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tricksteroftheheart · 2 months ago

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#cosmo dandys world #cosmo dandy's world #dandys world #dandy's world #i want cosmo. but unsure of which #toon is cute and the clothes look a little better but i dont like his shiny texture as much #twisted looks like he has fur but . hes twisted. which might make me sad LOL #idk. chat. what should i go with #i would get a custom plushie but i dont have that much money </3

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xxplastic-cubexx · 2 months ago

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chat i think im gonna be sick

(Powers of X #6)

#xmen #xmen comics #powers of x #charles xavier #snap scans #snap chats #moira stronger than me like ik why we here we're gonna die if not and so that is why she is stronger than me she is committing #i woulda kissed him in this moment too tho she and i are family on that front im afraid i do find him very cute #also. SIDE TANGENT. i loved the art before this of charles slowly processing the horrors of moiras mind ...#EXCELLENT art i must eat it at once #the most devious part of this is after i finished reading i went to go to my brother to talk about What I Read #and the second i pulled up like 'his sad eyes Brother im gonna be sick' he immediately quoted this page I HATE IT HERE #thats why they had to put that dome over charles' eyes so no one could look at his sad eyes anymore #this is in fact something i love and always love seeing but it still hurts i will not LIIIEEE #cant wait to read bout how this all goes horribly wrong ....#while my bro and i were talkin we were talkin bout other in-between stories an i wanna check those out at some point ...#maybe ill check my comic shop sometime in the future idk. for now im gonna throw up !!!!!!!!!!#i will simply spend tomorrow watching the rest of 92 im almost done with it. relatively speaking i will feel healed then probably #i got like two seasons left which is basically the same length as season 3 and then its onto 97 #thats just one season for now so ... should finish that quick ..#ok bye i have Being Sick to be

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sea-jello · 3 months ago

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hong kong miku,,,

#hopping on the trend jumpscare i’m from hong kong surprise #i haven’t seen that many hk mikus around #lowkey chat i think i kinda ate with this one #however i will say i am coloring in the dark so if any colors look off that’s why #and also i haven’t opened this program in literal months i jumped straight into this no warmup no nothing #miku is what pulls me out of art block apparently i was locked in for 5 hours STRAIGHT #someone needs to teach me how to paint properly holy #not sure how i feel about the bottom left one but that was a quick one anyways #i am from hk originally but i haven’t been back in years so i have no idea about the culture other than food and mirror #OKAY let me explain the context #street food is a big thing in hk and quick and easy things like fish balls egg waffles and like siu mai and wonton noodles are popular #back then people really would just squat down on the side of the road or right in front of the shop to eat it and go #but i don’t think anyone does that anymore city life and all that #ohh i should have done instant noodles breakfasts god i loved those #if anyones from hk if you go to the causeway bay mtr station exit that leads up to the big road near sogo. do they still sell siu mai there #that shit was BANGER i remember asking for them all the time #a good majority of parents in hk would get their daughters ears pierced as a baby something about them not feeling as much pain idk #that’s just what i was told #i used the neon for her friendly standard greeting cause i wanted to incorporate the neon signs somehow without actually drawing a whole bg #lots of neon signs in hk. i heard they had to take them down cause of light pollution which is sad but understandable #everyone got their shoes from dr kong. at least when i was younger they did #boy band is self explanatory. i heard they’re really popular my mom listens to them #oh i had her messing with her shoes cause hk people move FAST. you stop for one second and you get shoved #so like a fun little allusion #gave her black roots just for fun. she is violating every school uniform code possible #this is all based off of my memory by the way so like. anyone who knows this better than i do hit me up #hatsune miku #miku from my culture #jellos scribbles #i haven’t tag yapped in so long welcome back my love i missed you

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todayisafridaynight · 1 year ago

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journalists underestimate the magnitude of my addiction and how far i'll go for the bit

#snap chats #im lying i physically could not marathon this i got school LMAO BUT IMAGINE #my god speaking of school i signed up for a japanese history class. because of course i did #i also needed an extra class and i didnt know what else to put LMAO but i might swap it or somn #thinkin i should get back into theater..... i got like two months to decide anyway #i was thinking about how im gonna play IW during streams... if the lord will let me i might stream for 2~3 hours or so #im putting such a small time limit due to Aforementioned School but also idk if my computer can record any longer than that #when i tried saving the video to my flashdrive it only lasted about two some hours right ? maybe 3 if i remember right #i decided to record to my computer's hard drive instead of the usb since it has more space so maybe i can record longer #ill prob do a test run later today and record a nonsense video. i WILL delete it i just wanna see what the limit is #cause my plan is to just Record One -> Upload It -> Delete OG yk. Lazy Susan type of plan #didnt mean to type out my whole gameplan in the tags LOL BUT HEY I WANTED TO TALK BOUT IT AT SOME POINT #my final message is that ive Hopefully preordered the ichi statue. i say Hopefully cause i am once again doing it through jp rabbit #and i didnt get the confirmation it was successful yet so I Will Simply Wait.#point is it was a lot cheapter than i thought it was going to be <3 yay <3 #ok im running out of tags tl;dr im gonna marathon IW until my eyes bleed BYYYE

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piosplayhouse · 1 month ago

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you're constantly going about how unique and strange and wacky the svsss fandom is but it truly is not i promise you there's a million other online spaces with freaky lesbians and genderisms

I like how you automatically assumed that post was me talking about scum villain for some reason when it was actually about me thinking about a fic where this guy wears lingerie for 3 days straight

#otherwise though let me tell you large portions of the horse girl fandom do NOT take freaky lesbians or genderisms well #star stable has a pride festival multiple gay and nonbinary characters and a mc whos a lesbian and the in game chat is filled with #people saying there should be christian festivals instead because being gay is sinful its so crazy #also i dont think ive said this?? at least recently idk what i said when i was 18 #if i said something similar it was probably commenting on my friends getting harassed in other fandoms for their headcanons #idk i was a big deltarune fan for a while and there was definitely a lot of stuff going on there i dont think id deny that

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dont-offend-the-bees · 3 months ago

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Anyone else just not feeling like a real person much lately?

#'lately' he says #as if he's not been feeling this way for the last 28 years #idk man #maybe it's bc I'm getting older and so are the people i hang/chat with #but it feels like everyone else has a real life and real interests and experiences and things to say #and I'm some kind of hollow scarecrow person just full of memory loss and sadness #i feel very stupid and very boring #which i know is too harsh. and i know i should be kinder to myself bc life and covid and shit can't have helped the brain situation #and i should absolutely believe my friends when they say they wanna hang with me bc it's mean not to take them at their word #but I'm still like... why though?#genuinely what's the appeal of being around me. my head is empty i have nothing to add and I'm not interesting or that funny #it's been creeping up on me. this feeling like i just genuinely have nothing to offer.#i don't even know who i am #except for a person who like. lives vicariously through fictional characters experiencing feelings I've never had cause to feel #i can relate to emotions SO vividly except i myself haven't even felt the half of them #i just sort of quietly exist somewhere on the spectrum between content and discontent #with occasional drops into the despair zone #and even if the stuff i think is keeping me here went away tomorrow. like if mum stopped being an issue and i was free #like... what would i even do?#i don't even know how to want something #anyway. this has been morning mental breakdowns with newt #I'm going to go make some made up guys live the life i haven't now #mr. bees speaks #negative

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h-didanart · 2 months ago

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GUYS—

GUYS HELP—

ITS TAKING OVER—

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Anyways—

So I’ve been listening to the Circe Saga in Epic the Musical for a while, I actually got the idea of giving Bloody and Harvest magic out of it, but that wasn’t enough, I had to go further

So now they are the God of Sorcery or something, look I’m just having fun here—

K, so they have an island to themselves, and they have a lot of magic and are cool, and they look after nymphs and stuff, and they turn anyone who tries bothering them into pigs. I think the Ancient Greek setting would change their backstory a bit but not by much, they probably wouldn’t almost die, but y’know, they’ve still had to deal with shitty stuff, which would actually lead to even more motivation on their end to protect those they care for. They have flower tattoos around their legs because I kinda just felt like drawing flowers and I’m pretty sure that that flower in specific represents strength and healing, and it also helps with insomnia I think. As for the scorpion imagery I chose it because of a kinda joke that’s supposed to be in the au where they choose to have a different day as their birthday and Bloody wants to be a Scorpio because scorpions are cool, and I looked up the symbolism and there’s some rebirth and life//death and change stuff which I think fits them (I am actively choosing to ignore the other potential symbolism, please don’t look it up I’m so sorry my boys 😭) And I like to think they’d use shadow and ice magic because of 1) conquer your fears /literal and 2) as a treatment for their overheating problem

I really like this silly variant, they’re cool

Oh and, uh, about ‘There are other ways’, uhm

Yeah that’s how they were gonna deal with that, cool

#the art demons won #silly stuff #epic the musical reference #Greek au?#idk i’m just having fun #sams au #sams bloodmoon #tsams bloodmoon #Quiet Throes in Pooling Oil #thought about them a bit more #I think the overheating would happen because of scars they have that just won’t go away #the scars would be in their thighs and hips and would be from you-know-what #so they’d usually keep the palace at cool temperatures #they 100% intended to kill whomever-is-Odysseus but were kinda cut off by whomever-Odysseus-is going in a tangent about their wife #also they probably have a couple gardens around the island they like to tend to #also also they would not be above killing the ‘pigs’ and feeding them to whomever comes knocking at their doors #oh god is this an au now?#i can’t keep doing this #what should we call them chat?#Circe Bloodmoon? Greek God Bloodmoon?#ugh #it’s too late for this #flowy fabrics are fun

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zebratimw · 1 year ago

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Spirit animal SQH

#svsss #shang qinghua #but mainly I'm just here to vague post LMAO I don't like to vague post its not very effective in terms of venting but #but basically I guess I'm becoming hyperaware of my like... cognitive dissonance codependency and derealization ee #also my general laziness ig and where it overlaps into executive dysfunction or whatever like I may genuinely have some issues but #I am also a lazy son of a bitch jfjfkgkg and i need to figure out how to figure it out so I can work on both in more effective ways hhggg #oh yeah but basically the thing to remember for later is the silence in the call and the immediate unmute and chat activity once I left #I should remember this and stop interacting I think? I should try to give em space I think I'm being too clingy or something #or maybe my own silence is too awkward and dampens the call? I was kinda just spacing out and not doing anything so I get its kinda weird #LMAO so I should just like try not to be in call for those times mm #I just like being in call with my friends jdhfkg but I suppose its not very good either #I overindulge I suppose another friend pointed it out to me before too haha but fjfjjt its just easier than facing bouts of dread by myself #eehh and that's why I gotta do something about my Metnal Ailneses hfjfj but ngl I don't really know how to go about it...#I get embarrassed looking stuff up djfnfkg and half the time I don't even know what to look up I just draw ?s and I give up #I suppose I also have commitment issues too but that ones not new which is an issue of itself aaaaaaaa #man idk idk I just don't really get it I guess djdjfjf and I've got existential dreads and think maybe it doesn't really matter whats wrong #cause there's no point to fixing them because ultimately I'm gonna die alone and a failure anyways? so like ehfjgkg idk #its depressing and I know its like sabotage cause my brain is being a little silly a little goofy and its not a shared sentiment #with the better half of me and the entirety of my friends but yknow its just ee harder sometimes to believe in the optimism ig #and i can talk about it somewhat normally and without like having a ✨️break down #but yknow djfjgkg I'm very emotional a person ya? I think sqh is relatable for gods sake 💀#irrationality sentimentality nihilism and existential dreads... wanting to die because living is too hard despite all my hopes for living...#just the ol regulars yknow?#and another thing... do I talk to my friends about these things? I vent them out here a lot but what do I really want?#I'm not strong enough to keep it to myself clearly but I'm also too proud to share these thoughts? I dump them out in the open and for what?#whenever someone reaches out with concern and care I don't respond in kind and refuse to elaborate?#so like what do I want with this? I guess I want someone to know I'm going insane half the time I'm awake? but not do anything about it?#that's pretty unfair I guess... and stupid I think I do want to share my thoughts with someone but I'm too scared of the ramifications #and that my pride can't stand the fact I might be looked differently by my friends even tho the image they have of me is already quite silly #man.... idk.... I'll come to conclusions myself and do nothing about them so I guess that'll happen again aah idk idk idk

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icewindandboringhorror · 2 months ago

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I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently

#facebook always does that 'here's a post from this day 8 years ago' thing. and I see old comments interacting #with people and it's so like.. OOOOO~~ where are they now?? what's going on? how much have they changed as people?#how much are they the same? this is fascinating. i should contact them!!' but then it's like... take that to it's logical conclusion though #you would contact them and then IF they even responded it would take you 80 years to respond and then they would #think there was something wrong or that you were trying to be insulting or something. To contact anyone I need to include an 85 page #disclaimer of all of my social issues & mental illness things. 'If i take 3 weeks to reply I promise it has nothing to do with u' etc lol #THIS is why more people need to be into phone calls/voice calls/some form of audio real time communication/etc.#I think one of the main things that's hard about messaging through text for me is it's so unscheduled and open ended #(plus it takes forever if you're talking about anything in detail and gets very long very quickly)#because like you can send a message and then just get a reply whenever. and then you're expected to reply back whenever #so it's like you never know when the response will come or when a new obligation to reply can come up? so it's like this sudden thing with #no outline?? if that makes sense. whereas a phone call is very like 'hello let's schedule a call from 10am - 2pm on thursday'. And you know #EXACTLY when the interaction will start and EXACTLY when it will end and you can plan around it in your schedule easily.#I have the reverse thing of a lot of people (how people don't pick up phone calls/hate calls/only text)#I would literally talk on the phone with a stranger. I would have a discord voice chat with someone I barely know.#if someone I hardly even remember from elementary school asked to have a voice call with me out of nowhere I would do it.#but if a stranger MESSAGED me?? or someone I barely know sent me a TEXT or something?? I will never reply probably #It's just too vague and weird. and you can't read voice tone over text. and the interaction could last forever with no clear end #point and etc. etc. But a call is like. set. established. clear boundaries. you can read the flow of conversation better. rapport. etc. etc #I get that I guess people feel more anonymous or distanced over text?? but you can have fake phone numbers on the computer. or do like disc #rd calls. or zoom without a camera or etc. etc. Also the distance that's present in text is BAD distance because it just means that tone is #not conveyed properly and you will never truly get a sense of the person's conversational vibe or mannerisms or how well you really click.#ANYWAY ghgjh...... I'm so so so interested in concepts of like.. How did that one kid I used to talk to in elementary school #but then they moved away in 5th grade - how did they end up? what are they doing now?? etc. etc. Like despite the severe social anhedonia #and general lack of connection with others I'm just really fascinated in like.. idk. the human development of it all and like #the concept of how we're actually a million different people through the course of our lives ever evolving in different iterations and etc.#PLUS again. i love nostalgia. sometimes old peple you know might remember a shared memory or can tell you about something you forgot #or etc. like it's SUCH A COOL THING in CONCEPT but I am too socially inept generally speaking lol. which people I still talk to today are #familiar with my 'phone call once every few months' communication style. but strangers would just be like... wtf. And I don't blame them #Sure I literally cannot change the physical health + brain issues i have - but also I know enough to not put others through that lol

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blusical · 8 months ago

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"i miss drunk kane" yeah uh considering the shit that he'd fucking get into whenever alcohol was involved, I'd rather NOT people miss that era, actually!

#patrick kane #pkaneposting #song:just chatting #song:serious #i don't know what truly happened that day in madison (none of us do)#but that alone should be enough proof on why we uh.. probably shouldn't be celebrating his drunken days #i've seen multiple folks say he's stopped drinking (or atleast limits it)#idk how true it is but if it is true good for him honestly #and because ik someone's gonna try and twist this: I'm not saying alcohol is bad or evil #but alcoholism probably isn't something to celebrate #alcohol tw #<-forgot to tag that. my bad yall #mild edit because apparently this needs to be said: this isn't an anti-kane post nor am i saying he's evil #but he's definitely no saint and i don't want people glorifying his drunken self- especially when it's rumored he has (had?) alcohol issues #and im not going to pretend that he hasnt done inexcusable things; he has.#and just because those behaviors were 'a long time ago' doesn't make it any less wrong

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mad-hunts · 1 month ago

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this post might be a little controversial, but i feel like if DC just listened to its fans once in a while... they would've come up with something much better than joker: folie à deux 🤷‍♀️ just sayin' — like, i will never not be amazed that they passed up the opportunity to make a batman beyond movie drawn in the same style as the spiderverse movies!! but they DID

#OF MONSTERS AND MEN: musings.#am i going to tag this as negative? hmm... maybe but it's honestly just me stating an opinion that i feel like some other people (???) may #share as the DC fandom honestly has SUCH talented people in it that create these super rich and awesome stories but then-#there's the people who are actually behind the comics making wack decisions (at least in my opinion) like making alexis kaye or punchline #some sort of e-girl that KILLS people on a stream while these supposed 'fans' of hers are in the chat cheering her on? like?? why???#i genuinely don't get it y'all 😭 and just look at what they did to jason... goddd. but anyways i'm getting off track here JSJSJ #at least they are making a nightwing + red hood movie which i sincerely hope they don't mess up but anyways the fact that they #didn't even allow lady gaga to really act in the movie and just included scenes with her singing in it is doing her a great injustice #because for anyone who hasn't seen her on screen before she is a great actor! but they just said like... nah we are just going to take out #majority of the scenes that you're actually acting in like whyyy. DC exec's listen to your fans bc some of these decisions you're making-#in the comics and movies imo are just. AWFUL but anyways that's enough of me being a mad nerd / j sksks LOL i'm kiddinggg #but yeah. idk i just had to bring this up as i feel like so many of the writers in the DC fandom are making stories that are sooo much-#more intriguing than what they're actually doing in canon so they should take some advice from us but idk #tw: negative

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longagoitwastuesday · 3 months ago

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Kusakabe, dear, you're too beautiful to be saying that kind of stuff

#jjk spoilers #All the prettiest characters were brought back from apparent death #Nobara was okay and it's true that when I read the lawyer's and Kusakabe's fights against Sukuna I thought it was being kept vague #but to pull a Nobara with all of them... idk #No one stays dead here except for the people who actually care for the kids and by that I mean 'including Yuuji'#kinda lowkey bitter about it #Don't get me wrong I like the characters and also they're super pretty but idk It makes death feel cheap? And the high stakes kinda fake?#Choso Gojo and Nanami actual only characters who died apparently #Well. Poor Itadori #And Kusukabe goes and runs his mouth that way in front of the kid. He is not entirely wrong but also he very much is #And yes he also says 'don't worry it's not for you to feel guilty over anything you're just kids' but also he did very much say that thing #about it all being Gojo's fault for not killing Itadori. In front of Itadori who feels guilty for that precisely #and in front of Megumi who asked Gojo to spare him and also went through the experience of Sukuna using his body as well #So Kusukabe's reassurance about them just being kids and not to feel guilty falls a bit empty #It does feel in character but man it truly makes one appreciate the way Gojo and Nanami dealt with the kids a lot more haha #Ui Ui seems like a dear #Anyway... this chapter felt a bit lame for the most part for me? I like the idea of the characters discussing the could have/would have #and feeling guilt and helplessness over their choices but the way it was done felt a bit lame and without any real emotional punch #It felt more like an explanation to the reader in an awkward way. And there's a lot of empty chat about guilt and grief #without any of the characters really giving off a grieving air about everything and everyone they've lost #And this is precisely what I felt was going to happen with this manga's writing haha #I truly don't understand this kind of writing choices. Contrary to some other shonen writers this author did seem to have the potential #to write this kind of thing well besides the worldbuilding and powers and fight stuff. It's truly a pity. It so breaks my heart #And still this is considered one of the good shonens. Well. WELL haha #I do think shonen can be good! I just think it falls almost always even when there's potential into bery shallow writing #I don't know. Maybe I should read that one Alchemist manga #I've been repeatedly told that one's good and it does seem like it doesn't do... this. But I find the art style so not to my linking #I wish I had never gotten into JJK for real for real. I absolutely adore it. I always end up frustrated. It could be so good. Genuinely good #And yet it's just okay in a sort of forgettable way. What a pity #Everything good ever is present but it never dares do anything to fully explore what it sets. It just does the typical shonen stuff

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xxplastic-cubexx · 3 days ago

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just saw there's going to be a magneto x rogue thing in savage lands and i'm ready to kms with that because wtf this shipp or whatever this is, it's gross af 😐

another reason why i have to throw hands with 97 thems the reason why people even remember this pairing

#snap chats #im so sorry to the few fans of this ship that might follow me vjELVKEJVLAJ #i legit wouldnt even mind if it wasnt such a Who Asked For This pairing #like i do not mind if erik or charles get paired with others like i do have a soft spot for charles + lilandra or even moira sometimes #xmen 92 got me cackling at him getting divorced before the wedding but they were sweet in the proteus episodes ..#like maybe im just close minded and yaoipilled but i cant find the appeal with erik and rogue specifically #i mena i always like erik or charles being able to help other mutants cope with their mutations and the loneliness that comes with it #i love that !!! if thats what was going on from a mentor perspective thatd be neat #but its not not them two ..... every time i see that pairing i wanna spritz erik with a spray bottle it turns me into a hater #i should spritz the writers but oh well .... he's getting the lemon-juice-in-a-bottle treatment GET AWAY FROM HER #also rogue and gambit is peak idk why youd want it any other way ..... but w/e rock on i suppose ... no ones dying ig #just me internally but we live on externally

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unproduciblesmackdown · 3 months ago

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(genderly) chill as hell if i was only ever glimpsed / detected like this

#Shrouded In A Rectangle neither sleeves nor an open front to be besieged with? yes #just doing whatever else like doesn't matter. tee cargo shorts which is my best guess rn of my ideal outfit. + sandals Absolutely #unfortunately my hair could never do that. somehow neither am i yet like forties fifties? have i not been at this for eons?#i Can be like uh let's just nobody talk to me i'm busy pensively perceiving truths that you don't ever actually wanna hear about #just the other day it was like hey....a [way Having To Talk could be a difficulty / problem] was under my nose in this lifelong pattern #certainly noticing the Verbal Exchange Demand heaped upon burnout as like [delay delay delay struggle weariness stress]#but also who knows like spent plenty of time just probably indeed Not having to have such exchanges while burned out. not noting them #anyway like this isn't even [dysphoric Ideal Outfit until i could [whatever supposed even more ideal than that gender euphoria]]#though shoutout to that but like nah get shrouded anyway. the only [how do i look] im motivated to consider is: when it's a costume #when it's just me it's like. i guess whatever pants and a comfortable enough tee. need glasses. hair's w/e so cut quite short ig #might accessorize w/things that are fun to me like hey yeah yknow i might want a calculator watch #[yea as a kid it was like :( im actively appreciating the animals supposedly Gross or Bad] if i had hated little friends Sure yaay #if i had disorienting light effects like a pelagic creature. but you don't even need that. like hey i'm nd in real life. i got it #chat i'm in the walls too bestie lmao. if only my bigfoot pose reference Step was this good #tl;dr long rephrasing of my being like; now the gender slay....#& nodding & Noting when [worksheet exercise: what's your gender euphoria look?] is like shrug idk. but this is serving maximally to me; so #going Chat how can i up my uncanny stats. looking up ''isn't it like Uncanny knowledge e.g. so like why not....canny''#but i think the un canny is the Uncanniness Accuser's perspective. not of My ken. your literal weird one maybe #so again apt to be like jk i'm just autistic & shit; i got it....horror shit challenge impossible: Don't have sm typical mundane #[disability moment] as like Unsettling danger/malice cues. challenge impossible; again #subverted here like as [horror holding hands touching foreheads w/comedy] w/o Rescinding just casual disabled behavior/qualities #just remembered like three witches weird sisters etc macbeth. weird uncanny soothsaying gendering. word #anyway i should be shrouded (made no any connection whenever i put the blanket now over my head & shoulders in place min ago)#perhaps the real Ideal Look insight: i do not have any way i wish to be observed by people. secret passages / removed room anytime

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bananacat76 · 1 month ago

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i miss talking to my friends

#vent #maybe? idk #it makes me sad how distant i’m growing from every one of my best friends #they talk to everyone but me :< i see my buddies chatting to my other buddies and then i’m just there. i feel like an intruding spectator #i don’t even talk to them either. i never know what to say. and that makes me feel so terrible! because we used to talk mindlessly for hour #about anything! everything!#and now i just sit there quietly #it hurts a lot.#we barely interact too. we talk for a minute! just a minute! and it’s not even anything #it’s just hey! how are you! and then gone #sure! i should appreciate that!! but i don’t! because it’s not how we used to do it! it’s not how we’ve done it for years!!!#they talk to everyone else for hours! but never me! it sounds really selfish i know. but it feels so bad when i talk to one friend for a fe #seconds and then they go off to my other friend and talk for ages. about things we alllike #i sound like a real turd typing that out actually. eek #i’ve just been feeling a ton of mixed emotions lately. i’m not doing too well

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seariii · 10 months ago

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You know your empathy for your wife is too strong when you actually cry watching Deep Cover...

Look, since I first heard the song, the very first time I heard it, i was super excited and as I was listening my energy dropped slowly when I heard just how pained her voice was, the desperation, the anger, the hate, the small hint of desperate hope that is fading away. And that was without the lyrics

When I read the translation I was surprised, but could still notice her pain on it, a couple theories here and there

And now that the mv is finally out, every time I watch it, I feel my heart sink and break. This happens with a couple other songs like triage, and both of Haruka's. I know it's particularly because I feel a lot about this characters, but... Sigh... It's so painful...

Going back to deep cover, she is in so much pain, feeling like a monster, hating herself, she is already broken... And yet she keeps trying to hide it... Sigh... I hope the guilty finally let's her see that she isn't the hero, so she can stop putting that onto herself... No one should carry with that responsibility...

i forgive her for what she did, but i want her guilty this trial because that will make her less harm than an inno where all this twisted ideals that she has will just keep haunting her... Yet I'm worried... Because once more we will be taking away her purpose... And all the psychological torture that she'll have to endure...

#high empathy problems. i dont like watching people suffering #i just wanna hug everyone in milgram and take care of them... bring them somewhere nice and give them their favorite food...#take them to therapy and have silly chats with them. or just parallel play if we cant really talk about anything #Seari talks #should i tag as kotoko?um...#idk if i should since im just rambling... but hey if anyone wants to share or something go ahead! i just don't know what should go in #the fandom tags and what shouldn't so i dont wanna risk it #wife <3

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