#if u dont have anything nice to say dont fucking say anything

[whatifitis]

♡ 150 reasons - LN 4 ♡

Summary: 150 reasons why lando loves you

Author's note: idk i thought it'd be nice

CW: literally just fluff

Hi baby!! :D

I saw this trend on tiktok just now and wanted to do it for you. I love you a lot and you know how hard it is for me to show it sometimes. I thought this could be a nice small way to at least show you a bit of how much I love you. My love for you knows no boundaries. <3

P.S. if there’s any misspelings dont say shit cause im dyslexic and you know that :(

Your smile

Your eyes

The way your eyes sparekl all the time

Your rosy cheeks

Your wavy hair (you hate it but u love it)

Your heart

Your brain

Your patience with evrything (including me)

Your honesty

Your inteligence

Your humor

The way you’re always there for anyone. Doesnt mater if u know them well or not

You always listen to people and help them when they need it even if your tired

You challenge me and help me become a better person

You never judge me

You make me feel safe

You believe in me, even when idont

You inspire me everyday whether it’s work related or just life in general

You’ve seen teh good and the bad in me and you still love me

You laugh at all my jokes even if they suck

You’re my best friend (🎶you can hear it in the silence🎶)

You respect my space when i need it, even if i go about it awfully (when writing ‘about it’ i accidentally wrote ‘tit’ :I)

You give the best fucking hugs 

When i get anxious, you always help me, even if it’s just when you sit with me and help me breathe 

You took the time to learn about me and my mental struggles so that you could help me better

You make life so much more better 

You remind me that i’m worth more than i think i do

You chose me

You make me blush and happy

Your music taste is amazing as well (btw i got us tickets to see Noah Kahan)

You’re like my personal google and dictionary

You get along with my family

My mum loves you (i think she loves u more than she loves me ngl)

You get along with max and you mock sometimes and it makes me laugh so much

You stay even if im mean and dont deserve it

You sacrifice a lot

You always put others before you 

You don’t mind my gaming (even when i keep you up late with my screaming)

You always listen to me talk about the things i like 

You hold my hand in public (it sounds stupid but it makes sense ok so shut it) <3

You never give up on me

You bring out the best in me

Max said he hadn’t seen me so happy until i met you

You make me feel lucky to have u

You support my career and stuff even though it gets really hard sometimes

You make the bad days better

You make everyday better as well, not just the bad ones

You never make me feel bad or ashamed about feeling certain ways

You always validate me when i need it

You never lie to me

You always tell me straight up when im the one in the wrong

The way you smell

The way you look when u see me

The way you hold me tight even if i’ve just raced singapore and am sweating out of every crevise

You stay strong for the both of us

Your attitude

Your kisses

You’re always down to play video games with me (IM SORRY FOR IT TAKES TWO I DIDNT KNOW IT WAS HARD)

The way you call me your love

You stand up for me even when im not deserving of it

Your cooking skills

The way you play with my hair

How we’re able to joke with eachother

The way you tell stories

The way you talk in general

How funny you were when telling me about work and snot shot out of my nose 

You match my freak

Your singing (even if its off key sometimes)

You never doubt me

U dont mind my clinginess (sorry about scaring u in the shower the other day as well)

You never tell me to go away

You always communicate with me

You plan things for our future

When you send me vlogs when im away (or even when im home but youre at work)

You make my heart feel full

You’re consistent with loving me. Whether you’re sad or mad or happy or anything, you still love me the same

Youre never too busy for me

The way we can just sit in silence together and do nothing but still have fun

The way you help me pack when im getting ready to travel

The way you pack my favorite snacks for me when im going away for a while

We can share victories together, big or small (lol big or small, ya know, like dicks)

You never make me feel alone

You watch stupid ass movies with me all the time

You dont get mad at me when you try to teach me to play valorant (it’s fucking hard, csgo is better anyways)

The way your face lit up and you started talking faster when you were talking to me about your favorite artist

The way you speak to me so gently when i need it

The way you make a playlist for every mood possible

The way you make a playlist for every book you read, even if the book was bad

How you insist we don’t have enough driving playlists so we always make more

The way you introduce me to new things (i still wont try fish, screw that)

Youre adventurous

You put up with my shananigens

The way you made a million stickers on whatsapp

How you always say ‘i love you’ with the ‘i’

When you tell me goodmorning and goodnight even if youre mad at me

How you help me dress better

How u kiss me in a way that screws me up forever

How you always ask me about my day

How you always put your leg on mine

How you show me how forever feels

How you put up with my stupidity (I REALLY THOUGHT THE MATTRESS WAS GONNA HELP)

You’re gonna be an amazing mum someday

How you spam me with tiktoks

Your laugh is the best sound ive ever heard

Youre beautiful inside and out

How u were able to make me laugh even after i’d poked by hand with a knife when i tried cutting an avocado

How you helped me escape the bed sheet when we discovered my new found claustrophobia

How you always rep mclaren and quadrant merch

How you always make backed goods and make them healthy sometimes so i can still eat them

How when we’re out and you can tell im anxious

And when you realize it you find small ways to ground me like holding my hands or tapping my foot with yours

You love the pictures i put in the new digital frame (you cant lie and say u dont like yassified alonso)

If im hungry in the middle of the night, you join me in snacking or ordering a whole pizza

How you know you’re lactose intolerant but still eat dairy filled foods

And how you lock me out the room when you have to deal with the aftermath of eating dairy

How you're already naming our future children

How you laugh til you cry at 3 in the morning from watching tiktoks 

And waking me up to watch them with you

How you get so excited when talking to me about the last book you read 

How you tell me about the book theories you hear and your own theories (violet’s mom was definitely venin)

How when u find me snacking in the middle of the night, you don’t question it

How we have dance parties in the living room

How you quote random things all the time, especially tiktok sounds

Your love for musicals

How you say “me and boq” every 5 mins

Your unconditional love for not just me, but everyone 

Your love knowing no boundaries

The way you didn’t get scared away when faced with so much hate and shit when we first started dating

Your strength

How you learned the “wait, they dont love you like i love you” thing in different languages

Your high streak on duolingo

Your creativity

Your piano skills

Your love for celsius (although it’s not good for you and you should probably slow down on them :( try coffee instead)

How you and my mum go shopping together all the time

How you’re invited home more than i am…

Your dedication to work

Your work ethic (it’s not the same as the reason above)

Your vast knowledge of everything in Marvel

How you interact with the fans

How you show me off in every way possibel (i might've said this already)

How you help me with quadrant shit

How you give me a room tour anytime youre somewhere new

The light you emit

The way you make everything so much brighter

How you always try to learn new things (we should try tarot reading again, that one was fun and we can scare the shit out of max with it)

The way you never let go no matter what

The way you always give back to people

The way you live everyday like it’s the last

The way you love me and hold onto me

[drdemonprince]

im really envious of u. I like reading your writing and the stories you tell about sex and stuff and it sounds like u have a lot of fun. I don’t no if I will ever be able to live like that. im autistic and very inhibited is probably the best word. I find it hard to meet new people and go new places. a few times I have gone to local munches but been too introverted to say anything to people and I just sit there feeling self conscious and silly. they have been really nice. but I haven’t made any friends or anything. I feel like I need someone to take me under their wing kinda and give me an in. It seems like I’d really enjoy it a lot but don’t no how to make my way in. I don’t feel confident enough to just use apps and hook up. especially as im so new to it all and dont no what im doing really. I’ve read what you say about going to the social gatherings and stuff but what if im too shy to say anything? I don’t no how to be more uninhibited but I feel like that’s what I need.

please keep in mind that I was not doing any of this shit until I was like 32 years old. up until then I was in only a handful of relationships, mostly ones I had stumbled into through no agency of my own, and I had never really lived out any of my kinky desires. hell I had barely even gone out to a club or a concert or anything on my own, certainly not very often, let alone a sex club or something like that. I had to practice socializing on my own terms, and trying new things alone and scared and finding what was valuable in them despite those feelings a lot. like many many years a lot.

I didn't really venture out into the gay bath house or any of the cruising bars until I had a partner who was interested in taking me to them. that provided me with an in and an emotionally safe anchor with which to explore. I am also indebted to friends who showed me around places like steamworks and explained to me the nonverbals of cruising, which I then went ahead and put in my own cruising guide.

to this day I still have a much better time at events like puppy play night when I go with some homies and can spend some time joking around with them and using their support to help meet people before eventually breaking off and wandering into a back room to get laid. I still routinely have nights where I will go out on my own and do very little but sip from my drink and stand around awkwardly for four hours, maybe dance a bit, and go home.

cruising is an exercise in patience. you are never guaranteed any particular outcome or experience. you work with what nature gives you, and you learn to find some appreciation in simply being there and bearing witness. 9 times out of 10 you get turned down or there just isn't a spark. happens on the apps too.

shooting your shot and getting turned down is a successful consent negotiation. everybody has done everything correctly and it ended the only way that it should have. there's nothing to do but dust yourself off, not take it as some dramatic declaration of your life worth, and go at it again.

I recommend visiting cruising spaces with a friend. and just going purely for voyeuristic and anthropological reasons the first couple times. The only way you become a person who can do this stuff is by doing it, a fuck ton of times. message a lot of people. Go to a lot of events.

at some point you have to find the very act of going to be motivating and enjoyable in some way. thankfully I am fascinated by humans, enjoy dancing, like having a little drink or an edible and wandering around, and treat it all as very valuable writing fodder. you have to find what set of motivations work for you. because it's not about instant success or gratification ever. It is always a lot of waiting and watching and wondering what the night is going to bring, and making peace that often it will bring nothing at all except for being alive amongst others.

keep at it though. start really small. I am so glad that I got to this point, because yeah my life is really interesting and sexually gratifying and fun. but it also is entire weekends of just standing around nursing a drink and doing nothing and looking like an NPC. happens to the best of us

[jxmieoleksiaks]

wildest dreams - jamie oleksiak

Say you’ll remember me…

wow my first fic in ages, while i know this is a little short, it challenged me, and makes me hopeful to maybe wanna dig into them a little more. This is for the era’s fic challenge by @comphy-and-cozy and @wyattjohnston ! My song was wildest dreams, from 1989 (taylor’s version)

Word count: 1.3k

Language: yes

smut: tiny mention

divder: by wcnderlnds

Lets get out of this town, drive out of the city, away from this town:

Chelsea was a little hesitant, it’s who she was. How did she end up here? Standing in a nice dress…

She decided to go on a weekend trip to Seattle with her two friends. She had more than enough time off, so three days wasn’t going to hurt anyone. She had never been out there, and had always wanted to go. Was her reasoning to go to a Seattle Kraken home game? Yes, but she also wanted to check out the bars with her friends, and find the first ever starbucks. 

Well, the team ended up having a couple days off, playing the day before her and her friends arrived, leaving the day before she did, so she was a little unlucky in that part, but had seen them before. She got ready with her friends to go to a local bar. Her two friends were talking to guys at the bar, that’s something that came easy for them, while you sat at the booth you three had, sipping a vanilla vodka drink they had on special. Chelsea went to go grab another one, also wondering if her friends were going to even remember they came with her, and she bumped into a man, literally. 

He’s so tall, and handsome as hell

He was about a foot and a half taller than her, and almost spilled her drink. He introduced himself as Jamie, but Chelsea knew, she had to keep it cool though.

You two ended up talking the rest of the night, getting a little tipsy and almost half making out in a booth, when it was last call. He asked if her if she wanted to hang out at his cabin away from the town he had, and she accepted. As much as she wanted to go to Forks with her friends, being OG Twilight fans, she would never pass up an opportunity to hang out with a man that came right out of a book.

He was a man of nature, he liked fishing and being outside, which was something she didn’t. She could be outside and be eaten alive within in 5 minutes. But there she was, sitting on his dock, outside of Everett Washington. He liked to be in nature, but also liked to be near civilization.

They spent the afternoon talking, sharing stories, making out with the lake behind them. It was perfect, and you were already falling. But as quick as it was starting, it had to end. He had a west coast road trip that started tomorrow, and Chelsea had to go back to work. Well. she could work anywhere, but had to go to her home base.

“I hate the long distance shit, but I think we could give it a shot.” Jamie said

“Really?” Chelsea asked.

“Yeah, not exclusive or anything, but also you’re the only one I want to talk to, distance makes the heart…do something right?” Jamie said and Chelsea laughed.

I said, "No one has to know what we do"

His hands are in my hair, his clothes are in my room

It was the beginning of the 4 nations tournament. Chelsea was working away and Jamie ended up with almost a 3 week break.  He was coming in the first possible moment he could, and Chelsea took the next day off work, him coming in at midnight.

Chelsea laughed as Jamie attempted to get into her smaller Honda. 

“Maybe you should have rented a car.” She giggled as he made it work, getting into her car and kissing her softly. Honks from cars trying to move out of the pick up area made him pull back, a laugh escaping him this time.

“There’s really nothing open except for bars, no food…I know a neat one not far from here.” Chelsea said, pulling onto the freeway.

“I know something I’d like to open.” He smirked, typical man but she couldn’t help but heat up, knowing where the night was going.

He wasted no time getting her up the three flights of stairs leading up to her appartment, clothes being tossed in the hall before the both of them hit the bed.

Jamie wasn’t her first, but she’d like to forget the asshole who was, and pretend he was. He knew how to make her feel good, and always put her needs first. It was a turn on to him to watch you release two-three times before he could. 

Nothin' lasts forever

But this is gettin' good now

He stayed with Chelsea for about a week before he left. She was afraid he would get bored while you worked all day, but he fixed some doorknobs, grabbed a sponge she threw at the cupboards in the kitchen when there was a huge spider, and ordered coffee and food before you could even ask.

“You don’t know how much this week meant to me, most times I get annoyed when I have people in the apartment when I work, but this was different” Chelsea said, her pulling into a parking garage to drop him off. First 30 minutes were free, and she could kiss him before getting honked at.

“I’m glad to know that I don’t annoy you.” He smiled. “Though this car hurts.”

“If you come back..we’ll get a rental..” Chelsea laughed.

“It’s not a romantic spot, this parking garage that smells weird, but I want you to be my girlfriend, we can do long distance.” He said.

“Really?” She asked. “I can find cheap flights..work from your place too if needed.” She smiled before Jamie placed a soft kiss on her lips.

Chelsea was soon added into a chat with the other WAGS. She didn’t know who these people were, but they were so excited to see that quiet Jamie finally bagged a girl, who didn’t seem like she was the rudest girl alive. They face timed her several times, and did everything they could to make her feel comfortable, even if they were thousands of miles away.

The Kraken made the playoffs, and Chelsea was able to work from his place. Half of her co-workers lived on the west coast, and it worked perfectly. 

She was excited, never being to a playoff game before, but she could feel some tension. Yes, the long distance worked pretty well, but maybe it was the distance? If it got serious, Chelsea would move across the country to Seattle, but right now Chelsea, and Jamie were in a good place. So maybe it was playoffs, that would make sense, it’s a stressful stretch. 

The Kraken made the second round, but that sadly was it. She didn’t have to leave anytime soon, since she could work from anywhere.

I bet these memories follow you around. 

Chelsea loved Jamie, Jamie couldn’t. Well, he could, but for some reason, he couldn’t get the same feelings. Nothing happened that would have broken up the relationship, it was just feelings. Chelsea understood, though her feelings made her want to do anything for him. She was heartbroken when he broke it off, but she understood. Her first real heartbreak was the man of her dreams. 

Both of them kept appearing in dreams. Chelsea was in an airport and Jamie ran to her. Jamie was in her childhood home town and was walking downtown in the Christmas lights. There was no bad blood, but they both couldn’t get each off their minds. 

Say you'll remember me

Standing in a nice dress

“Wow, you look beautiful.” Jamie said. 

“I look like I haven’t slept in two days.” Chelsea laughed. 

Chelsea was returning back to her parents home for a few days, when they ran into each other in Chicago, each on a layover. 

“How long do you have? Coffee?” He asked

“Should we actually do this?” She questioned back, knowing how much hurt she had to get over. 

“If it doesn’t work, not meant to be, at least I’ll have the good memories, and I don’t want you to think i’m a dick.” He said. 

“We can get coffee, i have 45 minutes. We can start back slow, and maybe in our wildest dreams, we’ll try again.”

[fraternum-momentum]

ok so my room is p dark except for a shitty sconce light and a lamp near my bed and im currently working on a project but i didnt want to work at such low lighting. so what i did is i put my phone's flashlight on and then tied a belt around my neck to keep it steady. it was going good until my little brother suddenly barged in my room and i looked like this

[milkbreadtoast]

doodled Stayn from living with magicians webtoon... I like him :) (just felt like drawing random webtoon characters fsr lmao)

[callmehere-iwillappear]

yall i got my first ever 'update when' comment today whats up. am i part of the cool kids club now

[istherewifiinhell]

tips head.so far nothing moon and chime do has reached passed just kinda. adorable? to me. just a sort of mutual. aw this guys kinda pathetic i have to help him out. moons just like. damn. he doesnt know how to do anything. i have to help. i have to dunk him in the water. i have to give him nooggies (voice of a man who is NOT getting attached) and chimes like. FINALLY someones whose not weird about me. and he has to listen to all my infodumps cause hes like a newborn baby bird

that said. moon is hot when hes beating ppl up. so. u know. got that going.

[ramblingsfromthytruly]

im an acts of service girlie till the day i die <3

[snekdood]

saw the other day someone say that "mary sues are for people who think everyone should treat them like they're the best ever" and buddy, trust me, at no point am i under the delusion that people will be nice to me in a normal and sufficient way. this is how i *wish* people treated me, not how I expect them to or think they should. trust me i know humanity sucks and will never be cool and nice, dont you worry, dont need to prove my point more, making me retreat even more to a fantasy world because clearly there's nothing here in humanity for me so w/e

[faaun]

lmao looking at her insta highlights was a mistake

[girlivealwaysbean]

hey god if you've created someone for me can you introduce me to them sooner? i kinda need them now

[jentlemahae]

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[apathyfairy]

me at 13: by the time im 30 i will probably be married and maybe have a kid but for sure i will be living in my dream city and have my dream job. and also a lot of money

me at almost 30: i think i will treat myself to a corn dog this weekend

[dennisboobs]

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[asummersday]

when will my writing motivation return from the war 😭