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…just realised i took panadol AND my strong meds at the same time… that will be a potent cocktail of No Pain
#usually i separate them by an hour or so#but today i took a panadol dose early cause my head suddenly hurt#so i took a later one to cover me over midnight#i take three regularly so i have the final fourth max dose in my pocket#just in case#and today it came in handy god bless#i really do think the panadol and ibuprofen are the main thing keeping me going#if i miss those i am fucked#but the strong meds are there to cover the excess#and i usually push back the morning strong dose until like..#10:30? 11? to see if i need it#and yeah sometimes i do#but the arvo is the main sign#i may need to go to the shops again shortly so#we will see if when i do my planning holds up#or if i can manage with less drugs#still not even three weeks out of surgery just yet !
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does anyone know how to stop the body from keeping score? i have shit to do
#i have shit to do but i'm so bad at both going to sleep and staying asleep that it's been fucking up my life for years at this point#yes this about accidentally sleeping through class this morning but in my defense i had an atomic tummy moment at like 6 am :( which is#kind of my point? an reason for missing sleep shouldn't stop me from participating in my own life and i'm tired of rationing my waking hours#if sleep was optional i would be unstoppable essentially but alas. alack even. specifically a lack of sleep.#girl all the saints have it out for me today for skipping church on a holy day of obligation i guess. well fuck those guys.#a post
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i miss qsmp outlast trials so here's a list of my favorite parts of qsmp outlast trials
hearing baghera get increasingly more french from halfway down the hallway bc the goons are hassling her and she can't find the objective
jaiden screaming like she's being killed irl anytime something moves
cellbit being half a mile away completing the objective on his own
quackity always managing to be the last man standing bc he spends the round cowering in hidey holes and then gets teased mercilessly by the dead chat bc he's the only one who can res them
slimecicle stepping on all of the glass in a half mile radius
slimecicle kiting the monsters around a couch like a god gamer
cellbit eating snacks and giggling while watching everyone else do the tutorial
roier being absolutely fucking goated at the arm wrestling minigame and then like two rounds later having the sharpest and fastest skill fall off i have ever seen
foolish and jaiden taking turns getting scared by nothing and winding each other up
that one round where jaiden got attacked like three times within two rooms of the entrance
cellbit going I'M DYING I'M DYING and hearing quackity's muffled voice in a hiding spot down the hall go NOT ME I'M ALIVE BITCH
everyone and their mom drinking health by mistake while attempting to hand it off to their teammate
roier blasting freddy's music box into the mic to fuck with quackity
mouse freaking jaiden out by joining the discord call and saying hello while they were in a game
jaiden saying "eat brick" or "eat glass" every time she throws an item
cussing in whatever language they remember first
roier ducking all the tin can noise traps even while actively being chased
"welcome to brazil's first radio station [royalty free music plays]"
every time roier is in danger he yells for quackity. quackity is halfway across the map. he has nothing. he is screaming.
#qsmp#i also just miss it in general but the 3:30 am mood is specifically for those outlast trial moments#shut up vic#block game brainrot#honestly i just love the moments when baghera starts getting more french it's always fucking amazing#she doesn't even say words she just starts making angry french noises and it's absolutely amazing 10/10#freed from the drafts in honor of the upcoming spooky season#perhaps we can bring these back............. :')
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Jack Robinson Perching™
#miss fisher's murder mysteries#mfmm#perioddramaedit#jack robinson#nathan page#tv#my edits#sitting like that with those big-ass thighs and hands is certainly a Choice (positive)#are his quads showing through the suit in gif 7 i fucking can't man#side thought: i stanned ben mendo with his huge fucking hands and here comes jack/np with some stiff competition lmao#what am i even talking about any more idk
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a snippet of my sterek twilight au as a treat for all of you 🖤🐺🫀
Stiles was glad to see Derek waiting for him. They walked out of the class together, though Derek caught his sleeve soon after and led him to the side of the hall. He waited as the students passed them before speaking.
“I wanted to ask you. About the spring dance…”
Stiles’ heart skipped a beat at those words. He tried to remain cool and unaffected but Derek grinned either way.
“I heard you were going to Seattle,” he finished.
Stiles blinked at him, hoping the warmth didn’t show on his cheeks. “Uh, yeah?”
“I was wondering if I could drive you.”
Stiles stared at him. “Huh?”
“Do you want a drive to Seattle?”
“W-with you?”
“Uh, yeah.”
This… was kind of sudden. Last week they didn’t talk at all, and now Derek was offering him… a ride? Alone in the car for two fucking hours with Derek fucking Hale? Who was, by the way, smiling again?
“My car works fine,” Stiles blurted and immediately cursed himself. Why the fuck did he just say that? Why?!
But Derek only smirked. “I saw you wrapping tape around the wires last Thursday. If you think it’ll survive the drive to Seattle, you’re not as smart as I thought you were.”
“So… you were looking at me.”
“Yes.”
They stared at each other.
Stiles couldn’t help but notice the way Derek’s eyes lightened. His whole face, so handsome yet so grim before, was nothing but soft now. Relaxed.
It couldn’t mean anything except one thing. It really was about Stiles — his gloom and glare, his dark circles and lack of appetite at lunch. There was no denying it. All of Stiles’ doubts paled before the sharp glint of the evidence.
Whatever tension was between them, it only grew each time they spoke. They both knew it, felt it, thick, viscous, and sweet like honey. It left them wanting more.
Standing still in the buzzing corridor, they let the noise wash over them. Both came to a silent conclusion that they would not be able to stay apart. They tried, and look what it led to. None of them wanted to resist the pull.
Stiles pursed his lips in a smile. Derek’s glance slipped to his mouth and back before he, too, huffed out a laugh.
“Can I drive you to Seattle?” he asked in a low voice.
“Yeah,” Stiles said quietly and watched the grin bloom on Derek’s lips.
He forgot the last time he felt this light.
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#sterek#sterek fic#stiles x derek#sterek fanfic#eternal sterek#stiles stilinski#derek hale#my fics#sterek fanfiction#sterek wip#teen wolf sterek#sterek au#sterek twilight au#listen it's hard to choose a piece to share cause I want to leave the best for the finished fic#I am irrevocably in love with this fic ngl#literally giggling kicking my feet twirling my hair#also for the twilight girlies if you're here: I'm following a book so all of those juicy missing scenes will be there#IT'S 18K ALREADY IT'S GONNA BE SO FUCKING LONG#the car crash scene???? insane#the fainting at the blood picking scene??? if you thought i made derek pick stiles up like edward did you thought right mhmm
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My student visa got approved!! I GET TO SEE MY FAMILY AGAIN!!!
#IT WAS A HORRIBLY LONG FUCKING NIGHTMARE TO GET IT!!#THIS SHIT TOOK 6 MONTHS OF WORK TO FUCKING ACQUIRE#I HATE THE UK VISA PROCESS SO MUCH YOU HAVE NO IDEA#My family had to sell land back in Somalia to get the financial proof#THOSE BLOODSUCKERS IN THE UKVI HOME OFFICE WANTED 30K USD UPFRONT! IT WAS FUCKING RIDICULOUS!!#Honestly I am just happy I get to see my mom and little bro after 2 years since my mom moved when I was in my old uni. i miss them#jolly rambles#doodle#hyena#furry art#jolly's art#fursona
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realizing i have. a lot of untapped trauma potential for clone^2 danny because i just Fully Processed Four Months Late the fact that his parents were capturing and torturing ghosts in the basement before he became Phantom. and the fact that he was on house rest for 2 weeks. during that time period. and he wasn't really leaving the house. he could hear their screaming through the floorboards
*points at clone danny* i can give you suuuuuuch a bad time babe ahaha. i've got two untouched years before you meet damian what fucks you up before then
#dpxdc#dp x dc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dp x dc crossover#dpxdc crossover#dpdc#clone^2#danny fenton is a clone#like i dont even need to traumatize you worse the pure explorative options from this aLONE is enough to feed me for a week.#like. tucks hair behind ear let me shatter you into glass pieces then glue you back together babe. i can put you back together so good.#i'm missing a few shards because some parts of you broke into such small pieces i couldn't pick them back up again so you'll be missing a#few chunks of yourself that you'll never get back but that's okay. you'll still be a resemblance of your old self :]#don't let anakin (me) listen to late night sad songs he makes angst.#hhh imagine being stuck in a house for two weeks where you can hear your parents torturing ghosts in the basement and not only that but#you're the only person who can undERSTAND the ghosts. how many times did he see his parents drag in a ghost with whatever capturing device#they made recently? iirc the thermos was like. brand new in episode one right? but gOD the trauma this alone would cause#nobody touch me im cooking rn i need to think about how this would impact danny. like obvs it would fuel into a developing obsession to#keep his parents away from ghosts and to help the dead but what *else.* i need to refine my becoming phantom ficlet i wrote back in winter#raaa#and like even after two weeks they were *still capturing ghosts* danny just wasn't in the house 24/7 at the time.#*but those two fucking weeks man*#i need to sleep on this first before i make any major moves bc i know im tired but i am having thOUGHTs
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“The Qun isn’t a prison, people can leave if they want” ……..yeah which totally aligns with a everything we know about those who defect from the Qun……. If only we had a companion in one of the games in which we figure out just how easy it is to leave and what happens when you do…
#what the FUCK are you talking about#am I the one that’s missing something?#there is a sect of the Qun that is literally secret police who hunt down those who left again what the FUCK are you talking about#is this a retcon or am I stupid?#da4#veilguard spoilers#dragon age#datv critical
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All the buffs they've added to the cooking mods is hilarious to me. Like it's for sure super fun and exciting. But imagine the world cracking apart at the seams and from the moment you wake up you are immediately pounced on by "DAD! DAD! LOOK WHAT I CAN DO!" *places brick oven*
I just imagine Chayanne has been surrounding his dads' beds with various plates of food. Cuz you KNOW he's a stress cooker.
And Talullah's like "bro that's a loose popsicle on the floor Missa's gonna slip and die"
#qsmp#qsmp chayanne#qsmp tallulah#qsmp death family#qsmp philza#qsmp missa#those two are kinda vague mentions i know but it feels weird to NOT tag them with their babies lol#i still am like super fucking behind on prison vods and shit#wanted to watch ALL the philza vods ive missed in their entirety but i might have to skip to the lore bits and do the rest later#god bless jetmoh videos as well. the only way ill be able to catch up at all with other perspectives atm
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Crowley Of The Day: gorgeous 😍
(I used up all my hashtags that I couldn’t do my usual GO tags that I always do lol I don’t care)
#personal update#I got into Trolls#but I mean really really really into it#new fixation the brainrot is unstoppable#it’s all I think about I’m to the point that I need all Trolls content to survive#all Trolls content HAND IT OVER! merch fanart fics ALL OF IT#I’m so in love with Branch Floyd and John Dory#Rock Zombie Branch is sooooooo#and so I’d Rock Zombie Poppy#I AM THE NUMBER ONE JOHN FORY DEFENDER LEAVE HIM ALONE HE DID NOTHING WRONG AND DOESNT DEAERVE THE HATE HE GETS#I need what Broppy have oh my fucking god it’s so cute the love they have for each other it’s consuming me#and I need more of Branch and Clay those two rule following safety loving nerds would have such a great relationship#DID YOU SEE CLAY FAWNING OVER BRANCH WHEN THEY REUNITED SQUISHING HIS CHEEKS#THATS HIS BABY BROTHER AND HES AS CUTE NOW AS HE WAS WHEN HE WAS A BABY#AND THE ENDING WHEN HE TOLD HIM HE WAS SORRY FOR MISSING HIM GROW UP BUT COULDNT WAIT FOR THWM TO HANG OUT NOW#everyone focuses on Branch and Floyd but I NEED BRANCH AND CLAY#Speaking of Floyd I love him so much. he’s all I think about. that is if I’m not thinking of Branch#John Dory is everything to me? like I’m obsessed with him in a different way. like I said I’ll defend him every single time#BRUUUUUUUCE!!! 💞💞💞💞💞#Trolls 3 is still in cinemas and I’ve literally been going to rewatch it once a week#no joke I’m going again this Wednesday#AND I HAVE THE FILM AT HOME! I have all 3 of them and I watch them every day#I’m telling you the brainrot is unstoppable I am going insane#People apparently don’t like when I talk about any other interest of mine especially Trolls#it’s like I’m almost not allowed to talk about anything other than Good Omens#so since people don’t like me doing permanent posts YOU’RE GETTING IT IN THE TAGS#okay I’m done…. for now.#Crowley#Crowley Of The Day#Good Omens
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if one more person tries to claim that the oh hellos are no longer christian i am going to lose my shit
#they are no longer EVANGELICAL and they don't associate themselves with the organized church#but like ... the whole anemoi series is about deconstructing their faith and coming back around to a new faith? still in god??#they don't just use christian themes. they are christian. if u think that they are NOT christian then u are not understanding their music#like .. i am not religious so this isn't coming from a place of needing them to be recognized as gospel music#if u want to interpret their music differently then go ahead!!!#but straight up. we KNOW what those albums are about because they have TOLD us. & they're deeply intertwined with tyler and maggie's faith#going around spreading the idea that they aren't christian at all is so so so so so so fucking stupid#it's fine if u don't want to think the songs are about christianity but then don't pretend u know what they mean!!!!!#don't pretend u understand all the albums while claiming they're not christian because they ARE!! that's like the whole point!!!!#idk. whatever. just feeling some type of way about people like refusing to use absolutely any critical thought#yes the oh hellos are extremely progressive. no they are not evangelical. yes they try to be subtle about their faith & make music that#non-christians can also listen to & relate deeply to#but making up lies about their personal lives is like. ok whatever. but ur missing the whole point of the albums then. don't pretend ur not#please someone tell me they understand what i'm trying to say here#like this isn't coming from a christian perspective it's coming from a frustrated album-listener perspective#the oh hellos
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Ok guys it's time to talk about the Veil coming down for a moment instead of swallowing the agenda veilguard and trespasser intentionally set up to present solas as a valid antagonist.
First, the residents of the Fade. Spirits. Are. People. SPIRITS. ARE. PEOPLE. Should they not have rights? As a result of the Veil they can be summoned, bound, twisted against their purpose by others, and are treated as objects or animals by the majority in Thedas. They are pulled through where the Veil is thin, corrupted against their intentions, and most likely slain. They crave the part of the universe cut off from them so strongly that they turn to possession to interact with it again.
Not to mention everyone who has to live with the fear of that possession, and the effects that has on the greater world (circles). (Oh btw. modern tranquility? gone overnight.) Not to mention the massive power divide among the population by happenstance of birth it creates.
"But Soup!" I hear you cry, "There will be demons everywhere if the Fade is everywhere!" There will be demons, yes. But there will be spirits, too. (Demons are spirits but that's another discussion.) Besides, are there not metaphorical demons among the waking already? Bad non-spirit people seem to be pretty endless based on how much killing is going on in Thedas, regardless of demons.
I will admit, there is an argument to be had about bodily autonomy and suddenly becoming immortal. But how much is that perspective influenced by us as the audience being human? Accepting our own mortality, instead of considering a different, natural way of life in a fantasy setting? And let's think about what else the elves will have access to. The Fade. Memories of their ancestors, now easily accessible. The Dalish would be able to reclaim their heritage. And of the city elves we've seen in the South? (I'm thinking about Sera)... Chantry propaganda sure is a bitch, isn't it?
And, thinking practically? It's a non-natural construct. We've seen over the past games that it's basically tattered already. And now, [[VEILGUARD ENDGAME SPOILERS]] it's tied to whether or not ONE PERSON, (who can very easily be argued struggles with SI), is alive. If Solas dies, goodbye veil. Immediately, with no precautions. Doesn't sound like a very stable situation, hm?
#yep just saw a post about how his only motivation is But I Miss It And I Cant Be Wrong#time to post this#fandom critical#solas meta#dragon age meta#solas dragon age#solas#dragon age#veilguard#this isn't a veilguard c-it post this is a i am solas' defense attorney post#my first dragon age meta essay and it's a doozie!!!!#veilguard spoilers#SCREAMING#personal log#free my man solas was right#this is one of those where it's like do not @ me you cannot change my mind#the veil fucking sucks and causes more problems than it solves
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(Frankenstein'd two asks together for the sake of previty)
I've been pretty torn between answering this ask and just doing a deep dive re-analysis post about Marineford as a whole (from Crocodile's perspective) because I feel like rereading it now as a Crocodad Truther, I could probably make a whole lot of new observations and/or read into things differently than I did last time I read it (when I was rereading for the purpose of studying the viability of Crocodad) Like there's so much to say about the whole arc and I'd include this line of thought in there anyways... But also, do I really feel like writing a giant essay like that........
I am going to start this by refering to this mini-essay I wrote like a month ago, about how Crocodile seems to have this attitude of "no crying over spilt milk". What's happened has happened, what's done is done, it's your own fault things turned out the way they did, there's no undoing any of it and you just have to continue on. And I do think that attitude would be key here to understanding Crocodile's actions in Marineford re:Crocodad
(Sidenote because this is not relevant to the rest of the post, but the reason this is about Crocodad and not CrocoUncle etc is because if Crocodile was only loosely related to Luffy it would not have the same kind of impact emotionally (for Crocodile; like there is a difference between a nephew and a son). Additionally a part of Crocodad is that it ties into Crocodile's connection with Ivankov in a really important way. If Crocodile was only loosely related to Luffy, him also being trans would kind of be like a random sidenote without being relevant to the two being family, but suddenly if Crocodile is Luffy's other biological parent, him being trans matters a lot more. Also if he's not Luffy's other dad then we'd be still stuck asking who the fuck birthed Luffy to begin with)
While Sengoku's announcement here would make for a horrific revelation to Crocodile in this situation (a revelation we never see his immidiate reaction to, which continues to be deeply sus), what would it change, really?
The little idiot child who Crocodile had attempted to murder multiple times was his own son. Sure, he might've insantly lost whatever grudge he might've held against Luffy, then what? That feeling would be one-sided, because at this point in the story Luffy hated Crocodile's guts and he knew that too. Luffy has no idea about them being related, and even if Crocodile literally walked up the kid right that second and told him the truth, what would it change? He'd still be the man who nearly nuked a million people off the face of the earth, took over a country and killed Luffy and his friends while laughing about it. Being Luffy's other dad wouldn't make him any less of a horrible asshole (if anything it might make it slightly worse 'cause you get to add shit like "child abandonment" onto his list of crimes).
Luffy came to Marineford to save Ace. Crocodile came to Marineford to kill Whitebeard. He had no reason to interfere with Luffy's quest, and with the help Luffy already was recieving from the prison escapees, the Newkama and the Whitebeard Pirates, what would Crocodile's assistance add to the mix? Would Luffy even welcome him in helping save his brother?
Luffy had his own life, a life Crocodile had not been a part of. He had no right to try to insert himself into it at this point, after all he had done to Luffy. There's no crying over spilled milk. What's done is done, you just have to move on. He should just focus on what he came to do; get his revenge and take Whitebeard's head, as planned.
Deep breaths
...Only to realize that Whitebeard is a dying old man and not worth even killing anymore, because he's not the same Primebeard whom once beat Crocodile and crushed all his dreams. Defeating Whitebeard would not give him the catharsis he came for.
And at that point, the fuck was Crocodile going to do? The revenge he wants isn't there anymore 'cause it went bad a few decades ago. And between the raging war and Doflamingo on his ass it's not like he could just sneak out without anybody noticing. He doesn't have allies (aside from Daz under him) to worry about. He only has his hatred to the World Government.
At that point, he might as well be a nuisance to the Government and assist Luffy. Even if the help wasn't welcomed, even if Luffy hated him and regardless if he knew the truth or not, helping Luffy right then and there would still be better than letting the Government have their way and kill his son right in front of him
#Moon posting#Asks#OP Meta#Sir Crocodile#Crocodad#Part of the reason I may have somewhat wanted to make that deep dive analysis was to see if I could debunk Crocodad (again)#Because my understanding of Crocs character HAS changed massively and I feel like I CAN understand what might be going through his head her#And as much as I am a Crocodad Truther I can't help but to wonder if his Weird Behaviour in Marineford COULD be explained away#And like honestly you could remove all mentions of Crocodad from this post and I still think my explanation to why Crocodile chose to...#...help Luffy would still stand. Like he has nothing else to do after WB turned out to be Not Worth It so might as well fuck with the WG#The only parts it wouldn't explain would be like. Croc's missing reaction to Sengoku's announcement.#And that look of almost horror sinking in on his face while he smokes and faces Mihawk. Like THOSE bother me#Like either Crocodile was pre-occupied thinking about other things (the well-being of his idiot son who hates him etc etc)#Or??? He had a raging hateboner for Whitebeard and had his mood ruined?????????????????#I dunno man my brain rot is bad
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Wtf do you mean theres more things like the diner out there wtf do you mean???? And i really caught up here, and now i gotta wait a month for more??? That's so sadddd, i can't, also i guess i gotta translate french now. Fuck this episode was good, hopefully i can draw fanart soon cause like holy shit.
#midnight burger#midnight burger spoilers#am i missing the actual tag or something or this fandom so small no one talked about the new episode yet?#im very new here#i wanna do actual designs so bad now#also the alien designs are kinda boring to me so i wanna add spice escpecially to vapians cause like no those are cat/snake like creatures#and that's how i will continue to think of them#fuck i can't wait for more it was so good!!!! aaaaaa
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Every few days I think about saying fuck it and starting T but I NEED to be in my grandpa's will ya know what I mean?
#i miss living away fron my family#at least then i could feel hopeful about it#i mean it didnt go well the first time i trird but still#i have a whole story about that but its unimportsnt to this post#aughhhh#part of the reason brain is so bad lately is cause i keep seeing so much trans joy#everywhete#and im really happy for those people#but man i am so fucking sad#it feels like thus shit will never happen#im already almost 25#and im just stuck#raghh#vent#queuing cause it got a lil too hot n heavy#this was supposed to be a lil funny but thrn i just got sad
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my experience in funger thus far
#I have#10 hours so far#on my 3rd save#last two were Ragnvaldr. fucked those up so WIZARD TIME#me and my daughter and my dog are all missing an arm </3#uhhh#I have to backtrack to hell to get the fcukin#evil cube. or whatever. to go to maha-something#GRAHHH#I LOVE THIS GAME#IDK how I hadn’t been frustrated into quitting. I am no quitter#sean art#fear and hunger#funger#enki ankarian#the girl fear and hunger#moonless fear and hunger#crow mauler#shitpost
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