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Me, after the anxiety attack as passed:
#I REALLY APPRECIATE IT#i just always feel so silly after ive come down#you dont have to try and make a random stranger feel better#but you do and its so nice of you#im always here for you guys fr#like dont feel bothered to text me#i will respond
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what is your favorite thing about charles and your favorite thing about erik? separately, as in what you like most about their characters :]
a devious question this one is, my friend!!! it's hard enough for me to explain my thoughts cohesively, but having to pick ONE thing i particularly love is difficult. with characters like charles and erik, theres been so much done with their characters over the decades and so they have so many components to them that make them so interesting and fun to observe. BUT I TRY FOR YOU TODAY. under the cut i kinda ramble and the size of this text box makin me anxious
i think if i were to be simple and broad, what i enjoy most about charles is his determination to help others, even if he isn't really thanked and/or if people don't even like him. ofc, this isn't to say he hasn't done wrong- to be honest, the fact he does wrong/questionable things at times is another aspect of him i really enjoy, maybe because- broadly speaking- he's meant to be altruistic (intent vs outcome and all that). i don't know if that's super exciting to most people, but it is for me
as for erik, my reason for liking him is easier to explain tbh. To Be Simple And Broad, his progression from villain to antihero over the decades has been fun to observe (as much as i have so far anyhow) and analyze. i think to be a bit more specific, him using his rage and pain as justifications for his villainous actions is definitely what compels me the most: hurt people hurt and the sort, an idea i've always found interesting (something something vicious cycles and the like). yet now, he recognizes this wasn't really. A Just Thing To Do and is beginning to change that, which i enjoy
#snap chats#may you forgive me anon i always feel awkward explaining things AVELKJEAKLJ#i feel esp awkward cause i haven't read toooo much of the comics yet- like ive read. an ok amount so far krakoa wise#can you guys tell im fighting god himself to Not write a fuckin. NOVEL#im so sorry i have an over-explaining problem my mom was mean to me growing up but anyways#i definitely want to read more and more outside krakoa. the more i read the more im fascinated by these two and their history#but to continue my prattling. as if the three paragraphs above arent enough This Is Not A Thesis RELAX#i think a. 'poignant' moment i think adds to what i like about charles too is that soliloquy where he recognizes people dont like him#yet he could always be worse- like if he's bad now to others imagine if he really just said Fuck It All#it's simple but so am i whaddyagonnadoboutit. i mean that point itself could be discussed but i'm trying to keep this brief bear with me#i so bad want to know what issue that's from tho all i know is that it's from krakoa but i neeeed the whole context#i think like. an additional bullet point to charles i also like is his loneliness#and i say this cause- I Say From My Amateur-Psychology Armchair- it's a component of why he's so earnest to help#but im keeping this point in the tags until i can confidently verify that with myself after some more reading#Unfortunately a favorite pass time of mine is psychoanalyzing characters like why else you think i major in psychology smh#im going to force myself to cap the post here because i ended up typing like 20 more tags just rambling#and as i said id like to keep this simple and clean !!!!! i have sat here for like four hours answering this ngl#ignore the fact half that time was spent getting distracted by solitaire and riffling cards ok I Am Very Easily Distracted#but fr when it comes to charles and erik- charles esp imo#i feel like i need to write a whole paper just so i can mention the nuances of the characters and like. EVERYTHING#because again six decades is A Lot of time for writing decisions to be made and for their characters to change over time#im a glazer but i wanna be a nuanced glazer yk. is that glazing at that point-- w/e anyway#its a lot. so today you will have to tolerate a very Blah answer from me which i must apologize for#down the line once ive read a comfortable amount more varying from multiple eras maybe ill revisit this question more in depth#as of right now tho .... chat i wanna get legion of x so bad i skimmed it and hhhhhhhhim gonna throw UP#i need to shake charles like a ragdoll BUT ANYWAY. bye bye for now lovelies !!!!!!!#please forgive me if i didnt answer your question efficiently ..#here i am saying i wanted to keep the tag count brief and yet !!! jesus christ. shut up My God I REACHED THE TAG LIMIT
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watching haikyuu after being in the blue lock pit for a while is so refreshing. like they're so normal
#one of my favorite things about liking different sports manga is getting to compare the protagonists#and hinata and isagi have a similar hunger—that's a really big theme in haikyuu too‚ and hinata in reference to the way he plays as eating#is brought up but it's different than isagi. i think the most succint way to put it is hinata's 'the view from the top is one i could never#see on my own' vs isagi's 'im a striker' [and the whole 'we will‚ no i will lead japan to victory] thing#but hinata's selfishness is an important part of his character as well and that's how he growsa#granted haikyuu is a story about connection and blue lock is a battle manga so like the comparisons are Clearly not necessarily. Accurate#but it's interesting!! that there's similarities. and i guess that could be attributed to the traits you need to be a successful athlete#i was on the same track team as a few guys who are probably going to be in the olympics and like. You have to be insane for these things#oh also another interesting comparison is hinata and isagi's relative backgrounds; hinata lives in a rural area and had a lot less#opportunities than his peers and did what he could and isagi is Literally Average Guy From Average Suburb.#i have few points to make here it's just interesting comparison [<- i think i have already said this twice]#though actually yeah the themes of class show up pretty consistently in hq but very subtly and it's literally just in like. the way you see#differences in opportunities based on income and area in real life. it's just There Always#anyway i have to go rinse.my hair the deep condition is done#masayapping#<- YAPPED FR
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g guys …,,.??:!; GU YSGUYS ….
a little rant in the tags bcs im Emotional™️ and so full of love rn
#yeah so i read the messages on my tree …#what the hell man#WHAT THE HELLLDNWNFBSN#/pos btw#WHY ARE YOU GUYS MAKING ME CRY#ITS LIKE BARELY 8 AM#yall are responsible#for the amount of pillow sheets i have to change#DRENCHED IN TEARS I TELL YA#/hj#i love u guys so much …#CHAT I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH#i wouldve screamed it out loud at the top of a building if i could#but alas im just a shy potato#why do u guys think i usually use ily instead of the full sentence ….#SKJWHDJSJS IM SO AWKWARD AND CRINGE PLS IM SO SORRY#(btw im always down to chat abt anything !! no matter how shy i am to start anything lol)#but yea i pray that everyone here#will get everything theyve ever wished for COME TRUE !!!#kithes and smooches and hugs for u all#i recorded your msgs btw#wanna keep them to myself like a dragon hoarding its precious treasures <3#u guys r my treasures fr#would want to frame them and put em in my room too if i could hm#or maybe make a scrapbook#wait thats actually a good idea :o#anyways yea i love u guys sm#and i appreciate every one of u here !! thankyou sm for existing !!! and coming into my life !!! <3#💬 rye rants
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hey guys happy holidays fr. i love you all so much and even if we dont talk and are still mutuals or even if we arent mutuals. i love you!!!!!! holidays suck sometimes and i am here to say i want you all in my life forever and always xoxo gossip maddie
#guys (gn) as always#fr im such a grinch this year#and if anyone needs to grinch out im here to yap w you#or sit in silence idk how but i will#i LOVE. fr. love you all w my whole grinch heart#maddie yaps
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Continuing from my last post bout Mind, we also need to talk more about how paranoid & untrusting/second-guessing your mind can be cause i think its very interesting
#as somone whos way too paranoid for its own good i like seeing it portrayed into mind#im not projecting you are shush#but like especially the way he sometimes assumes heart is lying or doing thing for attention/pity#cause its like when your brain would tell those things#or maybe thats just my mental illness talking#also not trying to paint heart as innocent here this was just a mind post#heart can also be a bit self centered or the whole claiming to be the victim thing#but also thats not bashing heart either i love the guy too#this is just me looking at some lyrics and how the characters operate and going#“omg hes just like me fr fr” and projecting#none of them are okay and its fun to characterize the reasons why#heart always claims to be the victim mind thinks hes better off without the rest & souls answer to the problem is to off everyone/himself#all bad thoughts but to heal we must take funny lil guys and make them sad#and project said feelings & thoughts unto them#okay im realizing a main reason i like hms/cjs music is i might relate to it too much#im fine i swear#i haven't even talked about the fact i like his two wuv hokum all ye faithful & hallelujah covers a lil too much#i need a cj's music trauma bingo card/j#okay rant over#chonny jash#cj mind
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In hindsight I should of been posting more stuff with my ship with Arthur 😭😭😭 people out here thinking my ship with him is new,,,, been shipping with him since 2019 when the first movie came out smaknxjsjsisks fuck 😅😅😅 Only just been posting more about him lately because the new movie lit that spark back up 🥺🥺🥺
not mad/no hate to those thinking that my ship with him is new (/gen) Since before Oct. I hadn't actually posted any shipping art ive done with him before on this blog,,,,, mostly cause I drew it all back in 2019/2020 before this blog was made and it's too old and ugly to repost now,,,, but I def randomly reblogged post/gifs for him, while yeah it was few and far in between, I don't think people pay as much attention to that?? 🤔 at least not as much attention as a personally made post,,,,, 🤔 and I think maybe some people dont check others f/o list when they follow?? (more so ppl probs see it then just forget who's on it, which is fair lol) but yeah,, hes been on my list as a main the entire time ive had this blog 😅😅😅
#again /nm..... it more makes me kinda sad... not deeply sad more just a lil bummed lol#like its not that serious is what im saying 💀 (dont want anyone to feel bad lol)#but like bold of you to assume im capable of adding a new f/o 🤨 (/lh)#fr sorry to disappoint I hardly ever get new f/os... it's just the same guys as always here 😂#my post
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dreamily sighs and screams
#getting emotional about ben because im never normal about ANYTHING in my life ......#just hdgjdfg UHFDGF WAH#hes so special to me....... probably why the colour green means so much to me... why its always been a fav colour of mine for who knows how#long#i like red too... obviously.#but like#he is so special to me. like i said. hes so special to me and i get ridiculously happy#i forgot how happy he makes me....#genuinely forgot how comforting this fandom is..... its so comforting#whys gushing on here so scary. i dont know. it makes no sense.#ughhhhhh#i mean ive been thinking about fanon a lot i love fanon so much it is so special to me#found family trope fr#but like sometimes i think how people treat fanon him and it makes me so sad :(#or maybe im remembering it incorrectly#but theyre always so mean to him .... or make him this comic relief character in fics#like yeah!!! he is REALLY SILLY!!!!!#but we forget hes a trickster!!!! he likes playing devious means to others!!!!!#hes so smart to me i dont know!!!!! he goes through your electronics!!!! he can mess with your files!!!!#honestly he can probably do more than that im just jittery with nerves lol#but oh ok guys. lets just make the coolest guy ever just be the comic relief gamer instead ok man. whatever.#i like the fact fanon depicts him as a gamer thats fun i love that so much :)#BUT STILL HDUGJFGFHFG#HES SO MUCH MORE THAN THAT IM GOING TO THROW MYSELF INTO ORBIT#hes so special to me. hes the worst guy ever when he wants to be. he probably has attachment issues. hes just a silly little guy.#hes everything to me#<- i wish i can remember more and more about him but i cant#all i know is i remembered cleverbot and how you could “interact” with him through it and it made me so ridiculously happy ;-;#of course i know now it was people just playing around and hoping to get something out of it BUT ITS NICE TO THINK ABOUT#sorry hes the most fascinating character to me in the entire world
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sometimes i look at the whole Thing that western gay culture got goin on and just. man. none of that's for me bro idk
#on the funnier and bitchier note its always the Top Musicians for lesbians nd queers like. oh honey that's not..... h.....#on the more isolating note. there is a weird nonexistent space between being a super mean gay and a Softe Baby Gay#(gay being an umbrella term here ofc)#and i sit in that grey (gay) area#straight up rich gays thinking it's cunty and cool to be rude to poor people or queer ppl who dont have the money to live their lifestyle#(or who dont want to live their lifestyle)#lesbians hating men. including queer men. so so much that its cruel and horrible#gay men sayimg shit like the one comment I saw that went “this was a good video until the girl came in” and it was just some random#clip of people chilling or whatever. stfu#and then on the other spectrum its like. these eternally victimised softe baby beans that are so clearly on tiktok and Tumblr too much#and think being gnc or queer has to Look or behave a certain way#i feel SICK. but maybe its not so much the queer spaces i hate. as much as americanised cultures in general#anyway flashback to when i was seeing Genuine Posts about how if you dont listen to girl in red ur Not a lesbian#or the opposite being like. if she listens to girl in red she's gay she's just in the closet#and they were dead serious abt it every time#now im seeing it about ch*pelle r*an and just. guys please shut up fr 😭😭😭
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oh i want to say hiiiii to everyone who sees this!
hiiii 💜♥️
hope you’re having a nice day!
#sksksksksks#to the three point five people who will see this: i am so happy you’re here!#sry we haven’t talked in a while!#i’m just popping in but i miss you guys fr!!#I HAVE SO MANY THINGS TO SAY ANd DO AND SHARE AND READ#also i keep missing stuff im sry about that too!#this is why you guys should always self reblog skdjdj#anyway! happy spring 🌹🌸🌷🌼🌿#prsnl
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Here's a bit of writing I did with some of my main OC's. There's more on the way, but I'm still editing it and am sleepy. I wanted to post at least something today though.
Anyway here you go :3
313 stood alone in the bedroom, facing the mirror that hung by the door. It had been a few hours since they were sent to bed. Dejalynn had been excited for a restful night and happily dozed in the room next door with that beast she called a pet. The kid deserved rest, she’d been put through hell the last couple days and 313 was happy that she had a warm bed for night.
He was a lot less happy about the fact they were staying with a man they’d met only a couple days prior. Almanzar had been kind so far, but that could always change, from his experience it often did, he learned that the hard way. His job was to keep Deja safe and staying here was both dangerous and stupid, but it got her a bed for the night, and for that he was thankful.
313 looked into the mirror. He hadn’t seen a good reflection of himself in a while, not since before he left home. His hair was longer now, reaching the middle of his back. He ran his fingers through the dark mess, catching knots on the way down. There was a strong urge to rip and tear at it, instead, he let his arm drop to his side, there would be time to deal with his hair later. The bags around his eyes had gotten heavier since the last time he saw himself. He looked skinnier too. And more scars covered his body than he remembered.
He looked up towards the antlers that sprouted from his head. They were smaller this year and hadn’t split or started to curve yet. They remained nubs of velvet on the top of his head, useless to him in both self-defense and appearance. At the very least it was easier to pass in front of the townsfolk.
That too was another problem. Say Almanzar was a good man, that didn’t ensure he would be kind about anyone who wasn’t human.
Just another excuse for him to change his mind and kick them out. It’s not exactly like he was lacking in them. 313 knew how adults viewed him and his sister, he knows that the only place they’ll have for certain is the streets. Staying here and playing pretend was just delaying the inevitable. He reached down into his pocket and felt the reassuring weight of the pocketknife. At least like this, they’d have a few days alone in the house. He’d be able to plan their next moves, maybe sell some of the junk the old man kept and have some actual spending money.
Everything was going to be ok, it had to be. 313 was going to make sure of that.
#facing the mortifying ideal of being known fr fr#there is a decent amount left i need to edit but again: sleepy#also specifically @ Kestrel: this isn't the guy I was telling you about but it IS about Dima when he was a kid and didn't have a solidified#chosen name yet. Also if some of the lore I told you contradicts this... we do not see (im changing stuff around rn and seeing what works)#captains log#<3#:3#(I always feel annoying when I share my writing but we gonna hit post bc this is my house. I live here.)
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Made another new friend in Genshin but man it made me realize I'm no longer cut out for this human interaction stuff. Like it's cool to talk to people, especially ones I get along with and have stuff in common with, but I don't wanna add people on discord immediately and join servers they're in and look at videos they send me and play other games with them. Like basically "You're not getting me to a secondary location" ya know??? Like on here it's slow progression of interaction that becomes messaging that leads to all sorts of other friendship stuff and that's awesome, but stuff that takes up all my time to do other things I don't wanna do is like. Man, I'm old.
#its probably a generation gap too#i just dont have the energy for all that#and fr im not talking about anything on here. its just very obvious that i have aged past the way current teens and kids do friendship#message me once and i'll get back to you in an hour. but i'll feel bad about taking an hour lol.#i dont wanna sit in a voice chat for 5 hours getting unsuccessfully convinced to play something else#youre cool and all but i wanna play genshin. we can play genshin together. i dont wanna join a youtuber's discord server that youre in tho#i dont have the energy for this. everyone tumblr is so slow and low energy (in a positive way)#i was like this as a kid too. its not like i grew out of being a fast paced sociable person like these kids are#i wanna clarify none of this applies to you guys tho. send me 500 funny tiktoks in a row. i will (metaphorically) kiss you for it#(tho i will say it is awesome when the kids think im cool. thats always nice.#and also i hope i never get tired of people being like 'youre a 25yo guy?? with that voice??'#i try to make it a bit deeper and im also upfront with saying that i know my voice is weird even if you think im a girl. its just bad ik)#personal
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been playing yttd over the course of the last few days and it's really good and also if ANYTHING ever happens to gin again i will commit crimes
#mine#yttd#yttd spoilers#the game is really good though like genuinely holy crap#we arent done yet but we are on chapter 3 rn#gin is very obviously our favorite we are never immune to wittle guys AND HE IS JUST A WITTLE GUY#AND A CANONICALLY AUTISTIC WITTLE GUY WE ADORE HIM SO MUCH#HE BETTER LIVE I SWEAR TO SHIT I SWEAR TO ABSOLUTE FUCKING SHIT#the trial w him getting poisoned.... bro. you look me in my eyes NEVER FUCKING HURT HIM AGAIN#EVER#and him always defending sara and calling all the girls his big sis i cant i cant i adore him thats my son#THATS MY SON!!!!! NEVER HARM A HAIR ON HIS WITTLE HEAD AGAIN#also sou is absolutely fucking insufferable he makes me miss & appreciate n*gito which is like. fr fucked up#i didnt think that was possible but here we are#& i feel like a bad person bc in spite of that i chose him over kanna......#I JUST. I FEEL LIKE HE'S V MUCH INVOLVED SOMEHOW IDK BRO#IM ONTO HIS SHIT. he already lied abt his identity he feels so involved bro.#idk how Exactly. he's a bit too obvious to be the mastermind or an organizer but.#he def is involved. with the strings. Somehow. and i hate him.
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Was tlaking to my bf about my issues w tumblr and he was like "yeah, ever since they got rid of porn neo nazis have been trying to take over the site" and i think that just makes everything make so much more sense on here. The puritanism, the division, the intentional misunderstanding, the fact ppl act like kiwi farmers and fucking. Record people they dont likes every fuckin action. Ppl making excuses for some of the most fucked up behavior. The fact i feel like i cant post my art lest i be hella judged for being #problematic in a way i dont know or understand, the fact ppl are so quick to call people problematic and dismiss them, the way people call you a "lib" like a conservative would and especially for things like idk. Not wanting to kill people. The fact we've somehow normalized saying "kys" to eachother, the fact everyones so fucking paranoid on here about eachother. Like Idk if i feel like i can call this a progressive site anymore or if i can even call it leftist when ppl are like speedrunning trying to prove horseshoe theory true and its like. Are they even real leftists? Probably some of them are or were and get swept up in bs secret neo nazis post. And its not like this is entirely new, neo nazis have been trying to manipulate people since forever on here. I just wish people could recognize when their morals have been compromised by a jackass whos good at wording things a certain way. Im starting to feel like the only way to interact w this site is to reblog pretty pictures and go.
#you may hate vaush but fr when i used to watch him.... a lot of the ways people have 'discussions' on here seems the same when he would#confront neo naizs. theyd try to weasel out of their positions or pretend they dont hold certain positions or try to manipulate leftists in#a way like 'ooh but this thing negatively effects queer people' but it was always easy to see through then bc you already knew#they were neo nazis. on here anyone can throw on a cutesy avatar and get away w saying the most fucked up shit and no one is#none the wiser. like neo nazis can just fucking hide in plain sight bc they know how to mimic how we look and act#while also trying to impront on us some of the most fucked up ideals.#idk. for example. anyone trying to act like theres a moral way to rape someone? probably a fucking neo nazi!#this website and the people on it are so untrustworthy and it sucks bc it can be hard to know whos actually on your side#this is why im an actions not words guy. they might be able to say stuff in a way that appeals to them but what are their *actions*.#how do their beliefs work out when they exercise them? how do they treat other people? does it seem like they want amy excuse to be violent#bc golly fuckin gee does that sound like a neo nazi to me.#the fact people seem way more grounded in leftism offline and not so... divisive. even if we disagree on stuff. kinda tells me everything?#bc if ur really a leftist why does that attitude suddenly change when you get online?
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he is inventing e-banking (eluvian banking) since anyone can move their gold to the lighthouse safer and quicker than any caravan across the imperial highway to a treasury. and he is going to force the rest of the Veilgurd to finally learn what a business deduction is
Lucanis is the only member of the Veilguard with real business sense and eventually he is going to figure out that he can turn the Lighthouse into a tax haven
#im inventing financial crimes thedas has never even considered right now#let me in#ramblings#lucanis#lucanis dellamorte#the veilguard#dragon age: veilguard#i love how invested he is in everyone elses finances tho fr. he always Knows A Guy#lucanis that guy can be me. im going to tell you about white collar crime next#jade plays dav#once the groupchat goes to bed all my cursed thoughts have to come here bc i am up for 4-6 hours after they Leave Me have u guys noticed tha#lucanisposting
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I should not have been taught so badly for 3 years that i genuinely have to google how to find job postings in my field. "Get a degree!! Get a degree!!" for why. To be laughed at by out of touch tutors and not taught anything? It's certainly not going to help me get a job because i CANT FIND THEM. "People will see you went here and that will give you credibility." Will it roderick. Because I now know not to trust a motherfucker who went here 💀
#rangnar rambles#taught by people who have not ever had to get into the industry in this state. dont know how to use computers. and (i cannot stress this#enough) DID NOT TEACH ME ANYTHING#I GET MY 27K PIECE OF PAPER IN 2 WEEKS AND YOU CANT TAKE IT FROM ME. SO CAN I GET SOME CONTACTS OR SM#but no yeah im so normal and glad i spent my time like this#WHAT DID I SPEND THREE YEARS OF MY LIFE DOING#if youre going to study illustration in the uk just go to falmouth. i dont go there but anywheres better than here#if [REDACTED] has no haters i am dead and have been ejected from the universe#if i could go back in time id do maths at a level and become a fucking accountant jesus christ#i had a tutor last year who used to do coke and got paid 15k to sit in front of a camera doing nothing by a mate in LA#the same guy our year got fired for being incompetent and aggressive when you asked for help (like. his fucking job)#AND HIS GIRLFRIEND. who was also a tutor and MORE INCOMPETENT#i had one tutor the whole course who had my back i love you jeremy i hope you finally get to retire and stop having to run FOUR COURSES#only man who actually had us do drawing exercises and taught us (in SECOND YEAR) how to draw perspective#so many people got to final semester and suddenly got failed bc tutors were lying to our faces about the quality of our work and not giving#accurate crit. how humiliating is that for everyone involved??#you dont want to tell us our work is shit until the grades are coming out?? and ur shocked when you havent taught anyone anything?? be so fr#it was like they were always shocked that we wanted direction and advice and our feedback was always met with 'well in the 80s there was a#big push for thia kind of open loosey goosey art course' its not the 80s anymore and students have been complainging for a decade#management would 'take on board' criticism and then bank on us all being gone in 3 years so they wouldnt have to actually do anything#all while taking our money and shutting down the entire humanities section of the uni#*actively wating wires* anyway no yeah im soo glad i spent my time like this at least i got a girlfriend i GUESS
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