#if i die and don’t get this im gonna kms

[mirnsey]

I love when different fanfics start smut in like a different ways:

1. You’re already in it. You just started reading and his dick is in her hole, her dick is in his hole, his dick is in his hole, her dick is in her hole, etc.

2. Words, words, they’re horny, and their partner becomes horny because they made them horny, and the bumping uglies commences.

3.. when two or more characters in their writings just feel so passionate about each other. Like there is thousands of words of exposition before the fucking that doesn’t have to do with anything with anything sexual. The characters soon feel an emotion, a yearning so deep in their soul that they just have to show the other character. Always love, can only be love. It doesn’t even have to be sexual. Cuddling, buying them flowers, couple kisses on the forehead and a hug. And even if it is sexual, it’s like 3 paragraphs of how they don’t even need to fuck for them to feel meant to be. That they don’t even need to see each other without clothes on to worship them, that they don’t need to be in or on them to know what they like and need. Knowing that they were the only one they really loved in that way, even without getting into bed for anything else then a cuddly movie night.

Even once it passes that, the author describes how they can feel each other’s essence between their heated kisses, lips molding into each other as if two missing puzzle pieces. How their bodies hold each other close, hands moving over to only find a place to pull them closer, not even needing to dig under one another’s closed to feel their skin to know what it would feel like. And they wouldn’t even need to feel their skin. If they couldn’t feel even just their hands, their face, their hair—no problem. They could quite literally never be able to touch each other and they would just.. talk.. get to know each other without the inkling of a thought that it was only for sex, just wanting to know them for them.

Even when the clothes do come off, they are loving and worshiping each other the whole way. Lights on or off, they love them for them, no changes, no errands to earn their love, nothing. To be loved is to be changed, and they always change each other for the better, and only then do they change. Their love consumes them even when they’re not fucking, even when not holding hands. Put them in a room, split with sound proof glass and they are just staring at one another lovingly. They consume one another like cannibals, the art of rhetorically eating one another and becoming like them being the only way to truly love them, the act becoming their everyday to day thing, still being dressed.

They know ever nook and cranny around their significant other and read each other like books. If you were to drop them into a remote forest with no connection to one another, they will find each other with just the power of love in 3-5 business days, trust.

…..

And 4. Is just like.. they kiss and one of them ends up cumming

[tariah23]

I don’t even watch naruto but I scroll thru ur naruto tag for sasunaru🫡

[lesbiantrish]

its all so hopeless isnt it

[hoonvrs]

CIGARETTES — s. jaeyun smau

PAIRING jake x fmr

SYNOPSIS where university student jake develops a little crush on the girl he sees with a cigarette between her lips in the smoking area and decides he needs to impress her. how else would he do that except calling his smoker friend to teach him how to smoke ( spoiler: it doesn’t go so well. )

GENRE smau, fluff, crack, sprinkle of angst if you read it upside down, golden retriever x black cat duo

FEATURING ( enha ) all, ( ive ) gaeul, yujin, ( nct ) chenle, jisung

WARNING smoking [ don’t smoke kids ], swearing, kys/kms/suicide jokes, friendly bullying, dirty/sex jokes ( more will be added if necessary)

STATUS completed

TAGLIST ( CLOSED )

S. NOTE JAKE MY MANNN ( hoon look away ) as an 02z girl i finally have an smau for each bias so i feel v complete

also please don't spam like as it shadowbans me and lessens engagement <3

PROFILES

virgin mary’s | smoking HAWT | privs

CHAPTERS

01 BI yourself

02 we found love in the smoking area

03 life is roblox

04 you white whore

05 jake you beautiful bastard

06 are we rush houring rn

07 it’s the dawg in me

08 yuh :3

09 the brit

10 what if i was suicidal .

11 here comes christian bale

12 i don’t trust him. weird fella

13 give us another sonnet english boy

14 bros from yapan

15 he thinks he’s a 90s babe

16 i’m just a girl

17 i’m sat.

18 go piss girl

↳ extra: did life360 tell you that.

19 i got my peaches out in jojo

20 okayy little miss poet

21 i’m built different

22 WAHHHHHHW WAAHHH

23 i want you

24 why are u bricked up

25 PUKA PUKA POW POW

26 jake in his flop era

27 this is getting too homoerotic

28 they go low i go lowER

29 inshallah he will eat

30 hello ross lynch

31 filthy omega

32 u r sobir. die (+written 0.8k)

33 she shoiodv be inde clubbb…..

34 when he makes you his girlfriend

35 can’t take me anywhere

36 noo you’re so sexy haha

37 no. (+written 0.7k)

38 i feel so kawaii today

39 come home fat

40 wasn’t very dabatayo of you jay.

↳ extra: it’s actually dattebayo*

41 ur man can’t drive manual

42 i Want you so bad

43 hawk putuh

44 okay blondie

45 though shalt not fail, but prevail

↳ extra: random

EP1 upset my girl. i’m gonna Kms

EP2 im not smoking that shit

EP3 OUR girlfriend ☭

copyright © hoonvrs 2023 all rights reserved

[whyse7vn]

I’M SORRY -

[ ot7 x reader ]

JUNGKOOK -

jk: i’m sorry

jk: didn’t mean to make you upset :(

i hope i die

i should get jumped

barely survive

be on life support until i’m 50

and when i wake up die from the most painful heart attack recorded

i hope no one attends my funeral and i’m publicly and privately made fun of even after i’ve passed

hope my parents are ashamed and i hope that whenever the name jungkook is said people feel sick to their stomachs

i’m gonna throw up

gonna choke myself to death

i have the tightest grip on my throat rn

i’m going red

it’s fading to black

i’m sorry i wasn’t being a good boyfriend

tell bam that his dad was an asshole who didn’t deserve any rights

don’t even let him remember me as his father

i don’t deserve that title

i don’t deserve anything

not after what i did

burn all my clothes

delete all my pictures

tear my face off all posters

cross my name off all paperwork

i am not worthy of anything

y/n: shut up

jk: i’m sorry

y/n: i can tell

jk: i didn’t mean it

y/n: i forgive you

jk: really?

y/n: yeah

jk: do you really or are joking?

if ur joking it’s not a funny joke

y/n: you can come back home now

jk: really 🥺?

y/n: don’t ever use that emoji again

jk: sorry

i’m coming

omw

i love you

this is so great

y/n: you’re so dramatic

jk: i’m sorry

y/n: stop apologising

jk: sorry

i mean

ok

love u

y/n: hurry up

jk: 🏃‍♂️

SEOKJIN -

jin: can you talk to me now

hey

hey

hey

hey

hey

hey

hey

hey

i’m going to kms and it gonna be all your fault if you don’t reply to me

y/n: record it

jin: hey loml 😘😘❤️❤️❤️🤗🤗

WAIT WTF

THATS SO SICK?/?:£:££.&.&.&&.

y/n: what do you want?

jin: i love you ❤️💓🩷

y/n: bye

jin: WAITTTT :(((((((((((((((

pls

pls

pls

pls

pls

pls

pls

pls

pls

pls

pls

pls

y/n: what

jin: i’m outside 🤭����❤️

y/n: stay outside

jin: am i a dog?????

DON’T ANSWER THAT

anyways

i’ve come to see you princess 😘❤️‍🔥

y/n: gross

go home

jin: i am home 🥺

y/n: ur at MY home

jin: tu casa es mi casa 😚

y/n: that is not how that phrase goes

jin: let me inside pookie it’s cold 😍

y/n: you should have a key if it’s ur house

jin: LET ME IN IM TRYING SOSOSOSO HARD

FUCK YOU

ITS COLD

MY HAIR IS WET

IM DISTRESSED

LET ME INNNNNNNN

y/n: it took you 3 minutes

to be an asshole again

jin: :((((

i really tried that time

i can’t help it

this is real this is me

i was born this way

you can’t change me

ur the asshole if we think about it why are you trying to change people?? let the world know you LOSER

y/n: fyi you can stay outside

jin: PLS NOOOO PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS

y/n: “pls” doesn’t really sound like sorry to me…

jin: I SAID IM SORRY

I DIDN’T MEAN TO SHOUTT

IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRYYYYYYYYYYY

i love you

this is kinda sadistic if you think about it

didn’t know you was a freak like that bae

it’s okay i kinda like it

how about you let me in now

or do you want me to beg more???

pls oh plsssss let me in 🥺

i’ll never be mean again i promise 😇

pls 😚

hello??

babe??????

fr this isn’t funny

hello

HELLO

OPEN THE DOOR PLS

HELLLOOOO

OMH

HELLLLO

pls

i’m fr sorry

i mean it like genuinely

hello

…

okay let’s stop now

…………..

HELLLLO

fuck you

HOSEOK -

hobi: this fighting stuff kinda boring now

….

hello

i’m sorry

BOOOO

:(((

y/n: you can’t just walk out the house mid argument

hobi: in my defence u were being mean

y/n: so were you???

hobi: ??

y/n: be honest are you fr gonna just leave like that when things get hard?

hobi: i mean i might

y/n: …

hobi: things were pretty hard

y/n: AS MAN OF THE HOUSE YOU SHOULD OF GOT RID OF THE SPIDER

hobi: AS A FEMINIST I LEFT YOU TO TAKE CARE OF IT TO HELP YOU FEEL EMPOWERED

y/n: fuck you don’t come home

hobi: i would never lie to u bae 🙏🏼

and i would never suppress a moment for a woman to feel empowered

y/n: don’t actually fucking speak to me

hobi: ily

cheer up baby cheer up baby

y/n: picked the wrong member

jungkook would of helped me

hobi: omg????????

are you fr?

y/n: would never lie to you bae 🙏🏽

hobi: ….

JIMIN -

jimin:

y/n: ???

jimin: are you still mad at me?

y/n: yes jimin wtf

jimin: do you want to have sex?

y/n: yes jimin wtf

jimin: love you

y/n: whatever

jimin: say it back

y/n: i won’t

jimin: you will

y/n: definitely will not

jimin: i’ll sing for you

y/n: no thanks

jimin: no thanks?

y/n: no thanks.

jimin: you say that like i’m bad at singing

y/n: eh

jimin: eh?

y/n: eh.

jimin: i won’t have sex with you

y/n: aw man

jimin: don’t sound too sad

y/n: ok

jimin: you should be

y/n: i’m not

jimin: i go crazy in bed yk?

y/n: that is the ugliest thing you have ever said to me

jimin: if ur not in love with me just say that

y/n: i won’t

jimin: so ur IN love with me is what i’m hearing

y/n: ur not hearing anything cuz we are messaging rn

jimin: can you just tell me you love me like a normal person?

y/n: you don’t deserve it

jimin: okay maybe that’s true

but you should do it just once

pretty pls with a cherry on top 🥺

y/n: i’ll punch you

jimin: maybe i’ll enjoy it

y/n: nasty

jimin: kiss me

y/n: where are you?

jimin: ur really gonna kiss me?

y/n: ur talking long to tell me where you are so ig i’m not

jimin: joon’s studio

y/n: maybe i’m omw

jimin: ur so in love with me it’s kinda gross 🤭

YOONGI -

yoongi: :3

y/n: die tbh

yoongi: :3

y/n: your stupid faces mean nothing to me

yoongi: :3

y/n: …

yoongi: :33333

y/n: i hate you

yoongi: :Ɛ

y/n: ew wtf how did you do that

yoongi: Ɛ:

y/n: stop omg

yoongi: i’m sorry :3

y/n: cool

yoongi: i’m fr :3

y/n: idc :3

yoongi: you used the face :3

ur not mad :3

y/n: ur logic is wrong

yoongi: bring the face back :3

and it’s not logic it’s common sense :3

y/n: ur wrong

yoongi: never been wrong a day in my life :3

y/n: that’s crazy

so when you shouted at me for no reason you weren’t in the wrong?

good to know

yoongi: okay i never said that :3

y/n: but you did

yoongi: ur being annoying :3

y/n: fuck you

DID YOU JUST SEND ME 10K?????????

yoongi: did i? :3

y/n: you can’t just buy my forgiveness

yoongi: i can’t? :3

y/n: this is not how relationships work yoongi

yoongi: this is how our relationship works :3

y/n: no it’s not

STOP SENDING ME MONEY OMG?:£:£:’

yoongi: :3

y/n: you are still not forgiven leave me alone

yoongi: unforgiven i’m a villain :3

y/n: SEND ANOTHER 10k AND UR GETTING BLOCKED

yoongi: ur making me real upset rn :3

y/n: go back to work

yoongi: stop being mad at me :3

y/n: die

yoongi: don’t say that i’m about to get on a plane :3

y/n: now i feel bad

yoongi: say sorry :3

y/n: nvm

yoongi: :(

look you’ve made me change faces hope you feel bad :(

y/n: i don’t

yoongi: ur sick and twisted :(

y/n: cry about it

yoongi: really hope i survive this plane ride :(

y/n: i will not be guilt tripped by you

yoongi: you told me to die knowing i was getting on a plane :(

y/n: bye

yoongi: what if i had a deep deep fear of flying and u made that fear 10x worse rn :(

y/n: you don’t

yoongi: you don’t know a thing :(

y/n: fuck you

yoongi: do you really want ur last words to me be fuck you :(

y/n: fly safe

TAEHYUNG -

y/n: no

tae: hiiiiiiii

wtf how did you know

y/n: blocked

tae: NONONONONONO

y/n: you have one minute

go

tae: i am walking alone rn

y/n: ???

tae: on the street

y/n: ok?

tae: alone

y/n: you said that

tae: ALONE

ALL ALONE

y/n: right

tae: it’s not right actually

ITS VERY FAR FROM RIGHT

i’m ALONE

do you know what could happen to me rn?

i could literally be snatched up off the street by anyone

y/n: hopefully it’s a rehabilitation centre 🙏🏽

tae: WHAG IS UR PROBLEM

IM ALONE ALONE ALONE ALONE

ME

KIM TAEHYUNG ALONE ON THE STREET

WHAT ARE YOU NOT GETTING HERE?

y/n: ur one minute is up

tae: no it’s not

can you pls care for me rn i’m stressed out

y/n: it was pretty stressful when you stood me up yesterday

but i powered through 💪🏽

i’m sure you can do the same!!!

tae: that never happened

pls let’s pretend that never happened

i’m the perfect boyfriend i swear

y/n: get lost

like actually

never come back

tae: 😢

you don’t even mean that

y/n: are you sure?

tae: IM SORRY PLS PLSPLSSSSSS

forgive me

y/n: no

tae: you can have my card

y/n: don’t want it

tae: take my house

i’ll give you my keys rn

y/n: i have ur keys

tae: you do?

you thief omg

give them back

y/n: you left them here???

after YOU stormed out my house after you made ME upset

tae: oh yeah

i’m coming back now

y/n: asshole

tae: let’s put this behind us and move on

that’s a great idea i say

y/n: you are single

tae: don’t say that

y/n: said it

tae: we are actually engaged and expecting our 10th child

y/n: you are single

tae: top 10 singles

made a few of those in my time

LOL

i’m funny right

say i’m funny

y/n: it’s painful talking to you

tae: painfully in love with me are you?

y/n: it’s like i’m taking to a brick wall

you have like selective hearing

tae: what i’m hearing is you want to kiss me on the lips?

y/n: call an ambulance

tae: feeling so much love for me ur throwing up?

???

hello

oh

ok

maybe i do deserve this

NAMJOON -

y/n: would you now like to explain why the hell you sent halsey flowers on MY birthday??

namjoon: it wasn’t just on ur birthday i’ve been sending them all week for like a month now

y/n: namjoon what the fuck??

namjoon: i’m confused

y/n: UR confused????

do you like her or something?

namjoon: ofc i like her!

y/n: so ur cheating?

namjoon: what

y/n: ur cheating on me and you have no shame???

what the actual fuck is wrong with you??

namjoon: i’m not cheating?

y/n: for a month now you’ve been sending another girl that you like flowers

EVERY WEEK???

namjoon: every friday

y/n: fuck you

namjoon: i’m confused how that’s cheating when you told me to do that?

y/n: WHEN HAVE I EVER SAID “OH NAMJOON SEND OTHER BITCHES FLOWERS”

namjoon: you literally said you loved how halsey’s bf gave her flowers every week and that you wished i did that?

y/n: ….

there is no way

….

namjoon

oh my god

kim fucking namjoon

LMAOOSO ARE YOU FR?

namjoon: what??? i’m so confused pls tell me what i did wrong

i would never cheat on you

ur freaking me out

y/n: think about it

why would i wish you sent halsey flowers?

think

like really think

namjoon: IDK i was confused as hell but you seemed like you really wanted me to

so i did

y/n: i meant i wanted you to buy ME flowers you idiot omg

namjoon: oh

that makes a lot more sense

y/n: yeah

you are the dumbest smart man i’ve ever met

namjoon: my fault

i get confused sometimes 😞

y/n: i love you

namjoon: i love you too

ur not mad anymore?

y/n: could never be mad at you silly

[princessbrunette]

s4ep10 spoilers below the cut ♡

jj suggesting his name for the baby oh he’s dyingggg

pope n cleo’s reaction 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

rafe just staring like there ain’t no way ……

jj u are manic babe 🩷

it’s so weird seeing the scenes that i remember seeing the set pics from …….

cleo and jj going head to head on thievery rn

rafe just yelling and being loud asfk

john b dropping all the apples this fool

rafe getting grabbed by the cops 😭😭😭😭😭

“dumbasses” alr uncle rafe settle down

new iconic rafe walking scene just dropped

“hey baby” rafe……

“im just taking care of business okay?” RAFEYYY he said it so gentle .

the way he just randomly purchased a new fit

BEAT GROFFS ASS !!

rafe looking at the cat when it meows at him ijbol

ok like not rafe just randomly scaling a building

LETS GOOO BEAT HIS ASS RAFEEE

jj yelling “frick!” is killing meee

“HOW DID YOU GET THIS” “I STOLE IT” pope n cleo u will always be famous

this british lady so annoying oh just pack it in.

rafe driving that big ass bike thing ok hagrid tease 😍

“holy shit! that wasn’t even close to answering my question!” now

“so now you’re gonna be my bitch” i’m turned on

ohhhhhh no rafe crash out

RAFE SENT HER PACKINGGG WOAH?

jj flashing the gun was sexy asf idk

“your lucks gonna run out one day…” alr we get it he’s dying surely

rafe talking to himself, angry, single, scheming - we are so back

“that’s my brother” OKAYYYYYYY

“youre not the only one who shot teddy bears” i don’t need tbis rn

terrible aim pope. love you tho

sarah not even flinching when rafe held the knife up to her 😭 she was like alr cmon

rafe hug her. come on

AWWW SHE HUGGED HIMMMM LIKE A BABY and he started crying what if i sobbed rn

“ive gone one bullet left” hes better than me cos i would have panicked and kms

CLEO GOT SHOT NO

the way everyone treats pregnant sarah is the way they treat puppy!reader just all the time i fear ….

“coming right up queen kie” i chuckled

jj don’t die.

“i had him” “no you didn’t” “alright yeah” PLEASE

pope tha killer woah….

“im a killer too” okay rafe 😭😭😭😭

i’m shocked jj didn’t die up there

GROFF STABBED HIM??????

poor kie having to go through that :(

“take care of the others, okay?” was so gentle

ohhh my god he died. he’s dead. our boy is dead WHAT THE HELL

the flashbacks ohhhh go to hell

groff you will pay oh my god

oh this is dark

rafe not now 😭

oh my that ending.

next season gonna be crazy, sarah pregnant, pogues turned to killers, rafe and kiara probably gonna end up together lord give me strength .

[imaginespazzi]

chapt 10

i said fuck bro when i saw this im scared

10k is a novel

paige is having beef already what a shock

horny azzi

hornier paige

“you don’t have any effect on me” me when i lie

oh frick paige in trouble

people catching on and azzi just being a shit ass liar

jana clocking them

why are we treating suicide paige 

azzi there is no way in hell you think paige was hopping on that child

“you always did go for younger women, like me” azzi bro 

i wanna know the issue with angie

stephie is my spirit animal

why is she throwing shade “um u can’t cook”

“i’m too cute to die” breaking the fourth wall and speaking to the author 

uncle twin always makes me chuckle

wanna know what doesn’t

stephie sulking

“you’d think I was her favorite” false hope is a disease

“Coach Bueckers” petty i like it

“i’m just getting clocked left right and center” IM USING THAT I GIGGLED SO HARD

hey when’s the angst

i love stephie so much she’s so real

she and azzi are the same tho there is no difference 

WHY IS STEPHIE MESSY AF TALKING BOUT KISSES FROM CLEMENCE

claudia clocking her mom is crazy

CLOCKING HER AGAIN BRO

stephie instigating YET AGAIN

“i forgot i was mad” im sure your mom agrees

she knows what she did is wild

letting claudia on her lap bro

DID YOU LIKE THE OTHER KIDS HUGS MORE THAN YOU LIKED MINE

stephie clocking azzi part 2847485$4

three seconds

oh my fucking god its drew here comes the goddamn angst you had to ruin it

paige is going to khs ig

drew sending hate 

IM GONNA KMS

“you won’t ever hurt my paigey will you” i hate you nivi 

“don’t you guys look so fucking cozy” oh shit here we go

stephie with the comeback

“but i promise i’ll try” kids clock better 

“i think im gonna like you” i think i’ve had enough

“i wouldn’t look so different to you if you’d been around to see me grow up” IVE HAD ENOUGH

uncle drew😭

nivi i went through all the stages of grief twice i don’t know how to feel anymore 

KARLYYYY do you know you're my favorite?

Don't be scared, I'm such a nice person

Way too horny and now they've gone and gotten themselves clocked

LMFAO just to be clear again, Stephie will not die I am scared of y'all

Stephie's actually the world's biggest instigators (she's me coded)

No don't kys, i'd miss you <3

TWICE? I feel like this was not that much of a grief-filled chpater, at least not by my standards tee hee

[winwintea]

OMG YES ADD ME TO PERM TAGLIST I’D LOVE TO

and i was no where to be seen because uni is starting soon i’m gonna kms😿😿 also me an dmy brother are moving so busy with the new apartment stuff and all🙁 this is my last year in nyc then we are moving back to china (tears tears) BUT MY STEP-MOM IS GIVING BIRTH TO MY SISTER AFTER 3 WEEKS I’M NOT SAD SO LETS YEPPIE GUYS!!!

And i actually had a feeling minghao was gonna buy the theatre because yk he is stc ten 0.2 and mark SEE YALL‼️‼️ I DIDN’T SUSPECT HIM FOR NOTHING‼️‼️ i mean he wasn’t proven guilty as charged but he is kind of sus yk and his whole plot and sense doesn’t even make sense so what are you mark???

my new suspecting list:

jaehyun— bro is sus AS FUCK like i just know it you didn’t make him renjun’s ex for nothing AND OMG WAIT what if he came to visit renjun again and check up on him then he just DIES OMGOMG I’M IMAGINIG THINGS LIKE OMG🤭🤭🤭 maybe he isn’t on the suspecting list after all

mark— YALL SAW WHAT HE DID TO Y/N‼️‼️‼️

renjun— don’t even ask why

jiung— same as renjun

and also everyone in the theatre is on the lost because everyone is just sus

AND UMMM IS TARO MARK AND JENO DEAD??? OKAY QUICK REMOVING TARO JENO AND MARK FROM THE SUSPECTING LIST💀💀💀💀

I’m litreally so confused right now london…why did you mark such a bitch them kill him like at least make us love him then let him die such a tragic death also TARO NOOOOO THAT’S LITREALLY MY SON DON’T KILL HIM 😭😭😭😭 jeno was kinda playing mysterious and drak so i don’t reall caRE if he dies🙄 STILL NO NOT TARO😿😿😿 i’m gonna tell sungchan and taeyong on you and tell them how cruel you are to taro😞💔💔💔💔

ALSO SICHENG CURSING??!?!?!?!??! EXCUSE ME WHO MADE YOU LEARN BAD WORDS SICHENG UH-AH THIS IS NOT ACCEPTABLE ‼️I hope you don’t mind london because i’m putting your man on TIMEOUT‼️‼️ unacceptable from you sicheng😡😡

me going through this like oh damn girl 👀

this is so funny when uni starts for me next week i will become more free than usual, like unless there’s a test i usually just get my shit done and don’t have anything else to do lmao… my summers are lowkey so busy and packed but whenever i have school im so chill

also your family must be crazy rich… living in new york??? i could only imagine… and owning a house/apartment in china is crazy expensive too…

is your step-mom also chinese??? or just your mom (i feel like i’m asking very personal and invasive questions here but girl you got a crazy ass life i’m literally in shock)

no fr minghao is literally stc ten 2.0 (and you’ll see in a second mlvtw ten is stc dejun 2.0 life moves around in circles)

JAEHYUN WILL MAKE AN APPEARNACE SOON I PROMISE. he is essential to the y/njun lore

no fr… mark chill tf out

everyone sus !!!

taro, jeno, and mark? are they dead? you’ll find out tomorrow.. teehee (and @galacticnct will block me too i’m so ready)

see i apologize for making mark a bitch but he’s getting his own smau so 🤷‍♀️

sicheng getting put in timeout nooooo 😭😭

[sparrow-the-tired-lesbian]

my thoughts on the finale

I got my soda and Doritos lesgo 

*sees the episode title* oh no

Praying for Lokius canon

Oh Jesus Christ this is about to fuck me up for the rest of the month

Oh Victor-

LOKIIIII

MOBIUS BABY

spaghetti?

Spaghetti.

That music???

Why are we doing Beethoven 

Mobius is so confused bless this baby

Tom is just vibing

Minutes???

Skin?

LOKI LMFAO

Oh that’s creepy

OB YOURE SO CUTE

ITS PERFECT

Loki knows too much

Mobius control your little pet

Loki really took centuries to learn this

He just winked at timely, how is timely still living 

Smort Loki

AWww Loki is so cute

Awww Mobius 

SMOOCH

“What the shit are you doing” god things baby you wouldn’t understand

OH SUPPORTIVE LOKI

where was Loki when I was actively suicidal

Timely please you can do it

You’re doing so good honey

Hurry before you fuckin die

HE DID ITTTTT

OH LOKI IS SO EXCITED

MY HEART

OH VICTOR

*audible insanity noises*

WIZARD-

OH LOKI WOULD BE SUCH A GREAT FATHER/MOTHER TO THISE BOYS IF MÖBIUS’S

Uh oh

This is bad

Oh Loki is about to go mad

Oh Sylvie hello wife

Say something to your bitch ass husband Loki

Oh Victor no-

He’s just ready for death

THAT FACE

wait why are we here

Don’t do that

DINT DO THAT

IF YOU FALL IN LOVE I SWEAR I WILL FUCKING SHIT MYSELF THIS IS A THREAT

Sylvie can stab me any day

SHUT THE FUCK UP

WHY ARE YOU TEMPTING FATE VICTOR

DONT OPEN A VEIIIIIIN

FREEEEEZE YOUR BRAINNNNN

don’t do any of this

Stop trying

oh plot twist

Lover boy???

Shut the fuck up HWR. I’ll fucking kill you myself.

He’s such a bitch I partly love him and partly hate him.

sir why are you a poet

I feel like they didn’t even try with Sylvie’s outfit. Her hair isn’t supposed to be a middle part in this era

We’re getting a lot of info 

But those people aren’t easy to rebuild

Haha pun

I’m gonna kms if Sylki does anything major again 

HA MAJOR

A PUN

What if you just… got rid of all corrupted Kang variants? That’s what the TVA should be for. Preventing war, by surveying the timeline for variants who wish to start a war.

Offer him his husband and he’ll accept.

Part of me goes “kill her to protect Lokius” and the other says “no my baby-”

MOBIUS

HES BACK

someone’s got a hold of the set list

Story time!!!

This feels personal

Mobius was that you

Oh dear

OH MY GOD

CHEEK KISS PLEASE :)

MOBIUS NO

VERITY NO

SYLVIE NO-

if y’all have a romance moment I will murder everyone

Don’t get closer

Stop this

Stop

Please

This isn’t fun

Oh my god Sylvie I love you but shut up

Oh great

Chanting for the cheek kiss please and thanks

Why the smile?

Where are you going?

Oh no

OH NO

looking at the two people he loved stop hurting me

OH NO THE SMILE

MOBIUS IS PANICKING IM PANICKING

(Will be reblogging with part two)

[afreakingdork]

Miss Dork Miss Dork oh my GOD I've just read Chapter 57 today I think I've officially fallen in love with Reader-san AND Donnie at the same time.

Like, how do you do it?? How do you write a character like that?? How does Reader-san keep rolling nat-20s and say the most quotable thought-provoking character developing things ever?? Chapter by chapter they have proven and continue to prove themselves to be an extremely thoughtful individual with a will that shouldn't be reckoned with and OH. THEM AND DONNIE FIT SO WELL TOGETHER. NO WONDER HE'S SO WHIPPED.

I can see why Donnie is hopelessly in love with them now Reader-san is LITERALLY marriage material. I want to marry someone like them. I can't believe they weren't taken already before Donnie came and swooped them off their feet. Ghkkk.

The line “We’re us. I don’t want that any other way. No changing for one another. We’re us first and foremost" and "Do it. It was never yours anyway because you didn’t name it" in particular. Hh. Okay. I'm normal about these lines in particular. Very normal. In fact, I'd say I'm the most normal ab- WRONG IM GOING INSANE. FIRST LINE?? BANGER. SECOND LINE? ALSO A BANGER. THAT IS THE MOST PERFECT RESPONSE YOU COULD THINK OF TO SOMEONE DOUBTING THEIR IDENTITY AND THEIR RELATION TO THEIR PERSONAS. GOODNESS. BANGER AFTER BANGER LINE FR!!

God everyday I wish I could print your fanfic and kiss each page one by one with utmost tenderness reserved for your beloved. Each chapter is so good aughhhh they're so fucking cool god. Sniff. They're so. Sniffles. They're so cool and well written. They're literally perfect I love them so much. Please oh god I'm so ready to read about them having babies or growing old together I'm gonna DIE WAHHHHH HAH!!!!

OH WAIT HUH OH I MADE ANOTHER LONG RANT AND THIS TIME ITS MORE FERAL UH OH.

Sorry for raving and rambling (again) in your dms Miss Dork I am just,, Experiencing Emotions™. They're all good of course and I am experiencing them in an appropriate amount (lie). Yes.

Okay okay let me compose myself before I make this even longer so I can start my closing statements now: Its so hard to put into words without sounding redundant but I just really really like how you write the Reader!! Lifting your hand and kissing it, like, CHU. I am looking up at you like a doe eyed- well, doe, and also you really are just one hell of a writer Ma'am!! I will never get tired of saying that btw!!

Peace!!

-K.M

KM you are the most delightful mystery in my life at the moment! /aff /pos 💞💞💞

that is to say...

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!

You are seriously the sweetest!!! I had such a blast writing those lines so hearing that you liked them means the world!!

ALSO NO RANT IS TOO LONG!!! WRITE AS MUCH AS YOUR HEART DESIRES AND I WILL READ EVERY BIT!!! YOU ARE A TRUE JOY!

It's so reassuring to hear reader is received well. Obviously they are meant to be a self insert, but at the same time there's no real way to represent everyone and I fret about it quite a bit. I hate alienated people and I want to make it rounded experience, but I also have this story I want to tell.

Just thank you truly, you have no idea how much you mean to me!

ALSO A HAND KISS!!! I'VE ONLY EVER BEEN HAND SMOOCHED ONCE IN MY WHOLE LIFE AND I BARELY RECOVERED!!! It was a Loki cosplayer and they stole my damn heart in one swift move when I complimented their costume! Swoon!!!

[haganez]

the 2 hours leading up to clocking into work im like omg im gonna kms i don’t wanna go i should die i hope the place explodes then i get there and I’m like actually im okay i kinda like it here

[princessgiggles333]

another song that’s so neil josten coded is the archer by taylor swift!!!

“Combat, I’m ready for combat” like how neil was almost always ready for something to go wrong and was prepared to run and/or fight at the drop of a hat??

“I wake in the night, I pace like a ghost/The room is on fire, invisible smoke” ermmm allusion to how he had to burn his mother’s body?? how he burns cigs not smoke but to remember her ?!?!

“And all of my heroes die all alone/Help me hold onto you” i don’t even need to explain this like… he only stayed to play exy for the littlest bit longer!! and even tho she wasn’t the best mother, she was the only one who cared about neil’s well being, and where did that get her? buried on the west coast .

AND DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THE BRIDGE!! “They see right through me/Can you see right through me?/I see right through me” IM GONNA BE SICK!!!

AND THIS PART ESP MAKES ME WANNA VOMIT “All the king's horses, all the king's men/Couldn't put me together again/'Cause all of my enemies started out friends/Help me hold onto you” NEW YEARS?? WHEN WYMACK “PUT HIM BACK TOGETHER” ?

okay okay one last part “Who could ever leave me, darling?/But who could stay?/You could stay” i’m actually gonna kms this is distressing,,

[taintedcigs]

HELLO I AM BACK. AND SO IS MY COMPUTER BITCH. LEMME DIVE INNNNN.

The smile on his face that could never be directed at you, is directed at her. The love and the longing in his eyes that always lingers when she is around. She who had stolen his heart from the very first moment they saw each other. She who had always kept his heart even when she left him for the one she is smiling at now. She who will always be the one he will look at. 

HWAT THE FUCK ANDY. I JUST STARTED READING IT AND WE'RE ALREADY FUCKING UNDER ATTACK. DUDE.

Right. You’re here because of him. You don’t know why he feels the urge to drag you along to every group hang out. No one wants you around, you don’t even think that Robin wants you here, she barely talked to you since you came here. And the longer you sit in Steve’s living room, with an untouched can of coke on the table in front of you, surrounded by people who most likely cannot stand you or your presence, you wish more and more that Jason should have dragged you down with him.  STOP YOURE MAKING ME SO FUCKING SAD IM GONNA DIE.

You don’t belong here, you don’t belong anywhere.  BUT SHES SO GODDAMN RELATABLE OH MY GOD. I FEEL YOU BLONDIE. I SEE YOU BLONDIE. IAM YOU BLONDIE!!!!

You fail to notice the disapproving look on Steve’s face, the way he tensely straightens up, slowly getting up as his brows knit together, more and more, watching in disbelief how you make your way over to Argyle.  OH MY GOD LITTLE ANGEL STEVIE IS SO WORRIED SHUT UP EVERYONE SHUT UP.

“She can’t smoke or drink! Her doctor said it loud and clear, and I warned you before!” He points at him. STOOOOOOOOPPPP. HE WARNED HIM BEFORE?!?! THIS LITTLE IN LUV IDIOT. HE JUST DOESNT KNOW IT YET!!!

“Wow, you do worry about me, Harrington. You weren’t lying.”  EVEN I FEEL GIDDY OVER HERE EVERYOEN SHUT UP GOD I LUV THEM SOSOMUCH!!!!

“Sit your ass down, Blondie and drink your goddamn coke, don’t even think about weed or–” “No weed, no beer, just fucking coca cola, got it, mom,” you roll your eyes at him and slump back in your previous seat, crossing your arms over your chest. LMAOOO THEY R MAKING ME CRY. ALSO AT LEAST SHE CAN HAVE COKE.

“Goddamn brat,” he mumbles under his breath. “I heard that.”  “Good,” he snaps at you. OH FUCKING HELL NOW I NEED HIM TO SAY THIS IN VERY VERY DIFFERENT CONTEXTS. FUCK FUCK FUCK.

Sometimes you feel like a creep, watching him and adoring everything about him, from his sun kissed skin, to his beautiful eyes, to his perfect hair, to that one smile that he blesses only those around him that he cares about – something that you will never get. GIRL I DONT THINK YOU'RE A CREEP I'D GAWK AT STEVE TOO. but that last fucking line?!?? we're back to sad again JFCCC HELPME.

“Keep your pity to yourself, Blondie. I’d rather never see you again than see you when I don’t have to.” okay im just gonna kms EVERYONE ABORT.

“Listen uh, that was mean,” he starts, now struggling to look into your eyes. He squeezes his eyes shut for a moment, tugging at his hair. “I shouldn’t have said that.” UHUHHHHHHH IM GONNA FREAKING CRY.

“Bye, Steve.” GOODBYE NOW I WILL CRY. You turn the other way, towards Hawkins cemetery. and noW IWILL CRY EVEN MORE.

OH FUCK ANDY THIS CHAPTER WAS SOOO GOOD. I LOVE THE WAY U WRITE THEIR DIALOGUE. HOW FAST IT SWITCHES FROM FLIRTY, ANNOYANCE, FULL MEANNES AND JUST FUCKING GUT-WRENCHINGLY SAD.

BEAUTIFULLY WRITTEN AS AL-FUCKING-WAYS. I CANNOT WAIT FOR MORE ILYYY <3

Dancing with our hands tied | S.H.

Chapter two ⭐︎ I want you to notice, when I'm not around

Warnings: angst! mean!Steve, unrequited feelings, one sided feelings, mentions of Steve being in love with Nancy, mentions of death, allusions to suicidal thoughts, mentions of weed and alcohol

Pairing: Steve Harrington x fem!reader

Word count: 4k

Author's note: I promise, it's gonna get so much better soon, get ready for some much more angst in the next chapter, it's gonna hurt. @hellfire--cult thank you for helping me as always, you're the bestest!!!

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The living room is crowded, at least it seems that way to you. You aren’t used to being around so many people. You didn’t want to come here, but you had no choice when both Eddie and Robin had showed up at your house earlier today and practically forced you out of the house.

Now you sit here, sinking deeper and deeper into Steve Harrington’s couch, feeling uncomfortable and out of place. You’re playing with the loose string on the hem of your shirt as you look around the room. Robin is snacking on the m&m’s Eddie had brought as she’s looking through the pictures Jonathan had taken of her and Nancy just now. Eddie is out on the patio, smoking a cigarette and talking to Argyle who will leave for California in two days. Jonathan is staring at the screen watching some music video that is playing on the MTV channel, his pupils are blown and his eyes seem heavy, he is high out of his mind and for once, Nancy doesn’t seem to care, with her legs thrown over his thigh, she’s sipping on the beer that Steve handed to her a few minutes back, she is talking to Robin, unaware of the set of eyes on her. 

You restrain the eye roll as you look at him. 

Steve is sitting on the same couch you do, though with a big distance, you sit at one end and he on the other, far far away from you. You know he doesn’t want you here, you saw the look on his face when Eddie had dragged you into his house, a wave of something had washed over his face, something unpleasant, like he wanted to scrunch his face up in disgust at the sight of you – his mind had already erased your little moment at the Sinclair house, last week. Now you are back to normal. He made a comment, you made a comment and now you both sit there, avoiding each other like the plague. 

Secretly, you watch him though. 

Like you always do. 

And what you are seeing now, only fuels your annoyance and your wish to go home. 

The smile on his face that could never be directed at you, is directed at her. The love and the longing in his eyes that always lingers when she is around. She who had stolen his heart from the very first moment they saw each other. She who had always kept his heart even when she left him for the one she is smiling at now. She who will always be the one he will look at. 

You thought that he was over it, you thought that he was over her. But you were a little blind and maybe he was too when he told Robin that he was over her. He never was, he never will be. You saw the way he looked at her when she patched him up after he was attacked. You saw the way he looked at her in the RV. You heard the things he said to her, how he talked about his dreams that he surely saw her in by his side. 

You also heard the things he said about you when he thought that you were sleeping. You still remember how gut wrenching it felt to hear him say things about you to his ex-girlfriend. 

You huff in silence when his lips curl into a smile and his eyes light up when Nancy throws her head back in laughter. 

God, why are you even here? 

Eddie falls into the seat next to you, throwing his arm around your shoulder. It feels as though a cloud of smoke had followed him because suddenly, the smell of snacks, fresh air and beer is replaced by it, along with the smell of his cologne.

Right. You’re here because of him. You don’t know why he feels the urge to drag you along to every group hang out. No one wants you around, you don’t even think that Robin wants you here, she barely talked to you since you came here. And the longer you sit in Steve’s living room, with an untouched can of coke on the table in front of you, surrounded by people who most likely cannot stand you or your presence, you wish more and more that Jason should have dragged you down with him. 

You don’t belong here, you don’t belong anywhere. 

Eddie takes a look around before he turns to you, the smile still lingering, though turning into a softer one when he notices the frown on your face. 

“What’s wrong, sweets?” 

You shake your head a little, trying to give him a smile, “nothing.” 

“Are you feeling okay?” He asks, whispering. 

You wonder if that is the reason why he always wants you around, so he can keep checking up on you, so he can make sure that you are okay, that you are still alive and not lying in some ditch after pushing yourself a little too hard while still recovering from surgery. 

Does he care so much because he knows that no one else would? 

Or does he feel like he owes you something because you helped him when it wasn’t even asked of you? 

You nod, “yeah, I just don’t know why I’m here,” you whisper to him, subtly gesturing to this tight friend group that you don’t fit into. 

Eddie is new to this as well, but unlike you, he’s open and friendly with everyone. He surely isn’t as cheerful as he was weeks back. Just like you, he is still recovering, hiding his inner scars from the face of the earth but still, he is trying. Trying to fit into this, and for him, it’s working, for you? Not so much. 

“Well, you’re here because of me,” he grins, tapping your shoulder. 

You huff but smile, looking down at your hands. 

Yeah, you wouldn’t be here otherwise. 

Had you not gone on a walk that one afternoon a few weeks back, you would have never ran into him. Eddie who had been a wanted man at that time, Eddie who was hiding at skull rock, in drenched clothes and with clattering teeth as he shivered like crazy. You remember how scared he looked when you saw him, how he thought that you would rat him out because at that time, you were nothing but acquaintances to each other. – You bought from him a few times but that was all. He always tried to make small talk, throw a few jokes at you, but at that time, he barely got you to laugh. 

You didn’t believe the rumors on the news, not even for a second, not even when Chrissy used to be a close friend of yours. 

You decided to help him, not knowing what else you were getting yourself into, not knowing that it wasn’t just him involved in a world you hadn’t known of yet, at that time. You got him dry clothes, food and the walkie talkie he had begged you for. 

You never expected Steve Harrington and Dustin Henderson to show up moments later, though. And least of all, you hadn’t expected Max there. It felt like a surreal dream the moment they started explaining everything to you. The moment you found out the truth about Starcourt, about all the deaths in this town, about the lab, about Henry. 

You had only been allowed to be a part of it because of Max, because of your friendship with the girl you had grown protective of, because she let you help. 

The night in the upside down, the night at the Creel house led you here, into this friend group, into Steve’s house where you certainly don’t belong. 

You don’t know what that nagging yet empty feeling in your chest is, if it’s the trauma that is slowly catching up to you or if it’s from watching him watch her, or if you’re just simply having a bad day but it’s making you feel sick and restless, you want the ground to swallow you up. 

You muster up your greatest smile and flash it at Eddie, “yeah, cause you’re my very best friend.”

He snorts at you, hearing the sarcasm in your voice. 

“Your only best friend is Red.” 

You smile at his nickname for Max. 

“Hey Chica, do you wanna smoke this with me?” 

You don’t even pay attention or look up, not until Eddie chuckles and nudges your shoulder, raising his eyebrows at you to look up and when you do, you find Argyle looking at you with a dopey smile on his face as he holds up a blunt to you. 

Without thinking, you get up with a smile on your lips, “is that even a question?” 

It’s been a long time since you have had anything other than medication in your system, you are in dire need of something that will ease your mind and make you feel more than what you are feeling today. 

You fail to notice the disapproving look on Steve’s face, the way he tensely straightens up, slowly getting up as his brows knit together, more and more, watching in disbelief how you make your way over to Argyle. 

“What the hell, Blondie!?” 

His raised voice startles everyone in the room. Robin looks up from the polaroids in her hands, glancing up at her best friend who is staring at you with angry eyes. Nancy and Jonathan turn to look at Steve before they turn to look at what he is glaring at – or who he is glaring at. 

Argyle and Eddie turn to Steve with confusion on their faces. 

And you, you halt in your tracks, and turn back slowly. Caught off guard by the intense look on his face, you freeze. 

“Are you crazy?” 

You open your mouth to speak, though you shut your mouth again when you realize that these words aren’t directed at you, they’re directed at Argyle. 

“She can’t smoke or drink! Her doctor said it loud and clear, and I warned you before!” He points at him. 

You’re taken aback by his anger, by his words. The fact that he remembered when even you, yourself have forgotten about it. You hate the way your heart flutters at that, you hate the way it makes your stomach feel all tingly. You know that it doesn’t mean anything, just because he remembered. 

You see the way Argyle’s face drops and the way he smacks himself on his forehead, “I forgot, I’m sorry, man,” he looks at you, pulling away the blunt he was just about to give to you. “Sorry, he told me… I wasn’t thinking.” He whispers, a little uncomfortably as a funny look takes over his face. 

Steve warned him? 

“Dude, I forgot too, don’t worry about it,” you pat his arm, giving him an apologetic smile. “Don’t mind mother hen over there, he’s overreacting as always.” You say as though you don’t feel your heart racing over Steve’s outburst. 

“And you.” 

You instantly turn to face him, just like everyone else in the room who watches the scene unfold with curiosity and confusion on their faces. 

You meet his hazel eyes, the ones that are still raging. 

“Stop being so fucking careless!” He snaps, pointing his finger at you now. “You’re getting on my goddamn nerves.” 

He places his hands back on his hips, huffing loudly. 

Your cheeks flush under his gaze, you can feel them burning, your heart beating faster and faster. You don’t know how to feel but all you can think about now is the look in his eyes when he realized that he hurt you back at Lucas’s place the other day, the words he had said to you. 

Despite the giddiness inside of you, you hide your feelings behind a smirk. 

“Wow, you do worry about me, Harrington. You weren’t lying.” 

He squints his eyes at you, nodding at your words with another huff. He pinches the bridge of his nose, shaking his head. 

Everyone is looking between the two of you, waiting for the bickering to start, the way it always does, but Steve manages to bite his tongue. 

And you surprise the others by holding back your little remarks. 

“And fucking relax, leave Argyle alone, he isn’t responsible for me and neither are you, Lego head. Go and get high, you need to calm down.” 

Jonathan snorts at the nickname, he throws his head back, chuckling loudly as he mumbles ‘Lego head’. Argyle, who already had one too many drags of the blunt he passed around before, is barely holding himself together, threatening to burst into laughter too. 

Steve shoots Jonathan a glare, pointing at him to shut up. 

Nancy looks down, pressing her lips together with an amused look in her eyes. 

Eddie drinks his beer, hiding the smirk behind the can, scratching the back of his neck. 

“Sit your ass down, Blondie and drink your goddamn coke, don’t even think about weed or–”

“No weed, no beer, just fucking coca cola, got it, mom,” you roll your eyes at him and slump back in your previous seat, crossing your arms over your chest. 

He sighs loudly, sitting back down as well, he crosses his legs, giving you the side eye. 

“Goddamn brat,” he mumbles under his breath. 

“I heard that.” 

“Good,” he snaps at you. 

There is no tension in the room, not even awkwardness after this weird moment. If anything, everyone is still amused. 

“Always bickering like an old married couple,” Eddie snickers. 

Steve glares at him, and you, you would have dug your elbow into his side, but he is wounded and still healing. The band aids on his neck are the evidence that they are still bad. He is hiding him, and you wonder if he always will, you ask yourself if he will hide his pain the way you hide yours. 

You don’t even notice that Robin left the room, only when everyone moves on from what just happened and chatter fills the space again, do you take a look around. You furrow your brows when you find her spot empty. 

Argyle and Jonathan leave the room, stepping out into the garden with Nancy following close behind. 

“Are you still in for tomorrow?” You hear Eddie, directing his question at Steve. 

“Yeah, sure.”

You don’t bother to ask and find out what their plans are. 

Robin walks back into her room, with something in her hand. Her eyes are aimed at you, a smile on her lips when she walks towards you. She hands you a drink, a diet pepsi. 

“Here.” 

Your lips part as you stare at the can for a long moment, blinking. You tilt your chin up, looking up at her with big eyes. 

Her smile falls and a frown takes over, “shit, I thought you liked diet pepsi? Was it original?” 

You shake your head at her, taking the can from her hand, “n-no, it’s diet pepsi.” 

She paid attention to you. 

She smiles at you. 

She felt bad watching you sit there and being unable to drink beer or smoke weed with the others. And she remembers that you always asked for pepsi when you were still in the hospital, you hated the teas there and despised the fact that you were only allowed water. 

“I thought you liked coke, Blondie.”

Robin rolls her eyes at Steve. 

“It’s not my favorite,” you shrug, turning to look at him. “I prefer pepsi.” 

He squints his eyes at you, “so when you stole my coke the other day, you did it just to–”

“Get back at you, yeah. Cause you stole my coffee.” 

“When did he steal your coffee?” Robin asks. 

“When I came to family video to rent a movie–”

“Oh, you little liar,” Steve scoffs at you, “she did not rent a movie, she didn’t even come to look for one.”

A smirk tugs at your lips, if there’s something that you love more than the drink in your hand, it’s to get on his nerves. 

“Says who? I really wanted one but the customer service sucks when this one isn’t around,” you point at Robin. 

Eddie chuckles, turning to look at Steve who is glaring at you, before a smirk appears on his face, his hazel eyes twinkling with smugness. 

“You and I both know that you didn’t want to rent a movie, honey. You were there because you wanted to see me,” he says, cockily as he lets his eyes move from your face, down to your body and back up to meet your eyes. 

Your breath gets caught in your throat at the way he just looked at you. You don’t squirm in your seat, but you surely would if the others weren’t around. You grow flustered beneath his stare but you have come to learn how to hide it – Steve Harrington will never see you blushing over him. 

Maybe he was right, maybe you did just want to see him, because you always do, you always want to see him. No matter how much he hates you, no matter how much he despises you, you can’t help but want him, even if you continue to lie about it to yourself to stay sane. 

Steve Harrington had always been your demise – from the first glance. 

You couldn’t help but grow fascinated with him, watching him from afar with eyes the shape of your favorite sunglasses. You couldn’t help but care for him, even when he couldn’t stand you. 

Sometimes you feel like a creep, watching him and adoring everything about him, from his sun kissed skin, to his beautiful eyes, to his perfect hair, to that one smile that he blesses only those around him that he cares about – something that you will never get. 

Sometimes it’s hard to look into his eyes because every time you do look for a little too long, you feel like dying because suddenly, you see the world with different eyes, you see something beautiful, because he is in it and when you look away, when he is gone, it feels anything but.

Steve wouldn’t even bat an eye if you were gone. He wouldn’t even notice if you weren’t around. 

Suddenly, you feel overwhelmed by the way he looks at you, by his presence, by all of this. You are in his space, you are invading, his home, his friend group, his safe place. The reminder of it, that you don’t belong here, lies heavy on your heart and you feel the urge to run away but you cannot give yourself away so easily, knowing that it would be awfully noticeable if you suddenly left after what he just said. 

So you put on a mask, the way you always do. 

“If that helps you sleep at night,” you smirk, tilting your head at him, “I mean no one else would come to see you, I took pity on you.” 

He clenches his jaw, his smirk falling into a frown. 

“Keep your pity to yourself, Blondie. I’d rather never see you again than see you when I don’t have to.”

You know how he feels about you, you know what he thinks of you, yet every single insult, every jab at you feels like a punch to your gut. But this, this was a punch to your heart. 

You know he wouldn’t grieve you if you died at the Creel house, but to know that he might have felt relieved to never having to see you again, hurts you more than you want to admit. 

“What the hell, man?” Eddie snaps at him as his brown eyes fill with anger at his words. 

Robin rolls her eyes, shaking her head at Steve in disappointment. 

But he keeps his eyes on you, struggling to read you, struggling to look past that smirk that is still going strong. 

“Well, I’ll put you out of your misery, Lego head,” you say as you place the drink on the table before you get up. 

Robin furrows her brows, looking you up and down, “what are you doing?” 

“I’m leaving.” You try not to sound bitter or hurt. “I’m getting tired and I forgot my meds at home.” 

Steve looks away from you, feeling a rush of guilt. 

“I’ll drive you–”

You cut Eddie off, shaking your head at him, “no, I’m gonna walk, I need some fresh air.”

Eddie looks at you worriedly, “sweets, I don’t want you to walk by yourself.”

“Eddie, I’m okay, I don’t get dizzy anymore,” you say, trying to smile at him. “I promise, I’ll call you later tonight.” 

He still looks unsure, not wanting to let you go like this. 

But he can tell that you want to be alone, right now, so despite his worry, he leans back again and nods begrudgingly. 

“Okay..” 

You walk out of the room, biting back the bitterness on your tongue, trying to swallow down the pain. You rush through the hallway and open the door, you only manage to take one step out before you hear footsteps behind you. 

You roll your eyes, knowing that Eddie being the stubborn guy that he is will try to convince you to stay, but when you turn around, it’s not Eddie’s brown eyes that you find yourself looking into, it’s Steve’s and it catches you off guard a little. 

He stops in front of you, his eyes scan your face and he huffs a little when he runs his fingers through his hair. 

If you didn’t know better, you’d think it’s guilt and worry in his eyes. 

You hold onto the door, ready to escape whatever pain he will put you through again.

“Listen uh, that was mean,” he starts, now struggling to look into your eyes. He squeezes his eyes shut for a moment, tugging at his hair. “I shouldn’t have said that.” 

You blink.

You swallow as you keep on looking at him with smugness, to hide the pain. 

“It’s okay, no need to hide the truth from me, you were just saying what you were feeling, right?” 

He opens his eyes and when he faces you again, he looks at you, really looks at you. He tries to find a hint of pain in your features or hurt in your eyes, but there is nothing. All he can see is the coldness in them. 

Nothing he could ever do or say would hurt you – at least, that is what he believes, what he always believed. 

“Right.” 

You bite the insides of your cheeks. 

“Good,” you nod and you tear your eyes away from him, unable to look at him any longer as you feel your heart cracking more and more.

“Y-You don’t have to go, Blondie.” He stops you once again, holding himself back from taking your hand. 

You slowly turn around and he still struggles to read you, even when you stop smirking, even when you only look at him with a straight face, not saying anything back. 

“But if you want to leave, no one’s gonna stop you.”

You see the indifference in his eyes, the coldness that is only there when he looks at you. 

Yeah, you know no one would. 

How can you care so much about someone that cares so little about you? 

How can you want him so bad when all he wants for you is to disappear? 

How can he worry one second and hate you in the other? 

How can you long for him after every hurtful thing that he said to you? 

You take a step away from him, blinking as you feel your eyes starting to burn. 

“Bye, Steve.” 

You turn around before he can even open his mouth, and you slam the door shut behind you because you don’t want to hear his voice. 

You walk away with tears in your eyes. 

You wish you didn’t come here today, every moment spent with him makes you want him even more, makes you hate yourself even more. 

You don’t go home, no, you can’t stand to be in a house that resembles nothing but loss. 

You turn the other way, towards Hawkins cemetery. 

You just need to vent. 

Even if only into the void. 

♡

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[emotionallydeteriorating]

i feel like a loser when i am around people i hate myself sm why cant i be like them why am i like this when will i be able to fix myseld. i dont do shit thay will make someone proud of me i dont think. i cant even get myself to do things that will make a change in my life and the people i love. i dont wanna be a disappointment fr but the things ik doing rn leads me to that path where i dont wanna be. i dont know how to save myself from ts. i js want to die and if god isnt gonna fucking kill me then why cant he fix shit for me it makes me cry knowing how i have hurt people rn too i have tears in my eyes evrytime i think ab ts i end up crying. i beg god to fix evrything im so tired of this. i only pray to god to fix me cus i wanna give the people i love what they deserve that is good things which theyve been giving me ever since i was born. my head starts hurting when i think ab this i want to scream and cry and i js want this to get better. i rly would km$ cus idgaf ab ts shit. but i cant do it cus there r ppl who will have to be sad ab me and i dont want them to blame themselves for something that i do to myself. this is no fun i don’t like to be alive i didnt ask to be here what am i doing here. if i was js born to be a loser then whats the point of existing why cant i js die without making everyone sad. i have so much guilt in my heart and it hurts everyday everytime. i only do bad things to people. theres nothing good ab me i hate myself i hate this so much like im so tired of ts bs bro no shit. its so hard to walk with all the guilt in my heart it hurts rly. i js want to run away from my thoughts idk. when im happy or something good has happened i get scared cus ik ts is only temporary when and at the end of the day ik how its gonna be again. i get scared cus ik god will take anyrhing away from me that makes me happy. well not always hit sometimes but im still grateful for the things that have happened that were good but still again it didnt change anything for the people i hurt so idk. i honestly dont even feel shit idk i cant do normal things that people do i dont experience things that people my age do i js rot rot rot and let my thoughts consume me. iwhen i feel soemthing its like all emotions together otherwise its like i don’t feel anything? like what is happening dude. i js dont understand this. i cant think anything positive or any good thing happening with me bc i js know thats not whats gonna happen and not like i deserve it idk and anyways theres no point in thinking good when u already know whats gonna happen why would i wanna disappoint myself by thinking positive cus ik that the outcome is always negative. idk bro im tired

[earlysunshines]

"I love you when we only have a few minutes together" UARGH THAT HURT omg I missed you </3

aahdg that this tension the stolen glances hnm the way your write about the all the memories and emotions coming back hnmnm

alas this answer may feel broken cause i've been reading it separately on work breaks and just noting down what I want to say so sorry in advance jshssk but this one.. has been on my mind all day

OH first meet scene waitup

LIKEURGH THIS you know what you do and I love to read it, i don't remember the word but you said it on that dani fic but this thing minji says is "I hope this seat isnt taken" it being the same saying from the past, like it is a cherished memorie for minji too aaakshrgrhj

like the way you put some light angst "(there were more nights that stung.)" udggdjlet them be happy 😭😭

ok, talking this as a whole i love this build up where they are becoming obvious to others but not themselves like the interaction in front of cameras, the longing interactions, hanni pointing it out something even the bunnies noticed, it start to become too casual for them because they did it on the past but all this tension together aaaa🧍🧍

love that hanni is being the intermediator (?) like knowing her im sure she is observing it all and would even plot something with danielle cause they are like that

DONT omg not the throwback in memories nightmare dream idk

ok so, as someone who unhealthy does this shutting down emotions too I know very well how it bottles up, and having someone who can read you easily is.. scary. the anxiety of worrying them too? yeah it feels different being the one to read about it but it is a food talk

"her touch is softer now, more tender, more vulnerable"AHGR😭😭🤸🤸🏃🚶

im so happy you made this little part about the members seeing minji n yn and they explaining it all after aurgrh omg this one made my heart ache

really liked this one, as always, all the unspoken tension the longing the light angst, it all being kinda a fated thing, ah 😮‍💨😮‍💨good. all your pining ones have a special place to my heart cause it makes me wanna do flips all over from excitement

yeah I think that's it, have a good weekend ahead! :) 🫶

-🤟anon!

YAYAYAYAYYYYY I LOVE YOUR REAPONSES KM YIPPPEEE YIPPEPEE

lowk i nibbled w this one i think i did better w emotions this time i mean i tried?-?:!2

and don’t worry if your responses seem this or that i just love them regardless💔💔💔💔😿😿😿😿lock in at work!!

yes i loooove giving reader and member deja vu they’re never gonna know peace god bless and idk i tried so hard to make it angsty but my best angsty fic is prob the dani one LOL

RIGHT hanni is the median and then it’s another. one of those everyone knows it but them type tropes and UGH they’re so in love i need to die

i also bottle things up 😭😭i fear… anyways that’s not important yes han and dani always plotting don’t ever let them out of sight yes yes and the members getting a whole story time was not originally in plan but it fit so i added it

i liked writing this one bc it was like idk a lot of emotion but that also made it hard to write bc i’m not good w non fluff things bc i have to start thinking a lil hard and i have like five braincells rn my neurons don’t even work correctly like

THANK YOU FOR THE REPSINSE I ALWAYS LOOK FORWAD TO YOURS😭😭😭I LOBBB thank u have a great weekend!!!

[normalestgirlblog]

update on my love life

i still want to die

but

this girl i went on four dates with haven’t kissed, because if there is one thing im not gonna do it’s make the first move, guys or girls idgaf i don’t do that. not bc i’m against it but bc i physically cannot bc i can’t handle rejection like nothing in the world is worse than that it makes me sick i can’t eat i can’t sleep i just want to die

not rlly the point but she’s obsessed with me, like in a way that i am not into, there is a proper way and then there is her way

also we were in my car and she made me turn off the doors which first of all what the fuck it’s the doors. AND SHE TURNED ON fucking kings of leon, which i’m so sorry but like what. people who have music taste don’t listen to kings of leon im so sorry i never liked sex on fire it’s so annoying and bad and unoriginal and i never even bothered to listen to anything else. AND THEN SHE MADE ME LISTEN TO U2 which is notably a horrible band. AND THEN SHE HAS TOLD ME MULTIPLE TIMES TO LISTEN TO BILLIE EILISH. like ik im being really judge mental because a lot of people like these artists for reasons that are unknown to me. but i actually find it horrifying that this is the type of music she likes. i’m dying to hate go through her spotify but just to make it worse she doesn’t even have spotify she has apple music like what.

maybe i’m being mean but idgaf

also going on a date with a republican tonight will update kind of just want to fuck but he like wants to get drinks which like kms just invite me over

like i don’t want to talk to a republican literally pulling teeth