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adding onto a frontstuck one i sent,
sysculture is one alter getting frontstuck (bonus points if its the same alter that gets front stuck all the time) (its me) - but way more than usual/before - having moments where i/we(?) completely forget something that happened a SECOND AGO.
"huh my stomach hurts like i was laughing hard, were we just laughing at something a bit ago?"
our fp/my partner: "i.. yes??? we were laughing at [insert thing we were laughing at] lol"
"oh! ok" (realizing i feel different and a bit confused now?? did we have another fast switch we didnt notice??? oh well.)
while also having possible passive influences a LOT more than usual, but not full switches, and dissocating bad
(heres where it starts to get a bit messy,)
also if youre front stuck so much, starting to hate your name and writing your name on the fronter status, so much so even thinking about your name makes you feel gross or even angry
sorry for this being long 💔
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#endos dni#osdd#did#pdid#did system#osddid#pdid system#actually did#traumagenic#actually dissociative#plural culture is#syspunk
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been playing yttd over the course of the last few days and it's really good and also if ANYTHING ever happens to gin again i will commit crimes
#mine#yttd#yttd spoilers#the game is really good though like genuinely holy crap#we arent done yet but we are on chapter 3 rn#gin is very obviously our favorite we are never immune to wittle guys AND HE IS JUST A WITTLE GUY#AND A CANONICALLY AUTISTIC WITTLE GUY WE ADORE HIM SO MUCH#HE BETTER LIVE I SWEAR TO SHIT I SWEAR TO ABSOLUTE FUCKING SHIT#the trial w him getting poisoned.... bro. you look me in my eyes NEVER FUCKING HURT HIM AGAIN#EVER#and him always defending sara and calling all the girls his big sis i cant i cant i adore him thats my son#THATS MY SON!!!!! NEVER HARM A HAIR ON HIS WITTLE HEAD AGAIN#also sou is absolutely fucking insufferable he makes me miss & appreciate n*gito which is like. fr fucked up#i didnt think that was possible but here we are#& i feel like a bad person bc in spite of that i chose him over kanna......#I JUST. I FEEL LIKE HE'S V MUCH INVOLVED SOMEHOW IDK BRO#IM ONTO HIS SHIT. he already lied abt his identity he feels so involved bro.#idk how Exactly. he's a bit too obvious to be the mastermind or an organizer but.#he def is involved. with the strings. Somehow. and i hate him.
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hi heres art so you pay attention to me now go read the tags
#ive been rewatching episode 7 like its the only thing on youtube and made note of many things#first off. the solver can only have one host. nori mentions skyn wants to kill off all the other solver hosts (with the dds) and disregards#the idea of both uzi and doll being its current host when they get chased#plus the main solver possessions only occur when skyn is out of the picture (the fightt in ep 7 is only after n decapitates “tessa”)#solver uzi is possible too but i dont count her cause she doesn't have the yellow#personal theory is that its more an instinctual response to overheating or something and not full on possession#second off nori calls the solver cyn. how does she know that name#cyn was on earth and only showed up to copper 9 recently and i presume nori's been here her whole life#it probably wasn't the other dds cause none of them made it down and they're all more savage beasts#since cyn specifies n's team retained their personalities and that makes me think the other teams didnt#also also we should've immediately questioned tessa arriving in the same type of pod as the mds when they were revealed to not be sent by j#im running out of characters also the people who dont like when i use tags like this can bite me#murder drones#murder drones nori#artori? that sounds cool#ill probably just stick with nori though#i have so many solver heart refs now#art#episode 7#murder drones episode 7#murder drones episode 7 spoilers#using the same black for shadows as my lineart doesn't work when i have to draw thin things over it#murder drones spoilers
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"why don't you want him to know how much you love him?" "that's a little personal. he knows." "uh-huh."
#interview with the vampire#iwtv#armand#the vampire armand#loumand#louis de pointe du lac#daniel molloy#alice molloy#must preface that NOBODY IS ALLOWED TO USE THIS FOR LDPDL HATE PURPOSES#even though louis (well both of them lbr) clearly had communication and commitment issues#armand directed a play that would KILL louis all because he was self conscious that louis didn't love him enough#anyway this is just one interpretation of the 'alice rejected daniel's proposal' convo scene#cause i see soo many people ask 'why did armand say all that' (and have wondered so myself)#even though we cant rule out the possibility that devil's minion happened in the past and that this was armandaniel history tease#armand could be projecting his choice re: louis and the trial onto alice's choice here#similar to how daniel was projecting his feelings about paris onto claudia in this same episode#i just think this would make sense thematically w armand's arc this season#(ie revealing what a deeply insecure and selfish and fucked up lover he is under his guise as a 500 yo devoted and caring husband)#armand 🤝 lestat: i will love you and i will hurt you. if i cant have you then i will break you#[plays under your spell by desire] whats the difference between love and obsession and desire? do you think this feeling could last forever#c.txt#mine#'she didnt think she could trust you' sounds like a YOU problem buddy#and then armand realizes he was wrong too late and bro was SCRAMBLING#the start of something beautiful aka failmarriage!!! :D
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In honor of the @rw-ship-showdown I wanted to write about Artihunter as someone who jokingly slapped them together pre-downpour and still thinks they are actually very compelling. Just not in the super soft love wins kinda way (Although I get why people like that more) And the only way I know how to do that is talking too much so heres a far too long slug essay-
Obviously the slugcats don't offer a ton of characterization but theres not nothing to work with. Their stories, whether by their roles in it or the overarching themes do provide a backbone to work with. Even gameplay itself can provide a bit. (for some more than others) Hunter, to me, is ultimately a story about selflessness. The goal is to revive Moon, which is very much an act of kindness from both Hunter and NSH. But the weight of that action is much more significant for Hunter- Hunter is deeply sick. They're on the clock, and for all their skill in combat none of that will ultimately help them to survive longer than their body can hold out. Moon is a close friend of NSH but that means little Hunter- Hunter really gets next to nothing out of helping them, and ultimately pays quiet a bit spending their limited time alive fighting to deliver that neuron so that someone else can live.
To spend ones limited days on helping another, in a game that very much stresses the unwavering cruelty of the world and nature- is pretty notable. (And you could even say that Hunter being the Hardmode of Rain World adds another layer to this)
And then we have Artificer. A storyline that very much stands out to people as more… villainous (so to speak) than the other slugcats. Artificer's story covers a lot of things. Trauma, violence, revenge, etc. Revenge is a bit of a selfish desire- That need to see someone hurt as they have hurt you. A punishment that ultimately does not fix whatever harm was done- but feels good to see because you were hurt and now those responsible share that pain.
Artificer's actions are founded in that need for revenge, their pups killed for overstepping boundaries they didn't know existed. Is it not fair for them to be angry at that, to punish the scavengers for their violence with their own? Why should the scavengers ever be forgiven when they and their pups were not? And that's how you get that loop- Harm for harm over and over.
The original action has been lost in a spiral of violence for violence. And here stands Artificer- their very spirit scarred. Not just because they sought revenge, but because they never ceased trying to scratch that itch for violence as an answer. Artificer only has two paths for their story- killing the scavenger king (Someone who, really, has little to do with the original 'crime' of the scavengers, but represents an important individual to them- as did the slugpups to Artificer), locking themselves as karma one for good and spending the rest of their life chasing creatures that no longer even fight back in a warped sense of closure- or to dissolve themselves in the acids of the void sea because they're too far gone to find any real peace.
They can't meaningfully recover from that state, not alone, twisting in on themselves. Even if they halt their actions, they've been using violence as a feeble defense against their own pain- violence that no longer has any real direction or basis. Artificer gets no real closure from killing the scavenger king. All they can do is continue the cycle, or try to scrub it away. No real peace in a prison of their own making. So you have a creature, who even with a strict timer on their life- a body that will crumble to disease, spends its last bit of time on saving another. And another who was so caught up in the pain of loss that were eaten alive by their own anger, poisoned their own soul on such a deep level even self-proclaimed gods have no solution for them. What peace can they offer each other? For Hunter, its only a fleeting moment of happiness- of selfish love, before their own body fails them. A bit of indulgence in something for themself. For Artificer, its a single, comforting thread to ground them again, something tangible to protect and care about again. But thats a thread that will ultimately be snapped under the cruel indifference of the world. Hunters timer will tick down regardless of if it takes another with it. Its a tragedy- its doomed to end badly. Whatever good it offers to either of them to find each other will only provide the fleeting comfort of a band-aid that will be ripped away too early. But all that can be worth indulging in anyway, if only for the moment. It doesn't change the ending, but the ending was never going to be happy. Its can so yuri
#rain world#rw shipping#tagging that just cause this is explicitly about that even though I usually dont do shipping stuff#with that said i dont even think this particular interpretation of a possible dynamic needs to be romantic its just kinda#about companionship in general. companionship thats going to absolutely shred an already unstable slug emotionally but thats#the point. friendship and love in spite of the unavoidable ending#just noticed this is like 80% theme analysis and 20% 'these go together just trust me'#but also theyre both girls because i want them to and also because im channeling hornet from hollow knight#who made me so deeply ill that my rain world tags still havent outcompeted my Hk tags because i drew her so much. so so much.#hunter is hornet coded to me and artificer is like if angela and gebura from lc combined into a deeply fucked up ferret#also i did tag the poll because they kinda inspired this but also. i wasnt gonna put all this out here WITHOUT a readmore thats embarassing#but i guess this is propaganda for a ship already seen as popular but like... idk i think theres something to it even as someone#who did literally slap them together originally because they were both red slugcats i considered girls. predownpour so we didnt have anythi#anyway hi tag readers i have so much work to do im being bad by writing about gay slugs. i need to get myself together#its so late this might just be nonsense bwaaaaaaa
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good omens fans: "the gays are winning!"
the gays:
#yes but at what cost#we've transitioned from bury your gays to separate them in the most heart wrenching way possible#and i DON'T think that's just neat#yes this is about good omens#but also ofmd#they ofmd'd us#nah but i really enjoyed season 2 fr#also ngl but I missed hastur#he was one of the funniest mf from season 1#good omens#good omens spoilers#good omens 2 spoilers#ineffable husbands#aziraphale x crowley#ALSO MORE SPOILERS HERE BUT#i feel like the only person that did NOT pick up on the whole gabriel x beelzebub thing from the first season#like did everybody just see something that i didnt or what#anyways stream season 2 so we can get season 3 and the happy ending we DESERVE
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Confession #385
#rwby#doomalade#penny polendina#spoilers#volume 8#writing#I mean we have gone through this before here but I do have to wonder what they were thinking#bringing her back without any real setbacks (other than Pietro not being able to possibly build her again)#like idk... if u have to bring her back make her memory being erased or missing or something#~oo watts stole the memory disc we have to get it back~#oh no the gang didnt realised watts had installed malware there no Penny is getting hacked!!!!! ;_;#but yeah#why make her human? wasnt she human enough the way she was..?#Ironwood losing his humanity after having more robotic parts in him and this kinda makes a eeugghh bad look#xyz coding#trans allegory#winter maiden#also yeah there could be some dramatic irony in healer having to kill a friend/ally but cmon guys please anyone else pl-
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‼️ VAMPIRE QUESTION TIME ‼️ [MORAL DILEMMAS ALERT🚨]
if your significant other/best friend were turned into a vampire, would you want them to turn you into one too?
and, vice versa,
if you were turned into a vampire, would you want to turn your significant other/best friend into one too?
#polls#.txt#vampire#vampires#i have QUESTIONS#and i want ANSWERS#what is the nature of my immediate tumblr circle#what would u guys DO#be HONEST#the idea of being immortal is Terrifying imo. my ass has been here long ENOUGH#but would i let my loved one go through this horror possibly alone?#then vice versa... im such a martyr. i'd prob be like ''noooo u cant have to suffer like this with me... ohhHhhh the horrors......''#but if they really wanted to be turned... would i do it?#btvs#iwtv#wwdits#i dont even watch iwtv or wwdits but ik a good amount of my immediate circle does from hannibal-spn-buffy land#so i feel like yall would also have Things To Say!#gimme that INPUT! that DIALOGUE!#maria is literally just rambling. hi#rbs welcome on my posts. i doubt id post smth i didnt want to be engaged with on here#did u guys know that one my first ever interactions on tumblr in like 2013 was me rbing a post and that person sending me an ask (bc we#didnt have dms back in the day) telling me to delete the post from my blog bc they didnt want anyone to reblog it#i was SO confused#and now. all these years later... i still am ??#u made a post on the rbing website...#still. i try to be polite and at least ask in the tags as i rb a smaller note post. like. ill delete if someone wants ofc#but it was So ??? to me bc i dont think it was a particularly personal post and even if it was ??? tumblr is also the Personal Story-Telling#Website#alcjskjcjdjd
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aimsey joins that friend group and all of a sudden unlabeled isnt a sexuality to those ccs and their fans, coincidence? i think not
#neg#/j To An Extent#well#actually idk how much im joking here#bc.#fr it all comes back to aim.sey 💀#ALSO ARE WE ALL FORGETTING RAN.BOO COMING OUT HELLOOOO#or the flag getting added to mcc pride oml we are actively regressing and i didnt think that was possible w the mc.yt community considering#how bad it already is
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Hey do you remember all those videos of Fernando smelling flowers? Haha yeah....
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#posting this both while im asleep and after whatever bee event ends up happening#so who knows what will happen! will we get nothing? will we get eye contact? will we possibly get an interaction? its a surprise!!#anyways this is basically me hearing about seb's bee event and he said the drivers will be there#me deep in my vettonso brainrot: OH MY GOD THEY'RE GONNA BE IN THE SAME VICINITY#will be so funny for me if when i wake up i find out fernando didnt even go 😭#but we remain hopeful 🙏#also this is just very funny to me bcs like both seb and fernando have very specifc quirks#and what are two of their specific quirks? seb and his bee thing. fernando and his flower thing from this season#so this fanart is perfect y'know 🥰🥰🥰#also screeching over how this is the first canon au drawing ive ever drawn. ive literally never drawn non-au until now 💀💀💀#okay and now some horrible jokes thay happened during the process of this:#thesis of this drawing: whats Fernando gonna do? Pollinate him? 😏#C. why did you have to make me think of bees that produce sex pollen 😭😭 this is gonna haunt me forever. but also vettonso post-japan fic-#and then also the barry benson thing. im like what do humanized bees look like and then realized 'oh no....oh no.'#fernando to seb at the bee event: 'ya like samurais...?' SORRY 😭#also having to pick the colors from one of my historical au drawings was haunting. just the sheer difference btwn them yknow......#anyways please take my old men yaoi. took a break from historical yaoi to draw this 😭😭😭😭#this is my peak vettonso fanart cannot improve from here. also a fever dream#vettonso#f1#formula 1#sebastian vettel#fernando alonso#catie.art.#*not gonna edit the tags bcs i like the time capsule of it all but like. yeah. we were fed.#*catie from 2 hours prior(atm its 3 am) would be so pleased right now i think
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very entertaining to me that steve cobs originally created A.D.A.M (and ig B.R.I.A.N and J.U.S.T.I.N) to be a child for some reason?? maybe so he'd be more relatable to mephone? like what was his gameplan here w/ this random 12 year old android........
#txt#inanimate insanity#also old clips of A.D.A.M (and season one in general) always make me sad. especially considering what we know is gonna happen to him#like 😔 he was just a stupid robot but he didnt deserve that. i guess he isnt actually dead but still#i dont think A.D.A.M is a child NOW obviously they aged and grew as the directors they're meant to represent did#i mean i guess it is possible he's meant to be the “same age” here as he is in the season finale#but clearly they see cobs as some sort of weird father figure and they grew up together so i would say#they probably were created as “children” bcuz they'd be easier to control and manipulative#brian. brian. brian. brian. brian.... BRIAN. BRIAN..... :(#for a stupid ass improv stream they did playing robot versions of themselves it had no right to be as emotionally devastating as it was
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the thing thats disgusting me the most about all this is david jenkins saying that izzy was like a "father figure" to ed. because like where??? idk i cant put my thoughts together too well rn but like. theres always been a very clear power imbalance on ed's side with ed being izzy's boss and all. in season one izzy states multiple times that ed has always been a brilliant sailor and fighter and he was honored to work for him, when he (presumably for the first time ever) threatens ed he gets the tables flipped on him almost immediately, he suffers continuous abuse at the hands of ed, etc. and that to me makes it impossible to place izzy in a mentor/father figure role because a father figure is supposed to have strength and autonomy and its only after izzy has been freed from ed that he gets to experience those. idk its such an odd and mischaracterizing statement that david (from what he said) based his entire decision to kill off izzy off of. not to even mention him teasing edizzy and steddyhands all throughout his interviews for the season to then turn around and say izzy was a father figure all along? mf did u forget u had this father figure sing the soundtrack to the main couple's first time literally two eps ago?? im so so disgusted
#ofmd#izzy hands#david jenkins#its impossible to have queerbait on a queershow#whats this then😭#tbh i didnt think it was possible either but here we are#david fatherzoned him#he deserved better on so many levels...#ofmdspoilers
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bro is dead next chapter
#figured ill start yapping here abt my interests whenever im feelin brave enough#oh my lort . kengo. 😂. 😭.#was thinking abt the first chapter where koichi got mad at keiichi for starting a fight in his vicinity like#he is NAWT gonna let the doping slide LMAO 😭#i cant blame him tho if i were in his position id wanna beat his ass too bc that's potentially taking the whole team down w him#and career ruining obviously#literally have no clue where this could go im on the EDGE OF MY SEATTT#trying not to think about it too much and just go with the flow bc i feel like trying to predict the plot#could set me up for disappointment yk?#trusting noda w this one#bc like. technically we didnt see kengo take the drugs#holdin out hope that theres a possibility he didnt#its also hard to tell bc he was on penalty the entire time he was in that game LOL like we didnt even see him play#the confontation gonna b crazay intense tho i just kno#otherwise i feel ljke its hard to tell where this can go rn#augh... kengo... prayin for u.... COME BACK TO THE LIGHT SIDE#what kengo wrong !!! 🤪🤪😂😂😂🤣🤣🤣🤣throwing up crying#whatever let the kengo apologist games begin ill ride or die for u#this high school hockey shit is serious help (not rlyLOL)#oops sry mb it was chapter 2***
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#oh lads. lads. lads. lads. im being sucked back into the world of academia#i dont even kno what happened. a week ago i was crying bc i was like: this is impossible. i simply cannot do this.#and then i went into the lab sunday and miraculously i was able to easily read some papers. like i dont kno how to discribe how baffling it#was. like reading papers is like pulling teeth and this was somehow easy. i think maybe it was bc i let myself get distracted and wander#thru it. and then after that i got so much done this week and i was tired but having fun. and like the thing is: i fucking love evolution#it's like puzzling out the code for life in both a metaphical and literal sense. its fucking incredible. and my project is also very#interesting. if a bit intimidating in its scope. ya kno. just in the way photosynthesis is generally intimidating#but i think i have a strain thats lost chlf which is really interesting and my advisor said we might have the money to try some crispr for#my cyano children. hypothetically. maybe. and i get to do some poking around in genomes. theres so so much to love there#how could i possibly want to do anything else? and yet. and yet. here at the end of the week im so wrung out and i kno i just have to start#again on sunday and i kno im gonna have to step it up in terms of reading if i want to make it through a committee meeting and proposal#defense. not to even mention a comprehensive exam. and what do i get at the end of all this? a lifetime of academia draining my life away.#bc what i do is so academic. so whats the point? its just so frustrating.#and on top of that ive got all this data from my old lab that i kno i have to work on. and i will. i will. but with what time?#anyway the point is. i can see a path forward now where i stay here and decide the pain will be worth it despite not knowing where im going#after that. im just so tried#but right now it feels like im gonna stay until someone kicks me out#but that doesnt exactly make me feel happy. ugh. but if i stay i want to get my old pi to come here and give a seminar. ill warn her how#intimidating the department is tho. we've had 2 talks in the last 2 weeks that were... not good. particularly the one this week#like she couldnt answer a single question they thru at her and didnt seem to kno her data sets. it was hard to watch. anyway. i just want#to see my academic mother again. send me back to the desert! let me rot in a field full of sage#but send me back to the hills of an older mountain range. where i can climb sandstone cliffs and lay in carpets of moss. except i wouldnt do#that bc of all the ticks and threat of lyme disease...#anyway. im still tired. still sad. and there doesnt seem to b a way out#unrelated
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Episode 91 Nara to Neil: Is it because you know, because you know that my affection is a means to an end or do you feel something for Wynn and don't know how to say it?
Episode 95 Neil to Wynn: If this is a moment where there’s a line in the sand about us staying together, you know I’ll follow you to go die.
Episode 91 Neil to Nara: I haven’t known these things maybe for a long time, and so I just sit in inaction because I don’t know.
Episode 95 Narration of Neil by Rob: When Wynn confirms to Britta that she’s in love with Kabir, Neil goes stock still.
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#path of night podcast#i am the very definition of this meme#there's gotta be something here right??? right???????#what would be real fun that would be an absolutely massive undertaking would be pulling out all these little moments between neil and wynn#that could potentially show some sort of interest from neil bcuz lbr u are lying to yourself if u didnt at some point go hm neil and wynn??#so was the ladder neil admitting to himself he doesn't know if he's in love with wynn or was the ladder confirming that he is in love#with wynn bcuz its his own sub conscious who posited this#and how long do you have to be thinking about something for it to manifest in the ladder#we got suicidal neil and neil possibly in love with wynn in one fell swoop#the ladder was just chalk full of so many implications there for everyone ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh#also hmmmm parallels between neil's ladder with the new york skyline and the suicide talk to wynn and neil on the roof at the rave talking#hmmmmmmmmmm#why do i do this to myself#its so much searching and then fucking around with puncuation sorry for the atrocious punctuation i am not a transcriber#theres also no way to accurately capture tone of voice or the silences and emphases imo#like wynn when she says yeah to answer britta's question on whether she's in love with kabir#also considered including the follow up “he doesn't mean the most to me but i am in love with him” line from wynn like cmon#im dying here
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OKAY. OKAY. WINTERS FAMILY TORMENT NEXUS. as i've said before this is all REALLY vague rough outlines bc i wanted to bounce it all back n forth with u. but. what i have:
>winters family (mark & ashe & fridged mom/wife) live in a location hit by the simurgh
>mark is at work when she arrives. something horrific happens at home. maybe his wife is injured or hurt, but not killed. ashe (7/8/9) triggers. whatever his powers are, they. do Not help heal his mom. in fact the opposite.
>mark tears back home asap instead of leaving as soon as he hears her song, actively choosing to stay in her effect zone for his family. finds newly triggered baby ashe & the rest of that scene.
>theyve spent too long in the affected zone to be allowed to go free, especially since ashe triggered from it. mark nukes his whole past life & ashe's to escape without undergoing all the protocols. he spends ages doing shit work to support him & ashe bc theyre both legally dead, ends up working for overlord, manages to get enough of a fake past to get through cauldron background checks & get powers? it'll pay so much better than the grunt work he's doing now & he has to support ashe (powered)(legally dead)(would probably be executed if anyone Found Out)....
anyway to me the trickster is like. the endgame of this specific simurgh rube goldberg. somehow it doesn't end horrifically, for once! but it gets. bad. the fact that they're simurgh survivors is always looming over their heads. its why mark fucking freaks out when ashe joins the wards. literally have nothing more specific than this though u gotta help me put meat on these bones!!!!! STOP "being responsible" and "doing work" and stuff START thinking incessantly abt nhw ashe!!!!! i don't even know his powers bc i have no clue how he triggered!!!! augh. god. them..... mods torture that blonde man in the most narratively satisfying and fucked up way possible!!!!
QUIT YOUR JOB JOIN MY EMO WARDS !!!!!!!!!!!!! god dude god dude I'm gonna be thinking about this all fucking DAY . who needs to be responsible and have a job. not me!!!! FUCK !!!!!!!! dude im just. thinking abt mark being at work getting the notice to evacuate and starting to hear the song and. bc it's important to me that he's a little bit of a coward. it takes him longer than he will ever admit to decide to go back to his family. he definitely hesitates and hates himself for it because. what if he had gotten there 10 minutes earlier! who fucking knows! he never will!!
god man I'm just thinking about. that scene where they're in the hospital waiting to hear back about noelle and the person (ai?) at the desk is giving them the rundown of all the containment procedures and handing them paperwork and asking them if they can pay for the medical care. how fucked up would that be to hear after you're in the midst of losing everything. mark winters the universes most hated man. I looooooove the satisfaction in thinking about that snap decision where he goes from "relatively normal if a little emotionally repressed but otherwise does his best suburban dad" to "my wife is dead and my son is fucked up and there's this fucking sound in my head that won't go away I'm about to erase everything and break several laws in order to get us out of here" and how that eventually leads into. supervillain. it's just soooooooo. sickos haha yessss the downfall of this fucking miserable blonde guy. when do you think he consciously made that choice. he heard "you're never going to get out of here and live a normal life again" do you think he just . sat with that for a while. ashe unresponsive either due to shock or fear or the trauma of triggering/whatever his powers are and mark just has to sit there. by himself. like what the fuck am I gonna do now. auaghghghghhhh I need 2 make him so miserable forever. fuck that guy i hate his ass (<< me when I lie)
I THINK . I NEED TO SIT FOR A WHILE AND FINISH THESE NEXT COUPLE CHAPTERS AND PROCESS A LITTLE MORE BEFORE I MAKE A SOLID DECISION ON ASHES POWERS. but you knowwwww it's gonna be some fucked up horror shit. it has to be. it has to be something fucked up enough that mark forbids him from using his powers and keeps him . at home isolated for his own good. but not TOO fucked that he wouldn't be able to join the wards.
actually speaking of. HOW THE FUCK DOES HE JOIN THE WARDS. I know mark basically fucking erased their whole identity and everything but. there's noooo way the prt would let this kid join them. right?????? right????. how the hell would that even be a possibility with all the precautions in place for simurgh survivors. THEY EXPLODED THAT ONE CAPE GUYS HEAD BECAUSE HE STAYED IN PROXIMITY FOR A LITTLE BIT TOO LONG. maybe it's unofficial. maybe he never Officially joins them but he sneaks out while mark is gone and meets the boys somewhere and they become friends out of costume first. and then they learn about his powers and ashe is like "I can help!" and helps them like. as a rogue or something. but hes never registered as an official cape. is this anything. im thinking about him so much what the fuuuuuck have we done. what have we done !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#ALSO I HATE THAT YOU SAID FRIDGED ABOUT HER. IN THIS SPECIFIC CASE. WE CANNOT BRIAN FRIDGE MRS WINTERS .#going 2 be in a fugue state for the rest of my shift trying 2 think about ashes powers and how they manifest#bc its totally understandable that hed trigger during an endbringer attack where theyre supposed to evacuate but his mom is hurt#and shes telling him to go without her bc they have to evacuate before simurgh gets there#bc she knows how dangerous that is and wants him to be safe but he cant just LEAVE her hes only . 8 yrs old !!!! and his dads not home yet!!#and he doesnt understand why everyone is panicking !!!! LIKE. THERES SO MANY POSSIBILITIES THERE. AUGHGVGRGRHGH#GODDDDD DUDE. IM UNWELL. I NEED 2 GO FEED MY SNAKE . BUT I WANT TO SIT HERE AND FINISH READING THE NOELLE CHAPTER.#i didnt grt to read on my lunch break at all so im DYINGGGG . im at the part now where krouse is fighting the guard in her hospital room#while she is in the MIDDLE of having her serum induced trigger and its taking her a really long time#aauaghgrhrhrhr i NEED TO KNOW WHY SHES SO FUCKED UP.#head in HANDS#ohhhhh nhw winters family im so glad to be here. and also im so so so sorry#asks#new haven wards#friends!!!#intertexts
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