#im crying over hands again
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Another hand analysis no one asked for but NANON KORAPAT DELIVERED and I must acknowledge.
Let's begin!
His hands literally never leave Pat's arms once the arm is over him. The grip never loosens. There's almost an assistance to when Pat shifts closer to make sure that they both are stable.
[Love is stored in lingered touches and pushing someone to be closer to you]
And then
He's tickling but his elbow doesn't let go of the arm across his chest. (he even squeezes it) He's also hiding his face while laughing even when Pat's eyes are closed which is such great body language to deliver "yes you know the way i breathe but I'm shy because it tickles". it portrays with such simple ease that they both are in love and accustomed to each other but they are also in love and vulnerable and so Pran still gets shy.
[He may be a feral hoe in the beds but outside the bed he's the babygirl we all wish we could be]
Lastly, and I will actually set myself on fire for this,
The way Pat's wrists have to twist with so much Work that its clear that Pran's grip is tight and stable while he caves in. PRAN CAVED IN. He proved, with his HANDS, that there never was resistance to begin with. He will never cave in for Pat because in Pran's world, there's no competition to begin with. He loves Pat. He loves Pat. He loves Pat.
The words show Pat caving in but the Body language shows Pran never even put up a fight.
#im crying over hands again#bad buddy#bad buddy brain rot#bad buddy our skyy 2#pat x pran#bad buddy text posts#love language: hands
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trying to cope </3
#mha#bnha#my hero academia#boku no hero academia#bakugo katuski#izuku midoriya#deku#mha season 7#bnha season 7#bakudeku#bkdk#dkbk#dekubaku#mha s7#bnha s7#mha spoilers#bnha spoilers#mha fanart#bnha fanart#bakudeku fanart#bkdk fanart#fanart#artists on tumblr#digital art#art#cryiling art#all these tags got me feeling like user aejiee again ajdhskfn#yall i freehanded deku's expression and bakugo's hand without a reference R U PROUD OF ME 😫#guys im. goig to htrow uppppp UGHHHHH THEY MAKW ME SO SADDD#i need deku crying over bakugo's corpse like asap. im going to scream oughhhhh
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strangling
#my art#arcaea#hikatai#hikaritsu#tairitsu#hikari#mmmm angst yuri#i want to see tempest cry too#she’s still a foolishly hopeful girl at heart tbh#shouting at hikari to die over and over again…#but it devolves into tears again as she realizes even now she cant bring herself to kill her…#(it may very well be arcaea’s own written fate stopping her from being able to#but she had hoped she could change that fate… but her hands loosen anyway… will alone couldnt change anything then#and her will to live here is just as powerless… how weak…)#ahhh ‘why do i have to die?’#tears falling onto hikari’s face too#: PPP i want girlcry…#im delusional…#girlcry
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Daily reminder that at fifteen, Chuuya had bigger hands than Dazai.
#holy fuck im crying#this is so cute???#IM NEVER GETTING OVER THIS AHHHHHHHHH#now i need the two to hold hands again to make a comparison#im biased towards chuuya being smaller but buffer than dazai lol#bungou stray dogs#bsd#bungou gay dogs#bsd manga#bsd 15 manga#bsd 15#bsd fifteen#dazai osamu#osamu dazai#bsd dazai#chuuya nakahara#bsd chuuya#soukoku#bsd soukoku
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Soup's ramble about small details because im going insane lmao
rockstar row is just such a cruel place for GlamFreddy, Like, first of all, are the FNAF 4 toys on display in the RR museum,
These are literally just CC's toys, idk if they're replica's or the real ones, but like why would they even put that on display lmao??? It may just be a fun easter egg but like this just comes across as if saying "yeah, here's the toys of the child that one of out animatronic killed lol" And that's not even starting to how they even PROCURED these???
At the far end of RR is the Ennard cardboard cutout, which may just be a piece of decor that i'm looking into too much but like if its not, then this implies that Fazbear Entertainment KNOWS about Ennard. As to how, I'm not sure, maybe since the games are cannon because of the "rogue indie developer", they came to know of Ennard's existence, does that mean they know what he did to Michael? and if so, they STILL made a cut out of him???? Is this one of those instances where a company "pokes fun" at itself in order to seem hip and cool?? because that's so messed up lmao 😭😭😭 do you think when Glamfreddy sees the cutout he has a visceral flashback to…something....and suddenly he's on the floor, just unable to move because he's reliving that something, and then he's just panicking for what ever reason and just shuts down windows XP style and has to manually be transferred back into his green room.
Its almost cruel in a way how Rockstar Row is basically just a MUSEUM for all of Michael's trauma and failures, and he probably can't even ignore it because he probably has to keep his greenroom curtains open 24/7 to ensure that guests can see GlamFreddy, and the fact that the Foxy cutout is directly parallel to his greenroom AND THATS NOT EVEN TO *BEGIN* WITH THE PLUSH BABY'S, IMAGINE IF GLAMFREDDY WAS FACED WITH A SITUATION WHERE HE HAD TO SIGN HIS AUTOGRAPH ONTO A PLUSHIE THAT IS OF THE ROBOT THAT KILLED HIS SISTER ALL THOSE YEARS AGO, Its so crazy how FazEnt just....makes merch of all the tragedy?? And profits from it, and GlamFreddy/Glammike just has to....endure that??? Like just constantly having your trauma being put on full display all around you is so so messed up 😭
I'm not okay 😭😭😭😭😭😭
#glammike#glamrock freddy#michael afton#michael afton my beautiful pookie#Soup goes bonkers over Michael Afton again#I have a whole theory that william coming back is a allegory to how companies will never let tragedies truly die#so long as they can profit and make money out of it#and ngl I think this post kinda just adds to that lol#Its so messed up how there's just an ennard cutout#like im sorry but thats gotta be so rough on Michael 😭#OUHHHHH FAZBEAR ENTERTAINMENT WHEN I GET MY HANDS ON YOUUUU!!!#imagine seeing the toys of your dead little brother in which you accidentally killed on display#and seeing a cutout of the robot that killed you when you tried to save your sister's soul ALSO on display#and then seeing PLUSHIES of the robot that KILLED your sister being SOLD#im not okay lmaoooo#fnaf#five nights at freddy’s#fnaf security breach#ennard#crying child
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Asks for any of the Oniyanagi you want to answer these questions for! (I can't think of Nami middle infirmary boy's name but him especially!)
🌾- How does this oc get along with people they just met?
🍀- Around when does this oc get up in the morning?
❄- What is this oc's favorite and least favorite food?
Hi Muffin! Thank you for sending this in hehe I'll be answering this for Hiyori (Sun Guardian & infirmary boy XD) and Shiki (Cloud Guardian)!
I don't get to draw them a lot compared to the trio, so I decided to color my sketch for them being a little bitch to e/o (Shiki started it tho). Colors subject to minor changes like the exact shade lol like Hiyori's hair is supposed to be pink why does it look purple-ish in my other screen what the hell
How does this oc get along with people they just met?
Hiyori: Even before the main story started in Daily Life Arc, he has always been a blunt but polite & hardworking honor student who's well-liked by teachers and fellow students alike. He gets along with people with basic human decency and respect if there's really no reason to be mean to them. But he won't be the one to usually reach out just to socialize.
Fast forward to when he gets dragged by KanaRumi to being involved with all this yakuza business --- If he senses the smallest bit of "not being normal" towards someone he just met, he's definitely judging you. He thinks KanaRumi and their guardians are all freaks, and he's the only normal one lmao (he also started swearing a lot because of them)
Shiki: Shiki has a preference for hanging out with people he looks up to. His criteria are those who he thinks are cool and are extremely talented/skilled at what they do. So the first thing he does when meeting someone is to judge them on whether or not they're someone who fits those criteria 😭😭
If they fit, he's very nice and polite with them. If you're in the upper ranks (yeah...he ranks them...), it would like he's a kid interacting with his favorite superhero ro some shit like that. If they don't fit, good luck because he's going to be very mean to you.
Around when does this oc get up in the morning?
Hiyori: As the most normal person in the Oniyanagi guardians (😭😭😭), he gets up at around 6AM in the morning. He even follows a morning routine before going to school, which includes doing light exercises and going for a short jog, since he really wants to maintain his health. He aspires to be a doctor, so what good would it be if he, himself, is not in good health?
Shiki: If it's a school day, then he tries his best to wake up at around 6-7AM. But the problem is that, he often spends his nights either gaming/streaming or going on missions, so he wakes up later than expected. If it's not on a school day or if his health issues start flaring up, he wakes up at around noon (earliest) or afternoon(latest).
What is this oc's favorite and least favorite food?
Hiyori: His favorite food is...his mom's cooking (🥹💖✨✨✨ Hiyoriiinnn what a good boy ueueueue). His least favorite food are spicy foods, as well as Kurumi and Bianchi's cooking. He thinks they're all health hazards.
Shiki: His favorite food is "any instant food", from instant noodles, convenience store food to canned goods, as long as its tasty enough. Anything that can be prepared on the go, because he thinks he has other better things to do (gaming) than to spend a long time cooking a balanced meal. His least favorite food are the stale and tasteless ones they serve you at the hospital.
#khr#khre#khr oc#oc#oniyanagi#oc ask#yukimura shiki#tenma hiyori#einart#why is one of their few colored arts is them being mean to e/o damn good thing i didnt include minato 😭#dw guys this is normal in oniyanagi family 👍✨ kanarumi has everything under control (hopefully)#hiyori is the smallest in oniyanagi 10th gen with a height of 152cm lmao#yuirumi (sometimes kana) breaks into his house to have a sleepover in there against hiyori's will#hiyori's parents cry tears of joy because they think he finally has close friends to have sleep over with#he keeps telling them they're yakuza but they think he's joking#on the other hand shiki acts all high & mighty but he's pathetic#wait where's the sketch i had of him again#i need to find that#shit if im gonna yap this much i shouldve just made a separate wtf
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uncle nina has a very long sixteen hr+ long flight ahead of her and the only thing getting me through is that i know when jerseykyle goes through tsa and has to whip his belt and his sweater off lookin like a 6ft tall gorgeous long haired ginger supermodel people almost start cryin
#;nina speaks.#the way i would throw my wallet like a javelin dude#i would have a heart attack#i knlw people are just staring at him like…Wow.#they always stop his fine ass too n have to frisk him#and i know he gives them a hard ass time#like wooow! what was it my nose…my last name?#im sorry is this an airport? is this america?#or is this auschwitz? hm?! Quickly!#talking fast as hell in the jersey accent#with the vein in his neck standing out and his slacks sliding down his sharp ass hipbone#like trying to put his hair up with one hand and throw a punch with the other#and that tsa lady just pulled him aside to admire him#like sir i have no idea what you are saying but you are the finest man i have ever seen#like i know he whips off the belt lightning quick like it’s magic mike and takes off the lumpy argyle sweater#and puts his hands behind his head and the entire tsa light up stops to cry and throw up#wish that were me#meanwhile they’re like…ur *squints* raven of crimson dawn…are u Sure sir?#like aahHhahaahHa! yep uh regrettably unfortunately that’s me do u want to see#the butterfly tramp stamp tattoo i got when i was 18 bc yeah uh…it’s still there…And Blue#jk they fly him privately everywhere and he looks like a racoon u pulled out the dumpster but…A Cute….Racoon…</3#with his eyeliner all over his face and his hair in five hundred directions like im so sorry where are we again#like *hungover* *tired* *hiccup* gooood morning -looking at eyeliner writing on hand- yugioh-slovakiaaa~ *peace sign*#legends and icons both of them
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some very very quick costume shorthands!
#&juliet#had the absolute luck of watching this live the other night and it was. truly amazing!!! aaah#rough character designs for the younger leads (excluding like the Grown adult duos..) because?? idk#this is how it always starts. once the character designs start getting simplified like this that's when it all begins#which is hmmm timing but i really can't shut up about this musical it was so so fun. absolute vibes and energy#made me laugh and cry and was such an Experience. i adore them all but may specifically made me sob at some parts dfjkldfh#lots of thoughts! but one of the favs is how they wrote it so the existing songs and actions fit so well.#like in a rhyming bit they had frankie accept a drink and then the song was like ''drink in hand'' and i was all !!!!!!#also maybe it's local censorship? but there wasn't the kisses.. they replaced it w kissing hands and then holding hands#which is like a cute nod to the ''hand to hand holy palmers kiss' or smth but also maybe two guys doing that would not have made it past :/#oh my god i. the way rnj parallels the shakespeare duo... whdskjfhgh. may + not being a Girl kdjhgf. frankie and may. aaagh.#angelique being so so badass. i . the speech about Gender by anne and the Proposal by angelique both made the whole theatre cheer love that#also rotating stage lives in my mind rent free i ADORE the set holy moly.. also also the actors were so good. also the Projections.#also the music and costumes and special effects and aerial moments. and the ensemble. and the choreo#also the cast is so talented. and pretty. and the whole confidence part vs the vulnerability of some bits... whshjfgjkl. hhh#im just listing stuff now but it was so vibes. what an experience ever. it's also shot me directly into 14-years-old again so#spent the morning alone vibing to the soundtrack intensely... i just... sometimes things hold special places in your heart idk!!!#i don't know what to do with these designs though... like the show is such a lovely Spectacle but also idk where to branch out by myself no#there's so much to Absorb again and again. i get the feeling any true work from this i would do in a form of an animatic though.. oops#tldr? 1. &juliet very good just as itself 2. we have History 3. i got to see it live which always propels me into bonkers over musicals!#so so rough but i needed to get smth out and . whatever. an art blog is an art blog. back to hiatus now i think#<reminder to myself: this is essentially an artchive.. there's no quality control if you don't want it! have fun!! ily>
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Moze was known for being sneaky and basically invisible, since barely anyone sees him while he sees everyone and everything. It might be creepy to think about, but this didn't intimidate you at all. Rather the opposite - this was one of the reasons why you became interested in him.
But your beloved would've never guessed that you can be the sneaky type too. At first, you sneaked into his heart slowly and carefully - and now you are sneaking sweet little messages on sticky notes everywhere he could see them.
Be it in his lunchbox, in his trouser pockets, on his daggers,.. everywhere he would find a sweet message like “Remember that you are so, so loved by me, Moze! ❤️” which he certainly wasn't used to seeing, but he didn't mind it in one bit.
He actually adores it and they became one of his favorite parts of the day - besides the part where he would see you.
So don't be surprised when you find a sticky note with the message “I love you, Evie.” one day too, and of course - he would've sneaked it into your lunchbox, too while watching your reaction in the shadows, slightly smiling to himself.
~ 💐 (18th door of the advent calendar)
#彡 inbox.#彡 cherishing.#🐦⬛🐕 .#彡 💐!#dresvi !!!!!!!!! ]: where would i even start?! the entire thing you’re doing - dropping by everyone’s inboxes is so sweet itself!! T T you#are full of so much kindness and everything you post gives me so much warmth n happiness waaa — which im sure is the case for everyone else#who has crossed paths with you!! thank you for doing such a sweet thing ): i appreciate this more than i could ever put into words!! but i#do have a thing for word dumping anyways — so i will do my best to convey my gratitude of course!! 🥹 holding this so dearly to my heart as#i type out this mass of text bahahhaa aaaaaa T T im in such disbelief HANSJD YOURE SO SWEET HELLO???????? DRESVI!!! T T !!!!!!#HIS STEALTH COMING OFF AS COOL IS SO VALID !!!!! i think it is very fun rather than scary …. the things you could do!! T T you could call#out to the void & say something concerning — watch as he emerges from the shadow to double check if what he heard was right bahhaha there is#much to experiment with !!!! what draws mr moze out of hiding 🎤 where does shadow moze like to go 🎤 much to learn!!! HEY!!! THE SNEAKING#INTO HIS HEART??? 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 WAAA SJSNMSKKD AAAAAAA TO BE PERCEIVED BY HIM 🥹🥹🥹🥹 IM BEYOND SPOILED WITH THIS SENTENCE DRES!!! T T !!! I LOVE U!!!#the notes becoming one of his favorite parts of the day ))))): i will start sobbing into my hands )))))): TO DO ANYTHING FOR HIM IS SUCH A#TREAT AJANSNSMX )))): I WILL BE SURE TO DECORATE THEM NICELY!!! WITH LOTS OF HEARTS AND SPARKLES AND DOODLED CROWS — CROWS WITH THE RED#RIBBON HE HAS ON HIS OUTFIT !!! CROZE (MOZE CROW) IF YOU WILL ….. DRESVI YOU WRITE HIM SO CUTELY IM SO ??????? FAVORITE PART ??? )))):#HE GAVE ME A NOTE BBBBAAAAAAAACKKKKKKKKKK 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 SOBBING INTO MY HANNNNDNSNSSSS HES SO PRECIOUS 😭😭😭#WATCHING FEOM THE SHADOWS )): HE SEES ME SQUEALING ONE SECOND AND HICCUPING AND SNIFFLING THE NEXT???#WOULD HE SEE ME TUCK HIS NOTE INSIDE MY PHONE CASE ): SNIFFLE ????? OMG T T DRESVI#lightly smiling to himself (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ)♡ please dresvi (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ)♡ im not strong enough to imagine (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ)♡ such a sweet image in my head (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ#him smiling (ㅠ‸ㅠ) at my embarrassing reaction (ㅠ‸ㅠ) UUUUHRHEHEHHDH )))))): ))): !!!!!!!!! T T !!!!!!!!#IF SUCH A THING EVER HAPPENED I WOULD FORGET THE NOTES THE NEXT DAY !!!! ITS REAL TALKING TIME — SPRINTING AND HUGGING AND SOBBING INTO HIS#CHEST ASKING WHY HES SO PRECIOUS TIME — BUT ALAS I WOILD BE TOO EMBARRASSED SO PERHAPS I COULD JUST SIT NEAR HIM AND CRY INTO MY KNEES ALL#DAY 😭😭😭😭 THANK YOU AGAIN OH MY GOD im sorry i have typed out so much!!!! it is just too cute T T !!! YOURE SO SWEET UHEJJJJN IM LATCHING#ONTO UR LEG THANKING YOU A MILLION TIMES OVER ))): SNIFFLE
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if pregnancy and birth sounds so abhorrent to you that the only way you could feasibly do it is by getting paid obscene amounts of money and getting a ~nice and easy c-section~ you'll be shocked to know that it's literally a major abdominal surgery that cuts through 7 layers of your body that you're completely awake for and feel every part of sans some numbing tho js
#SURROGATES THIS ISN'T ABOUT YOU I LOVE YOU ACTUALLY#also my pregnant moot who i love and will not name don't let this scare you tho!!#if you do need a csec it's over in like 10 mins and then they hand you a baby and it's amazing and you don't even think about it#an hour after i was chilling with bébé eating fast food and sippin a huge beverage lmao#i was little shell shocked since it was an emergency after 24 hrs of labor to be fair and couldn't imagine getting another one at the time#but now months and months out im like#hell yeah i'd do it again for another one of these little beans they're incredible#these lousy 'csections are the easy way out' takes grind my gears fr tho#said by ppl who probably can't even get novocaine at the dentist w/o crying#~mommy blogging~#i guess??#pregnancy tw
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pov the rat finally allowed themself to read the last update from Your Own Guardian
#op if you're out there. please please please please please please please please come back please#I HAVE TO READ IT AGAIN. I HAVE TO. I HAVE TO#ive been crying on and off about this fic to the trine bc it's just. oh my god. ouguhhghhhhhghhhh#reading this fic has just been me getting handed the gift of falling in love with Blitzy all over again im so serious#it's literally so perfect. everything about it is so perfect. it's a gift and i need more so bad#op if you are out there PLEASE COME BACK /nf#it was written For Me istg it's literally so exactly in character in my perception#oughughhuhhghhhhghghghghghghghhhhhh#i need to go cry about it again#ratkingrambles
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My parents got a new car and I honestly can't stand it. There are no buttons and dials and switches. There's no cd player and no radio either. Everything's digital and screens and Bluetooth. There isn't even a key to turn, it's all wireless and touchless and awful. I miss my dad's rusty blue pickup truck with its cd player and visible ventilation and falling down ceiling and all the dials and knobs and switches and buttons and DIALS!! DIALS!!!!
#whats the joy of a car is you cant touch it and hear it click and turn#i want to drive that truck. i want a car thats small and rounded-rectangle with a cd player and a radio and DIALS SO MANY DIALS AND BUTTONS#AND SWITCHES AND THINGS THAT GO CLICK AND CLINK AND VVVRRRRR AND TICK#but by the time i can drive everythingll be shiny and clean and silent and wireless#[insert cool original post tag]#its 12 am and im crying over a falling apart pickup truck. god.#i want to drive that truck going above the speed limit on an empty desert road somewhere outside of albequerque at night#with the windows down and a cd on real loud#and i wont be able to hear the music because of the wind but it wont matter because the car is alive and clicking and vvvvrrrrrrring#but that car's in some third hand sales shop or a landfil and ill never see it's dials again#i dont know what rounded-rectangle is. not referring to the shape but more so the feeling. that truck felt like gray-blue rounded-rectangle
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being moved to a different classroom for my last week while the head of the program pretends she's doing me a favor but she's really doing my supervisor a favor 🙃
#she said she wanted me not to feel bad and be in a bad situation#but im p sure she did it bc my supervisor was up in the office talking shit ant me again this morning#she was acting all nice but 🤨#she's not nice soooo#also she didn't even follow up when i mentioned safety concerns for the kids when she asked why i was leaving#and she didn't ask me to stay#she did seem sympathetic but idk my co teacher thinks it was a favor to our supervisor to keep her happy#bc thry still think she walks on water#im so worried for the kids but it should be less stressful in t2#also the teacher i swapped with today saw me two hours later and she was like: girl i get it 💀💀💀#lmao#so sad for the kids tho#but excited abt new opportunities#but i did want to have the time to say goodbye to the kids#its probably better to transition them this way bc they'll still see me a little bit the last week but not all day#and get used to me not always being there#so they won't care as much when i'm completely gone the week after 😭#but they were crying at thebgate between the playgrounds today and it was really hard#i was holding finn's hand over the gate 🥺#then we combined classes for the end of the day on the playground and that was like 10 minutes before i went home#so they got happy for a bit then broke down again when i said goodbye 😭#teddy was screaming at the door the whole time after i left 😭#i watched thru the classroom window while the other teachers were consoling them and it was so sad 💔#i've only had one cry when i went home before but this time it was half of them#bc they barely saw me all day then i left as soon as they thought i was going to stay#anyway#i have a job interview tomorrow and surgery#and maybe a second job interview#trying to focus on that rn#still glad i'm quitting but 💔
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ok. so. um. im watching ep 8 now and. uh.
NOZOMI. WHY. DID YOU. SAY THAT. THEY SHOULD SING. A LOVE SONG!?!?!?!?!?!
(she's totally not gonna sing it w a CERTAIN. BLONDE--)
#crow talks#love live#grips hand. NOZOMI.#IM.#WHY DID YOU SMILE AT HER LIKE THAT?!?!?!?! WHAT THE HELL#im sorry im being --#i hope. acutlaly hope. that i am not similar to nozomi in anyway whatsoever.#i will cry.#BC. THIS IS GONNA BE LIKE YUKA.ESO AND JUN7 ALL OVER AGAIN
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Ah, the consequences of my actions. Fuck off
#procrastination strikes again. i missed the deadline for a very important scholarship because I wasted so much fucking time#lamenting over it instead of just getting it done#how the fuck do i explain that to my parents? they'll hate me more than they already do#but its basically free money so if I don't get it theyre gonna know#and i feel guilty pretending i did hand it in on time#im just. i keep doing this! why do i keep doing this in an endless fucking loop#serves me right I guess idk#acting like an idiot only gets you so far in life. fucking hell#what do I even do? i just want to cry#and it would've been entirely preventable#I had my answers ready and made sure to get my transcript and had it all there and then i forgot. i forgot that ontario is in a different#timezone and that waiting until the last hour would already be two hours too late#:(#silver fucks up (again)
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tatimaxxing (something big just happened to me but i can't talk about it on this blog because ive posted face)
#my friend's in the hospital again so i spent 20 on an uber with my other friend to go see her#but by the time we got there visiting hours were over 😭#so we just had dinner at the park#and i told her about The Big Terrible Thing for the first time#straight through without embellishment! yay! i think at least#because ive retold the story in so many different ways that im not actually sure what happened anymore#she was like super chill about it though!! and was like im really impressed that you actively made an effort to not be [REDACTED]#not really what she said more like Making An Effort to No Longer [Redacted]#redacted as an action not as a noun blah blah you know#and she told me about how shes faced discrimination at our super homogeneously chinese church which i feel REALLY BAD ABOUT BUT I DON'T KNOW#HOW TO EXPRESS IT TO HER OR WHAT TO SAY ABOUT IT 😭😭😭😭 GIRL HELP#im being so useless and chinese about it 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 i don't know how to talk to people about things that matter#and idk like ok v non-tatimaxxing of me to say but ive been so self centered and going Wahhh these normies will never experience my#Deep Secret Emotions unlockable only by spending too much time on tumblr as a child#on the other hand i feel like once this has gotten out of the way i don't really have an excuse for not connecting with my church friends#yknow. like i don't have to hide this from them any more#they're great people!! and they're going through so much and I need to be there for them but I couldn't even get tothe stupidhospital on tim#not cry typing just ran out of space#anyway I wish I could care more about them I wish I could make genuine connections without having to lie to feel some sort of weird#rush of power over them because I know the truth and they don't when I lie so much I don't even know what the truth is#I've been putting my face on here more lately because I want to be genuine and I want to not hide things#but idk if it'll work I think it might just make me unemployable 😭😭😭#cc diary
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