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while i’m at it. i don’t care for j*yvik. but melj*yvik is a different story.
#my other grievance with arcane is the lack of mel / viktor interactions despite all the parallels between them#needed more diva offs between those two 😔#and also i’m just always gonna be more intrigued if you close the triangle you know#there was ONE fight between mel jayce and viktor in s2 and i needed wayyyyyyy more of it#if i had the time and effort and energy#i would write the canon meljayvik fic that lives in my head and then you all would understand my vision#alas idc ab ship fic like that anymore really#cielo rambles!#arcane spoilers
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The Great Outdoors! I can imagine Chang and Tintin going on camping or hiking trips for dates. While they love exploring museums and flea markets, in the woods they can avoid public scrutiny.
I've just been in the mood for drawing in ink and also doing long walks outside. These are inked traditionally and coloured digitally.
#tintin#fanart#adventures of tintin#snowy#milou#chang#tinchang#traditional art#hiking#ive just had a lot to do and i want to animate but i dont have the energy or time rn#so this was something gentle and easy to do lol#i can imagine chang making an effort to recover after tibet#didi trains him up#i remember seeing a post theorise tintin needs glasses because he often uses a magnifying glass to read papers and stuff lol#i need to find it
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obsessive
#did i put more effort into this than i needed to? yes. did i put myself through unnecessary pain drawing fighting scenes? yes#but i learned how to outline my strokes so maybe i won after all#i thought about it and i think it turned out ok drawing the eyes differently. like the way i usually draw em#although i dont know if that says much since i change my art style every couple weeks but eh#had fun playing with grayscale and limited palette. i want to do that more often dhghdg#although idk whens the next time i will have enough energy to commit to the bit and do.. this#theyre fucking stupid your honor. for every art we get of them acting dramatic and yearning (/pos) i make dumb shit like this#equivalent exchange girlies!#lego monkie kid#lmk#monkie kid#lmk shadowpeach#shadowpeach#lmk sun wukong#lmk swk#sun wukong#lmk macaque#lmk six eared macaque#six eared macaque#liu er mihou#my art#myart#doodles#comic#lmk monkey king#lmk fanart
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this has almost certainly been done before, but i think it's funny so i did it anyway
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#dirkjake#dirk strider#jake english#homestuck#my art#i drew this right on top of the meme in an effort to make this quick and easy. which was a complete failure#i spent way too long on this and still failed at anatomy lmao#oh well#anyway. dirkjake#thought about making it jake's ass in the last panel but i decided i didnt wanna try to draw ass lol#also it would've been much harder to convey the inherent dumbass boyfriend energy that was the whole point of this#if jake's smug little face wasn't visible#he is expertly restraining giggles#I also had to rotate dirk in the last panel bc the original angle was just not working no matter how many times I tried to fix it#unfortunately anatomy hates me#bg image is from hs p4221
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girl !!! hey girl ! whats up girl !! girl !!!
#ok so i have Reasonings for giving sunny one (1) tail instead of the usual twin tails you see for fem!sunny#mari used to do her hair in pigtails and wld say she looks adorable !! then after mari dies sunny resorts to a ponytail bc i cant imagine#she has the energy to keep her hair in pigtails All the time. its more effort than a ponytail. also symbolism for one soul of two lost#ive been seeing too many ppl anime girl-ify fem!kel so i HAD to give her the Enrichment. body hair muscles a Tall build etc. and freckles#so this technically isnt genderbend bc well. kel is genderbent yeah but sunnys not. shes transfem and i consider that Different from gb#ive been calling this au the yuri au with my friends bc the whole gang is lesbians with each other (solar system and heromari respectively)#soooooo keep an eye out for the others ig hahah#omori sunny#omori kel#sunkel#omori#yuri au#sunny omori#kel omori#omori caprisun#fanart#omori fanart#my art
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March sketch dump 🧙♂️✨
#the dragon prince#aaravos#my art#callum#tdp#doodle#callum: when you're a simp for your master but you're also so pretty that you can literally start wars.#I got sick again#so besides slaving away on my thesis#all I had were more brainrot doodles#all of these are glued from different brainrots#I don't think I have the energy for fully rendered illustrations any time soon#but I'll do my best!#I want to post more w/out worrying about the notes#i know i sound like a broken record#but it's pretty discouraging seeing my notes on tumblr lately#hopefully these shows that I love them both very much despite not posting as often 💗#I'm on the last stretch of my thesis so all of my rendering effort is going to that instead.#hopefully I will finish soon in around june#that's all for now!#rambling in tags feels nice.#I hope everyone is well!#thank you for reading
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sometimes I think the wisest thing to do. Is give up. For real this time.
#i cannae wait for this boy and the idea of doing so makes me so fed up#i am living! and i am alive and breathing and i was not made for that long sorrow#nor should i sacrifice preciois time and energy for it!#precious lol#ALSO I BALK AT THE THOUGHT OF FALLING PREY TO DESPAIR AGAIN so i simply shan't :)#formal declaration of Giving Up. very cheerfully. ive had enough#and i KNOW i put in my best and wouldve put in my very best if he'd shot his shot however he did not#for whatever reason. dont ask me i dont know#and i dont need to prove to anyone that im worth time and effort. so THERE#!!!! :)
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qantoine’s coping mechanism to feeling left behind being both self-isolating and becoming possesive of those he cares for is so juicy as a concept . like yeah you go you funky creachure, manifest those complicated and sometimes contradictory emotions
#anyone remember that one fanart of qantoine like . grabbing onto qetoiles and covering his mouth antoine reposted to his insta story .#anyone wonder what was up with that . like he reposted fanarts every now and again but like . that one specifically was such a Choice on hi#part . fantastic fanart btw it occupies space in my brain still#but yeah god . i think qantoine’s self-isolation (+ his secrecy the way he struggled generally to connect with others etc)#was the more obvious Thing he did as a coping mechanism . but damn were those smaller moments of possessiveness interesting#bc you could often just read it as protectiveness instead and well it Was that . but i think it becomes even more interesting if u read it#through a possesive lens . theyre two sides of the same coin anw it just depends on where the limit between the two lies for u#anw i think it manifested itself most obviously with pomme bc a parent-child relationship lends itself to that dynamic more . ough some goo#moments there i’d need to revist their relationship more . ‘je te connais comme si je t’avais créé’ which just has layers of potential#meaning . if you subscribe to the theory that qantoine had a hand in creating the eggs then that adds even More to the potential#possessiveness there . love it#and it manifested with qfrench too i think just in more subtle ways . like idk when there were implications he’d done a Thing to help them#out in some way . like the implication that he had a hand in getting ayp out of prison that one time . or when he was protective of etoiles#during prison . or even moments where he failed to achieve some sort of level of power over them like when bagz and ayp broke into his#secret room and he kept giving bagz the cold shoulder when she was trying to apologise to him 😭 . idk stuff like that . semi petty bitch#energy . but i LOVE the idea of this eldritch dude who’s still figuring out how mortal relationships work kinda just . being too possessive#too controlling . all in the effort to try and keep them in One Piece . and maybe in the end it won’t matter How he keeps them safe as long#as he manages to . he’s old as hell and he’s probably gonna outlive them and theyre all so fragile and small . they won’t see the bigger#picture so he’ll have to make sure he’s manoeuvring them around inside it correctly . <- absolute hc territory in the end there but it’s#very fun to think about :P#jay rambles#antoine daniel#qfrench.posting
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Trust is something that's hard to build. hard to get back once it's lost.
#lifestealtober2023#lifesteal smp#sorry for low effort drawing. didnt have much time or energy after uni today ✌#but still wanted to post something because i had to use that line#shoutout quix shoutout hsh script#evu.png
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oc-tober 2024 day 1: fav oc
actually it is Impossible for me to choose between all my children, buuuut i did rotate this guy in my head like rotisserie chicken for like a whole year, so he will do!
here's Aeden Panlamir (or Pan), my calamitous half-elf dnd npc, in a fancy new 'Arc 2' outfit that the party never got to see (because the table imploded over scheduling issues, whats new!). it's not a spoiler if we never get to this part, right?
religious allegory sold separately.
#bweirdOCtober#oc-tober#art#artists on tumblr#oc#dnd#character design#oc: pan#roobiedoodle#scopophobia#(just in case ;;)#ok! lemme be annoying and talk about something real quick!#i KNOW my ass will not complete all 31 days as much as i want to#like i reaaally shouldnt be putting so much effort into the details here dhfjsk#but i had time to work on the first entry and wanted to get my stupid perfectionist energy out of the way#so like. expect the quality in the other entries to drop significantly lmaooo (if they even get finished at all)#but its ok! its good! im learning how to make bad things!! (and hopefully learning how to make them fast too oogh)#ok rant over 👍#enjoy my mantis boy <3
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i think im officially done trying to keep in touch with people who dont try ever
#i can understand and handle it a couple of times bc life yno#but when it happens every time or if conversation never starts unless i do its different#im done trying with people who don't appreciate my time and efforts#im lonely but even that won't make me do things for people who don't care#it literally leaves me so despondent i haven't had the energy to keep in touch with those who do try and show me care and respect#idk im tired im burnt out ive given so much of myself for ppl this year to get nothing in exchange#ive had to cut people off because of that even with how much it hurt#and im so tired#absolutely exhausted#this year has been worse than the year i literally got diagnosed and had to go through chemo#its been way worse on my mental health#idk i dont wanna try anymore its always the same and i don't wanna keep going#wish cancer had killed me ngl#i need a drink im getting shitfaced soon#delete later
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i forgot. how exhausting playlist making is. damn. sorry about the tags i have so much to say about playlist making lol
#especially when i want to put EFFORT into it. ugh#i know i have time i know but the perfectionism 🥹#me shaking my playlist like I NEED IT TO FLOW >:((( FLOW!!!!#and i need the flow to match that. ehem energy. i guess#sorry these are really mindless rambles about the playlist lol ik no one understands what im saying..#but music is such an important arifer thing. they are So nerd about their music and their playlist silliness. this playlist particularly#needs to be PERFECT. ough takahara being in charge of the playlist because lucifer said he'd take care of decorations and#venue was a MISTAKE girl i don't want to do this anymore /j i had been thinking i could order it similarly to the actual arifer playlist#that is always a possibility... but lowkey slow dancing aly&aj as the first song would hit so hard. it really would.... but THEN i'd have to#put the letter after that but. thematic relevance where. this is the SECOND SONG it has to be important >:T which was why the original order#was from the gallows > eternal. because. eternal has to be at the very least. the third song. but slow dancingggggg 😭#hmph#oh god poison and wine sounds nice after the letter DAMMIT..... HEAD IN HANDS. why are all of you bangers it's not fair...#and then i can't just use the ACTUAL arifer playlist because motherfucker im not starting off my wedding with fucking ARCADIA 💀#and yes the arifer playlist has to be played in order because the order is relevant. it will always be relevant. that's why im stressing#😭#ari.mp3#it's too easy to hate you and hard to love.
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next // previous
august 16, 2021 11:00 p.m. grandma ong's house
there’s a strangeness to a quiet enclave in a bustling metropolis, unexpected in the same manner as grant and henry’s long, unbroken brotherhood. nothing about the baseline rustle of neighbors carrying in paper grocery sacks and kids kicking a soccer ball resembles the eternal merry-go-round of life–max-capacity subway cars, clueless and loud tourists, and locals who drift through their day–just down the road. and yet above this neighborhood–and the entire sprawling city–hangs a common thread, a bluish hazy night sky.
“that was wild,” henry says, suppressed laughter bursting forth from deep in his chest, “all day everyone’s defaulted to speaking english because, well, look at you, and you even had me fooled. i actually forgot you kind of speak basic korean."
“the inner machinations of my mind are an enigma.”
henry rolls his eyes dramatically but in the same split second, throws an arm around grant’s shoulders.
“i was afraid that soup was going to fly out of your mouth.” grant returns the gesture, though it requires him to lean down so as to not smother henry’s face instead. “too close for comfort.”
“well, in my defense, i was not expecting you to reply to my grandma asking me, “daehyun, i haven’t seen your friend since your wedding. how did you meet again?”
grant shrugs. “we met on a playground twenty-four years ago.”
“on my very first weekend as a resident of the semi-good ol’ US of A. in the opposite situation. i remember being so pissed that my parents made me go out to ‘make friends’ that weekend. not moving, mind you, but making friends. i guess they were psychics, though, because apparently, it didn’t bother you that i didn’t speak your language for at least a couple weeks.”
“people say i could talk to a wall.”
henry laughs again. “you could. you’re very chatty.”
“did it bother you that i wrote you some really, really, really shitty letters in korean in the early days based on online translations i found?”
“no, that was sweet.” no question about it–the joy in henry’s eyes is determined. “they were definitely horrendous, but it’s the thought that counted. you could do better now. oh, and i think i still have all those letters. i should. i did box them up when i moved out of my parents’ house.”
they were, all things considered, never very much alike, beyond the fact they both liked cats but weren’t allowed to have any. henry’s mom was allergic, but grant’s parents despised pets. otherwise, they were polar opposites. grant always liked math and science, wanted to work with airplanes, and preferred to spend his free time with others playing tabletop RPGs and computer games; henry always liked art and history, wanted to be a photographer, and preferred to be left alone to his vintage film camera and pottery. grant’s parents raged when he selected aviation over medicine; henry’s parents and grandparents, all artists, were delighted by his dreams of photography. moreover, grant selectively speaks his mind, while henry rarely minces words.
and still–
the shrill honk of a car off in the distance disturbs grant’s thoughts.
“you really could talk to a wall, but hey, why did you approach me on the swing set that day? you were already busy hanging out with your sisters. and your cousins. why me?”
and still, the two have fused into one. the world turned upside down; grant paints these days, henry has long been a willing dungeons and dragons player, and separation from one another is like losing half your body. if henry walked away now–ended this messy half-hug early–grant would turn to ash.
“well,” grant begins, drawing out the suspense with an exaggerated sigh, “first of all...”
#ts4#the sims 4#sims 4#sims 4 story#sims 4 storytelling#simblr#hlcn: everything the stars promised#holocene.docx#holocene.png#hlcn: grant#hlcn: henry#it's been a WHILE since i've done a text-based update on this story so i apologize if the tone is off at all#then again this story has undergone quite a few stylistic changes and there's nothing wrong with that#btw i haven't even written anything outside of academic papers in so long i just have not had the spark or energy for a long time#so i'm kind of proud of this bc it took more effort than usual#wow i miss creative writing being 100% instinctual to me jdsfdsklfds burnout is so real y'all and it's got HANDSSSS#insert a NONE OF THIS IS ABOUT THIS PARTICULAR MOMENT IT'S ABOUT THEIR WHOLE FRIENDSHIP comment#hehehehe i love setting up future posts :3 i love foreshadowing :3#also yes we wait to find out the answer to that last question :) but it's coming#aaaaand we will find out more about henry i promise this isn't it
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Here's what you're gonna do.
You're gonna go down to your local Aldi's, buy a 24oz bag of frozen mango chunks, a bag of rice, and two cans of black beans.
If you don't already have them; salt, lime or lemon juice and cumin; maybe some meal prep tupperware. Pouch tuna if you like that stuff.
Once home, put that bag of mango chunks in a bowl full of warm water so they defrost. Don't pen it. The bag needs to stay closed. This'll make sense later.
Prepare enough water in a pot to cook two cups of that rice. Make sure the pot's big. Big enough to hold way more rice than you expect there to be. Add a teaspoon of cumin, two tablespoons lime or lemon juice, salt according to preference. Pat of butter.
Boil. Make sure the butler's melted. Stir to combine.
Add your rice. Cook according to rice bag.
If you have a protein, you can cook that now. 20-30 minutes at your disposal. If not, that's why we got the second can of beans for.
I recommend Aldi's tuna steaks - quick to defrost, 5 bucks for 2-3. Lean protein. Real nice. Creme de la crumb's tuna marinade also works real nice if you have the energy.
A pouch of tuna's just as good functionally.
Less mercury that way.
You can mix it in that if you want, too.
Strain your beans. Conserve a little bean water for the rice if you want.
Your rice is done.
Add your beans. Twice as many if you're feeling like it'll be a bad week. Two or three pouch tunas too if you want a little extra.
If you have the lemon pepper kind you can probably nix the citrus juice.
Now we go back to your mango. If all's worked correctly, the warm water should've thawed them somewhat, the heat warming the air in the bag.
Dump 'em in, turn the burner to low heat. Stir until well combined.
Portion out into Tupperware.
You've got a good couple meals right there. Even more as side dishes if you have the energy to cook chicken nuggets or fish or veggies or whatever.
Lunch. Breakfast. Dinner.
Carbs to keep you awake and moving.
Protein to fuel your muscles.
Bit of fiber to push it all through your guts easier.
Citric acid to avoid the scurvy.
Can be eaten hot or cold, and the shit's good, too.
You're gonna have something tasty to eat whether you can operate a microwave or not this week.
That's what you're gonna do.
#adhd hacks#recipe#depression hacks#cooking hacks#cooking#you deserve better than a simple beige diet.#i had a lot of fun cooking this old favorite with my boyfriend this weekend.#the bag of mango was way bigger than we needed for one meal so they helped me prep cook some emergency dinner#this one is pretty simple in prep so if you can grocery shop and make mac and cheese this shouldn't be too much#it's a bit more pricey the first time around but getting a big bag of rice cuts this cost significantly.#fresh mango works too but frozen is cheaper#more cost effective and requires less spoons#canned beans are thankfully dirt cheap#pouch tuna is also wicked good lean protien-wise and $0.50-1 a pouch for store brand is a great way to eat#take care of yourselves friends. slowly building up the energy to put the effort you deserve into yourself doesn't have to start big.#it doesn't have to hurt. baby steps where you can take them are steps nonetheless.
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friends i am begging you, if you want to get a dog and have never had one before, DO YOUR RESEARCH ON BREEDS.
i was working with a lady the other day who was telling me she wanted a puppy and had never had one before, so she went and adopted a 7 month old husky/border collie mix from the shelter after being denied at [pet store] for working too many hours. i'm pretty sure she got this dog because it has complete heterochromia and is a very tidy black and white, like a standard border collie.
please. do NOT do this. look into what dog breed will BEST fit your lifestyle. if you work long hours, do NOT get a working dog breed. maybe even don't get a dog. maybe get a less affectionate cat. i do not give a single FUCK if the dog is pretty. do both yourself and the dog a favor and get the dog that fits your life!!! do not get a working dog and stick it in an apartment or house and wonder why it's eating your furniture and destroying your house!!!
#i was just. i wanted to tell her 'this was a horrible decision.'#i was telling her that both of those dog breeds are breeds that need jobs. that were bred to work for HOURS. that they're so so smart.#she got it on friday and went back to work monday and worked 14 hours.#fwiw she wasn't supposed to work 14 hours but the nature of our job and all.#i didn't want to tell her to give the dog back but that's honestly what i was thinking#just. as someone who has grown up around dogs. and as someone who's family had dogs we had no business owning#dogs we had to grow into deserving of them. as someone who's watched people who love their dogs but definitely don't do right by them.#please. for the love of god.#do not get a dog just because it's pretty. make sure it fits what you're wanting in your life.#if you want a couch potato dog do NOT get a german shepherd or a malinois or a husky or aussie#do NOT get a working breed dog because they're cool#even couch potato pups need exercise#if you're not willing to put in the time and effort any dog takes do not get a dog#fun fact: apparently someone where i live decided it'd be a good idea to breed a malinois and a golden/poodle#so now a rescue has a litter of golden/poodle/malinois mixed pups. can you say neurotic basket case with too much intelligence and energy?
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#personal#thinking about how the phrase treat others how you want to be treated is actually incredibly one way#unless damn near every person ive ever met wants to be treated like shit which i cant imagine is true#like idk i spent a lot of my time giving my energy to people. and ill never feel bad for putting love and kindness out into the world#but i gave some of these people everything i had. or not everything that would diminish me but everything i could spare for them at the time#i treated them attentively and considerately and tenderly and lovingly#and that kindness has not been extended back to me by most of these people#some of them have surely in their own 'love language' and im grateful for these people in my life#but most of the people ive treated with intentional care have actively and on purpose caused me a lot of emotional harm#which again. im working through and like karma will get them without me needing to be there or whatever while i do my own healing#but regardless i still think some of that shit should not have happened like it did#i dont understand how everyone can say to me treat others how youd like to be treated but not tell me the caveat#that they will not treat me the way i want to be treated even if i put in that effort for them/for our friendship or relationship or whatevr#like idk im a bitch for asking you to leave me alone when ive been vomiting for two days straight but you can straightup sexually misconduct#with my body and then when i write poetry about it and share my feelings instead of leaving and taking that information anywhere helpful#you get to decode youre traumatized actually and im still a bitch for bringing it up?#make it make sense#'treat others the way you want to be treated' so youd like it if i starved you and verbally insulted and gaslight and manipulated you? no?#then what the fuck is the point of you saying that to me???#idk im just fucking pissed rn that. idk what im pissed at. cause again i know im no contact with all of these people now and their#shitty justice will find its way to them. and i cant be mad at myself for saddling with the wrong people cause some of that was my choices#and some of it was blood i couldnt escape for a long time. and i said i dont want to regret or resent#putting love out to the world#but i am still angry that so much of me was given to the wrong people. that these people just chose to completely ignore#the level of respect and patience and kindness i showed them#idk dudes im just angry. 'treat others the way you want to be treated' fuck off thats some quiet manipulation bullshit to get me to be#nicer to you even as you abuse the self-worth outta me fuck off fuck you#i found it again. you cant bury it im too full of love to not love myself too but it hurts how hard they tried for so long#'treat others the way you want to be treated' how bout no. how bout i treat everyone with a base level of kindness#and when youve shown me that you will treat me the way i deserve to be treated then ill fucking play niceys back
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