#idk what I’m saying I’m done now

[m-a-d-e-l-e-i-n-e]

*The Boys spoilers*

I love The Boys but is anyone else afraid it’ll just get redundant. We know that season 5 has been confirmed already, so is the big event in season 4 just kind of going to be that they almost get Homelander again but not quite? I liked season 3 but it’s also my least favorite season so far mostly because it didn’t feel like it really went anywhere with the ending.

[loullipopx]

Hello hello plugging in my ko-fi once more as atm I’m in a bitsie of a struggle because I just got unemployed. Again. So ye if you’d like to help out, here’s the link ! Any help is welcome, and thank you for sharing ;;

[canarydraws]

Putting wips of your characters from different campaigns on the same page is a mistake I was just trying to compare them for height reference and I accidentally created a fairy gf/goth gf dynamic! Now I’m SAD and MAD because these two are my own characters and the only way I’ll ever get to see them together is if I go off the rails and actually draw AU content for them!

…which I might. I have no idea what I’d draw but literally them just standing on the same page is cute and I want to see what my 5’5 space paladin and my 6’3 pf magus would do if they ever existed in the same room

[sea-jello]

Day 21/October 21: Day of the Departed || Reminisce (??)

GRAHH ITS STILL THE 21ST SOMEWHERE i’m apparently using morrotober to try new things this one’s a new lineart brush that i’m sorta warming up to and the POSE and the BACKGROUND and the LIGHTING i’m surprised i finished this at all tbh. and also new morro design

bg lineart and sword vs neither plus the green ghost fog thing i do basically if you zoom in really really close the lines aren’t smooth on the lineless bgs but icba the pedestal can be chipped or something. i kinda like without the sword and fog cause it gives him a more isolated feel yk (that was my original idea lmao)

this one’s my attempt at funky mannequin hands

[bbyboybucket]

Sorry I have to repost these tags ab Bucky being a congressman bc I have more to say on it. I just think that a choice like this would feel a lot less random and more fitting if we actually seen the process of it. If we actually seen him adjusting to life and deciding “hey I wanna make a difference by being a congressman”. Bc I’m sorry, but one scene of his re-entering the social world in TFATWS to being a member of congress is a HUGE JUMP. It’s not necessarily that it’s a bad choice, it’s just that without seeing development, it’s weird.

Especially because in the trailer, Yelena (and several others but mostly her) are talking about how difficult it is to integrate into normal life and manage their trauma to do so. So I just feel like even though we’d seen Bucky start the process, it was one scene. We had a lot more to explore with him in that aspect and I hate that any growth is just not actually seen but told. Bc it probably wouldn’t feel ooc much at all if we actually explored the progression and it was a real arc instead of something they just threw in.

Also like I mentioned before, I feel weird about the fact that he physically looks like a completely different character than when we last seen him. I mean the photos of them filming a court room scene totally make sense now, considering the trailer showed congressman Bucky in a court room & at a political event talking with Val. (Well, and Seb himself saying Bucky is in congress).

But the actual costuming, hair, etc. is a very weird choice for an established character of 10+ years, and is not simply unflattering, but rather unfitting to him. I feel like the TFATWS look was the closest to his true self and best self expression. And personally I would’ve liked to see it again. It seems like I’m being petty, but if they’ve changed that much on the outside, how much has changed on the inside? And this is gonna sound so hateful and I’m sorry but additionally, I feel like raggedy hair and a goatee is not giving congressman. If they were going for a professional and mature vibe, that’s not it, and they could’ve also done that “professional” vibe while staying true to character by simply having his hair still short but a little more grown out than TFATWS and by giving him a grown out, fuller beard. Stylistically it’s strange.

Back to the general convo of him being a congressman tho, idk. As I said, very happy he’s portrayed in a better light but I just feel like it leaves so much off screen. There’s a whole arc that we’re missing out on of him settling down, becoming more confident (bc you have to have confidence to campaign for a congress seat and TFATWS Bucky was not there), coming to terms with his past, and re-entering society as well as learning to contribute to it. Imo, that’s a very very huge jump and it’s especially weird to cut it out in a movie that’s all about accepting who you are and finding purpose.

[zeb-z]

talking entirely character wise. do you think today was a bit of a wake up call for bad. do you think he heard red screaming out of their minds begging for toxic gas and thought about how they’ve lost their minds just a little bit. do you think that when he was given an immediate no when he asked where the red egg was to help them defend he understood how deep of a rift he created. do you think as he sat there silent while the rest of red cheered at killing the egg statue, he wondered if he could have pushed them a little too far. do you think that maybe, just maybe, with the red sun beating down on him in that desert, the gas mask team cheering and dancing, he felt for a single moment the consequences of his actions? that maybe, if he hadn’t started out so hostile with extreme tactics, if he hadn’t been so bloodthirsty and ruthless, if he had had just a little bit of hesitation, that his own attempts at diplomacy would have gone over better? that the rest of the teams would have listened? that red would have trusted his judgement on the egg statues, or at the very least respected him enough to honor an agreement? do you think he realizes that burning his bridges may have fucked him over?

[grocerystoreanxiety]

my tolerance for ppl is getting concerningly low

[ozcarma]

I’m actually so upset over the grimmons resolution I’m tempted to start a YouTube channel and make a whole video breakdown of their fucking queerbait

[lyriumsings]

the excuse of “it’s an adaptation of coURSE it’s not going to be perfect” is so funny to me as if one piece didn’t do MONUMENTALLY WELL bc it is a literal frame by frame copy of the source material and tbh that’s not even exactly what i wanted (mostly bc it’s impossible to achieve with atla in live action and it not look cringey and cheap as fuck) but it’s such a lazy excuse lmfao they had what? over 8 hours of content atla runs for the same time (actually even less if you take out the beginning and ending credits) so this excuse of cutting down for the sake of time is a joke. they had the time to do the proper plot points they chose not to for the sake of adding weird death scenes, weird clunky romances with sokka? and massacring the plot points. it felt like the people who made this show hated atla tbqh. like the only parts they liked were the “main quest parts” (spoiler alert damn near everything that happens in atla is relevant to the main plot down to katara’s fucking necklace and sokka’s boomerang) it feels like they didn’t know the source material at best and at worst straight up didn’t fucking care. None of the characters are true to their core traits, none of the arcs are treated with any kind of respect or even just the courtesy of basic coherence. i don’t understand how anyone who actually likes and understands atla can go “oh em gee it’s just bandwagon hate it was actually so good teehee” have some fucking standards for gods sake

[alluralater]

i been thinkin lately about why a lot of people i’ve been with end up coming out as nonbinary or are nonbinary and sometimes people are like what’s your gender and i’m like [shrug] i’m a woman, whatever that means :) cause it’s all generally defined by my experience and oppression opposite those who are classified as men, whatever that means. and i tend to have great big feelings for nonbinary people because we always feel so incredibly safe with one another. like they are the nearest and dearest to my heart for some reason even before i know they are or they know they are. anyways all this to say, i don’t really care what you call me or whatever cause gender is a construct and i’m not bob the builder

[bilestat]

insane how quickly something small can tank my mood

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

i love getting calls going “hi we’re a cancer support group at the hospital-”

[tana-draws]

my brain is so fucking stupid. I was bullied in fourth grade, my friends were like “actually erm we don’t want to be friends with you :/“ on the second to last day of eighth grade (even though we were all zoned for different high schools and would never see eachother anyway). And because of that my brain is, as my therapist and mother (two different people,) theorized, “hyper vigilant for any perceived social ostrichaztion”. The thing is it’s fucking stupid about it. Sure it has the generic “uwu your friends probably hate you secretly” thing.

But it also. Like: I’ll see a post that is somewhat negative towards a thing I like or a trait I even remotely identify with (including stuff as vague as ‘nervous’ or ‘writer’) and I’ll be like “yeah that makes sense” or “I don’t agree but I also don’t care”. But then my brain will repeat the negative phrase on loop for like a week. And will trigger physical reactions (crying, shortness of breath, etc) in response to it. I’ve actually had public panic attacks over things I give 0 shits about because my brain is a fucking helicopter parent.

[spacespore]

HI TUMBLRR it’s me

[incorrectquotesideas-deactivated]

Person A: Do you want a beer? I’m paying.

Person B, going through the restaurant’s menu: No. Ugh, where’s the good stuff?

Person A, half jokingly: I thought you were an alcoholic.

Person B: Exactly. I’d need at least, like, four beers — without food — to get slightly buzzed, and my stomach can’t fit over 2 beers in it. I’m small. I’ll have a rum, neat.

[calico-kiwi]

i have been learning taekwondo for ALMOST A YEAR ALREADY so how come it wasn’t until LITERALLY TODAY it dawned on me I can now use my newly acquired fighting knowledge to WRITE COOL AND BETTER FIGHT SCENES FOR MARIBAT OH MY GOOOODDDD IVE LITERALLY BEEN TOO AFRAID TO REALLY WRITE FIGHT SCENES BUT THIS IS LIKE SO PERFECT

anyways catch me daydreaming abt writing maribat stuff again, hopefully we can turn the daydreaming into daydoing (or maybe nightdoing)