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sableeira · 1 year ago

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it’s so sick and twisted….. why are there no job listings in my city for the job I want…… the universe has it out for me……

#ignore my dramatic rambles #tbf there are job listings for the job I want but none of them entry-level LOL #at this point I’m mainly looking for remote jobs but it’s not looking great on that front either #also thinking about doing a masters degree at my uni because the industry kinda sucks rn #and I applied to a studio in another country today but idkkkk #I used to be okay with moving… I even moved for uni… but things changed and I want to stay here :(#sina’s rambling

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uhbasicallyjustmilex · 27 days ago

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can someone please banish this writer's block for me 😫

it's the worst i've had in such a long time and i've tried to be patient with it but it's been fucking weeks now. i want to write so much but whenever i try they just feel like words on a page. every evening i sit down and rearrange them a little here and there and add some new ones, but they all just feel empty and and shit and my brain feels totally devoid of the creative spark i need to make everything come to life.

i know in large part it's my perfectionism getting in the way, but i don't know how to break through it. i don't know how to feel connected to my writing again. i don't know how to shift this fear of not being good enough that surges up every time i pick up a pen.

it's something that's always been there - but usually it at least comes in waves, or my love of what i'm creating is big enough to muffle it. right now, it's all i can hear. my inspiration has been totally drowned out by it. and i hate it so, so much. the fact that i can't access the one thing that brings me the kind of solace and joy and escapism i can't get anywhere else and is so vital to my soul. that i am blocking myself from engaging in the one thing that makes me feel like me.

i just feel so stuck and so lost and i miss being in that creative headspace so much it’s like a physical pain. it feels like part of me is missing, and it terrifies me that i don't know how to get it back.

#rambling this out in the hopes it might help me shift something #please feel free to ignore #it's incredibly frustrating because i have been SO excited to write these next few chapters of four walls for literal months #and i do have a decent chunk of the next chapter done #and also bits written for later sections too #but i just. i can't get into the headspace #it all just feels so far away and whenever i try and write it's like i'm pushing it even further away #ughhhhhhhhhhhh #i hate this so much #(and don't even get me started on my original stuff or my bang fic 🫠)#also anyone who's reading this and feeling worried about four walls being updated #please don't be #it's 2am and i'm being dramatic #i'll find a way to make it all work again because i love that fic with my whole heart #i just don't know how to shift this right now and i needed somewhere to vent #if anyone has any words of wisdom or writer's block cures please share 🫶#writing stuff #lulu posts

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spectralarrovv · 3 days ago

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happy 11/11 to all who celebrate

#matt rambles #my art #ichiishi #ichigo kurosaki #uryuu ishida #haven’t drawn in forever #lowkey thought i couldn’t anymore (i was being dramatic)#then i banged this out before the day ended #(ignore that it’s literally 11:58)#anyways! pocky day!

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kelpermoosee · 1 year ago

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I need to draw Booigi real soon, the lack of them is making me itchy

#kelperambles #uhhh pic is unrelated but I thought the paper luigi was cute 💖#anyways I just wanted to ramble about how much I love booigi LMAO #but like I need the very specific type of booigi that has been rotting in my brain in order to be satisfied #OKAY OKAY. picture this: Names are such an important thing to Luigi. Many people don’t tend to remember the bare minimum about him #so he really appreciates the few people who take enough time to remember his actual name or small things about him #then when King Boo pulls up he’s literally yelling Luigi’s name and cursing him out #sure while Luigi is still scared of him he can’t help but feel flattered that King Boo subconsciously respects him enough to call him Luigi #not green mario. not the man in green. just him…truly him.#and while Luigi might not want an designated enemy (like what Mario and bowser have)#the fact that king boo believes that Luigi is significant enough to be his enemy is something Luigi cannot ignore #King Boo acknowledges Luigi for his strengths in his weird theater kid way #but I can really see them growing closer together once Luigi discovers that King Boos plays everything up just to be DRAMATIC ✨✨#king boo WANTS luigi to react. and if he doesn’t get that he more or less just lets go of the act #like what’s the point of setting everything up if Luigi’s not even going to match his high energy?#honestly they just need to both RELAX for a second and they would really hit it off #it’s actually embarrassing. they’re so embarrassing.

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solargrove · 2 months ago

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sigh.

#rae ramblings #ive had so many confusing and conflicting feelings lately #there’s something that has me under a lot of stress right now that i dont know what to do about and its so. frustrating #i feel silly for feeling how i feel but also i feel like im justified with my feelings?#its so weird to feel like im being dramatic while at the same time feeling like u know what. these feelings are valid LMAO #ill figure it all out eventually when i feel like dealing with it because right now i choose to ignore it #dl

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askamnesiamoonjumper · 7 months ago

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me after editing the aau prologue for the bajillionth time

#First chapter I changed the opening bc I always thought it felt off/abrupt and wanted to have it be prince pov from the start #I wanna get in his head more ok sue me #Beyond that tho it was just some wording edits #Specifically with the internal dialogue moments I helped them flow more/feel more like thoughts #Also mj gets a bit more of their usual edge/pessimism bc the prologue they always felt a bit too “ówò sad poor smol bean” or whatever #That’s it tho chapter 4 I didn’t change bc it’s peak #Did add some teases to later things tho like snatch senses mjs soul at the end of his chap but doesn’t realize it #Or like I added the Not Now running thing in the earlier chapters bc it was more of a chapter 4 thing so I wanted 2 set it up more so boom #I think that’s all the notable edits ig like I said just description additions the only actual new thing is the opener for chap 1 👍#Also also I got to include a hc that I have that I neglected to do before but I hc a!prince used plural internal dialogue #Because lol we love dramatic irony in this house #Grace post #this reminds me tho one of these days I should look through heart strings chapter one to look for editing things #Bc I think I did that recently but I don’t remember it much tho #Mostly just when the Hat stuff starts that was the parts I never directly rewrote I just edited them so they feel out of place in my brain #Also I’d wanna edit her dialogue bc it *was* in character (after rereading her diary’s to confirm) but I wanna have her be a bit more snark #Hat is Hard bc i Need the balance of cute little kid and also smug little shit (affectionate) like she is a pain to write man cries #This is just me rambling lol ignore it I just wanted to spam aau thoughts #In other news I made shapes redesigns but I’m on the fence on posting them bc idk if I wanna spoil or not hhhhhhhhh #Nowadays I’m more chill w spoiling things than I used to be #But there are a handful of things I’ve kept shut about (ex being princes name or mjs species stuff etc)#So I’m not sure if this thing with shapes i should keep secret or just post bc I used to spoil it but idk now #Shrugs #maybe I’ll do a poll later I dunno #Ok yapping over byeeeeee

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sga-owns-my-soul · 9 months ago

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it is 7:39am and i'm already having a fucking terrible day and am in tears so 🙃 love this for me

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byanyan · 3 days ago

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so anyway, thanks for reading my little dissertations on byan's gender. sorry for not writing again today, i'm just. i'm fuckin goin through it rn man

#'it' being... *gestures vaguely*#i stumbled across this series of yt shorts yesterday (all by the same creator) that really fuckin resonated with me #and i mean that in the most serious way like. it spoke to me. never have i related to someone talking about their experiences more.#talking about their life growing up undiagnosed autistic & adhd... being in treatment for anxiety & depression for decades...#i can't really explain it but good god it's most exactly my same experience and i just. i have never felt that before.#it was so... idk. it sounds so dramatic bc it's literally a comedy short but holy shit #they verbalized things that I haven't been able to and #fuck. I felt seen and I felt like I wasn't alone in this miserable weird non-functioning barely even a human place I'm in rn #and just. idk. I'm still kinda processing some of it.#once again I am thinking back over my life and realizing things and it's. heavy. and tiring.#but like. in an ultimately positive way bc it's gonna help me change things & get to a better place.#I'm rambling IGNORE ME writing it out helps me process ig and for whatever reason posting on my dumb writing blog is easier than journaling #just. once again thank u all sfm for ur patience with me. it means SO much to me. genuinely.#you have no idea how much and I can't put it into words but. slow as I am... writing here with all of you is one of the few reasons #that I'm still kicking. and I'm just. so very grateful to every last one of you.#ok I'm gonna shut up before I get even more sappy and emotional lmfajdkgksg #love you guys. hope you're taking care of yourselves. 💜💜💜#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.#personal cw

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vveakfish · 23 days ago

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#𓆟 #chvm bvcket #ignore this im literally just rambling and being dramatic #in an incredibly odd mental space rn #feeling very discouraged and overall uninspired #and like maybe i might not be im the right place to persue my dreams despite how far chasing them has taken me over the last six months #yk how they say right person wrong time when talking about a relationship or whatever #rn everything is feeling very right dream #but wrong place and time #i Know that the career i’ve been building over this past year is the right path for me #and that if i stopped chasing it now i woulf regret it for the rest of my life #but it’s becoming increasingly hard not to feel like no matter how hard i try #the place where i’m at and the people i’m working under will not be able to facilitate my growth #or have any interest in attempting to do so #i dont wanna leave #i dont want to quit #what i want is to learn #ugh

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meerealsssss · 3 months ago

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i cant i cant

#im not allowed to say anything because its just gonna be push off as 'you're just a teenager stop being dramatic'#ignore my rambling #mee's silly silly

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ancuninspawn · 1 year ago

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bold of you to assume that Dean Winchester would confess his love in anything other than a life or death situation. that man is so dramatic he'd be hanging off the edge of a cliff and suddenly decide that Now is the time to tell Cas he's been planning out their forever home since 6 years ago. essentially, Dean's goal is to be as inconvenient as possible and boy is he good at it.

#supernatural #dean winchester #listen I found this in my notes app from oct last year?#and thought it needed to be said #idk he's so dramatic and I think that the only time he'd willingly confess would be if he was about to die. or at least thought he was #destiel #spn #they're so ridiculous #but dean is worse #in the sense of cas would just be like 'yes i love u'#and dean would #'look ik we're dying here but i just needed to tell you that earlier when you handed me cheese i was picturing very dramatically how i woul #rather kiss u than do chores right now and i felt it was important to note ignore the blood dripping from my side thats unimportant hahah'#yknow #dean rambles.

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tokyoteddywolf · 8 months ago

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22 isn't very much at all, I think.

#5am rambles #anyways ignore this as per usual im just thinking in a post that i'll delete soon. i just worry and writing it helps.#you ever wonder when you'll “grow up'? and then realize youre not even fully grown?#that theres still more to learn in life and that the mistakes you make are just that? mistakes?#that you are still so very very young in a world that is so very very old?#im almost 23. barely a quarter of my lifespan. im still a child in a way- my brain not fully formed.#you ever wonder how many mistakes you can make before you figure something out?#I dont know much of anything really. that's the sad part. and the adults who were supposed to help me learn... didnt.#i was failed. and now im a failure. at almost not quite 23 years old. Maybe i wont be a failure in another few years.#i still have a while to go before I die. I'm not going to waste time thinking about it. im just going to try my best.#I have time. I can learn. Grace and patience are not endless but damn if i dont try to figure things out #first step though is meds and therapy tho. we're done with the pity party. some things you just have to accept are okay #cuz my whole life i was taught that being emotional is a weakness. its pathetic and stupid to be upset or angry about anything.#any time i wanted to show i was upset or angry i was 'wrong'. i was 'selfish' and 'dramatic'#so i suppressed and pretended i was fine. that i wasnt weak and pathetic. that i was good and not an annoyance or burden.#i am not weak. i am not pathetic. i am fine i am fine i am fine you dont need to worry about the inconvenience at your door.#sometimes the shame is so much that i cant look at myself or even think i deserve help. that therapy is for people with real problems.#that i feel like ill just be told im like this for attention or dramatics. that im such a disappointment and selfish too.#ive been a “problem” my whole life to the point i dunno if i CAN be fixed. that anxiety eats me alive every day.#therapy is supposed to give you methods to cope #i dunno if it'll work though. I forget my appointments a lot. i struggle to talk sometimes. i may be autistic but its hard to get diagnosed.#emotions are so hard to figure out.

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nonkul · 9 months ago

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did you seeee jes jespipat bl series announcement 😱😱😱😱😱😱😱

omg i've seen the rumors about jes and bible being a pair in 4 minutes for a while, so at least ive had some time to prepare myself for the announcement sfdjgfdkfgkrtf

but jes joining BOC came as a shock to me honestly. does this mean he will no longer work with the one enterprise??? that would be a huge loss imo. the one enterprise produces SO MANY lakorns/dramas with one31, gmmtv, and change2561. he had the ability to jump from production to production easily.... WHY

#im not saying just because he's now under BOC he will never work with other production companies again #i don't really know the industry works really. maybe he's not bound to only BOC #BUT it's my observation that BOC artists tend to.... only star in BOC shows...#and they produce like what.. 1 or 2 dramas a year? and a movie if they have the budget and man power that year 😭😭😭#whereas change2561 and one31 churn out dramas like there's no tomorrow please 😭😭😭#ok why am i rambling i literally know nothing LMAO maybe he will announce another drama with the one enterprise tomorrow #and im just being dramatic IGNORE IGNORE IGNORE #clairedaring #claire #answered

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welcometogrouchland · 2 years ago

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I think the disconnect between canon Belos and (a certain genre of) fanon Belos is that in canon he is pathetic (in the dramatic sense) not sympathetic.

#ramblings of a lunatic #like that's the thing he's a tragic character in a sense but he's pitiable in the dramatic sense more than anything else #you pity his codependency and his hypocrisy and his refusal to ever change and his borderline stupidity #(like I get it he's good at machines and hes good at manipulating ppl! but his plans are also kinda stupid and that's on purpose)#(he is a conservative he is charismatic not machiavellian)#but you fully understand that his refusal to ever grow or learn (which is the crux of his. Everything) is his fault #i don't know man I'm just kinda over the fandom conversations around Belos after watching and dreaming #even if it wasn't my first choice or instinct I've made the effort to understand why the writers did his ending the way they did #and i see their pov and I've decided actually. yeah i can see how that works #bc fundamentally while a very important character philip has never been the crux of this story #it has always always been Luz King and Eda. and the amount of ppl who are. deeply pissy about that fact #idk man i don't consider myself like. knowledgeable and conscious enough to accurately identify white bias in fandom #and I'm fully aware that fandom is not praxis and it's generally shitty to insist ppl spend more or less time on certain aspects of media #as if fandom is about filling quotas for HR #but also i can't ignore the fuckin. itchy feeling that ppl really took this man at his word when his main character trait is being A Liar #all bc he's a white guy with long hair #he's cool! i like him! especially now that i remembered the vocabulary featured in this post! i have words to describe my feelings on him!#and also none of this matters bc He Is Not Real and the toh writers are not sniffling and sobbing rn bc some ppl think they did belos dirty #i just have ''opinionated on characters'' disease #and my opinion of philip is that he's a great villain #but ppl willfully ignore WHY he's a great villain (He Is An Interesting Depiction of a Religious Conservative)#in order to invent different and more traditionally sympathetic reasons why he's great (he's just afraid and alone and he feels bad and he)#(you get it)#okay. I'm done #Do Not Read The Fucking Tags

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kaoharu · 1 year ago

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hm i kinda wish i cld turn off my brain for a bit

#✧ chatting !#i wanna stop thinking abt smth specific bc blegh. its making me feel pretty bad and im being like dramatic and Man its a whole thing idk #when will my suffering for this week end /silly #if i think abt it the week hasnt been like absolutely horrendous and im still doing stuff and i have things to look forward to so thats cool #yeah 👍#i am rambling ignore me tbh

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friendofflowersandfrogs · 2 years ago

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the urge to self-isolate after one failed social interaction or less than ideal situation

#my friend was crying about not having the same free period as another friend anymore #and they were reciting Romeo and Juliette to be dramatic with each other #and I was wrote there #writing fanfic on my phone and generally being ignored #and it just felt weird #gotta love social anxiety #hemera rambles

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