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c0rpseductor · 7 months ago

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*sees popular tumblr user realizing they have DID and talking about how lame and bullshit community terminology sounds and how the whole community is full of dogma and mysticism* wow, did i used to sound like this? holy shit i kind of sucked! anyway bye *makes out with block button*

#idk. i mean obviously i understand it #'i'm not like those WEIRD CRINGE PEOPLE who are CRAZY! i don't even think this is a REAL DISORDER!' is like #THE symptom #but god i really don't want to be like anywhere near that kind of energy lol. still trying to excise it from my own self #i also did not like this person for other reasons but felt kind of like blocking would be pointless #(also funny to be like 'all the terminology is so gay' like i used to and then use plural. literally my most hated woo term)#(truly all internalized ableism is built kinda different)#i'll delete this later lol i dont want to be a mean meanie it's just like. hm! wow!

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rebellum · 2 years ago

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The whole transandrophobia discussion thing is weird bc it feels like it's a bunch of poc and jewish trans people being like "here are my experiences of how specifically being MASCULINE had affected me, and the discrimination and violence I experienced based on that. And here is how that relates to me being a racial/ethnic minority"

And then a few loud white trans people going "ohhh you wanna be oppressed so bad you *slur*. This is why there aren't any poc in your movement it's because REAL poc understand intersectionality"

#hot take white culturally christian or athiest leftests do not properly interpret white jewish ppl #like as a poc i and other poc understand that white jewish ppl often get racial privilege #but a) not always b) they experience oppression based off of their ethnicity #idk from my perspective it seems like white goyim either see jewish ppl as 'the disgusting exotic enemy' or 'basically WASPS but they #wanna feel special'#with no nuance. no recognition #look maybe this next part is bc i didnt grow up with jewish ppl and therefore didnt know until I was 18/19 that jewish ppl can count as #white. but like. idk how to say this. i dont wanna speak over white jewish ppl. but like.#jewish ppl that have obvious jewish features (whether Ashkenazi facial features OR they dont have those but wear eg kippahs)#arent like. white. idk pls correct me if this is antisemitic or incorrect or something.#but like. light skinned =/= white obviously.#i just struggle to see how my bestfriend with her lovely dark eyes and curls and nice nose counts as 'white' when ppl call her the k slur #across the street. ykwim?#like white doesnt mean light skinned. it means 'part of the in-group of white ppl'#like my ex who is white and jewish? yeah hes white. if he didnt wear his necklace then goyim wouldnt know. you know #like obvs he still experiences ethnic oppression but he doesnt experience racial oppression #but other ppl with more prominent eg ashkenazi (im singling them out bc most jewish ppl here are ash.) like i dont GET how they have racial #privilege.

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thatskindarough · 3 months ago

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My actual only request and probably unpopular opinion for season 3 is that they tone down the color grading. I think season 1 looked a lot better. Season 2 was way to saturated. Crowley’s skin looked orange.

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rockafstw · 1 month ago

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Sometimes I remember Prost has said Senna told him things that he promised to never repeat to anyone and I go “Hm.”

#like Hmmmmmmmmm #okay #i mean. obviously no real idea what that could possibly be about #my best guess is something to do with how senna felt about racing. as a whole or at the time. a very personal side of things #something he felt prost could understand probablyyy #But again. idk. truly do not know #love that prost will mention he Knows Stuff and then refuse to elaborate #i respect how adamant he is on taking it to the grave #even though i am unbearably curious #because what do you meannnnn you developed a close relationship with your rival over the course of six months #and this relationship was so good he felt comfortable sharing things about himself #that you would later not even reveal to your own kin #because it’s something for just between the two of you. whatever it is.#and only months before then you and this rival would barely interact with each other…..#it’s crazy. it’s just. crazy.#alain prost #ayrton senna #asap

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not-kamenx · 22 days ago

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just a thought I had

I love how in the beginning when Ekusu/Jaxon and Bird/Robin were still in their whole phase of getting used to each other in the earlier episodes, Robin was the one to be the hugger

LIKE HE FULL ON TACKLED JAXON FOR A CELEBRATORY HUG

then later on

Jaxon is the one initiating most of the physical contact

he takes Robin’s hand whenever he feels like it (when he wanted to try the cheese waffle sushi after moving into Komaba Sushi and dragged him along, and in the ep of Warden’s Exam when he wanted to battle) and regularly seems to choose him over Multi over most situations even when he’s scared, like in the ep of Riddles and Beys when he hides behind Robin after the tall person appeared (I FORGOT THE NAME)

It’s just really funny to see how it kind of swapped

#beyblade x #notkamenx thoughts #jaxon cross #robin kazami #i mean team persona in general seems to drag Robin around whenever they wanna #multi does take his hand as well whenever she feels like it #though I usually see Jaxon doing this more #oh and also when they share a room #YOU CAN NOT TELL ME ONE OF THEM HAS NOT KICKED THE OTHER IN THEIR SLEEP BEFORE #I feel like this has to have happened once #Middle of the night one of them suddenly rolls to the side after a painful kick in the ribs #it’s just so funny to me #OH YEAH AND AB THE EP WHERE THEY MET HINA #I love how Jaxon said in front of Hina “Robin you were going easy on those guys right?” And she was like :0 #THAT WAS JUST SO SWEET HONESTLY #AND WHEN ROBIN TRIES TO QUESTION JAXON LATER HES LIKE “uh nvm” bc Jaxon would obviously keep on going #I love how later on too after Warden’s Exam and when Robin wants to quit Jaxon seems to understand what’s bothering him #because later on in one of the future eps #Invitation I think?#he’s like “is that all?” When Robin pours his heart out ab how they should abandon him if he’s a burden #HES LIKE “oh. Okay. Anyways let’s keep climbing together”#I WISH HED BE A LITTLE MORE COMMUNICATIVE AND GENTLER BUT HE REALLY DOES CARE #and robin was like #“I PUT A LOT OF THOUGHT INTO THIS”#but to Jaxon he seems to dismiss it because he has no thoughts of leaving Robin behind and well he doesn’t get why the thought keeps coming #back to Robin #IDK TJATS HOW I INTERPRET IT #random thought before my shower okay bye guys

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rowanintheriver · 2 months ago

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“well i just feel like it wasn’t necessary” “it could have been more subtle” fuck off fuck off WE NEEDED the sesbian lex btw. caitvi i love

#this is jot directed at people w valid criticisms #but idk i feel like having proper queer representation to THAT extent matters. it mattered to me #that they werent afraid to show what they wanted to show. also vi is hot #obviously u can have valid criticisms (i have some too) but idk. it was an important moment for us queer folk ok #sorry im like rambling.#idk what i mean to say like i do but i cannot make you understand i cannot make anyone else understand #what is happening inside of me i cannot even explain it to myself #whoops!! we kafka spiralled 🥰#rowan.txt #caitvi

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lexalovesbooks · 1 year ago

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Mmm thinking about Liesel now. She’s a very calculating character clearly and she’s the one who most blatantly suggests that El isn’t quite a person. She admits to Aadhaya that the reason she has sex with El is because El is powerful enough that she could absolutely destroy the world, probably even without meaning to, and when someone is that powerful it’s important that she has people she cares for enough that they can pull her back from the ledge. It’s this really interesting in-between of acknowledging the personhood of El, of acknowledging her as someone with feelings and desires and someone who loves and cares, and also treating her as someone who needs to be managed, which would be way more insulting if it was anyone but Liesel. I’m not sure where I’m going with this, I just can’t stop wondering at how Liesel imagines El, if it’s all a means to an end for her and El is little more than a chess piece or if there is true acknowledgement of her as a person from the person who seems to have the greatest understanding of what exactly El is

#(all this assuming that liesel is right about El being an ‘entity’. whatever that means)#the scholomance #idk i’m just having a ‘go wild about people so powerful they aren’t necessarily a people anymore’. it’s so fascinating to me #one of my favorite types of characters #i am inclined to think it’s the second btw. liesel sees el as a person she understands that her feelings are true and real and powerful. she #just also is pragmatic enough to understand that the nature of el’s power means someone needs to be there to keep her from going off the edg #and we’ll it’s liesel so obviously no one but her can be trusted to do this right. lmao

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sanjarka · 18 days ago

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this is not meant to be petty i promise but i find it interesting how from the beginning of being in a fandom space, from the beginning of being a part of some sort of community, even if it was just rebloging gifsets at 13, it was kind of a given that i couldn't do it in my native language or within the frame of my own culture? idk if i'm explaining it right but i just wonder how does it feel to share a language with your favorite fictional character and to talk about them in it too.

#and obviously it does depend on what it is that you like but even #but still even if you like some idk norwegian tv show you're mostly going to talk about it in english #like i love dark which is a german tv show but if you go to the dark tag on tumblr it's mostly english #and what's weirder is that whenever i try for example to write some everlark meta in serbian i can't do it #ny vocabulary isn't as clear as it is on english #IT'S SO WEIRD #i mean like any fictional media #but also even the voice inside my head is in english #and it's especially easier to feel in english #cause there is this detachment or like it's some sort of performance #and it's not just language it's the general culture #it's the songs i put in my playlist #etc #it's the way i'm trying to write a modern au everlark fic but i don't know where i want them to live #like the way i see them in that modern au it's so intertwined with the way of life for young people in the balkans #and if i separate it then tge story falls apart #yes this post was inspired because i was listening to a serbian song ane being THIS IS HAYMITCH'S SONG #and then feeling sad that nobody else is gonna get it #because they don't know it 😭#or what if it's sounds weird #to someone who isn't used to a different style of music #it was nedelja by dzej #BUT THAT'S WHAT IM SAYING #this means nothing 😭#like it's never going to be a silver springs moment #AM I MAKING ANY SENSE #LIKE I CAN'T SAY HAYMITCH LISTENS TO TURBO FOLK HEADCANON #nobody understands what that means #but he does though guys trust me #it's just means he's very sad

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xxplastic-cubexx · 3 months ago

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just read the new mutants issue where Charles chose to stay behind in space and my god the juxtaposition between Charles trusting Erik and Erik joining the hellfire club and wondering at his own trust worthiness. I wonder how much of Charles decision was him ultimately trying to avoid the fact that his first class had seemingly betrayed mutant kind and not be willing to face them and how much of it was Dani and Illyana's reaction to him having Karma mind control Illyana. the fact that Illyana was depending on him to ease her mind through limbo and in choosing to stay he forced karma to do it instead, probably fucking up their relationship in the process.

I love him, this is crazy, how much of this is him trying to runaway and how much is this him not trusting himself to fix things and how much is it just him trusting Erik?

i keep trying to put into words my exact thoughts about the sitch but there really is a lot for one issue aintit... oh charles you and your brain...

#snap chats #thats why we have tag rambles AHAHA #ok so to tackle things one at a time charles ultimately deciding to stay in space despite his expressed want to return to earth #obviously it was when lilandra pointed out if her sister took charge of the shi'ar then the universe- earth included- would be in peril #charles notes his position as a losing one: whichever choice he makes he loses #he goes to earth then the universe could be at stake/he stays in space he loses his kids #of course charles COULD just put his faith in the starjammers but is that a risk he wants to take ? evidently not #charles' reoccurring flaw is he's willing to sacrifice personal relationships for the greater perceived good #even lilandra acknowledges this- that charles' homesickness for earth was an inevitability just as she is indebted to protecting the stars #so now his ruptured relationship with illyana and co- esp right after comforting a split illyana last issue #we've seen charles act more coldly/rashly when he's about to lose people (i think of his first death with the og5 mostly)#i mean it's a key part to charles' chara that he doesn't favor mind controlling others and im sure he has the same regard for his students #he's aware of the damage it can do and in this instance- for one reason or another- he orders it to be done regardless #im sure he does this as a form of defense: if his kids are upset with him they won't feel too bad about losing him and it'll be less painfu #obviously we still see sam wish charles farewell and wish for him to come back soon but yk.. worthy attempt..#and it's not as if charles wants them to hate him ENTIRELY.. he's still touched by sam's goodbye no.... fickle man he is..#i dont think charles is totally afraid to confront the og5- its what made him want to return to earth with the nms initially #tho again.. could his decision to stay in the stars be influenced by that? that maybe he ISNT prepared to confront them like he thought?#who's to say... not me i dont got that psych degree yet..#erik being charles' trusted confidant definitely made his decision easier on top of that: i mean is he needed if he has a substitute #i think charles DOES wholly trust erik: charles really doesnt approach his x-men half heartedly. from his pov ofc #if he didn't genuinely believe in erik's potential he wouldn't have picked him; hes a comforting thought when charles decides to depart #'although i'm gone erik understands me and my goals enough to continue my work as good as i would have so i have nothing to worry about'#which. yk. makes the whole White King thing kinda awkward VJAELVJEAKL charles you fool #i have no idea how this saga ends though... tbh im only on ish 45 of NM i just read 50 and 51 to get context for this ask #so i can only wait and see how this saga turns out... once i finish reading house of m/secret invasion stuff jvLKEJKA #idk im tired and rambling dont pay attention to me.. ramblin bout charles' brain is a good day for me regardless if i make sense jVLAJ

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arsenicflame · 2 years ago

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izzy hands with misplaced resentment towards jim because of the association with losing limbs in the night out of his control

#& the whole begging them to kill him thing and having that denied feeling like its taking away his autonomy in the situation #idk its something #i just think exploring complex emotions is really interesting like. obviously jim was doing it for his own good #and its not that izzy doesn't understand that. but hes been held down in the night and had things taken from him before #and its hard not to associate that sometimes #& maybe you can't be angry at the person you really want to be angry at but you need to be angry at someone #and maybe its easier to be angry at the people trying to help you #nyxtalks #ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd s2 spoilers #izzy hands #israel hands #jim jimenez

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psychopomp-namine · 4 months ago

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#mine musings #not tagging etc etc #i just want to ramble (this is about lc)#do people feel like lg's character is incomplete without a backstory?#like a “past” before he met cxs #i feel like it's a nice-to-have thing (wouldn't be opposed to it) but i don't think his character requires it to be fully fleshed out yknow #his character is strongly defined by his role in the narrative because that's how stories work. but like #i do feel like we've learned a lot about him that would've stayed constant even if cxs isn't in his life though #like idk i just don't understand calling him a plot device i guess #like would he be more interesting if it was revealed he got attached to cxs so easily bc he had some kind of unhappy childhood or whatever?#i mean if it's executed well. sure?#personallyyyyyyy i think it's already compelling if he's just like. some guy #he's just some nerdy kid who made a friend and felt grief and loss for the first time and couldn't take it #like. that's compelling to me. unhappy childhood would be interesting too but like. there's nothing wrong with lg being just Some Guy™ imo😭#maybe it's bc i like the idea that lg could be anyone #and what i mean is like. that could be me. that could be you #all it takes is to find a love and friendship you're not willing to let go of. and as S1 has shown many clients have the same regrets #the only difference is that they never had the ability to change the past like lg did #like cxs said in YE1. everyone would want to have the ability to change the past. it's human nature #and i like the idea that the love and grief lg went through isn't something that's unique to him #like obviously it's unique in the sense that he makes it worse for himself with time loops #but like. the love he experienced could also happen to me. could also happen to you #same with the grief #i'm realizing as i'm rambling here that THIS is actually what i love about lg's character #now i kinda wish i didn't hide this in the tags lmao but whatever #i didn't want to invite debates over this and like if director li wants to give him a backstory that's fine #but the way lg is right now. i don't think he's “just a plot device”#and i don't think he's an incomplete character #i'll accept any backstory but god i really wish he stays being just Some Guy who loved and lost and continues to love and lose #because it's human and normal and everyone goes through it

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heartbeetz · 1 month ago

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Writing a little "KᎥtt and Lyan talk about gender" fic sounds very interesting to me for a number of reasons but I feel like it would just end up being "yeah the car is a little bit transphobic at first but only bc he literally doesn't know any better." Which I think kinda isn't what anybody wants to read bc it sucks.

#I am rotating it in my mind though #like. early in lyan and michael's relationship kᎥtt is like ''hey michael btw there's something I think you should know''#bc he sees it as potential deception which could mean lyan is a threat or whatever #(they for sure didn't program him to know about trans people)#and he's like very invasive about it with both michael and lyan #but is IMMEDIATELY super understanding when lyan talks with him about it #bc like oh yeah Obviously. that makes perfect sense actually.#comparing it to his own experiences as a machine that likes to be called he but is often called it by people who see him as a regular car #idk. it's just interesting to me.#but I feel like 1) I might do a shitty job trying to address stuff and 2) nobody wants to read thaaaaat #roz posts

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starpros-sunshine · 2 months ago

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Might be a hot take but I don't like the phrasing of "Yeah curly already got his punishment for his inaction" as if he deserved to end up like that because he made a mistake. I'm not saying he didn't do anything wrong quite the opposite actually had he just listened to Anya then yeah a lot could've been avoided and his compliance is a huge factor in why things went the way they did but idk I still don't think him ending up this severely disabled and hurt should be regarded as "Just punishment for his inaction". Leaves a bitter taste in my mouth I can't quite explain it but there's this weird undertone in that line of thought that just rubs me the wrong way

#very much a casual mouthwashing enjoyer but I've been seeing more of the fanworks online and thats just a sentiment I've noticed #there's nuance in the guy he's not a bad dude he just made the wrong choices #and then he had to suffer the consequences of his being too complicit at the wrong time #still doesn't mean he deserved being whats pretty muxh just flesh and bones anymore #idk it just sounds like #him ending up so badly mutilated is fine because he did something wrong he deserves the dosability because we all know #disability is a punishment for those who made bad decisions and a tragedy for those who didn't and yes there is nothing weird about #attaching morality to your physical wellbeing not at all #might delete later #i mean obviously i get the poetry behind it i feel i should add i do understand the narrative irony #i just don't really like the wording of the whole just punishment and he deserved jt angle

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galindatopland · 3 months ago

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ngl im sorry but i now hope it just keeps getting worse like killing eve level of incomprehensibly bad just cause i want those idiots who act like this is a brilliant genius show with flawless writing pacing and plot to eat their words eventually

#is it mean yes perhaps but oh my god ppl will watch #- and i am saying this as someone deeply attached to the characters. cried in the shower abt them many a time -#a silly horror network show that is very obviously leaning too far into sensational #with writers forgetting about key things that inform our understanding of the characters (such as forgetting taissa is a vegetarian)#and be like if you dont like this ep or how they killed off this character or have any criticism of this show #youre Stupid and need to use your brain #like please find something else to be proud of yourself of rather than enjoying this tv show #yellowjackets spoilers #maybe idk anymore

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sirenofstyxx · 9 months ago

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This isnt new or original at all but i gotta say some of my favorite characters are always those absolutely awful charismatic bastard villians who in fiction I enjoy but if I met in real live I would punt into the stars. Bonus points when they get their inevitable and extremely satisfying comeuppance and get their ass handed to them

#bill cipher #william afton #dr robotnik #good trio of these kinda guys #there are of course more #and this isnt like #anything new or original #as i said #but i think it should be reiterated #especially in an era when like people really struggle understanding that liking and enjoying a villain and depicting them as fun or likeable #does not in fact mean that you support anything that they are about #or that you wouldnt either punt them into oblivion or just quietly skulk away #idk its wild to me ive seen so many people getting angry about people liking bad characters #and obviously there are nuances and such but again we must recall fictional characters arent real #but yeah characters like these are like fucked up barbie dolls to me #fun to play with and pose and dress up and also somehow quite satisfying to rip their head off or watch their head get ripped off #i think the joker could also qualify but hes more dicey bc people cannot be normal about him #i think joker fanboys might be why this opposition to people enjoying villains comes from #welcome back to posts where an essay is hidden among my tags #i like the format it lets me ramble #uhh there are definitely more guys in here #the joker #and dont get me wrong i dislike certain villians too and it sometimes squicks me out to see people being so obessed with them even healthily #but like i just keep it to myself cause thats a me thing #belos definitely fits into this but only sometimes for me #sometimes i just get irritated seeing him but again #me problem therefore keep it to myself #this is so chronically online but yeah #jekyll and hyde #victor frankenstein

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iowafashionweekbegins · 5 months ago

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"all of us are like shinji ikari, people hate him because theyre reminded of themselves" speak for yourself 😭 personally i do not see myself in a 14 year old boy who sees girls his age as stand-ins for unmet social, emotional, and sexual needs, and who willingly commits physical and sexual violence against them as a punishment for feeling personally slighted by them, but you do you i guess??

#shinjis story/character arc is one of the most blatant cautionary tales in media and people are still like #''well yes he sexually assaulted asuka but she was mean to him and he wasnt always like this and hes just a neurodivergent little boy!''#''shinji went through so much...'' so did asuka but she didnt go jack off in front of a comatose shinji or attempt to strangle him to death #or attempt to kiss him while he was asleep or ogle his body alongside her friends etc etc etc #at some point youve got to realize that while he was definitely abused and neglected he knows this behavior is wrong and does it anyway #he rejects misatos (creepy) advances because he understands what consent (& lack of it) is. but all of that is out the window w asuka #so no. i dont sympathize with him. anyone who was ever bullied or harassed in school should know that ''theyre just a kid''#is always one of the most annoying dismissals of obviously dangerous behavior that exists in the world.#idk its just concerning to me that people claim that everyone is a bit like shinji as a dismissal of the hurtful things he did #and that it says a lot more about you than it does about me #evie.txt ♡#much to say about evangelion

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