#But again. idk. truly do not know
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Visit Tumblr Blog
Explore Tumblr blogs with no restrictions, modern design and the best experience.
Last Seen Tumblr Blogs
Fun Fact
Tumblr has a 66 index score for customer satisfaction in the US.
Text
Sometimes I remember Prost has said Senna told him things that he promised to never repeat to anyone and I go “Hm.”
#like Hmmmmmmmmm#okay#i mean. obviously no real idea what that could possibly be about#my best guess is something to do with how senna felt about racing. as a whole or at the time. a very personal side of things#something he felt prost could understand probablyyy#But again. idk. truly do not know#love that prost will mention he Knows Stuff and then refuse to elaborate#i respect how adamant he is on taking it to the grave#even though i am unbearably curious#because what do you meannnnn you developed a close relationship with your rival over the course of six months#and this relationship was so good he felt comfortable sharing things about himself#that you would later not even reveal to your own kin#because it’s something for just between the two of you. whatever it is.#and only months before then you and this rival would barely interact with each other…..#it’s crazy. it’s just. crazy.#alain prost#ayrton senna#asap
24 notes
·
View notes
Note
being a comic charles xavier fan is like being in the trenches like yeah we know he sucks! idk why they demonize people who like morally grey/villainous characters and sometimes they judge him based off of stuff that was retconned long ago that stemmed from harmful stereotypes about disabled people at the time 💀
i think my favorite part of the Comic Charles Enjoyer experience is sometimes seeing people act as though he personally went into their house and shot their dog or something
#snap chats#i suppose this is in reference to recent twitter events vjAELKEAJKL#like i get not liking a character that's perfectly fine to do but the rage people approach charles with#I Repeat you would think he did in fact shoot your dog jVAELKVJEAK LIKE IS IT THAT SERIOUS#BUT NO THIS IS LEGIT MY FAVE THING CAUSE ITS SO FUNNY#like beyond having to make the Ninety disclaimers that 'yes ik charles has done bad things no i dont approve everything' blahblah#i do love just. going on twitter and he wont even be involved in the convo at all and someone will just wish death on him#LIKE PLEASE HE ISNT EVEN HEEERRE its so funny#like Again out of all the charas ive enjoyed over the years ive never seen such a response to a chara like charles its so funny#you'd think he does some Truly Evil Diabolical shit every time he shows up in a comic but like ... surely theres been worse ...#idk. i havent read enough comics to fully witness The Evils Of Charles Xavier so maybe im just not in the loop yet#all i know is ive talked about this with my bro and a friend of mine and ultimately all i can say is Its Really Funny
30 notes
·
View notes
Text
my new OC: cempaka!
she is based on the story/universe that my friend @haydardotjpg's OCs indra and yuwei exist in! pls go checkout haydar's art he is amazing!! his ocs can be found more easily on his ig but if you're lazy this is his oc indra (cempaka's one-sided love interest) and yuwei (indra's fated lover)
also, cempaka means "magnolia" in malay!! (she gets a flower name bc my name is lilly which is also flower c:)
bonus first iteration under the cut!
i accidentally had "poinsettia" flower in mind when i did this iteration instead of an actual magnolia, hence the color scheme. but yeah, this is as self-insert as it gets LOL like she's literally MEEEEEE but still very different and i love her as she is <3
#my art#original character#oc#oc art#art#im in love with her actually#she has 4 brothers all named after flowers#mawar kekwa orkid and melati#not me using google translate literally on the fly i hope im not being culturally insensitive 😭#but anyway they lost their parents at a young age so she was raised by her brothers#shes the youngest by far tho by like 9 years from her next closest brother#mawar is the oldest hes like 40 a very important Leader Of People so he is not very present in her life#kekwa is a doctor and 38 and he travels often for work so he is also not very present but he visits sometimes#orkid and melati are twins theyre both 30#orkid is a scholar and on track to being a professor at a prestigious uni#melati is traveling the world doing soul searching#cempaka is 21 she is literally a baby and her brothers send her back money but shes mostly alone#so she joins a traveling dance troupe and she gets really good at dancing#she meets indra while on the road dancing and performing and she is SMITTEN#like shes just head over heels in love with this man because hes so warm and inviting and he fills a void in her life#he makes her feel so incredibly seen and not alone and the feeling is addicting she cant get enough#ok idk most of the details bc i havent read haydars full story BUT#basically to my understanding yuwei and indra are separated for a while#and cempaka knows up front that indra is in love with yuwei like hes very honest with her about this and she appreciates it#but she still wants a chance because indras the only person in the world that has ever made her feel truly seen and loved#so she tries to be with him to ease her loneliness but it breaks her heart whenever he misses yuwei openly#also AGAIN listen im trying to basically write fanfic for a story that doesnt exist LOLL#HAYDAR IF YOURE READING THIS PLS WRITE UR STORY LMFAO
89 notes
·
View notes
Text
do you think the reason agatha’s trial felt weird is because she was the only one who did not actually buy into the mythos of the road since she knew the truth? like that was why no perspective change and all the other reasons why people thought it was a fake trial
#agatha all along#aaa spoilers#txt#i really liked the idea behind how the witches road came to be#like showing her and nicky coming up with the lyrics and everything#but i felt like there was a lot of these last two episodes that felt weird or jarring#i think that’s partly the fault of it being such a short run time for the whole show in general (tbh that’s probably like most of it)#but there were just also weird choices? idk#like jen’s big declaration about protecting them in honor of Lilia or w.e and then just.. flying off to nowhere??#or the way Both billy and agatha kept switching how they felt about each other with like every sentence#I did really like her thing where she helped him get tommy a body though#and her and rios vibes were off too. like it felt like there should have been a little more build up before they fought after the road?#like when they were still talking on the road it felt like they could have done more with it#just like jen getting her powers back could have been more#or billy standing up for agatha could have been more#billy’s homecoming and attempting to banish agatha too#I liked that his parents were there but it was so quick and then he just.. leaves again?? no problem?? and I guess they’re fine with it now#like it felt like the things they did well. they did really well#while everything else felt.. idk.. kinda flat?#which honestly was the same feeling I had after watching agatha’s trial episode#honestly this show need at least another 3 or 4 episodes if not more#and I know people are going to make this all about agatha and rio but i really don’t think that’s the issue#i do think the story could have benefited more from showing more of their actual backstory or a few more interactions with them or just#like i said earlier done more with what they had. again that scene on the road before rio dips could have been used way more effectively#and I don’t mean in like having them be soft or lovey like I know a lot of people wanted (never be against that) but I don’t think it was#needed.. but Something was??#i feel like overall what everyone went through on the road didn’t actually truly effect them or change them?#like jen left. agatha and rio were like back to liek the road never happened. everyone else but billy is dead#i think the only person who was truly changed was maybe billy?#which makes the whole journey feel so unsatisfying? like things could still have ended the same while still showing them changed? idk
47 notes
·
View notes
Note
Ngl it’s hard to enjoy this show (mainly for the characters) because not only have they literally lost the plot as they’ve gone on with the seasons (literally just focus on the existing characters) but also it’s certainly being catered to a certain audience, I know this conversation has been had, not a great revelation, but like. I genuinely wish it’d been cancelled instead, it’s poisoned too much
If it wasn’t so utterly depressing, it would be almost poetic how in the first two/three seasons the cobra kai dojo and philosophy was clearly a metaphor for the alt-right pipeline, and now the show itself has become a part of that pipeline lmao
#horrifying truly!#it is really sad tho. like i still maintain it was good in the beginning…idk what the fuck happened#i know ive speculated a million different reasons why things ended up this way but ultimately i just do not get it#and yeah at least if it had ended with youtube i would still be able to fondly watch those three seasons. now the entire show is tainted fo#me. like especially after this season i will never be able to rewatch the early seasons again bc they are just completely ruined#anonymous#asks#ck negativity
28 notes
·
View notes
Text
Do any of y'all have really subtle (or maybe even not so subtle) tattoos related to the fetish/kink?? Because man I am THINKING about it...
#recently found out a friend has a SUPER subtle one and I was like whoa...#I think it would be so fucking cool as long as it wasn't TOO obvious ya know#I haven't gotten any tattoos yet but I do intend atp to only get things done that are TRULY meaningful to me ya know#and like? this fet has been here all my life and has only become more and more relevant and important as years go by.#if that wouldn't be worth a permanent mark on my body then feel free to call me crazy lol#but again I don't think I would want it to be...too on the nose (pun intended)#I mean I think something like a feather is pretty and subtle but still connected? but idk I feel like I could get more creative than that!!!#anyways if any of you have one I think you are so fucking cool and I would love to know what you did#it will not be my first tattoo but SOMEDAY I WILL get one for the fet. TRUST#snzblr#snz kink
34 notes
·
View notes
Text
Do you think Peter was the inconspicuous marauder that everyone looked over and didn't realise was in the room even before he became an animagus? Plain, bumbling, shy Peter who was actually eavesdropping on everyone and figuring out how to use every bit of info to his advantage.
And then after he could transform into a rat he became an absolute master at gathering Intel and spying for his friends he started to feel useful and talented and appreciated, so much so that he began to think that was all he was good at. His entire sense of self-worth wrapped up in sneaking and spying.
#this is not a sympathy post#but i do wish we got to know more about his story#did he ever truly love his friends?#is he an example of a decent person who makes hideous decisions in wartime?#or was he rotten from the beginning?#was he always a rat?#or did he become a rat due to environment?#animagus' are supposed to be representative of the inner wizard#so im leaning towards always a rat#but rats can be sweet and kind and loving#so where along the way did he start to embody all the negative traits#idk its late and im thinking about the marauders again#mwpp#peter pettigrew
35 notes
·
View notes
Text
years ago i remember someone saying about dave strider that either he’s gay or he’s bisexual but deep down too misogynistic to actually have a fulfilling romantic relationship with a woman. anyway. this is how i see dean winchester
#i truly do not think dean as we know him could ever be happy longterm romantically with a girl#whether that’s because he’s gay or because of a mix of mommy issues and deep rooted misogyny. who knows#maybe both#hes sexually attracted to women in canon for sure but#sexuality’s complex. honestly he’s gay to me#coming out as gay dean truther#then again like. Can i really see him settling down romantically with a guy either#not really.#am i a gay dean truther. i dont fucking know. his problems are too complex for me to talk about in the tags of this post#oliver talks#spn#dean winchester#supernatural#also#with dave it’s like. he means well hes not an awful misogynist but re like. his treatment of jade. him being into her isn’t actually him#being into Her as so much as it is him being into the idea of this girl he can protect#what’s that line. where he’s like ‘jade would probably just be a liability if she got it in her head she wanted to take le down’ or somethin#idk i don’t go here anymore. but#anyway that’s what deans like with lisa he isnt actually in love with her he just likes the idea of the family she symbolises
46 notes
·
View notes
Text
hopefully this full moon bullshit ends soon so I can go back to being comfortable with my aloof disposition and total detachment from human life instead of being overly upset that 'I don't have close friends anymore/at all' and 'wah wah wah I'm severely, unhealthily lonely'
#bee blabs#fkn get over urself bee ffs#u know u can't have or maintain friends in the first place#which is exactly why u have no close friends#and then whenever u do get them u either rely on them too much or they eventually move on#look I don't think I was made to have friends#I'm a million different people to everyone ik#there's so many faces the stranger can wear and I try all of them on without even thinking#I withhold so much all the time on instinct#there's no wonder no one can get close to me#and it's not like I can just let ppl in like some kinda secret club#u gotta have a quality and if u don't have it#I'll never be truly me around u#and that's shit.#and then sometimes I just disappear without warning#and u never hear from me unless u contact me first#bc i'm so used to doing my own thing and being by myself#and it's not like I forget my friends but when I'm so far in my bubble I forget other ppl exist#or even care abt me for that matter#idk man ik there's something horribly wrong with me#but all I can do and all I've known how to do is retreat into myself and hide#do I prevent myself from being loved ?#maybe I do but I can't help my own fkn reflexes#like I said I need this full moon over so I can be indifferent abt shit again
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
Maybe I'll fuck around and get a creative writing degree who knows
#Ive Wanted to Go Back to School For A While TBH But I Cant Find A Different Path That TRULY Appeals to Me#And That I Dont Find Interest In Or Disinterest In Thanks to My Mother LMAO#I Went First For Psychology and She Demoralized Me So Hard I Dropped Out. And Then Later She Encouraged Me to#Go For An Accounting Degree. And Like Yeah I Like Numbers and Accounting Stuff But It's Not Something#I See Myself Doing For the Rest of My Life Yaknow? and Like. Creative Writing Is the One Thing Im Good at and KNOW Im Good At#Like Theres Always Room for Improvement Obvs But I Think I Have Spent a Long While Making Myself At Least Good#IDK I Think Im Ready to Be In An Academic Environment Again I Love My Writing Groups But#alex has the floor
43 notes
·
View notes
Text
Honestly the worst thing about being raised by and around professors is that I can't really do the whole students bitching about professors thing even when I mostly agree with it, because my whole life I have been hearing the professor's side of the story. Every time someone talks about how ridiculous mandatory attendance or participation is there's a part of me that starts loudly protesting about how actually being in class is really important for learning, and it must be so hugely frustrating for the professor when students just don't show up to your class half the time and then when they do show up they're playing sudoku on their computer.
#dylan says things#and I say this as someone who historically has not been great about attendance due to things both in and outside of my control#and I know disabilities are a factor for a lot of people and I'm not saying they shouldn't be accommodated.#but I've had professors who have done truly so much to make it possible to attend their class. like you can go in person and on zoom#and a lotta wiggle room for making up missed classes#and people will still complain about it#and most of the time these things are only like 5-10% of your grade#and at a certain point it's like dude you're literally paying to go to school#and now you're complaining that you have to go to school and do school things#if you stop giving them all your money they will stop asking you do the thing you're paying to do#and again I am not exempt from this getting to my morning class is fucking impossible a lot of the time#and that sudoku thing in the main post was absolutely a self-callout#but like. idk. Professors are not evil they are people who are trying to do their jobs#anyways. I think I often find that my attitude towards academia is not aligned with my friends#like sometimes people will tell me that it doesn't really matter that much as long as i graduate#and I understand the sentiment and largely agree with it but also at the end of the day I want to like. Learn stuff and do good work#anyways. sorry for my weird rambling i just have a lot of thoughts about university that i never really share with anyone
14 notes
·
View notes
Text
some very very quick costume shorthands!
#&juliet#had the absolute luck of watching this live the other night and it was. truly amazing!!! aaah#rough character designs for the younger leads (excluding like the Grown adult duos..) because?? idk#this is how it always starts. once the character designs start getting simplified like this that's when it all begins#which is hmmm timing but i really can't shut up about this musical it was so so fun. absolute vibes and energy#made me laugh and cry and was such an Experience. i adore them all but may specifically made me sob at some parts dfjkldfh#lots of thoughts! but one of the favs is how they wrote it so the existing songs and actions fit so well.#like in a rhyming bit they had frankie accept a drink and then the song was like ''drink in hand'' and i was all !!!!!!#also maybe it's local censorship? but there wasn't the kisses.. they replaced it w kissing hands and then holding hands#which is like a cute nod to the ''hand to hand holy palmers kiss' or smth but also maybe two guys doing that would not have made it past :/#oh my god i. the way rnj parallels the shakespeare duo... whdskjfhgh. may + not being a Girl kdjhgf. frankie and may. aaagh.#angelique being so so badass. i . the speech about Gender by anne and the Proposal by angelique both made the whole theatre cheer love that#also rotating stage lives in my mind rent free i ADORE the set holy moly.. also also the actors were so good. also the Projections.#also the music and costumes and special effects and aerial moments. and the ensemble. and the choreo#also the cast is so talented. and pretty. and the whole confidence part vs the vulnerability of some bits... whshjfgjkl. hhh#im just listing stuff now but it was so vibes. what an experience ever. it's also shot me directly into 14-years-old again so#spent the morning alone vibing to the soundtrack intensely... i just... sometimes things hold special places in your heart idk!!!#i don't know what to do with these designs though... like the show is such a lovely Spectacle but also idk where to branch out by myself no#there's so much to Absorb again and again. i get the feeling any true work from this i would do in a form of an animatic though.. oops#tldr? 1. &juliet very good just as itself 2. we have History 3. i got to see it live which always propels me into bonkers over musicals!#so so rough but i needed to get smth out and . whatever. an art blog is an art blog. back to hiatus now i think#<reminder to myself: this is essentially an artchive.. there's no quality control if you don't want it! have fun!! ily>
72 notes
·
View notes
Text
I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently
#facebook always does that 'here's a post from this day 8 years ago' thing. and I see old comments interacting#with people and it's so like.. OOOOO~~ where are they now?? what's going on? how much have they changed as people?#how much are they the same? this is fascinating. i should contact them!!' but then it's like... take that to it's logical conclusion though#you would contact them and then IF they even responded it would take you 80 years to respond and then they would#think there was something wrong or that you were trying to be insulting or something. To contact anyone I need to include an 85 page#disclaimer of all of my social issues & mental illness things. 'If i take 3 weeks to reply I promise it has nothing to do with u' etc lol#THIS is why more people need to be into phone calls/voice calls/some form of audio real time communication/etc.#I think one of the main things that's hard about messaging through text for me is it's so unscheduled and open ended#(plus it takes forever if you're talking about anything in detail and gets very long very quickly)#because like you can send a message and then just get a reply whenever. and then you're expected to reply back whenever#so it's like you never know when the response will come or when a new obligation to reply can come up? so it's like this sudden thing with#no outline?? if that makes sense. whereas a phone call is very like 'hello let's schedule a call from 10am - 2pm on thursday'. And you know#EXACTLY when the interaction will start and EXACTLY when it will end and you can plan around it in your schedule easily.#I have the reverse thing of a lot of people (how people don't pick up phone calls/hate calls/only text)#I would literally talk on the phone with a stranger. I would have a discord voice chat with someone I barely know.#if someone I hardly even remember from elementary school asked to have a voice call with me out of nowhere I would do it.#but if a stranger MESSAGED me?? or someone I barely know sent me a TEXT or something?? I will never reply probably#It's just too vague and weird. and you can't read voice tone over text. and the interaction could last forever with no clear end#point and etc. etc. But a call is like. set. established. clear boundaries. you can read the flow of conversation better. rapport. etc. etc#I get that I guess people feel more anonymous or distanced over text?? but you can have fake phone numbers on the computer. or do like disc#rd calls. or zoom without a camera or etc. etc. Also the distance that's present in text is BAD distance because it just means that tone is#not conveyed properly and you will never truly get a sense of the person's conversational vibe or mannerisms or how well you really click.#ANYWAY ghgjh...... I'm so so so interested in concepts of like.. How did that one kid I used to talk to in elementary school#but then they moved away in 5th grade - how did they end up? what are they doing now?? etc. etc. Like despite the severe social anhedonia#and general lack of connection with others I'm just really fascinated in like.. idk. the human development of it all and like#the concept of how we're actually a million different people through the course of our lives ever evolving in different iterations and etc.#PLUS again. i love nostalgia. sometimes old peple you know might remember a shared memory or can tell you about something you forgot#or etc. like it's SUCH A COOL THING in CONCEPT but I am too socially inept generally speaking lol. which people I still talk to today are#familiar with my 'phone call once every few months' communication style. but strangers would just be like... wtf. And I don't blame them#Sure I literally cannot change the physical health + brain issues i have - but also I know enough to not put others through that lol
14 notes
·
View notes
Text
being in my brain right now is like being in a tank that is constantly filling with water and the only way to drain the water to make sure u dont drown is to play zelda
#every day while i am at work the tank is filling............................#today is my friday tho so like. can't wait for 2 days of no other obligations >:)#bel speaks#i might get silly and actually beat totk. and stop procrastinating doing that. haha.#i played the first half of this game when it first came out and then didnt play again for a year#so i dont remember anything i did before this point#you know what that means.................#replay once i finish#this is EXACTLY what happened to me with botw. and EVERY zelda game ive ever played. i've talked about this before#idk the game just needs to marinate a bit. it's like brief big obsession and then i take a break.#and then out of the blue i am trampled by The Hyperfixation#of all of my fandoms. truly the one that has come back to me the most. i think i need a loz tattoo. i think it's time
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
my cancelled-able trait from the queer community would be that i really apparently love messy endings. i love u happy endings and i also love u such sad, messy, ambiguous endings . . . i love u endings where u have this weird pit in the bottom of your stomach because you know that there's love here but u have no idea what to do with it and u just have to deal with the fact that someone is profoundly affecting your life and you're not gonna get closure from it anytime soon . . . i love u queer love stories where it's really just "u don't always get to see the sunshine and rainbows at the end of it . . . sometimes all that's left is just one big question mark and the quiet hope that they get their shit together" . . .
#caroline talks#don't get me wrong. i love u happy endings. esp when it comes to queer love stories#but i also just. love endings where it's just like. well. u DON'T know for certain whether the characters#are truly going to ride off into the sunset together.#the only thing u know for certain is that they love each other and that they're going to have to grapple with that forever.#maybe it's also just bc like. idk. i took too many film classes and so my head's forever stuck#on this one essay about how some really happy endings feel lifeless.#like how in some ending shots. the characters look like they've had their happy ending. but there's also some weird unease and confusion#and it's like. well yeah. because for every happy moment u get in life. u are still already thinking 'well what's next. what now.'#which is fascinating to me. but also me @ me: god maybe u can just be happy and it's not that deep.#but also. i do love the wonderful ambiguity of just. 'there is so much more to live. so much more to do.'#and i guess it's not just for queer love stories. i think a lot about the ending of my mister.#with lee ji an and park dong hoon walking away from each other but they're happy. u have no idea how their relationship will pan out but u#do know that they love each other.#or like. columbus. with jin and casey. they hug each other and thank each other for being in the other's lives.#and jin says goodbye to casey and casey says goodbye to jin and u have no idea if they'll see each other again. but u know they love each#other so very much. even if they'd only known each other for a second.#or like. beginners. anna and oliver love each other so much and u get this sense that. they're still a little bit uneasy/nervous about how#the rest of their lives are going to go. but they'll try.#or. god. the swearing jar.#the last shot. i think about it a lot.#there is love!!! but u don't always know how the rest of it is going to pan out!!! u just know that it'll pan out somehow!
44 notes
·
View notes
Text
not to bring tiktok drama on tumblr but like every time a ‘scandal’ comes out with one of these ‘production companies’ that make fan films i always hope we’re finally gonna discuss how they professionalize something that should be an hobbyist endeavor… and yet every single time i’m disappointed.
#like I know we’ve been talking about it here on tumblr and i remember seeing like one or two videos on tt about it#but other than that creators really don’t seem to be engaging critically with the impact that the very nature of what they’re doing has#and look i truly do love the art that some of the people involved in the project make#like arone is truly one of the most talented cosplayers i know#ethan is an amazing actor and I’ve followed him since before he was even in the marauders#dorian is a great writer and idk the others as well but I’m sure they are all great artists#((naming the just cause i feel like being vague would be worse in this case))#and i do believe they engaged with the project with the best of intentions#without knowing or trying to afford grace on past controversy#and it truly is a horrible predicament to have your work be tainted like that for something you had no control over#but like i do think we should be questioning the very idea of how this fanfilms have been made is inherently a problem#like fanfilms are essentially fanfiction on camera#so as long as a few cosplayers want to get together with their iphones write a script and shoot at the local park I don’t have a problem#but if you are putting in place a product that somehow requires you to fundraise consistently for two years then I have a problem with it#ESPECIALLY IF YOU ARE SELLING THE SCRIPT TO DO SO#cause even if that script hadn’t been ai generated#that script is fanfiction and you do. not. sell. fanfiction.#seriously like… do we need to go over our abc again?#like fanart and cosplayers are a bit different in the sense that people sell fanart/do commissions and they can be professional cosplayers#but for any other fanmade project that requires you to put pen to paper (or keyboard to chatgpt ig)#you need to be engaging with several ethical questions regarding any exchange of money#and personally i don’t think that there’s been engagement with those ethical reflections#and this isn’t about any of the people involved and not even about mischief productions specifically#it’s about a wider issue in how we have been collectively normalizing a way of doing things that should not be normal#and like yes star using ai and being overall not good is bad but like can we talk about EVERYTHING ELSE please
19 notes
·
View notes