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we both deserve to be happy
in case anyone is wondering, it gets easier. it gets so so much easier and i hope you find the love you're looking for
#this is like deeply personal and intimate but im posting it for the people who might need to hear this#there isn't really a more profound way i could say it. just that love is everywhere and it will be there for you if you look for it#it's true that things won't ever be the same and that's a good thing. never go back#ive been wanting to make more art about my grief and post it on tumblr for people but like. tbh. ive kind of processed a lot of it now#its kind of hard for me to tap into those old emotions again but hopefully this is still helpful for some people#my art#grief#love#idk#i just wanted to post this to reassure people who are scared to make the next step. i am so happy right now and i hope you will be too
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me: finally accepting theres a good chance im autistic and starting to work up the courage to ask my parents to see if i could get a diagnoses but being scared to
my mom: do you ever think you have adhd? if you want to do a screening for add next time your at the doctors you can
me:
#for context im terrified of being the person who sees stuff online and diagnosis themselves and then is wrong#which is why it took me so long to accept im —probably— autistic (bc now i have done research and stuff for it)#and id see adhd things that were relatable but i felt i related more to the autism + self diagnosing both felt weird (for me not in general#but now like. my mom is willing to accept i might have add??#(there was a long talk in between her asking if i ever thought i had it and her saying i could get a screening where we both agreed that#—if i did have it— i didnt have the hyperactive part. hence the add vs adhd thing)#and now that kinda through off my plans because like. what if i do also had adhd. or something#so yeah small crisis woo#i need to actually look i to symptoms and stuff for adhd though#because im not saying anything til i know more about it and if i actually do have a lot of the things#but this also gives me a chance go write about the autism things as well bc i told my mom i would look into the adhd#so now i can hopefully find a way to bring that up#ive mentioned that autism is a spectrum recently which i didnt think she knew before#so progress i guess#wow long rant in the tags whoops#jasper’s posts#moots have some jaz lore i guess
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#oc: irulanne#leg.ocs#leg.edits#*myedits#*ocedit#dragon age rook#da:tv#datv#my necromancer !!!!!!! my baby she’s here!!#teehee the first of the rooks !! so far i have 4 on standby for the fall the brainworms are brainwormingg jnhdkhnsk#spot the lucanne reference hehee twas a must to add something of luca in there he and lanna have had me in a CHOKEHOLD all a week hehe <3#colorings by cavalier remainn ICONIC andd SPEAKING OF WHICH THIS TEMPLATE GOLLY HOLLY#ty tyy orion this template was SOO good *screams* i had SO much fun working with it!!!!!#alsoo the official tarot for necromancers / mages / sidony from inky youll always be loved by MEE.#i am not sure if i want to go too much into her lore yet as its so early but the brainrot is brainrotting and i have SOO many thoughts!!#her history her lore how i see her interacting with the world and the world with her lanna's personality and her dynamic with luca AHHHH#*rattling the bars of my cage* FALL COME SOONER !!#lanna has had the braincell for the week STRAIGHT hdbjh <33#the high stakes tennis match between dragon show and dragon game brainrot hehe <33#ill hopefully have something for them too soooon I MISSED THEMM SO MUCHH#her lighthouse outfit + luca's outfit hehe couples that wear *almost* matching outfits thats soulmates or something (im normal) HEHEE#her name (hopefully the last time i change it djksncks) is inspired by i*rulan from d*une !!#an arcane prodigy entering her girlfailure era <33 girlbossed too close to the sun if u will JNDKJDSN#seemingly puts on an air of confidence but hides BIIIG time nervous wreck energy shes gonna take messing things up well i can feel it :')#i feel like a lot of clothes for her are sort of reminiscent of her time in the mourn watchers? all based on aspects of the dead??#like bones or etc?? but i also love that she could be a lightning learning mage with other magic so she takes to that more ethereal nature#to her style !! she’s also a BIG fan of the opera and was sort of praised as this golden child an arcane prodigy#the gifted kid to burnout adult pipeline she is really feeling it now 🥀🤧#hi hi moots if u read all that i am baking you cookies as we speak THERES SO MUCH MORE LOREE on her i have im screaming she’s everythingg#AHH IT WORKED IT POSTED <33 so so happy i can yell about her now HEHE 🥀💌
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in fair faerûn where we lay our scene.......
im a little late heading into wyll week and im so sad but here's an illustration for day 3: modern au!!!!
wyll gives me theater kid vibes and i think modern au wyll would Absolutely be an actor. and i think he'd be incredible in shakespeare adaptations and historical dramas... so i Had to redraw one of my favorite shots from baz luhrmann's romeo + juliet with him. a modern au in a modern au...its perfect 🎭
#bg3#wyll week#wyllvember#wyll ravengard#baldurs gate 3#baldur's gate 3#wyllweek#shakespeare#my art#herotune#i replaced the crucifixes with the symbol for tyr btw cries#which is hopefully understandable 😭#i Need to go back n check what wylls reaction to the tyr paladins is again its been too long since i played that part in my current run#so hopefully including the symbol for tyr is appropriate weeps...i tried to figure out if theres a diety he follows n Could Not#so i just went w tyr because the symbol for him had a similar enough silhouette and i feel like gd of justice Very much fits wyll...#although theres also uhhhh helm gd of protection and i feel like that would suit him more i just didnt think the symbol for helm would work#its like. an eye on a gauntlet 😭.....#so uh. i. ended up going with tyr#anyway im so so sad im late to wyll week ;_; i love him and i DO have a lot of sketches ive not published of him yet#but i wanna do the prompts too. i do think ill be posting some of those drawings for the free day but i think im also gonna try to get#stuff out for the rest of the prompts even tho itll have to be after wyll week is over...#wait itd still be wyllvember tho :0#his month...yessss im late but also im not. its fine.
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Oh fuck oh shit it's almost time for Sailor Moon Cosmos
I am going on vacation next week, but please be prepared for the Return of SMS when I get back
#tags are where I feel most comfortable oversharing#I have 2 major projects that just ended which frees up a lot of my time#im on new meds that are hopefully going to improve my brain function#so I'm planning to start blogging 1-2x a week after vacation#will post a list of every commission I haven't done yet.... not trying to become top 10 tumblr scams#and will also go through the ask box! i have read so many messages that made my day#and I have not replied because they deserved more attention than I could give at the time#love u all!!!#damn tumblr is actually kinda functional now. i have not posted in a very long time
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#ok im making one more dot post and then i am (hopefully) getting off tumblr and going to bed#liam payne#death#i do suggest not reading tbh because its just gonna be waffle. anyways#ive distanced myself from the boys for years for a multitude of reasons. mainly that they did things that disappointed me and i realised the#way i was attatched to them was unhealthy. so for the most part i listened and enjoyed the music and didnt pay Much attention to anything#else. and like liam. i always liked him in the band days because to me he was the underdog. the underappreciated and probs less stanned one#out of all of them. and when youre a fan i do feel like a lot of us just wanted them all to be appreciated. idk. but anyways yeah i did feel#for him. due to him backgroud growing up. his talent. etc etc. even though he wasnt my fav. and even when he did something wrong my teenage#self still defended him like my life depended on it. (embarassing) anyways. his solo music while it was not my fav i still occasionally#enjoyed. its just over produced pop like it was fine and i found it fun. in terms of him as an actual person by this point in his career i#didnt pay attention to him or the others that much anymore#and like. yeah as of recently as more stuff came out about him being kinda weird and rude and abusive 🙃🙃🙃 that was kind of the final#straw for me! like in terms of me giving a fuck about him. if he eventually came around cool but i wasnt gonna wait around for it.#god this whole thing feels so dramatic but i need to get it oit or i Know i will not be at peace lmao anyways#so yeah come to hearing about his death which. i hear about because of trin lovell on twitter like. shsvshs. anyways my reaction was#disbelief and just... nothing? like i said in my brain i had just disregarded him honestly. and even now i still just feel speechless.#to summarise my feelings. fuck him for how he treated his ex and probably other women as well. but also. he was my boy. he'll always be a#part of me. and it feels weird that hes just. gone. he suffered a lot with addiction and pressures etc and its just. sad that hes gone now.#that he never got to get better. and he wont get the chance to. im sad for his family. and anyone else thats gonna be affected by this#im always gonna remember him.#and thats all i have to say. honestly part of me feels SO dramatic for even typing all this out but here we are.#if anyone has read this far and wants someone to talk to im more than happy. and also just wanna make clear that i am fine#le text post
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I was rewatching librarians and realised that when Baird mentions Ezekiels other file, the others aren't around, which means she must have vaguely mentioned it again in front of or at least near the other LITs before they ask him about him in the truth chamber scene
#also the way that ezekiel lets cassandra tell all her deepest darkest secrets to him to keep the door open to him is soooo#like its so them#ezekiel doesnt like sharing things about himself#especially not SECRETS#and cassandra has more dark secrets than youd expect and ezekiel is unphased about this information#even when shes telling him crazy shit hes just listening boredly#he doesnt care that she apparantly murdered a small animal? im assuming the thing she watched the light in its eyes go out was a hamster#hopefully#but theres so much to unpack about this episode like aaaa#duh theres lots to unpack about Stone#but also just this one scene says sooo much about ezekiel and cassandra toooooooo#aughhh i love this show so much#ezekiel just...knows all of cassandra's secrets now#and he doesnt even care#hes so chill about it too#but he never chimes in to help because hed rather die then share more secrets about himself than he has tooooo#i love them#the librarians#ezekiel jones#cassandra cillian#eve baird#we dont talk about zeke and cass in this episode enough#sorry these tags should have been a separate post lmao
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lil sketch of piranha as a swamp monster i guess
it was supposed to be for halloween but im not finishing it LOL
#p#i think its cute tho#hopefully ill have more time and energy to actually draw more things next year#im working on the outfit rqs tho!! i like doing those cause its more relaxing and easy but theyre still slow going#bc im also trying to focus on stuff irl#im actually doing a lot for halloween irl this year so i have even less time for drawing SMH#doodles#im just posting this here so i dont lose it
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if y'all are wondering where i've been i've just had some of the busiest months of my life! but it's over for a while and i'm kinda really excited to get back to making jokes and writing fics and being a shit on the internet! so there's that! fun update!
#i'm moving house 2 months from now as well#but ive not had a lot of time for doing fun things recently#im gonna go and finish writing my superbat fic (and hopefully my tim fic)#and read more comics#and post on here i hope#UPDATE :)
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#HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!#i cant believe i made it through#2024 was hell#almost died a lil bit#but i survived#and im so happy that i did and so proud of myself for making it this far#things have finally taken a turn for the better for me#im growing and changing in a lot of ways#i finally realized that i cant keep waiting for the good part to start#i have to make now the good part#anyway#heres to the 2025 being a little less personally shitty#hopefully Things In General dont get too bad but we'll see#but either way#we'll be alright#i love you all#thanks for being the little guys in my phone#you got this. i believe in you. you are strong enough to face any challenge you find in front of you.#btw i posted this at 11:59pm of 12/31/24#so that the “this year” would be grammatically correct#im entering my “embracing being obnoxious phase” so get ready#im already considering making a fursona#and you know if i do ill be posting about them#plus i want to create more in general#like write and draw and such#so that might be going up here as well#and i foresee a lot more rambling in the tags#anyways happy new year
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crazy to think that my time and ability to draw has stagnated so much that i have literally only drawn and posted one thing all year long
#slightly negative but mostly im just like. genuinely shocked#with all due respect to myself i have had one of the busiest years of my life so ive literally had no time.#and all of my art supplies have been packed away or unavailable to me for a large chunk#i wanna draw more in 2025! i hope! i have a lot of new ocs in my brain i wanna share with the world!!!!!#it also just feels weird that nobody ive befriended in the last 3 years know me as an 'art person' its like. deep lore that i maybe share#wish i could say i drew stuff that i havent posted!! but even that isnt the case#anyway. one day. ill get there#first i need to finish unpacking my apartment and build my new desk and that will hopefully motivate me!!#idk where i was going with this. i just wanna hold myself accountable with a goal ig#laura life 2kwhenever
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Just finished rereading ITNL chapter 2 again
Yknow, it's long felt like a weaker chapter to me, especially compared to chapter 1. It's a Necessary chapter, but it's basically an entire chapter of introspection. Add in the fact that I wrote it in a single day and was half falling asleep by the end of editing it, but pressing onwards anyways bc I wanted So Badly to get it out that night...
The Legato part was the weakest for that. I remember staring at it and breaking my brain just trying to make it sound better before just giving up and posting. But when I worked on my full-fic re-edits about.. a year ago now? A year and a bit. I think it was October ish of 2023. But I focused on that part again, trying to get it up to my standards to be satisfied with it.
Coming back to it after some number of months, my brain relatively fresh, I think I actually did a pretty decent job. Despite being an introspective chapter, it really drives home how Wrecked vash is about it all. I like to say that chapter 1 is like a thesis to the fic, where you get vash's goals laid out pretty clearly (him picturing the things he wants to fix + him picturing his dream of having all the people he loves around a table with him, including Knives. It serves as motivation for him jumping back in time in the first place and it remains his driving force throughout the fic). In contrast, chapter 2 is... almost a secondary thesis. We see his doubt, his fears, his panic. We see the things that he's going to be struggling with throughout the whole fic. His wish to handle it all on his own, as well as how overwhelming it all is to him. Chapter 2 is the necessary second side to chapter 1's thesis, showing the weakness in his own strength and drive.
The cracks in his own unstoppable force.
Idk it's just interesting to me. Having been away from it long enough, I think I really do appreciate chapter 2 after all.
#speculation nation#itnl shit#kinda wanna post Thoughts for each chapter as i work on rereading this fic#anecdotes about what i remember doing while writing and thoughts about the chapters themselves.#part of my goal with rereading this fic is to reconnect myself with who i was while i was writing it.#ive changed so much since then that it feels like a different person wrote this fic. which gets in the way of my immersion#and is part of why it's been so long since i last updated.#i tried to force it back in july. managed to get a chapter out but im not entirely satisfied with it.#im probably gonna try to do some editing on it when i get to that point. there are a few things i want to improve about it.#the key thing being that i just Cant force it or else the finished product wont be to the level of quality i want#and i cant Keep writing in the same way i would if i was fully immersed.#this isnt to say chapter 19 is bad. people seemed to really like it. but theres just... something missing from it for me. just a bit.#i think the thing that most influences my writing's quality is how much i put myself into the character's brain#so even if the prose itself isnt the most masterful. the writing is so in touch with the character's mind that it's really impactful.#i'd like to think at least 😅#but the other side of that is the fact that my writing just isnt as good if im not fully invested and immersed. it just isnt.#so that was the problem with 19. and im gonna try to fix those parts where that feels most apparent.#the chapter will overall be the same. just. this is my perfectionism speaking probably lol#anyways yes. full reread to really get back into it. replying to comments to remember that people love my fic.#engaging with readers and also with my own analysis. i think that this will help a lot with re-engaging myself.#and if i do this right then it wont be many months before another update again.#i'll be able to go back into it and Stay in it. for hopefully Plenty more chapters and updates#gonna write at least 100k of ITNL this next year Just You Watch. maybe even more if i can manage it.#💪💪💪💪💪 i believe in myselfffff
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Welcome to Melodia Fun Facts, where we do, in fact, share fun facts about HarmoKnight! From stuff that's easily overlooked, to things you need to search the game files for, we have it all! And we're accepting submissions for things that even I might have looked over! Expect fun facts every now and then!
Stuff to know!!!
This blog is run by @phioneplatinum! If you want to see what I do outside talking about HarmoKnight facts, then feel free to see!
I go with She/Her pronouns!
These facts are all either in game, or mentioned by Game Freak themselves! [mostly in-game facts though, but do expect some outside of the game!]
This blog is not affiliated with Game Freak or All Possible Futures. This is a blog for fun!!
Want to submit a fact? Send it via the submissions box or send it in my Discord DMs! (phioneplatinum)
I have some understanding of Japanese, so expect some language difference facts too!
Fact Submission Rules! [don't worry, it's not too strict!]
All fact submissions must be things either official or seen in game.
Fact submissions must be mentioned as a fact. [ex: Fun HarmoKnight fact! (insert fact here)] If it's not a fact, please specify so I don't get confused!
Actually yeah that's it, if there's more, I'll update it.
With all that said, please enjoy the facts! :D
#not a fact#and so it begins.#the showcasing of how insane i am over this silly little eshop exclusive game.#facts may be posted randomly. theres a chance i might not post a fact. but theres also the chance i post five in one day! yes! im insane!#also i have a lot of facts in the back#like. maybe more than 20 facts are in my notes right now as we speak.#we're gonna be here for a while chat!#so sit back relax and watch the insanity occur#mod speaking#this is my first time running a side blog so hopefully things go well!#unrelated fun fact! this actually used to be an ask blog for my ocs#namely mamiko#and her silly little friends!#but personally idk if i have it to really commit to an ask blog so#plus i looked at the banner. and oh my god did it REEK of 2019. help. it was so old...#i didn't even knew it had a banner personally#but yeah that's enough rambling from me. we have fun facts to get to!!!#- mod phione
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listen i can’t prove that asp bloggers by and large seem to know brinker was based on gore vidal now because of me but brother i will say it was not like that back when there were like 4 asp blogs and all the fanart was anime
#you may be thinking. well there are basically 4 asp blogs now#THINK AGAIN!!!! it used to be so much worse.#it feels like there are more people consistently posting about it now#and a lot more art (MUTUALS!!! <33)#like there was an art DROUGHT#it used to be that every time you looked at the tag the same posts would be up at the top and like#it’s still sorta like that but allllll the posts i could never escape have been buried into obscurity#because there’s so much new stuff#i used to be like haha there are 5 people in this fandom or whatever#BUT THAT NO LONGER FEELS TRUE#i used to tell everyone who would listen about the gore vidal thing kehskwhskwhdjwhs#it was such a novelty to me at the time i read asp that queercoding could be so like. complete or comprehensive and also supported by#like authors and academic institutions and most importantly a tumblr fandom sksjsk#so an openly queer man being associated w my fav book whose gayness i was mentally going to bat for was craaaazzzyyy to my#middle school brain#even though i didn’t really know anything about him except for a few anecdotes at the time. brother. how things have changed#oh my god and the fact that there is/was an asp gimmick blog??? asp-quotes??? my god middle school me would’ve died#im still writing the same fucking fanfic that ms me daydreamed about finishing though. god#anyway hopefully this post isn’t. ANNNOYIINNGGG but it’s crazy to see things change like that from so close a perspective#like the smallness of the asp online community makes it easy to tell for some of these things#i draw a line directly between my younger asp mutuals constantly posting art to the influx of other asp content#in my memory one followed the other#fucking anyway. write a memoir dipshit#me.txt#a separate peace#if it is because of me that’s very funnyynbgncb#OH AND IT’S IN POLLS NOW TOO#crazy
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for anyone who missed the stream last night, I uploaded both the piano medley and 8 ball clips to my instagram! (andoutofharm) I’ll probably post them properly later but for now they can be found here!
#im glad i was able to go live for yall hopefully the quality was okayish lmao#im sure there will be more videos posted throughout the day but in case you want to watch the full versions (ft me yelling a lot sorry lol)#fobrogers#fobarkansas#my show2#fob#fall out boy#so much for (tour) dust
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Blog directory
I finally decide to organize everything here My Count Blog (Joseph + Claude) // My Embrace Blog (Victor)
Art tag: unconcerned art / unconcerned collab Comics tag: unconcerned comic Mun tag: its me the mun / unconcerned ramblings RPs: unconcerned reply
Events 1. Exorcist event (100 followers) 2. Joseph and Mun event 3. 250 request fest (250 followers) 4. chibi muffin event 5. aesop draws 6. Exorcist 2.0 (400 followers) 7. 550 skin event (550 followers) 8. Fenix/Birdsop (700 followers) 9. mun got a new pen 10. cookie event 11. Gatto event (~800 followers)
Comic series 1. Exorcist event (intro / extra) 2. Modern Ghost AU 3. Exorcist 2.0 (intro) 4. Modern Ghost AU 2 electric boogaloo (in progress)
Miscellaneous tags I happen to have: mersop, simp au, gen/shin flavoured, modern au stuff, the drama tm
#im not gonna tag this im pinning this HAHAHAHA#wow ive really done a whole lot for this blog huh. sheds a tear#went through the mass post editor for all this. so hopefully i got them all XD#theres other stuff like my opinions on characters but thats not what ppl r here for so i didnt include those#all my comics including the short 1 - 3 pages ones are in the comics tag. the series are the more serious projects#anyway i did put gatto as the 800 follower event cos i was kind of expecting my follower count to go up by like 5 n reach 800#but instead it uh. fell by 5 instead. so technically im not at 800 yet#lying on the internet. who wouldve known#i did want to put little summaries for the events n comics but. theyre pretty self explanatory HAHAHAHA#also i really really hope the tags work. that is a lot of posts and tag links im not ready to fix again#im just gonna put the date when i update this just in case. i dont know if there will be any more events or comics#since a lot of things are. well. the odds are pretty stacked. mainly me being out of touch with idv#and the idv ask blog scene in general........ well............#anyway! ill see how long i can do this for. work and life in general makes it impossible for me to be consistently posting everyday all yea#i guess me rambling in the tags will always be a constant huh. do i really want all this to be in a pinned post? yeah sure why not
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