#i cant believe i made it through
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
#HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!#i cant believe i made it through#2024 was hell#almost died a lil bit#but i survived#and im so happy that i did and so proud of myself for making it this far#things have finally taken a turn for the better for me#im growing and changing in a lot of ways#i finally realized that i cant keep waiting for the good part to start#i have to make now the good part#anyway#heres to the 2025 being a little less personally shitty#hopefully Things In General dont get too bad but we'll see#but either way#we'll be alright#i love you all#thanks for being the little guys in my phone#you got this. i believe in you. you are strong enough to face any challenge you find in front of you.#btw i posted this at 11:59pm of 12/31/24#so that the “this year” would be grammatically correct#im entering my “embracing being obnoxious phase” so get ready#im already considering making a fursona#and you know if i do ill be posting about them#plus i want to create more in general#like write and draw and such#so that might be going up here as well#and i foresee a lot more rambling in the tags#anyways happy new year
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
a development team that looks like this could not possibly have any preconceived biases against Black people. noooo way. its just a mistake that all of the Black people in fo4 are slaves or named after fascist colonizers or murdered or stereotypical conspiracy freaks. there is no way that the reality of this team is reflected in the art they create over and over and over and over and over and over and
[ID 1: A photo of the Fallout 4 development team taken from above and forward, showing a large crowd smiling at the camera, made up apparently entirely by white people, and almost entirely by white men. End ID.]
#im sorry i cant fucking deal with this shit anymore#genuinely if youre white/nonblack and think that you can excuse the shit this team has done to Black characters with fanfiction ass excuses#i think 1: you should unfollow and 2: you should maybe fucking get more Black peopel in your life#but then again i wouldnt want to put them through that because its not our fucking job to make you realize that racialized violence in medi#made by white creators cannot be uncritically examined. that is Dangerous#and it is a privilege and a huge one at that to believe that fiction is a bubble outside of reality
1K notes
·
View notes
Text
Parallel Lines and Brothers.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#jiang cheng#lan wangji#lan xichen#jin zixuan#Does anyone else think about the tragedy of the parallel lines? Of characters who are parallel lines?#Of running the same course as someone. Of echoing each other in perfect synchronicity.#It's more than being a foil. It's about being on the same path and being so near to each other.#and yet parallel lines never intersect. They cannot meet each other despite their existence being tied to another.#I think the brothers tragedy is just as much of a tragedy of parallel lines as is pre-resurrection wangxian.#Jiang Cheng and Wei Wuxian spend so much time running side by side and yet - they cant close this gap between them.#Even if their relationship never recovers - they are forever tied together through their past. The good and bad and ugly.#All the things that are left unsaid between them. All the love and sacrifices they made for each other that are never shared. Parallel line#I firmly believe any post-canon material that would have them be indifferent towards each other is just...really doing them a disservice.#And dear god the Lan brothers. They certainly love each other! Its a far fonder fraternal relationship than jiangxian (/platonic)#They fool you by having you think they have a good read on each other. Lan Xichen certainly wingmans + advocates for lwj!#But lets not forget - Lan Xichen by the end is in the reverse situation and headspace as Lan Wangji by the end of this story.#Lan Wangji is more free and open than he has ever been. He's in love. He's married. He and wwx are intersecting lines.#& LXC who grew up with and lived the same path as LWJ - who even is said to resemble him visually - his parallel line - shuts himself away#Despite all the love LWJ has for his brother I don't think he ever manages to reach him.
1K notes
·
View notes
Text
I'll let you go after I'm through. Don't go too far. …Why did you do it? I don't know what you're talking about.
KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 9
#kiseki: dear to me#kisekiedit#kdtm#kiseki dear to me#ai di x chen yi#chen yi x ai di#nat chen#chen bowen#louis chiang#chiang tien#jiang dian#userspring#uservid#userspicy#userrain#pdribs#userjjessi#*cajedit#*gif#chen yi glaring at ai di with his best Boss Look DARING him to run from this - and he also prepared his favorite foods bc he loves him 🥰#the way ai di like. looks at it and looks away and looks at it again. the way he cant HANDLE being known because it makes him want too much#he wants chen yi TOOOOO MUUUUUCH but he rejects him when he takes a bite of just noodles#and then asks to leave again. like obviously hes just being a little shit#but its obviously also more than that. ai di doesnt want to accept or begin to expect affection from chen yi as much as he craves it.#he CANT accept it after what hes done...like. the face he makes in the second gif - he's SCARED.#he's immediately racing to put together ways to escape bc he doesn't want to face *himself* in front of chen yi who now knows it all#but there's chen yi's determination to see this through and also the way he looks at ai di in the last gif like.... ai di will be ai di#but chen yi will sit next to him and take everything he throws at him because that's what they DO. but!!! he will also let him go because#chen yi will never force ai di to do something he doesnt want to. i think thats where the conflict lies - the supposed betrayal...#ai di believes he made chen yi do something he didnt want to do & believes his selfishness will never be forgiven. but it already has been.
71 notes
·
View notes
Note
hi evie !! how have you been ? :33 i hope you dont mind me borrowing you and moze for something ehehe <3
#🐦⬛🐕 .#彡 nick!#彡 inbox.#evie.ss#omg good morning nick! my stomach literally twisted and flipped seeing this /pos /POS /the most positive gut wrenching feeling in existence#NICK AND THE REASON WAS ? WHY DO U NOT HAVE A KOFI LINK WHERE IS IT …. THIS ISNT OK I NEED TO FIND IT???? U CANNOT BE … BE …. BE UM … YOU K#I NEED TO 😭😭😭 I NEED ….. IS IT OBVIOUSLY IM CRYING WRITING THINSSJSJSN /pos /ULTRA POS THIS IS SO CUTE UR ART IS SOOOO AWESME IM SO IN AWE😭#typos: obvious* <- & barrier* -> amazing work evie#i broke the sound banner with the screech i made seeing this …. YOU … YOU DREW ME … THE EXACT WAY ….. I .. ITS SO SPOT ON I ????? I … IM#FLABBERGASTED . SHELL SHOCKED . GOBSMACKED IM SO OBSESSED WITH HOW U DID MY HAIR …. THIS IS EXACTLY HOW I DO MY HAID … AND THE CURLS ARE LI#LIKE THAT… IM SO OBSESSED WITH UR STYLE JSJSJJD HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I SAID IT???? UR STYLE IS MMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!!! 1000/1000!!!!!! in specif#the colors … the colors are gorgeous and sooo nice to gaze at … the little wings … HOW DID YOU KNOW I LIKE- IM SO . (hugs knees and cries#YOU DREW THAT DRESS AWESOME-LY …. IM GENUINELY LOSING MY MIND AND I HAVENG EVEN .. looked at *him* ….. nick …. im complimenting it and i#can’t even see rn HEJSJCKCNITS BLURRY 😭😭 my head hurts so bad from sobbing but ive never been happier /pos IM SO ???? I LOVE HOW U DREW ME#i went to go triple check for the kofilink and found myself browsing through puppetgear tag once again u^u JENDNDKXJ oh my god . PLEASEEEEE#ok…. moze … he’s … so tiny .. he’s so cute … he looks so grumpy :’) /pos AND YOU .. u captured his squishable look omg….. he’s so teeny he’#literally as big as a fingernail on my phone im :’) HES POCKET SIZED I CANT BELIEVE U DID THIS /pos /ETERNALLY GRATEFUL#WHY 😭😭😭😭😭 YOURE SO KIND IM SO . IM SITTING ON THE FLOOR OF MY ROOM SNIFFLING AND HICCUPING AHENDNJXKC AND STARING AT THIS OF COUESE#i just saw the ask 😭 i definitely don’t mind im literally on my hands and knees to thank you and it’s still not enough JSNSNDNMC i have to#dig a dent in the hole and bow inside the hole …… it’s not enough … i genuinely love every square inch of this JSNDNXN i just adore … how u#did me … how u did moze (so— everything) even the circle in the background is a color that i adore 😞😞 sniffle …..#what a treat to see moze in ur style 😭😭 what a HUGE . Nice . AMAZING. TREAT . he looks so good in ur style UGH I WANNA FLOAT AWAY#the physical reaction i had in my stomach & head is unmatched /pos …. it’s vaguely similar to when u get called on in class while nervous .#and ur stomach flips .. but in a positive / EVSTATIC / insanely happy way … thank you so much omfg (link?) (please?) you are so kind ….#i don’t even know how to convey my gratefulness so im resorting to crying-staring-crying-staring-crying#(cries)#oh i never answered ur question haha :’) yea im great! :’) and you? :’)#im gonna put this in queue >/////< URK IM SO …. THANK U NICK ))))))):::: (link perhap?)#edit: OHHHH I SEE HOW U DID MY HAIR COLOR!!!!! that is so cool hello? it’s black- but not? and it fits so perfectly!!!! THAT IS SOO COOL WJ#NO WONDER I WAS ADMIRING THE COLORS EARLIER THIS IS SUCH A COOL THING (nonartist tries to explain how neat something is) NSNDNXKK
24 notes
·
View notes
Text
Day 335 | id in alt
Being desperate to end the fight might make you even worse off in the long run, Shoko.
#dailykugisaki#jjk#kugisaki nobara#shoko ieri#ieri shoko#utahime iori#Kugisaki opening her eye not even fully like all the way knowing her shit yet and immediately getting shot with 1 Ml of Adrenaline#Shoko actually regretting her actions for once#Kugisaki probably going through the most insane shit right now she probably cant feel any of her limbs at the moment#dont shoot adrenaline into a fresh out the coma child Shoko#The funniest part is. Shoko didn't train to actually do this medical shit she foes autopsy's bro she dosent know how much the body can#the body can take#Shoko does not know she probably gave Kugisaki more brain damage#Shes just sitting there with a fucked up girl using her technique#Because they BOTH dont know whats going on#utahime is tweaking the fuck out but shes gonna be okay(she'll be thinking about it for years)#Kugisaki was in a state of genuine disability where she had to be cared for by others that didn't know what they were doing#Shoko STILL dosent know. Its not her fault shes used to dealing with corpses#shoko becoming a presudo caretaker of Kugisaki because she feels guilty about this massive fuck up#Shoko probably thought she was just like the higher ups in that moment and had to stare at a wall#Kugisaki wigging out and shes half fucked in a state of limbo because DAMN that idle transfiguration made her believe she DIED#Anything to win the fight against the king of curses y'know#Nobody really knows about what happened except Shoko. Utahime and Kugisaki herself so. And you know theyre not gonna say anything#youd have better chances talking to a rock#why did i make this? my brain spiraled
46 notes
·
View notes
Note
My birthday was a couple days ago, and I got to see my bio dad for the first time in a while. He surprised me with the fact that I have a little half-sister, whom I've never met and who was adopted about two years back. So, I wondered if any situations in BB mimic this or have a theme of "secret siblings" or "secret family"? Sorry if this is a weird ask; this blog is honestly just such a cool little place and I love the way you approach the subject matter and take the flawed misogynistic foundation of the WC books and make them so much better (JUSTICE FOR BUMBLE!!!). I've also learned a lot about healthy and unhealthy relationships here and am really glad for your deep dives on Squilf and Bramble. Thanks, Bones!
Not weird at all! I really like exploring all the little nooks and crannies of complicated familial dynamics. I think one of the untapped strengths of WC (that the writers seem to be unaware of) is how their MASSIVE cast allows them to present all sorts of unique dynamics. So I like to pick up on it, since they don't.
For secret siblings...
I'm pretty heavily leaning towards Ambermoon being adopted by Wildfur, as a surrogacy. Something feels correct about it. Especially since Icecloud is getting retooled into a post-Battle of the True Eclipse birth, and a major supporting character in AVoS-era stories as a friend of Alderheart.
Thinking about it, I should zoom in and expand this. Maybe have Icecloud, somehow, acquire forbidden knowledge that would invalidate the Queen’s Rights and he (transman) struggles with if he's going to use it to expose his parents as an excuse to help Ambermoon.
(Especially since Ambermoon and Icecloud are basically nothing alike. Amber is independent, bold, and vain. Ice is jessie pinkman big-hearted, disorganized, and deceptively meek if you look past his "chill" demeanor)
But that's wip-- there's also Breezepelt and the Three, who are going to have an actual friendship. In particular I can't unsee Breeze and Lion having a deep one. I know I commit the Cardinal Sin of borderline himbo-ifying Lionblaze in BB, but I can't help it.
Hollyleaf ended up nabbing a bunch of his most violent roles to make her villainous descent smoother narratively, so BB!Lionblaze's story ends up being more focused on Ashfur's abuse, comic relief with cats in other Clans (something that the very serious Jay and Holly have a hard time providing), and the emotional fallout of the big reveal and Bramblestar's turn on them. Breezepelt slots neatly into that.
They were friends. Lionblaze's whole life came down around the reveal, everyone looking at him and his siblings differently, like they're suddenly something terrible. Why can't we find a silver lining, Breezepelt? Why can't we call ourselves brothers if the whole world is going to do it anyway? So much is changing, but THIS doesn't have to, we will take their weapon and turn it to armor, my ally, my friend, my brother.
(and when Breezepelt is lashing out at the three because of the Dark Forest's influence, Lionblaze is there, taking the blows and trying not to give in to the impulse to send him flying with a single paw)
There's also Harespring and Kestrelflight of WindClan and Owlclaw of ShadowClan. All of them are from a single litter between Whitewater and Mudclaw. She was going to raise the three of them alone as ShadowClan cats, but when the sire was smote, Whitewater felt they were cursed.
She was able to give the oldest two to their bio-uncle, Torear, but the weather was so bad that day and the runt was so sickly and small that it surely would have killed him. I don't think Owlclaw ever finds out why his mother always treated him with suspicion, but it did mess him up horribly.
Over in BB!DOTC, Thunder Storm is getting more half-siblings earlier. Clear Sky and Falling Feather had two daughters-- Pale Sky and Tiger Sky.
I want to explore the way that the various stages of Clear Sky's life acted on his kids. How any little curiosity Thunder Storm had about the life he might have had if he wasn't abandoned is crushed by seeing kittens who weren't. How Clear's favoritism of his oldest child set the trio against each other from the start. How this idea of "love" is toxic yet intoxicating.
It feels good to be the golden child. The power it gives you over his sycophants is satisfying. To know you, and you alone, have what someone else craves. Problem is, that's conditional, and it's cruel.
What Thunder Storm learns from his time with his biodad is that Clear Sky is not his father at all. He's taught him exactly what he DOESN'T want to be. There may be similarities-- in temperament, in physical prowess (though BB!Thunder is three-legged, he's still ripped), in taste and senses. But Thunder Storm's father is Shaded Flower.
(BB!Gray Wing died in the first book, rescuing Shaded Flower from being trampled by a horse. Xey're a patron of wisdom, Shaded Moss is taking the role of fatherhood to Thunder)
His sister is Rainswept Flower. His mom is Bright Storm. If there was a bond he could have had with Tiger Sky and Pale Sky, it dies simply and cruelly on the knife they used to cut each other out.
Pale might have wanted to mend it, she was the gentler one. But she dies in the First Battle along with her mother. Tiger Sky is too stubborn to accept any help, should Thunderstar offer it, and Thunderstar isn't in the business of begging for others to like him.
Naturally I'm lowkey obsessed with them lmao. I need to make a BB!DOTC overviewww
#I have a perspective on half siblings colored by a dynamic in my family#The generation above me has two siblings who had an awful biodad and an amazing stepdad (who did officially adopt them)#And there was nothing ''natural'' or good about how one of them was obsessed with their biodad.#It was influenced by his surroundings and did nothing but drag an incredibly toxic man back into his sister's life#Over and over#But anyway the son used to tell me ''theres no half in siblings''#The daughter adored her halfbrother through the mother who raised them-- but was adamant that her biodad's newer kids were nothing to her#I guess I agree with the son. But not in the way he believes it#There's no half in siblings because you either Are. Or you are Not.#You have a shared experience with having that person as a parent or you don't. And that's what's unchanging.#It's not the blood; it's the sweat and tears. But anyhoo#Personal details of my life aside#Tiger Sky and Pale Sky are Clear's Dead Angel Fetus Children in-canon. I think that was Weird.#So instead I made them. Not. Dead angel fetus children....#They're characters now lmaoo#Better bones au#I think Tiger Sky (i call her Tigs in my head a lot) is one of my favorite kit saves ever though#She's not going to be from the last litter either. I haven't picked who the mom is yet but he does have even more#At least one of those is going to make a grab at power but um. Sparrow Heart will not react Well.#BASICALLY lads I'm cooking. My revamps of the DOTC characters basically write themselves because I am very fond of them.#Clear's youngest: ''OH I JUST CANT WAIT TO BE KI-"#Sparrowstar: ''-lled.''
102 notes
·
View notes
Text
leo and martin's faces right after letting that pass roll between them only for declan to then score the sixth against west ham are so fucking funny
#been rewatching the past couple of matches and this moment made me cackle#leo is giving “smiling through it all! i cant believe this is my life!” while martin is literally 😅#leandro trossard#martin ødegaard#martin odegaard#arsenal fc#arsenal
89 notes
·
View notes
Text
After trial and error, I FINALLY MET HIM!!
#pressure#roblox pressure#pressure roblox#pressure fanart#pressure game#please play this game#its so cool#After dying so many times#I finally met him#to say I was excited is an understatement#I WAS ECSTATIC#my heart rate went through the roof#I COULD HEAR IT BEATING IN MY EAR#I cant believe this fish unironically made my heart beat faster#i love him#i love him so much#he means so much to me#silly#ugly fish
42 notes
·
View notes
Text
heheheheheheh @unicornmachine framed one of my posts (its hanging above our toilet lmao)
i had a wonderful time wearing matching ship earrings (im never taking them off thank youuuu) while trying alligator and shark meat (would recommend)
#i cant believe i made a friend that has such Same Dudes vibes through one of my first posts returning to tumblr ily#meeting internet friends is nice /slaps knees/
19 notes
·
View notes
Text
Started watching the ravening war.
I am violently reminded of how beautiful zac oyama is and am instantly propelled back to the time i watched his entire filmography in the college humor youtube channel WHICH THEN LED ME TO DIMENSION 20 AND NOW LOOK AT ME
#a lime is a flat circle#cant believe a stupid schoolgirl crush led to this years long obsession with dnd#i think fantasy high was already halfway through airing#zac oyama my beloved#my technically a meal guy#my lanky boi#he just wanted to make friends using his metal flower that his parents made#and find his dad#dimension 20 spoilers#dimension 20#d20#dropout tv#college humor#fantasy high#the ravening war#you love to see it#zac oyama
183 notes
·
View notes
Text
But then why did Peter Bayer and Laurent Meikis play with us all weekend long like this?
What the actual fuck man. This is horrible.
Horrible that he is having to face this alone, without the support of his team. Horrible for sooo many fans and friends that love him and love to see him drive.
Overall just horrible.
If this is to happen, at least grow a pair of balls and announce what's what, so that he can have a good goodbye like he so very much deserves.
#formula 1#f1#daniel ricciardo#formula 1 2024#red bull racing#vcarb#dr3#the interview made me cry#i cant believe how difficult it might have been for him#this is such a right bitch of a situation#i have lived through so many players retiring#why is this hurting so much more
20 notes
·
View notes
Text
The funniest thing about the Sohm Al dungeon is that when I did it for the first time I did it with the NPC party- Ysayle, Alphinaud, and Estinien. It was all going swell but I, a dragoon main, CONSTANTLY found myself trying to outdo Estinien??
like GIRL calm down he's just an NPC 😭 what's he gonna do, gloat about how he's going to kill all the dragons and pull out all the stops and use all the limit breaks?
...
HE FUCKING USES THE LIMIT BREAKS
THE LITTLE SHIT
AS SOON AS WE FILL ALL THE BARS HE JUST SAYS SHIT LIKE "TASTE MY LANCE" AND WHIPS OUT THE LIMIT BREAK AND I'M THROWING MYSELF HEADFIRST INTO THE GROUND SCREAMING BECAUSE YOU BASTARD I WAS GOING TO USE THAT ON THE FINAL BOSS
#no i did not actually die to the final boss im just being melodramatic#anyway temporary friendship with estinien is OVER#i cant believe i have to go through the Estinien Unbearable Varlineau arc before i get babygirl estinien#this motherfucker..... so fucking flashy all the time.... bitch i have more moves than you........#it's only because of the level sync that sets me down a few skill levels otherwise i would be decimating this entire dungeon by myself#WITHOUT MR STINKY DRAGOON FUCKING IT UP !!!!!!!!!!!!#save me ysayle..... save me..... ysayle save me#but other than that i am genuinely having so much fun in heavensward. i love the little group we've made#ysayle and estinien at each other's throats <3 alphinaud trying to keep them from killing each other <33 wol just standing around#estinien varlineau#estinien wyrmblood#ffxiv#ffxiv wol#ff14#ff14 art#hyur midlander#hyur#elezen#artoftheagni#agnigames
63 notes
·
View notes
Text
THIRTY MINUTES !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#i mean technically still 1+ hour for me given i have to download it lol :/ pc players stay losing :/#tay plays datv#GOD. I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT < IS A TAG THAT I WILL SOON BE USING. FINALLY. AFTER ALL THESE YEARS#i probs wont liveblog too much tbh but def filter it if u dont wanna see the odd post from me#also EVERYTHING will be tagged datv spoilers and i MEAN everything lol i am NOT playing w these spoilers and i hope nobody else is either <#ill probs put stuff under readmores just to be safe too#MAN. MAN...... ik fandom kind of sucks in general and as a rule but damn. who and where would i be without the da community#and all the friends ive made through this game. all of the moots <3 this blog <3 i truly cant even imagine lol#im so glad to be sharing in the excitement with all of u . even tho we'll all be going dark soon to enjoy it on our own#LOVE U ALL <3 HAVE FUN BABES <3
12 notes
·
View notes
Text
two of you. always in sync
#you know what i wasnt gonna do this but i rewatched prodigal son and uh. some of the frames made me crazyyyy this time around#and i love imagery it has to be said#its like. this time around i actually Perceived them. and not watched them like. every time liv looks at el its like. she cant believe it#like she's looking at a ghost. like he's gonna disappear any second#and at the same time. she can barely look him in the eye. she looks at him when he isnt watching. lest he sees. lest he recognizes her#and what shes feeling. lest she recognizes that he still knows her and *sees* her even after all this time. and she cant have it. she wont#so she watches him and observes him like shes both memorizing him and recognizing him.especially in that interrogation room... fuck me bro#that metaphor. of her standing right between el and the suspect. up against that mirror. and we're seeing her reflection.#the present liv the captain watching like a hawk and the past liv. right behind her back in the room with el sensing him and seeing#him getting ready to pounce. like the shot of her with el's fists in the background. oh mama. she just knows “do you need a break detective#and then them being literally divided in some of those shots. by the window binds by kathy and space and actual doors#(and her sliding those doors in the first place and then watching from the other side and the cut to her again watching through the door an#OPENING IT???)#and i havent even talked about el lmao. but it's svu it's supposed to be liv centric (well) but anyway#i havent essayed in the tags in so long i forgot to tag this in the beginning oopsie daisy#svuedit#bensleredit#eo#lawandorderedit#svu#benson x stabler#*mine#*svu
33 notes
·
View notes
Text
my resolutions for 2025:
1. dress gayer
2. get weirder
3. read more books
#i need to become even more gay and even more weird#and also get through my tbr list#cant believe its 2025 what a made up year#hopefully this year is kind to us all#happy new year#new year 2025
6 notes
·
View notes