#so hopefully tumblr shows this to the right people PROPERLY

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Mutuals, behold! I come bearing gifts!

I drew :3

Yeah yeah I know I spent an ungodly amount of time working on this fighting for my life on every little detail. But it was fun. And good practice. Probably. One week on and off. I kinda got lazy by the end but… anyways !

Everyone in order of appearance

@/ward-leon’s OC Renat(a) ! That’s how you spell it right? Anywho Leon is genuinely such a pleasant person to talk to and interact with so I just had to draw em.. aaa the silly :3:3:3:3

@/mourningarchivist seems so cool.. and mysterious [!!!] They get to keep the golden star sticker, they deserve it. Also the executives yearn for slop… [shivers].

Komajoni CEO @/faaake-radio had this neat pirate-esque oc ‘nd I just had to draw her. Yes I am falling victim to pirate propaganda… also yeah I like Komajoni they are cute!! I was dying drawing the tiny komajoni figures tho AAAAA

@/centimetercat has been around since… basically the very beginning of my blog [ever since it was first made to be a Kittisaurus side blog] and they’ve been lovely so I couldn’t leave them out . I actually don’t know if centi has like a persona or an oc but there was this cool little guy in their banner ! [blasts you with my kitty meow meow beam]. Second best option was to draw a centimeter long TT

Best friend and the other half of the Suiciduo[l], YAX!! Slash @/yalkyu. She is a dumb idiot moron and I love her so whatever. Insert eye rolling emoji here. I made her design a little like Osamu Dazai [yeah the guy from BSD that she kins to an unhealthy degree], hopefully she’ll notice.

@/gazismywife is my very lovely long distance friend who I love and who’s art I adore. And I am be overdue to draw their persona… which I promised months ago. Whoops sorry I have the memory of a fly.. but their character was so pretty I needed to do it!

Last but not least , the rat ever. @/yellow-corruption. Aka younger sister Fizzi. Who I hate. I gave up putting effort into this fuck you Fizzi

Also also! I drew cats!! Try to see who’s who ;3 Obligatory kitty cat posting. Don’t think I need to explain

Uhmmm ^_^ okay I hope you like them I’m gonna go hide under the covers neow bye!!!

[hoshinasblade]

For real, the animator had ri have been a Hoshina loyalists. Cause no way he looks that bad. For a Narumi prompt it could be funny that he gets with someone that doesn't know him. Someone who doesn't believe he is the 1st division captain because they only see him as the "wet cat" version of himself. And we have Narumi losing his mind over the fact you don't believe him

(not sure where tumblr took my post again because i cant find it lol) the budget went to hoshina and his tight shirt and there was nothing left to animate narumi properly. anyway, this is such a cute and interesting prompt because because yes, he is losing his mind over you not believing he is the cool first division captain 😆

pairing: gen narumi x f!reader trigger warnings: narumi gen is a trigger warning himself, just super short because im not used to writing anything narumi-related yet. hopefully you don't get mad at me anon for not going exactly per the ask lol my brain is a mush right now, i'll try harder on my next fics

the rich man is here, shouted the kids from the hallway. you can hear their hurrying footsteps - excited little taps that in turn triggered your heartbeat to race as well. you shut your eyes, calming yourself down.

narumi gen is not exactly a rich man; the children in the orphanage just calls him that fondly. apparently he has been dropping by for years, way back when you weren't working as a teacher yet. the older orphans refer to him as nii-san.

narumi would bring toys snd snacks for the kids, and would spend time with them until the early evening before he has to say goodbye. last time, he played video games with everyone; he brought crayons and sketch boobs for his visit today, and within an hour, it was eerily quiet - the little girls and boys holding their pencils, drawing all sorts of things.

the youngest in your herd, a six-year old boy with a missing front tooth ran to you when he saw you by the door, showing you his drawing - a stick-man figure with a knife in its hand, and an animal beside it which you were not sure whether it's an oversized dog or a giraffe.

"it's a kaiju, and narumi nii-san is fighting it", the boy explained, and you patted him in the head. "he's a captain of his team, i'm gonna be like him when i grow up!"

you looked at narumi who is sitting on the floor, but he was already looking at you. you shifted your gaze. "this is so pretty, we should display it in the art wall", you suggested to the boy who grinned at you, clapping.

"you know that it's not a good thing to do, lying to kids, right?" the children had bid narumi goodbye just past 7pm, and although some of them cried, narumi was quick to promise he would be back next weekend. you were surprised, he used to only be here once a month.

"huh?" he responded to you with confusion. you walked him out the orphanage to the parking lot outside. "i don't know what you're talking about."

"look, i know you are trying to be nice. and i thank you for that. what you've done for these kids is more than anyone else have done for them. but telling them you're some guy who kills kaiju is wrong. and telling them they can be like you?" you scoffed.

narumi's mouth was wide open before he realized you have finished your speech. "but i am a guy who kills kaiju", he replied, his hand on his chest as if he is swearing on his life. "really, i'm not lying. i'm the captain of my team -"

"right, and you fight kaiju on the daily," you finished his sentence for him.

"yes, i am a real badass, i promise!" he exclaimed when he sensed you do not believe him in the slightest. it looks comical how he looks close to panicking over the fact that you are not buying whatever he's selling. he frowned at you, and you stared at him, the eye contact lasting for a few seconds.

maybe this guy is a con-artist and he makes his living manipulating people, you said to yourself. this would make a lot of sense considering you think he has the good looks to lure people in. narumi had flirted at you once or twice before - or you wish he was flirting and you were not just reading too much on his actions.

"you know if you meet my friends, they would tell you the truth," he suggested, his voice cheerful.

"why would i meet your friends?" you asked, equally confused.

"so they can tell you that i am the coolest captain of the anti-kaiju defense force. they would also tell you i am a good man and a dependable friend," narumi said, reciting maybe the contents of his curriculum vitae to you. is he in a job interview? you wanted to ask but didn't.

you sighed in defeat. "are your friends as exasperating as you are?" you asked in jest.

"come on, let me impress you", he told you with sincerity that is almost startling. you were not expecting him to sound so genuine, so adamant at proving himself to you.

the kids will have their dinner in a few minutes and you will be needed to help out. you gave narumi one last glance before strolling back to the orphanage. "i'm off on fridays", you said.

narumi's smile could have lighted the entire street.

[chocobje]

Hi! Me and my best friend are huge fans of your au, however they don’t have tumblr and wanted to ask a question so!!

ok so, I’m not entirely sure what they mean, so I’ll just put here their exact words,

“So yk how they like determined if some twisteds r passive as opposed to all of them being aggressive what’s the deal with communicating like cus twisted glisten talks in canon so”

it’s alright if you can’t answer it, again I’m not sure what they really mean myself but hey I’m not very good with English so you possibly might.

First of all, I'm so happy you two love my AU! It means so much to hear people enjoying my silly ideas :"D

I hope I answered this right, but from what I understood your friend is saying how it's possible to communicate with the Twisted's who are at the 3rd Stage? I've actually thought about this beforehand, and none of the Twisted's at Stage 3 aren't able to talk, whether it's the passive or aggressive ones. Their throats and vocals chords built too much ichor that they can only really make grunts, whines, or just any incoherent noises.

Some may be passive, but they're not themselves anymore. Best way I can describe this is that 3rd Stage Twisteds are just animals, they rely solely on their instincts. Some are more aggressive, some go run and hide. Gardenview practically became a jungle full of these creatures.

I'm going to bring up Looey since he's the only passive Twisted I've showed. If Brightney goes near him, he won't attack unless she tries to harm him. If she tries to communicate, he won't understand a single thing because he lost the ability to properly think and behave from the ichor. Memories for 3rd Stage Twisteds and above are fuzzy and it gets worse the more they die.

Another thing I never brought up I think is that Twisted's can attack other Twisted's. There's a reason why Boxten and Poppy have died 4 times by now, and with that they became even stronger, but worse.

Hopefully this makes sense, I'm happy to answer any questions y'all have about the AU it gives me an excuse to yap as much as I can lol, I've thought a lot of things that differentiates it from the original canon of DW.

[bloggingboutburgers]

I think everyone will benefit from properly tagging posts. xreader fics abd ship fics ONLY include the relevent _x_ tags but none of the character's name on its own, allowing all the usual fanart, theories and such to stay on the main name tag and not be crowded out by horny fanfiction (I say this as someone who very much enjoys very horny, very smutty xreader fanfictions. I want to be able to search the fics I want directly without having to trawl through headcanon posts, fanart, unrelated ship posts, etc.).

No one really has a tailored experience on the internet (I'm glad tumblr is at least a little more user dictated than advertiser algorithm based), but I do get the frustration and discomfort that comes from the abundant hornyposting feeling inescapable.

It's tempting to take offence to persistent cries against xreader stuff. I like special POV episodes of shows for the same reason I like xreader fics. My favourite characters WERE the company I kept, my only real form of companionship (albeit simulated) for many many years. Not because I am allo, basically. I sought something to meet my social needs growing up where I was unable to find community or companionship in real life.

Unfortunately, because they are usually sexual in nature I just came to associate a need for human connection with sex (so am I allo or just conditioned to blend sexual, platonic and romantic feelings and actions together?). I was just happy to feel like I had someone to hang out with. I knew they weren't real and that I needed to find real people to connect with (not for lack of trying, kids are just cruel. Finally made friends as an adult, yay).

Didn't intend for any of that to be so sad or pathetic, but hopefully it gives context for the prevalence of xreader fics. Alongside the varied reasons people write / read them (no just blind allo horniness), especially in light of the widespread loneliness epidemic over the past decade.

It's still more than ok to not want anything to do with them either (be it due to being aroace or not - I know plenty of allos who find xreader fics cringe).

Something I need to clarify here – we get it. Well, we don't fundamentally get it, but trust me, we've been told time and time again why people would write/draw/be into xreader content (it's all part of the package of "aroaces MUST put themselves in allo people's shoes at all times"), and we know they're perfectly legitimate reasons, and we don't find it sad or pathetic, or cringe. At the very least I don't at all. That's not what it's about. It's not something as surface-level at that.

The thing is... The same kind of understanding effort is VERY rarely put forward in return for us. And the fact that we're perceived as naysayers is symptomatic of this. We're not crying against xreader content. People are free to do whatever they want. We just want it to be tagged to keep ourselves safe, and so we can appreciate some variety and find fandom content we can properly connect with with the identity we have.

The issue isn't that there is xreader content, or heck, that there's lots of it. It's that, as @kaoruko-han put it, "everyone is assumed to be into this", and that you can't express something as simple as "I'd rather read something else" without being finger-pointed as a villain.

Yeah, no one has a tailored experience online, but there's still a very clear lack of balance on what is acceptable to tailor to or not (and for us, that includes tumblr). And trying to find fan-content while being sex-repulsed? Bruh, you'd better pray on your lucky stars and be ready to trudge through an ocean of stuff that's loaded with the very thing that makes you scared, uncomfortable or downright triggers a feeling of sickness in you, because a lot of it ain't tagged. An alarming amount of people don't bother, because why would people like you exist, right? There's only ever them, and puritan bigots. It's that black and white in a lot of people's heads.

Here's the difference though: we, too, want people to be able to vibe to whatever fan content they want. We just wish "people" included us properly in this case. As it stands now, trying to find fan content that won't give you an uncomfortable feeling as a sex-repulsed person feels kinda like this (I'll try to illustrate that to the best of my ability as a vague comparison, please no one take that as a clear parallel, I'm literally just trying to explain how it feels in a way people who have no idea how it feels might understand): you're not into gore at all, you don't wanna look at it, but your streaming platform keeps recommending you those series that are loaded with gore. You try to filter it out, but no matter where you go, you keep being recommended those series. And no one ever gets your discomfort and you're being branded as nothing but a wet blanket for not wanting to see gore. It's kinda like that.

At this point I admire sex-repulsed or romance-repulsed people who still TRY to find anything at all in fandom spaces. I've stopped reading fanfic altogether and I've largely stopped engaging with the large majority of fandom spaces for those reasons. And that wasn't an easy choice, or one that I find fun because it feels incredibly lonely, but it's the result of years of exhaustion and strain on my mental health trying to navigate something that's so hostile to me at its core, even if it's unintentional.

So... Yeah. We know the reasons, just like the content itself, they're kinda impossible to ignore. But we are largely being ignored in this, and it's not just something at an "ick" or "picky" level ; for a sex-repulsed person, being spammed with sex entails much more than that. It's not even frustration anymore at this point, it's downright despair a lot of the time. So... Yeah, like you said, everyone would benefit from stuff being more properly tagged. For us it'd be so huge to know our safety is taken into account – that we're taken into account at all. Thing is, we're not, and we're so invisible in this and most other things that at this point, I don't have much hope. Sex-related controversies allo people can understand would sooner create a change than anything done for our sake.

[detailtilted]

Comic-Con 2008 - Enhanced Edition of Supernatural Panel

Direct link. Warning: Some of the special content I added has big spoilers for season 4 beyond the original videos.

This video features Jared, Jensen, Eric Kripke, Sera Gamble, and Ben Edlund. If you've already seen the original videos and you're wondering why you'd want to watch this, see the details about the enhancements below. For other enhanced videos, check my YouTube channel or my Tumblr index post.

Video Improvements - Upscaled, fixed bad aspect ratios, improved colors

I received a great deal of help from @sensitivehandsomeactionman on the color correcting. They gave me tips on how to achieve better colors and they even took a screen shot from my video and corrected the colors on it with their own software to provide me with an example of what was possible. Having that example to reference was invaluable for me, because I'm not good with colors.

Without that help, Jared and Jensen would have looked like they were in training to become the world's tallest Oompa Loompas. Any remaining color wonkiness (Wonka-iness?) is due to my own failure to apply what I was taught and my failure to see the colors properly. But look at that difference! I was pretty excited about this.

Combined Videos to Cover Entire Event

As with my other enhanced videos, I combined multiple videos to create as seamless a video of the event as possible, from beginning to end. For my earlier videos, that meant combining maybe 5 videos. For this one, I used a total of 19 videos from 3 different sources. A lot of those were used for the talking head bubbles, explained further below.

None of the videos are my own. My video description on YouTube has links to the original videos I used.

Good, Color-Coded Subtitles

As with my other enhanced videos, I attempted to provide accurate and as-complete-as-possible subtitles. They're color-coded to make it easier to tell who's speaking. This is especially helpful when people are speaking at the same time, or when the speaker is off camera.

Since there were so very many people talking in this video, I doubled up on a couple colors if I thought I could do so without it being too confusing. Here's the complete color key:

Red = Jared Blue = Jensen Brown = Eric Kripke Pink = Sera Gamble Purple = Ben Edlund Green = General audience Yellow = The person asking the questions. In the first half this is the moderator, Alynda Wheat. In the second half, this is the fan at the mic. White = Mostly the publicist (Holly Ollis), but a couple times it's used for people off camera who I believe were Comic-Con staff. Two shades of orange = surprise guests

Additional Clarifying Content

As with my other enhanced videos, I've added some images to help add clarity to the references used by the speakers. I added images of characters and scenes referenced from the show, images to explain various pop culture references, as well as some explanatory text to help add details or clarity when I thought it might be useful.

I mostly kept this extra content to the sides so that, if it doesn't interest you, you can hopefully ignore it and focus on the main part of the video. Unlike my previous videos, sometimes this is on the left side and sometimes it's on the right side. The margins shift depending on where the talking head bubbles are.

Talking Head Bubbles - Jared and Jensen front and center, but other speakers visible too

This "enhancement" isn't anywhere close to perfect, but it sure as heck isn't from a lack of effort. This represented at least half if not two-thirds of the time I spent working on this video.

I always find the Comic-Con videos frustrating to watch. When the camera moves to other people who are talking, I want to see Jared and Jensen instead. I like to see their reactions and sometimes they do funny things that get missed. But when the camera is steadfastly focused on Jared and Jensen, I also get frustrated because I can’t see the people who are talking. Nope, you can’t win with me! I want to see everything.

I attempted to mitigate this frustration by adding talking head bubbles. The main source videos I used were the ones with the most constant and stable focus on Jared and Jensen. However, if one of the other source videos had a decent focus on another guest, I inserted a small window into that other video as seen below. Eric shows up on the left, because that's where he was seated relative to Jared. Sera and Ben show up on the right, because they were on the other side of Jensen.

Like I said, it's not anywhere close to perfect. Trying to make the bubbles look stable was an enormous challenge for me. Behind the scenes the person in the bubble was bobbing and weaving all over the original video frame, so I had to constantly adjust the position of the secondary video to keep the subject centered in the bubble. They also aren't always bubbles. The people taking the videos often had the writers on the edge of the frame because they wanted to capture Jared or Jensen too, so the bubbles start to collapse when they get too close to the edge because there isn't enough video surrounding them to form a circle.

I haven't decided if the end result was worth how much effort I put into these darn "bubbles", so I'd welcome any feedback -- good or bad.

[roseverdict]

Writing Commissions Open!

Hey howdy hey, guess who's broke and whose brain has latched on to the idea of getting a bike or a trike to get places other than the one (1) coffee shop in walking distance!

YEP. I need to open commissions.

However, I do have at least one thing going for me- I'm told I'm fairly good at writing things! Fanfic things, at least. While I'm not dumb enough to outright go "hey, pay me to write fanfiction," I figure I can at least point out some fanfics I've written that seem to have gone over well as examples of my work, since that's most of what I've got for proof of my skills.

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I'd show more, but Tumblr won't let me add more images, and even these fought me Tooth And Nail when I was trying to format them properly. Truly a functioning website.

Hopefully these kind of give an idea of the vibes I'm strongest with, too. Pricing and rules will be under the cut. I do have a target I'm trying to reach here, but depending on how well this goes, I might end up keeping commissions open indefinitely. We'll see. :D

DM me if you're interested!

Things I'm Comfortable Writing:

Original Storylines (Brief primer on the world/characters I'll be writing with will be required)

Things like the pieces shown on my AO3 account

OCs

Y/N-style pieces (both with and without the actual usage of "Y/N")

Mild Romance

Gore/Severe Injury

Body Horror

Whump

Look, if it's in the Danny Phantom phandom and basically nowhere else, I'm probably just fine writing it, despite its intensity xD

Things I Will Not Write:

Smut. There's no shame in enjoying it, I just. Don't.

Incest. Absolutely NONE. Even leaving aside the whole debate about whether or not people should ship incest ships, I would not be able to enjoy writing it, which would make the resulting work of low quality, which would be a huge waste of time for everyone involved.

Pedophilia- specifically, ships with a minor and an adult multiple years their senior. See above. 17yo x 18yo is pushing it, but depending on the circumstances, I might allow it. They aren't exactly in completely different phases of life there. However, I'm in my 20s and don't particularly want to think about or write about kids the age of my youngest brother dating people my age or older, you feel me?

Bigotry presented to the reader as a positive thing. I'm not gonna write your favorite heroic character declaring OOC that minorities are terrible people. If you want something from the POV of a character meant to be terrible, such as someone like Fire Lord Ozai in AtLA, however, I may be willing to write it.

I reserve the right to refuse any commission and not have to explain why. Person-to-person, though, this will likely only come up if someone tries to commission something that crosses these lines and refuses to acknowledge such.

Payment: 5¢ USD per word. This works out to…

$12.50 for 250 words

$25 for 500 words

$50 for 1K words

and so on.

I'll need half the payment up front as a deposit, then the rest upon completion. If, for whatever reason, I fail to write the commission, you will be refunded in full.

If you pay me for a given number of words, I will do my best to stick to it. I will make sure you at least get your money's worth, but if I just can't quite fit the writing into the given limit, I won't charge you for the extra words. Call it 100 words or so of wiggle room.

A commission for a fic 1K or larger that runs 100 words or less over the intended length will not cost extra

A commission for a fic between 500 and 999 words that runs 50 words or less over will not cost extra

A commission for a fic 499 words or below that runs 25 words or less over will not cost extra

A commission for a fic that has enough going on to run over that limit will result in me contacting you to ask for either a scaled-down plot or payment for the extra writing.

I will not consider calling a commission complete until I can hit the target wordcount at minimum.

If it should happen that I just can't make a scene stretch to the full wordcount, but you still want to keep what is written, the words that were not written will be refunded.

[1moreff-creator]

DR:OS CH1 Part 6 First Impressions

The first trial's coming to a close! I'm equal parts nervous and excited to see how this all ends! Let's not dilly dally any longer, we got a murder to solve! >:D 

Also the docs got changed so I can actually properly play along with all the mechanics!!! Gigantic W.

CWs here.

Let's go!

“Mark: …I think I know where the murder actually happened.” Right, this was the cliffhanger. Question is, do they know of the carpet in the casino, or are they talking about something else?

“Mark: Yeah. If you think about it, we’ve talked about the locations of all the body pieces earlier, right? There are five of them. So, what if each of them is connected to the murder in some way?” Alright, uh, I'm not actually following lol. 

[Mixed Matches] Ah, the one venus hates, right? Awesome xD Let's see how the hell I format this for the Tumblr post. I'll put the options first, then the letter statements followed by what I'm matching them too.

Options Given: Upper Common Room - Movie Theater - Customer Service Area - Casino - Infirmary

[A. Where the killer picked up many critical supplies for their general murder] I'm assuming this is Customer Service Area? 

[B. Where the killer picked up many critical supplies to cut and sew the body.] Alright, Infirmary, right? We talked about this.

[C. Where the victim was killed] Uh… Well I've been going with Casino the entire time, feels silly to change that now. Also sorta process of elimination.

[D. Where the victim’s body was sewn.] Movie Theater, we've discussed this.

[E. Where the killer wanted us to think the victim was killed.] I mean, I guess Upper Common Room? But what did they do to make the cast reach that conclusion? I guess maybe they just banked on the idea that the cast would believe Cass wouldn't stray too far from their room at night? Yeah, I guess that can work. 

[Checking actual answers] Hey, I got everything right! Cool :D

My question would be what makes Mark think the killer would put the boxes in rooms connected to the murder as opposed to any random room, but maybe that'll be brought up. 

“Vanessa: But, why would the killer draw attention to the Casino like that if they didn’t want anyone to find out that the murder happened there?” Yeah that.

“Taylor: Do we have any other reason to think it actually happened there?” [Evidence Select] 

Are we finally bringing up the Damp Casino Carpet? :'D

[Damp Casino Carpet] Yipee! Got it right!

“Ellis: Harper, didn’t you say that the carpet was kinda wet in the Casino? Boom, that’s murder evidence. Probably.” Most convincing protagonist ever xD

“Vivi: Blood is actually pretty easy to wash out! If you have, like, cold salt water, it wouldn’t be that hard to get rid of the traces of actual blood, at least not without better investigation equipment.” Did not know this! Thanks for the info, now I know even more ways to murder people and get away with it! :D

“Aidan: The murder location doesn’t actually matter, so long as it doesn’t contradict with what Jeff, our only known witness, says.” Damn. He's not wrong, it's just that I'm not used to seeing this kinda reasoning in fangans :v. Hopefully this isn't somehow suspicious behavior where he's gonna be the killer, but surely not, right?

“Aidan: Cool. Time to start accusing people, then.” Pfft. How blunt. I actually can't think of anything truly incriminating for any character, though we've yet to discuss the motion sensors.

“Robert: Then… how do we figure out who the killer is?” [Nonstop Debate] No idea where this one's going.

“Vanessa: Ugh, it’s like there’s nothing left to talk about…!” Shoot this with Floor Movement Tracker, right? Surely?

[Floor Movement Tracker → “there’s nothing left to talk about”] Right again!

“Ellis: Uh, yeah there is? Nobody’s brought up those weird movement-tracking sensors on the stairs and elevator connected to the laptop in Cass’ Room. The ones that Mark found?” Ellis no one knows what you're talking about xD I love that he's kinda bad at showing evidence in comparison to other dangan protags, it's funny.

“Davis: …Cass was tracking us. Why would they…?” I wonder if he has bad experiences with people tracking his movement, aka stalking. 

“Harper: If Cass ordered the materials one at a time in their own name, I doubt any of us would have really noticed. Plenty of simple orders fill the order list on a day to day basis. Perhaps Cass put it together herself.” This makes me wonder if people are gonna try to eventually ban use of the Costumer Service Desk specifically to lower the amount of orders they have to sift through during trials. I think that could go very poorly in a number of ways, such as people ordering stuff to other people's rooms to cast doubt on them… No idea if any of this is gonna happen or not, just throwing it out there as a possibility. 

“Mark: It’s generally better not to leave loose threads, but we have to pick one of the two topics anyways. So, I’ll go over what we found out.” [Nonstop Debate] Let's see!

“Paris: And Cass would be the only one to know?” … You know how my theory is that only Paris and Cass knew about it and Paris is the killer? Uh, don't know how to feel about her saying this in that context, but sounds kinda sus.

{Btw, yes, I've chosen to give each character a "secondary color" for color coding purposes when it comes to Nonstops, so I can still use the usual colors for weak and agree points :p Admittedly, these secondary colors can get pretty odd, as you're gonna see, sorry about that}

“Jeff: The second one has to be to put the body box in the Upper Common Room.” I can see a world where we shoot "Black Sheet + Bloody Dolly” here, if we're going with the idea they used them for moving the body parts and not just the body from the casino to the movie theater. But the latter is a possibility, so.

“Taylor: If there’s no way to avoid it, then that’s probably true…” But I'm gonna say we shoot Floor Movement Tracker at this, since that truth bullet includes the fact that the trackers can be avoided.

[Floor Movement Tracker → “no way to avoid it”] Yeah, got it right.

“Paris: Totes~ After all, Cass wouldn't ever trigger it.

Aidan: Why?

Paris: Uh, ‘cause they knew it was there, obvi. They placed it in the first place.

Aidan: That’s not what I mean. What I’m asking is, why would Cass avoid the sensor?

Paris: Why wouldn’t she?” Okay is it confirmation bias or why the hell does everything that come out of Paris’ mouth so suspicious? Antonia makes a great point, it'd be best for Cass to register her own movements too. 

“Davis: So we can trust that Cass would hit the sensor whenever they passed from Common Room to Common Room! Great job.” I don't know how I feel about jumping to this conclusion honestly… Like it very well could be right, but I feel we're accepting it without much evidence.

“Vivi: Then why would they hit it at 6?

Ellis: Because it’s always a good time to hit it~” Ellis please xD Also I love how everyone just knows to ignore them at this point. 

[Progressive Deduction] Yes please I'm confused. 

[1. Which trigger of the sensor must have been the killer?] From what the characters have been talking about, I'll say b. The 6 AM trigger?

Oh I don't get to know if I'm right or not unless I look at the trial doc? Funny. 

[Right answer: b] Yep, got that right.

[2. What has to be true if the killer only triggered the 6 AM trigger?] Either “they avoided the sensor at least once”, which is what I've been thinking, or “they lived on the fourth floor” and just didn't use the dolly and sheet for transport of body parts. I'll go with a. They avoided the sensor at least once?

[Right answer: a] Woo! Got that right! 

[3. What could explain the inconsistencies in our theories?] Clearly, it's d. A genie?! Just kidding xD I could see it being either "purposefully messing with our sense of timing” or "only noticed the sensor after triggering it at 6 AM", since they wouldn't have been able to enter Cass’ room without the E-Handbook locked in the timer box with the legs. I'll go with a. The killer is purposefully messing with our sense of timing because it was my original theory. 

[Right answer: b] Ah, well, I had to get one wrong. The killer only noticed the sensor after triggering it at 6 AM. Fair, that was my second guess.

“Mark: If the killer didn’t know the sensor was there until 6, they couldn’t have avoided it earlier that night, right? So unless it was them who triggered it at 1 AM, the killer is from the third floor.

Kennedy: Then it sounds like we’ve got a real suspect list.” [Evidence Select] Wait what? I… What are we talking about? Can we use the Map of Floor 3 as a Truth Bullet?

Actually, now looking at it, there is a bullet symbol next to "Map of Floor 3" in the E-Handbook.

So… Yeah! Map of Floor 3, surely!

[Map of Floor 3] Yay I was right! :D Glad I noticed that bullet symbol xD

“Robert: Is there… really nothing left to talk about? Who do we vote for…?” Gonna be honest, this is one of the only times in any dangan/fangan I've genuinely felt the desperation of feeling like there's nothing left to talk about and no clear suspect, so good job with that, venus! 

“Vanessa: …Okay everyone, thinking time! What’s still left out there?” [Question Completion] Alright, let's try out this minigame!

[Words: was - Cass - at - out - night - why] Well this is obviously "Why was Cass out at night", right?

[Why was Cass out at night?] Yep, got that right! This one's fun, even if it's simple :D

“Mark: …How would the killer know Cass was usually out at night, anyways…?

Harper: There seems to be a lot on all of our minds. It might be productive to go around and say whatever we’re thinking.” [Puzzling Pieces] Okay please, I am so confused and (although I haven't been quoting her) Paris has been saying a few non-suspicious things so I'm entirely lost. 

Also yay I actually have the template for the answer this time! :'D Thanks venus and accirax, it's genuinely super fun to play along with these things, especially now that it's not as scuffed as last time! :D

[Template: __ was __ the __ __ at __ in __] Uh… "Cass was following the culprit recklessly at night in secret.” Sounds kinda goofy, and still doesn't explain why the culprit would be out at night. "Jeff was why the culprit killed at night in secret"? Sounds nonsensical. "Cass was worried the culprit planned at night in secret."? Those last two words are tripping me up. But I think they have to be "night” and "secret”, I don't see anything else that fits. "Cass was worried the culprit killed at night in secret"? Nope. "Cass was why the culprit killed at night in secret"? Not that either. I give up, I don't know what this is.

[Cass was following the culprit out at night in secret] Oh wait I was almost right with my first guess! I just kinda didn't think to use “out” like that, sadge. Well, close enough for me to be happy with.

[Following discussion] Geez this is getting weird! 

“Mark: It still feels like we’re missing something big here…” [Nonstop Debate] Save me minigames… Minigames save me…

(I wonder how many docs are gonna be created just for this fangan lol) 

“Vanessa: I’m sure Cass was doing something for all of us!

Vanessa: Like stopping a crime from happening or something.” Yeah, Cass is growing on me as we talk about all this. 

“Paris: Making a tracker with various supplies, following people around without getting spotted at nighttime…

Paris: It does definitely seem like Cass had some kind of secret agenda going on~” Although I'm starting to lose track of what Cass had going on lol. What is happening???

I have genuinely no idea for this one. The one I think we probably have to shoot is:

“Noah: Like, yeah, sure, we can lie to each other or whatever, but there’s no reason Cass should be able to do these things!” 

Maybe Cass’ Profile, since all the profiles seem to be truth bullets too? She likes "getting info", right? Maybe Customer Service Desk to explain how she got the sensors?

Really hope it's not Antonia's Profile on:

“Grace: Not necessarily. Cass could have also been following the blackened because she already suspected them of planning murder.”

Uh… "Cass’ Profile” at “there’s no reason Cass should be able to do these things!” final answer. 

[Cass’ Profile → “there’s no reason Cass should be able to do these things”] Oh I'm so good. I'm goated. I'm actually really happy I got that right, this one was hard xD

“Ellis: Ultimate Agent… hey, wouldn’t it be funny if I was right from the get-go and Cass was really a spy all along?” Now this would be a hell of a twist, ngl. 

“Aidan: Before Cass gave me her name or her talent, she led into the words “Ultimate Agent” by talking about other people’s work. They were making sure that I was already thinking about fucking commerce by the time they had to say it.” Holy hell. I gotta go back and check out Cass’ introduction now. Hell, I feel like rereading the entire ass chapter just because of this :D

“Mark: Some kind of investigation. On a place, or a person.

Harper: If we’re right about Cass following the killer, I would expect it to be a person.” I do not like how close we're getting to implying it was Antonia. Watch it it, venus. 

“Taylor: “If I can’t delete the notes, I have no control over their secrecy. I couldn’t hide my true actions from anyone if they cared to check.”” Fair point, but we really are not addressing the whole "impersonating a dead person” thing, huh? xD

[Hangman's Gambit: _ _ _   _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ ] "The mastermind", yeah? Still hating where this one's going. 

Wow, ZERO hesitation xD I mean I did the same thing but y'know, still funny :p

“Noah: Well… if Cass was probably investigating the mastermind, and the person Cass was investigating caught on and decided to kill her… doesn’t that mean that only the mastermind would have incentive to kill? 

Aidan: Not… necessarily. It’s possible the culprit just saw Cass following them around and thought she was going to kill them. It took us this long to figure out that Cass was investigating the mastermind. What would you think when someone was sneaking around behind you in the middle of the night?” I DON'T LIKE HOW CLOSE WE'RE GETTING TO ACCUSING ANTONIA.

“Kennedy: If we’re right about all this, we have a pretty clear suspect list. The answer is “who Cass suspected of being the mastermind.”" [Evidence Select] I want to throw myself in the ocean.

That said, this isn't actually "Select a person", which is odd. Am I supposed to say Antonia's Profile? Is this indication she's not the killer? Maybe? :') 

[Antonia’s Profile + Mark’s Profile] Oh wait I completely forgot she also suspected Mark. Lol xD

“Ellis: Oh, I remember. It was me, Antonia, and Mark.” It was Ellis!!!1!1!

“Antonia: Paris was also present during that conversation, though she was simply observing rather than being interrogated. For the sake of this line of logic, I would assume she’s in the clear.

Mark: Ellis is clear, too. She lives on the fourth floor.

Taylor: Are either of you worried about the fact that that leaves you as the only two suspects? Like, at all…?

Antonia: Hm? Not particularly.

Mark: Obviously I’ll have to prove my innocence, but from my perspective, it’s nice to know who the killer is.” Oh, wow. They are good. If one of them really is the killer (and I'm thinking Antonia unfortunately), they are amazing at hiding it actually.

“Antonia: Then, allow me to state my case, please. I assure you, I’m not the one responsible for all of this.

Mark: If that’s how we’re doing this, then I’ll defend myself, too.” [Third Party Analysis] Well, time to try this one out! Gonna be honest, this is the one I absolutely did not follow the explanation for when I first read it, so I'm hoping actually playing it will make it make more sense. 

That said, while I was reading up the rules, and before I get into this, something occurred to me. It's something that had rung a few alarm bells earlier, but… where did Mark get Cass’ E-Handbook? I took them at their word for it being in Cass’ pockets with her legs, but no one's ever verified that. If Mark's the killer, it's possible they actually kept hold of the notebook the entire time to ensure they could introduce the existence of the motion sensors, and we can catch them on that lie. I can't think of much direct physical evidence pointing to anyone else, including Antonia, so... Are we really Antoni-back, or is it still Cisner-over? 

On a completely separate note, how the fuck do I translate this to Tumblr? Uh… well, I'll try, but sometimes you can't stop the scuff. Here's my “distill” section:

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Antonia: 

Concession: “I understand that Cassidy’s fixation on my talent and our resulting feud may make me appear more suspicious.”

Defense: “I’ve become close to some of my fellow contestants. For instance, Vanessa reminds me of my younger sister. I would be unable to willingly sign her death warrant, even indirectly through the Class Trial.”

Attack: “If you think it through, it’s clear that Mark must be the killer. They’ve been disengaged from whatever activities are going on for a long time, and thus wouldn’t have any problems with attachments when it comes to killing.”

Proposal: “Perhaps they were wandering, but when confronted by Cass and committing the murder, Mark finally “woke up?” Mark has been much more focused starting this investigation. Isn’t the sudden shift suspicious?” 

Mark: 

Concession: “I totally understand why it might be hard to trust me. After all, I’ve been struggling to gather my bearings after losing all of my memories, and I don’t have any way to 100% prove that I’m telling the truth about forgetting.” 

Defense: “I’ve been completely out of it for the entirety of the killing game before this point, so I’m not sure how I would’ve come up with and executed this precise of a murder.” 

Attack: “Besides, I don’t really trust Antonia. She’s a very smart and well-spoken person, and yet she hasn’t really been helping us solve this Trial.”

Proposal: “Plus, while the killer obviously did order some items for their murder, they also used a lot of what was already here in the Resort. Maybe Antonia’s experience with casinos would help her plan her murder based on the existing items?” 

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Okay, I'm pretty confident with that. That was easier than I'd thought it'd be. I skipped some lines for brevity btw, but I won't consider myself wrong as long as me and accirax have the same quotes plus/minus a few extraneous sentences. Now the final part, which I'm very unsure about right now. 

Uh… Well, I have an idea. I don't like it, because it seems we're going Antonia!Culprit, but I'll try:

Inquire: Customer Service Order List -> Antonia's Proposal

That Truth Bullet mentions the items were ordered on day 3, so if she's saying Mark "woke up” to commit the murder, they must have woken up on day 3, which is not very solid. I'm not too sure about this though. 

[Cross-checking the Distill section] So I actually used longer phrases than accirax, but all of the main points are the same. I did well I think! Now what I fear.

[Customer Service Order List → Antonia’s Proposal] I hate being right. 

“Antonia: I have more, as well. If I may continue my arguments…

Harper: Please, be our guest.” [Nonstop Debate] A Nonstop right when she says she'll defend herself? It's Cisner-over.

Okay wait, there's a shred of hope here. You remember that point I brought up earlier about Cass’ E-Handbook? Maybe we can shoot Cass’ E-Handbook at “Taylor: So Mark’s investigation makes them suspicious…?”, because we've never verified where they got the handbook from. I'm gonna be wrong about this one btw, but if you give me a chance to defend Antonia, I'll take it. 

[“They’d be able to skew the interpretation in their favor” → “they would plan everything out in this way”] I tried. Well, I would never have gotten this one anyways because I hate Time Bullets, so. 

“Ellis: If Mark was trying to make the sensor work in their favor, they could’ve done a way better job. They could have lied and said that the sensor was impossible to evade, or just not brought it up to anyone at all. Then, we’d have no reason to suspect the people who live on the third floor!” Unfortunately good points. 

“Aidan: It doesn’t help anyone to blindly defend someone because you like them. This is where our logic’s taking us. If you want to defend her with actual logic, be my guest, but if you’re just yelling, all you’re gonna do is turn people against her.

Vanessa: Why would that turn people against her…? 

Aidan: Because you’re not backing it up. If belief is the only thing you’ve got, then it makes it seem like belief is the only thing there is.” Dude. Aidan. Is cooking. “If belief is the only thing you’ve got, then it makes it seem like belief is the only thing there is” goes insanely hard actually.

“Vanessa: Well, you’re wrong!

Antonia: Vanessa, if you’ll allow me to handle this–

Vanessa: No one should be accusing you like this! I’ll… convince them they’re wrong! Yeah, that’s it!

Antonia: Vanessa–

Vanessa: Don’t worry, I’ve got you!” [Freestyle Feud] Vanessa please you're making me lose even more hope T_T 

Also get ready for some silly rhymes, given I'm gonna play along with this lol. I'll list Vanessa's statements first in green, followed by what I would write in purple, followed by what's in the doc in pink. If you can't differenttiate those colors, uh. Good luck?

“V: Toni’s given you a bunch of reasons why she’s definitely in the clear!”

"Me: Yet she's given us no solid evidence for why our doubt should disappear!”

[Canon: "I hate to tell you this, but we shot those down, dear."]

“V: There’s nothing about the crime that lands suspicion on her!”

"Me: You're wrong, there's not many that Cass would investigate.”

[Canon: "The choice of victim speaks to their feud. That’s reason enough for these things to occur."]

{Wait you can rhyme with yourself??? That's a secret technique accirax just pulled out xD. Admittedly you kinda have to read mine weirdly for it to rhyme so we'll call it even :p}

“V: Toni wouldn’t be willing to put all of us to death. She wouldn’t leave me behind!”

"Me: We've known each other just for days, you can't claim to know her mind.”

[Canon: "We only really met her a few days ago– we don’t know what she has in mind."]

{Hey same rhyme :D}

“V: There’s been nothing but Cass’ ideas that accused Toni for the entire Trial’s duration!”

"Me: Yet with the Casino as the murder's true location, the Monoquin File lie helps only the Dealer's situation!”

[Canon: "If Cass died in the Casino, Antonia would benefit the most from the Monoquin File’s change of location!"] 

Not gonna lie, I had to cheat and look ahead for that last one because I had no idea what I was supposed to say to that last point because I actually kinda agree with Vanessa xD Anyways, that was silly as hell, but I enjoyed it quite a bit lol.

[Antonia's plea for more time] She's very convincing. Maybe I'm delusional, but I genuinely think there's a chance she actually isn't the killer, no matter how hopeless it seems. The handbook could still come in clutch, though by now I'm starting to accept it probably isn't important. This feels like a setup for the Closing Argument more than anything else. 

“Mark: To make sure there’s nothing we’ve missed, or forgotten, or skipped over… we should recap what we’ve figured out. Look at all of it in the context of our killer, and see if it makes any sense.

Ellis: Leave that to me, babe.” [Closing Argument] Yep. Goddamnit.

(Also I just clocked that the link changes when you click it, which I did not know was a thing actually. Like it had happened a few times while I was reading, but I thought I was clicking different things and just wasn't noticing. Apparently venus and accirax are just wizards of Google Docs xD)

I don't know how scuffed this one's gonna be on Tumblr, we'll see. I'll just give out the final order I would put the bullets in:

1. Customer Service Order List (Antonia orders the items on day 3)

2. Floor Movement Tracker (1 AM trigger)

3. Monoquin File #1 (Stab in the stomach with poison)

4. Damp Casino Carpet (Presumably the blood got washed quickly)

5. Bloody Dolly (Transport to Movie Theater)

6. Jeff's Account (Weird noise from Movie Theater)

7. Chopped Body (Dismemberment begins)

8. Locations of the Body (Parts are spread around)

9. Timer Boxes (They open at 8:15 AM)

10. Vivi's Autopsy (This one's weird. The information given here is effectively the same as the Monoquin File #1, I'm just putting it here because technically the autopsy itself happened last)

A lot of these feel kinda ambiguous ngl, but I don't hate this order. 

[Checking right answer] Ok, so. Mostly right. I just mixed up the order of the carpet and effectively flipped the Monoquin File and Autopsy, which is what I worried would happen. I'll take it, because I need something to latch onto now that I'm sad :( /positive

“Ellis: Using some… very unattractive skills…” You could have at least let the Ellis/Antonia ship live T_T (/silly)

“Ellis: Going [to the Upper Common Room], the killer didn’t notice Cass’ trackers until they used Cass’ e-Handbook to look inside her room and saw the laptop setup. They had already triggered it once at 6 AM on the way in, but purposefully evaded the sensor on the way out in hopes of creating suspicion that someone on the top floor was the killer instead.” So. The handbook, because I need to figure out what happened with it or I'm gonna lose sleep over it. I went back to Part 4 to see exactly what Mark said about it.

“Ellis: Wait. Where’d you get your hands on that?

Mark: …In the pants pocket. Of her legs.

Ellis: You found their legs??” 

If the handbook was with Cass’ legs, then the moment the killer locked the timer box with the legs, the handbook would have been inaccessible, meaning the killer couldn't have entered Cass’ room after that point. Assuming said killer is Antonia, this carries the implication that she hid the torso before locking the box with the legs… which makes sense! Since the body was dismembered in Floor 3, it actually makes perfect sense for the killer to hide the torso in Floor 4 before hiding the legs, provided the legs were on the first floor or something. Alright, concern solved. 

That said, especially combined with that little hesitation Mark had before saying "In the pants pockets”, this little odd thing definitely helps create an AU where Mark is actually the CH1 killer! And yes I was already thinking about that because I'm very normal about the characters I like :)

[Vote] I'm voting Mark Idk about y’all xD

“Monoquin: It seems we’ve reached a verdict. Antonia Cisneros, the Ultimate Dealer, is the correct killer of this case.” Well, the delusion was fun while it lasted. 

"Ellis [Thoughts]: Sigh. Why do the hot ones have to die young?” Just kidding everyone, ship's back on!

“Antonia: There wasn’t much to it, really. Ever since this game started, I’d planned to kill someone at some point. That’s why I ordered those things, just in case. But, when Cassidy began suspecting me… Well, the more she hurt my credibility before I executed the crime, the worse my odds would be of winning. I moved the timetable up.” Yeah, that makes sense. 

“Antonia: Because I didn’t want to play with fire. The establishment wants one winner, and the house always wins in the end.” Where’s the gif of the guy writing pure fire when you need it? xD (<- I'm laughing not to cry)

“Ellis [Thoughts]: The killers lost, for now. Is it so hard to believe that the person who evades both victimhood and killerhood would be the one true survivor in the end? …Do I have to beat the mastermind to be the last one standing?” Oh hey, we're moving priorities already, cool! 

“Paris: Well, you should probably get used to it. It’s not like it ends here~

Taylor: Huh?

Paris: There’s still more, right? The execution?” Okay so maybe she's not the killer but Paris is completely insane, no? What the hell???

“As [Antonia] struggles for her footing, large, metal sheets painted to look like playing cards begin to fall from above her. She darts from place to place on the roulette wheel with impressive grace. But as more of the fallen cards land on the roulette wheel, making the surface more uneven, she moves slower, being more careful about the placement of her heels.” Bro she's doing this shit in heels? Genuinely crazy. 

“If I asked the Desk for giant playing cards made of metal, would they give them to me? What about a poker chip sharp enough to cut skin?” Yeah these are normal thoughts to have after All That xD

“Taylor: “Don’t be upset, darling–”

Vanessa: Stop that!” Oh hey we're finally addressing how insane it is for them to do that! Fantastic, I wish they keep doing it and fucking with everyone's feelings :D

“Jeff: Why are we still here? I’m leaving.” Yeah he would say that, huh?

[Mark and Ellis talk] Aww… cute.

“Why am I crying?” Ouch. 

“Ugh. I’m the Ultimate Lucky Student, for crying out loud! Things should automatically fall in my favor. And I’m not enough of a failure to just toss good things away when they come to me. I should have this in the bag. And, hey, if everyone’s off their game… as long as I’m on mine, that should make it even easier!

I got through two deaths today… What's thirteen more? Everything is going just how I wanted it to. Just how I expected it to. Now all I have to do is sit back and relax.

A little more water falls onto the floor.” We really turned the writing up to 100 this part huh? Awesome /gen.

-

Man, what the hell do I even say? That was just straight up an amazing part. The reveal of Cass’ true talent has made more interested in their character than I've ever been (I might have some kind of theories about that but those might have to wait for a dedicated post), Vanessa's breakdown over Antonia's death was fun to see, the execution was very well done even if I didn’t really talk about it much here, and of course, the reveal of the culprit itself. Ever since the cast started talking about Cass suspecting the killer, I started feeling super nervous and engaged. Admittedly, I was pretty lucky to consider the CH1 killer my favorite going into the trial, since it meant I could get a lot more invested in the conclusion of it, which I hope was properly reflected by what I've written for this post. And yes, I think it's lucky I was emotionally invested in the CH1 killer, because it makes me suffer more, and isn't that what we all want from fangans? :D

On the topic of Antonia, I really loved her this Part. She was a girlboss all the way through, and I especially enjoyed the Third Party Analysis against Mark and the things she said after the trial. I really love blackeneds who are actually good at being blackened, so that was great. Mark was awesome too, again especially during Third Party Analysis and post-trial. Very curious to where they're gonna go now that they seem a little more lucid. 

You might be wondering why I don't seem so distraught that my favorite just died, but here's the thing.

I've watched/listened to/read/seen playthroughs of six fangans which have made it past CH1 as of the writing of this post. Another 1 and 2, Despair Time, Eden's Garden, Tetro Pink, and now One Shot. My favorite, or at least the character which was my favorite while I watched CH1, has been the CH1 killer in four out of the six. That's a two thirds hit rate on specifically the CH1 killer being my favorite when they die. That's impressive! That's statistically unlikely! At this point it's just funny, I just have to accept I'm cursed and move on. Why did I ever even predict Antonia being anything but the CH1 killer?

Speaking of predictions, the predictions game! I predicted Antonia to be the CH5 killer, which gives me 4 chapter points! Pretty bad, but at least I didn't get role points. Adding in the 3 points I got from predicting Cass as the CH2 killer, that gives me a total of 7 so far! How does that compare to the other prediction games currently posted on Tumblr dot com?

Well, Jonas had 4 points from their Cass guess, but they predicted Antonia as the CH4 killer, meaning they got only 3 chapter points here. That means we are now tied with 7! There's also the prediction board bronze-ocs submitted as an ask to av-multifangan, which was posted just a few hours after I posted my CH1 Part 4 reaction which talked about these predictions. Funnily enough, though, we actually both predicted Cass as the CH2 killer and Antonia as the CH5 killer, so we're also currently tied. Great minds think alike ig :p Finally, accirax guessed Antonia as the CH5 victim, which gives her 2 role points and 4 chapter points, which combined with the 7 points she'd gotten from guessing Cass as the mastermind, gives her 13 points so far. She may be currently last, but don't count her out of the race! I personally believe in the accirax comeback, don't know about you.  

In any case, this was an incredible part, and I’m more excited than ever for CH2! See ya’!

Canon Notes:

Staff Members - Customer Service Desk - Monoquin’s Hands - Killing Game Explanation - Monoquin File Lies

Personal Notes:

Clockmaker’s Intuition - Kennedy’s Spiked Rings - Noah’s Earbuds - Robert's Queasiness - E-Handbooks’ Permanent Messages and Notes - Soundproof Rooms

[bisonaari]

Käärijä fanzine update!

Alright! Thanks to your gentle lovely bullying, I've finally read most of the documentation I had and took some notes of the stuff I will need help with for the Käärijä hats fanzine. This is gonna be a lot of work to organize, so I can't do this alone!!

So I'm calling for extra hands. If you're interested in helping me, you'll need to be sure to be mostly available for the next 6 months (being a bit extra with the time, but better safe than sorry.) By that I don't mean that you need to be there everyday full time, I'm not either lol. I mean that you won't be travelling for four out of those six months or something like that hahaha.

WHAT I ALREADY HAVE

Project coordinator: Me!

Artists coordinator: Also me!

Graphic designer: My best friend @drifloonlady (she's not in the fandom, but she does design for a living and I trust her with my life. Also she knows how to speak in Käärijä-style english she's a gem. And also she hosted a weird music panel at our local con with me for the past decade she's gonna fit right in trust me)

I WILL NEED HELP WITH

(you don't have to apply for only one thing!)

Project co-coordinator: your role will be to help me deal with how to organize all of this. Discussing with me about deadlines, artist submissions, general ideas, schedules, sending emails, etc etc

Social media manager: I suck at social media, so we'll need to update people on tumblr on a regular basis, answer asks, make an faq, show previews of the zine… all of that

Native english speaker: English isn't my native language and I make mistakes by the ton. We'll need someone to english proof every "official" communication we make, especially in the zine. Having spelling errors in the final zine because I can't english would be a bit sad haha

Native finnish speaker, maybe?: If we end up printing it, giving a copy to Käärijä and/or any member of his staff who would like one would be lovely, and in this case having a message for them in finnish would be interesting, especially considering Jere's english. Unsure if we're gonna print it, but if you wanna apply just in case, feel free to!

If you apply, as I said make sure that you're gonna be mostly available in the next six months. I'd also prefer if everyone applying was an adult, I sadly don't watch my language enough to be kid-friendly if we're gonna be chatting on discord on a regular basis hahaha.

KNOW THAT THIS IS ON A VOLUNTEERING BASIS ONLY. NO ONE IS BEING PAID FOR THIS PROJECT.

HOW TO APPLY

write me a dm no need to be professional for now hahaha

WHAT WILL HAPPEN NEXT

All the people selected in this process will be in the following week added to a discord server, so we can chat about a lot of stuff on organization.

After everything is decided, we'll make a whole blog dedicated to the zine, and then finally open artists submissions.

I don't know when these steps are gonna be taken, hopefully sooner than me reading the documentation has taken. Now that my health is better and I can read properly without brain fog, that should help lol. Also not being alone should help a lot

If you have any question whatsoever, don't hesitate to ask me anything about this! As you guys know I'm an open book, so if you have any concern they're all welcome :)

[rui-drawsbox]

hey dude

how did you develop your art style? ive been drawing for years and I cant seem to get a handle on ANYTHING

4 almost 5 days late sorry dude you shot right into my inability to put thoughts into words properly HAHA

alright so first of all, i don't even think a style is something you need to do art. I'm a hobbyist apologist and as long those people enjoy creating it doesn't even have to look "good".

That aside i'm assuming you want to take art at least a little seriously so i'm just going to be straight forward and say that the only way is ping-pong between styles/techniques/themes and just stick with the stuff you feel more comfortable doing.

Now going into my personal experience, that's what you asked after all lolol (from now on this is just yapping so feel free to ignore it)

alr soooo im skipping my first steps into art and going into the humanoid phase. I actually started with sonic! Specifically the show Sonic X, of course i picked up mannerisms from the anime when it was time of doing comedic doodles (and cuestionable taste on fashion)

(im going thru my big inspirations so bear with me here)

2015 came and i discovered my two main inspirations for a long time: fnaf and Ed00chan! (link to her abandoned deviantart so yall can see the style of the time). As i was completely enamored by her anime-yet-cartoony style i was also hyperfixated with fnaf and those two things combined perfectly into (the infamous in the spanish side of the fnaf fandom) fnafhs! bing bang boom there it goes my personality for the next 5 years!

sprinkle a few power puff girls z too why not

anyway at that time i wanted to become a pro like ed00 so i had to understand anatomy, and my go-to channel was Bgm94! But the elders said that to broke the rules you have to understand them, so i just kind-of started doing more "realistic" bodies while maintaining the cartoony-ness i liked so much. Which to be fair, didn't last long before i got bored and jumped straight into cartoon/chibi again

also since we're entering my digital era i'm including some drawings with wild style changes since the experimentation never ends owo9

anyway that was 2018 and before! it was around 2017-18 that i dropped the general tutorials and just started experimenting on my own style/anatomy and trying to improve my skills (im ignoring my sketchbooks bc from now on they just become- well, sketchbooks, instead of doing full drawings i just doodled in classes and leaved the detail for digital stuff)

i would love to include all my 2019 folder bc i consider it was a year full of love for my silly doodles but tumblr has a limit for images HAHA. Hopefully you can see how i go trying out stuff and pick little stuff from every stage with me lolol

2020 hits and you can *see* my hyperfixation with twisted wonderland here, at least my folder is 60% twst drawings i made for my fanfic at the time LOL. Not so many style jumps here tho so let's keep going

2021 and 2022 here! at the second half of 2022 i found my oh so beloved crunchy brush and i also fell hard for Arashi Narukami, so basically my tumblr became an arashi fanpage lol

stuff at 2023 keeps pretty the same until now tbh, the only highlight would be the re-inclusion of noses bc of spiderverse 2. My style also has been pretty well maintained since i started doing commissions so i don't really do so much experimentation anymore, at least not with proportions and such.

alr so that was my journey on artstyle! Of course it's not like you're gonna guess all my process just by looking at the images so i'll say what type of stuff i feel influenced my decisions.

i'm very lazy and for a log time i just abandoned my projects if it prolonged more than a day or two, that obviously made me lean into the cel/plain shading rather than spending hours and maybe days rendering (not that i don't try rendering every now and then but i don't enjoy spending so much time in a single piece)

everyone around me always has been extremely supportive so i had the privilege of dedicating all my soul to drawing silly characters haha, i feel like since i never felt the need of comparing myself to others i could actually experiment so unapologetically with my style until i was satisfied

finding an actual brush that i like is always crucial to me tbh, even in traditional i'm pretty picky with how the ink and type of pen i'm using. Of course, i also tried multiple traditional art techniques (watercolor, acrylics, crayons, pencils, pastels, my favorite are pen+markers)

i dont like feets. that shows until today.

in general i think an artstyle is something extremely personal that every person has to shape themselves and that it can't really be a permanent thing, it's gonna fluctuate with the artist whenever they like it or not.

[hunsa-jars]

man

Heyy things are pretty busy and exhausting right now, but I promise I'm trying to be brave about it

Might pop up here tomorrow

Or the day after tomorrow- this week sometime, or I'll go bonkers

Gonna queue this because I really shouldn't be distracting myself more than I already do nhdfdh

Haghhhh I miss you all, I'll be back

(uhh life update under the cut? to the folks who are curious, kinda wanted to mention these at some point anyways)

OI HI TO THE PEOPLE WHO STAYED HOW'S IT GOING

Remember that I said that my phone might be still alive after all? Well.. yeah, no, that was a false alarm, it really did kick the bucket. Temporarily using my sister's old phone until I get a new one this Christmas

And because I'm the way I am, I refuse to change anything about it- like I can't stand the idea of getting used/attached to it when I know in a couple of weeks I'm gonna give it back, so..

So yeah, I don't want to go through the procedures of logging into everything, including Tumblr

I've been avoiding going here anyway, so technically it helps :''')

My attention span is so awful you guys, so mad at myself 24/7 for always looking for excuses to not do my studying routine

Speaking of studying, this is the last week of uni for this year!

BUT exam period is starting next week and I have like 3 exams before Christmas, so fun

Uhhhh remember the board game I mentioned making? Teacher loved it and wants to display it for the university's open day. Pretty glad, worked hard on that thing (even tho it could have been better)

Gonna show you guys once I get it back

Uhhhh did my best with my recorder, my hands were shaking, but the teacher could tell I was only messing up because I was nervous as balls, and not because I didn't know the songs, thank god

My grandma is doing well! Well.. better. We keep her company. My cousins come to visit us twice a week now, so no silent Saturdays or Sundays

FINALLY figured out how to use emulators, so between studying for the January exams and relative visits, I'm gonna finally play Animal Crossing and Earthbound properly (I think I've mentioned using online emulators before, but those distorted the music so much I just couldn't continue with it)

Also was anybody going to tell me that OFF is free?

And Yume Nikki?? On Steam?????? Hello??

Umm also! My little brother sat down with me last Saturday and made me watch Murder Drones (he's hyperfixating and wanted to pass it onto me, spoilers: IT WORKED)

Oh my goodness... that show................................. Plan for another flooding

What else, uh- we're on season 2 of AOT, it's insane, it makes me insane, I wish I could say more without going unhinged

I... i think that's all

To the people who've been tagging me the past few days I SEE YOU ALL, THANK YOU FOR THINKING OF ME, I'LL GET TO IT

Well

See you guys later this week, hopefully, please take care

[trying-not-horny-on-main]

Vessel x Genderless "You" : Crawling Back to Me Chapter 1

SUMMARY: In order to sustain his power and connection to his god, Vessel must sacrifice someone's memory to be devoured by Sleep. You keep letting him offer you. Waking up with no memory, will this time be different? Probably not.

***SAMPLE*** Moving to the piano, he sits and begins to play. At first, you refuse to be taken by the music because you assume it is a ploy to get you to cooperate and lull you into a false sense of security. Then, you resent him and think that he’s just showing you off and trying to seduce you into loving him. Finally, as the music continues, he begins to hum along and you can’t help but feel the knots in your body come undone and a threatening little heat build in your belly. When the song ends, he asks, “Do you remember this one?” He begins anew. When he glances over, you shake your head. Your body screams to remember.

***SAMPLE*** He studies you, blue eyes careful. When you don’t react because you couldn’t possibly know how to react, he winces. “You’re gone. Fresh and empty, huh?” “Apparently.” You look down. “I’m right here.” “You’re gone,” ii nods. He tries to smile but his nostrils flare. The kitchen is warm. You notice a waffle maker warming up on the counter beside the bowl. There are several place settings at the table. “In case he forgot to tell you, I’m ii,” he points to himself. “I’m…” you hesitate. “Someone.”

NOTES: A while ago, I had seen someone (probably on tumblr) talking about "imagine a monster that makes you forget yourself, sinking into bliss, and you end up wanting to forget yourself". I'd tried to write that before but realized that there was some potential around Sleep for it.

Written in genderless 2nd person for self insert. Written as respectfully as possible using stage personas–plus, hopefully there’s not actually a God devouring people’s personalities but really who is to say?

Spice expected in chapter 2 or 3, I promise I won’t make you wait long.

Aspiring to keep the whole thing short so I can bang this out so I can focus on nanowrimo properly and not “oh, what if empty-brain-sacrifice-tentacle-smut?”

[bubblingdrfizz]

☆ INTRO !!!

hey guys i should probably use tumblr so

throws carrd at you

^^^ most information is on here... some things may be a bit outdated so just incase...

introduction time!!!!

BELOW THE CUT vvv

2/14/2024 Update: Small updates! Just added the read more line and a few gifs to make the post pleasant to look at (hopefully). Also just a minor addition to the pronouns part and just one random note at the end. :)

Last Updated... 1/3/2025 (HAPPY NEW YEAR!)

1/3/2025 Update: HAPPY NEW YEAR! Small changes... again lmao. idk shrug i literally have no identity. added a thing where i mentioned that i am quite the awkward person.. talking 2 cool ppl online is scaryy [cry]

8/7/2024 Update: Changes to my preferences (name, pronouns, etc)! I will be updating my carrd soon. :) ALSO II2 EP RELEASED!!!

◇ MINOR!

hi, i'm FIZZ/SOUR !!! ♡ view cardd for other names :v

+ call me ANYTHING honestly. i have no set name

nonbinary lesbian , demiromantic ; identity

pronouns -- any + any neos/xenos

— auxiliary pronouns can be they/them and she/her

—— HSHS I HOPE I'M USING AUXILIARY PRONOUNS CORRECTLY!!? :,)

interests -- pjsk, vocaloids, object shows, tsams, eddsworld, reading, writing, music, dw

taco ii fictionkin :3 ; kinning

sometimes you'll see typing quirks (like s -> z, "zuper zick!! / super sick!!"), but i highly doubt i'll use them much. if i do, i'll be sure to add translations ^_^

TONE TAGS ARE NOT NECESSARY, BUT APPRECIATED!!! :D

○ ○ ○

i am VERY AWKWARD, and i apologize for that!! PLEASE.. i love talking with people, i really do 😭😭 i swear that i'm not uninterested in others or mean any ill will, i'm just extremely nervous

BLOG STUFF!!!! :3

requests and asks will (probably) ALWAYS BE OPEN!!!

^^^ i don't mind silly talk revolving the topic, but unfortunately i will not respond to requests/asks about nsfw (like art or just extremely inappropriate stuff)... there's a line i draw!!! wow drawing lines are fun did you know that

^^^ how am i supposed to word this? uh i can... i can take funny stuff like dirty jokes or just stupid crap (broken humor amirite), as long as it's not sending media or requesting media explicitly nsfw. that makes sense, right? please tell me that makes sense graahjjhhh

reblogs are appreciated!!

i plan on being active, but with responsibilities coming back into play i cannot guarantee it! i'll try my best though, ahahah

— 01/03/2025: SIGHH school sucks.. i am not active as i would like to be

^^^ yes yes plz do (i suppose i dont know how social media works or if im using reblogs correctly but like. yeah do it thank youuu 👍

▪︎ random notes...

* i'm new(ish) to tumblr (i've never actually looked into the app, i usually just came by every now and then to check out tags without managing my acocunt) so emm... expect to see me acknowledge random stuff here and go insane over it... LIKE COLORS!!! being able to color the text is fun i enjoy that lol

* emoticon user, because who's stopping me from doing that?

* i'm running out of cool things to say...

* SOWA CREEM!!!!!

* tumblr's kinda fun to use actually HOLD ON............

* take this app away from me im having an unnecessary amount of entertainment from writing random shizzlewizz on this singular post what??

* oh by the way i CAN'T TYPE PROPERLY

[unseededtoast]

Rectify | Bucky Barnes

Part 13/37 | Part Twelve, Part Fourteen

Summary: I've lived every day for the past five years looking over my shoulder. I knew they'd come for me, it was inevitable. I was foolish to think I could outrun my past. It's followed me everywhere I go, lurking in the shadows, waiting for the perfect moment to strike. Never would I have anticipated that the shadows would lead me to the light.

Bucky Barnes x OC

Series Warnings: Discussion of human trafficking, alcohol consumption, graphic depictions of violence, sexual content, discussion of suicidal thoughts.

a/n: Hi everyone, thank you for checking this out, I appreciate any and all support! This series is also posted on Ao3 and Wattpad if you prefer those formats/platforms! This is a completed series, and it's going to take some time for me to transfer it to Tumblr, so please bear with me!

"I want to undo the programming. I can't jeopardize my position here by getting too involved, I won't risk losing you again."

Sunlight wakes me up and I squint my eyes as I sit on the edge of the bed, preparing myself for whatever the day may hold. Hopefully it's less messy than yesterday. My feet hit the cold floor and I go to look in the dresser across the room, under the tv. I find there are different sized shirts and pants in the drawers. I rummage around until I find some black joggers and a dark green long sleeved shirt. I grab the new outfit and take it with me to the en suite.

Thankfully the en suite is stocked with fresh toiletries. I can't say how old the supplies in the bunker were, though I'm willing to bet it was all over ten years old. There's a fresh toothbrush, shampoo and conditioner, along with several other things. I set the clothes down on the counter and take a hot shower, scrubbing away the grime I couldn't get rid of in the bunker. Once I'm out I dry my hair and braid it off to the side before I put my clothes on. I pair my new outfit with the Shield issued boots I got and leave my room to see what I can find for breakfast.

I step out of the elevator and see everyone gathered around the counter, eating from a stack of pancakes that's by the stove. I catch Bucky's eye quickly and avert my gaze. I'll probably have to deal with this today, just not right now. I take a plate with two pancakes and sit next to Natasha. Tony's in the middle of saying something,

"Bruce says he wants some time alone to relax, the whole thing got to him pretty bad." I catch the end of everything he was saying. I hope Bruce is okay, I miss him.

One by one everyone finishes breakfast and walks away until it's only Steve, Bucky, and myself. Feeling like the silence needs to be ended, I decide to ask Steve his version of what happened over the last few days.

"Well, some of them got away, but we got most of them. It's hard saying how long they were infiltrating Shield." Steve answers simply. His answer matches the one Natasha gave me yesterday.

"So this whole situation got me thinking a little bit and I was wondering if you could teach me how to fight? Hitting people with lamps is starting to become a pattern for me and I don't want to get too reliant on them." I ask Steve who looks surprised.

"Uh yeah, sure." I smile at his answer. Bucky frowns a little bit, but stays silent. Steve and I walk out into the yard and I wait for his instruction. I don't know the first thing about fighting, I hope Steve doesn't mind starting from scratch.

He shows me how to stand and how to shift my weight when I land a punch. For him this must be comparable to showing a child how to ride a bike with the training wheels on. I get the hang of throwing punches relatively quickly and Steve starts showing me how to properly kick.

"Now try it all together." Steve says as he backs away from me. Steve is going extremely easy on me, never throwing a real punch or kick, which I am entirely grateful for; I'd probably die if he punched me. I take a quick breath and try to hype myself up before I start going after Steve. I throw a punch to hit his jaw, which he blocks, then shift my weight to land a kick on his torso, which he also blocks.

"I look really stupid right now, don't I?" I ask Steve as I finish putting everything together that he's taught me so far. He shakes his head,

"You're starting out a lot better than I did." I smile a little at the fact Steve is being patient with me and turn to do it all again. I see Bucky watching us off to the side and catch his gaze for a few moments. His blue eyes hold a certain sadness in them, one I haven't seen before. I look away and start the drill over again. I feel guilty for avoiding him, but I don't know what to say just yet.

Steve and I work for the majority of the day until I feel my muscles begin to ache. I stand across from Steve who looks like he's not even a little bit tired, which he probably isn't. I think he might be able to do this all day. I put my hands on my hips and take a deep breath.

"Can we pick this up tomorrow? My non-super soldier body is getting a little tired." I say, slightly envious of Steve's endurance and ability to keep going.

"Of course. You did good today, don't sell yourself short. Every single one of us here started somewhere." He says as he walks back into Stark's building. Bucky is still sitting at the edge of the grass, and I know I've stalled as long as I possibly can. I sit next to Bucky, nervousness taking over me. A few days ago this would've been a nice evening to spend together. I don't know where to start, there are so many things I want to say.

"I missed you." I want to start the conversation by showing him I care about him a lot. It won't be easy explaining to him why yesterday morning can never repeat itself, no matter how much I want for it to.

"I missed you too." He says quietly.

"Did Steve ask you about yesterday?" I ask, wanting to know what he said to Steve and if our stories aligned with one another.

"I told him I offered to share the bed because the couch was hurting you." He answers, still staring off and not looking towards me.

"I told him the same thing." I say, feeling only a little bit guilty for not giving him the whole truth.

"If he wouldn't have walked in would you have kissed me?" He directly asks, this time looking at me. I know the time has come to set the boundary but I don't want to do it. I sigh,

"Bucky, I want to help you. I want to help you through the process of getting your memories back, and I want to undo the programming. I can't jeopardize my position here by getting too involved, I won't risk losing you again. Even if that means putting personal feelings on the backburner." I avoid his question and the words are hard to say. I wish I didn't have to say them. He stays silent for a few moments, processing everything I said.

"You won't lose me again, and I won't lose you." I want to reach over and comfort him, but doing so would only make things harder.

"I can't take that risk. You mean too much to me and I still have so much work to do." I explain. We're still going to be in each other's lives, that's part of the job description. We just can't get intimately involved and I hope he sees it the same way. Without another word, Bucky gets up and leaves me outside alone. Perfect.

I stay outside, taking in the cool evening air. I hope that in a few days this blows over and things go back to normal. Bucky and I can forget that yesterday morning ever happened and continue like we were before. I can't exactly put my finger on what I feel for Bucky. I know I deeply care for him and have since our Hydra days, I just can't explain why he made me blush in the bunker, why I was so nervous to share a bed with him, and why I would've let him kiss me.

The image of us dancing in the Shield compound comes to mind, and I remember how warm I felt sharing that moment together. I've only ever known the Winter Soldier, I'm just now meeting Bucky for the first time and I feel drawn to him. In the Shield compound we spent hours together as he explained what he remembered and I would tell him small bits and pieces about what happened to me after I escaped. He's the only one who truly understands my trauma from Hydra, we're able to empathize with each other in a way nobody else can.

Not only are we able to connect on an emotional level, I'd be lying if I said I didn't find him attractive. His blue eyes are captivating and full of life, life I have never seen in him before. He's gentle, I remember how carefully he held my hand when we danced, how delicate he was when he rubbed my back. I love his long brown hair, how it blows softly in the breeze and the stubble that adorns his jawline. His jaw is sharp, but has a softness to it that makes him all the more inviting.

I push the thoughts away and stand from my spot to make my way inside, walking past those who are having dinner and heading straight to my room. I feel a little bit empty on the inside, knowing I can't spend the evening with Bucky watching tv or talking about something random. Besides Steve, he's the only other person I've created a meaningful bond with, and I fear that the bond has been damaged.

My room is too quiet for my liking, but fits right in with the way I'm feeling. I go to take a quick shower to wash off the sweat from today's lessons and put on some light cotton shorts and a t-shirt. I make my way over to the mini bar and find a bottle of vodka, this should be enough to drown out the sadness for a little while. I tip the bottle back and feel the burning sensation travel down my throat.

I sit on the couch, bottle in hand, and look out the window. I tip the bottle back again, and again, and again. I feel my lips become numb, along with my fingertips. I don't know why I'm getting so worked up about the situation, Bucky is still in my life, he's still going to be around. However, I think that just having him around will never be enough, I'll never be fully satisfied but I'll have to make it be enough.

I finish half the bottle and decide that's probably a good stopping point. I know I need to eat something and most people are probably in bed right now, so it should be safe to sneak downstairs. I tiptoe down the hall, being overly-cautious of making sure my steps are straight and that I'm walking in a straight line. I get in the elevator and step off at the ground floor. Tony is sitting behind the wet bar and looks up when he hears the elevator ding.

I stand frozen in place, knowing I am far too inebriated to have any sort of conversation with him. I see him smirk and he walks over to me,

"Looks like we had the same idea." He sits me down at the counter where the stove is and places a plate in front of me. It's leftover Chinese takeout that the others had earlier. I dig into the noodles as Tony watches me.

"You're not a spy. Natasha showed me the video." He says and I scrunch my eyebrows together,

"What video?" I ask, words slightly running together.

"This one." Tony flips his phone around to show me the screen. I see security camera footage of Steve and I helping Bucky into the plane. I swallow the bite of noodles in my mouth and look back at Tony once the video ends.

"He's heavier than you think." I smirk to myself. Tony walks over to the bar and makes some sort of mixed drink. He pours it into two glasses and hands one to me. I clink the glass with his and down the fruity mix, not feeling the burning tequila.

Tony and I stay in a comfortable silence, each of us dealing with our own reason for getting drunk. I'm happy he finally sees me for who I am now, and not just a supposed Hydra spy. I get up from the uncomfortable counter stool and lay on the couch that's situated in the middle of the room. I use a throw pillow to support my head and curl up on the couch, closing my eyes and feeling the room spin slightly. I feel a blanket being tossed over me, and give into the sleep that's calling my name.

[nogenderbee]

✉ -ˏˋ ℍ𝕒𝕡𝕡𝕪 𝔹𝕚𝕣𝕥𝕙𝕕𝕒𝕪 𝕞𝕚𝕫𝕦! ˊˎ

Happy Birthday @mizu-nights !! We may not talk much but we're still mootsies and I always enjoy your works whenever they pop up on my Tumblr IF IT WORKS PROPERLY WAH ^^

So I happily made this little gift for you and hopefully I got Mizuki as right character for you and hopefully, it made you smile at least a little bit on this special day!

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ Birthday letter

❝Hey there!

Guess what day it is? If you guessed Birthday of most cutest person walking on earth, then you got that right! You didn't just thought I'm gonna forget, did you?

First of all, the best thing about birthdays... wishes! It's finally time to tell you all the little feelings of mine with no lies~ I know I may always seem playful but hopefully you can forgive me for little bit of seriousness for a little while. I just wanted to thank you for your patience and the attention you always spoiled me with. If there's a person that deserves unforhettable birthdays, it'd be you! And that's what'll be my goal for this day. So how about you text me once you ready this so I won't accidentally spoil this for you and I could treat you to little fashion and baking date? Or we could just order something and watch a movie! Or go out somewhere fancy~? It's up to you! It's YOUR day so I want to make sure you'll have the most fun. And before you say anything... I will have fun too! Don't worry about me!

Have you noticed I missed something? I certainly did! Happy birthday, mizu-nights!!

-your cutie, Mizuki ;p❞

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ Birthday party

↳ ❝ Lively party ❞

Mizuki entered the room with a big smile and you can't hide they had loudly entrance. They immidietly hugged you tightly and handed you their gift.

"Happy Birthday, cutie!! Wish you the very best and even more happy hangouts with your favorite partner~"

They gave you a small wink, joking around a bit with their ego, just to make you chuckle slightly.

"C'mon! It'll take some time untill rest arrives so let's go to dance floor! There are already many people around so no use in waiting."

They just grabbed your hand and pulled you inside. You managed to just put their gift on nearest table to not dance with bag in hand and followed your partner. Maybe they were a bit too eager but that's what you loved about them~

And you also knew one thing... they're definitely gonna do their best to make it the best birthday party you had yet. Be it with thinking of many games you all could play or by dancing and chatting with you, making sure you feel like their special person, which you of course are.

↳ ❝ Calm party ❞

You were honestly just looking through your shelves in hopes of finding something sweet or generally a nice snack for sleepover with your partner. You were starting to loose hope when you heard a knock on the door... and after opening it, you saw Mizuki with bag full of sweets.

"Let's make our dentists mad today, what do you day?"

"Heh~ Sure, let's be sugar criminals together."

You invited them with gentle smile and led them to your room where you two sat down comfortably and maybe even changed into pijamas for more comfort.

"So! I prepared a little dress up show for us~ And the clothes are actually in your birthday gift! So no excuse to you saying no to opening it~"

They had visible from on their face but upon remembering some may feel uncomfortable with opening gifts in front of person that gives it to them, they calmed down, wanting to assure you, to not make this day uncomfortable for any of you.

"But if your wallet don't want this much... I have some movies that caught my guard and what we could give them a try and share each other's opinion at the end!"

They then wrapped their arm around your shoulder, already turning their phone on, just trembling to hear your answer!

"So? What will it be? Dress up show or a nice movie?"

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No affiliation or tags because it's meant for just mizu alone!

[soldofficial]

To celebrate hitting 10k subscribers for the first time on YouTube, I decided to update my social media banner. And it’s really interesting to see what has changed with my content since when I last updated it only 9 months ago.

Here’s my 10k subscriber screenshot (which still has the old banner on it).

💚 At the time I didn’t know that Linktree had a logo, so I just made a “video player” icon for it. 😭

💜 Two spots below that I linked my Twitch, which as of the current date, I’ve phased out of my scheduling completely. The reason for that being that I just don’t really like the company that much anymore, and that I feel much better saying “Sold the YouTube Streamer” than “Sold the Twitch Streamer”. Crossing my fingers that I can actually hold a stream schedule so I can call myself that properly though.

🩵 Below that I had linked my Twitter account, which was a much more reasonable thing to do 9 months ago. I spent a long time wondering if I even wanted to link my X/Twitter on my banner considering it feels like a sudo-endorsement of the platform. Similarly to how I feel about Twitch, but probably worse. I don’t want to be an “X Creator”. I actually at one point while designing my new banner had taken it out and replaced it with my Threads link, but in the end I grudgingly decided to add it, just a few more rows down this time. I just have too many cool mutuals and creator friends active on there to abandon it now as much as I want to.

🖤 Then I originally had my TikTok linked, since I made that banner 9 months ago I’ve become much more welcoming of being a “TikToker”. Even back then it was my biggest platform, but I was really trying to downplay it. Now I’m a lot more excepting of that idea. Because of this, on the new version, TikTok is linked right under my YouTube as the third link and the second social on the banner. The new order across all the links is much more representative of the order I prioritize my content per platform in.

💙 Then I had the last part of my Discord Server’s link written. This was just kind of impractical. I still have big plans for the Discord Server in the future, but it’s just hard to put in a banner. So for now I’ve removed it completely.

🤍 And finally, the last thing I had linked was my Epic Games Support-a-Creator Code, at the time it was one of my only sources of revenue and I was also very proud of being an Epic Games Partner, so I can’t blame myself for putting it there. However recently, like last month recently, it has expired. I’ve made the descion to not renew it because I don’t really play any Epic Games games anymore, and it was bringing in near nothing amounts of money anyways.

🧡 So that’s everything that’s changed from what I used to do, so then what have I added? In recap I used to have my Linktree, YouTube, Twitch, Twitter, TikTok, Discord Server, and Epic Games Creator Code linked. First I’ve reduced the amount of links on there from 7 to 6 just for simplicity’s sake, and the new line-up looks like: Linktree, YouTube, TikTok, Instagram, X/Twitter, and Tumblr. This is much more showing of my current priorities as a creator (both in platform choice and order). The two new additions are of course Instagram and Tumblr. Originally I didn’t like Instagram that much, but I’ve had a fair amount of recent success on it and I like what it brings to the table. Then there’s Tumblr, I don’t post a whole lot here, but I would like to, for the opposite reason as why I left Twitch actually. I feel good about being a Tumblr user. “Sold has a Tumblr blog” just sounds so on-brand for me, so I’m very excited to see where this goes because I’m passionate about this platform.

Anyways here’s the final banner update.

Hopefully I can take X/Twitter off here eventually 🤮

Also all the banners just say “Sold” now instead of the specific channel name, with luck it will make more people call me “Sold” instead of “SoldToGaming” or “SoldToTyping”, which would be good for branding consistency.

[in-tenebris-et-in-solitudine]

I found a guy from turkey in tumblr

Though I belonged from a different country

I loved the way we connected, I have never shared my picture to him, except the picture of my breasts with his name.on it with ink pen.( don't judge me for this ) I just loved him and he is quite alone guy as his father fought with him and his mother stays in different country.

But he is curious to see my face, I said him that I'll send my picture to you after 2 months. But he continued to ask me my picture and I feel bad, because I promised to the lord that I won't do anything till this year . I'll do good and won't go out of control but I feel upset that he is not trusting me.he says its long period to wait .

Now finally I have sent couple of my pictures to him on the texts , not to prove him wrong. But to know that and accept that people can't even talk respectfully and everyone just judges and says how can we talk if we don't see your face. I never want to blame him because I was working on to mend things not to fight with him ( over why I am not sending my photos to him) . I cried and cried while sending my picture that to a guy who I loved and prayed will be together even if its friends not sure where it is destined. You know I did prayed also that god please make me meet him once so I just talk to him properly.

I even planed to gather money to see him in 2 years but I feel broke a bit

But also relaxed at my heart that that's how people are these days

Ok, first of all, I don't think you can fall in love with someone you've never met, but moving past this. At this point, you have to ask yourself what you're doing.. so you're sharing nudes with someone you've never met, and now he wants to see your face, for me, that's a red flag..

The next thing that I have a problem with is that if the person you're talking to does not understand your point of view and doesn't think what he's asking is hurting you, is he a good person for you? Like how would anyone 'love' someone that makes them feel not good about doing certain things? In this case, was showing a picture of your face.. If you even told him that this made you cry, and he still pressed you for it, that doesn't look like a good person to me.

To me you seem like a young individual with all of this that you've shared. So I would say focus on what's important to you and don't try to make others happy. You have to make yourself happy first and the right person will come. Then you will be able to understand when someone is dissrespectful and you won't allow that behaviour to be in your life hopefully.

It's true that not all people are good people however, you can pick and choose which of those people you allow in your circle. Anyway, I hope you find peace indeed, and hopefully you make better decisions moving forward in your life. <3