#ill try to get on a better schedule

[oh-no-its-bird]

I asked for a trim and my hair dresser gave me a FUCKING PIXIE CUT I'm so genuinley distraught I ended up crying on the train home

Canceling all of my plans next month I can't let anyone I care about see me like this

[icewindandboringhorror]

I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently

[dread-and-despair-dyke]

its 23:17 i should be sleepy. but im not...

ok last night i slept at like ~5am, so today... ill get a drink rn and chill, then at 12am i will take a melatonin and lay down, then ill hopefully be asleep by 1 or 2am...

and ill wake at 7am and stay awake frfr the whole day. and then by the next evening ill be so sleepy that ill fix my sleep schedule entirely

[orcelito]

Submitting myself to physical therapy for my cringefail shoulders bc I remembered it's a muscle problem, aka something that can possibly be fixed, SO

On the 16th, I am starting physical therapy again 💪

[cavity-collector]

i genuinely need to be put down like a dog i cant do this anymore man holy shit

[muskmelon-enjoyer-199x]

Friday night is gonna be lit

I have stir-fry plans and iguana marriage plans and I got a beer and we have cartoons to watch. Sick

[shdwtouch]

yeah I feel like I don't need to say this but. if I'm following you it means I like you, I like your muse(s), and I want to interact. I may be slow and awkward and forgetful but I want to be your friend and do my best to be friend shaped, just like I would hope all my mutuals are friendly and try to be friend shaped to me.

I'm sorry that I'm not the fastest roleplayer under the sun, but I feel like I make up for it by engaging on the dash and being supportive. sometimes I don't have the energy to do that, but I never halfass or halfheart what I put out and on this blog. I will always be back eventually to shout positivity, like posts, and do my best to engage when I don't have the muse to interact. I'm doing my best, truly. if that isn't good enough for you... I can't say I won't be disappointed, cuz I will be, but. that's okay. I understand.

and that is the thing, ya know ? I do my best. but sometimes it isn't enough for folks I have genuinely tried to engage with on the dash and support, and me being supportive and friend shaped doesn't entitle me to their time, follow, or anything else. but please do know I am trying my best. and I am disappointed when I don't get to interact with folks, when they don't try to interact with me. it is a two way street after all; I know I can do better, but I also don't think I should be doing all the chasing. we all seem to have anxiety, that's okay, but it also means we could all stand to put ourselves out there a little more and try to be friend shaped / interact.

[mutalune]

hey siri how do I stop feeling gutwrenchingly anxious in the guilt way for using the treatment methods available to me to not be in constant misery

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[junk-culture]

"do i want to do art as a career or a hobby" life's most difficult question that plagues me every second of every day to be Honest

[agenderarkham]

What if I exploded rn. I think it’d be good for me personally

[g-a-r-f-i-l-e-d]

I was thinking since I'm still new to radical feminism, as well as just centering women more actively in my life. That I don't know a whole lot of historical women or women who were significant or even are beyond pop culture. Women who were/are breaking barriers or who have made significant change or discoveries in their fields.

In one of my art history classes, the teacher who kept gloating about being feminist rarely if ever mentioned female artists throughout history, and I remember being really frustrated when she mentioned two female artists who against all odds were allowed into the best school in the world at the time of the neoclassical era, and all she did was show us the paintings these women did AS TEENAGERS! Not even the height of their career, nothing about how women at the time weren't allowed in for excuse that they'd faint if they saw a naked male model since female nude models weren't allowed at the academy due to female models being lesser and the lack of prestige that came with hiring them (many were also prostitutes as well) or how my brother in his history of mathematics class got glossed over the female mathematician Hypatia, who recovered and held onto the last remaining knowledge of the Library of Alexandria, and reformed and improved upon astronomy during her time, and the only thing they discussed of her was how she was ripped apart by a mob of men claiming she was a witch, even then she gave her son that knowledge to bring back to the people. My brother was also frustrated that her life was glossed over to instead quickly say "man men suck, glad to know feminism fixed everything" and just move on.

One of my favourite things that being involved in radical feminism online for me has been getting to actually know these women beyond footnotes in a history overflowing with male accomplishment and biography. That there's a focus on women, and what we can do and have done. And, after seeing a lot of that, I really realised that I haven't done much to actively learn about history or the significant women within it, and being exposed to it made me excited to do so.

So in a mark to improve my knowledge and a step to more actively centering and supporting women which I'm still new to any activism, I'm going to be dedicating every Wednesday to posting about one woman or a group of women in the past or present (but mostly past historical figures, even recent past) who have been historically significant, made change in their community or world at large, and made waves for women to propel forward. I'm calling it Women's Wednesday, and am excited to start learning! If anyone who sees this post has an amazing woman in history, from any country, any history, anywhere they'd like to tell me about I'd love to look them up and dedicate my time to learn about them!

[shikiimisaki]

hanging out with group of people you only vaguely know is like so so important. like even if you never hang out with them again. take time to just like put yourself in situations. just get in a situation. tag along. you know. you learn sooooooooooooooooooooooo much. its fun

[danggirlronpa]

Happy Pride! I'm too swamped with work to draw or write anything for it until later in the month but if y'all want to send in characters or ships or prompts I'll make lil headcanon batches for em

[microfeelings]

👁👄👁

[the-fiction-will-knit-the-real]

Trying to come to terms with this rn, which is especially hard when everyone in my life tells me shit like "we don't want to see you give up on yourself" when I start to limit myself from doing things I cannot actually do anymore

Disability will have you thinking shit like “I’m not even that disabled. I can manage as long as I limit myself to very specific careers, never go shopping for more than an hour or two at a time, keep my plans open so I can cancel and stay in if need be, and only go out a few nights per week at the most”