#idk. am i hashtag relatable
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ok actually with the assignment procastination i think i figured it out . i think i need a deadline to do something that is from someone i care about/talk with bc if its a Professor that is just some guy . and i will put it off forever.
#but like. my dad asked me to do something while i was trying to start the thing and it made me finish it so id have time to do what he asked#and with group work . i usually get it done really quick bc i dont want to bring down the group+ im likely gonna talk with them later abt i#i just need a more Direct force holding me accountable for shit i think ? but like i can't explain my entire schedule of assignments#to anyone i talk to regularl;y#idk. am i hashtag relatable#mimispeaking
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Sebastian had a few days leave from duty so he visited Eloise😇😇
#im literally OBSESSED with Eloise😩#and this AU😇🙏#they are maybe late 20s/early 30s here I wanted to experiment a bit#anyways I was reading A Little Life at the beach today#and ngl I was tearing up literally ALL the time!!! 😤😤😤#it’s just so beautifully written & I find myself relating so heavily and I get gut punches every few pages where I need to stop reading#and just process it#idk maybe I am sentimental today LOL#It’s just…it’s making me think about the fact that I’ve never really Belonged in any one place and neither have the characters#my mom is the product of Bulgarian/swedish immigrants to the US and my dad is a Spanish pueblo man 😂#and their experiences/culture/languages etc etc have shaped my life soooooooo much🙏#but like at the same time. too reserved to truly fit in with the Spanish but too open/blunt for the midwest#idk it is weird to explain#anyways I just keep moving forward & make my own way🙏🙏🙏#thank you for coming to my free Therapy Session in the hashtags (bc nobody reads these😂😂😂😂)#also if you did & you also read a little life please🙏 or if you want to talk about books in general🙏🙏#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#sebastian sallow#hogwarts legacy mc#hogwarts legacy oc#eloise#oh also this is a recreation of a Porco Rosso scene😇😇🙏🙏#but I changed the colors a LOT & also a bit more when I sketched it up
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Sometimes I just look at Isabeau and just know that if isat came out and I got into it when I was like 16 he would be my favorite character and I would've gone absolutely buck wild over this man and feel like he was laser targeting me. But alas Odile has a grip of steel on me rn due to her virtue of being a middle aged woman
#rat rambles#stars posting#I feel like the biggest change in my taste in characters as the years have gone by is Im now far more biased towards old ppl lol#although tbf I was also the one person in 2016 who actually liked asgore so maybe Ive always liked parhetic old ppl#but yeah the reason isa is past me bait is because hes an exploration and subversion of the sort of tropes I Hated as a kid#and I still dont like them so isa still appeals to me its just not as much as he would have to a younger me#I do genuinely love all the party very dearly tho theyre all soooo good#I think my favorite part of isabeau is how like. of everyone we get to see the least facets of him but like in a very good way#this is a man who hides and bottles shit hes so fun to rotate#his self image is so carefully controlled compared to everyone else which makes him an incredibly interesting character to analyze#and I love that despite him seeming like the most emotionally stable person here on the surface he still clearly has like. hashtag issues.#like he's in that beautiful zone where its so so fun imagining what it would look like to truly break him#<- normal things that normal ppl say. like me.#I may have my very light beef with alt looping aus as a concept but hes probably the most interesting alternate looper to me#also my light beef exclusively relates to king quest stuff which is why Im a big fan of duo looper aus with sif#but honestly. isa might be the only one that I genuinely think works better as a solo looper even with taking king quest into account#although bonnie comes close. I <3 looper bonnie I <3 seeing fictional children go through the horrors#I think theres a lot of fun to be had with any alt looper au tho I just am a huge king quest fan so I like it when my favorite elements of#it dont have to be handwaved#but yeah the real question is how would younger me feel about mirabelle#because on the one hand: acearo character#but on the other hand: I have always been a little hater abt romance so idk if younger me would rly be able to follow her character well#I wasnt exactly good at character analysis back then lol#except for the instances in which I was but I dont have that sort of faith in my younger self#yknow Im thinking abt my history of favorite characters now and I think me being one of few 2016 alphys enjoyers might have been a prophecy#she was my quote unquote third favorite but in reality she was second#I think she chara and peridot su teamed up to define my taste in fictional characters for the next several years#and somehow that lead to olivia becoming one of my favorite fictional characters of all time#I say somehow as if that isnt a very natural conclusion
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#having friends =w=bbb making friends =3=pppp#also i have decided on a whim that maybe i dont likee my job rn soo ive send my stuff to another place lol :3#(<- guy he had a mancrush on left his current work) SHUT UPP no thats not it :)#but also i need a chillpill and not be mr. grindset for. a job. like i am currently#will i be able to turn it down if i go somewhere new?? props not. hashtag autism#ok wait this is no longer related to the post whoopss#like thats new =w=#sillyposting#anywayyy about possible new job.#this was also the first job i applied for wayy back (three years or so idk) before i had any work experience.#other than this and my current job ive not applied for anythingg so were not in NEW territory yett ig.#somehow the scary part isnt. a new job. it'll be quiting my currentt.....#i dont wanna my boss is pretty nice and its. okay to work at but T-T#i cant be here forever..... i shant......#its fine im sure he'll understand maybe....#waughhh im so not looking forward to having to talk about that T-T (<- isnt even sure if he has to)
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curled up in the least comfortable office chair on the planet trying to con my brain and body into speaking with one another
sending untrained mental carrier pigeons but they're getting lost and causing nerve pain instead idk
#why am i so tired why do my hands hurt so bad why is it so cold and still so noisy in here#weeehhhhhh#i think something is actually wrong with me because i can Not wake up#i havent been falling asleep at work but once im asleep? no wakey#i have slept eleven+ hours four days in a row#and i am still so. so fucking tired.#hashtag chronic illness or something idk#i have zero interest in a fibro diagnosis but every year i have to be like yeah. probably.#there's enough other bullshit goin on in here man#might also just be another facet of diabetes i haven't parsed yet cause my reactions to things have been v different in the last year#exhausting.#can my blood sugar stop tanking also#related#that's probably why im so tired tbh.#not drinking enough water either but even filtered it's making me really nauseous again#could we just. be normal for a minute goddamn.
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Modern book readers when their characters aren't literally a clone of Jesus Christ Himself starting at Chapter 1
#you know even good people can do fucked up shit right#Or commit less than desirable actions right#Or be illogical#you know negative traits can't always be made into something endearing#Or 'hashtag relatable' in a quirky way right#sometimes a good person has a negative trait that is a detriment to people around them#Idk I'm thinking about how much modern content has changed from even when I was a kid and it feels like it's for the worst#Sure it's more inclusive and that's great#No complaints there obviously#But why is everything almost dumbed down or regurgitated progressive talking points#Granted I may be not looking in the right places so it's fair if you “um ackshually” me#I'm sure the world is much better and smarter than I feel like it is right now#i just needed to vent#HAHA ANYWAY#books#books and reading#reading#I am notoriously bad when it comes to finding things
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Why can't I be satisfied with everything? It needs to be perfect to me and I can't accept anything otherwise :(
#mine#oh boy here we go. guy last post was about has been pretty cool and i got flustered around him a few times#but i feel bad bc. i need m o r e he isnt insane enough he isnt making me go absolutely crazy i want to be satisfied but im NOT im sorry#like its quite honestly the most attention acceptance etc ive gotten but its not ENOUGH he doesnt die whenever i send a selfie#im never satisfied WHY i have unrealistic expectations !!!! i hate my brain killing and violence and death etc#i get crushes on guys who want nothing to do with me but then when one actually wants me its not enough? what is wrong with me#thrill of the chase? i cant accept being loved? what is it brain. christ almighty. im not doing anything like deliberately yandere related#anymore im just being generally incomprehensibly mentally ill 🙄 still trying to find a therapist but idk how on earth ill explain that#ill update this post tomorrow with more insanity but for now i am the sleepy tired#// ok its now 3 days later i dont feel like making another post. i think i was just having a mental illness moment as always#because he does make me insane. hashtag girl. im trying to be the smartest and calculated i have ever been with a relationship in my life#like im thinkin about it so hard bro. the future n shit. how would this relationship go. im so scared ill do something wrong its preventing#me from doing things RIGHT. im sad becaude i flipped out today over even imagining him being upset with me a little#so i was really embarrassed and it put me in a weird mood for the rest of the night but he reassured me he doesnt hate me or want me to die#every one aaalways says theyre different. i can only hope this one is telling the truth. i dont know what ill do if he isnt.#well i need to stop whining about fictional scenarios and focus on the good stuff in reality. i get along with him very well and he#is very niceys to me :3 he doesnt think im fucking insane or stupid for overreacting. i feel very comfortable gossiping and talking w him#every long time blog viewer of mine reading this like ah shit here we go again#but thats what im here for. i guess. just have to keep doing this shit until something good finally happens to me romantically hngh#i feel so strange because i have wanted and yearned for a relationship but now that i actually could have one im like WAIT#I DIDNT THINK ID GET THIS FAR 💀💀💀 bruh. and he doesnt even think im stupid hes respectful to me he checks in on me all the time#like perhaps the only person to ever actually almost match my energy in a romantic sense. there was [redacted] i guess but he didnt love me#he listens to me talk about my problems he doesnt think i complain or overreact too much. all the ridiculous cringe shit i do#he doesnt mind it. its nice to be able to be myself. and im really proud of myself for not rushing into a relationship right away
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going out with virgo bestie tomorrow or on saturday i am actually not sure and i am excited of course but also i am anticipating seeing someone and it’s making me be hihi haha. Isn’t that crazy… i hate this feeling i’m gonna be honest
#me being excited just means i have no appetite it’s just idk. Okay#tw ed#i’ve been trying to maintain but idk if this is even relatable but if i stay at one weight for long time i don’t see it as low i see it as#oh i’m stagnating i need to lower it even tho i weight the same i did when i was in 8th grade it doesn’t matter in the grand scheme of#teo brain it’s stagnant and yeah wait what was even the point of this all oh yeah the not eating is making me idk not triggered but yeah#obsessed observant whateva whateva… Also the way when i was out with these ppl#actually none of ur business#but if i get into a relationship i am gonna be a wilted flower that’s just how i am gawddd and i don’t think it looks good either it’s just#me controlling everything hashtag stellium in 6H okay i’ll stop with the astrology#tt
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i hate the term “female friendship” like it annoys me
#listening to the binchtopia podcast episode on comp het.. v interesting#but that kinda stuff just reminds me that i am not a ‘female’ 😭#i’m like why can’t i relate to all these stories about female friendships and female comradarie… and i’m like right bc u aren’t one bestie#sigh i hate how cis centered gender studies and feminism can be even though it’s very important#idk how to fix it or if it even needs to be fixed but yeah . it’s both annoying and freeing to not be able to relate to a lot of these#discussions#anyways . who up and wanna have a ‘female friendship’ w me (sex)#also i wonder how many of my ‘female friendships’ weren't fulfilling because of my lack of cisgenderness. like i was always the other#and these cis women were looking for comradarie in another woman and i just wasn’t that. and they could tell#i always used to wonder why i wasn’t getting the same thing out of female friendships as everybody else was or how liberal women make it#sound. and this is definitely a factor . which idk how i didn’t realize it sooner#also ofc being gay and having straight friends when i was younger#but even in my ‘female friendships’ with other lgbt women something is missing#like the most fulfilling relationship i’ve ever had is in fact with a man .#and idk how much of that is just chance like we just happen to click . and how much of it is bc i feel like i can relate to him more than#i ever could my ‘female friends’#also we have other things in common like he’s an lgbt person of color i’m an lgbt person of color etc .#but idk . i wonder how much gender factors into this#like i’ve had that in common with women and STILL something is missing#sorry for centering men in my life hashtag problematic hashtag internalized misogyny#also not to say that my current friendships with women aren’t fulfilling i love them . and it does help that they’re all lgbt poc#but there’s always this border i feel. like when they’ll be talking about hashtag womanhood and i just . don’t get it#SORRY for the long ass tags omg
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my top 3 most relatable gk characters are usami ogata and shiraishi. which is 2 of the worst possible red flags and shiraishi
#im not as much of an asshole as ogata obviously. but we have the same operating system despite wildly different lived experiences#imagine usami software on ogata hardware and that is basically me#shiraishi isnt rlly a green flag either hes just there. i get a little sillay with it sometimes. we do a little trolling. and same syndrome#allistic nonpsychotics both overestimate and underestimate how different we (nts and nds) r frm eachother. but i am only capable of feeling#genuine empathy for a select few autistic psychotic characters. so unfortunately ogata is hashtag relatable despite the fact that i dont ac#like him from an outside perspective. ogata chassis usami engine shiriashi body. or maybe ogata engine usami body shiraishi decals#theres a little tsukishima in there as well (guyautism) tsukishima fuzzy dice or smthng idk#i dont have any comments to make the usami parts seem less fucked up just take that at face value. its bad#og post
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Buddy, this post was satirical
This media is cringe, except, of course, in the way that I consume it *bullies children*
#mine#idk how you could mange to read this post as if i actually admited to bullying children#like ooh ya know what post would do well#if i deacribed being annoying in fandom and then partaking in unnecessary rivalries with minors#hashtag relatable am i right#no bro#that's cringe#the cringe was inside you all along
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Struggle.
Mine, Aka Spampai/Clsketches
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Sigh.
Thoughts again. I know people will probably skim thru this, but I don’t have the heart to care right now. I’m sharing because I trust you. I’m aware of the dangers of the internet and how they can use to manipulate, but I just don’t care right now.
I don’t really care if this gets 1039390384 notes or less than 10, and I don’t care what time I’m posting this, because apparently now it’s the dead hour ‘til nighttime, but I don’t have the patience to wait.
I’ll place an image of Bitty because I don’t like false hashtags and I relate to him in some way. Favorite character, is all.
Everytime I boot up Tumblr, my expectations boost up to the max, expecting notifications, feedback, reblogs, likes, comments. I see none. I leave quickly with a frown.
It also happened on Instagram; it’s just the same thing happening all over again in Tumblr.
In my last post on a ramble, everyone convinced that it takes time, which of course, is true. But I always find a way to come back to this occurrence, and I can’t take that thought away. What’s happening?
Are the artists not reblogging because of poor quality? Is it because I have poor management on when to post? Is my hashtags outdated? Is it because the content I’ve posted is dead?
Or is it the luck? People tend to base their account out of luck of people, big artists, communities, to find, like, reblog, comment. I’ve rarely got that, and whenever it’s about them, I get more likes.
Am I like-driven in some way? I don’t know.
Am I promoting the manga way too much? I don’t know?
Is it spam content? I don’t know.
Does my content stand above the rest? I don’t know.
Do I post too often or too less? I don’t know.
Is my account worth to reblog on? Art-wise? Comment-wise? I don’t know.
I just don’t know.
I don’t know anything.
Too much questions, too much.
My brain can’t think. My heart can’t feel.
They can’t cooperate and work together.
All the brain does is overthink; the heart mourn, carrying more burden everyday.
Even if I did take a break, it’ll never stop my pursue for more feedback. The only thing I ask myself to do is to stay positive, commit to my goals and be happy, but I think it’s wearing off over time, slowly.
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I’ll just see u in my next post.
Thanks for everyone who commented in my last ramble. It helped, and I hope I can see more someday. Whenever that is.
Thanks to all the artists who convinced me to stay here; idk if any of u are reading this but love ya and keep the positivity.
Support my manga, reblogging if u like it or smth. I need it. Physically and mentally. Use #Talk Your Way Out! Or smth I don’t know anymore on how the algorithm works. I don’t know if the upcoming chapters will receive as much, but idk. Idk if this counts as more spam promoting.
Part 1:
Part 2:
I’ll just add this. I’ll be working on Part 3 now, ‘cause I spend way too much time on this post. See you.
#struggle#rambles#my ramblings#thoughts#i dont know#i don’t know#i just don’t know#garten of banban#garten of banban fanart#art#fanart#artists on tumblr#traditional art#bittergiggle#bittergiggle fanart
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Part 2 of my ace contemplations - Part 1 can be found here - or more like: more whining, haha. Sorry.
First off something more general: I'm happy about the responses I got on the original post, but I think it's a bit sad that there isn't a hashtag or something for people who want and need the support of the aspec community here on Tumblr (without having to join a special forum or sth). Because it seems that while the community is quite active, it's mostly for sharing memes and snappy textposts and stuff, and less about more helpful things and discussions. I'm not saying the memes etc are wrong and shouldn't be a part of it too, but idk, I just wish there would be more of an actual community bond, if that makes sense? To help the people who aren't yet at the stage where they can view their identity as something great, people who are still struggling and are reliant on online communities for that kind of help.
Because for all the talk about the very active Tumblr aspec community...I personally haven't seen and benefitted much of it, apart from the memes etc. And I hope I'm not the only person who don't just want to agree with meme posts and would wish for more. Or am I just unfortunate? Looking in the wrong places? (In short, where are the nice supportive ace people of Tumblr? I'm desperate here...well, kind of.)
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Something related to the books I mentioned in the original post:
these books are all written from such an US-centric, university-educated and creative business viewpoint. And that's just not my world at all, as an mostly unemployed European with crappy education.
Like, one time it was mentioned that aces always look out for each other and how great that is. And yeah, sure. It is. It would be great, but what about the people who aren't part of that lucky network or community? People who possibly haven't met another aspec person in real life? They are missing that kind of support, and maybe it would be the one thing that would make everything easier.
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Another thing: I found the probably supposed to be inspirational stories from other aces in the books rather disheartening. Yeah, fine, so person XY found their perfect partner by luck, despite whatever made them think it would never work out, yadda yadda. Good for them, but that's not gonna happen to me, right? I'm not gonna strike that jackpot and will find someone who accepts me as I am. Maybe I'm just a really, really spiteful person, but stories like that don't inspire me or show me what's possible for me personally in any way.
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Well, yeah, I never encountered that. Like, truly never. That's one thing where I'm very ace: I don't get what's supposed to be sexy about a (mostly) naked body. I understand a appeal of a open top button and bit of chest being visible or something like that (lol that sounded so stupid), but the body being in full view? Nah man, put on your shirt again before you catch a cold, lol. (And it's not just guys actually, but people of all genders, if I'm honest.) I should probably add that I absolutely don't mind seeing anything like that, it just doesn't do anything for me.
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I guess my takeaway from all the reading I did isn't like for other people who don't feel wrong or broken anymore when they find out there are other aces out there. Even after knowing a lot about it I still feel like some crucial part of me is missing, and I could be more than what I am if that were possible. But then again, there isn't really a possibility for change, so I need to do my best to accept this. I just wish I had it easy one single time...why is basically everything about me so hard to accept? lol
Idk, but if I ever manage to convince myself that inevitably dying alone one day (and spending the time until then alone too) is a good thing, then I'm sure I'll be able to do anything. Now I only need to figure out how to convince myself and that's where it gets difficult, lol.
Being both aspec and too dumb/awkward to make friends is such a curse tbh 😓 And I can't even become a crazy cat lady because I'm bad with animals too, ugh...
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In connection with the previous bit, I'm kinda envious of that way of thinking. Would make things much easier, I assume. And it's great if it worked for her, but I on the contrary would find it quite painful if I look back at my in a sense similar life.
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And to counter all the hopelessness a little bit - we're supposed to do that kind of thing, I guess - I tried my best to come up with some positive points, although I take them with a grain of salt myself.
- Well, it does give me an explanation for whatever is going on with me. (Although I only need that explanation for myself, since I seem to give off so much sad loser energy that no one ever bothered to ask me whether I want a boyfriend or kids. They just look at me and think "nah, that's obviously impossible for her". Which is oddly funny yet a little bit hurtful... ^^')
- I'm kind of glad that I never actually have to hug people or cuddle with them since I hate physical contact so much, lol. Doesn't matter if it's platonic or not. Remember when everyone missed being hugged during the pandemic? Couldn't be me :D
- I guess someone who is a rather bad person with way too many negative traits like me shouldn't be on the dating market anyway, so it's a plus that I'm no relationship material. Although that's more of a plus for others, not so much for me, lol. But it is a plus in the sense that everyone I would fall in love with would be unattainable for me anyway, so it's good not to be tempted in the first place.
- Idk, that's about it, I think? Maybe I forgot something, but I believe that's the gist of it. Kind of sad, but I tried, haha.
#aspec#aroace#acespec#arospec#asexuality#aromanticism#asexual#lgbtqia#queer#i sure hope this will be the last part but i guarantee for nothing
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love the canonical implication that Earthspark Bumblebee's current alt-mode is possibly just a mid life crisis sports car phase
I mean I'm in my 30s, I'm not shitting on him, it's relatable primarily because most of my friends are at least slightly younger than I am
the "Bee hanging out with the Terrans" vibe is very real
but I also like that we're seeing a slightly older version of Bee here. usually he's the youngest of the Autobots (in most TF shows, anyway), but here he's roughly equivalent to middle aged
The Terrans are the youngest, so we get to see a more mature Bee stepping up into a carer/educator role
Bee has never really been one of my favourite TF characters (which I mostly attribute to burn out caused by all the marketing which solely fixates on him lmao), but I like him in Earthspark for the most part!
He's still a little on the "still learning" side of things coming into his current role, but that's what allows for further character development, and we've already seen him build some good skills for dealing with/training the kiddo bots
IDK it's nice.
would be interesting if there's ever an episode where Alex and Dot are unavailable for a not-necessarily-bad reason (maybe one of them is accepting a professional award or something so both of them go together as a Nice Thing)
and suddenly Bumblebee is Parent of Many Sparklings (Plus Two Human Ones) for the weekend LMAO
how long until he gives in and calls someone for help? because that is a LOT of children
eventually he calls everyone but they're all busy, Arcee just laughs at him lol she's having Fun Battle Time with Elita-1 so neither of them can do it, finally Megatron shows up and instantly all the kids are like "yeah STORY TIME" and Bee gets a 10 min nap in until a perimeter alarm goes off or something (it was just a cow but now he is Stressed)
Optimus gradually shows up like ha ha! outdoors enrichment for the children is a great idea and Bee is just like "have you ever actually raised sparklings, you had troops but you don't have SPARKLINGS"
meanwhile in the background Hashtag is trying to explain the differences between various social media sites to Megatron, who is trying so hard to pretend like he cares, but is also busy trying to keep at least two of the others from putting their hands a little too deep in his transformation seams so they can climb on him (they just want to be Large)
idk I think a Single Parent Bee episode feat. Grandpa Megatron towards the end at one point would be fun, arguably they did this kind of vibe in the first half of S1 a bit already
but it would be interesting to see how Bumblebee would manage without any other adults for support for like a weekend in its entirety (save for maybe Megs at the end taking pity on him lmao)
there aren't many bots in what seems to be Bumblebee's general age range, except maybe Arcee but she gives the vibe of being a little older than he is, so real talk he'd probably feel a little more isolated and overtaxed than usual :(
but the kiddos would likely pick up on this and they could plot with Megs to try to do something nice for him!!! it would go poorly but that's OK!!!!
just thinkin' out loud
#maccadam#maccadams#tfe bumblebee#tfes spoilers#tfe spoilers#spoiler tagging juuuuust in case#earthspark#transformers earthspark#long post
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having a normal one i see
and if you're frightened / you can be frightened
a quick ivan :D
#like idk if its a tumblr glitch or what but i am so feral about ivan id probably do that too yk#i almost didnt post this bc i wasnt happy w it LMFAO#also this is not a roast!! i just chuckled heartily when i saw this LMAO hashtag relatable#edit: FUCKING RESPECT. I ALSO AM VERY NORMAL ABOUT HIM.
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james bond here😎 this is more of a positive/casual update, something i just saw while looking around, but gavin posted a tiktok about an hour ago and the caption was something along the lines of “can you guess why im so tired?” then hashtagged #911 and #christopherdiaz !!! maybe they have either filmed his coming back early to work with his schedule or chris is coming back sooner than expected!! im leaning towards the latter just a tiny bit given the title of ep3, no place like home, maybe he was filming for that a little! idk but im excited!! i miss chris!
Hi my sweet 007 🩷
I just saw his video, honestly, I'm excited as hell, it should probably mean he's getting ready for something 911 related, I am hoping for at least a call from Chris on 803, so fingers crossed, Chris might not be gone that long.
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