#idk why but it calms me down so much
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I thought it would be enough to learn it, but alas. I need the bass line to Roundabout engraved in my brain.
^^^me when Roundabout does the. does the bass line. yeah
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The interesting experience of being pro Sasuke, anti konoha, pro tobirama, anti Naruto ending, pro Sasusaku, anti Itachi, pro Sakura, anti SasuNaru, pro Tobirama×Izuna, anti Madara, pro karin, anti Orochimaru, pro Uchiha and anti Hashirama. And also as much as I hate the guy danzo was kind of hot when he was younger...
#I FEEL ITS VERY IMPORTANT TO SAY THAT I COMPLETELY RESPECT SNS TO THE ULTIMATE DEGREE AND I AGREE WITH THEIR SHIPPERS ON MOST THINGS#BUT THE SHIP STILL KINDA PISSES ME OFF IDK WHY IM SORRY IT JUST RUBS ME THE WRONG WAY I HAVE TRIED TO LOVE IT I REALLY HAVE BUT I CANT#AND MADARA HAD SOME GOOD POINTS BUT I THINK ITS SHITTY THAT HE ABANDONED HIS CLAN AND THEN PLOTTED THE END OF THE FUCKING WORLD#ALSO ITACHI HAD LIKE OTHER OPTIONS!???? WHY THE FUCK DID HE TORTURE SASUKE TWICE LIKE 😭😭😭#WHAT WAS THE POINT MY G WHY ARE YOU TORTURING HIM I THINK THE MENTAL IMAGE OF THEM DYING WAS ENOUGH DIDNT NEED TO GIVE HIM 500000 EXAMPLES#WE AS A SOCIETY DO NOT TALK ENOUGH ABOUT THE FACT THAT WHEN MADARA ASKED HASHIRAMA TO EITHER KHS OR KILL TOBIRAMA#TOBIRAMA GENUINELY THOUGHT FOR A MOMENT THAT HASHIRAMA WOULD GO AFTER HIS THROAT FOR LIKE- THIS GUY WHO HE USED TO THROW STONES WITH!???#ITS SO DIFFICULT TO FIND PEOPLE WHO UNDERSTAND SASUKES TRAUMA AND WHO LIKES SASUSAKU 😭😭#COS LIKE ILL 100% ADMIT THAT THE RELATIONSHIP WAS WRITTEN SHITILY AND SUCKED AND DESPITE THE FACT THAT THEYRE SUPPOSED TO BE LIKE BROTHERS#SNS HAS BETTER WRITING THAN SSK OR NRHN SOMEHOW???? ITS WRITTEN SO WELL PEOPLE GENUINELY BELIEVE THE ORIGINAL PLOT HAD SNS PLANNED#BUT ALSO SAKURA IS SO SILLY AND STRONG AND DID ANY OF YOU READ SASUKE RETSUDEN “Trapped by a body he knew perfectly”#OKAY SASUKE YOURE ON A MISSION??? CALM THE FUCK DOWN 😭😭#NO AND IN LIKE SSK FICS SASUKE IS SOME BAD BOY WHO JUST SMIRKS AND IS EMOTIONLESS AND SAKURA IS SOOOOO EMOTIONAL FUCK OFF YOU TWATS!!!!#SASUKE IS THE KITTEN!! SAKURA SO OBVIOUSLY RADIATES DADDY ENERGY YALL ARE FUCKING INSANE!!!#WHY DO WE GET KITTEN SASUKE IN EVERY OTHER SHIP BUT THE FUCKING CANON ONE!! AT MY FUCKING!!!! LIMIT!!!#FIND SOMEONE WHO UNDERSTANDS THE COMPLEXITYS OF SASUKES CHARACTER AND UNDERSTANDS WHAT TRAUMA DOES TO A PERSON YET DOESNT HATE SSK CHALLENG#Uh oh I went a bit mad there hahaha#I REGRET NOTHING SASUKE DID NOTHING WRONG SAKURA IS GIRL BOSS AND THE NARUTO WORLD IS EITHER UNEXPLAINABLY VIOLENT OR FAR TOO FORGIVING#naruto#naruto shippuden#itachi uchiha#pro sasuke#haruno sakura#Pro Sakura#Sasuke Uchiha#sasuke did nothing wrong#It looks awkward to just go from all those long tags to the iddy bitty ones#Moldy-flowers#Kitten and daddy? Tf am i on about I've been watching too much game grumps shi 😭😭
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I feel weirdly compelled by this
#like the way jarno has to be on his tiptoes in the first gif#and the way adrian keeps grabbing him to try and placate him#THE LAST GIF ESPECIALLY#idk just very very interesting vibes#me when race car drivers argue: 😳😳😳#not that im being particularly shippy abt it. i mean i really dont even think these two have even interacted really before this point#but theres just something about it idk...compells me#i think its just because of the height difference that makes me go insane no matter the context#also why are they both kinda caked up-#honestly what a wild crash. its so funny bcs theyre here like this like:#jarno bitching at adrian x adrian trying to calm him down(even tho it was pretty much jarnos fault imo)#and then(not pictured on screen) fernando in the corner who also was taken out in the crossfire 😭😭#theres this pic where all three are walking to the pits#and its funny bcs they didnt even notice nano crashed so its like hey wait wtf are you doing here??????#well anyways this was captioned 'the girls are fighting!' in my race notes and its very apt#more gifs to come obv :D#f1#formula 1#formula one#2009 brazilian gp#jarno trulli#adrian sutil#*i am actually so blind wow. i said nano not pictured but he literally right there in the back 🤦♀️#fernando alonso#we do a little bit of f1#season: 2009
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my 1 (one) stardew opinion is shane should not have won the bachelor poll
#stardew valley#like i love shane but his storyline is not improved by him being a marriage canidate#if anything his bland post-marriage dialogue and 14 heart event dampen the message#and clint would have been a GREAT bachelor#linus not so much because he would have suffered from the same post-marriage dialogue dampening as shane#and he's too much of a free spirit to be tied down to your farm#like maybe he'd have a similar romance path as krobus? like you don't get MARRIED married but you have a commitment ceremony!!!#and the wizard... need to be in a love square with the witch and caroline...#his hidden dialogue. the situation with abigail. his adulterous past. his condescending behavior towards the player.#i also don't think he'd marry the player though. would probably make you soul bonded or something#maybe it increases your health or smth? and if you get divorced your health gets cut in half for like a week while you slowly recover#idk i really like the idea of him cursing you if you divorce him. 'not a very mature way to express anger' my ass#clint... i need to marry him...#there's a mod which makes his storyline WAYYY too similar to shane for my liking#with him going to therapy and stuff#but it DID make him realize being around emily makes him uncomfortable which i really like#i think a good route for him to go down would be him recognizing that what he feels for emily is not love or even desire#it's anxiety. emily is nice to him which makes him uncomfortable because no one is nice to him#which he confuses for attraction and he confuses her kindness for reciprocation#i think if emily ever asked him out he would turn her down#like emily would come up to you and be like 'hey i realize clint has a crush on me and i think it's really sweet so i'm gonna ask him out'#and then she does and he just goes 'O-O erm... no thank you...'#which confuses emily but she accepts being turned down and later on#clint talks to you about it like 'i thought that was what i wanted but her asking me out made me really uncomfortable and i don't know why'#and in a romance route he gets with you specifically because you make him feel calm :)#originally i wanted to say this was my most controversial stardew opinion but a LOT of people hate shane. so#also emily shouldn't have won the poll either!!!#sandy would have been a MUCH better option to flesh out her character and the desert more#marnie would have been interesting considering her relationship with mayor lewis#and i hate penny so i would fuck her mom out of spite lmaoooo
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TBH the best case scenarios in my mind for Fit's lore ending on Thursday are either:
Madagio has mercy. They know what it's like to lose everyone they love, and seeing what's happening on Quesadilla Island is just a reminder of everything they loved and lost. Madagio releases Fit, and he reunites with Pac e Mike and Richarlyson, and they're all able to leave Quesadilla Island.
Or:
Madagio and Fit destroy the Federation together. Fit goes full 2B2T mode and there's nothing left of the Federation once they're finished. Madagio and Fit finally have their revenge. (And then maybe Fit can reunite with Pac + all his loved ones and they escape the Island, or reclaim the island for their own since the Federation no longer has any power over them).
Bonus: A very unlikely but "Wouldn't it be fun?" scenario would be Pac and Mike flying down on a fully-grown dragon Richas and rescuing Fit from Vacuus Island and they fly away and live happily ever after.
#i talk#qsmp talk#Genuinely need a vacation after the past two weeks (or however long it's been)#I keep seeing people say ''the best case scenario is Fit dying lol'' and I clearly care WAY too much because seeing that made me legit mad#Did my whole ''lmao ok let's calm down and take a walk'' and went out for a few hours only to come back and be like#''no actually I'm still mad. This entire situation sucks.''#I think this will probably be the last mcyt type series I let myself get invested in. I'm so exhausted of being disappointed#and the constant angst the fandom churns out#I wanna be able to love things without getting burned#I've got enough things to be sad over irl I don't want my escapism series making me sad too#Worst case scenario for me is Fit dying or him getting trapped in 2b2t again#and/or him saying q!Pac is dead#I'll be honest: CCs killing off their character feels like a betrayal to the people who have spent so much time loving them#and like yeah there probably ARE ways to do it well#but it's like. why would you choose that option there are so many better options#negative#idk man I'm just frustrated by this whole thing#all the untagged suicide jokes are making me frustrated too
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HAPPY BRITHDAY TO HIM!!!!🥰 Captain Eustass Kid ♡
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#my art#artists on tumblr#one piece fanart#eustass kid#ユースタス・キッド誕生祭2024#yes that is a Twitter hashtag and I'm using it here too 😗#i love him so much 😭🥰#art wip#idk why I'm procrastinating so hard!!! 😭 come on me JUST PUSH THE POST BUTTON!!!#I'm not kidding I'm such a chicken cause I couldn't even post it on Twitter 💀 and I thought posting here would be easier!?!?#okokjajsla it's ok calm down *breath in and out* ok you got this. Just push it and GO! then do the same for Twitter & maybe for IG too 😵💫
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okay ventpost time im bored and my period is late
#my mother is leaving AGAIN#to stay with my father#bhai mujhe nahi rehna akele i don't want to parent my brother#i don't want to cook or stress about what to eat and clothes and laundry and literally buying vegetables every few days#well all these things are just surface level but i REALLYYYYY do not want to live alone with my thoughts#i want to study i can't just study on my phone with no adult mere sarr pe khade hoke asking ki itna tv#kyu dekh rahi hai kya hua class kyu nahi attend kari#kar liya try bhai call me immature and childish and pathetic and dependent and undisciplined whatever but mere bas ki baat nahi hai#also ooooh listen to my moms great solution: she'll stay there and dad will come!! to live with us two!! alone!! haha.#it's sk fucking sad and repetitively traumatizing ki i don't even know how to react#my sister is the only kid both my parents like when she stays home things are mostly calm and happy#they dote on her they tolerate us#and they should i love her too but now i feel like crying because i don't want her to stay back just for me??? my stupid mental health??#she's doing enough by staying here till rakhi just because i asked her begged her to not leave me alone mami ke side#she could've fucked off and gone to live her life 10 days ago#it's not fair#the person i love and want to live with.. if she stays she's miserable and her being miserable mskes me miserable#i just. i miss her so much. she already feels so distant and busy and then she'll go abroad and totally forget about me right#who doesn't need all this constant depression holding you back weighing you down when you're living your best life#i hate that there's no solution i just have to grow up and be okay with it#i already got more time with her than i thought she stayed home like 2 years extra cause of covid#3 actually#ab why am i crying it was a good day#also i don't want to make it all about me but like. idk when i was picturing my adult life i was thinking like#night clubs and gay bars and beaches at night#i never factored in real factors like the horrifying fucking country we live in 💀💀#it's just it was the only thing that kept me going the promise of a better future#but now what.#and like#it's feels so stupid now the fact that i sometimes want to like
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gave my number out to someone (god i wish i’d come up with a good reason to say no) and reeeaaaaaalllllllyyy wish i hadn’t but wouldn’t dare make the social faux pas of ghosting them because that’s mean and also i see him almost every day of the week
#kiwi shares their thoughts#he’s so… chatty#i have 0 things against him#but i NEVER have the energy to full heartedly interact with him whenever he tries to talking to me#and he’s just so exhausting to me for some reason#i don’t vibe with him enough to talk this often dude#there’s only a small group of people who don’t drain my social battery when i interact with them#and several people who don’t drain it as bad#but idk man this dude saps all my fucking energy and tests my patience but i don’t know why because he’s literally fine#the amount of times i have been THIS CLOSE to just… deleting the contact#if only i didn’t see him basically every day#i feel bad he wants to be my friend but it’s like he’s running and i feel like i’m being dragged when i’d prefer if we were just walking#anyone got tips on how to gently tell someone to calm down and fuck off#like can i put a text limiter on him#also i don’t know if it’s normal to him but he texted me “good morning”#bitch what#we literally are forced to see each other in like 2 hours the hell you mean good morning just fucking wait dude#my BEST FRIENDS AND I don’t even exchange good morning texts#that’s too much for me w someone who quite frankly is essentially a rando to me besides his name#anyways
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hi Princess
i hope you are doing well
please tell us a little about your new job with the doggies!
#here are a few pictures from today 🥰🫶#I have SO many pictures now it’s crazy#I should probably go through them cause I’m sure a lot of them are blurry but some are gems I must say#my favorite parts are probably when my yard is quiet and calm for a little bit (usually at night) and I sit down#and usually a bunch of them come rushing over to sit next to me#I can’t tell you how much I love it when a puppy lays on me or sits on my lap#it’s the best 🥰#there are definitely a few challenges to the job but I’m sure I’ll be able to deal#the hard part is it doesn’t give me enough hours and I don’t think it’ll be enough $$ either#so I’m gonna have to find another job which really really sucks#I’m already so exhausted with this one idk how I’m gonna juggle another one on top of it#but I need to figure out a way to get my own car and move out of my parents place#I love my parents so much but why can’t they just let me be me?#my friend literally said it sounds like they’re putting me on a leash and that’s EXACTLY what it feels like#not gonna get into it but it’s been rough lately#life hasn’t been the best so I’m sorry I’ve been so quiet lately#haven’t replied to anyone in awhile#but thankfully work has been good and I’ve been able to meet some amazing angels 🫶🥰❤️❤️❤️❤️#I just wish it paid better#also gotta figure out a way to wear my headset so it doesn’t trigger my migraines cause that’s been a struggle#really really REALLY hope one day I’m able to get my own puppy but at least for now I get to take care of other dogs 🥰🥰🥰🥰#ask#thanks for asking 🫶
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meanwhile my experience with being asexual is just like. constant self hatred and apologizing about it
#it's just. idk it's ace week and no one is talking about it#and i go in the tags and it's just. ace culture is basically all memes#and it's fine but like. i enjoy having serious conversations about it#i never get to talk about it because it's such a non thing#ace culture is like it's filling the hole that comes from not having a sexuality with jokes about bread and cake and dragons for some reason#but like. i want to talk about how sad and lonely it is a lot of the time. but it's a thing where it feels so self imposed#like of course no one wants to be romantic with me in any sense when i am so awkward from past trauma#combined with the fact that i will never be able to give them what they actually are aiming for#like. high school was fucking miserable.#i mean i'm already crying so why not make it worse here#it's just. i feel like i am missing out on so much and i hate that i am made to feel like this#and no one fucking takes me seriously when i try to talk about it#it's a big part of who i am and it's always a shadow because it just doesn't matter#i just... i want people to see the beauty not in filling that void with other memey shit and just. acknowledge the void#internally and externally and in every way possible being asexual is so crushingly lonely and no one ever talks about it#we're not in ba sing se we can talk about it please#and now i will apologize#and i will lay down because i have a headache and i need to calm down
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scared they're just. keeping in touch. because I give them my money by buying tickets and merch orz
#stupid anxieties and paranoia lmao#maybe this is why i have such a hard time getting to know people irl and forming proper interpersonal relationships#because i tend to be cringe and overshare way too early#and it's not like i scare people off BUT i scare myself into withdrawing and the connection doesn't go anywhere from that point in#*on. and there's always this aftertaste of of i told them way too much too fast#this is awkward and i'm so embarrassed. they know way more about me than i know about them.#and then i kinda. run away and isolate#making everything even worse and not fixing anything#maybe it's just. the fear of people seeing my innermost self. and thinking i'm disgusting and ugly and broken and not worth their time#IDK just. low key spiralling 👍#i should shut up my brain and just watch saw. maybe that'll calm me down
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#been trying to like. play it cool around my friends#but hdjsjsjd i think im done with that. like. im down bad. why should i pretend otherwise NDNJDNDNZNZ#gonna go full lovey dovey mode tomorrow idc idc !!!!! im a lover girl. like why do i pretend im not. they already KNOW#im not slick..... JZJJXJXNXNXJXNX#personal#hes so.... like. sweet. idk how to like HXJXJXNJXJ FUNCTION??????#our convos (from the outside) are probs so mundane LMAO. i literally.... idc. hes so cute. n we're just in our weird lil bubble !!!!#and like !!!!! god. how do i explain this. but like in person.... he just like. understands me. like i dont even have to use Words. he just#like... can Read me JDJXJJXJXJDJX?????#and like sometimes if i pause bc i dont know what word to use.. he fills one in for me n hes RIGHT. HES RIGHT. HE KNOWS WHAT I WAS GONNA SA#LIKE WHAT IS THAT. WHATTT IS THAT#and like. hes so considerate HHDJDNDNDJ. like..... i really just. . . is he real JDNDNNDNXNX#bc hes also like. so prickly LMAO GOD. hes so my type like. i cant believe hes real#n if he likes me like i think he does..... i really ........................#what did i do to ever deserve this........................ thats crazy#we'd be such a good fit for each other bc like. im so anxious n hes so like. calm ??? collected????#god........................ this is gonna sound SO.....#but like. in my chart. i have absolutely no air signs alright#hes an air sign... and so im like. is this..... complementary NFJFNNFNFD#bc imagine if hes mostly air signs. thatd be crazy. like we'd literally......#i cant even think about it oh i like him so much........ hes like. my most favourite of all the people i think JDJDJJDNDNDN#i like him more n more the more i get to know him JDJDJDJDJ
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had a moment of whimsy followed by a moment of genuine irritation
#i went outside for 20 mins bc i felt like crawling out of my skin and thought swinging alone in the windy weather would maybe help me calm#down just a bit. like a little tiny bit#for the first 5 mins i felt like my heart would burst from the anxiety of being in my neighborhood and ppl seeing me through their windows#i get so weird about existing in public (has an anxiety disorder)#i started swinging aggressively and started calming down a bit#then this little kid got onto the swing next to me and his dad started pushing him#and i could hear the kid laughing through my headphones blasting music#i started smiling without realizing and then made eye contact w the kids dad while smiling 😭#and tjen i took off my headphones bc i felt obligated to say hello just to be polite idk!#and i was like aww how old is heee so cute#the kid was 5#and then the dad was like how about yourself? i went: im 20 haha#and he was like. Oh? i thought you were like 12 years old. 🤨#PLEASE?#and then i was like haha yeah! i get that a lot! (no i don't?)#im actually a uni student#and he asked me what i was studying so i said psych#and he was like yeah youll need a masters there arent any jobs in that with just a bachelor's#and i was like I know right! ill probably get a PhD haha the job market is so horrible!#and then he was like so you live at home? and i was like yeah its so much cheaper!#and then awkward silence i said nice to meet u and got the fuck out of there#like why did he have to tell me i needed a masters Bitch I KNOWWWWWWWWWWWW my life is already falling apart dont remidn em 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#it was way more wholesome when i jjst smiled silently at him and his cute ass chuld#z.post
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neuroses ruining yr life is a real missing the forest for the trees type beat but man im trying to see
#like i have to stop myself and realize#the reason why im so paranoid and upset worrying if people like me or enjoy being my friend or even are my friends#is bc i feel annoying and like ppl only placate me#but constantly fixating on that instead of like idk just fostering a normal relationship based on shared experiences and getting along#is kinda shooting me in the foor#*foot#and i KNOW this! but i still do it! bc every time something happens i convince myself its something new#when all it is is me reading into peoples emotions too much#bc im scared and preempting the strike#but its silly#like the main person my ocd is worried abt if theyre my friend or not#just the other day this person looked at me like the camera on the office when some bs was happening#like thats bestie shit#like bitch i made it i made a friend#i need to calm down#im actually… likeable… shocking i knlw#most people find me funny and charming#unfortunately getting comfortable around people means letting the neuroses out#even if i dont want to#its ironic bc it means i only fuck over the relationships i care about!#well anyway. this is another daily reminder to myself to calm down bc its gonna be okay
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I would love to get into more new farm sim and visual novel games, but I feel like a lot of them not only fail to create their own unique games, but present a very sanitized story and characters.
For the uniqueness aspect - it's not enough to create "stardew valley but 3d and in space" or something. It's still a stardew valley copy. Taking inspiration is one thing, but what new are you bringing to the table if your only source of inspiration is one game? I've already spent hundreds of hours with these exact mechanics on another game, why should I do that on something that is basically just a reskin of that?
And I feel like when it comes to characters and story, a lot of creators are afraid of negative feedback or doing something wrong, so they keep all of their characters very "morally good" and pure and sanitized so there's no real character development. Characters may have a troubled past or struggle with something, but god forbid if it affects them as a character in any negative way.
Idk something about marketability ruining creativity.
#this is not just a problem with these genres! like i know in soulslikes its a problem how many of the games play out exactly like#hollow knight or bloodborne#but like idk man compare very marketable games to something like f&h? and incredible deeply flawed experience that brings so much to the#table with its gameplay mechanics and has interesting lore and amazing character designs#bc the creator did not focus on marketability. sure. once again. it has its flaws. many of them. and i get why they turn people off from#the game and i dont blame anyone who doesnt want to play it due to anything that happens in it. but like. it's a good game!#but yea the fucking sdv copies and VERY sanitized vn characters are driving me a bit insane#its so so incredibly bland#idk i just had to ramble about this augh#also i know i worded this very harsh but it just kind of gets on my nerves gfhjxbdk#maybe i need to look at my itch io folder of games i want to play and calm down#bc the world is full of wonderful deeply meaningful games with unique takes#leevi talks
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#negativity cw#mother mention cw#randomly remembering a few weeks before I started my first year of college and went off to the dorms#my mom wanted me to get a haircut#my hair was a little past my shoulders I think? And she wanted me to get it cut chin length#and I didn’t want to#and I don’t really remember the details but we ended up getting into a really bad fight#and my mom threatened me that if I didn’t get this haircut she would not help me with college advice#I.e. would not give any emotional support or suggestions#and strongly implied there might bkto be financial help either (they were paying)#so I went and sat in the car#I was actually crying because of how upset I was#And she actually told me to take a few minutes before I started driving to calm down#And I drove their and got it#And I hated myself for it so much. That I just gave in#A while later she kinda half-assedly apologized but not really#and I do t even remember why she wanted me to get it so badly#I think she thought that short hair would be easier to manage in the dorms? Or maybe I was getting split ends? Idk#Anyway six weeks into the semester I dropped out and came back home (long story)#and then i made their lives hell for the next 5.5 years while living at home and having my college adventures#Until I graduated and moved out#So I guess in the long run I won that one lol?
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