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sanjarka · 19 days ago
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The flip side of this post about the movies contributing to the perception of Katniss being this super stoic emotionless individual is that they also caused the perception of Peeta being this super soft puppy dog with an open heart. Yes, Peeta really loves Katniss and is unconditionally devout to her while being affectionate and respectful, but he’s not really as straightforward and open about emotions as the movies try to make him seem. To the point where neither Katniss or Peeta ever directly say the words “I love you”to each other during the books. And taking away those rougher details about him in the movies are what caused this image of Peeta.
Peeta’s main reason for revealing the feelings he kept to himself for 11 years has nothing to do with wanting a relationship with Katniss. It’s a manipulative tool to help her survive and seem more attractive to sponsors. Peeta even plays it off as a bluff right after Katniss pushes him into the urn.
Peeta has some self-worth issues that cause him to get defensive when he’s talked about. He gets irritated when Katniss suggests he won’t understand certain things but he also gets irritated in cases where she suggests that he has a genuine chance in the games (how snippy he gets when she tells Haymitch about the wrestling, and him mockingly calling her sweetheart when she says giving up isn’t a way to think and to focus on staying alive).
In the books Peeta is also responsible for the distance between him and Katniss after the games. He’s the one who acts icy and tells Katniss to let him know when she figures everything out. The movies have him saying he’ll act less wounded if she stops treating him like he’s wounded, but the books have him apologizing for acting wounded and wanting to stop so they can be friends.
Peeta is great at talking but not great at communicating. When Katniss tells him to wake her up when he has nightmares he says they’re mainly about losing her and seeing her alive helps. Now I don’t think Peeta is lying and Katniss definitely does help him and she is in all his nightmares. But based on the paintings he shows Katniss, there are other scary things in his nightmares that he’s sidestepping discussing.
Peeta really doesn’t ask anyone and just makes his own plan for Haymitch, Katniss, and him training like Careers. All while having the warmer side of his personality take a backseat in favor of a perfectionist coach.
And just like with Katniss, taking away these small details from Peeta erases all the nuance of his character. Being kind and super loving is always valuable, but to be kind when you’re great at lying and manipulating? When you’re from a very angry household and are shown to bottle up emotions? It shows the effort Peeta puts in to choosing to be a good person and partner. It’s also why Katniss and Peeta’s relationship seems so equal in the books, they’re both so good at taking care of each other but so bad at talking about the more wounded parts of themselves that were there before the games even started. Unlike the movies which makes them seem like an emotionless girl and a puppy dog boy waiting in the wings happily because he doesn’t have anything else to him.
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sanjarka · 26 days ago
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1. A Primer for the Small Weird Loves - Richard Siken / 2. The Crane Wife - CJ Hauser / 3. Automat - Edward Hopper / 4. Red Doc> - Anne Carson / 5. Melancholy - Edvard Munch / 6. The Village (2004) / 7. So We Must Meet Apart - Gabrielle Bates and Jennifer S. Cheng
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sanjarka · 27 days ago
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i'm a firm believer that katniss had been harboring a little crush on peeta long before the reaping and that peeta, though infatuated with her, was not yet in love with katniss during the beginning of their first games.
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sanjarka · 1 month ago
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sanjarka · 1 month ago
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GOD people misunderstanding the thg ending will never not piss me off. uhm... actually... the movies didn't show how sad and depressed and traumatized peeta and katniss are. they will never feel joy and everything sucks. NO?? literally how did you get to that conclusion. like how. and the movies suck, of course they suck, but in the opposite way. why do we always go even further from the actual point when criticizing the movies. the issue is the absence of joy not too much of it (and not only in the epilogue). why do you think that people are allowed to be only one thing. happy or sad. they can be both. most of the time they are both. so in the same way katniss and peeta can grieve what they lost and still be in love with the life they got to have. with each other and their children. you're so boring if you think otherwise.
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sanjarka · 1 month ago
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i just need one line and i'll be happy. just one mention of katniss's parents. pls.
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sanjarka · 1 month ago
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me reading my own posts: hmm..  That’s an embarrassing thing 2 post on the internet 
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sanjarka · 1 month ago
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when i was younger this whole ''no romantic or sexual experience" thing made me feel deeply unlovable and it still does but in a different way. now i've somehow convinced myself that i'm not supposed to desire anyone like that. like it's not meant for me. it's me who can't love now. not other people.
#feeling emo#no but i'm literally the problem cause it's not like i'm trying to ''put myself out there''#but it's too scary and i don't want to and i'm not ready and there's no time and i like the routine of being alone#i've had crushes before and they were strong and lasted honestly too long for being crushes#but that's too far away from now#and i always looked at myself as the girl who won't get the boy#the crush was always unrequited#i was okay with only looking cause it's not like there's anything other than that for a girl like me#living life in a larger body is truly not a kind experience#there's so many other things that made relationship and love scary for me but being fat is the biggest reason for not even trying#and they you talk to your skinny friends and hear their experience with men and it's so awful for the most part#and then you think well if they treat them that way how would i be treated#i just don't want to be hurt#or hurt someone else#i'm used to at looking at love from a distance and i'll live anyway#some days it just harder than others#like the hard part is that i feel like im doing something wrong#like im living life wrong like i shouldn't be this uncomfortable and scared#so often it happens that i just can't relate to other people my age#like im too serious and in my head to be fun and get drunk at parties#and to serious and in my head to be in love and be loved and be seen#they all have this more casual stance on romance and they'll make out with people in the dorm bathrooms but i can't do that#and i don't want to either#i'm slow and boring and it would probably take six months to prepare myself for a kiss#it all seems so big to me#lovely feeling we're having tonight#personal
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sanjarka · 2 months ago
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can i be so serious for one second. i fucking hate the theory that the mine explosion that killed katniss’s father wasn’t an accident.
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sanjarka · 2 months ago
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THERE'S ANOTHER IM GONNA LOSE IT
SO I WAS JUST MINDING MY BUSINESS READING NOTHING LIKE THE MOVIES LIKE ANY PERPETUALLY SINGLE PERSON WOULD AND JUST LIKE IN BETTER THAN THE MOVIES EACH CHAPTER BEGINS WITH A ROMANTIC QUOTE AND IMAGINE MY SURPRISE WHEN THE QUOTE THAT OPENED CHAPTER THIRTY FIVE WAS (and i quote lol) "YOU LOVE ME. REAL OR NOT REAL". LITERALLY DEAD.
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sanjarka · 2 months ago
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SO I WAS JUST MINDING MY BUSINESS READING NOTHING LIKE THE MOVIES LIKE ANY PERPETUALLY SINGLE PERSON WOULD AND JUST LIKE IN BETTER THAN THE MOVIES EACH CHAPTER BEGINS WITH A ROMANTIC QUOTE AND IMAGINE MY SURPRISE WHEN THE QUOTE THAT OPENED CHAPTER THIRTY FIVE WAS (and i quote lol) "YOU LOVE ME. REAL OR NOT REAL". LITERALLY DEAD.
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