#idk it does make me wonder like technically i could .... but also no i literally cant. not with my job 😭

[slimeciclecock]

My queue's gonna start going but getting to actually catch this stream and event live is lowkey making me want to do it regularly. Like on the weekdays

[www-pinkhearse]

I find Elysium’s religious similarities to our world very interesting and it makes me wonder what changed

(Longer rant then i intended ahead)

For example the concept of hell and heaven still exists

The concept of demons, devil, vice and sin still exit, as well as virtue

God exists, referred to as God or Host Almighty

Hell!!! crosses as religious symbols still exist

So clearly, the concepts are similar.

But clearly Christianity doesn’t exist, even though geez as an expression does?

Im also saying this as someone who’s not an expert on anything theology related, so the technical terms are lost on me, and correct me if im wrong.

A stark difference I notice in disco elysium’s in game fictional religions tho, the way they worship (in the religious way not in the general way) political figures, which reminds me of how many religions in the past would worship their emperors as they belived they were holy. First similarity that comes to mind is the romans with their emperors?

This is obviously shown in the innocences, who are political figures first, and religious symbols second

Or at least they’re characterised to be? Since I’m uncertain on how different science is from our world, and not just in the “how far back are they in discovering most things we know nowadays”, I’m talking science AS A STRUCTURE which I’m assuming is VERY different since

They haven’t been able to really explore space

The pale exists

Tape computers

Cryptids exist

SHIVERS what the FUCK is up with shivers???? The city LITERALLY talks to you

Refering back to point 5, EDC which literally lets you read kim’s mind and listen in on conversation happening somewhere else

Super rich light bending guy WHO BENDS LIGHT

Not to mention the game is literally described as a fantastic realism, a genre defined by realism with magical elements

So as far as im concerned Dolores lungs could really be glowing, I don’t know!! Just like in real life there’s that caveat of “is this really how things went?” With the difference that unlike real life a lot of these things COULD very well be more intertwined with science then in our world i suppose??

Still, you’re constantly are left to wonder if the magical stuff that happens around you ACTUALLY happened because the world’s current understanding of science is also incomplete!! We constantly experience weird magical shit happening and we don’t have ANY explanation for it and are left to doubt even if: again you can literally meet a man that bends light, find a cryptid and the pale exists. Your brain lets your read people’s minds and everything.

Elysium’s understanding of science is COMPLETELY different then ours, and i wonder what role it plays in their religion

Idk if i went anywhere here, im just , saying shit 👍 and i couldve very well skipped some key dialogue here

[tired-lamb]

final thoughts on battle for the pridelands

my liveblogging was… chaotic, to say the least, but I wanted to really gather my thoughts on this episode because its a big, big one. figuratively AND literally lol.

first things first the new designs straight up shook me in a /neu way, it’s not that I don’t like them but I just wasn’t ready to let go of the old designs yet, y’know? I kind of dislike how Fuli’s design feels like a completely different character, but otherwise it’s eh. I think seeing the guard grow up just made me emotional, haha. I wish Janja, Cheezi, Chungu and Jasiri got new designs tho, since I hc them to be roughly around the same age as the rest of the guard. I understand that making new designs for a whole bunch of characters (characters that wouldn’t be appearing much later, too) would be a lot of work but it just felt kind of odd to see Jasiri unchanged next to Teen Kion or whatever. Maybe at least change some tiny details, if not the entire design.

I like that they delved more into Kion worrying this time. it really puts into perspective that.. yea, these guys are child soldiers. thats. gonna come with a lot of emotional load. seeing Fuli and the others worry about Kion was a nice touch too, honestly. definitely opens up for thoughts about just HOW much these guys are affected by the whole child soldier thing. hearing all five of them sing again was wonderful <3 especially Ono, since he doesn’t get to sing a lot.

Scar’s betrayal of Janja was expected, lol. I actually REALLY like the way the show carried out Janja’s redemption, and WOW his song slaps. the guard + Janja’s clan getting stuck in the Lair while it was on fire was also really interesting to me, and I wish they hadn’t taken the route of them just.. escaping through Beshte’s pool. it was like.. what was the point of putting them there then? I’ll probably put more stakes in my maybe-going-to-exist rewrite, but lets see how I go with that.

*COUGH* why does Kiara basically look the same *COUGH* Kion looks older than her at this point *COUGH COUGH*

oookay, the stuff that went down at the volcano was WHEW. Scar’s song with this Strange Lion guy was like wow ok so . introducing new lore to explain why you’ll give Kion his scar and then completely forget abt it (or at least I think they do, I still haven’t watched the rest of the season), nice! buuut also creative, dare I say. song’s not bad!

ANGST. Scar singing the song Sisi Ni Sawa, the show’s most popular song, to Kion and LITERALLY MEANING IT. this is one of the few(?) times the show outright parallels Scar and Kion, and god I actually loved it. the fanfic writer side of me is leaning forward in my chair because there is no way Kion’s not going to forget that thought. Scar’s last words to Kion were literally “Sisi Ni Sawa”. Kion is the Direct Successor of Scar in terms of Lion Guard leader. THE POTENTIAL. THE ANGST. (cough) okay, but apart from that yahoo more delving into Kion’s character.

Bunga diving in to save Kion from Ushari and then promptly falling into the lava gave me a fricking heart attack. call me dramatic but started getting emotional on the spot. ONO FLYING INTO THE LAVA TO SAVE HIM did NOT help, and someone save my poor boy I feel so bad for him agh 😭

The outlanders reaction to Scar being gone felt kind of bland, but then again I’m not really sure what else it COULD have been. I’m sure some of you do, though, so feel free to share your thoughts:].

I am Absolutely Unwell over the fact that Ono has technically lost his vision and as a person who ships bunga x ono AND bunga x ono x beshte you better expect me to write something about it. Lion Guard writers I am coming for your kneecaps (or whatever the saying is now, idk).

there’s.. a lot of things I would have changed, but thats because I dislike how childish the show can get sometimes. call me out, I deserve it, the show is meant for kids, but it has potential!!! I’m not outright hating how kiddy it is, heck I’m like. mega fan of kid’s shows, but all I say is that it has the potential to turn into something less for kids, more maybe for pre-teens and above.

again, not sure if I’ll rewrite the episode since I’ll have to do a lot of thinking, but it is definitely something I’ll consider! shoutout to my mutuals for being with me till here, and for supporting me in my very much chaotic liveblogs. love you guys dearly /p /gen

*raises glass of fruit juice dramatically* to season three!!!!

[unknown-lifeform]

You know I'm just so lowkey baffled by the time in Rebirth Vincent says he could have gotten rid of Sephiroth many times but he could never pull the trigger in the end (paraphrasing). Like... when??? When did he have those chances??? Because the only times Vincent happened to be in close proximity to Sephiroth that we know of was

When Sephiroth was going insane in the library, but as far as we know Vincent was asleep back then? I mean, Rebirth does make it seem like he had some kind of job in the Manor, although I gotta wonder how he even got it. Like did Hojo knock on the coffin and said since you're staying here act like a security guard? It's kind of weird. But in CC Zack is shocked to find Vincent when he does, and Vincent was as far as we can tell fully asleep then, so I imagine being security is like some kind of hobby Vincent picked up in the past couple years. I don't think he had ever actually used that keycard thing ever before

Of course, back when Lucretia was pregnant, and like... I would hope it never crossed Vincent's mind to shoot Lucretia's stomach. And if I remember right Hojo shot Vincent before Sephiroth was even born, or at most when Sephiroth was a newborn, and again I would sure hope Vincent wasn't thinking about shooting what I assume was a perfectly normal and innocent newborn. Unless that was just a very dramatic metaphor and Vincent actually meant he had had many chances to put a condom on and never did which technically

As far as I know there are 0 other times when Vincent had any chance of shooting Sephiroth. The only possible time for Vincent to have thought about killing Sephiroth is if he had woken up when Sephiroth set Nibelheim on fire (because as far as Sephiroth was just losing his mind in the library I don't think he posed an active enough danger to be taken out). And even then it wasn't that Vincent had many chances. He had, what, a timeframe of about one or two hours from when Sephiroth started killing people to when he got chucked into the reactor? I don't call that many chances unless Vincent literally spent the whole time with his gun pointed on Sephiroth

And like idk. I get it if Vincent couldn't kill Sephiroth at the time, regardless of opinions on Sephiroth's paternity Sephiroth is Lucretia's son and Vincent is first and foremost a romantic idiot. But given Sephiroth was out there murdering a whole town I feel Vincent might have, I don't know, spared a bullet to the kneecaps or something. He was a Turk. We know they are trained to put emotions aside to a degree. He should have been able to non-fatally maim a violent murderer without too much guilt

So when! When!! Did Vincent have chances to kill Sephiroth!!! When did this happen! Squenix please explain

(Also if someone knows and could tell me what Vincent says in the original Japanese that'd be nice, like is it something he said in that version too or did the localization team make it up?)

[byclairs]

Lucas's arc seemed like he deserved to be put in his place and recognize that he was wrong for believing he could hope for better? And they did not even focus in his character that much. Most people say Mike has a spectacular forced conformity storyline waiting for s5 when we had a forced conformity storyline for Lucas but it was so sloppily written. I thought the forced conformity narrative is suppposed to be written good in any case for poc too, not just for your white character that you send a message with.

it feels like the duffers just don’t care enough to convey a cohesive message for lucas’ arc and/or don’t know how because on the one hand they’ve acknowledged several times the racism he faces both on and outside the show so they can’t even play dumb and yet they then constantly downplay what he goes through and so you end up with scenes like the end of s4 where he basically learns to know his place or whatever like..lucas is not in same boat as someone like mike who’s mainly bullied for being a nerd. he’s ostracized in a way that mike and dustin will literally never understand but the show almost never makes any attempt to show how he deals with that yet it’s explicitly talked about in an official book from his perspective (and i know lucas on the line is not technically canon but it’s still tied to netflix/st and if they had someone in the writer’s room who could’ve incorporated even part of the type of material from the book into the show i think it would’ve done wonders to flesh out his story) like i’m sorry if you’re gonna acknowledge that his situation is different than the rest of the party’s then you need to put more care into following through with that because the whole “i thought i wanted to be like you—popular, normal” scene was just..it felt like they were insinuating his main reason for joining basketball was just to be cool when we know it’s a lot more complex than that; he was trying to protect not only himself but his friends too even though they don’t face the same shit he does. and possibly even enjoy something new in the process god forbid. and you would think that he was ditching his friends and other interests for the basketball team when that’s not what happened at all? like he never started acting aloof with them or ignoring them, he was still very much in hellfire and he never turned his back on them he even used his status on the team to lure them away from where eddie was hiding even though everyone was saying he killed chrissy and lucas didn’t know what was going on yet. he never let his desire to fit in turn him into someone unrecognizable who needed to be taught a lesson and that’s why it pisses me off so bad that he was made to feel this deep regret in the end as if he made some huge mistake that he learned from because in reality he’s never been anything short of a loyal friend or strayed from his morals. and to top it all off mike and dustin get off the hook without having reflect on how they hurt lucas because apparently you should never support your friends unless you fully understand and agree with the things they want 👍🏼 idk.

i also think his conflicting feelings about helping his (ex) girlfriend deal with her grief for her canonically racist brother who traumatized and literally almost killed him would’ve been really interesting and important to explore especially since that most likely relates to the reasons he started feeling like it was urgent to fit in more in the first place but. none of that because this boy’s feelings are never taken into account

i also think everyone should read all of this

[thee-radio-host-is-a-kookaburra]

idk nothing about saw

PLEASE EXPLAIN THE LORE I WANT TO UNDERSTAND /nf

*cracks knuckles* buckle up

There is a guy named John Kramer who’s wife, Jill Tuck (amazing character btw. didn’t deserve to die), has a miscarriage. He is then like “the guy who caused my ex wife’s miscarriage doesn’t appreciate life” so he traps and kills him. Then he does this again a few more times until someone survives and he’s like “see? trapping people is good actually. be my apprentice.” and the survivor, Amanda Young, is like “fuck yeah. thanks for making me cut open a guy. so happy to be alive now.”

Then there’s the bathroom trap in the original Saw and a character named Adam Stanheight is unfairly left to die even though he won his test, solely so the other guy, Lawrence Gordon (who technically LOST the test) could become John’s apprentice bc he’s a doctor. So Lawrence escapes and John is like “be my apprentice” and Lawrence is like “fuck yeah. thanks for kidnapping my wife and kids and making me saw my foot off. so happy to be alive now.”

So there’s also this guy named Hoffman (meanie stupid head) who actually didn’t even have to do anything. Some dude killed his sister so he killed the dude back and blamed it on the Jigsaw killer and John was like “wtf I didn’t do this.” So John stabs Hoffman in a public elevator with a needle and is like “your blade fucking sucks and also killing is bad. i would know bc i’m a killer.” Then he pretends to shoot him but it was actually just a little prank and John is like “be my apprentice” and Hoffman is like “i’m literally a homicide detective. but sure ok 👍”

So then it turns out Amanda Young was actually there with the dude that caused Jill’s miscarriage and Hoffman is like “kill this random woman or i’ll tell John” and Amanda is like “ok :(” and then dies bc said woman’s husband was there too. Oh and John also dies.

So then Hoffman like kills a few more ppl and blames it on this dead guy named Strahm. And then Jill finds out Hoffman technically got Amanda and John killed and is like “wow what the fuck. no wonder John hated you lol” bc it turns out John hated him lol. So Jill puts the reverse beartrap on him and stands outside the door for some reason but then Hoffman escapes and gets fucking Joker scars.

Then Hoffman catches Jill and says some mean things and then kills her. But then SURPRISE Lawrence is back‼️ You haven’t seen him since the first movie bc Cary Elwes wasn’t being paid enough and filed a lawsuit but it’s ok bc he’s back now. Lawrence serves cunt and kills Hoffman in the same bathroom Adam died in right next to Adam’s body.

But ofc, this is just a short summary. This isn’t even going into like. the Fatal Five, the Matthews, Rigg’s attempted recruitment, Bobby Dagen, Scott Tibbs Documentary, etc etc etc

oh also Jigsaw (2017) and Spiral (2021) happen too

[the-cat-and-the-birdie]

im pretty sure hes like 27-28 dont quote me on that but why does he look like hes in his late 30s(to me)

margo (even tho i dont think she should since shes still technically a kid) could literally make copies of herself and lyla is working 24/7 because shes literally ai so.......sir you dont have a valid reason to not take a break, please do so.....bros so stressed and its actually so visible...I FR THOUGHT HE WAS SO OLD IDK HOW OLD BUT OLD

apologies i don't understand the simps/gen

That makes me wonder, what DOES Miguel do for leisure. I don't think even he knows 😐

He seem like like cooking type. He's looks like he can make a nice ass protein smoothie.

He's looks like he watches HGTV (Home and Garden channel) and home decor shows cause he's too busy to follow the plot of anything and game shows annoy him but he also gets really into the home decor

He looks like he'd LOVE the Great British Bakeoff. And making fancy ass coffee at home. Latin style coffee. Espresso and shit.

He looks like he don't listen to music. Which is odd because you'd think everyone would listen YOU SOME music but he looks like he doesn't cause he's either working or recovering from work so any music is 'racket' (though he has secret faves)

I think I'm getting carried away 😭

[sidersstuff]

Jasper/Orion bad ending to Never Love an Anchor - The Crane Wives

Yippee! This is gonna be fun! First encounter with the full song I think, so a few things might be off or weird, doesn't help that I'm tired gndhdh (definitely off from the original meaning, which is about a parent and child.)

"On some level I think I always understood that these hands of mine were clumsy, not clever. And I tried to do the best that I could, but try as I might, I couldn't bring myself to hold you." - Jasper and his attachment issues, they always thought that his hands were clever in a way, as they've always been good with technology and stuff, but when it comes to people and loving others, they freeze, his hands suddenly aren't as steady as they are when placing delicate chips in specific spots.

"It's a secret I keep tucked inside my chest, with this heart of mine that's guilty not remorseful." - Jasper feels guilty about lying about being human, sure, but they don't think they did anything wrong by it, he doesn't regret it, if that makes any sense.

"There is love that doesn't have a place to rest, but it would have buried you if it had settled on on your shoulders." - Jasper chokes up when it comes to love (and really emotions in general actually), especially now, but when they're able to express his love outwardly and comfortably, they love big. There has to be a better word for that but I am tired.

"On some level I think I always understood, that a ship could never really love an anchor." - HEAR ME OUT. Jasper being the ship, Orion being the anchor. Jasper is bound to leave at some point, but Orion won't be leaving with him. Jasper will set sail back to Rana, while Orion is staying anchored where he's always been on Earth. (I KNOW TECHNICALLY SHIPS BRING THEIR ANCHORS UP BUT THE SONG TALKS ABOUT CUTTING THE ANCHOR AWAY AND MY SYMBOLISM DOESN'T WORK WITH HAT SO SHHHHHHHHH /sill)

"So I did the only thing I could, and severed the rope to set you sailing from my harbor." - Orion letting Jasper go, despite how much he wants them to stay, he knows that Jasper would never be happy like that (or would they -rock face- /sill) and he knows that he would never be happy to leave the farm, especially to go to some new planet where he might not even be able to live, metaphorically and literally. So he does the only thing he could do, and lets them go.

"There are times when I still wonder about you, you are someone I loved but never known." - Orion still thinking about them months, maybe even years down the line. I mean, if you found out someone you loved wasn't even from the same planet as you, you'd probably be a bit skeptical about what else you know of them, right? He feels like he never truly knew Jasper, that his whole personality could've been a lie just to fit into the society he was forced into better. He loved them anyways, wanted to get to know them if it was a lie, but he didn't get that.

"And you'll never see the reasons I had for keeping my claws away when they were close enough to hurt you." - Jasper sheathing his 'claws' or, in this case, identity, because he feels like they [his family/species] would (and probably actually could, if they ever came back for them first.) hurt him if they found out a human knew they existed, let alone have a relationship (friendship or otherwise) with one of their own.

"I am selfish, I am broken, I am cruel. I am all the things they might have said to you." - This could be taken two ways, from Jaspers perspective, he's selfish for leaving Orion, they're broken for their weird feelings around emotions, especially love, they're cruel for not even being able to give Orion the proper goodbye he deserved. Also like idk if anyone else had this experience but my mom and other adult figures would always make jokes and stuff about aliens and while my experience wasn't about them being necessarily bad, I know that some others I knew were scared of the idea of aliens thinking they were, so just that really, and I think an alien species just outside of Earth's solar system (especially one that sometimes visits Earth) would learn about humans the same. From Orion's perspective, he's selfish for wanting Jasper to stay with him, he's broken for still being caught up on them months later, he's cruel for letting Jasper leave, letting them go back to the same people who had abandoned him.

"Do you ever think of me and my two hands, and wonder why they never soothed your fevers, and wonder why they never ties your shoes, and why they never held you gently, and wonder why they never had the chance to lose you?" - Just them yearning for a life together really, they'd be the kinds to want a simple domestic lifestyle, but haha they don't get thattt <333

ANYWAYSSS like I said things might be off for many reasons, maybe I'll update it one day when they're a bit more developed and I am not very tired and I have more experience with the song who knows this is what's there for now! Uh enjoy! Or don't!

[sobeksewerrat]

HYPERANALYZING/ SCREAMING ABOUT EP.3 COZ IT IS MY FAVOURITE AND I AM REWATCHING IT LET'S GOOOO

Disclaimer: this post is literally just me talking about how much I kin Milly and technically a combined liveblog

Oh look it's one of Taylor's bullies from BWBL!!

Also, what the music freak is this shitty pop song playing in the back ground man I'm-

Why is the school nurse running around like that-

Gotta love how everyone just rushes over to see Milly fight, and that Jake knows exactly who they're talking about (even though they've been friends for like 2 weeks). Really shows how much of a negative-ish reputation Milly has (relatable man)

Fuck Miss Jones man she sucks she can't even break off a fight who hired this bitch.

I really like the fight scene, Luke's animation is kinda wonky but I really miss seeing Kurie's animation!! I really miss the old GL episodes, they were just so much more well-written, and the amount of editing done by Rosy in them is really underrated like they seriously look so good considering how limited GL was.

God, seeing Milly fight for something Zoey stole is really fucking relatable. Like, my bullies always steal my books, my sketchbooks, my pencil case..etc. and I always get in trouble when I try to wrestle them for it. Like, I get yelled at and keep getting told "You're a girl you shouldn't be fighting with anybody!" and all they get for pushing me over the edge is a slap on the wrist, schools are really unfair (and then adults wonder why we don't talk to them about shit).

Dear Rosy Jake is so pathetic he literally gets thrown away by just a punch I'm-

Fuck you Luke

Zoey calling Milly an animal is um, weird, to say the least.

Um, side note, I really forgot how weird Henriam were in the first few episodes- like you could see the basis of their characters as we know them now being established but it's still so weird seeing them like this (also Henry is almost Liam's height in GL which makes me want to die)

Imma just skip over the Miss Jones scene I practically said everything I have to say but before that Drew was too much of a dick in this episode in an unlikeable way like THANK GOD he's barely in this one and seeing Lia flirting with Jake feels very wrong for some reason. Still love her GL outfit though <33

Wow Hailey I am so glad to know you care more about the competition than Milly <444/sarcasm

FUCKING HYPOCRITE- (jk I love GL era Hailey <44)

Seeing the club pressuring Milly to talk speaks to me on a weirdly personal level. Everyone wants me to talk about my feelings, but have you ever considered that I don't want to talk about them? That I am still not comfortable enough to let you in? To let you see that I am vulnerable? To actually confront the fact that I am not okay? I know the music club and the ppl ik irl genuinely mean well, but sometimes people aren't willing to talk, and you should respect that. Sometimes, just being there to keep us company and not judge us is enough, yk?

Side note: can really relate to Milly's reflex of hitting people when they get too close, I literally have to stop myself from punching my own mother whenever she grabs my arm or something I fucking hate being touched and I like the nice detail of Zander smiling when he found out who punched Jake.

Honestly, fuck Zander man. I joked about Hailey not caring about Milly's feelings, about Zander straight up doesn't care.

He is a straight up reminder of my one of my bullies and all the adults in my life. Fuck you Zander.

"Does the band mean nothing to you?"

DO MILLY'S FEELINGS MEAN NOTHING TO YOU ZANDER?!?

[Cries in this is super relatable]

"Great...she's on a rampage again"

Um...so, the girl being on the verge of a breakdown and being understandably angry at her bullies and her friends being extremely inconsiderate is considered being on a rampage? Damn, Sean, why do people even like you man.

So...you WANT to have control over her?? Idk man I am really mad at zander rn

"We can deal with whatever's bothering you, together!"

"Milly, I'm worried about you."

I already elaborated on this point but I just want to talk about how much I love Hailey in the first 4 episodes she was literally an awesome queen what happened to her 😭

God I love Redemption so fucking much it is literally the best song and musical scene in TMF /gen

Love the foreshadowing to Lia's redemption in the scene where they're bullying Milly btw, Rosy is awesome when it comes to subtlety (that is how you spell it right-?)

"🎵But you keep trying to get too close🎵"

Literally on the verge of tears this song (and whole episode tbh) hits way too close to home/gen (i feel like I have to keep clarifying how genuine I bcuz I don't think people realize how emotional this gacha series can make me)

"🎵Saved myself by turning into stone🎵"

[In tears] I swear people really underestimate how fucked up someone's psyche can be when they're all cheery and hyper. Media has made us believe that people who bottle up emotions are all cold and depressed but really the most cheerful people you knew tend to be the most depressed. The only other major examples from my fandoms that fit this category that I can think of are KEL from Omori and Kokichi form Dangan, but I feel like KEL fits this statement more that Ouma tbh

"🎵So save your judgement 'cause you just don't know🎵"

REAL. AND THE CAMERA PANNING TO ZANDER WAS JUST *chef's kiss* I SWEAR ROSY IS REALLY GOOD AT SHOWING EMOTION.

"🎵And they keep coming like moth to flame🎵"

People want a reaction. Adults keep telling you to just ignore the bullies and they'll go away, but they never will because they KNOW they're getting under your skin and they'll continue teasing you till you snap and they'll only stop when it's already too fucking late.

"🎵Redemption never came🎵"

This. This line is perfect and it is the perfect ending to the song. People are so quick to judge and tell you you need to change but they never stop to get to know the real you, they never stop to actually help you change, and you'll always be the villain in the end.

"Milly seems really important to these guys"

YA THINK?!?!

"I'm missing chunks of my hair because of her!"

Zoey please marry me 💖

"They must be talking about Milly..."

Yeah, no shit, Sherlock

"I can't believe she has a crush on that nerd!"

Me neither, Zoey, Milly is wayyyy above his league.

"You...blackmailed your friend for me?"

Also, being bullied for a crush is soo real. Like, I am aroace so I wasn't bullied for HAVING a crush, I was bullied for being a "pick me" because I just so happened to be close friends with a guy and they were all accusing us of dating (this is like a big deal here since dating is very frowned upon, especially for AFABs; so they KNEW they were gonna tank my reputation and ruin my life basically. I can't tell you the amount of teachers who would look at me weird when I talked to my guy friends)- anyways this barely has anything to do with Milly or tmf but this is my blog I do whatever

[EDIT: A WHOLE CHUNK OF THE RANT WAS DELETED?? I AM REWRITING IT NOW]

"Y'know, what? I think I might go see what Drew's up to, I've yet to tell him about how I saw you with your sugar daddy last weekend"

This was the moment I started hating Jake. I didn't like him before, but I started loathing him at that moment.

I have been cheated on before, and if my friends knew and didn't tell me I would have killed them.

"But drew wouldn't have believed him!" Well, he believed him in ep 10, didn't he? And Henriam would have been there to back him up anyways.

Another question I have regarding this is how on earth did he blackmail her?! Liek he didn't have a photo or anything.

AND WHY ISNT HE CONCERNED ABOUT ZOEY GOIGN OUT WITH AN ADULT!??!

"Aw, you two looked very cozy together"

His tone reminds me of my abuser and I don't like. It has nothing to do with the essay, but I wanted to point it out. It really got under my skin.

"Just...please don't tell Drew about what you saw"

Is ti just me or does she seem genuinely sad?? Like her conscience is tormenting her?? Idk man maybe I am just reading into this way too much but- [pulls out ancient tmf theories about Zoey being forced into this by sb and actually being in love with Drew]

"I can't believe those girls, snooping into people's diaries like that"

And you can believe Jake blackmailing Zoey?? I get you're still salty about Lia but cmon Hailey give the man some consequences

[INSERT DEAN SCENE HERE]

MR.BROOOOOOOOOOOM

GOD HER TONE IS JUST- LIKE, SHE'S UNCERTAIN ABOUT JAKE'S METHOD [PROBABLY] BUT SHE CANT BELIEVE SOMEBODY CARES ABOUT HER THAT MUCH OH MY- SOMEBODY GIVE HER A HUG PLEASE SHE NEEDS IT

I SWEAR IF I SEE SOMEBODY ELSE CALL HER CARDBOARD LIEK THE ANON DID I WILL KILL YHEM

"Um...well, when you put it like that-"

Jesus Christ this man doesn't even realize what he did.

That final interaction with Milly and Jake where they reflect on the whole thing is just- beautiful, awesome, fantastic. It's really sweet and I love seeing Milly finally being comfortable enough to talk about her feelings (even if she isn't being too specific or conveying all of her feelings)

Why does Elliot look like that.

Milly why do you like this guy.

Anyways, I love the sound effects Rosy used to add whenever people would blush, I miss it (iirc it isn't in any of the new ep)

GOD I MISSED HE INTRO/OUTRO SONG SO MUCH NOSTALGIA-

Anyways, I love this episode, this is peak TMF and it makes me angry to see how Milly was reduced to comic relief in the end.

I would write a proper conclusion but I am too fucking lazy

Bye freaks

[delusinalandpassionate]

i wonder what can be said about lob don clearly to anomalies more than to humans about mainline don. Like, idk, anomalies inherently exist in subliminal narratives of 'mankind', right? And while it is fitting that a person who knowingly and deliberately lives a story would gravitate towards autonomous abstractions of sorts (i mean, narratives! they make more sense if you operate on the logic of narratives rather than trying assign actual motives to them! and even if some do have motives, those motives seem to be informed by whatever they represent within collective subconscious or whatever- i shant be trusted with figuring this out aaah) but also... within the context of the setting and the bits of foreshadowing it does feel like, idk, don may be something of an anomaly herself (but not in literal way in which anomalies exist in the city) though it feels like repeating a point already made.

I almost feel like getting back into limbcomp after taking a break.

First of all I want to say that mainline Don is also kinda likes Abnos, with how positively she describes them and tries to pet one(or eat, but I mean technically headchikens were food so not her fault), but I guess not as much as humans still. So I agree that she could find their narrativeness and abstraction, like from literature, quite charming in every of her version. In that way I want to to see her observation logs about abnos who are more obviously story-coded.

Also one of my first thoughts was that LobDon's concentration on Abnos is a self-preservation mechanism, to not get hurt by the death of her colleagues. It is safer to get attached to creatures that can't die and can't disappear than to people who die every day. Because in most of her IDs she easily adapts to her surroundings, sometimes even changing her moral code.

I also think that maybe they were just the most interesting thing in that building, and she had nothing else to fixate on or study, I guess.

But I guess it still rather weird because inuniverse people who love abnos could be counted on fingers, and none of them were mentally sane, so point with Don being anomaly makes sense.

Also, there is a chance that she met abnos before she started her journey with Limbus company, with her being familiar with the process of distortion...however not sure how it works with how Walpurgisnacht fucks up timeline.

It's also interesting that despite how softly she speaks about them and describes them, she's not deluded to think they are safe and on guard enough to not allow herself to get hurt by them. She sounds as if she thinks they are just overgrown pets, but she's professional about them, knowing how to handle them. That kind of reminds me that even when she learned about horrors of Warp train, she still was charmed by them enough to invite Dante for a ride.

[microposting]

nauuuuur not CF shutting down wtf! can it all be transferred to ao3? idk how ao3 works…

and upon scrolling i saw that you are cooking up a long form piece….literally soooo so so so looking forward to it. your writing rocks like it is the best of the best. smiling like a fool rn thinking about it. thank you! also, godspeed these next two weeks… stay strong 🙏

AO3 has a tenuous relationship with original works, but it does have a fandom tag for “furry fandom” so I guess you could make an argument for a “macro fandom”? Regardless I doubt it would be interested in doing one of its mass archiving events like it does for fanfic sites. A lot of individual authors are choosing to migrate and talking about using the tag “coiledfist” to reconnect. I’m praying that they figure out how to backdate uploads or I’m going to GO BATSHIT.

Apparently coiledfist stories are pretty easy to mass download cause some people are claiming they already have. No way it’s bigger than 10GB lol. Tho I wonder if they’re saving the comments too. ngl I like rereading my comments sections …….

More and more original fetish authors are choosing to move to AO3. I kind of wonder if they’ll ever crack down on it if it starts to threaten their brand. It is technically against the rules.

thank yooouuu my plan for this one is to start out mostly sfw with it so it should be “safe” for me to work on until I’m finally freed lol. I’m excited I’m messing around with some tropes n shit it should be fun

[yoonyia]

I'm having a love hate mostly confused relationship with the last shadow

WHY ARE THERE SUDDENLY BIRDS

WHAT IS GOING ON

WHY CAN PETER ll DO SPONTANEOUS TRAVEL

also I appreciate that the books before this was trying to wiggle in the line of is peter 2 just ender or is peter 2 kinda just a new thing (or the 3rd option of he is just peter) and then they went with "he's technically ender by principal yea, but like he's in Peter's body so he's a zealous power freak even tho peter wasent even that. he's just like that now cause apprently Peter's flesh just brings out those impulses, also he's really pathetic now, like he and wangmu are the embodiment of "literal goddess, just some guy" and the just some guy really needs to be in charge even tho everyone looks at him and goes 'I can physically taste your contempt you little worthless man, stop being such a bitch' the second he tries to open his mouth

they fully just said "enders a narcissist now but he really dosent want or need to be and no one knows why he's doing this. (because on some level hes doing it on purpose) But he's trying to be better tho so good for him."

also I dont know if this is what the joke was meant to be conveying but I think miro gets pegged

idk man the book said he was pregnant and I know it was a joke but I feel like miro would only say that if Jane fucked him herself I don't know guys just a thought

also this book is hilarious

it's not serious at all

it's so much more comedic then any of the other books

also the writing is like

lazy

but not painful

the book has so little depth that it dosent (most of the time) contradict itself

but that does mean I don't know where I am or who I'm reading for like a 3 seconds sometimes

it takes the interesting concepts I wanted explored and dosent dig into them and honestly that's fine the author can do what he wants I'm not unhappy with this comedic tradegy but it does make me chew on things more

I often don't put much weight into the chapter titles but this story just said olhado wrote something about the study of aiuas right when I was wondering if the author forgot he existed and then I just wanted to read his studies

the concept of an aiua is fleshed out in this book but really weirdly

I think I'll eventually make an article about it because it's a really complicated concept that I want to make it make sense

also I have to make art of peter 2 now he's so stupid

he looks in the mirror and sees the brother who dominated and tortured his childhood so he subconsciously thinks "yep need to yell at my wife" but then sometimes he forgets and is tender and loving as anyone could ask for??? NO THATS GREAT CHARACTER WRITING BUT DONT YOU KNOW THATs STUPID

[gtraccoon]

ok so i have an idea for my au thing i’m working on and i want your opinion-

so as I have it right now only one of the four main boys is tiny and that feels a little unbalanced so my first thought was what if i make Kenny a sizeshifter? Idk why i think it would fit him, i just think it would.

probably not a normal shifter, like i don’t think he’d have control over it, but he does have his weird cthulhu immortality so maybe everytime he dies it takes him a day or two to return to normal size? like he dies, spends a day tiny, and the day after that is spent slowly growing back to human size?

Or maybe sometimes when he dies he just comes back tiny and stays that way until he dies again and has no idea why. I can totally see him just waking up tiny one day after dying and everyone is panicking until he dies again later and wakes up human sized again. It’s like a 50/50 shot on whether or not he’ll come back tiny or normal.

Also every time he wakes up tiny he has to deal with all his friends being like “oh my god why are you small?!” and panicking all over again cause they never remember when he shrinks cause it’s linked to his deaths that they also can’t remember.

Also a weird thing but what if borrowers could remember Kenny’s deaths? I don’t have a solid reason for that but i feel so bad for him just dying and never having anyone remember. At least if the borrowers remembered he’d have some support system. Like, everyone is panicking over Kenny being tiny for like the fifth time that month and Butters is just like “oh, again? neato” and they proceed to go on a tiny adventure together. I think it’d be cute but i’m not entirely sold on it, idk

DUDE THAT ISEA IS SO CUTE HELLO.

and i totally agree with that, i think that makes sense and it’s really cool, especially the park where the borrowers can remember, because it is canon that some people can remmeber (for example timmy remembers kenny’s deaths) and even if it’s just for a joke it’s still TECHNICALLY a canon!!

i literally love this idea and would definitely eat up anything you made for it, brainrot is hard to live thru when me and soda r like some of the only ppl who post for sp g/t

the 50/50 thing is funny too, like he’s dying and he’s like “please PLEASE don’t fuck me over universe PLEASE” but it happens anyway. i imagine the kids being like “holy shit he’s tiny” and after awhile kenny’s just like “yea whatever” and goes and hangs out with butters </3

i also wonder how his family would react, or if he’d hide from them. anyway, overall an awesome idea! super creative as always @cyncerity 😎😎😎

[sysmedsaresexist]

i think endogenics deserve their own -genic term that's not just clarifying that they're different than traumagenics tho. ill use non-traumagenic for a catchall for non-traumagenic systems but as a self descriptor it's like saying non-trans. like theres the word cis for a reason. ofc people CAN use nontraumagenic but i find it very.... strange. idk.

also spontaneous and created do work for endogenics, but doesn't cover ONLY endogenics (example: traumagenics who create system members especially for trauma-reasons, or experience members forming in a seemingly 'spontaneous' way, or yk. just mixed origin systems), so it's not a 1 to 1 replacement for the term (this is coming from a trauma-formed system who has created and spontaneous-seeming members, so saying those would count me, someone who's not (in a literal sense) endogenic, as the same as endogenics, when it's different.)

btw what would you think of someone using the term exogenic? since you don't like endogenic, i was wondering if you would think that it's direct technical opposite is bad as well, or if it's JUST endogenic for some reason.

Okay, we kind of have to work from the bottom up, here

So, first, where endogenic means internal and fantasy, exogenic means outside influence... Like trauma. Freud used endogenic for fantasy and exogenic for trauma. This is kind of a moot point. That would be worse? Still our term.

Second, CDD systems that create "endogenic" headmates, are still just... CDD systems. Mixed origin isn't a thing, and I don't believe you should try to put "origins" on individual alters. Alters can take years to make first contact with anyone, internally or externally. By that point, pinpointing what event created them, and more importantly, why they're there is nearly impossible. It's totally normal for CDD systems to have alters that are, or appear to be, purposefully created. I have some. There's so many reasons this could happen, but if there's a need, the brain will provide, consciously or subconsciously. Alters like this don't make you mixed origin.

It makes you a normal ass system.

It's about why the system formed in the first place, and for CDDs, that's trauma. Once the ability to create alters is there, you can and will continue to do so until problems with dissociation are under control.

There's zero rush to figure out the reason, too. It'll come with time when everyone is ready and as healing progresses. Being adamant that their origin must be this clearly "endogenic" cause has the potential of keeping them from processing other possible reasons. Just let them figure it out. We've all been there at some point. It took nearly three years to figure out where one of our members came from, and I feel like it would have taken longer if I hadn't known it was probably related to trauma somehow. Over time, reactions to certain things just sort of... Lead us to make the connection, and then we could start on offering proper support and reassurance when those reactions occurred.

It should come as no surprise, it was indeed related to trauma.

So, if it's a completely normal thing, why not just say you're a CDD system? Why does mixed origin need to be specified? What makes you different from other systems? From me?

Let me finish all that with, I can understand that these terms are helpful to some people, and I support them. I support the use of any language that helps people understand themselves better. My experiences won't be everyone's. Things that worked for me won't work for everyone.

However, I don't support using these words in ways that further blur the line between endogenic and CDD.

This means I have a very love-hate relationship with a lot of terms in use right now-- like mixed origin, because in its current use, it implies that experience is different and spreads the idea that this doesn't happen in CDDs, when in reality, it's incredibly common.

I'm not sure I understand the first half of this ask. Are you asking what I think they could call themselves instead? It was never about stopping people from using the word and more about pointing out that no one seems to give a shit about DID history. That it's ignored and swept under the rug without apology-- while telling us we're wrong and overreacting. That despite direct proof showing that things happened and were said, certain endos still have that information up and active, still circling through the community and further spreading misinformation.

Willfully.

Purposefully.

Intentionally.

I don't really care what endogenics do, at this point I just want them to stop conflating our experiences and talking over us.

[esta-elavaris]

Just wondering if you’d be able to share some tips on writing? Your fics are legitimately some of my all time faves, and when I was a teen a dabbled in fanfic writing but I’ve never been a strong writer if I’m being honest. But I have a fic idea that I really wanna try and write since I can’t find anything else with this specific trope 😅 would be amazing if you could give some advice on how to improve!

Thank you so much!! 💜 A lot of this is just off the top of my head but I hope some of it is useful -- good luck with your fic!

Okay so first of all one of my favourite pieces of advice is something you're literally already following by taking on an idea without being totally sure how to go about it. That's when a project always ends up being a good one, and that's what makes you improve ten times faster than like, "easy" ideas that don't have any intimidation factor to them. I'm always happiest with the fics I didn't know I'd be able to pull off in the beginning, and my crap ones are always the ones where I go in confident.

Read a lot and read broadly - books, not just fanfic. You'll end up reading a lot of stuff you didn't like, but you'll know WHY you didn't like it and it'll inform the kind of decisions you make with your own writing. And, better than that, you'll also find a lot of stuff that you didn't expect to like but actually did. Plus it opens up so many avenues for ideas to flow in from unexpected sources, even from stuff like autobiographies. And like, I think a lot of people underestimate that kind of thing because they'd go "well I'm writing romantasy, why would I need to read horror books?" but then they have no idea how to handle tense, spooky, or even angsty scenes when they do crop up - and those little moments of genre-hopping make a story feel real, anyway, because it's more true to life. Real life isn't permanently fluffy, or comedic, or even depressing all of the time without any let up, and like? That's why the best pieces of media are so good? LOTR has strong elements of fantasy (duh) but also comedy, romance, action, drama, and even bits of horror all at once and that's why it's so vivid because so does life (although in a far less dramatic way, for me at least 💀 idk what other folk get up to).

If you read consciously (critically?), too, you can go and seek out how your favourite writers handle things like exposition, or the bits that serve just to get the characters from point A to point B, or even more minor details like dialogue tags. I find that really helpful because it reminds you that not every sentence has to be like? Groundbreaking or even particularly good? "She walked over to the chair and sat down" is fine, it's golden, it serves a purpose, but when you get too in your head about wanting something to be great, it's easy to forget that and get too hung up on little throwaway lines.

Also people are gonna be sick of me saying this but the best thing I've ever done for my writing is writing every day, as a rule. If I could only ever give one piece of writing advice ever again, it'd be that. I do think folk lean too much towards the "any time the vibe is slightly off don't write a word! self care!!!" thing and uhhh not writing every single time you can find a minor excuse not to is going to be way worse for you than forcing a page down when you don't particularly want to and the real self care is the fic we forced ourselves to write along the way. I started Little By Little juuuuust before I started daily writing, I think, and comparing that to stuff I was even writing just one year later shows how quickly it forced me to improve. It's like a muscle, the more you work it, the stronger it gets - and if you show up every day, the ideas will too.

I know there's not much like? Technical advice here but honestly I don't have any of that to give? I don't approach chapters like "ah, yes, this one shall begin with dialogue because that provides an element of (literary term that I'm too tired to use as an example) which sets things up nicely for (other literary term I don't have enough brain cells to conjure)", I'm not that technical or that smart about it, if I do try to approach things that way it doesn't feel organic, I'm just out here vibing and feeling my way through it. But like I said, if you read enough and write enough, you get used to that and your gut will tell you which way to take things.

[lostfracturess]

ITS ONLY TAKEN ME A MONTH AFTER I SAID I’D SEND THIS 😭

Hi, I’m Kiko, and I get easily distracted and I put too much pressure on myself to write this so then my brain just didn’t want to even though I’ve read the chap so many times. And AHHHHH.

SO. S&C: say my name.

Holy shit. First of all, the smut? Incredible 😂 I really love the tension between these two. It’s so fun. Their banter and the payoff is truly great.

BUT AS FOR THE REST: The line that has been eating away at me for weeks is “he'd bleed for you, but couldn't heal for you.” THIS LINE. THIS LINE. OH, THE CRUEL BEAUTY OF THIS LINE. How true it is. It’s so much easier to be self-sacrificial and give into the destruction than to fight it sometimes and these two are such a good example of that. It’s clear he’s trying but addiction obviously isn’t easy to kick.

These two are so messy. So messy and it’s wonderful. They aren’t together but they are. She’s still so hurt by his former rejection, the fact that he essentially chose his addiction over her, and because of Geto’s advice on top of that, but she still loves him so much that she can’t get herself to give up and walk away

But the duality of how she truly does love all parts of him, even the ugly ones, but there’s a part of her that’s so afraid of losing him completely. That she is so conflicted and the little spiral she has when she’s thinking about how she loves him no matter what so why is she still insisting on trying to force him to quit? It’s because you love him, sweet girl. Because you care about him and don’t want to see him so miserable and in pain. You love him, but not the addiction. Because in the end, he isn’t the problem, the addiction is. It’s separating the two and I think you’ve done a good job showcasing the struggle in mentally separating them while also showing how she’s almost instinctively done it because she genuinely loves him so much.

Dumping her coffee on him was hilarious. Throwing her phone at the wall was so visceral and raw and I felt it in my bones. She was so impulsive in this part and tbh it’s relatable.

The party worries me. I totally get that she wants to have fun but sweetheart maybe find a party not being thrown by someone who wanted to drug you and take advantage of you because he’s technically gotten away with it which means he likely won’t be afraid to try it again. But you do you 👀👀

Gojo’s desire to keep her safe and from that party, her pent up frustration with how he pushed her away and now wants to act like they’re still together is just… so damn human. Yes, she knows she’s not being the smartest or most rational but that frustration and desire to have any kind of control over her own life is understandable. Again, these two are so damn messy and it’s so beautiful.

The entire bit where he’s begging her to say his name? Beautiful, heartbreaking, hot as fuck tbh. It was incredible. They’re both so depraved and it’s great 😂

Her insisting on going with him to deal with his family? That’s going to be a disaster but I eagerly await that chaos.

I feel like I was super scattered and incoherent in this and I probably forgot something but hopefully it made sense?? I’ve literally had a note in my phone to write this out in so I could do it in little spurts and then I go and just word vomit anyway… 😅

I hope you’re well and taking care of yourself!

- 💕 Kiko (@siriuslysatorusimping)

ahhhh thank you so so much for your analysis of the latest chapter, they mean so much too me as i feel like you really capture the essence of each chapter so well. sometimes i even come back to your messages to remind myself what is going on in my writing haha. kind of getting complicated with all those messy feelings.

but please don't pressure yourself for writing me these !! just pour your thoughts and they don't have to make sense or like in chronological order, i'll appreciate them either way !! <3

So messy and it’s wonderful. They aren’t together but they are.

ahhh yes, i love this so so much, idk why but that shit gets me. like knowing you're not really together bc of things happened but still are so close and intimate that it's basically still somehow a relationship. ugh, im weak.

It’s separating the two and I think you’ve done a good job showcasing the struggle in mentally separating them.

this will basically be the plot for next chapter. like digging deeper into that struggle all messy and painful hehe.

thank you again so so much for writing me !! wish you all the best and can't wait to hear your thoughts on the next chapter <3