#idk if i'm happy with how the first one turned out
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summary: caleb makes you kung pao chicken and you repay him by milking him dry.
authors note: banner credits to the one and only cutie who draw this! gut wrenching smut to my caleb girlies. like jungkook said, SEVEN DAYS A WEEEK đŠ get in the car babes, we're going to pound town. so sorry for the delay! like i said, idk how to write happy feelings so i struggled with this one a little lol. but i still had a good time! thanks for reading this four-chapter series, you guys have my heart. again, this was supposed to be allll in the last chapter but i figured it would be too much for just one post, so i split them in two.
warnings: HEAVY ANGST ⢠nsfw content, mdni ⢠obsessive!caleb ⢠UNCANNON bc i finished this before caleb release ⢠grinding ⢠astraphobia ⢠downplaying fears as we all do ⢠soft!dom caleb but then hard!dom caleb ⢠teasing ⢠orgasm denial ⢠SO MUCH TEASING ⢠word play ⢠fingering ⢠skyhaven is under a isolation period.
word count: 13.3k (i swear i'm not sane)
the first time you see caleb after the incidentâcaleb uses you as a hostage at the farspace fleetâyou punch caleb in the faceâyou're here
isolation week blurred together in a strange rhythm, the days blending into each other like half-forgotten dreams. you didnât keep track of the hoursâthere was no point. the world outside skyhaven felt distant, unreachable, as if it had been swallowed by the endless hum of magnetic fields holding this floating island in the sky.
caleb made it easier, somehow. his presence was a strange mix of soothing and frustrating, a reminder of the man you used to know and the one heâd become. you hadnât realized how much youâd come to depend on him until you were confined to this room together.
the first morning felt awkward, to say the least. after inviting him back to the bed, you woke up to find him sprawled out beside you, his bionic arm stretched across the mattress like an unfamiliar guest. he wasnât touching youâyou could see heâd been careful about thatâbut the warmth of his presence was undeniable.
âmorning,â heâd said when he caught you staring, his voice low and teasing. âsleep well?â
you hadnât, but you didnât tell him that. instead, you muttered something incoherent and shuffled to the bathroom, trying to ignore the way your pulse quickened under his gaze.
that first day passed in cautious steps, a strange dance of proximity and avoidance. caleb filled the silences with stories from the baseâhow heâd managed a near-disastrous training exercise or how a recruit had accidentally fried half the communication systems. you found yourself laughing more than you expected, his sharp wit and easy charm tugging at memories you thought youâd buried.
the second day was spent with caleb working in the living room and you lounging in his room. turns out that the floor-to-ceiling glass windows werenât as soundproof as you thought. every time caleb cursed under his breath at whatever he was tinkering with, it carried into the bedroom like a muffled echo, forcing you to stifle laughter more than once. by the fourth time he muttered something about ârookie mistakesâ and âdamn loose wiring,â you couldnât help but shout, âyou talking to the wiring or yourself?â
his reply was immediate, his voice full of dry humor. âdepends. which oneâs listening better?â
when the evening of the second isolation day came, a storm rolled in slowly, creeping over skyhaven like a shadow. it began with the faintest rumble of thunder in the distance, barely audible over the soft hum of the dorm. the sky outside the windows darkened, heavy clouds gathering until the first streak of lightning cut through the horizon. you glanced toward the glass, drawn to the way the city lights below flickered like stars against the storm.
caleb called you to the kitchen for dinner, his voice casual but tinged with an edge of exhaustion. ânothing fancy,â heâd said, placing a plate in front of you. âjust leftovers. figured you wouldnât complain.â
you didnât, especially not when you caught the faint scent of whatever heâd reheatedâit smelled good, and by now, you were too hungry to care about the lack of flair. you sat together at the small table, the storm outside casting shifting shadows across the walls. the dim lighting made the space feel smaller, more intimate, and for the first time in days, the silence between you felt easy, comfortable.
âdo you remember when we used to sneak into the kitchen at granâs place?â you asked between bites, the memory coming unbidden but welcome.
caleb snorted, a rare, genuine laugh slipping past his usual guarded demeanor. âyou mean when youâd sneak and iâd get dragged into it?â
âoh, please,â you shot back, a grin tugging at your lips. âyou were the one who wanted to make those awful peanut butter and jelly sandwiches with way too much jelly.â
âyou ate them, didnât you?â he countered, raising an eyebrow.
âbecause i was starving!â you laughed, shaking your head. âyou couldâve fed me cardboard, and i wouldâve said thank you.â
he chuckled, leaning back in his chair. âyou were easy to please back then. now look at you, living the high life with reheated kung pao chicken.â
the playful jab earned him a mock glare, but the warmth in his voice made it impossible to be annoyed. the shared memory lingered between you, softening the edges of everything else. for a moment, it felt like you were kids again, stealing moments of joy in the quiet corners of a world that never quite felt safe.
outside, the storm intensified, the thunder growing louder, closer. lightning lit up the room in sharp flashes, followed by the low growl of the sky. you turned your gaze to the windows, the storm demanding attention with its unpredictable rhythm. caleb followed your line of sight, his expression shifting as he watched the storm unfold and your reaction at the same time.
âthis oneâs going to be loud,â he said, almost to himself. âstorms like these always are, especially up here.â
his voice was calm, but the weight of the storm pressed against the walls, creeping into the space between you. as the wind howled and the rain began to streak the glass, the moment of levity faded, replaced by a quiet intensity that you werenât capable of ignoring.
âguess weâre in for an interesting night,â you murmured, your voice barely audible over the first sharp crack of thunder.
âlooks like it,â caleb replied, his tone softer now, his gaze flicking to you as the storm continued to rage outside.
for the next minutes, you realized that storms in skyhaven were way different from the storms in linkon city. the way the lightning lit up the entire sky, crackling with a brightness that seemed to ripple through the clouds, was almost beautifulâif it wasnât so overwhelming. the thunder was deeper here, more resonant, as if the very air carried its weight. every flash and rumble seemed to rattle the walls, making the room feel smaller, like the storm was trying to press its way in.
unfortunately, you were scared of both.
you tried to keep your composure, focusing on your plate and the casual rhythm of calebâs fork against his. but when a particularly loud clap of thunder roared through the dorm, your hand flinched, nearly knocking over your glass. calebâs head snapped up at the sound, his gaze flicking to you with an intensity that made your cheeks flush.
âyou okay?â he asked, his voice steady, though his brow furrowed slightly.
âfine,â you replied too quickly, your voice thinner than you meant. you placed your hands in your lap, twisting your fingers together to hide the slight tremor. âjust⌠loud, thatâs all.â
he didnât look convinced, his eyes narrowing just a fraction before he set his fork down. âare you still scared of them?â he said, leaning back in his chair. his tone was casual, but there was a softness to it, the kind he used when he was trying not to push too hard.
you nodded, your gaze fixed on the plate in front of you. âstill not my thing.â
he watched you for a moment longer, his gaze steady but unreadable, before a particularly sharp crack of thunder split the air. it was closer this time, louder, and it made you flinch despite yourself. your breath hitched, your shoulders tensing as you tried to steady yourself.
âhey,â he murmured, his voice gentler now, the edge gone. âcome here.â
you hesitated, your fingers tightening in your lap. âiâm fine,â you started, but the words felt hollow, unconvincing even to yourself.
âyouâre not, pipsqueakâ he said, his tone firm but not unkind. he reached out then, not quite touching you but close enough that the gesture felt like a tether. âi know you. just⌠come here.â
you stood slowly, unsure at first, but when you moved closer, he didnât hesitate. he pulled you gently into his lap, his arms wrapping around you like a shield against the storm.
the movement caught you off guard, but you didnât resist. the warmth of him was immediate, grounding, his bionic arm cool against your side as he adjusted it carefully.
âbetter?â he asked softly, his breath brushing against your temple.
you nodded, your cheek pressing against his chest, the steady rhythm of his heartbeat calming the chaos inside you. âa little,â you admitted, your voice muffled but steadying.
another roar of thunder shook the room, and your hands gripped his shirt instinctively. he didnât flinch or pull awayâhe just held you tighter, his hand moving in slow, reassuring circles against your back.
âyouâre okay,â he murmured, his voice low and soothing. âiâve got you.â
âi look like a child, sorry,â you muttered, your voice barely audible as you kept your face buried against his chest. âi fight wanderers, for godâs sake.â
caleb chuckled softly, the sound vibrating through you. âyou donât look like a child,â he said, his tone light but carrying that familiar edge of warmth. âyou are you, pipsqueak.â
you huffed a quiet laugh, rolling your eyes even though he couldnât see it. âcomforting.â
âitâs true,â he added, his voice dropping slightly, almost like he wasnât sure he should say it. âi remember you always cried when it was storming back then.â
you pulled back just enough to look at him, his words tugging at a long-forgotten memory. âyou teased me at first,â you said, a small smile tugging at your lips. âbut then you always slept with me in my room afterward.â
his lips quirked into a faint grin, his eyes softening. âbecause youâd cling to me like a little barnacle,â he teased gently, though the fondness in his voice was unmistakable.
âyou never complained,â you countered, your cheeks warming at the memory.
ânever had a reason to,â he said simply, his gaze steady on yours.
the room felt quieter then, the storm outside reduced to a distant rumble as the two of you sat there, his arms stayed around you.
âitâs not so different now, is it?â he said softly, his voice barely above a whisper. âjust you and me. like itâs always been.â
you didnât reply, but the way you stayed pressed against him, your hand unconsciously gripping his shirt, was answer enough.
âstupid floating island, why did the daa have to make their base here?â you joked, your voice muffled against his chest. ânow i canât even finish my burnt kung pao.â
âburnt?!â caleb laughed, mock-offended, pulling back just enough to look at you. âyou just said you wouldnât complain. for me, thatâs partially overcooked, nothing more.â
you tilted your head, giving him an incredulous look. âpartially overcooked? caleb, the chicken was practically charcoal.â
he smirked, his hands still resting lightly on your sides. âitâs called adding texture. iâm innovating.â
you couldnât help but laugh, the tension in your chest easing as his grin widened.
the storm rumbled outside, the occasional flash of lightning casting fleeting patterns across the walls. his hands, still steady on your sides, seemed to hesitate for a moment, his thumb brushing lightly against the fabric of your shirt. it was such a small, unconscious gesture, but it sent a shiver down your spine nonetheless.
you glanced down at his hand, then back up at him, and found his gaze fixed on you with an intensity that made your breath hitch. there was no teasing in his expression now, no quick retort or sarcastic comment. just him, watching you like you were something fragile and precious, something he couldnât bring himself to look away from.
âcalebâŚâ you started, your voice quieter now, almost hesitant.
âwhat?â he asked softly, his tone steady but edged with something deeper.
you shook your head, unsure of what to say, unsure if you should say anything at all. ânothing,â you murmured, though your heartbeat betrayed you, thudding loudly in your ears.
he didnât press, but his gaze stayed on you, unrelenting. the hand on your side shifted slightly, his fingers curling just enough to ground you, to remind you he was there. âyou sure about that?â he asked after a beat, his voice low.
you nodded, but the motion felt half-hearted, like you werenât entirely sure of anything anymore. the tension between you grew heavier, the air around you thick with something unspoken, and you wondered if he could feel it tooâthe way the space between you seemed to shrink without either of you moving.
âyouâre trembling,â he said softly, his brow furrowing as his other hand came up, hesitating before resting lightly against your arm.
âitâs the storm,â you replied, though you werenât sure if that was entirely true.
âis it?â he asked, his voice barely above a whisper now, his thumb brushing a slow, deliberate line against your arm.
you didnât answer. you couldnât. instead, you stayed there, caught between the steady warmth of his hands and the wild rhythm of your own heart, waiting to see what would happen next.
another thunder came, the loudest yet, and you trembled in his hold. his arms tightened instinctively around you, grounding you as your breath hitched.
"fuck, this sucks," you muttered, frustration and embarrassment creeping into your voice. "iâm sorry, i think i shouldâ"
"do you want to watch something on the tv?" he interrupted, his tone casual but deliberate, like he was trying to steer your focus elsewhere.
you looked at him, confused. "i think i shouldnâtâyou donât have to worry about me."
he tilted his head slightly, his expression soft but unyielding. "i used to distract you from the storms with silly cartoons when you were younger," he said, a small smile tugging at the corner of his mouth. "i think it will help."
"weâre not kids anymoreâ" you started, but he didnât let you finish. in one swift motion, he stood, lifting you effortlessly into his arms, bridal style. "what the hell!" you gasped, your hands instinctively clutching at his neck to steady yourself.
"i can walk, you know," you said, glaring up at him, though the heat rising to your cheeks betrayed the annoyance in your voice.
"i know," he replied, his voice warm but firm. "but i prefer you donât when iâm around."
you opened your mouth to argue but stopped when you caught the way he looked at youâsteady, unwavering, his grip on you secure but gentle. as he crossed the living room and entered his bedroom, you couldnât help but feel the tension in your chest begin to ease.Â
as he set you down carefully on the edge of his bed, his hands lingered for a moment, his touch light yet grounding. his fingers brushed your arms briefly as he pulled back, and the faint contact left a trail of warmth on your skin.
"you good here?" he asked softly, his voice low, his gaze searching yours as if to make sure you were really okay.
you nodded, but the truth was, the weight of the storm still pressed on you.
"yeah," you murmured, your voice quieter than you intended. but even as you said it, your hands fidgeted in your lap, betraying the unease that still lingered.
caleb didnât move far, instead crouching in front of you, his arms resting on his knees as he leveled his gaze with yours. "you donât have to pretend, you know," he said, his tone soft but firm. "if itâs still too much, just tell me."
his sincerity made your chest tighten, the way his eyes softened as he spoke, the faint crease of worry between his brows. the storm outside growled again, a low rumble that rattled the glass, and before you could stop yourself, you moved.
your body acted on instinct, seeking out the comfort that had been so immediate and steady. you slid forward, closing the space between you as you climbed into his lap, your arms wrapping around his neck.
âhey,â he murmured, startled for only a moment before his hands came up to steady you, one resting firmly on your back while the other settled on your hip. âyou okay?â
âsorry,â you whispered, your face pressed against the curve of his neck. âi just⌠itâs better like this.â
he exhaled softly, the sound more like a sigh of relief than anything else. âdonât apologize, pipsqueakâ he said, his voice low and soothing. âthe storms youâll encounter in the future⌠they shouldnât exist here.â
his words sent a shiver down your spine, and you felt his arms tighten slightly around you, holding you closer. the heat of his body seeped through the thin fabric of your clothes, and the steady rhythm of his breathing calmed the erratic beat of your heart.
his fingers flexed against your hip, the warmth of his hand seeping through the material. âiâve got you,â he replied.
he sat on the bed bringing you with him, his back touching the headboard.
the storm outside roared again, but it felt distant now, muffled by the space you shared. you shifted slightly in his lap, and his grip tightened reflexively, a quiet inhale escaping him as you moved.
âsorry,â you murmured, your cheeks warming with the apology.
âyouâre trembling,â he noted again, his voice quieter now, rougher at the edges. his hand on your back moved in slow, soothing circles, but there was a tension in him that hadnât been there before��a subtle stiffness in his posture, the way his fingers lingered just a moment too long.
âiâm just a little shaken,â you replied, though your voice betrayed you, wavering slightly as your chest pressed against his.
âdonât worry too much, princess,â he murmured, his voice dipping low, the words brushing against your ear like a secret. his hand stilled on your back, the pause heavy, loaded with something unspoken. âi like when weâre close like this.â
you didnât reply at first, your breath catching as his gaze held yours. his eyes searched, questioned, the intensity of his closeness overwhelmingâthe faint warmth of his breath on your cheek, the steady weight of his hand against your back. it was too much and not enough all at once. you swallowed hard, your voice barely a whisper as you said, âme too.â
âdo you?â his tone was curious, soft, yet laced with something deeper, and you felt a flicker of need pulse through you. his question lingered in the air, fragile and heavy. you didnât know how to respond, unsure if the truth would feel like breaking somethingâor like setting it free.
âbecause i do,â he admitted, his voice unwavering, his honesty unraveling something inside you. âalways have.â
the sincerity in his words, the way his eyes held no doubt, no hesitationâit pulled at you. it felt like stepping into something safe and terrifying all at once, his certainty acting as a charm you couldnât resist.
âi do,â you murmured timidly, your voice so soft it was almost lost to the storm outside. you couldnât meet his gaze, your eyes dropping to avoid the weight of everything heâd laid bare.
smoothly, caleb's hands tightened on your sides, his touch a quiet plea for your attention. and so, you look at him. your gaze meets his amethystine eyes, and there, you find itâyearning, raw and unguarded, etched into every facet of him.
"would you hate me even more if i said i wanted to kiss you right now?"
his voice was so steady, so effortless, that it left you momentarily stunned. you stayed silent, your heart pounding against the truth you were too afraid to confront, the truth simmering just beneath the surface of your heart.
âi donât hate you,â you whispered, the words slipping out before you could stop them. they hung in the air between you, fragile and vulnerable. his gaze softened, searching your face for somethingâpermission, maybe, or clarity.
âbut you donât want this,â he said, though his voice wavered, unsure. his grip loosened, like he was already preparing to pull away, to retreat.
you shook your head slightly, barely more than a tremble. âitâs not thatâŚâ your voice cracked, and you hated how exposed you felt.
"iâm sorry," he murmured, his voice heavy with regret, eyes staring at both of his hands on your side. his bangs fell over his eyes, giving him an innocent look. caleb had always been effortlessly pretty in your eyes.
you caught yourself staring at his sudden shyness with more awe than apprehension. ever since youâd grown a little taller and started seeing caleb through a different lensâone that wasnât colored by the âolder brotherâ view you once hadâyou couldnât help but admire his beauty. moments like this, when his youthful charm caught you off guard, felt like they pressed you against an invisible wall, leaving you breathless.
because how many times had you wanted to kiss him before? god, youâd had the silliest crush on this man for what felt like forever. and now, knowing heâd been pining for you just the same all along? it felt unreal and unfair at the same time.
"i shouldnât put you in a position like this⌠letâs justâletâs watch something." he leaned back slightly, creating space that felt colder, emptier, and pretended to be searching for the controller on his bedside table.
but you saw itâthe restraint in his eyes, the way he was holding himself back for your sake. and you couldnât let that linger. "caleb," you said softly, reaching for his hand before he could fully pull away. "itâs not that⌠youâre not putting me on the spot." you hesitated, your breath shaky as you forced the words out. "i kind of⌠want to be on the spot."
were you caving yourself in a bigger mess? you honestly couldnât tell. but ignoring your childhood feelings right now seemed to be as painful as the possible ache of regret you could face later.
his eyes snapped back to yours, wide, searching for any sign of doubt. "you do?" his voice was quieter now, almost disbelieving.
"i do," you admitted, your cheeks warming under his gaze. "itâs just⌠this is new, and iâm scared, but that doesnât mean i donât want it."
he exhaled slowly, his shoulders relaxing as he took in your words. "fuck, i donât want to scare you, pipsqueak," he said, his thumb brushing lightly over your knuckles.
âyou could never.â
his lips parted slightly, his jaw tightening as he exhaled through his nose, seeming thoughtful. âyou want me to stop?â he asked, his voice low and steady, though there was a hint of strain behind it.
again, caleb seemed so youthful in this light, his features softer, the usual sharpness in his gaze replaced with something gentler. there was an innocence about him now, a vulnerability that clung to the edges of his desperation. it wasnât just restraintâit was care. as if the fear of scaring you, of pushing you too far, outweighed any longing he might have for your body.
you shook your head, your fingers curling into the fabric of his shirt as you leaned closer. âno,â you whispered, the word trembling between you.
your breath caught, and for a moment, the world outsideâthe storm, the hum of skyhaven, everythingâfaded into a quiet, dizzying stillness. his touch was grounding, his gaze searching, and yet, all you could think about was the last time you felt this close to him.
a week ago.
it came rushing back, unbidden and vivid, like a memory youâd tried to bury but couldnât. the moment when he reappeared on your front door in linkon city, alive and impossibly real, standing in the doorway of your tiny apartment as if the months between you hadnât happened.
your chest tightened as the ache in your heart shifted into something elseâsomething sharper, hungrier. you leaned in without thinking, your hand moving to his jaw, your lips hovering just a breath away from his.
but before you could close the distance, he froze. his hand moved to yours, holding it gently but firmly, his eyes now wide and dark, filled with something you couldnât quite name.
âdonât,â he rasped, his voice barely above a whisper, his breath hot against your skin. âdonât do it if you are not ready to forgive me yet, princess.â
his words made your heart stutter, the rawness in his tone cutting through the haze in your mind. his jaw tightened beneath your hand, his grip on your waist trembling slightly, as if the effort to stop himself was taking everything he had.
âtell me you want it first,â he pleaded, his voice rough, almost pained. âplease.â
your breath caught, the weight of his gaze pinning you in place. he looked at you like the thought of stopping physically hurt him, like holding himself back was the hardest thing heâd ever done.
âcalebâŚâ you started, but your voice wavered, the unspoken pull between you making it hard to find the words.
âsay it,â he urged, his forehead resting against yours, his voice a whisper now, almost broken. âif you want me, tell me.â
fuck, caleb was trembling.
âi think,â you whispered, your voice shaking as much as he was. you brought your hand to his jaw again, your fingers brushing against the faint stubble there, grounding both of you in the moment. âi think this will help.â
âwith the forgiving part, you wanted to complete.
his eyes searched yours, desperation and longing swirling together in a way that made your chest ache. âdonât say it unless you mean it,â he murmured, his voice rough, his forehead pressing against yours harder now, like he needed the contact to steady himself.Â
you swallowed hard, your thumb brushing the edge of his jaw as you let out a shaky breath. âi want this,â you said, the words fragile but true. âi want you.â
his breath hitched, his fingers tightening on your waist as if those words had been the only thing holding him back.Â
âsay it again,â he whispered, his lips so close to yours that you could feel the heat of them.
âi want you,â you repeated, your voice steadier now, your grip on him tightening as if to prove it.
that was all it took. the tension between you snapped, and caleb closed the space between you in one fluid motion, his lips crashing against yours with a hunger that stole your breath. this wasnât like the kiss in linkon city, sharp and painful and desperate. this was differentâdeeper, slower, filled with a need that burned just as fiercely but carried the weight of something more.
his hands moved to your back, pulling you closer, every inch of him pressing against you as if he couldnât bear the thought of space between you. the storm outside raged on, but in that moment, it felt like the two of you had created your ownâjust as powerful, just as unstoppable.
his lips moved against yours with a deliberate intensity, each touch igniting something deeper. his hands, strong and steady, slid up your back, grounding you.
your fingers tangled in his hair, pulling him closer, and he groaned softly against your lips, the sound low and desperate. the sheer intensity of it all made your pulse race, and you felt a rush of heat spread through your body as he deepened the kiss, his teeth grazing your lower lip before pulling back just enough to meet your gaze.
âtell me if itâs too much,â he murmured, his voice rough, his breath fanning across your cheek. his forehead rested against yours again, his grip on your waist firm but trembling just slightly, a reminder of how much he was feeling at the moment.
âitâs not,â you whispered, your voice barely audible over the sound of your heart pounding in your ears. âdonât stop.â
he leaned in again, his kisses softer now but no less consuming, his mouth tracing a path down your jaw to the curve of your neck.Â
his hands tightened on your waist, pulling you into his lap again as if he needed you even closer, needed to feel every part of you against him. his bionic arm settled carefully on your side, his fingers cool against your skin where your shirt had ridden up slightly. the contrast between the metal and the heat of his other hand sent a thrill down your spine, grounding you in the moment.
âyouâre perfect,â he murmured against your skin, his voice raw and unguarded, the words slipping out like he couldnât hold them back. âi donât deserve you.â
âiâve wanted thisâwanted youâso much, princess, you have no idea.â
your chest tightened at his confession, the vulnerability in his tone cutting through the haze of heat and desire. your fingers moved to his face, cradling his jaw as you pulled him back to look at you. his lips were swollen, his breathing uneven, but his eyesâhis eyes were full of unshed tears that broke your heart.
"caleb," you whispered, your voice trembling with the weight of it all. you searched his face, seeing not just the man you cared for but the fragile edges of him he never let anyone else see. "iâm here," you said, the words barely louder than a breath. "itâs okay. i want this."
his hands moved to yours, holding them against his face as if grounding himself in the moment. âiâve wanted this for so long,â he whispered.
âshow me, thenâ you said softly, the words trembling with their own weight. âshow me how much you wanted me, caleb.â
as if echoing the tension that crackled in the air between you, a thunderclap roared outside, the sound reverberating through the walls and into your chest.Â
a trembled exhale escapes you, and in that moment of vulnerability, he takes the opportunity to slide his tongue alongside yours.Â
his bionic fingers shift against your cheek, you can feel the tension in himâthe way heâs holding you so carefully despite the intensity of the moment. itâs as though heâs trying to reconcile the boy he used to be with the man heâs become, and in that kiss, heâs asking you if you can love both.
the kiss is frenzied, a desperate tangle of lips and breaths.
without thinking, your body moves on its own, testing his resolve with a slow, deliberate roll of your hips into his lap. the effect is immediateâhis jaw tightens, the sharp edge of restraint etched into his expression. his hands fly to your waist, one strong and warm, the other cold and unyielding, gripping you tightly as if to steady himself.
âprincess,â he groans, his voice low and ragged, though his hold betrays how much he doesnât want you to stop.
ignoring his warning, you roll your hips again, feeling the heat of his reaction through the thin layers between you. a low, guttural sound escapes him, and the sheer rawness of it sends a rush of heat through your body. the sound pulls a whimper from your own lips, and you move with more purpose, your body seeking to draw that noise from him again, needing to unravel him.
it felt like your core had its own heartbeat.
âpipsqueakâ he mutters, his grip tightening as if trying to regain control. his head falls forward, his forehead pressing against your shoulder. his sweet resolve was being tested and you felt your lips curl into a smile, sweet vengeance sounding fair in your ears.
âpipsqueak,â he muttered, his grip tightening as if he were struggling to regain control. his head dipped forward, his forehead resting against your shoulder. his sweet resolve was fraying at the edges, and you couldnât help the smile that curled on your lipsâsweet vengeance was practically begging to be served.
but just as you were about to push him a little further, his metal hand gripped your behind with enough force to draw a startled squeak from you.
âfuckââ you breathed, the word tumbling out unbidden.
âwatch it, baby,â he murmured, his lips trailing up from your neck to your ear, his voice a low, tantalizing growl. âiâve got years of pent-up tension to take out on you.â
was that a promise? god, why did you wanted it to be so much?
âcaleb, please,â you whisper, your voice trembling with a mix of need and vulnerability. the sound of his nameâyour pleaâseems to undo him. his resolve snaps like a frayed wire. with a growl, his hands shift, pulling you even tighter against him as his lips crash into yours again, no longer holding back the storm thatâs been building inside him for so long.Â
âi know, princess,â caleb mutters, his voice thick with restraint. his erection twitches in the confines of his pants as he watches you, the sight of you slowly grinding into his lap nearly ending him. your eyes, half-lidded and dark with lust, hold him captive, and he swears he could lose himself in that expression alone.
every slow roll of your hips sends a wave of pleasure coursing through both of you, the friction igniting sparks that only leave you wanting more. thereâs an incessant throbbing between your legs, a growing need that these teasing movements canât quite satiate. each brush of your core against him only heightens the ache.
caleb feels it too, because heâs already pulling at the waistband of his pants, his thumb hooking into both layers as he tugs them down, revealing the sharp definition of his defined v-line. the sight alone makes your mouth go dry, heat flooding your veins as your gaze lingers.
âfuck,â you whisper under your breath, unable to stop the word from slipping out.
caleb catches the way your eyes widen, and his lips curve into a slow, wicked smirk. his bionic hand rests on the bed beside him for balance, while his flesh hand gestures toward you. âtake it off,â he commands, his tone soft but laced with a quiet authority that makes your pulse quicken.
you freeze, caught off guard by the intensity in his voice, and the way his gaze seems to pin you in place. the handsome smirk that tugs at his lips grows wider as you let out a startled breath, your cheeks burning hot with embarrassment and arousal.
youâd seen his body before, seen the dedication he put into keeping it in peak form. youâd been there when his once-lean chest began to transform, muscles growing larger than any of your own limbs as he transitioned from boy to man.
and youâd dreamed about his touch tooâwild, fleeting thoughts that only a hormonal teenage girl could summon on those countless nights when the ache of loneliness crept in.
god, you should probably feel embarrassed for all of it right now.
but caleb didnât seem to mind. he didnât seem to care about your wild thoughts swirling around him now or the teenage fixation youâd once had on his quiet care. all that mattered to him was the relief painted across his faceâthe realization that this wasnât a one-sided transition, that you were right here with him. aching for him.
biting your lip, you slip off his lap and move to stand, your fingers curling around his waistband as you carefully pull his pants and boxers the rest of the way down. his member springs free, hard and aching, and the sight sends a jolt of heat straight to your core. your thighs press together instinctively as you shiver at how thick and undeniably pretty he looks.
fuck, you werenât exactly a noviceâbut being a deep-space hunter didnât leave much time for fooling around. still, every fantasy youâd ever buried seemed to find its way to the surface, all centered on the boy you could once call your first love.
caleb was intimidating, but in the most deliciously enticing way. you werenât a teenager anymore, and your desires had grown with you, maturing into something sharper, more urgent. whatever this was between the two of youâit felt like the thing youâd been craving for so long, the missing piece you didnât even realize youâd been waiting for.
he was thick, but not in an overwhelming wayâjust enough to leave you aching, his desire for you palpable in every movement. but what truly left your mouth watering was his length, something youâd only ever imagined existed in exaggerated adult videos or ridiculous ads.
was this really the same person who stood up to bullies for you and patiently taught you how to cook when you were 14? fuck, you were absolutely cooked.
in a good way, it seems.
you donât even realize how long youâve been staring until caleb clears his throat, the sound breaking through the haze of your thoughts. your gaze snaps up to meet his, only to find his smirk has softened into something more amused, though no less confident.
âwhile i appreciate the compliment,â he teases, propping himself up on one elbow, âi wasnât talking about me, princess. i meant you. take it off.â
your nerves were impossible to hide, and his commanding voice only made it worse. for a fleeting moment, you wondered if there was a way to skip past this awkwardness and dive straight into satisfying the ache in your core that you could no longer ignore.
caleb seemed to catch onto your hesitation. he offered you a kind, almost reassuring smile as his flesh hand wrapped gently around your wrist, his touch grounding you in the moment.
suppressing your nerves, you hook your fingers into the waistband of your shorts, sliding them down your legs along with your panties. they pool at your ankles, and you step out of them with a small, shaky breath, standing between his legs as his gaze sweeps over you.
âbeautiful,â he murmurs, his voice low and sincere. the word sends a rush of warmth through you, and the way heâs looking at youâlike youâre the only thing in the galaxyâmakes your chest tighten.
did he feel this instant pull towards each other too?Â
sitting up fully, caleb pats his lap, his smirk softening into a smile thatâs equal parts playful and inviting. âcâmere,â he says, his voice rich and steady, like a promise.
you could come, my god. but you hope you werenât so transparent in your lack of confidence in the moment, hoping to have some leverage over the man who seemed to be eating you alive with only his eyes.
caleb seemed so sure of his love and his expression for you, it made you feel smallânot in a bad wayâ, but maybe a bit childish.
you hesitate for only a second before stepping closer, climbing back onto his lap. his hands, warm and steady, settle on your hips as he pulls you against him.
âthatâs better,â he murmurs, leaning in to press a kiss to your shoulder, his lips lingering against your skin.Â
you crawl onto calebâs lap, careful not to sit fully. hovering just above him, your knees press firmly into the mattress on either side of his thighs, effectively trapping him in place. you can feel the heat radiating off his body, but thereâs no way in hell youâre going to lower yourselfânot yet.
if you did, youâd be pressing your bare pussy against his naked thigh, and heâd feel everything. the thought alone has your cheeks flushing hot, knowing it would expose just how soaked youâve become from mere kissing.
calebâs gaze doesnât waver, his sharp eyes watching you like a predator sizing up his prey. he hums softly, one hand trailing up your side to lift the hem of the shirt you were wearingâhis shirtâ, pushing it up just enough to reveal your bare chest. his expression softens slightly as he sighs, a low, appreciative sound rumbling from his throat. âpretty,â he murmurs, his voice husky and thick with restraint.
before you can respond, he leans forward, his lips capturing one of your nipples. the sudden contact makes you gasp sharply, your hands instinctively flying to his shoulders for balance. his tongue swirls over the sensitive peak, rolling it in a way that has your back arching toward him.
âcalebâah!â your cry cuts off as his hand moves between your legs, startling you with its boldness. his bionic fingers rest against your thigh, steadying you, while the fingers of his other hand slip against your slick folds, testing you.
âyouâre wet,â he comments, his voice quiet but undeniably teasing as his fingers slide through your arousal. the statement is casual, but the tone of his voice sounded almost painful, as if the realization seemed to fucking pain him.Â
you swear you heard him mutter a âfuckâ while closing his eyes.
âno fuck, sherlock,â you almost whine, the words sharp though your voice lacks any bite. your head falls forward against his neck, the words trembling as his touch continues to unravel you.
but he doesnât stop. instead, he presses another finger against you, slipping them both at once inside with deliberate ease. the stretch has you gasping, your hips jerking instinctively against his hand as he curls his fingers, finding the spot that makes your breath hitch. âyou got this wet just from grinding, pipsqueak?â he murmurs, his tone both teasing and utterly sinful.
âshut up,â you try to protest, but the way his fingers push deeper, curling again, steals the words from your lips. a whimper escapes you instead, and you clutch at his shoulders, your body trembling against him. âfuckâ.
regardless of the resistance that was impossible to ignore, your body was so hot that the initial discomfort was quickly replaced but more desire. calebâs fingers were so damn long, reaching places your personal toys used to reach. the knowledge made your insides clench, something so dirty crossing your mind in the early stages of your love making.
âyouâre incredible,â he mutters, his voice low and reverent, his lips brushing against your temple as he works you open with a deliberate precision that leaves you breathless. âdonât be shy, princess. let me hear you.â
a shaky breath stutters out of your mouth as you rock yourself against his hand, chasing the initial fire that have taken upon your core. but itâs not enoughânot nearly enough. the ache in your core is unbearable, and every deliberate curl of calebâs fingers only makes you crave more.Â
âdo you have a condom?â you manage to gasp, your voice trembling with urgency.
his movements still for a fraction of a second before a sly, knowing smirk spreads across his face. âoh my, already?â he drawls, his tone dripping with playful teasing. âprincess, iâm just starting with you.â
before you can respond, he moves. with a fluid motion, caleb rolls both of you over, his body pinning you down against the soft expanse of his king-sized bed. the shift leaves you breathless, his weight grounding you in the moment. his hands frame your face, one warm and rough, the other cool and unyielding, a perfect contrast that sends a shiver down your spine.
his lips hover just above yours, his breath mingling with your own as his teasing smirk softens into something darker, more intent. âweâve got all the time in the universe, princess,â he murmurs, his voice low and velvety, sending a thrill through your body. âiâm not rushing this. iâve waited too damn long to rush things now.â
your heart pounds in your chest as his gaze locks onto yours, his eyes filled with a heady mix of desire and something deeper. âpleaseââ you start, but the words catch in your throat as his lips press against your neck, soft and deliberate, leaving a trail of heat in their wake.
âcâmon, princess, donât be shy. itâs just me, caleb.â
you were grateful his fingers werenât inside you anymore, or else heâd have felt the dangerous clench your pussy made upon hearing his sentence. how can someone act so innocent with so much craving embedded in his voice?
âi want to savor this,â he murmurs against your skin, his voice muffled but no less commanding. his hand slides down your side, his touch lingering as if committing every curve to memory. âsavor you.â
you swallow hard, your body arching into his touch despite your best efforts to remain steady. âbut i wantââ
âshh,â he interrupts gently, his lips brushing over your collarbone before he leans back to look at you. his smirk returns, though itâs softer now, tinged with affection. âdonât worry, princess. iâve got you. youâre going to have to be patient, all right? let caleb take his time with you?â
his words are both a promise and a warning, and you can feel the anticipation building as he begins to move inside of your heat again, his touch deliberate, his actions slow and measured, as if determined to explore every inch of you before giving you exactly what you asked for.
âof course, youâre so warm, you had to beâŚâ caleb mutters, his voice low and strained, each word dripping with unfiltered desire. his lips brush against the shell of your ear, and the heat of his breath sends shivers down your spine. âiâve always imagined how youâd feelâif youâre as pretty on the inside as you are on the outside.â
the deliberate tease in his tone is enough to set your skin aflame, and your breath hitches at his words.Â
âstop,â you gasp, your nails digging into his shoulders as your body reacts to every word, every touch. the intensity of his gaze locks you in place, your heart racing under the weight of his attention.
âwhatâs wrong, pipsqueak?â he asks, his smirk wicked, his voice like velvet. âam i being too honest for you?â his lips graze your jaw, leaving a trail of heat in their wake. âor is it that you like hearing how much iâve wanted you all this time?â
your cheeks burn as your hands clutch his biceps tighter, your body betraying you by arching closer to his.Â
âdo you like the fact that iâm obsessed with you? that iâd burn the world down for you?â caleb teases, his voice a dark, sinful whisper as his fingers curl inside you, scissoring your pussy with deliberate precision.
your body betrays you completelyâyour walls clench tightly around him, and a loud, unrestrained moan spills from your lips before you can stop it. your head tilts back, your thighs trembling as he chuckles low in his throat, the sound dripping with satisfaction.
âoh, whatâs that?â he drawls, his lips brushing against the corner of your mouth as his fingers continue their relentless rhythm. âis this your special spot?â
your cheeks burn, and your hands grasp at his shoulders for support as his words wash over you, leaving you utterly exposed. how come his fingers were so fucking long? to the point where only them were already making you feel lightheaded.Â
or maybe it was him the one to blame for that.
âshut up,â you manage to gasp, though thereâs no real weight behind your protest. every inch of your body is responding to him, and he knows it.
âmy princess likes being naughty?â caleb counters, his tone as infuriatingly smug as the grin tugging at his lips. his bionic hand steadies your hip, keeping you from squirming too much, as his flesh fingers work deeper inside you. âyouâre the one clenching around me like that, baby.â
âcalebââ your voice breaks as he curls his fingers just right, hitting the spot that makes your back arch and your moans grow louder. his smirk widens, his eyes glinting with mischief and unrelenting focus.
âthatâs what i thought,â he murmurs, his lips brushing against your ear. âdonât fight it, let me hear you, please.â his fingers curl again, dragging another sharp moan from you, and the sound only seems to spur him on. âthank you, princess,â he adds softly, but thereâs an edge to his words, a possessiveness that makes your heart race even faster. âevery little sound, every little reactionâthank you for gracing me with them.â
âyouâre impossible,â you manage to whisper, though your voice trembles, your resolve crumbling under his teasing.
âand youâre irresistible,â he counters, his lips finding yours in a kiss thatâs equal parts tender and consuming. his words, his touch, his presenceâitâs all too much and not enough, and you can feel yourself spiraling under his careful control.
your hands move instinctively, cradling his face, your thumbs brushing gently along his cheekbones as you pull him closer. his eyes search yours, intense and dark, as though waiting for you to shatter whatever thin line of control remains between you.
âjust fuck me already,â you whisper, your voice trembling with need, your lips brushing against his as the words spill out. âplease, caleb⌠iâm sensitive.â
the corner of calebâs mouth lifts into a crooked smirk, though thereâs a flicker of something deeper in his gazeâdesire tempered by affection, by the weight of how much he feels for you.Â
âsensitive, huh?â he whispered against your lips, his tone teasing, but his eyes were anything but. they searched yours, dark and heavy with longing, silently asking for permission, for trust.
you nodded, your breath hitching, and he smiledâa soft, crooked smile that made your heart stutter.
he brings his lips close to your pulse point, his warm breath brushing against your neck. you feel the tease in his exhale, deliberate and slow, as if savoring the moment. instinctively, you tilt your head, offering more, knuckles still buried inside of you.
he leans in close, his voice low and dark as he murmurs, âyou love being teased like this, donât you?â a soft whimper escapes your lips, your body responding instinctively to the way his fingers work, each movement sending waves of sensation through you. Â
your hands press against his shoulders, searching for control, but he holds you firmly in place, his grip on your waist unyielding. his movements are deliberate, precise, barely grazing over sensitive spots, leaving you aching for more. Â
he doesnât relent, his rhythm intensifying with every motion, each calculated touch sending your body into spiraling sensations. your breaths hitch as your body tightens, overwhelmed by the building tension, every moment pushing you closer to the edge.Â
"you look so damn gorgeous here in my arms, princess," caleb murmurs, his voice dripping with heat. "makes me wonder what would happen if i just..." he trails off, bending his fingers inside you until they hit that perfect spot again, sending a shockwave of pleasure through you. he focuses on it relentlessly, each movement precise and deliberate, drawing sharp gasps from your lips as your body responds instinctively. Â
the tension builds, pooling low in your stomach, ready to snap at any moment. you're right there, teetering on the edge of release, when suddenly, he stops. the absence is jarring, leaving your body aching for what it was so close to having. Â
your eyes fly open, heat rising in your cheeks as shock and frustration flood your senses. "caleb, what the hell?!" you gasp, scandalized, the words tumbling out before you can stop them. Â
he chuckles darkly, the sound low and unapologetic, almost infuriating. "did you really think it would be that easy, my sweet girl?" his tone is teasing, almost rhetorical. "i love to savor what i want. so tell me..." his gaze locks with yours, daring and full of mischief. "will you let me play with you a little longer?"Â
"this isnât funny," you pout, the frustration evident in your voice. "i want you."
"i know that, baby," caleb replies, his tone soft but teasing. "and iâll give it to you. just hang in there for me a little longer, okay? donât you want to be a good girl? i promise, itâll feel even better."
before you can respond, his fingers are back inside you, curling with precision as he picks up where he left off. the intensity leaves you gasping, your body arching into his touch as he pins you firmly to the bed, each movement calculated to unravel you.
he drinks in every sound you make, the way your body reacts under his control. the tension builds quickly, spiraling upward as he focuses on that spot that drives you wild, your walls tightening around him. but just as the wave threatens to crash over you, he stops again, pulling away like itâs a game.
"caleb," you whine, your voice trembling as you feel tears pricking at the corners of your eyes. "i-i need to come, please."
"i know, baby, i know," he soothes, his fingers moving gently now, almost comforting, though his teasing tone betrays him. "you trust me, donât you, sweet girl?"
you nod weakly, cheeks wet and burning with embarrassment, but calebâs gaze softens as he leans closer. "so pretty, my princess," he murmurs, his words wrapping around you like a caress. "iâve waited so much for this. you deserve the world," he whispers, his lips trailing kisses down your body until his warm breath fans over your chest, teasing the hardened peaks of your nipples.
"sheâs going to wait for me, just like i waited for her all this time, right, baby?" his voice sounded almost mocking, a dangerous mix of sarcasm and pure love.
was he talking about your pussy? oh god.
his words make your eyes widen, shock coursing through you as you try to pull away, only for him to hold you firmly in place.
"caleb," your voice trembles, barely above a whisper, and he chuckles softly, finding your helplessness endearing.
"hey, hey, look at me," he says gently, tilting your chin so your eyes meet his. "iâm here, arenât i? donât you think itâs fair, pipsqueak?â his lips press harder against your skin with every word, leaving marks that bloom red and tender. âiâve always held myself back, endured for you." his canines leave two red dots just above your nipples, "day after day, after day, it was suffocating."
he pauses, his lips lingering just above your chest, leaving a bruise that you know will remind you of this moment long after. "at some point, i thought you liked me too," he whispers, pain lacing his words. "but then you left me. and forgot about me."
âcaleb!â you try to protest, wanting to tell him heâs wrong, that he doesnât understand, but the way he touches youâso deliberately, so tenderly, even when heâs pushing you to your limitsâleaves you breathless, knees weak, eyes fluttering shut.
how does he know exactly what to do to unravel you like this?
before you can gather your thoughts, his fingers are back inside you, moving with an unrelenting rhythm that has you gasping, every thrust calculated to drive you closer and closer to the edge. just when you think youâre finally about to tip over into bliss, he pulls away again, leaving you trembling and desperate.
and the worst part? he keeps doing itâagain and againâpushing you to the brink only to deny you at the last second. tears streak down your cheeks as you thrash beneath him, pleading for release, your body betraying you with every lewd moan and quiver. his fingers work you over, drawing out every sound, every reaction, but he never lets you find that sweet relief.
it doesnât make senseâhow can he know your body this well after such a short time? how can he read every twitch, every sigh, like heâs been doing this for years? thereâs something almost reverent in the way he watches you, as if your pleasure is his own, even as he denies you again and again.
heâs wickedâa tormentor wrapped in the guise of a lover.
each time youâre on the verge of release, he withdraws, and fresh tears spill over as you whimper and beg. âplease, caleb, let me come,â you plead, voice breaking. âi promise, iâll listen, iâll be goodâjust please, let me come!â
his lips curl into a smug grin, the glint in his eyes almost cruel as he leans in, voice a dark whisper against your ear. âprincess wants to give in so soon?â he teases, the condescension in his tone making you burn.
he chuckles, low and sinister, the sound vibrating through you as he promises, âi havenât even started yet.â
youâre reduced to a tearful mess, your body trembling with desperation as you try to cling to whatever composure you have left. youâd kick him if you could, but caleb holds all the power, the keeper of your release, and you know you have to play his game if you want even the slightest chance of relief today.
"caleb, baby," you plead, voice dripping with desperation. "the love of my life, please, pleaseâiâll be good now. i wonât push you away anymore. i need you."
did you sound pathetic? a little. but there are moments where you couldnât find the strength to protect your pride when all that you ever wanted was to untie the knot burning in your core.
his dry chuckle sends a shiver down your spine as his grip tightens on your torso, holding you steady while his fingers continue their relentless rhythm. "i know, baby," he murmurs, his voice softer now. "just give me this moment, please."
and then heâs right back at it, thrusting his fingers deep inside you without mercy, his other hand occasionally teasing your clit. each precise movement against your sensitive spot sends you spiraling, the overwhelming pleasure leaving you breathless.
this time, though, he leans in, his mouth finding your pulse point. the heat of his lips against your damp skin, the way he bites and sucks at you, adds another layer of stimulation that has you reeling. itâs like heâs devouring you, taking every piece of control for himself as he plays with your body, denying you over and over like itâs a game he never tires of.
but when you find your voice again, itâs what finally cracks his composure. "caleb, baby, pleaseâi need your cock, or i swear iâm gonna die."
itâs dramatic, sure, but it works.
he pauses, his breath uneven as he seems to wrestle with himself. his hand slips away from your aching core, giving you a brief moment of reprieve before he lines himself up against your entrance. the thick head of his member presses against you, the sensation so euphoric it has you pressing your forehead against the nearest pillow, trying to ground yourself.
was that what he wanted to hear all along?
biting his lip, he drags himself against your slick heat, collecting your essence along his tip, his gaze locked on the way your body clenches, desperate to be filled.
âyou see, princess,â he continues, his voice a mix of tenderness and control, âmaybe youâve learned today, but i will always put you first.â his movements slow, deliberate, as he anchors your wrists against his shoulders, his hands firm but not harsh. âin my own selfish way, i just want the best for you. okay?â
you nod frantically, your body practically begging, even if your mind canât quite catch up. youâre not sure what youâre agreeing to anymore, only that you want himâneed himâto follow through.
but just as you think youâre finally there, everything shifts.
in one swift motion, caleb flips you onto your stomach, his weight pressing you into the bed as he adjusts himself behind you. the next thing you feel is the coarse sensation of something binding your wrists together behind your back, leaving you to hold yourself up by your shoulders.
a rope.
your heart races as you realize what heâs done, his control over you now complete, and all you can do is submit to whatever he has planned next.
it wasnât just a rope, it was almost like a wire.
"caleb?" your voice wavered as you heard a mechanical whirring behind you. craning your neck, you caught a glimpse of his bionic arm in motion, a thin wire smoothly retracting from his forearm. the precision of it left you breathlessâit was designed for this, leaving the prosthetic intact as it unraveled into a makeshift rope.
he wasted no time, expertly wrapping the wire around your wrists, binding them together at the small of your back. the restraint pressed you further into the bed, leaving you utterly at his mercy.
god, this was so hot.
"fuck, do you enjoy this, pipsqueak?" he murmured, his lips trailing soft kisses along your shoulders as he spoke. the heat in your body answered for you, clenching around nothing, leaving you needy and exposed.
"oh myâŚ" his voice dropped, intimate and teasing. "if i knew my dirty princess was this naughty all this timeâŚ"
the way his tone dipped lower, filled with a mix of awe and desire, sent shivers down your spine. once again, you felt dangerously adored, like the very center of his universe.
he paused, leaning close enough for you to feel the warmth of his breath. "you tell me to stop, and iâll stop. you know that, right, baby?" his question hung in the air, a gentle reminder that despite everything, he was always seeking your consent.
"yes, justâgo on with it already," you manage, your voice trembling with anticipation as the tension within you continues to build, lingering in every nerve. even the sound of his voice feels like it could unravel you completely.
and thatâs all the warning you get before caleb presses forward, his movements slow and deliberate at first, as though testing your reactions. his hands steady your hips, his touch both firm and grounding, as he finds a rhythm that makes you gasp softly.
the press of his member was initially a relief. you could see yourself opening your mouth in an embarrassing long moan that reverated into the walls of his bedroom. the pitch was drown out by the teasing of his bare member, no protection whatsoever, and the feeling of each vein of his pressing against your insides.
you could feel everything. and the clench of your walls was the proof of that.
caleb moaned tooâalmost a pornographic gruntâand left you searching for the back of your head with your own eyes as he pushed and pushed and pushed inside of you.
âoh fuck, baby,â caleb fucking whined, too lost in the heat of your pussy. you could picture him throwing his head back and taking a deep breath after setting himself all the way in.
you were left clenching and clenching and clenching until you could feel the pressure in your abdomen starting to hurt you.
âcaleb, waitâ,â you hissed and pinched your eyebrows, bound hands trying to reach for his hips. at the sound of your plea, he seemed to get back to himself.
âwhat, sweet girl?â. he pressed his forehead on your shoulder and hissed at the clench your pussy made because of the new angle.Â
âjustâgo slow please.â you asked and he nodded.
âcan you feel this, princess?â, caleb snaked his hand in your stomach and pressed his long fingers into the bulge he could feel right there. you moaned loudly at his teasing, feeling his member twitch inside of you.
âis that you?â, you whined weakly, already feeling lightheaded.
âyes, my sweet girl, this is me right here,â he pressed the tent in your stomach again, making your breath hitch and your cheeks wet. âsee how well you were made for me? my perfect babyâ. caleb pressed kissed all along your back until he was no more touching your skin.Â
he fucks you experimentally slow for all but one minute before he speeds up, and fucks you mean and hard and rough from the get-go. you whine and thrash at first, but then you start feeling the delicious burn of his movements right below your navel and surrender yourself to the pleasure. he buries himself to the hilt, revels in the perfect sponginess of your tight, warm walls until he pulls out, only to insert himself again.
you gasp sharply, the intensity of calebâs movements overwhelming as he keeps a steady, unrelenting rhythm. the sounds between you fill the room, a harmony of raw emotion and connection. his presence feels all-encompassing as you adjust to him, every motion deliberate, leaving you breathless.
you brace against the makeshift restraint, your body responding instinctively to the sensation, a soft moan escaping your lips. âcaleb...â his name falls from you like a prayer, your voice trembling with both need and surrender as the moment consumes you completely.
you donât even realize youâre reciprocating calebâs movements with your own, meeting his rhythm as he keeps up a rough, relentless pace. you submit to his every motion so easily, fueling calebâs confidence, his nerves alight with a mix of dominance and raw desire.
âfuck, princess. look at how good you take it⌠such a good girl for me,â he murmurs, his voice rough and breathy, laced with his own building tension. you can tell heâs been holding himself back, the strain evident in his tone.
âgod, caleb, pleaseâgo harder. youâre soâŚâ you pause, your words trailing off as the sensations overwhelm you.
caleb takes your plea to heart, his grip tightening as one hand tangles in your hair. he pulls gently but firmly for leverage, picking up his pace, the sound of every movement echoing through the room like a symphony of chaos and passion.
of course him pulling your hair made you moan even louder, eyes rolling to the back of your head.
calebâs ego swells as he takes in your pleas, doing exactly as you ask. his hand tightens in your hair, using it as leverage to increase his pace, the sound of skin meeting skin echoing through the room in a rhythm that leaves you breathless.
you canât help the moan that escapes your lips, his grip on your hair sending jolts of pleasure through your entire body. âfuck, caleb, yes,â you gasp, your voice trembling with need.
caleb chuckles deeply, the sound rich and heady, his own composure slipping as he leans further into the moment. ânow iâm sure you were made for me,â he mutters, his voice rough and strained. âgod, iâve dreamed of this for so fucking longâŚâ
his words push you further, every syllable igniting something primal in you. you let go of every inhibition, your moans growing louder as he finds that perfect spot inside you, the one that leaves you reeling.
just when you think youâve felt it all, caleb surprises you. his grip on your hair tightens slightly as he brings his other hand to your throat, his palm pressing lightly against your skin. the added sensation leaves you stunned, his breath hot against your ear as he leans in close, his voice a low whisper that makes your pulse race.
âhow are you so loud, princess?â caleb murmurs, his words teasing yet softened by the gentleness in his tone as he trails praises over your skin. âi know you can take more than this. my girl is so strong, isnât she?â
tears prick at the corners of your eyes, the overwhelming sensations building, the tension in your body coiling tighter and tighter with each second. you squirm against your restraints, craving more of him, every fiber of your being begging to let go.
âcaleb, iâm so close,â you gasp sharply, his movements deliberate as he pulls your hips closer, each thrust leaving you breathless. âyou fuck me so good, yes,â you manage, voice breaking under the weight of everything.
caleb pauses just long enough to undo the makeshift restraint, his dark, intent gaze never leaving you. his fingers work quickly, and the wire is discarded without a second thought. his hands steady you as he flips you onto your back, positioning you in missionary again.
you look up at him, relieved to see the same undone expression mirrored on his face. sweat beads along his skin as he breathes heavily, his movements just as affected as yours. instinctively, you reach out for him, but he catches your hands effortlessly, pinning them above your head.
âyouâre mine,â he growls lowly, his voice strained with intensity, his gaze burning into yours. âall pretty and mine, finally.â
his grip remains firm as he leans down, his lips finding your neck, leaving heated kisses and light marks in his wake. his other hand braces against your hip, steadying you as he moves with an intensity that leaves no room for anything else. the bed shifts with each motion, his every movement deliberate and overwhelming as your own release builds again, unstoppable this time.
âcaleb, pleaseâi need to,â you plead, your voice trembling, barely holding yourself together as you teeter on the edge. âplease let meâŚâ
his gaze softens briefly, his focus solely on you as he leans closer, his movements never faltering. âjust a little more, princess,â he murmurs. âiâve got you.â
his thrusts are so powerful youâre sure heâs beating up your stomach, guts fully rearranged until they spell his fucking name.
âyou want to come, princess? is that what youâre asking for?â calebâs voice is firm, laced with dominance, but thereâs a tenderness beneath the edge as his hands hold you firmly in place, grounding you amidst the chaos.
âyes, caleb, please,â you gasp, your voice breaking under the weight of your own need.
he holds you strictly in place as he gives it to you unforgivingly, hammering your pussy like itâs his, because fuck, are you goddamn his.
he leans in closer, his breath warm against your ear. âthen tell me, baby,â he murmurs, his tone commanding yet teasing, âwhatâs my name?â
your voice trembles as caleb moans, your walls aching so bad your clitâs engorged beyond comprehension. itâs sickening the way he fucks you, so intoxicating and blissful and perfect you feel your soul leaving your body, feel your insides coiling so tightly youâre going to snap any second.
âcaleb, fuck, caleb!âÂ
âdo i treat you right, baby?â caleb asks, his voice softer now, tinged with vulnerability beneath the heat. âwill you let me be yours? will you let me love you, finally?â
âyes,â you gasp, your voice trembling with conviction. âgod, yesâwhatever you want. iâm yours, caleb. always have been.â
his response is immediate, shifting his position to deepen his movements, his breaths coming out in rough, raw grunts as he finds an angle that leaves you utterly undone. every motion is purposeful, pushing you to the brink as your hands strain against his hold, your body giving in completely to him.
and then it happensâyour vision clouds, a rush of heat and intensity overtaking you as the tension inside you snaps like a tightly wound coil. everything bursts at once, your body consumed by waves of release so powerful it leaves you breathless, shaking as the moment overwhelms you entirely.
youâre so in your head itâs calebâs frantic speaking that even keeps you at it, suddenly feeling something gush out of you in sheer abundance. âoh, oh shit, princess, youâre squirting, holy fuck, yes. just like that, baby, this is so fucking hot.â he praises copiously as you squirt all over calebâs cock, leaving a gigantic, sloppy mess as he finally allows himself to come fiercely.Â
the connection between you remains unbroken as he lets himself go, his own release crashing over him. his body shudders, and you feel him tremble against you as the intensity of it all leaves you both breathless. the world narrows down to this shared moment, leaving you weightless and entirely consumed by the euphoria of being completely his.
your body lurches off his cushions and calebâs dick twitches inside you, throbs and fills you up to the brim with his cum, the feeling nothing short of euphoria.
he releases with a deep, guttural groan, his body trembling as his palms press into the bed on either side of your head, caging you in. his breaths come in heavy, uneven huffs as he hovers above you, beads of sweat clinging to his damp hair, a mixture of exhaustion and satisfaction radiating from him.
your wrists fall limply above your head, released from his grip, but you barely have the strength to move them. your body feels heavy, spent, every muscle lax from the intensity of the moment. your eyes flutter open and closed, exhaustion pulling at you as you try to focus on the man above you.
heâs still nestled against you, his body fitting yours like it was meant to, his forehead coming to rest gently against yours. his voice, low and husky, breaks through the haze. âpipsqueak, baby, donât sleep just yet,â he murmurs, his breath mingling with yours as he cups your face in his warm hands.
your throat feels dry, your body too worn to respond fully, but his touch keeps you grounded. he brushes his thumbs over your cheeks, his voice soft and tender, as if to anchor you. âprincess, you were amazing. you did so well⌠my good girl, forever my good girl,â he whispers, pressing a gentle kiss to the tip of your nose.
you barely manage a small nod, the pull of sleep too strong to resist much longer. his words are like a lullaby, soft and full of adoration, wrapping around you as you drift.
âi love you, caleb,â you manage to mutter, your body still trembling faintly from the aftershocks coursing through you. âi always have.â
his movements still at your confession, and though your eyes remain closed, you can feel the weight of his shock. his silence stretches, thick with emotion, and you wish you could see the expression on his face.
âyou do, princess?â he finally breathes, his voice cracking with disbelief. âare you sure?â the raw vulnerability in his tone is almost heartbreaking, as if the idea of you loving him is too fragile, too precious for him to fully believe.
you nod, unable to speak, too afraid to shatter the fragile moment between you.
his hand brushes against your face, trembling slightly. âiâll be good for you, princess,â he murmurs, his voice steady but thick with emotion. âi promise. youâll never have to cry again. not ever.â
you feel a strange pressure leave your body, realizing itâs caleb pulling out of you. the sensation leaves you feeling empty, but his gentle care grounds you. he moves with practiced tenderness, cleaning you up and whispering soft reassurances as your exhausted muscles fight against the weight of sleep. even as your body surrenders to the pull of rest, his touch remains a steady reminder that youâre safe in his hands.
as caleb works quietly, his hands careful and deliberate, you canât help but notice the shift in him. the way he moves, the way he looks at youâitâs different now. softer, almost reverent. heâs so eager, so determined to tend to your every need, as though this moment means as much to him as it does to you.
he catches your gaze, and for a moment, you see itâhis redemption arc, written in the lines of his face, in the way his hands tremble ever so slightly as he tucks a strand of hair behind your ear. heâs trying so hard, pouring every ounce of himself into being what he thinks you need.
âprincess,â he murmurs, his voice soft as his fingers trace your jaw. âyou okay? do you need anything else?â
his question is earnest, his eyes searching yours for any hint of discomfort or lingering pain. and itâs in that moment you realizeâthis isnât just about pleasing you. this is about him trying to earn something he doesnât think he deserves. your love. your trust. your forgiveness.
âthe condom, you assholeâyou forgot the fucking condom,â you say, trying to sound angry, though thereâs a playful glint in your eyes.
caleb freezes, his body going rigid as panic spreads across his face. his gaze darts to your body, and itâs like his senses have only just returned to him.
âshitâfuck, princess, i swear it wasnât on purpose! i just⌠i wanted to feel you so fucking bad,â he blurts out, his words tumbling over themselves in his desperation to explain. âafter you said you needed me or else you were going to die, iâi lost it. i threw all caution out the window. iâm so fucking sorryââ
his rambling apology is so frantic, so guilt-ridden, that you canât hold back the soft chuckle bubbling up from your chest. it cuts him off mid-sentence, his eyes snapping up to meet yours, wide and full of worry. the tenderness in his expression, the way heâs so wrapped up in your well-being, tugs at something deep inside you.
âwhat?â he asks, his voice almost breaking. âfuckâi know itâs my fault, i know, iâm going toââ
âcaleb,â you interrupt softly, reaching up to thread your fingers through his tousled brown hair. the motion draws his attention, grounding him as his frantic thoughts start to settle. âiâm joking. iâm on the pill.â
his eyes search yours, blinking in disbelief as your words sink in. âyouâre⌠youâre joking?â he repeats, his voice a mix of relief and exasperation.
âyeah,â you say with a small, teasing smile, letting your fingers curl a little tighter in his hair. ârelax. iâve got it handled.â
he exhales a shaky laugh, resting his forehead against yours as his body finally unclenches. âjesus, princess, you almost gave me a fucking heart attack.â
âgood,â you reply, smirking. âyou deserve it for forgetting the condom in the first place.â
he laughs again, softer this time, and thereâs something vulnerable about the sound. âyouâre gonna be the death of me,â he murmurs, pressing a light kiss to your lips.
âmaybe,â you whisper against his mouth, your smile growing.Â
caleb pulls back just enough to look at you, his lips still curved in a soft smile, but his eyes are searching yours. there's something unspoken there, a mixture of relief and lingering uncertainty, like heâs still trying to believe this moment is real. his hand brushes your cheek, his thumb trailing a path down to your jaw, grounding you both in the quiet intimacy of the aftermath.
"you know," he murmurs, his voice low and steady, "iâve always dreamed of us like this. not just the⌠well, you know," he says with a small, self-conscious laugh that tugs at your heart. "but being with you, waking up next to you, knowing that this isnât just something fleeting." his brow furrows slightly, the vulnerability in his expression catching you off guard. "this means everything to me, princess."
your chest tightens at his words, the weight of them settling over you like a warm blanket. you reach up, cupping his face in your hands, your thumbs brushing over the faint stubble on his cheeks. "this isnât fleeting, caleb," you say softly, your voice steady despite the rush of emotions threatening to overwhelm you. "it never was. iâm here, and iâm not going anywhere. not now, not ever."
his eyes close briefly, like heâs taking in the full meaning of your words, before he leans down to press a lingering kiss to your forehead. "thank you," he whispers, his voice thick with emotion. "thank you for giving me this. for giving us a chance."
the silence between you stretches, but itâs not the kind that feels empty. itâs filled with understanding, with promises unspoken but felt in every look, every touch. outside, the faint hum of skyhavenâs magnetic fields reminds you of where you are, but for the first time in what feels like forever, youâre not afraid of the isolation. caleb is here, and thatâs all that matters.
"we should probably clean up," you say after a moment, your voice light but teasing as you glance at the mess the two of you have made. caleb grins, a mischievous glint in his eye as he leans down to nuzzle against your neck.
"or," he murmurs, his breath warm against your skin, "we could stay like this a little longer. i mean, iâd hate to let go of my good girl so soon." his playful tone makes you laugh, the sound light and free, and you realize that for all the chaos that brought you here, you wouldnât trade this moment for anything.
"five more minutes," you agree, your arms wrapping around him as he settles beside you. itâs not perfectânot yetâbut as you lie there together, tangled up in each other, you canât help but think that maybe, just maybe, this is the beginning of something that will be. something that feels a lot like forever.
authorâs note: thank you for everyone who took the time to read the four chapters of this mini-series, especially those who commented, you guys have my heart. the cheeky ending is a must, i'm sorry. send me a request ⢠my masterpost
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hi hi hi!
first and foremost, I MISSED YALL SO MUCHHHHH!! you've all welcomed me back so warmly, I don't even feel like I left in the first place!!
instead of reply to everyone's lovely and sweet messages in the comments of my last post, i've decided to cover all my bases with a new post!
so...a few life updates!
i've just started my second (!) semester of college in BOSTON! i love this city more than i thought i would and i'm so beyond grateful to be here. though, i have been settled with an evil and demented child as a roommate and she goes out of her way to make my life hellish but i've stopped letting her get to me (as much as i can, anyways).
i'm still a journalism major, happily with an english minor that might be turned into a double major depending on a few things. I'm a part of my school's newspaper and i'm getting published weekly. oh! and because of my dedication to the paper, within my first semester they promoted me the editor of the opinion section! so, overall, loving school and beyond grateful to be getting an education.
i've decided to make a comeback because, over winter break, i started re-reading the books. and i FLEW through them. which isn't all that surprising as i'm a college student and they were written with middle schoolers in mind. but, i completely fell back in love with every aspect of it. which made me realize how much i missed this part of my life too!
now, again, i'm a college student who is heavily involved with her school newspaper. I already do enough writing to make me almost (not quite) hate it lmao. so, posting will be about as sporadic as before! nothing new on that front lmao-
anyways, my current plan is to give the page a bit of a refresh. maybe i'll go through requests but i've got 40 of 'em rn, so idk if i want to just delete them all and start fresh or go through and write the ones i feel like??? idk idk still deciding. I'm also going to be taking this slow because I think part of the reason i disappeared was because i kinda burnt myself out. so we're gonna try and avoid that this time around!!
all in all, i cannot wait to get back into the swing of things and i'm so happy to see so many familiar faces along with new ones!
from the bottom of my heart, thank you for having me back !!
all my love,
covey
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The adjustment from 'snowy mountain' to 'desert-adjacent heatsink' must be a rough one.
(I had no choice. Tumblr commanded me.)
#submas#subway boss ingo#blazart#idk if i'm happy with how the first one turned out#that's why i added the second#bc i didn't like it enough to post by itself#but it took way too long and i WAS going to make you guys see it
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Family album
details under the cut
#i'm so happy with how this turned out!!#i spent so long on tiny unimportant details but i love them#like how the stamps run of out ink by the end and you can see the last bit got stamped twice#there are smudges by the drawings bc crayons smudge everything#wren's first shaky attempt at writing#the plastic wrap and fingerprint smudges#the little photos in the corner having multiple copies bc when you print the tiny ones they always do multiple#idk man i put a lot of my own crinkly photo album memories in this one#*summers#*summers extras#ts4#sims 4#ts4 edit#sims 4 edit#gen 1#*dana#*dawn#*rhea#*cedar
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i finished thesis, won an award, and have graduated.. hello đđĽ¸
#i'm not coming back but :') hello#i forgot i even had tumblr still on my phone djdkdkdkdk#i just opened it for the first time in ??? 5 months or smth i think idk for sure#life is weird :')#remember when i said i wanna drop out every day of my life :') bc i suck at design#welp i won an award for my design thesis :')#jsjdjdkdkdkdj#turns out having friends kinda changes your life đŤ#having friends at school has actually :') made me a happier more normal person lol#i haven't been miserable?? i haven't wanted to kms ... i have been so happy and yes school was shitty but i wanted to go and try hard bc#my friends motivated me to stay and try and that's crazy :') idk#felt really loved and like i belonged somewhere for the first time in my life 𫨠like woah ppl like me and wanna be my friend? me??#:') i'm really happy... isn't that weird#i used to want to kms every other day hsjdndkdkdks lol đ#now i'm like đ every day i look forward to waking up bc i'm happy and i have ppl who love me and i wanna see them again and i wanna spend#time with them again and play games with them again :')#literally stayed up till ??? 4 am yesterday talking to one of them like#đ#god jm djjdkdkdkd idk :')#my life is good...#???? IM NOT MISERABLE IDK GUYS#wild af#even winning the award was such a shock like 𼲠damn . who ? me?#ppl from like :') this big design thing in toronto we're praising it too like djdjdodjdkdj#:') it's kinda crazy.. i was super !#man.. i cant believe how 5 months ago i was gonna kms đĽ¸đ and now i'm like erm actually maybe we do need to live#:') anyway#i hope ppl on here are doing good đŤ¨đ¨#it is sad to not be here as much but also đđ i'm happy to be free at the same time so â¨
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got an idea that i'm not entirely committed to doing a comic for so if i start i may never finish or i just wont have that much fun doing it, but also not confident enough in writing to turn it into a fic instead but it would be easier and quicker. what do i do
#clai speaks#i actually write a bit. but i never post it bc i dont exactly do the fancy prose and stuff its more like.#me getting out scenes that are WAY too long for me to do in comic form. so they're for my eyes only#i posted One (1) fic last year that i was happy with and people liked it but idk#maybe i'll just try the fic first see how i go#if anything. i can turn that into the comic script? its not very long of a scenario but that two page volo comic i once did--#--was already nearing my limit of how much i'm willing to do BDJBFJF
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not to be annoying or anything but it's been 9 years since the release of indie game undertale
#It's. One of my special interests#Like I have identifying Mediterranean animals on sight and I have memorizing every line of dialog in undertale#Those are my things. And I did recognize a seagul once by the sound while jetlagged and not paying attention so#Tbh I should probably play the game sometime. But also it'd be very funny to not play it#And then one day just like. Idk. Live stream playing undertale for the first time. But doing it w a blindfold#Check how far my knowledge spans for a person who has never once played the game#Like. I know muffets attacks are a repeating pattern. I know some attacks have audio so I'd use that as a guide#I'd go easy route on toriel and papyrus bc I know you can skip those by being bad at game#And I'm pretty sure I could memorize mad dummy patterns bc I remember there being like. A trick in the code#For if you're bad at the fight#Also you get astro food right before so I'd have good healing#So. Yeah the undyne and asgore and omega flowey fights are really the only things I have to watch out for I think??#Esp since I'm gonna do a bunch of tricks to get out of certain fights#Like. The thing with doing armor switches rapidly on mettaton for fast ratings boosts#Or the lowering of hp on mad dummy after the first hit so the fight can't last beyond a set number of turns if you're shit at it#Tbh yeah undyne is the only one that's actually scary all the way until asgore. That said I also think you can like. Skip that bit entirely#Like by backtracking before new home to get the undyne letter and doing true lab first. I think#Because that's the bit that's the true pacifist thing to do. Which actually true lab also scary#Like ok snowys mom and endogeny are easy but lemon bread and the memory heads are actually hard esp if u cant see#Also reaper bird but only after the everyman gets ate by the whimsun attack flies so I'm not super duper scared#And. I plan on temmie armor after mettaton. And bandage until then for running away from encounters#Just straight up my first time playing the game will be with a blindfold on and livestreamed#(I'd flex especially in that one echo flower room where if you kill toriel flowey taunts you with it)#But until then! Happy 9 years of being extremely neurodivergent :D
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Pallegina Deadfire Portrait Consistency Mod
Vanilla Deadfire Pallegina (Left)
Updated Deadfire Pallegina (Middle)
Vanilla PoE1 Pallegina (Right)
Pallegina's Deadfire portrait has few notable changes from her PoE1 portrait, namely smaller hair and a slightly lighter skin tone. In my eyes, this makes it a little bit harder to connect the two as the same character, so I thought I'd try my hand at tweaking it.
Some changes include:
Brighter, rounder eyes with larger pupils
Slightly darker skintone to match her PoE1 portrait
Removed lipstick
Made her hair larger and gave the ends a lighter-brown highlight
Rounded out some of the feathers around her eyes
Adjusted the angle her facial features
I made this for personal use so the changes aren't perfect, but I tried to keep the them minimal and true to Deadfire's original style, so I figured I'd share in case anyone else was interested!
Also includes an attempt at Watercolor portraits!
Download Here
#this started as just me trying to make her hair bigger bc that's one of my favorite elements of Pallegina's og design#and then it kinda spiraled as I noticed more differences#the original is fine but if aloth got a glow up and eder can look just as good as he used to then why must Pallegina be left out to dry lol#idk if this is something y'all'd be interested in but I'm happy with how they turned out and thought I'd share#please let me know if the link doesn't work lol#I thought about uploading this to nexus#but there is an element of my artistic ability in it that's not. quite ready for nexus scrutiny đ
#but yeah imo Pallegina feels a little off in deadfire#and i think it's a combination of her VA doing a different delivery than in the first game and her portrait being so different#her skin tone also isn't perfect but I feel like it's better? than before? bc she looks a little lighter to me in deadfire than in the firs#pillars of eternity#pillars of eternity deadfire#pallegina mes rèi#my mods
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exene talking about the state of the world. the good stuff starts at eight minutes. or you can just read the transcript complete with the usual errors that accompany robot transcribed speech (the irony of which is not lost on me). maybe it's not about transhumanism and living forever (or maybe it is who knows), but there's definitely an agenda of surveillance and control at work which is designed to keep the powerful in power. cash rules everything around me and you will own nothing etc. the future is worse.
#google has helpfully flagged this as a 'conspiracy theory' which let me know it was definitely worth paying attention to#sometimes a conspiracy theory turns out to be flatearth-tier but anything those in control are putting effort into discrediting#concerns me and makes me look deeper. if they're going to the effort to control the discourse there's something there that#threatens them. anything google calls a conspiracy theory is worth a closer look. it often means someone has gotten too close to the truth.#she's brave to be talking about this shit they basically cancelled her and forced her to apologize for talking about how they want#to take our guns and the media is lying to you and stirring up fear so they can get away with passing gun control#like wtf leftists should be all about gun rights. a disarmed population is totally at the mercy of the state's authority#it's not very punk to surrender entirely to regimes in power and let the only people with guns be the police#like c'mon guys we need guns. and it's like drugs. they exist anyway. better they do so in broad daylight than in the shadows#they let adam curits talk about this stuff for some reason and no one calls him a conspiracy theorist idk why but there's a reason#i guess his stuff is not a threat to them bc it's dense and heady and seven hours long so the masses will never absorb it#ex punk rocker yelling about new world order in plain language monologues of digestible length is a much bigger threat#i swear there are secretly fifty people in control of everything and their entire aim is to make sure it stays that way no matter what#but it's really gross how obvious it's getting like the whole system just funnels money straight to the top and they don't even care#about hiding it anymore they're just doing it out in open and denying objective reality with confidence it's too much sometimes#i swear i can feel my grasp on reality deteriorating. it's as if there were a loud buzzing in the out of doors that was getting#louder every day and nobody ever said anything to acknowledge that it was real nobody talked about hearing the buzzing but it just#keeps getting louder and i'm finally like wtf is with this buzzing and everyone gets mad at me for shouting over their netflix show#that they weren't really enjoying in the first place. like no one is happy in the modern world. why can't we talk about why without#turning against each other. that's why doug saying 'maybe we're all the same' is such a big deal to me. anyone who is trying to unite us#is doing important work. that trump supporter is not the enemy. they are the victim just like you.
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part 4 of the taffy series flavor: shaved ice
#taffy series#oc#original character#artists on tumblr#lolita fashion#gijinka#she's at the tea party wearing a coord she threw together at the last minute#wearing a heavy wig she's sweating buckets in#and contacts she can barely see out of#at least her dress is a little breezy#overall i'm pretty happy with this one#drawing lolita stuff is hard but i like the way it came out#i've been using photoshop for the first time with this series#and the blending/smudge/??? tool sucks#(read: idk how to use it properly)#so i had to figure out a new way to shade the hair#and the simplistic way turned out nicely#so i'm happy about it
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does anyone have any Tips on how to take care of a fat body for someone who hasn't had one until recently. there are Things that are coming up that i never really thought about before (like thigh chafe) and i don't trust google to give me non-fatphobic answers, i want real tips on how to feel more comfortable in this changed body from people with bodies like mine rather than get told i need to starve myself to look good
#one thing that's been getting me is my posture#i tend to have a hunch because of back issues and while I've been working on fixing that misalignment it still bothers me#especially when now my little rolls actually make kind of painful creases when i sit like that#but yeah mostly my thighs are touching each other now for the first time in my life#and im very happy to have them look like that but i don't want my already irritated skin to get worse#also i know there's definitely other care tips that i wouldn't even think about until i finally see them#like i think my hypermobility is having issues with the new weight of my limbs#because turns out getting about 50% more heavy in the span of a year (which really isnt saying much seeing where i started from)#can mean already loose joints get strained even more#which it's not straining TOO much because the rate at which i gained weight was pretty slow (again. did not start from much at all)#but it's still something i want to keep an eye on like. is my body slightly more prone to subluxation now?#or would it even be better possibly because of extra cushioning#or maybe net neutral#idk this is new for me but i want to learn how to take care of this in a way that will preserve the body type that's been bringing me joy#because i cannot state enough how awful being underweight is for me. it's torture. and I'm not going back to body dysmorphia
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#tag talk#said out loud âI've felt drunk for the past weekâ and suddenly realized no you idiot that's dissociation#anyway. I've been floating on clouds for a while and I'm absolutely not complaining it feels nice#restarting my meds is maybe what's doing it.#going off and then back on my meds has just been a wild ride all around#oh well. I gotta stay quirky and weird somehow right?#I've been thinking a lot about my breakup and how it wasn't even because of anything except that I got bored of him#and even playing aoe with him is getting boring cause his skill level is way behind me#the only person who moves the same speed as me is my brother. so I'm gonna go with him wherever he goes#I do like him a lot. but also there's the knowledge that if I don't stick with him I'll be way more lonely#moving out with someone else would guarantee that I'm leaving the only person in life who actually gets me#and I would be depriving him of the only other person who even kind of gets him (I won't say I get him fully cause that's a lil arrogant)#idk. I don't dislike it. but I'm trapped nonetheless. my course in life is laid out for me because I have no one else.#I love him but I wish I had more than one person who I could stand being around longer than a few months#idk. I do feel more conscious right now. more aware. I'm glad I have him.#I just wish I wasn't so fundamentally incompatible with every other person except him.#we're damaged in very similar ways and so we match. even the rest of my siblings don't click with me the same way#I guess I'm lucky to have him. if I didn't I would be 100% dead right now#which... certainly would be the easier simpler option#but oh well. I'm cursed to live on this earth until he eventually offs himself#we have a pact that we're gonna talk about the suicide beforehand to turn it into a murder mystery or something#he said he wants my skull if I go first. which honestly would be cool as hell. I'd be happy with my skull sitting on his bookshelf#he wants to travel and he's lined up to have a good job to let him do that. so I think I'll end up coming along#idk. we're together for life because both of us are so incapable of making other meaningful friendships#even his closest friends bother him constantly and he struggles to connect with them#so we vibe in that regard.#sorry if this is depressing as hell. it's just.. idk. we both are likely and certain that we won't die of natural causes#but life keeps getting better. I've got plans to go back to nursing next year and I'm medicated so I should be able to make it through#I've had my current job for over a year which is a personal record for me so I'm kinda stoked about that#I'm getting bored of it but so it won't last forever but nursing should get me something new to work on
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I've been learning how to draw Sonic đ
classic Sonic for now
rest in peace my first tries
bootleg sonic haha
then I copied to study the guy
it helped because I didn't need to copy too much the next one :)
he's just a silly guy :)
#the first four are from late may đ
#why is classic sonic so cute#my art skills might not be hopeless to draw them after all hahaha#not too bad specially considering i was using a pen on the last one đ
fucked up some details but it's good you know#drawing is hard so I'm happy how it turned out:)#i won't even tag it though#idk if tag as my art lol#just practice doodles:)
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Genuine question @ me: why can't you get it together (rant in tags)
#I almost canceled this post because I saw a cat while sitting in my car waiting to go into my internship#And for a moment everything was okay#anyway actual rant#I got a week off last week for reasons I don't entirely understand (It was the entire department)#And it really kind of reminded me how much I just. Don't like work. period#but i need to get out of this fucking house#And I can't do that without an income#nevermind without health insurance. cant even dream of that#Happy birthday to me by the way#turned 26 five days ago#anyway#i think at this point my problem lies on me just as much as it does society#cuz i had all of last week off and DIDN'T use it to job hunt or do portfolio stuff#and i so immensely regret that#but at the same time when i did look for fucking jobs id qualify for that aren't customer facing#there was basically shit from fuck#i need to see if i can just be somebody's youtube editor#or SOMETHING#because even in the office I'm starting to not enjoy being around other people every day#my coworkers are NOT bad people#but they ARE mormon#and i got a ''nudge'' last week to#idk how to explain what they asked of me#they asked me to get more ''hands on'' with the company social medias?#first of all we are a nonprofit that works with kids. my options are EXTREMELY limited#second no one interacts with our posts even when we ask#i got a couple pointers but its not necessarily stuff thats gonna magically boost our engagements#wow i ''ran out of tags'' okay tumblr#dylawa rants#dylawa rambles
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Shellycoat
#heyo again posting in the ol tags#At a moral quandary but I guess I'll update yous on my life while I think of a way to sound it out#I am currently single. This is a big deal for me because I am coming to terms with my status as a serial monogamist#I think my ex has been not single longer than I have so I'm not feeling guilty about it. Just feels weird being single is all.#I'm doing the whole dating thing again. Have been on 2. First one I stayed at her spare room and freaking cried. Haven't spoken to her sinc#Second one I stayed in her spare room and she stayed with her roommate. Both times I didn't want things to go physical. Both over now.#The second one I was more optimistic for tho.Prominent thing was that she wanted me to date her and others. So I'm not exclusive with anyon#And I still maintain that. Doesn't feel good bc when I go on a date with one it feels like I'm cheating on the others.#But i have such low confidence that I don't want to turn anyone down or keep anyone waiting for me to ask them out. So idk what I'm doing#anyway. moral quandary. I just realized I can't actually talk about it. But I have to choose advancing my own career at the cost of my sou#it would be really nice to get some big ÂŁ$ÂŁ$ but I'd have to sort of betray new boss a little. Who has already given me permission to do so#it doesn't feel right. Shellycoat here is from new project. Ugh I dunno. I think I'm going o have to sell out just a little.#Bein single again shows me how behind I am for my age. Still can't drive still living with my best pal. Probably goin bald soon#then again I've been saying that for years now. Maybe I have a few years left of it. But yeah. I don't earn very much rn. When I get those#questionaires I'm often in the lowest bracket so i'm like âI am among the poorest of ppl then??â One lady stopped talking to me when I#told her I rented a flat. Which implies a lot of men my age own property already. But did they get them with their morals intact or did the#have to do a bit of backstabbing on the way? Anyway. I guess I'm happy that I'm not just whining about my love life.Maybe being single is o#still wanting to get out there. Maybe I'll make another post about that or whenever I'm not single lol
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Whole Package, Babe, I Like The Way You Fit
Summary: Holiday beach trip with Pedro and friends.
Or, that one new Pedro shirtless picâŚ
Paring: Pedro Pascal x F!Reader
Warnings: Established Relationship, TOOTH-ROTTING FLUFF, Slight Nudity, Slight Angst, Swearing, Anxiety, Cheesy Dialogue, Romance, Kissing, Real People Fiction, Cameras, Paparazzi, Social Media, Beach Trip, Light Blood, Scratch, Ocean, Swimming, Swimwear, Shirtless Pedro, Light SMUT, Spicy, Sweet, Implied SMUT, Banter, Idk Spanish so the terms might be wrong but I'm trying my best
Word Count: 4.6k
A/N: The mf decided to give us shirtless Pedro and suddenly I have the will to live again LMAO. Weirdly enough, I am also at the beach while writing this so itâs kinda a funny coincidence⌠Imagine if we were at the same beach, that would be so funny (He can never know my existence I might die.)
No one ask me how I knew what hotel they were staying at. I scare myself too dw.
Side note: Iâm dyslexic and English isnât my first language! So I apologize in advance for the spelling and/or grammatical errors. As always, reblogs, comments, and likes are always appreciated. Thank you and happy reading!
Song: Juno by Sabrina Carpenter
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HOTEL ESENCIA, MEXICO â DAY
The warm tropical breeze carried the salty tang of the ocean as you stepped onto the soft, powdery sand of the secluded beach Pedroâs friends had chosen for the Christmas getaway. The sun kissed your skin, palm trees swayed lazily overhead, and the gentle rhythm of waves provided the perfect soundtrack for a holiday escape. Â
The groupâLauren Alexander, Brandan Campbell, Omar Apollo, and Pedroâs ever-charismatic agent, Franklin Lattâhad already claimed a prime spot near the water. Lounge chairs were lined up under brightly colored umbrellas, a massive cooler sat brimming with ice and drinks, and Omar was enthusiastically attempting to set up a speaker while humming the latest tune stuck in his head. Â
Pedro lagged a few steps behind you, carrying your beach bag and his, though his attention wasnât on the task. It was on you. Â
When you shrugged off your airy cover-up, revealing a stunning red bikini that hugged your curves just right, Pedro froze mid-step. His sunglasses couldnât hide the way his jaw tightened or how his eyes darkened as they roamed over you. Â
âEverything okay there?â you teased, tilting your head as you caught him staring. Â
Pedro blinked, visibly gathering himself. âYeah, yeah, everythingâs fine.â He cleared his throat, but his gaze didnât waver. âMore than fine.â Â
You smirked, adjusting the straps of your bikini for good measure. âYouâre staring.â Â
âCan you blame me?â he shot back, taking a step closer. His voice dipped, low and husky. âYou look... breathtaking.â Â
A flush crept up your neck, but you refused to let him win so easily. âNot too bad yourself,â you quipped, lightly poking his chest. His white linen shirt was unbuttoned just enough to reveal a tantalizing hint of his tan skin and the gold chain that rested against his collarbone. Â
Pedro chuckled, the sound warm and intimate. âIf Iâd known youâd be wearing this, Iâd have hired a bodyguard to keep everyone else from looking.â Â
âOh, please,â you replied, rolling your eyes but unable to stop the grin tugging at your lips. âIâm here with you, arenât I?â Â
He leaned in, his hand brushing against your waist as he planted a soft kiss on your forehead. âStop being so cute, or I might never let you leave my sight,â he murmured. Â
âIs that a promise or a threat?â you teased, your voice playful but your heart racing. Â
âBoth,â he said, his grin widening as he pulled back to admire you once more. Â
From nearby, Omar let out a loud whistle. âPedro, are you gonna stand there all day, or are you gonna help us with this speaker? Some of us want to vibe to music!â Â
Pedro groaned, turning reluctantly toward the group but throwing an arm around your shoulders as he led you over. âFine, but only because sheâs coming with me,â he called out, earning a round of laughter. Â
As you settled into the setup, the sun beamed overhead, and the carefree energy of the group was infectious. Pedro stayed close, his arm brushing yours as you helped Lauren unpack snacks, and his eyes never strayed far from you. Â
At one point, Franklin handed you a coconut with a straw and a cheeky smile. âBest way to stay hydrated,â he said, winking. Â
âCheers,â Pedro said, clinking his coconut against yours. He took a sip before leaning closer, his breath warm against your ear. âBut if you spill even a drop, Iâm licking it off you.â Â
Your cheeks burned as you nearly choked on your drink. âPedro!â you hissed, swatting at him. Â
He grinned, unapologetic. âWhat? Iâm just being practical.â Â
The day unfolded in easy laughter and warmth, with the sun high overhead and the turquoise ocean sparkling like a field of diamonds. Pedro carried you on his back through the shallows, his hands gripping your thighs as you pretended to be his commanding officer. Â
âFaster, soldier!â you commanded, leaning forward and tugging gently at his ears as if steering him. Â
âMaâam, yes, maâam!â he called back, mock-serious but laughing as he jogged through the water, sending small waves splashing around you both. âAnything else, maâam? Should I do some push-ups in the sand too?â Â
You grinned wickedly. âPush-ups? Iâd like to see you tryâwith me on your back.â Â
Pedro stopped abruptly, twisting his head to glance at you with a raised brow. âOh, you think I canât?â Â
âI know you canât,â you teased, leaning down to press your cheek against his. Â
He smirked, suddenly spinning in place. âYouâre asking for it now.â Â
Before you could protest, he dropped into the water with a dramatic splash, sending you tumbling off his back and into the cool embrace of the ocean. Â
âPedro!â you shrieked, surfacing with a gasp and pushing your wet hair out of your face. Â
He was already laughing, standing a few feet away with his hands on his hips, his soaked hair plastered to his forehead. âThatâs what you get for doubting my strength!â Â
âOh, youâre so dead!â you shouted, lunging toward him. Â
Pedro yelped playfully, backpedaling but not fast enough. You caught his arm, laughing as you pulled him down into the water with you. The two of you wrestled like kids, splashing and laughing so hard your stomach hurt. Â
âTruce! Truce!â he called out, holding up his hands in surrender as you pelted him with another wave of water. Â
âDo you admit defeat?â you demanded, a triumphant grin on your face. Â
âNever!â he declared, darting forward to grab your waist. Before you could react, he lifted you effortlessly, spinning you around in the water. Â
âPedro!â you shrieked, laughing and trying to wriggle free. Â
âYou wanted a soldier,â he said, his voice full of mischief, âand now youâve got one!â Â
You finally stopped struggling, letting your arms drape around his shoulders as he held you close. The laughter faded into something softer, the two of you catching your breath as you stood chest-deep in the water. Â
His hands slid down to your hips, steadying you as he gazed at you with a look that made your heart flutter. âYouâre beautiful, you know that?â he murmured, his voice low and intimate. Â
The way he said it, like it was a simple truth heâd always believed, made your cheeks warm despite the cool water. âYouâre just saying that because Iâm soaked and ridiculous-looking,â you replied, biting back a smile. Â
âNo,â he said, leaning in so his forehead pressed against yours. âIâm saying it because itâs true.â Â
Your breath hitched as his lips brushed against yours, soft and hesitant at first, like he was savoring the moment. The kiss deepened quickly, his arms pulling you closer until there was no space between you. Â
When you pulled back for air, Pedroâs eyes were dark, his lips slightly swollen from the kiss. âYouâve got this effect on me,â he admitted, his voice husky. Â
âOh yeah?â you teased, though your voice wavered with the same breathless energy. Â
âYeah,â he said, leaning in to kiss you again, his hands sliding up your back. âAnd I never want it to go away.â Â
For a while, the rest of the world melted away. You stayed there, wrapped in each otherâs arms, the ocean rocking gently around you. He kissed you like he was memorizing every detail, every taste, and you couldnât help but smile against his lips, feeling completely and utterly adored. Â
At one point, he pulled back just enough to whisper, âIf this is what it feels like to surrender, Iâm never fighting again.â Â
You laughed, threading your fingers through his damp hair. âI think I like you defeated.â Â
âAnd I think I like you here, in my arms,â he replied softly, his lips brushing against your temple. Â
The sound of your friends laughing and splashing in the distance barely registered. For now, it was just you and Pedro, lost in a world of sunlit kisses and salty skin, the ocean your only witness. Â
The group gathered in a loose circle, each person holding a large green coconut decorated with colorful straws and tiny paper umbrellas. The warm, golden light of the late afternoon sun bathed everything in a soft glow, making the moment feel like a scene out of a postcard. Omar crouched to capture the perfect angle with his camera while Lauren struck a dramatic pose, tilting her head back and raising her coconut like it was a chalice of the gods. Â
âLauren, youâre doing the most,â Franklin said, shaking his head but smiling as he adjusted his sunglasses. Â
âDarling, I am the most,â Lauren shot back with a wink, drawing laughs from everyone. Â
Pedro, standing just behind you, pulled you snugly against his side, his arm wrapped securely around your waist. âCâmon, letâs show them how itâs done,â he murmured in your ear, his warm breath sending a shiver down your spine. Â
Franklin, standing in front with his phone, held it up. âOkay, lovebirds, your turn. Smile for the camera!â Â
You turned your face toward Pedroâs at the exact same moment he turned toward you, and the laughter bubbled up before either of you could stop it. Your foreheads bumped lightly, and you both dissolved into giggles, the kind of uncontainable joy that made your chest feel light. Â
âOh, my god,â Lauren groaned theatrically, pointing at the two of you. âAre they even real? Look at them, theyâre in their own damn rom-com!â Â
âYâall are embarrassing,â Omar chimed in, snapping pictures anyway. âBut keep doing whatever that is because itâs disgustingly cute.â Â
Pedroâs grin widened as he tilted his head toward you, his nose brushing against yours. âYouâre ridiculous,â you said through your laughter, feeling your cheeks warm under the attention. Â
âAnd youâre perfect,â Pedro replied, his voice low but playful, the corners of his mouth lifting into a smirk. Â
Franklin groaned loudly, still holding up his phone. âFor the love of all things holy, just kiss her already! Weâre trying to make memories here, not watch a slow-burn romance unfold in real-time!â Â
Pedro raised an eyebrow, glancing at the group before looking back at you with a mischievous twinkle in his eye. âWhat do you think, Hermosa? Should we give them what they want?â Â
You laughed, pretending to ponder. âHmm⌠maybe. But only if you make it a good one.â Â
âChallenge accepted,â Pedro whispered, and then his lips were on yours, soft but sure. The kiss was sweet and unhurried, the kind that made everything around you fade into the background. Â
âOh my god, theyâre actually doing it,â Lauren shrieked, clapping her hands together like a giddy child. Â
âFinally!â Omar exclaimed, snapping several pictures in rapid succession. âThis is going on the Christmas card.â Â
âMake sure you get my good side!â Pedro joked, pulling back just enough to shoot Omar a wink, his arm still secure around your waist. Â
âI donât think you have a bad side,â you teased, your eyes meeting Pedroâs. Â
âUgh, stop!â Franklin groaned, clutching his chest dramatically. âThis is too much. I need a drinkâand not out of a coconut. Iâm going straight for the tequila.â Â
Everyone burst into laughter, the lighthearted teasing filling the air as the moment was immortalized with photos, laughter, and a shared sense of joy. Pedro leaned closer, his lips brushing your temple as the group continued to banter. Â
âTheyâre just jealous,â he murmured softly, his voice filled with affection. Â
You tilted your head up to meet his gaze, your heart swelling at the warmth in his eyes. âMaybe. But Iâm not sharing, so they can stay jealous.â Â
Pedro chuckled, pressing a kiss to your forehead. âGood. Because neither am I.â Â
The heat of the day softened into a golden, languid warmth as the two of you found refuge under the shade of a broad umbrella. The beach stretched endlessly before you, the waves lazily licking at the shore. Pedro reclined in a beach chair, his book propped open on his lap. The faint breeze tousled his hair, a few stray strands falling over his forehead, and the way he absentmindedly pushed them back sent a flutter through your chest. Â
You leaned against his side, your legs stretched out on the chair beside him, the perfect picture of ease. With one hand, you held your favorite romance novel, its dog-eared pages evidence of how many times you'd read it. With the other, you traced patterns along the inked lines of his tattoos. Your fingertips moved slowly, savoring the ridges of muscle and warmth beneath his skin, as if committing every part of him to memory. Â
Pedroâs free hand slid into yours, threading your fingers together with a natural intimacy that still made your heart skip a beat. He didnât look up from his book as he murmured, âEverything feels right when youâre with me.â Â
The sincerity in his tone made you pause, your eyes lifting from the words on the page. A small smile tugged at your lips as you squeezed his hand gently. âI know the feeling,â you replied, your voice soft. Â
For a while, the two of you sat in comfortable silence, the kind that only comes when youâre entirely at ease with someone. The distant laughter of your friends mingled with the rhythmic crashing of waves, creating a serene soundtrack to your stolen moment. Â
Pedro finally set his book down, slipping a receipt in as a placeholder. His gaze shifted to you, lingering in a way that made your cheeks heat even before he said a word. Â
âYou know,â he began, his voice warm and teasing, âyouâre kind of amazing.â Â
You tilted your head, meeting his eyes with a playful arch of your brow. âKind of?â Â
Pedro chuckled, his smile widening. âOkay, more than kind of. Very. Incredibly. Like, the kind of amazing that makes me wonder what I ever did to deserve you.â Â
You closed your book, setting it on the small table between your chairs. Turning slightly, you rested your chin on his shoulder, your fingers still entwined with his. âPedro, whereâs all this coming from?â Â
He shrugged, but his eyes were soft, almost vulnerable. âJust thinking. Watching you. It hits me sometimes how lucky I am. How lucky I feel to be the one sitting here with you.â Â
You laughed lightly, shaking your head. âYouâre the one everyone loves. The kind, talented, ridiculously handsome Pedro Pascal. If anything, Iâm the lucky one.â Â
Pedro leaned closer, his free hand brushing a strand of hair away from your face. âYouâre wrong about that. Donât get me wrongâI like myself just fine,â he teased, earning a laugh from you. âBut you? Youâre everything. Smart, funny, compassionate. And donât even get me started on how beautiful you are.â Â
Your cheeks flushed, and you tried to deflect with a teasing grin. âOh, so itâs just my looks, huh?â Â
âNot even close,â Pedro said, his voice dropping to a softer, deeper tone. âItâs the way you talk about your favorite books like theyâre old friends. The way you laugh with your whole body. The way you care about everyoneâhow you make every room brighter just by being in it.â Â
âPedroâŚâ you whispered, your throat tight with emotion. Â
âAnd donât think I havenât noticed how youâve got everyone wrapped around your finger,â he added, his grin returning. âOmar canât go ten minutes without asking if you need something, and Lauren keeps calling you her ânew favorite person.ââ Â
You laughed, brushing at your cheeks as your emotions threatened to overwhelm you. âStop. Youâre going to make me cry.â Â
Pedroâs expression softened further, his thumb brushing over your cheek as if to catch a tear before it could fall. âIf I do, theyâd better be happy tears. Because, cariĂąo, I love you more than I ever thought was possible.â Â
Your breath hitched, and you leaned into his touch. âI love you too. So much.â Â
For a moment, the world around you faded into the background. Pedro leaned in, his lips brushing against yours in a kiss that was slow and tender, like a promise. When he pulled back, he rested his forehead against yours, his voice barely above a whisper. Â
âPromise me youâll always stay this close,â he said, his tone carrying a weight you couldnât quite place. Â
You smiled, your hands cupping his face. âI promise. Always.â Â
Pedroâs heart swelled at your words, and though he didnât say it out loud, a plan began to take shape in his mind. He pictured the perfect ring, the perfect moment, the perfect way to ask you to spend forever with him. Â
âIâll hold you to that,â he said softly, pressing a lingering kiss to your forehead. Â
You didnât need to say anything else. The way you melted into his arms, the way your fingers found his once again, said everything. For now, this was enough. But in his heart, Pedro knew it wouldnât be long before he made good on the promise his soul had already made: to love you, always.
The late afternoon sun bathed the beach in golden light as you wandered back into the water. The waves lapped gently at your legs, warm and inviting. Lost in the tranquil rhythm of the ocean, you didnât notice the jagged rock just below the surface until it grazed your shin. You winced, feeling the sharp sting before brushing it off as nothing. Â
You emerged from the water, the salty breeze brushing against your skin. Pedro, lounging nearby with a half-finished coconut drink, immediately sat up. His eyes darted to your leg, catching the small but noticeable trail of red trickling down your shin. Â
âAre you bleeding?â His voice carried that signature mix of concern and urgency that only Pedro could make sound so endearing. Â
You glanced down, surprised to see the cut. âOh.â Â
âOh?â Pedroâs tone was incredulous as he practically leapt from his chair, already reaching for the towel draped over the back. âThatâs all you have to say? Oh?â Â
âItâs just a scratch, Pedro,â you said with a small laugh, trying to wave him off. âIâm fine.â Â
But Pedro was having none of it. He crouched in front of you, his warm hands circling your calf to keep your leg still. The towel dabbed gently at the cut, his brow furrowed in concentration. âYouâre not allowed to get hurt on my watch,â he muttered, more to himself than to you. Â
âItâs barely a paper cut,â you teased, watching the way his features softened even as he fussed over you. Â
âDoesnât matter.â His voice was firm, though his touch remained impossibly gentle. âWhat if it gets infected? What ifââ Â
You laughed, cutting him off. âPedro, itâs not like I got bitten by a shark.â Â
He looked up at you, his expression a mixture of exasperation and adoration. âDonât joke about that. Iâd fight a shark for you, you know.â Â
The sincerity in his voice, paired with the completely ridiculous statement, made you laugh even harder. âOh, Iâm sure you would,â you said, brushing your fingers through his damp curls. Â
âDonât test me,â he quipped, finally satisfied that the cut was clean. He reached for the small first-aid kit Franklin had insisted on bringing, pulling out a bandage. âHold still.â Â
âSeriously?â you asked, your amusement growing. Â
âSeriously,â he said, shooting you a look that dared you to challenge him. He peeled the adhesive back and smoothed the bandage over your shin with a precision that would make a surgeon proud. Â
âThere,â he said, sitting back on his heels and surveying his work with a nod. âGood as new.â Â
âYouâre ridiculous,â you said, shaking your head but smiling all the same. Â
âAnd youâre reckless,â he shot back, standing up and pulling you into his arms. âI leave you alone for five minutes, and this is what happens.â Â
You leaned into him, your hands resting against his chest. âI think youâre overreacting. Itâs a scratch, Pedro.â Â
âItâs your scratch,â he said, his voice softening. His fingers tilted your chin up, his eyes searching yours. âThat means it matters to me.â Â
Your heart did a little flip at his words, and you couldnât resist teasing him just a little. âYou know how youâre likeââ Â
âAbsolutely embarrassingly in love with you?â he cut in, a smirk tugging at his lips. Â
You rolled your eyes, though you couldnât help the grin that spread across your face. âYeah, that.â Â
Pedro leaned in, his forehead resting against yours. âI am, you know,â he said, his voice dropping to a tender murmur. âCompletely, hopelessly, embarrassingly in love with you.â Â
Your teasing melted away as you cupped his face, brushing your thumbs over the scruff of his jaw. âGood. Because Iâm absolutely embarrassingly in love with you too.â Â
His smile grew, and he kissed you softly, as if sealing a promise. When he pulled back, his eyes sparkled with mischief. âNow, no more rock fights, okay? Youâve got to take it easy on me.â Â
You laughed, wrapping your arms around his neck. âIâll do my best. But no promises if a shark shows up.â Â
Pedro groaned dramatically, lifting you off your feet as he carried you back to the lounge chairs. âIf a shark shows up, Iâll negotiate with it. Tell it Iâm already your protector and it canât have the job.â Â
You giggled, nuzzling against his neck. âSounds like a good plan. My hero.â Â
He set you down with exaggerated care, pressing one last kiss to your forehead. âAlways,â he said simply. Â
And as the two of you sat there, the ocean stretching endlessly before you, you felt it againâthat perfect, undeniable feeling of being home.
HOTEL ESENCIA, MEXICO â SUNSET
The sunset painted the sky in hues of orange, pink, and deep indigo, casting a magical glow over the beach. The group sat in a loose circle, their laughter and conversation mingling with the soft crash of the waves and the mellow strumming of a guitar Omar had picked up. The mood was serene, the kind of calm that felt like it could stretch forever. Â
Pedro sat behind you on the sand, his strong arms wrapped securely around your waist as you leaned back against his chest. His chin rested lightly on your shoulder, and you could feel the soft puff of his breath against your neck. His warmth enveloped you, a perfect contrast to the cool ocean breeze. Â
âYou cold, cariĂąo?â Pedro murmured, his lips brushing the shell of your ear. Â
âNot even a little,â you replied, turning your head to catch his eyes. They sparkled, reflecting the fiery colors of the horizon. Â
His fingers traced slow, idle circles against your stomach. âGood. Canât have you shivering out here, not when Iâve got two perfectly good arms to keep you warm.â Â
âYouâre too good at this,â you teased, smiling as you reached up to brush a strand of hair from his forehead. Â
âGood at what?â he asked, his tone playful, though his eyes held that familiar, unspoken intensity that always made your heart skip a beat. Â
âAt making me feel like the luckiest person in the world,â you said softly. Â
Pedroâs lips curved into a slow smile, and he leaned down to press a tender kiss to your temple. âThatâs funny,â he murmured, âbecause thatâs exactly how I feel about you.â Â
The golden light of the sunset cast a halo around his face, and you couldnât help but reach up, cupping his cheek as you brought his forehead to yours. âI donât think Iâll ever get tired of hearing you say things like that.â Â
âYouâd better not,â he said, his voice warm and teasing, though there was an edge of vulnerability beneath it. âBecause Iâm not planning on stopping.â Â
âIâll love you forever,â Pedro whispered, his lips ghosting against your ear as the first stars began to peek through the darkening sky. Â
You tilted your head back to meet his gaze fully, the world around you falling away. âYou promise?â Â
He cupped your face in his hands, his thumb brushing tenderly over your cheek. âI promise,â he said, his voice steady and filled with so much certainty it made your chest ache in the best way. Â
His lips found yours in a kiss that was soft and lingering, filled with a sweetness that felt endless. When he pulled back, he pressed another kiss to your forehead before tucking you closer to him. Â
The night deepened, and the group eventually wandered back to the cozy beachfront hotel. Pedroâs hand never left yours as you made your way to your shared room, the two of you moving in quiet, comfortable synchronicity. Â
Inside, the room was dimly lit, the glow of a single bedside lamp casting a warm, intimate light over the space. The sound of the waves was faint through the open balcony doors, and the scent of salt air mingled with the faintly floral perfume youâd spritzed on earlier. Â
Pedro closed the door behind you and turned to face you, his expression soft but unmistakably intent. âYou know,â he said, stepping closer, âI meant it. Every word I said out there.â Â
You tilted your head, giving him a playful look. âEven the part where you said youâd never get tired of me stealing the covers?â Â
âEspecially that part,â he said with a grin, his hands finding your waist and pulling you flush against him. âThough I might need extra cuddles as compensation.â Â
You laughed softly, your hands sliding up his chest to rest on his shoulders. âI think that can be arranged.â Â
His grin faded, replaced by something deeper, more serious, as his eyes searched yours. âI love you,â he said, the words simple but carrying the weight of everything he felt. âSo much that sometimes it scares me.â Â
You leaned up, pressing a kiss to the corner of his mouth. âI love you too. And you donât have to be scared, Pedro. Youâve got me.â Â
His lips claimed yours in a kiss that was slow and deliberate, his hands splaying across your back as he pulled you closer. The kiss deepened, his lips parting to taste yours, and you felt the warmth of him everywhere. Â
He backed you gently toward the bed, his movements unhurried, as if savoring every moment. The backs of your knees hit the edge, and you sank onto the soft mattress, pulling him down with you. Â
Pedroâs hands roamed, his touch reverent as his lips moved from your mouth to your jaw, then down the column of your neck. âTell me if Iâm going too fast,â he murmured against your skin, his voice low and husky. Â
âYouâre perfect,â you whispered, threading your fingers through his hair and tugging lightly to bring his lips back to yours. Â
His breath hitched at your words, and you felt the weight of his love in every kiss, every touch. The world outside faded away, leaving just the two of you wrapped in each other, lost in a moment that felt infinite. Â
Pedro pulled back briefly, his forehead resting against yours as his fingers laced with yours. âYouâre my everything,â he said softly, his voice barely above a whisper. Â
âAnd youâre mine,â you replied, your heart full to bursting. Â
And as the night stretched on, the love between you grew even deeper, wrapping around you both like a warm, unbreakable cocoon.
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