes a book collector#he doesnt know its moras influence yet#undescribed#skyrim
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