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wild-woofs-press · 11 months ago

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For the 2023 Renegade Bound Fic Exchange (cc: @renegadepublishing).

Fic: Play It Again by metisket Words: 63,206

fonts title: Bebas author name: Amiline body: Cochineal

bookcloth: duo flieder • endpapers • htv: siser infinite galaxy

#ficbinding #fanbinding #mine #teen wolf #sterek #2023 renegade exchange #2023 renegade bound fic exchange #my giftee received this yesterday so i can finally share #ALSO - i picked this up as a pinch hit #so if you're the author and would like a copy #just let me know #(since approval was already gotten by someone else - i didn't actually have any interaction with the author)#but i'm assuming the author already has a copy tbh lol #since i know i've seen a bunch of different versions of this #my offer still stands tho!

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elialys · 8 months ago

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ngl posting fics really isn't fun anymore these days, im not even anxious about the complete lack of interaction, which used to make me feel like I was writing shit, now it just...makes me so sad that's it's gotten to that point

#i genuinely dont see the point of SHARING anymore #when most of the times im met with silence or something close to it #reaching the point where i think i might just write those things because i still need to write them #but i won't be posting online #because its really not a nice feeling to see the hit counts go up and get no interaction #as always it makes me feel dumb for being happy to share #anyway i guess it's a mood these days #good job internet you're winning #killing the will of yet another fic writer #and i was happy about soon celebrating my 20 years as a fic writer lol #writing #fic writing

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angorwhosebabyisthis · 22 hours ago

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do you ever just try to seek out advice for something you struggle with, find something that comes with glowing recommendations that Changed Everything(tm) for the people reccing it, and then when you read it it's so bad that it gives you a better idea of what your actual problem is just by dint of articulating why it sucks

#whosebaby talks #ttrpg tag #me trying to find advice for doing better improv in ttrpgs; and All of It either completely misses the point #goes 'don't work the way your brain works lol'#or gives you advice that's a helpful leg up; but can only go so far if you're not actually getting at the fundamental issue: Why #like i still don't entirely know *how* to solve the issues i've been putting my finger on! but god damn i'm finally at least doing that much #i think it doesn't help that the 'just don't think this way lol' this advice always aims at #hits on ableist bullshit i've gotten shamed and dismissed for Constantly in the past #to the point where i just stopped trying to engage with things or problem-solve at all To My Extreme Detriment Ever Since lol #'don't approach this game in a way informed by your neural wiring' means people will not approach your game!#ugh. anyway this instance of it sucked Bad even worse than usual and i am annoyed #the salt files

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sskk-manifesto · 4 months ago

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Ep 10!

#Idk it was. An episode. Not many thoughts tbh ajhdblabfdl #The Kyouka / Akutagawa scene is my favourite ever. But I suppose there's little to say about them I haven't said already lol.#The “Because I knew a man who had the same eyes as yours” will never stop being endlessly impactful.#And I still find it very remarkable how Kyouka is pretty much literally the only person other than Dazai that Akutagawa respects.#It hits me so hard.#Nothing else to add? I think the storywriting in this arc is very good. The plot twists are very well executed.#I remember when I was reading the manga and Ranpo challenged Chuuya face off I was so hooked!!#I was like‚ how is he going to win!!! It's very nice.#I think it's interesting that Atsushi stayed behind with Kunikida instead of facing the pm with the rest of the pm.#I wish we'd explored his decision and state of mind more‚ especially since he was portrayed as being visibly conflicted.#I think part of it simply solves a storytelling purpose of not leaving Kunikida alone...#But I don't think that necessarily means the decision doesn't suit him. Atsushi really looks up to Fukuzawa.#His trauma probably makes him more reluctant to break orders than‚ let's say‚ Ranpo.#And he's always been very spokenly against violence.#Idk. I just think it's interesting.#The line “Kunikida‚ you're the strongest and most virtuous of us in the Agency. That's why the enemy tried to break you first.”#is very emotional #The animation is so strained it makes me feel bad for the animators. So many static frames lingering for so long...#I feel like the result isn't necessarily terrible either. The drawings are not ugly‚ just very undetailed.#But it really feels like there was a group of people doing the best they could with the llittle they had...#random rambles #And I'm now all caught up with the rewatch!!!!!!!! 🥳🥳🥳 See you on Wednesday!!!!!

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tbh-entp · 6 months ago

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It's moments like me saying something hilariously false to a guy who I'm dating in an effort to get him to argue with me that I realize.. this wild Ne is chaos at night

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phoenixcatch7 · 2 years ago

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Man I am just SO CONFUSED. About the time line of this game.

No one is telling me how long links been gone! Or how long the botw-totk timeskip was! They all just started selling my stuff again lol. I'm going to have to get everything redyed!

Me: hey random stranger! Lore dump? You look like a lore dumper.

Kindly npc: why hullo there, link ^^! My, I haven't seen you in a while since the calamity ended! I was so worried when they said you and the princess had gone missing! But it's good to see you're well.

Me: aw, thanks. How long has it actually been tho.

Kindly npc: ^u^

#Having a great time btw I've just been chased across a near sea of miasma by stal riders and more! 10/10 nearly died in a high speed chase #Made it out relatively unscathed which is truly amazing lmao #Spoilers ahead: I have had the funniest time doing the great plateau quest chain. Once I sucked it up and made nice with the creepy statue.#He's(?) been alright. Fair trader. Good deals. I've mostly been terrorising kohga in between absolutely failing to craft working vehicles X #His new boss fights are so much easier than the first one lol. Less fun I'll admit but the music is groovy. You can probably make a #Machine and try and dog fight him but with few exceptions the turning circles are decrepit so I just stuck to mild dodging and shooting him #And running over to hit him some more. Kinda bland for a boss fight I'll say. Could have done with a lot more pizazz. It's kohga come on.#Anyway I do feel kinda bad because apparently he's been stuck down there for however many months/years and I AM kinda cheating with the arm #After the first fight he fled to the gerudo mine and the steward very nicely showed me how to get there but never underestimate #My procrastination because I'd already found it by just exploring so I just teleported. In game it must have been terrifying lmao #Racing across an endless void filled only by the light of your rapidly running out of battery glider and the red glow of the gloom away fro #The apparently immortal ancient warrior who beat you up and tossed you down there and there's no sign of perusal so you're probably safe #But you get there and he's already sitting there poking some bananas having wiped out your goons and plundered your supplies.#Like sorry man but the arm comes with the hero territory I can't exactly take it off.#Maybe if you stopped terrorising the people purah would let you have one of her long distance teleportation slates. It comes with photos?#It can't have been long since botw link hasn't grown an inch XD. Also I've been turning the lore timeline over in my head and still no idea #Are we not sure Rauru isn't from some alternate timeline that got fused with the main loz timeline by accident??#loz #legend of zelda #totk #loz totk #tears of the kingdom #loz tears of the kingdom #totk spoilers

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citrine-elephant · 3 months ago

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no, but i have the stubborness of the chreon boys

as my head spins and i grow increasingly nauseous, i continue writing because i'm drafting a really really good fuckin part

i can't stop and rest to take care of my 'wounds' because i'm so close. i'm almost there. i'm - aouughh *leon re4 05 passing out gif*

#i caved and took pain pills #this was a migraine without warning lol #i'm fine! i'm fine... but im fuckin using this for a leon pissy bitch fic sometime #ohh you're so strong tough man aint ya leon? fuckin hurtin urself cuz you cant accept a *break*#strong man can't show weakness *literally critially wounded*#openly emotional and still too stubborn to give up physically what a dynamic #maybe it's a bit of toxic masc and maybe it's a bit of survivors guilt or somethin?#me from the comfort of my room writing him getting bullied #i feel like im gonna throw up lol but i'll give up once i hit a certain threshold i cant tolerate

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giantkillerjack · 2 years ago

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Ya know. I spent most of my life with horrible painful soul-crushing social anxiety.

And after about 25 years of continuous hard work, suddenly, people started pointing out - to my utter bafflement - that I had, in fact, achieved my lifelong dream of being charismatic. I'm 29 now; I feel comfortable in most social situations, and it is a very rare person whom I cannot make laugh.

I am, undoubtedly, finally, charismatic.

But do you know what I found?

I found that now that I have an understanding of which social rules serve which functions -- Now that I have an understanding of just how much damage my awkwardness was doing to people, well,

I found that, actually, my awkwardness never really hurt anyone at all. People were just judgmental dicks to me about it.

Now that I have the skill-level to (most of the time) creatively vocalize what is in my head as soon as I think it and without fear, I can confirm once and for all what I had always suspected:

I was worth talking to when I was quiet.

I was worth talking to when I was awkward, and when the words in my head took time and patience to hear, and when most of my jokes didn't land. I was worth talking to the whole time.

So I just... I hope that if you've ever wondered whether you are worth communicating with, the answer is yes. Absolutely yes. Each of us has a soul worth sharing - and if you and I were talking, I would happily wait for you to speak (or communicate in other ways) without condescending, and I would never shame you for that harmless awkwardness that so many people feel the need to violently stomp out.

You are worth talking to. You just are. And you deserve people who will speak to you with kindness, with patience, and with the basic immutable respect owed to all people.

(I talk about this with some frequency, both on tumblr and in real life. At some point, maybe I'll gather all my thoughts on the matter into one post. At some point, I wrote about my personal experience trying to build my social skill. But I felt the need to say at least a little bit tonight after seeing this other lovely post, and I'm glad I did. It will happen again.)

#original #social anxiety #autism #that one post #actually autistic #self-diagnosis is valid - in case that last tag implies otherwise to anyone. i think it just denotes i am an autistic and not just an ally.#social skills #socially awkward #socially anxious #autistic positivity #autism positivity #like actually genuinely who does it hurt if i tell a joke that doesn't land? esp if the joke is not about another person #this is not a live comedy show this is life ya gotta learn to say 'ah well they can't all be golden!'#which btw is a line i use when my own jokes don't land and it usually plays pretty well actually. i've got a higher hit rate but #genuinely they just can't all be good! anyway i go into that in the post linked at the end there i think #people can tell when you're not sure of yourself socially and a lot of folks instinctively use that against you. and i am here to say that #it's fucked up that they are doing that and they need to step off actually. imagine getting to decide on which social cues are #acceptable and then using that power to be unkind. fuckin gross. i regret so deeply each time in my life i have made that choice.#being a kid who is abused like that so often it was eager to power trip when i met kids more awkward than myself. but it was wrong #and i regret it. and i am proud to say i haven't done that in a long time and instead when i find myself with that power i try to say #actually what do YOU want? to the people shyer than me.#i'm pretty rad now is what i'm saying lol #like all the ways that having a good social stat has improved my life just made me realize what bullshit it is that this was necessary #doing what I did is not desirable or possible for everyone. they deserve just as much out of life as i do.#side note: i think I've actually surpassed a lot of neurotypicals who had never even had to think about social rules 🤣.#like I feel no competition with other people who have struggled socially but now that I'm more charming than people who were dicks to me #I do feel like fuck you!! I win!!!! I can finally see enough of the full picture to say that your arbitrary rules were FUCKING ARBITRARY #I'm also aware of the fact that not everyone finds me charismatic but i am. in all the ways that matter to me. and I'm still growing!#note to future jack: you did save these posts in your notes app on the day this was written.#tbh i am often still awkward i am just not sorry anymore if i'm not hurting ppl. 'confident and awkward' really throws 'em for a loop! XD

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blujayonthewing · 2 months ago

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so in juniper's campaign we've just found ourselves in a high-stakes situation that I as a player do frankly find stressful and am anxious about, but hey hi also the DM was like 'okay here are the exact mechanics of how this is going to work because I don't want to surprise you with serious repercussions, also here are all the options you will have to try to do something about the situation-- [affected player] what do you think? honest feedback, I don't want it to feel unfair, I want to be clear that I am not just trying to kill your character, and if it ends up being badly balanced we can revisit it down the road' and oh my god I could COLLAPSE and WEEP with gratitude

#[tears in my fucking eyes] WHAT IF DND WAS GOOD!! WHAT IF A DM THAT'S GOOD!!!#LIKE I've said actually MOST of my DMs are good but because of the way this situation was presented specifically #where-- as NOT the affected player-- it does feel like the way it came up was a little unfair and I AM worried about the stakes--#I REALLY SPENT SO MUCH OF THAT ABOVE-TABLE TALK GOING OH WOW I FEEL LIKE OUR FRIEND ACTUALLY LOVES US AND WANTS THIS TO BE FUN!!#I DON'T KNOW THAT I AGREE WITH WHAT HE'S DOING HERE BUT I TRUST MY FRIEND AND IT'S SAFE FOR US TO TALK ABOUT THINGS LIKE THIS PLAYER TO DM!!#WOWIE THAT FEELS RELEVANT TO MY DND EXPERIENCE RIGHT NOW LMAO!!!#'I've looked at your stats and inventories to try to make this serious but balanced but if it doesn't work we can retool it'#'I want to be extremely clear that this situation could kill destal so I want to be extremely sure that you're comfortable with that--#-- and with how the mechanics are designed around it'#I am fucking. on my KNEES WEEPING. at the contrast with how punishing and DEEPLY unfun felix campaign has relentlessly been the whole time #and how little of a fuck it feels like THAT DM gives when he's like 'this random rolltable encounter was deadly :)'#'you guys didn't get hit last time and got all your spells back right?' uhhh wrong and wrong and we TALKED about that last time #are you gonna revisit the balance on your fifth in a row 'if you fail you'll TPK' scenario? no? yeah I figured lol #christ knows HE'S never invited feedback on his DMing. you KNOW I don't feel safe to say 'hey this doesn't feel fair or fun' with him #AND LIKE!! WITH A DM I TRUST I FEEL SAFE ENOUGH TO REALLY PLAY WITH SOMETHING TERRIBLE HAPPENING!! YAY YIPPEE STAKES AND PATHOS!!!#I don't just want nothing bad to happen ever! but I don't want it to feel careless or heartless or just... Not Fun #anyway. grasping william's hands so tightly. my beloved friend. my wonderful friend. what a relief to have a DM that's good #after the shit we've been through in our now most-frequently-run campaign #the thing I'm mad about is that destal has been making a mystery saving throw every night-- but this was imperceptible to the characters #so we weren't acting on it #and now that he's failed it three times the situation is 'okay NOW you will be maming a con save every night and accumulating exhaustion'#'which can't be removed by sleeping' [six levels of exhaustion Kill You]#so like!! well okay I wish we had had ANY way of knowing how urgent this was before we got to 'now there's a deadly countdown' BUT OKAY #but like I said. he clearly put a lot of thought into the math for the mechanics #he made sure that we DO actually have ANYTHING we can do to mitigate the condition and outlined several options specifically and clearly #he checked in with justin about whether that seemed fair and opened it for future retooling if necessary #so I'm just at 'that was kind of a rugpull dude :/' instead of DESPAIRING lmao #this is a level of Oh Shit that's juicy! this is a level of Oh Shit that might force dramatic character choices out of desperation!#THIS IS AN OH SHIT WHERE WE STILL GET TO PLAY DND ABOUT IT AND HAVE ANY AGENCY WHATSOEVER. WHAT A CONCEPT.#ANYWAY!!! GOOD DND SAVE ME!!!!!!!!!

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tonyglowheart · 9 months ago

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reading thru old meta posts on qian qiu and there's like, some stuff I agree with sure but there's also a lot I don't lol. w like yan wushi especially. there's a lot of. I think too much conventional-mindedness in approaching yws even from the ppl who did like him as a character. saying he's a difficult character, and is meant to be a difficult character, but then still framing him along more conventional moral frameworks. yet another apartment 'complex'? strange, I find it quite simple moments.

#qian qiu #yan wushi #sorry so many of you are still hung up over the *chapter 45* '''''betrayal''''' rip but i'm different #(though I wonder if I'd feel this way if ppl hadn't made such a big deal of it and so I was expecting The Betrayal to be like. worse lol)#like for me since I was expecting *a* betrayal when I hit it in chap 45 I was like. this is it? lmao I thought it was sth actually serious #and then ppl like I can't let it go or I can't get over him saying he doesn't regret it - like god forbid women do anything forreal #the thing about yan wushi is he is not just master-less he's also in many ways *peer*-less #and that's why to him he was so much on the 'what a shame you're like the one guy who maybe could have been my rival but you're not'#I think ppl see rival as like. could be my enemy. but it's like. someone has to be your peer to be your rival #and it's very much established that yan wushi even before his power level is like maxed up has this wild potential #there's that chap where sq reflects on what qfg said abt yws having the potential to be better than him #but also I think it's a huge mistake to see/think of yws as amoral #he HAS morals. they're just not the same as yours #he doesn't care about the greater good as a rule but he's also not completely indifferent to it #and like. I think it's also a simplification to say that 'sq breaks the rules of yws's world of human nature being inherently corrupt etc'#I think that's a belief that yws holds about human nature but I think he's also like. smarter than to believe in absolutes?#and besides. to say it that way I think frames it as if yws is in denial about sq's existence and nature #I just don't get that sense from him - imo he sees sq as more of a curiosity than a like aberration #he's testing sq's bottom line not necessarily bc he's convinced sq is secretly evil but he because he wants to see what sq's bottom line is #and he wants to know that because sq's nature is so different than his own or those he generally encounters and understands from people #he's squishing sq like a dog with a chew toy not because he wants to destroy it but because he wants to see exactly what kind of noises #he can get out of it and exactly how far he can squish it before it starts being too much #(but also I think bc he sees sq's potential to be on his level and wants to see if that can get teased out)#in a like... bonsai shaping kind of way #yes he's pruning the tree back and sometimes pruning & shaping quite hard #but as with the art of bonsai - it's an interactive dance and like only the tree can add material #and for all that you can prune & shape the tree you will never know exactly what the tree will do #SQ is also like a tree in the sense that like you have to prune to get read of dead growth & also encourage new growth #and SQ goes from that like houseplant side of the meme that's like i'm allergic to tapwater #to flourishing under the adversity and the 'i can eat thru concrete'

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llycaons · 10 months ago

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it's taken me this long to realize it because I literally didn't have enough social connections with people outside my family until now or really much drama with my small group, but I really cannot stand when someone clearly messed up and then doesn't have the spine to admit it. this has happened a few times now, RECENTLY. once with a new acquaintance who said something off-color politically then denied ever saying it and insisted I was misreading things, and then with another newer friend who went for ad hominum attacks rather than addressing what his friend was accusing him of, and with one of my old friends who said something unacceptable to one of my family members and skirted the issue when I talked to her about it, going as far as to lie to me directly about what happened

and it sucks to be in the wrong! I know how it feels! and I've screwed up too, nobody's perfect and imo there are few feelings worse than to face your out-of-control temper or lapse in judgement or genuine mistake that leads to harm. but I swear the level of respect I had for each of those individuals in each situation just plummeted as soon as I realized they couldn't just admit what they had done. especially my old friend, who yelled at MY family member and couldn't what, think to apologize? almost 30 years old and I really feel like I finally know what taking responsibility means

#cor.txt #this is just like when I watched one piece live action and suddenly realized the power of helping your friends and being loyal #as not an abstracted shonen ideal but a real thing people did for each other #it was still in a shonen lol but it hit me HARD #my other lesson was don't offer unconditional support to people if you're not able to back it up because it's just crueler in the long run #I thought I was just being nice but some people you really need to set boundaries with bc they take it and run a mile....#this is about IRL people btw none of my beautiful mutuals <3

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eggbagelz · 1 year ago

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Ballsack guts three certainly is a game im playing

#the GLITCHES. LOL #not the point tho i just kept getting hit after hit after hit it was like #get karlach to a mechanic or she WILL die and then we got one and i got to hug her and then #it turns out that SHE HAS TO GO BACK TO HELL?#AND gale got the issue with his heart fixed in the most fucked up away possible bc he has to use it to kill himself #to save us??????? at some point?????? also we fought a bunch of evil crows and then he went god you're hot [in galespeak]#AND I DANCED WITH WYLL AND TURNED HIM DOWN BC IM NOT ROMANCING HIM IN THIS RUN #AND I FEEL SO BAD BC HE LOOKED AT ME SO SADLY #boom karlach has to go back to hell boom gale has to kill himself boom wyll has to rescue a demon boom #gale wants to bone so bad boom lae'zel is being nice for some reason boom astarion is still a little bitch

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brokenyouth · 1 year ago

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after having experienced the highs and lows of a wlw situationship i felt like the opposite of the straight girls that say they'd have it way easier if they were into women instead

#don't get me wrong at the end of the day i don't trust anyone and men are worse and scarier to me but damn #when you find out you're into women they sell you the fantasy that women could never make you suffer or that #since it's a gay relationship it could never get as bad as straight relationships #like sure there are differences but #at the end of the day all relationships have the potential of being either great or awful #that was not the first time i suffered from being in love with a woman but #i had only experienced unrequited love before that so it hit me like a truck #the realization that someone could be into me and yet still not want the same things i wanted or love me in the way i wanted to be loved #txt #personal #btw the post is a joke obvi idt I'd have it easier with men i think anyone from any gender has the potential to break my heart lol #i guess after everything i was like what the hell i might as well like a man next since I'm suffering like this #but I wasn't expecting for my ex crush to show up and even less so for my feelings for him to return #so inconvenient for him to show up the day i swore off love #ok sorry I'm done fr now

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chaotic-history · 1 year ago

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i am. thinking about the barbie movie

#am gonna regret writing this later but. being trans is a special breed of feeling like you have to prove your masculinity #and it's extra fucked up cause whenever you feel like that you immediately feel like shit afterwards cause you know the other side and you #grew up knowing you were queer and now you feel like you're being antithetical to what the queer community is all about and the progress it #has made. like obviously [insert any number of things lol] does not make someone any less of a man. you know that and you know that you'd #never judge anyone else by that standard but at the same time clearly you still fucking believe in it since you judge yourself by it and #what if you're just judging other people unconsciously #and this ties back in to the movie cause the end w ken also rebrought up the question of 'do i actually want a romantic relationship or do #just feel like i *should* have one' and i'm kind of leaning towards the second option. bc it feels Good but in like.. i don't even know how #to describe it. like it's what i should be doing but not because *i* actually want to personally?#and i know that whatever kind/amount of attraction i have is bi but whenever i imagine the kind of relationship that would feel most 'right #(in that weird way) it's always w a girl. which is literally fucking just the beginning of these tags restated. bc that feels like the thin #i 'should' be doing as a guy (lmfaooo mistyped that as gay 💀) n i think the 'this feels right' is literally just gender euphoria which #again is fucking stupid as a shit bc obviously liking girls is not more masculine than liking guys and ofc i don't actually believe that #but then clearly i fucking DO because why the hell else would i feel that way for myself #anyway gonna go play in traffic 🙃 dear god please hit me with a bus. thanks

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keeps-ache · 1 year ago

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MUSIC. [explodes]