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theythemmer · 2 months ago

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phinktober day 11: ur fav AU

i dont rlly do AUs so i just drew them how i wish they would dress xo

(dan’s tats r carnations and snowdrops and phil’s r roses and honeysuckle. for no reason 🤗)

ALSO bonus version w makeup bc i couldn’t pick <3

#soz copied caption from twt i have been drawing for 7 hours straight i need to drink water eat something take a piss and a shower and sleep #no braincell rn #goodbye it is wine time #hope yall like this idfk what people what these days other than ship art but im not doing that so sorry no knights fucking for you #just me making them look like me bc i’m a narcissist etc #god i am way too tired to be yapping rn i have no filter whatever ABYWAY HASHTAG DANIPHIW #art2 and craft2 #dnp #phanart #dan and phil #daniel howell #amazingphil #dan howell #phil lester #phinktober #punk edits irl come back to me please #i’m missing a fkn hashtag i just know it whatever i don’t CARE im TIRED i have eaten nothing but half a jar of picked today i feel so goblin #idk why i tunnelvisioned w this piece it’s not even that good or detailed LMFAO #actually the tattoos were a BITCH and also made me sad bc of my whole failed tattooing career etc #OH MY GOD WHY AM I YAPPING SO MUCH SOMEONE EUTHANISE ME #good NIGHT !!!!!!#pickles not picked btw but i’m not retyping all of that #now i’m sad bc i’m out of pickles and it’s 10pm and everything is shut:( hate my stupid gay life

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 2 years ago

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Flashback, warm nights.

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#Poorly Drawn MDZS #MDZS #Season 1 #wei wuxian #lan wanji #jiang cheng #should I have a teen tag? for all the flashbacks? Maybe I'll add it later #Linking the song for its 80's vibes + flashback melancholy + I think its fun #We have finally arrived at the cloud recess flashback! Dramatic first meetings under the moonlight! A sword fight! acknowledgement of skill #Its like everything you see in a 'No Homo' martial arts story that makes you go 'hold on that's a little...'#except we rejoice; for these bitches do be nurturing plot relevant homoromantic tension #I have to give a shout out to 15 year old wwx for in all honesty he had no way of knowing who he was facing #on day *one* of cultivation Christian summer camp! talk about bad luck #ok some other notes: I wanted to give non mxy!wwx distinct features while still looking somewhat consistant #and i think im happy with it! Softer bangs + mole + different hair tie ain't much but it works for me #they'll soon all be in white with small accents so I gotta do what I can #What im not happy about is my paneling B*/ theres no excuse for why I went back to the bad 3 square format other than I was lazy #Sadly I do these in batches so my bad habits stick around for a little longer

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pcktknife · 11 days ago

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it might b getting to the point if I stay up past 11 I start getting a teeny tiny itty bitty passively suicidal. nothing crazy but it is like mildly annoying

#sorry im dead silent here unless i wanna randomly bring up killing myself i dont do it on purpose lol #ive been in my head about my appearance the past few days and felt so bad like yesterday i didnt wanna live the house and its so stupid to #be stressed about something as trivial as how i look but i look bad bitch and its fucking me up #i give it like 5 days before im back to thinking im hot shit and i forget what my angles look like but until then. moping and wallowing all #over the floors for days on end #i think way too much about too much shit. too little shit. at these hours. unbelievable #in other news my smoke detectors been beeping for like 2 days driving me insane and i just figured that out now and theres peace once again #the terrible beeping. i have to get a new battery for it now #okay thats all i just wanted to say something gniiiite #kae.txt #*didnt wanna leave the house... wrong word leave...leave

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fiendishartist2 · 4 months ago

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trying to act like i dont miss being a kid w shit all to do

#this one goes out to all the bitches who grew up in really small towns #im talking 2000 ppl in total #bc when youre a kid in a town w no stores and nothing to do you can make literally anything a game #i was doing experiments on bugs that should be considered torture tactics #my friends and i used to ride bikes so much that we would put water bottles on the back wheel so it would sound like a motorcycle #we would take rocks from ppls front porch and smash them on their driveways bc they wluld explode in a cool way #i ding dong ditched ppl a couple of times #we used to get skipping ropes and mark out ''rooms'' in my friends garage so we could play house except we were all monsters #i ate so much raw mr noodles packs as a kid bc it was literally just smth to do ToT #that shit was the best before we figure out iy was bad flr you. it was crunchy and salty and made you feel kinda weird #looking back i was kinda a shithead #i used to eat raw hotdogs too but we dont have to talk about hat #if youre not a country bumpkin you just wont get it sorry

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cowboy-robooty · 4 months ago

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not going to name names bc thats messed up but omfg i was tryna find records of old heta fandom shit to show inu right and i found a hetalia iceberg and I SAW MY 2019 OPP ON THERE. IT WAS SO FUCKING FUNNY LIKE MY EYES BULGED OUT OF MY SKULL BECAUSE IM NOT EVEN JOKING I HATED THIS BITCH SO MUCH WHEN I WAS 14 AND NGL I STILL HATE HER. I DIDNT SAY NOTHING AND KEPT CURTIOUS AND NORMAL OBVIOUSLY BUT ON THE INSIDE I WANTED HER ASS DEAD EVERYDAY AND WELL... you all know im never in the loop with things and had no fucking clue that she was just the antichrist for an entire group of people lol. SHE WAS MY ANTICHRIST THO. I HATED HER AND SHE HATED ME OKAY AND IM LIKE RODF SEEING HOW SHES ON THE FUCKING HETALIA ICEBERG I WAS LIKE OMG.... I THOUGHT ONLY I FUCKING DESPISED HER

#i hated her to an unhealthy amount imma be so real #bc ive never done an internet sin of like shittalking outside of priv accs/dms #or interacting anonymously with people i hate etc etc #but there are things that are like corruptions for your own soul from how sour hatred can get #and she did that to me. and i only hated her enough to do that #i have only ever in my life actively hatestalked her blog when i was 14 bc she made me so fucking mad everyday #ive only ever in my life hatestalked her like shes the only reason i can comprehend why people are compelled to hatestalk #this was all back when i was like 14 tho lol and #ugh... im sorry. as you can tell the hatred i feel towards her is like soul corrupting level #i want to say im sure she has grown up to be a fine person and logically i know this is true #but also part of me is like there is no fucking way this bitch grew up to be a fine person like the lobotomy part of my brain is saying that #i will not tell you who she is btw so dont send me an ask begging for the user #and if for some reason you have a hunch who it is. you never know you could be wrong and even if youre not i dont condone harassment towards #her or like yknow just any association like leave her tf alone #i dont have fans who love me enough or are crazy parasocial to harass someone i personally hate/hated #but still just in case #shes not an actual bad person. i just hate her so much that it makes ME a bad person on the inside #its why im so glad that i turned 15 and went i need to stop looking at her forever or else i will reincarnate as a mosquito #ill only talk to u abt her if we are at least acquatiances with eachother #and i dont think anybody will be able to figure out who she is actually bc i never once was mean to her outside of telling my close friends #i wanted her dead. me when i dont act like a beast online despite the vietnamese devil inside me

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turtlespancake · 4 months ago

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me when i write a character who is prone to dooming themself and then they run off and doom themself. core traits are stubbornness and a willingness to disregard their own humanity gET BACK HERE IM NOT DONE WITH YOU

#rambling #surprisingly this is not about jakob.. im just really consistent about my favorite character archetypes 😭😭#WARNING THE NOTES ON THIS ARE REALLY LONG I STARTED RAMBLING #“ouhh i have a headache i'll just lie down and rotate my blorbos in no general direction for a while until it goes away” and then boom.#serious plot considerations. 2 questions answered 24million new questions raised. this is specifically Not what i asked for.#so now im sitting here STILL dizzy running mental calculations on how i can get this bitch out of peril without reworking everything #but they literally keep dying in every timeline 😭😭 every single plausible road leads to them running off and screwing themself over #“character who doesn't realize they want to live until it's way too late to look back” VS #“character who is forced to live and handle the things they never though they'd survive long enough to deal with” FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT.#fucking hell i have never had this much trouble writing a character as i have with them #they genuinely do just run off and do shit without my permission and then i have to pace for an hour or two wondering #“ok they wOULD do that. but should they. do i feel like i can confidently write that.”#im like constantly in this tug of war trying to get them to CHILL #but also they are absolutely my favorite character from the entire project. but like. FUCK GET BACK HERE #is death the most satisfying end to this arc? is someone who was Set on dying then NOT dying the most satisfying end to the arc?#how many bridges can you burn until you irreparably set yourself aflame too?#would ghost or revival plotline work?? would it make sense with the worldbuilding??#do i just Like Them enough to want them to not die?? where do i draw the line between personal bias and a good arc?#is death not feeling as impactful as survival solely because i've been writing for so long that it's lost the initial impact?#and other such plot considerations...#im gonna have such an easy time writing another character though 😭😭 because THAT character's dynamic in the second act #is to stare at character 1 and be like “why are you like this. i mean i know Why but can you chill. please.” and like damn bro me too #actually wait no i think kaey.a is the hardest character i've ever written i take it back #had to worry about his 20million facades AND his Actual feelings AND canon compliance. shit is hard #i still havent finished the k/aeya fic i started back when the chasm first released which is uhh. two years ago. oops.#i think i struggle writing emotionally repressed liars i think thats what this is 😭😭 anyways.#(voice of guy who has been obsessed with nonlinear narratives and tragedies for several years):#“is it too much to kill this character in a nonlinear exploration game with tragic elements”#like bitch what are you talking about 😭😭 YOU'RE the target audience here figure it out #sorry the notes on this are just my writing journal now apparently

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brucequeensteen · 5 months ago

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all r-dfem blogs on here are always posting 3 things: a) most vitriolic disgusting display of shaming people for how they look which almost always implicitly or explicitly aligns with some kind of eugenics or racism, b) how everyone who isnt them or disagrees with them is stupid or misguided or has no hope left for them, and c) how lonely and isolated they feel all the time . I wonder when they will join the dots

#like. i do know people who self identify as radfems and they are nice they dont fit these bullet points #but like. that polite persona they exert is a mask for either a LOT of bitterness and a huge lack of empathy. or a lot of self hatred #that is then expressed by being so unnecessarily mean to other people behind their backs 😭#and im all for being mean occasionally im not one to cry and clutch my pearls when people are cunts to other people #but when theres a specific pattern of being mean to specific people (often other women and especially transfems)#for specific things (looks & taste & intelligence). well then its a problem innit #and then theyre also horrible about men which is like. Whatever. but i am off the belief that making fun of anyone #for their looks or appearance or their body and things that they cant help is just so fucking shallow and bleak and stupid #theres plenty of things to make fun of men for like soooooooooooo so many things #and yet the most popular way of doing it. or the one that a lot of these people (radfems and adjacent) think is either most funny #or most cathartic is making fun of mens appearance #so what if hes ''ugly'' and has male pattern baldness and a thick chin and big nose or whatever. i thought we were here to #idk. dismantle the patriarchy. knock men down a notch on the hierarchy. criticise a culture that encourages misogyny #call out the abuse and belittlement of women by men every day. you know. the things intrinsic to our society because of #capitalism and patriarchy and conservativism etc.#NOT perpetuating the culture that shames people for things that they cant change #and if they WANT to change these aspects youre shaming them for they have to spend ludicrous amounts of money #this is the mindset that makes me think bitch we are never getting out of capitalism !!!!!!!!!!#starting shaming behaviours not looks like im BEGGING YOU!!!!!!!!!!#okay thats all i have to say im really sick of this. and some of my mutuals do this and its really upsetting me sorry .

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carcarrot · 5 months ago

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well that was a shortlived good feeling about my job

#maybe i should just become unemployed. maybe i should just suffer!#recap of todays further events .#that supervisor? who i kinda didnt already like but now absolutely hate?#she came down to confirm that i wasnt leaving. okay . and then she fucking tells me #oh we're going to get another person to help out from this other company. we were going to do that bc we thought you were leaving #but she thinks that even if im staying there should be another person on this floor. bc apparently more has to be done #and there are 'constant complaints' abt this floor . which doesnt make sense to me bc there shouldnt be #and so we're waiting to see what the manager decides but hes on fucking vacation and wont get back until. next week??#she said she was gonna email him and like right after she left i emailed and texted him explaining everything #and trying to very nicely say hey what the fuck are you doing you don't need to hire anyone else #and if im doing a bad job fucking tell me so i can do it better. bitch #and she had the nerve to fucking tell me when she was talking to me #that i wont find an easier job than this one #well if its so fucking easy why are we hiring someone else #by the way getting that extra person from this other company doesnt cost them anything which is why theyre doing it i think #which is making me not feel good abt my own future lmao. like why would they keep paying me when they can get someone for free #and she was saying all this stuff like oh you have it so good here we dont write you up i do all this stuff to help you like . ok #i didnt ask you to come downstairs w the coffee order and if you wanted me to i would come up . god #but the thing of me not being able to find a better job like wow! what if i killed you. for saying that to my face #and she talks abt how shes been w the company 20 years ok and that doesnt give you an excuse to treat me like a child. jesus #anyway im very pissed off and not enjoying my work situation lol. i dont wanna do this anymore #but looking at other jobs im so unemployable. sigh

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jorvikzelda · 1 year ago

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….Okay but what if I cut my hair off though

#day 2 of having realisations that turn my entire life and sense of self completely upside down and send me into a full blown identity crisis #it’s going well #But like!!!! Having the urge to cut my hair off is WAY >>>>>> the severe nausea and disgust at myself I was feeling last night #We live and we grow !!!!!!#z talks #not horse game #my hairs currently armpit length I’ve been growing it out for the past 3 years after having it short for over 3 years before that #(it’s been a process with some setbacks bc I had some damaged hair that needed OFF and also an undercut that needed Away)#and I’ve been like. ok I’ve never had Super Long Hair before. let’s get this bitch to waist length #BUT IM JUST NOT FEELING IT MAN #I keep looking back at the pictures from when I had chin length hair and going fuck man that was a good haircut for me

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piningpercussionist · 3 months ago

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I saw from a post about how many asks you have and I was wondering why not just answer one ask then use that as your daily post? (I'm pretty sure you post daily from my memory)

I'm not a writer so apologies if I sound a bit rude or oblivious. But I think you don't do that because it might get tiring to write an in-character response each day.

I'm actually an Insane Person and ideally would be posting hourly/bi-hourly, if only I ever found enough content to queue up in such a manner,,

But, basically the delays can be summed up in three parts: tired or busy (lumping these together as one problem), no idea how to respond just yet (or respond in a way that satisfies me,) or I have ideas but they're art based and take more time.

I do have some wips for some art answers saved I think, but I've got, like, a single commission remaining on my docket and I refuse to let myself do other art until it's finished (barring one sketch I did for the sake of my sanity.... I cannot stress enough how much of a fight it is to get myself to do full shading and backgrounds 💀 mistakes were made.)

Now, admittedly, it's been a minute since I took a crack at writing out some more thoughtful or lengthy responses for some of the asks I've gotten- so far as I recall, at least- but the dissatisfaction problem is Extremely Real. No joke, I've had an ask sitting in my queue for several months now because I was like "yeah this is good enough," queued it, and then just before it could post I was overcome with an Intense distaste for it. I really liked the question and thought I could do better. (And still clearly have not done better....) Writing Kim honestly comes really naturally to me, and I could never really get tired of it, but sometimes an ask throws a curveball at me in a way that I just really cannot quite wrap my head around responding to. Other times, I get asks that I just can't let myself answer in a subpar manner- either the ask itself or the implications of the answer I concoct end up mattering too much to me, so I get super in my head about finalizing the reply.

And then me being tired is just a skill issue. (I'm joking; this only applies to like the last month or so, but I actually started taking some new medications recently that have been messing with me just a little in this respect. Sometimes I get tired, and when they DO give me the pep to do things, I've admittedly been trying to direct that energy into getting my life together lol)

#i really have just kinda been busy lately. doctors appointments- my roommate moving out- SO. MANY. BIRTHDAYS-#so that's also a factor in things. im kinda floundering over here... drowning in an endless sea of shit I need to do to get my affairs in +#+order...#also i am like. an adult. so i have a life that HAS to be tended to in some respects. just kinda tacking that on bc ik some people forget +#+I'm 24. I'm not busy in the way most people my age are but I DO have things I need to do/be doing. (which unfortunately may eventually +#+lead to me being busy in the same way most people my age are. life's a bitch like that. hopefully it wont be an issue though]#i literally overthink everything and it is a Problem. look at how much rambling you're getting just here. insane #i need to go to bed i think im forcing myself to let this be the answer i have for you 💀 if you have further questions i can answer later #asks #anon #ooc #txt #actually just one more little thing. the kim rp/ask blog aspect of this blog was also very much an outlet for me as i was dealing with +#+some really frustrating things in my personal life. I'm still dealing with those things but on a smaller scale now? and I'm also no +#+longer locked into this being my ONLY coping method for it. lately I've been getting back into playing whatever games i feel like- it's +#+been very freeing. in a single session I've apparently gotten 12% of the way through rdr2's story! something i very much wouldn't have +#+felt like I was ALLOWED to do prior to now #(also if this post contains any contradictions. i am a very conflicted and contradictory person. hope that helps 👍)

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slamrink · 3 days ago

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klay 0 points but he looked sexygorgeous doing it + lockdown defense + mavs WIN and dubs clinch so im leaving here with something 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

#nba #klay thompson #dallas mavericks #mavs lb #love when he makes shots but ive shrimply accepted that it is now a somewhat rare occurence which is understandable tbh given age/injuries #they could never make me hate u king #not even if u go 0/100 i srsly dgaf ur face card + beautiful soul more than make up for it i promise #freddie mercury voice #I look ... and i fiind ... I still love youuu #that said I really think people are not giving him enough grace or credit for all the positive ways he impacts the game #like he has set such an impossibly high standard for himself by literally becoming thee singular second greatest shooter OAT so #imo its pretty unreasonable for fans to demand him to put up prime klay numbers nightly when this team doesn't even need him to do that #to be able to win which is actually a good thing !!! not to be a +/- watcher but him just being on the floor opens up so much space for #everyone else because defenders will swarm him no matter what and he knows this because he is very smart !!!#I just have so much love in my heart for him and it physically hurts me to see anyone speak negatively about him after everything #that he's overcome and how critical he is of himself :( I just want him to feel loved :((#guys this is so stupid i don't even KNOW him and he still occupies a fairly large portion of my brain and heart 24/7 it's so badddd #steph and klay were my whole entire childhood and then i forgot about them for the year they were injured and then I remembered them again #after which they found their way back to each other and won the whole fucking thing !!! that's the shit of romcoms bitch !!!#and even if they really won't ever share a backcourt again (which pains me to even type out ew) I'll still love both of them #unconditionally i fear #and also forever #how can you not be romantic about basketball baby!!!#steph/klay #if you read all of this first of all im so sorry and thank you too lol :)

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hella1975 · 1 year ago

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just full force threw a shoe at my sister's face and when my mum got me alone after she was like 'you shouldn't clobber her. but i get it' 😭

#it kicked off today but in my defence she's actually proper in the wrong this time even my DAD called her a bitch and my mum is FUMING #baso my sister came into my work with her mate when i was closing the other day and all the staff GLARED at them bc of aforementioned #close so i was being v chill so everyone 1) knew it was my sister and not some customer coming in late and 2) her friend wouldnt be uncomfy #like that's the real kicker her i was being extra laid back FOR her friend so he'd feel more at ease. and one thing about me is yes ive #said countless times i have a rural accent but my mum also raised me to know when and how to speak nice if need be bc people are cunts here #so when im waitressing i speak nicely bc it's a stuck up restaurant w stuck up customers but when im with my sister? making a point of #being laid back? my normal accent came through. and her mate when i was gone said i sounded 'really [from the county we live in]'#which WOULD NOT BE A COMPLIMENT. it's baso saying 'your sister sounds local and chavy' without using such explosive words #and my sister LET HIM SAY IT. SHE DIDNT DEFEND ME. and she told my mum about it later bc SHE THOUGHT SHE'D TELL ME OFF #LIKE SHE DID IT TO SNITCH. THERE WAS NO SCENARIO WHERE MY SISTER WASNT BEING A CUNT. and my mum hit the ROOF #one thing she's rlly been big on is loyalty bc it's always been the 3 of us so when she found out my sister let him say that she FLIPPED #and this all happened last night and i only found out this morning bc i overheard them screaming at each other and turns out my mum #tried to keep it from me bc she didnt want my feelings hurt and IM pissed bc it actually did hurt more than i thought it would #like i KNOW what people say about my accent but it's a guy i know? my sister's been friends w him for years? i was being nice?#it's EMBARRASSING like i was clueless & friendly and turned around for him to be like 'look at this stupid local girl' like??#and my sister did NOTHING? it just sucks so i STORMED upstairs when i found out and had it out with my sister #and she knew she was fucked so she did all 'im not talking to you i have nothing to say' AND PUT HER EARPHONES IN?#the way i RIPPED them out. got in her face like okay girl u think i sound like a chav ill act like a chav lets GO #and it just got really aggressive and i wound up grabbing HER OWN SANDAL and full force hurling it at her face 😭 oops #from close range too like i was already in her face so i basically just smacked her with a sandal DSHGJKSH #now we're sat in silence bc alas we still share a room. WHAT the fuck. insane tbh but it's a bit funny. im so angry rn i could KILL #hella goes home

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brainrot-stitch · 4 months ago

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Ough

#vent post #why can i not. look tbe way i wwnt #starts violently biting adn tearing at the fabrics arounf me #what the.freak!!!#ehy does everything always hurtall the time #tweaking out #gang the demons are getting my ass again #if i suddenly dropped dead that would fix me i think #i feel like such a fucking bitch for being unhappy with my weight because like. idk. is it fatphobic?? ive heard it be called that before #and also other ppl who have similar weights to mine are happy so. why should i not be #i giggle and i laugh and i joke but why am i actuayly like this browgat the freak #alsow hy am i soo fucked in the head #im like “teehee i just got silly as i grew!” HELL NAH. i was a lil fucked in the head as a KID😭😭😭😭😭#i remember going to bed one night and my mom was gonna read a chapter of a book to me and i specifically chose the torture chapter and it #caused a huge argument in the family #and i also drew SO MUCH GORE in elementary school #like girl😭🙏you have never been exposed to this. what is up with u #there are also a bunch of other instances but my vent art back then was also wild. as in more gore #now its just weirdly abstract with bright colors and a lota eyes #lots. lots of eyes.#whwre was i going with this #idk i hate my head. my little fucked up little brain #the way i think is crazy because emotions are usually depicted as scenes or images or feelings(its different than emotion trust)#and theres still blood. theres so much gory shit in my head. like girl get out of there!!! thats not where u belong!!!!!!#and then also the daydreams #ougghh the daydreams....#i hate the daydreams i wabt them to stop so bad but i physically cannot and also they r one of my few sources of comfort ESPECIALLY in #situations i cant get out of or distract myself in any other way #and sometimes its fine but also sometimes they fucking suck and its scary because im not here im THERE and so much shit happens there #lore drop

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widevibratobitch · 1 year ago

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i hate them with a passion

#this may turn into one of my long ass posts with hundreds of screenshots of quotes from the books #but i dont have the energy for that just now #anyway. this moment makes me wanna throw shit at the walls. their relationship is my favourite thing from the very beginning #but dumas went really went out of his way to make it even more insane in the last book #and dont hit me with a 'aww they have such a big/little brother energy its so cute uwu' please im begging you stop saying that #nothing irks me more than hearing their relationship described as something that innocent. its so much more complex and intense come on #there is pure visceral hate there. jealousy. bile. cruelty. some fucked up form of codependency even? maybe? from d'artagnan's side?#there's nothing more horrible and cruel than the fact that THEY are the only two left alive in the end (not for long but yknow)#they would NEVER be friends if not for athos (and they would never hate each other so much if not for him too)#they hate each other so so much. but remember that d'artagnan starts out being absolutely bedazzled by aramis and looking up to him #his first impression of aramis is just. hearteyes and 'wow i wish that were me'. he doesnt do that even with athos at first.#he grows to adore athos yes but upon first meeting him he doesnt think much of him. unlike with aramis.#and then it changes instantly. does a 180° flip when aramis is a bitch to him.#and it stays that way for the entirety of the trilogy. until this moment. this one short moment when d'artagnan #who. mind you. is not innocent himself and was also manipulating the hell out of porthos and talking shit about aramis behind his back.#but he makes that step. he reaches out. 'i fucking hate you let me help you you dumb evil cunt' and aramis says 'no <3'#you know i have this thing where i am OBSESSED with finding the one moment where a character condemns themselves for good.#the one moment when they figuratively sign the contract for their perdition. that up to that moment they could still be saved somehow.#for rodrigo it is when he tries to kill eboli (in the play). for don giovanni it is when he refuses elvira's plea to change #(NOT when he accepts il commendatore's invite mind you)#and i feel like THIS is that moment for aramis.#the fact that it comes from d'artagnan is so just so fucking agsjssgsgsh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and of course he says no.#there is no version of this where he lets himself be helped. he has to say no he will always say no.#but boy oh boy is this making me bang my head against the wall.#the three musketeers #les trois mousquetaires #vicomte de bragelonne #alexandre dumas

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bibleofficial · 5 months ago

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went to the beach w kp & 4 other indian friends & 3 of us had NEVER surfed before girl WHEW it’s SO fun literally only 20quid to rent a wetsuit & board & i fucking smashed my toes on the sand so much, but also we 1) got the wrong tickets so we got off 1 stop early 2) went to find a bus & the bus that was supposed to be 15 min turned into an HOUR 3) on our way to find a bus back everyone’s phones are dying or dead bc it took us 3hrs longer to get there, cigarettes are out 4) all of the shops in town are closed & the town seems to have ONLY a tesco extra & 1 off license that sells a PACK FOR 15.65 A PACK WHICH IS FUCKING CRIMINAL ITS CHEAPER TO BUY IT FROM TESCO ARE U INSANE 5) the bus back to the other town kept skipping us bc the bus stop wasn’t the ACTUAL bus stop - i had 1 bowl since literally 11a & we got back at fucking 11p 😭😭😭

#diary #i was honestly abt to strangle EVERYBODY #‘do u have a cigarette’ ‘where’s ur vape’ ‘where are we going’ ‘which bus is it’ ‘do u have a ___’ ‘did u bring ___’ girl what am i DORA w #the magic fuckin BACKPACK ??? while ur UP MY ASS dig around & SEE IF SMTHGS IN THERE 😭😭😭😭#i literally broke sobriety again bc i was just #girl i was so agitated & there was 1 TRAIN LEFT BEFORE 11P so we needed to get the 2ND TO LAST BUS OF THE DAY #i deadass was like ‘if we miss that train i will make sure u all go blind’ ‘did u bring a knife’ ‘I DONT NEED 1’#AKSJAKSKAKKSJSKSSJAKJSKAHSKSHDLASKAKDLA #LIKE U BITCHES SMOKED ALL MY CIGARETTES MY VAPES DEAD MY PHONES DYING UR ALL DRUNK IM GOING TO KILL YALL 😭😭😭😭😭#<- me knowing i could never be a parent #tbh if i caught my kid smoking a cig id make em do the ol ‘im going to sit down in front of u w a fresh box of cigarettes & make u finish #the box or pass out’#YES IM STRICT #i think it’s so funny ok unrelated but like they’ll speak hindi & i’ve just #learned it through being around them kind of like i can’t speak it except for some word u know like matachot etc but i’ll Understand the #Context & what’s being Said #ASLKALSKALSKLAKSLAKSLAKSLA like while waiting for the train back 1 of them was talking abt me being a fool to the others - literally they’re #all indian & i had walked away so when i walked back he was still talkin but then i started giggling bc i knew he was talkin abt me & how i #pinched a bit of the kebab to throw to the seagull bc he offered it to me & i needed to bait the seagull w something & i pinched & tossed &#& he looked at me like 😦 bhenchod ! & then the seagull came over & i was like :D hi bestie <3333 but then when i started giggling after i #walked back he was like ‘what the fuck does he just know hindi now’#it makes me laugh so fucking HARD 😭😭😭😭😭 LIKE FUCK U I LIKE TO PARTICPATE IN COVERSATION IDC ABT LANGUAGE #like i’ve been surrounded by yall for the past #girl it’s been like a year i don’t even talk to british ppl or americans #ALSKALSKALSKALKSLAKSLALSLA MESS ! i love to slavsquat & kp hates it bc he’s like ‘we’re in the uk why are u sitting like this’ bc he thinks #it’s ’too indian’ ALSKALSKALSKALJSKAKDLA 😭😭😭😭😭 this hips were made for sitting #we’re definitely going to go back bc it’s SO CLOSE IF WE ACTUALLY USE THE TRANSPORT PROPERLY ITS ONLY LIKE AN HOUR OR SO COMMUTE EACH WAY #bring lunch whatever #i’m exhausted but also socially like bro i had to leave the donner place just to walk around the block for SOME QUIET #i’ve just been sososososo busy LOSING MY MIND

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maybe i should have gone into practical effects instead of computer science...

#when i was in middle school i used to use red and black pens + spit for blending to make it look like the backs of my hands were torn open #i can't believe it's almost 4am. i just spent 5 hours typing up an essay about MM's erik that i just fuckin privated bc i was embarrassed #AND I STILL NEVER SPELL HIS NAME RIGHT THE FIRST TIME AAAAAAAA #i was right but im going to save all my points for the fanfic im currently planning out and promptly NEVER GOING TO ACTUALLY WRITE #I say shoving my plans for my h2o s3 rewrite off the table #yes i skipped from s2 to s3 i had a BRILLIANT idea [season 3 h2o spoilers ahead be wary my mutuals who are still watching]#okay so you know how lewis goes to the american institute of marine bio in the middle of 3? since this is tied to my s2 rewrite fic i wante #to actually finally reasonably re-introduced dr denman to the story because i never liked that she just fucked off at the end of s1 #despite WITNESSING the moon pool magic. so i made it so she runs into lewis while doing a presentation for the college and they have a chat #(because her JAW paper plays an important part in my s2 rewrite bc i imagine lewis is the kind of guy who SAYS he deleted every copy of #it... but ACTUALLY he secretly printed himself out a copy to study in private to compare to his own notes bc #[lewis voice] come *on* guys just THINK of the progress that he could make with this! [grabby hands in front of chest])#so yeah they have a chat and Linda kind of gives Lewis the opposite dilemma in s3 that Louise gives him in s1 about science and magic #since SHE knows about the moon pool and has been biding her time and she knows Lewis knows and Lewis is like ah... uh oh.#it will eventually tie into the idea it's not about forcing science and magic together or separating them #its abt respectfully and responsibly utilizing both to see their fullest potential. which lewis learned in s2 and Linda has... not.#BUT #later on she gets a call from 1 (one) ryan who is like 'hey so i heard u did environmental studies on mako for dr bennett a couple years ag #and i was wondering if you've seen anything weird there as im currently doing a-' and she's immediately like 'YOU SON OF A BITCH IM IN'#and he's like 'wha-' and she's like 'i have already booked my plane tickets we're going to have a great time we have lots to talk about :)'#and wheeee now they have someone who knows about mermaids on their team and it's the perfect way to bring lewis back to relevancy in s3 :D #it also gives me reason to have two bad bitches (linda and sophie) meet and get to know each other which is not a dynamic ive seen in #any of the H2O fics i've ever read so im very hyped to delve into how they'll play off each other #also charlotte is there so technically three bad bitches (only in my au Charlotte never lost her tail and is part of the gang she just move #because she felt like she needed to leave to really be able to find herself without being in her grandmother's shadow but she comes back bc #well... it's season 3 mako is sounding the fucking emergency alarms everyone is showing up sdkghkfjhg)#im also so so so hyped to show u guys who's coming back in the s2 rewrite because it ISNT denman and i think everyone thinks it will be :3c #(i said she when telling ppl to look forward to a familiar face... but can u blame me for getting hype she's one of my favorite characters!#i love u H2O #cruddy rambles

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