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eddyneedssleep · 6 months ago

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This one goes out to the little gay people who live in my phone

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#my art #fanart #artists on tumblr #chappell roan #I'm using gay as an umbrella term here btw #for my LGBTQ+ audience #idk im tired give me a break

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gotchibam · 7 months ago

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Does anyone here draw in both desktop & mobile? I'm planning to get a galaxy tab at some point and since I don't really have any experience drawing on a (mobile) tablet, I'm curious abt how it feels to draw on one vs. drawing on pc w/ a graphic tablet 🤔

#once I have all my commission slots filled up that's when i'll buy one #i've been hesitating bc i'm not used to spending a big amt for something but honestly it's more of an investment than a simple want #my poor 10 year old laptop + monitor + keyboard setup is the 'pc' im currently using #both the laptop screen & keyboard isn't working properly anymore so i have a separate monitor + keyboard for it #it's pretty laggy most of the time #not sure how it's still holding up #ngl sometimes i'm worried it'll just give up on me & break at any moment #so I kinda wanna have a backup device #anyways! I get easily tired drawing on pc for some reason #I think it's bc i unconsciously tense my neck? whenever i stare at the monitor for too long #also my eyes hurt + the extreme hot weather lately is making me dizzy so i can't work for long periods of time 😔#I see a lot of artists use ipad so i'm guessing drawing on a tab would also feel nice???#also would that get you in the mood to draw more bc you can bring it w/ u anywhere?#i'm hoping to be able to draw more honestly.....#also the timelapse!! csp wont let me record timelapse on my current pc and idk why that is #might be bc im still on win 7 #HOPING i could post timelapse vids when i finally have a tab #tbh i want to get one asap (like as in rn) but I want to make sure I have enough budget first so im waiting for my comm slots to be full #bam blabs

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bones-n-bookles · 1 month ago

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Hey can someone give me a several minute long hug that I may cry into

#im so tired and so lonely and so sad and there are like. two people that i feel close to and secure in our relationship #and theyre both so fucking far away #and i dont want to like. just break down on people. but please somebody give me more than just a brief hug or pat on the back #last night i had a dream about cute boy just. giving me a big long hug. nothing else. so thats where im at i guess #idk ill be fine i always am #im getting by with my cuddly dog and my two coworkers i give greeting hugs and farewell hugs to #i miss my little brother and my mom #i miss having physically close and touchy friendships #i dont know if being touch starved is a real thing or just pop psychology or whatever but #i feel like a stray dog that cant quite figure out how to find my own food after being abandoned #whatever #my eyes hurt im done

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euclydya · 4 months ago

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looking at the past few days like What the fuck was any of that. are we okaaaaay

#pk;m Tulip🌷#i haven't seen heart mind or soul all day ??????? which is FINE #they need a damn break #i wanna find a way to get em outta front soon budt gfjfdjsjdjfjfnx #it's just been me dark n wil today which. don't Tell Me .#but i dont think that's happening #and idk what the fuck is up with diamonds. i mean i know exactly what's up with diamonds #it don't like our um. Favourite Person™. and im usin that term loosely rn.#and that's fine. i agree with it on some shit in this regard too. but shit man if you could maybe not try to isolate us from everyone #that'd be just peachy #but i think it and spades r outta front now. idk .#im tired man.#the body's been napping on n off since 8 #im still seething over shit i was ranting about from earlier today #like fuck.#im gonna go eat more pancakes i dont give a shit .

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glamorousnightmares · 7 months ago

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Bit of a rant post

I'm getting a bit tired of when you show people art and they just make fun of it. Making fun of your artstyle or things your not good at yet. When you show someone a drawing of one of your fav charaters and they just make fun of you or give criticism you didn't ask for. It's tiring when you just want to have fun and someone just rips into your art.

Giving advice is good, when asked for. But when you just say "this is bad, I'm better than you," It can get to a person. Making jokes about it can be fine if they're only made when the person is confident or just a few times.

I'm not trying to say "don't ever say anything bad about someone's art ever or your an ass" but if someone shows you something that they made, try to not give criticism unless asked for. Someone could take that hard and it can ruin a person's confidence to hear that they can't draw a charater or a thing right.

Try to be nice to people, you dont know what their going through.

#idk what im talking abt ignore me #art #artists on tumblr #im tired give me a break

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tony-andonuts · 5 months ago

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God I wish I didnt get ostrasised by all but like 4 of my peers because holyfucking shit am I overworked and need a hug

#why cant everyone just be nice like for fucking real!!!!#so sick and tired of looking like Mother Theresa compared to my coworkers bc i do the bare minimum of making the residents feel cared for #like girl we are working with the same cast and crew #will never forget the time a cna came in and after telling them 'hey that guy will get seizures if you give em that' and they replied with #'well they get seizures regardless' AND LEFT #EVIL!!!!!!#andlike #i understand that not everyone has the same memory capacity/ability but oh my motherfucking god #if everyone around me is at baseline then i must be either God or the absolute perfect person #which is saying something bc ive genuinely killed quite a few braincells with my former [redacted] addiction but here i am #knowing the smallest things about everyone that makes em happy #and the thing is is that I WORK IN THE KITCHEN!!!#IM NOT A CNA/RN WHO AT ALL HOURS OF THEIR SHIFT WILL BE INTERACTING WITH THE RESIDENTS!!!#idk man if i were generally mentally n physically well in my 30+s AND gettin outshined by a 21 year old for the past 2 yrs id be embarrasse #cannot fucking wait for my mom to get a job so i can leave mine and take a break #tony speaks #and before anyone says 'the CNAs are overworked and some of the residents can be overwhelming!'#the residents know im nice so they come to me for fucking EVERYTHING!!!!#ESPECIALLY the overbearing ones!!!#AND ON TOP OF THAT I HAVE LITERALLY EVERYONE. STAFF AND RESIDENTS.#ASKING ME WHATS GOING ON WHEN IM BALLS DEEP IN THE AM AIDES BULLSHIT ON TOP OF THE MORNING COOKS #not only do i ghostrun the kitchen but im the guy everyone goes to for everything. regardless of department #im literally a kitchen aide with no further qualifications leave me the fuck alone and ask your superiors/managament FUCK!!!!!!!!

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arolesbianism · 2 months ago

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Thinking abt Sif Odile duo looping au again and I wanna be able to plot everything out more coherently but act 5 eternally looms overhead and boy I do not wanna look up

#rat rambles #stars posting #like I have a vague idea of some of the like themes I imagine being present late game but it doesnt change the fact that act 5 isnt very #duo looper au friendly especially in this case with most of the ideas I have #I rly want it to be both a breaking point for them as individuals and a breaking point for their relationship but idk how to go about that #fully taking the rest of the party into account especially since Im not even sure if I wanna give odile her own friendquests #like I Could but I also think it'd be fun for many reasons to not #and even if I Did itd be hard to justify having both be able to happen and go wrong in one loop #and theres not rly a good solution to that I think so my best bet is probably to just leave odile friendquestless #but Id rly like to still have odile quarrel with the rest of the party in a significant way #idk maybe it can be the scene where sif comes back to the lighthouse or smth?#like he comes back and odile just completely lashes out at him or smth and the others get rly upset with her #but then theres also the whole walk through the house that I have to figure out and Im also not set on how that should go #maybe it can be like reality almost splitting as they both try to use timecraft at the same time?#not sure how Id go about portraying that in story though since the rest of the party cant rly experience that I think #Im sure theres some way you could pull that off tho Im just too tired to have any good ideas atm #and then the biggest bastard comes in. mal moments.#like I cant just put them both there! that's not how that works!#and I dont wanna just leave them mostly vanilla thats boringgggg #but Id probably have to. alas.#afterwards is also a bit fuzzy but I have rhe general idea down #me and the bestie when we both made the same wish but dont know that and have both been falling into a spiral over it #(we dont even realize that the part of the wish that was the exact same was the core of the wish)#(we both just thought that we accidentally trapped the other with us in this hell)#(we also have been actively getting worse at communicating for months now so by the time the wishcraft stuff came up we were both deep in #the no feelings talky talk zone)#(we probably should have known smth was up when everyone started consistently thinking that we had a fight every loop)#(maybe we did but we just didnt want to admit they were right)#god I wish I was more confident with writing odile dialogue I wanna draw scenes from this au so bad #it doesnt help that I got too comfortable being into a media that had like 3 fans and now ppl might actually look at what I create

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chiistarri · 4 days ago

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need 2 isolate myself and unfriend everyone #asap

#this guy who is still my friend i guess annoys me and ive been avoiding him and he confronted me and cried yesterday and i felt bad but more #ab the situation than our friendship because he puts himself into places without friends by being judgy and rude and wondering why ppl dont #wanna stick around him idk. i guess we're still cool but he clings onto me and its really annoying bc i want him to stop but i dont want to #be rude and hes just getting on my nerves and ik its bad to be like annoyed w ur friends but i literally just .our energies dont match and #its so exhausting to be near him so i need to do the right thing and tell him the truth and let him decide if he wants to cling on more or #not but i already did that tbh yesterday like. i told him i genuinely dont have the energy to match his and he asked 'when can we go back to #being normal' ?? i just said i felt better and comfortable being more alone and off than w him cant he stop. do i need to break his heart #hes really intelligent and hes able to tell these signs so idk why hes so hellbent on being stuck on me when ive literally said he tires me #cant he leave me alone. i already feel bad enough for feeling this way but last yr i didnt get to have any other friends irl bc he would #just cling on and drag or follow me and i barely had time to spend with anyone else and im stuck in a club i dont care for now bc he kept #pushing. like two or three of then actually idk why he cant just understand i dont want this nor any codependency w him anymore when ivebeen #like telling him already #sorry i have tutoring soon but im exhausted and feel horrible but whatever ill be fine etc i just need him to stop #on a brighter note. idk. im going to disney soon #post #vent #to delete #my lover please come home . only person i can admit my feelings directly to !. not on a vague tumblr post lmfao #/nbh btw obv bc why would i post it if it was #i need to play genshin kaedehara kazuha save me please give me a big fat kiss now

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usercelestial · 16 days ago

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it sucks that shitty fans have made it impossible to celebrate canon queer relationships that they don't like and seem to have an influence on which ones get attention on social media. it sucks that it seems like no matter how much tim says he ignores fandom, it stills get to him. it sucks that oliver refuses to stand up for his costars when they're being harassed. it sucks that antis feel like they have the power to ruin good things for other people because they don't gain anything from it. it sucks that we all already knew this would happen because this show never changes no matter what network it's on.

#going back and forth between if i should just take a break from this show again #my excitement has been completely sucked out after the break up sure but especially after the reaction to the break up #fandom isnt fun because the fans are fucking evil and annoying about everything. the show isn't going in any direction.#grrr idk I shouldn't have expected more but canon bi buck really made me feel like we weren't going back to the days #of one dimensional love interests and storylines that go in circles #we'll see if i watch on thursday. im off so i can tune in at any point.#i want to see buck grieve this relationship in a respectful way but honestly at this point would be be respectful?#would they give buck room to breathe and let him work through his feelings? or will he mention he's kind of sad once and move on #because interviews are bullshit like always so oliver referencing buck coping could just be one scene where he's a little down #they cant treat bisexuality with respect they cant give their characters what they need what the fuck can they do #i dont wanna stop watching this show because i've been here since forever i love it but if no one gets movement #what story am i watching? whats the plot? buck's story just becomes shallow and fans who like b/ddie and ONLY b/ddie #take it as a win because they can keep projecting their vision on to him because he says nothing to prove otherwise #so they just become blank cardboard cut outs of the kind of characters they actually are #i'm tired

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dandyshucks · 10 months ago

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everyone pray for me that i did not just give myself food poisoning (;･∀･)

#i may have made a bad decision with the meat i cooked shdjdkl BUT I THINK IT'LL BE FINE #it was past the date on the packaging but it didnt smell or look or feel off at all so . i decided to risk it #and now im panicking bc i think perhaps that was actually rly stupid fhdkdl #but it was. so much money. i had no idea the date was so soon on the package when i got it from mum #I would've frozen it if I'd known dhdksl i should've looked #alas !!! i think it'll be fine tbh bc it genuinely did not seem spoiled at all so ... now we just pray #i had a fairly small serving of it and I'll see how i feel to figure out if the rest of it is safe to eat or not #im just fhdjdkl crying a little rn bc the past two days have been so awful and im so tired #i rly dont want to get sick on top of everything else going on #i would like one thing to go well fjdkdl just like. one thing. this feels like divine punishment for having the old lady group go so well #im just kind of losing my mind rn i think actually fhfkdl i have a therapy/counseling appt on monday though so we'll see if that helps #i do not have high hopes fjfkdl #MANNNN. can the universe give me a break PLEASE. I've been trying so hard the past three weeks to do well 😭😭#im putting in so much work and effort fhdksl can i PLEASE have this one thing go okay djdksl i do not want to get sick !!!#if i do get sick then im just. hhhhh. idk djdkdl it's just one more thing to add to my pile of Bad ig djdkdl what can ya do djdkdl #i am going to pull myself together and stop crying and go play stardew maybe idk fjdkdl i feel like im starting to crack a little bit #augh. augh. i would love to catch a break djdkdl #dandy.cmd #vent //

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l0rd-0f-c0ws · 3 months ago

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I frequently feel completely isolated no matter how much I talk to people. So that's fun

#sorry if anyone sees these im tired of using my personal discord servet to vent. i always spiral too much #anyways i have an idea for a good poem to write for class because of recent events #ughhhh idk i just wish i wasnt so annoying about asking if i can open ip to people #or if someone would just ask if i was okay. i mean actually id probably lie i am not actually good at being open.#but like hey idk it feels nice to feel like people genuinely want to know #ughhhhfhfhf i do this to myself sometimes JSHSJSKDJDJD #welp its just how life goes. i feel lonely all the time and i soldier on #surely helping the next person will make me feel better! nope. surely helping yhis next person will make me feel better! nope. surely-#tgats me. thats what i sound like #yeah idk it feels like everyone is going through something worse than me so itd be a moral failing on my part #to ask them if i could just like. feel bad. noticeably #not even talk about it just look down and out of it for a day #yknow i emailed one of my teachers asking permission to go by a new preferred name #this is at like. a massive very queer and trans art school.#and i asked him permission to do this #and i was joking with my friends about how pathetic i sounded in it #and one of them patted me on the head and said “there there buddy” like very jokingly #but i almost cried because thats the first time in so long someone has like. really tried to comfort me #or shown me much physical affection #my mom gives me hugs and stuff but thats always about her. i dont blame her shes got a lot of stuff going on #but idk its really selfish of me but i just wanna have people see me and feel bad for me and it be about my pain for a little while #ill get over it im just being a teenager but shit god fucking damnit #i just want a break from feeling like my world is falling apart #then getting some footing #then it falling apart again #okay i feel a bit better now better stop the complain train JDJDJSKSJD #hey why do i never hear that it rhymes and everything thays so good #damn i gotta use that more #welp weve reached our stop sorry if anyone ever read thjs. hope you have a nice day tho lol

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radio-sepia · 10 months ago

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god my current theatre classes at the local centre turned out to be kind of a bummer. I cannot back out now since I have a role but I'd really want to... fortunately in less than few months it should be done

#txt #euuuugghhh #idk im tired i dont wanna go there this week but like i have to cause everyone is frustrated and wants to just get this play that we've #been dragging around for far too long to finish #just get it over with #good thing that there wont ba any lessons during the winter break hehe #but like. my exams are also a thing and i hope they dont expect me to be there every week. as callous as this sounds #like i see many problems which result in this situation #but if people arent coming regularly which tbh i understand why #and im there every week #then yeah #let this be a lesson for the future: we need to go into theatre of movement and dance more. the classical old type method #that we are taught with #is so fucking exhausting to me beyond comprehension #damn. now thats a rant amirite #it did give me some good things too so its not all bad and im glad i got to have this shitty experience #the only way out is. painfully through the fucking thing

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brighteyedbushybrowed · 1 year ago

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So an update for yall!

Mental health is a little bit better bow that I've forced myself not to work in fandom writing but it's still bot the best it could be. Meanwhile, my body has decided it also wants to join the party so if anyone messages me on here and I don't respond as quick as I normally might please don't be worried. My body is just throwing new things at me to feel ouchie about ✌️

#im just so tired man #body give me a break when #my physical health always seems to act up when i try to take care of my mental health and idk what that means for me #but dw #im sure ill be okay #just hate my body today

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year ago

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#woof. if all goes to plan Tomorrow is the last day i have to take measurements forever. if all goes to plan. if all goes to plan. but im #not holding my breath bc thats asking for chaos. i think this week ive done a good job of not pushing it #in terms of not torturing myself and making myself insane. which is good bc its exhausting taking measurements with the ambient stress of #apartment hunting from across the country. ive toured 2 places from afar and applied to them. and im meeting with someone to talk abt #potentially being roommates tomorrow. which is terrifying bc i really just wanna beg them like pls pls like me so i can stop looking pls #like i have to rely on my charisma i guess when im a bit asocial and odd. not unlikable but idk maybe they want someone more normie idk #its exhausting. ive sent so many emails and so many places r like no u gotta physically visit. ugh #and i have to clean my whole apartment by Tuesday for my landlord to inspect bc i had to give them a 30 day notice or else they wouldn't #release my info for like referal on background checks. there should b flexibility in when i can leave tho. its just stressful #at least im doing this when im pretty stable and i stop taking measurements tomorrow but i haven't taken a break since last Saturday #and haven't really had time to properly draw which annoys me and apparently i wont get a break this weekend with all the cleaning i gotta do #but oh well. at least im better off than the other person i kno who is moving Tuesday across the country and currently doesnt have a place #to stay. so i guess theyre gonna b living out of their car for a while. im stressed enough a month out from leaving #sigh. im just v tired and my heart is beating too fast and i wanna start cleaning now but im sleepy #whenever we go sampling we joke that we have to make sacrifices to the weather gods for good conditions. i guess i gotta make sacrifices #to the housing gods 🙏 ugh. pls. i dont wanna still b doing this for another week when i wont have time bc ill actually have to focus on #things. ugh. cant wait to b in the future where i dont have to deal with this #unrelated

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pepprs · 2 years ago

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not doing good. at all

#purrs #today and yesterday ive been unspeakably depressed. and no one knows what to do with me and i don’t know what to do with me. but ivs been ge #getting absolutely SHIT sleep bc of my siblings staying up late and my sisters ocd stuff which is probably part of it. I now im wide awake a #and it’s 2 and im miseravle and can’t sleep and already did sleep for 2 hours and it didn’t help and im hungry and weak #i truly don’t n kw what’s wro ng with me. i want to be happy and normal but every day i have long moments where im trying so hard not to cry #and i think most ppl would excuse themselves to go cry or take a break or like. speak up and ask for help if they’re miserable but i don’t d #do any of that. i just hold it all in until i get so tired it disappears. and then when i do snap im too miserable and ashamed to actually b #be honest about how anyone can help me which only makes me cry more. atp idk what will help. im in therapy now im about to have some time of #km eating food i like even though it’s not the healthiest ive tried resting and getting sleep and whatever. maybe im just not cut out for #any of what im doing and i just need to detach myself from reality even harder than i am already doing apparently. idk nothing im typing is #making sense i just can’t fall asleep now and im so pissed at my siblings and im pissed at my whole family for not giving a shit that im mis #miserable and easily overstimulated by noise bc i could’ve had ghe room downstairs and im still being held hostage by redacted and being #shaken awake to redacted like last night and work is killing me for the dumbest reasons. i literally cannot keep living like this #delete later

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andyridgeley · 2 years ago

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#personal thingys #i just need like one break idk buds im gonna go sleep i guess im wrecked mentally and physically #been trying to distract myself from being sick all day and its hitting me and ive been messed up mentally for weeks so yeah i dont know #dont know whats wrong but nothings been working at all for me lately and im tired wanna give up

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