#idk how coherent this is I'm just trying to form a thought

[thegnomelord]

I love your monster au so much. It makes the monsterlover/fucker in me real happy. Sorry just wanted to share my appreciation.

I've been thinking too, how would you feel about writing a underwater sea creature reader? (No pressure but I hope this idea tickles your fancy so I'll infodump my ideas on you) They can live on land and stuff but drag their prospective mate into a deep underwater ravine when they want to mate. Idk how to describe it, like I have an idea in my head of what the creature's traits would be but I can't find a way to put it into words.

I'm going to give it a try though, (excuse the fact it won't make much sense, my thoughts jump around a lot. But I'll try and make it coherent.) Basically, my mind went to underwater dragons. So with most of the traits that you wrote for dragons, like the purring and the tails intertwining (and the sharing of scales). But I was thinking without wings, because you don't need them underwater. But we glow in the dark, because we are deepsea creatures we have adapted to become bioluminescent. Oh and also we have gills and stuff still when we are on land.

Idk if this is confusing or just something you don't want to write but I was hoping for you to include a more sfw part with the mating dance maybe and then then an actual nsfw part (dom top male reader??)

But at the end of the day this is just a suggestion and it's up to you if you want to write it or not. (If you do write it can it be with ghost or gaz?? gaz giving us shiny things but sea related, like shells? and/or ghost struggling through knowing how to court us. Both of them being confused of what to do because we are a new type of dragon that not many people knew existed and our courting traditions are mostly unknown??

Okay this is cool and it tickles my brain of having just this big fucking monster that's gigantic due to deep sea gigantism :D, I also picked Gaz cause I like the sea/sky duality.

CW:NSFW, subbot gaz, domtop Mreader, quick and rough

When you first joined the taskforce, Gaz didn't know what to expect. Your species had been newly discovered, barely any information about you, but something about you put some ancient part of his mind on edge, ants nipping on the sinew of his wings until his body begged to return to the safety of the sky.

First time he met you, you reminded him less of a dragon and more of a Leviathan — something that dwelled where the light didn't reach, far too big than anything should be allowed to be, bright bioluminescent markings shimmering against dark scales to lure prey into crushing jaws filled with sharp crooked teeth, horns like spears to pin down what couldn't fit in your maw, powerful legs built to swim and breach the surface of the water to catch unaware flyers like Gaz just to pull them down into the abyss to be devoured.

He would have been more. . . unsettled by you had you not been so nice.

You towered over him even in your mostly human form, but you were a gentle giant, happy to let him use you as a perch and humming along as he talks, joining in on his and Johnny's pranks and hiding them when Price eventually catches them.

And Gaz doesn't even notice when your presence no longer makes his feathers puff up, the shadow you cast over him now warm and welcoming after all the times you'd been a meat shield for him. He tils his head back to catch sight of your eyes as he leans back, soft feathers rubbing against your clothes, "Hey there big man." Gaz smiled.

You hum, your hand coming to loosely hold his hip, holding the pretty thing close to you. "Hi." You purr, the small biolights along your body flickering in seemingly random patterns, but nothing about them was random to you or your kin, your interest in him painfully obvious.

But to your dismay Gaz doesn't understand, just snorts at your colorful display. "What's got you in a good mood today?" He asks, eyes tracing the dancing lights, that instinctual bird part of his mind liking the sight, and the low rumble of your voice, and just. . . being near you.

You blink, "You," You say simply, your people aren't ones to mince words.

Gaz can feel his body heat up at your declaration, feathers puffing up, but strikes down any thoughts about you before they turn inappropriate and cause him to coo at you. "Fine, keep yer secrets." He huffs and gets out of your hold, wings stretching out to purposely show off his feathers as he walks away, tail feathers flickering.

He can feel your eyes follow after him, hummingbirds pecking at his spine and he doesn't know if he should feel that way. And all you can think of is how you could drag your pretty bird down into the abyss without clipping his wings.

. . .

Gaz watches you lazily swim around the lake near their current base in your real form, "Havin' a nice soak in there Nessie?" He asks as he walks the short pier and sits down, dipping his feet in the water as his wings spread out lazily behind him.

A low rumble leaves you like a distorted whale song, your large form pushing through the water like a submarine cutting through the ice. "Nessie?" You ask as swim over to him, "Who's that?"

"Never mind about that," Kyle grins, his eyes roaming along your large form as the biolights flicker once again in that specific pattern that means nothing to him but everything to you. "You look happy."

You shrug, "It's nice to be back in the water." Without a word you heave yourself out of the water and onto the pier, large hands clutching the wood on either side of him, a deep purr rumbling in your chest at how close he is to you now. "Did you need something?" You ask, biolights flickering seductively.

Kyle swallows drily, eyes going wide as he registers you loom over him, can smell the sea and salt still clinging to your scales, something other than fear buzzing down his spine from how close your dangerous teeth are to him. "Oh, right, uh," He clears his throat to clear the molasses clinging to it, wings spreading out in a way that got his feathers shining in the setting sun as he reached into his pocket.

"I, um. . . I got you this." He said, holding out the seashell he'd found for you. His breath caught in his throat as you looked at it, hoping you liked it; he'd spent hours polishing it until it was shining, the colors vibrant and every single scratch buffed out.

"Thank you," You rumbled and took the seashell into your hand. Your pupils dilated, a very pleased purr rumbling in your chest — oh, he was so thoughtful, such a good mate to bring a rare treat for you.

Kyle felt like a bloody peacock at the way his wings spread out, but he couldn't care less about his posturing when you accepted his gift, his heart fluttering like butterflies in a jar.

Then you ate it.

You ate his gift.

His heart shatters like the seashell between your fangs, wings dropping like a rock, never having expected to be rejected like that. "I- what- why did- if you-" He couldn't even form words to say what he wanted, pressing a hand to his face in an attempt to hide the way his eyes prickled with vestiges of tears.

Unfortunately for him, you notice. "Oh, little bird, what's wrong?" Your voice is soothing, biolights pulsing in a slow and calming way as you gently pry his hand from his face, looking into his eyes. "Did I do something wrong?"

Kyle doesn't look you in the eyes, doesn't know what the hell to feel right now, the words spewing out of his mouth before he could control them. "Why would you do that!" He hisses.

You tilt your head. "You gifted it to me." You say like it's supposed to explain everything, reaching up to cup his cheek, your clawed hand cold and wet against his skin. "It was very good." You lean in closer, a deep purr rumbling in your throat, your long tail moving to curl around his leg.

Kyle sucks in a sharp breath as you push you loom over him your hands on either sides of him keeping him in place, feeling himself slowly lay back as you creep over him onto the pier, heart drumming in his chest. "Wh-what?"

You snort, eyes glowing like anglerfish lures, lowering your head down to lick a stripe up his neck, claws raking down his front. "Let me show you my appreciation, yes?"

Kyle shivers at the sensation of your teeth against his throat, body heating up, your scent — of sea and salt and something very very old — invading his nose, an involuntary chirp escaping his chest. "Ah, yeah, sure just-" Kyle yelps as your claws cut through his clothes, wings quivering as they're pressed against the wooden pier behind him.

"Relax little bird," You coo softly, licking around his lips in what counts as a kiss for you when your maw is filled with vicious teeth, tongue trailing down to lick up the drops of his salty sweat. "I'll be gentle."

And gentle you are; softly licking up the blood after your fangs had left marks on his skin, sharp claws holding his trembling hips tenderly as your rough tongue worms inside him, soft purrs and deep rumbles vibrating your tongue against his prostate until he's sobbing, his hands clutching your horns to hold your head closer as his cock leaks a puddle of pre onto his abdomen.

He whines when you continue stretching him with your tongue, "Please, mate, just-" Kyle sucks in a sharp breath as your tongue once again grazes his prostate, thighs clenching around your head. "-just please fuck me already! I can't- I'm not going to-"

Kyle sobs with joy and anguish when you pull your tongue out, the slimy appendage slithering back into your maw and leaving him painfully empty. "Alright, alright," You coo, moving up to drape your body over his, nuzzling your cheek against his as you line your hard cock with his stretched hole. "Relax,"

The tip of your cock breaching his puckered hole has Kyle sucking in a sharp breath, "Easier said than done mate," He chuckles, closing his eyes and just trying to focus on your scent and just you, groaning. Fuck, you're big in all aspects, his body clenching down like a vice before relaxing enough for you to slowly push further, spreading his walls wide until you're fully inside him, your hips resting against his.

"There you go," You purr, letting Kyle adjust as you nibble on his neck, biolights flickering happily when he rocks his hips into yours. "Taking me so well,"

Gaz can feel his body heat up at your words, throwing his head back when you rock your hips, cock hard and heavy inside him, dragging against his walls with every minute movement that has him panting and whining, his legs crossing behind your back to pull your hips closer every time you pull out.

The world escapes your notice, all your attention fully on him as you focus on mating him, pulling needy desperate sounds from Kyle's lips, your large hand gently stroking his leaking dick as your cock rubs against his prostate, your unhurried pace making him cum again and again and again until he's a moaning boneless mess by the time you cum inside him.

[restinslices]

Yo, still waiting for that if Tomas was a sub one (canon tbh)

Cannot believe I forgot. Y’all can boo me

Imma just come out and say it. He's such a whiny sub

There are characters that give me dom vibes but I think them as subs would be fun. There are characters that give me switch vibes. Tomas gives me only sub vibes. I don't detect a dom in there. idk, that's just me tho

So needy and whiny it'd probably throw you off when you see him doing anything other than begging you to touch him 

Cannot handle teasing at all. He's ok with teasing you but breaks easily when you tease him 

Honestly he can't backup any of the shit he talks. 

One of those subs who need attention at all times. Even if you're not interacting with him, he still wants you in the area 

Kinks I think he'd have are barebacking, biting, humiliation (a HUGE one and imma stand on it), breath play, collaring (in private), impact play, sex toys and sensory deprivation 

I just feel like he's a slut in disguise. Where's my proof? I made it the fuck up. I'm doing this for US 

If you have female anatomy he's also getting pegged. IDC IDC 

Humiliation is a big one for him because he knows it's still a safe space. You can taunt him about how he's a slut, write things on him, make him get off with something unusual, ect. but at the end of day you still love him and it's all for fun. 

You can tell when he's needy ‘cause he's extremely close to you. He follows you around normally, but he's right on your heels 

To torture him more you can pretend you have no idea what he wants. He knows you know and you know he knows, but watching him try to ignore how he feels ‘cause he doesn't wanna say it out loud is priceless. 

He also has a tendency to say he can't take anymore but in reality he wants you to keep going. This is a big guy, he can take it. 

There's two good punishments for him; Cockwarming and overstimulation 

Cockwarming because he can't handle teasing. It's so simple but he can't stand it and doesn't know which is worse; when you're inside of him (actual dick or strapon, doesn't matter) or when he's inside of you. Either way, it doesn't take long for him to apologize for whatever he's done and beg you to fuck him already. 

For overstimulation he gets turned on and cums pretty easily so it wouldn't take that much to overstimulate him. 

These two go well together. Cockwarming then overstimulation as a “isn't this what you wanted?”

What would make this better is quizzing him on something. His brain stops working when he's horny so quizzing him on Lin Kuei principles or something else he for sure knows adds to it. 

He knows he knows the answer but his brain is a fog. It kinda puts the punishment in his hands but that adds to the torture. If he could figure this out, then you'd actually fuck him (or you'd stop fucking him if you do this while overstimulating him)

As I'm typing this I thought of another thing that can be both a punishment but also something he enjoys. Dryhumping. Listen to me and listen to me well-

I can see him coming up behind you when you're alone and rubbing against you to let you know he's needy. And if you told him to keep going, he'd cum but it's not what he really wants to do. 

So him being in trouble and being forced to rub against you but not be inside you or have you inside him would drive him nuts. 

Aftercare for him would be showering together, cuddling and reassuring him you didn't mean any of the negative things you said. Especially after an intense punishment, he needs to hear you don't actually think negatively of him and you love him. 

Also reading together depending on the day. Just something really chill to pull him back to reality. 

I just realized he has the least amount of words so here are afterthoughts to fix that

I know I've called him whiny multiple times but I genuinely think sometimes he can't even form coherent sentences. All that comes out are noises 

Tries not to pout but does so anyway 

He can get off just from giving head 

Loves you leaving marks on him as long as he can cover it up. He can't be scrapping and the enemy sees a hickey on his neck

Tries to sneakily break rules. For example, if a rule is “no touching yourself when I'm gone” he'll do it anyway and try to get rid of the evidence. He'll shower, change clothes, clean any toy he used and whatever else he has to do but you somehow always know. 

Tomas is not the best liar and has some habits he does when lying, like tapping his fingertips together so you find out that way or from actually catching him and pretending you didn’t

The type to break rules on purpose if you haven't been giving him attention and then be surprised when actions have consequences 

Will call you whatever title you prefer if you don't just wanna go by your name

Like his brothers, he for sure could just throw you off but he never does. It adds to the fun. He's a skilled assassin but if you said “jump” he'd ask “how high?”

The best sub to have if you want one whos so pathetically in love with you but can be a little shit sometimes 

Even after his punishments, he keeps apologizing to make sure you're not actually mad at him. 

Probably begs you to cum inside him anyway you can

I see him and start tweaking fr

[sun-and-flames]

// hsr spoilers // hsr leaks

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What if the Flame Reaver is actually 'the good guy'?

And I mean the protagonist and hero kinda good guy.

Hear me out because I know this sounds rather... odd after the events so far.

Everything below the cut because it contains spoilers and some minor leaks(for the Flame Reaver's new description in 3.4 and Phainon's animations and 'identity') and it's gotten a bit longer than I anticipated too.

Now, we got the new description for him so we know that he's born from the Black Tide and he is "Phainon"(or rather, Khaslana)...

And we also know that the Black Tide is related to Phainon because a lot of his animations include effects that look exactly like it(and are as destructive as the Black Tide).

So ... what if the Flame Reaver is a fragment of Phainon, created by Phainon in his original form, with all the knowledge of the truth about Amphoreus and all the powers he has, to "infiltrate" each new cycle to try to break the cycles?

After Cyrene's appearance at the end of 3.3 we know she's involved in the cycles somehow. And we also know that Mem is related to her.

So, if his description states he's "born [...] to hunt the Coreflames", why did he go after Cyrene? Why kill her when she's not holding a Coreflame?

We know that before 3.3 his condition was... better than it is in 3.3. He was coherent, his mind still clear enough to hold conversations.

And, after Cyrene's death he hasn't been active either until Mem showed up.

So maybe that's why he killed Cyrene? Get rid of her in an attempt to prevent her from getting involved in this cycle? Because he thinks (or even knows?) that this would stop them?

Until Mem showed up and suddenly everything was continuing the same way as in the cycles before, so he began hunting Coreflames to start anew?

We don't know at this point how much TB/DH have influenced the current cycle but even so, the Era Nova is drawing nearer, the cycle is about to be reset.

And in 3.3, that's all Flame Reaver seemingly thinks about.

Flame Reaver is trying to gather the Coreflames, to reset the cycle to start anew while the Coreflames in his hand are taunting him that "all is futility" and his attempts to stop the cycles won't ever succeed.

"Cycles... can't be broken"... He says in 3.3 and it's as if he has succumbed to just the instinct - the hopelessness and desperation of this futile situation - to hunt the Coreflames. Essentially losing himself, his mind gone, not capable of a coherent thought as before.

But even so, even with his mind gone, this purpose will lead to a new cycle, supposedly resetting him as well... and a new chance to break the cycles perhaps.

If he is a fragment of the "original" Phainon, then the Flame Reaver cannot truly fail. Either he finds a way to break the cycles or he gathers the Coreflames to reset them and start anew.

Just maybe, along the way, after countless cycles, he has truly lost himself, his form crumbling, his mind deteriorating the further the Flame-Chase progresses.

Phainon even acknowledges that they're seemingly on the same side.

But with Flame Reaver's mind succumbing to his purpose of hunting Coreflames he's only obstructing the current cycle's attempts to usher in a new dawn despite ultimately following the same goal at this point.

The only semblance of coherency was when Imbibitor Lunae showed up. It was the only time Flame Reaver did not repeat how the cycles can't be broken, how everything must be reset...

And if initially the Flame Reaver really was driven by an instinct or goal to break the cycles, him saying how unfamiliar Dan Heng's power is, not knowing who he is, it almost feels like... a glimmer of hope?

Not for him specifically even but for Amphoreus? We've been through the "new variable" thing multiple times before and we know this is how it's gonna be here too, but it's almost like the Flame Reaver is acknowledging it too.

That is... if I'm right about all of this to begin with though.

But Idk, it somehow makes sense that the "original" Phainon(or well, Khaslana) was powerful enough to split himself and use the Black Tide's power(or maybe that's just his own power to begin with) to influence and infiltrate following cycles in an attempt to one day break them.

And given how 3.3 played out it becomes clear that our goal will be to stop the cycles and save Amphoreus (and hopefully all the characters)

[bomberqueen17]

home/writing

back in buffalo for the week. i am always so discombobulated when i first arrive. i did get a bunch of shit done yesterday but all of it was odd little discrete tasks, or i only worked on them for a little bit and didn't finish them. i have things to do today as well, and i'm trying to be coherent about it.

one of the things i did manage to do was publish another chapter of the solarpunk sequel to the beta doc. i'm like.... halfway through the sequel i think, and it's going slowly because i'm not sure how i'm going to get the plot climax to come together. and i'm paying the piper, as i foresaw: fanfiction has a level of engagement that original fic doesn't, and I really tried to cushion myself against that by trying to collect people who'd come along with me, but of the 20 or so people i gave access to the doc, only half have engaged with it at all, and of those, only about half made it all the way though the first one and into the sequel, and I know people are still plugging away and I did expect there to be some tapering-off-- it's so many words! it is and real life is so busy, etc-- but I had foolishly expected a few more people to actually follow through, since I'd made it so very very opt-in to start with. So I do treasure every comment but there just aren't very many, and I know the first novel needs some structural changes but I don't know how to identify or make them, and I know I need to slog through and finish the thing before I can decide how to revise the start of it. And as I had sort of expected, I'm really having trouble being alone with myself in it, and it doesn't help that the pace is so slow because I don't have very much time to work on it now-- when I do have time, I have to spend so much effort convincing myself that people will care and it is worth doing etc etc. Lack of momentum is a real bitch.

No shade to those who haven't been able to actually interact, but, I am struggling. Last week was really bad, for hormonal reasons I suspect, but having come out the other side of that, I am grimly aware that it wasn't just that, it is a real problem I'm dealing with. So, if you did request access to that doc and have been thinking about getting around to it, I'm still in need, maybe more than ever. And if you did request access and never saw the email where I granted it, do let me know. And if you didn't request access because you thought so many other people already had, or something like that, well. I never closed the form.

I keep trying to convince myself it's not a bad story. I did just get to the exciting bit, I think. It's got first draft problems but I swear there's good bits. But sometimes I feel like I'm just deluding myself that anybody's going to want to read this. Yeah I've published millions of words on AO3 and reasonable numbers of people seem to love them, but those were other people's characters; my own just aren't that compelling, is the unavoidable feeling it gives me. So I'm having a really hard time with that, but I knew I would.

In my weary despair last week I tabbed back over to my fanfic docs but you know, that's a sort of false comfort-- it's been so long since I updated most of those stories that I don't think I'd get a lot of engagement if I did finish the half-done chapters and get them up. I might try; I know there are a few rereaders, and some people subscribed who'd probably come back and look. But I'm really determined to finish this story with the solarpunk stuff and the mammoths and talking dolphins and so on, even if almost nobody wants to read it, because I never was going to be able to sell it anyway and sometimes you just really need to tell a story.

It's just lonely, and I'm tired.

Anyway. I just spent two hours trying and failing to make myself write more and am giving up to go do more unconnected home tasks because idk what else to do.

[somesmartsmarties]

So I am very bad at forming coherent thoughts, I’d love to be like those people who write those super long tumblr essays analyzing a character and all the micro-actions they take and how they shape who they are however I am just not capable of doing that to the level that I’d like

That being said however, I’d like to try my hand at defending Lloyd’s teaching methods (inspired by me stumbling across a post where someone says he’s failing pretty bad at being a teacher), because idk man I like him lol

So I don’t remember that much about how he was portrayed as a “teacher” in the seasons prior to dragons rising; I am slowly rewatching the whole show and I think I remember that the first time it was truly (sort of) introduced was in season 5? He shows up with his dad’s robes from back when he was referred to as Sensei/Master so it’s basically a passing on of the mantle of teacher from Garmadon to his son.

Fast forward to season 1 of DR, Lloyd is shown trying to follow Wu’s teachings as closely as possible, to an almost joking degree. This more comical side gets dropped after episode 1 last i recall, but he still brings up stuff Wu has taught him (namely the whole "Find the calm inside of you thing", but also other stuff, mostly packaged into simple sayings, which is seen at least once during the tournament of sources).

Lloyd's method of teaching is very "hands-off", you could say? I don't recall there ever being a moment where he really does much other than give words of encouragement whenever either Arin or Sora mess up; basically he's not rushing them (even when that could be something useful, aka during the pre-blood moon training arc).

The reason why i think he's like this is because he was rushed during his training. Once it was revealed that he was the destined green ninja he was immediately thrown into training, which last i recalled got more intense during season 2 of the og show (i don't recall him doing much training in season 1), and got even MORE intense post-tomorrow's tea (i think there's a line by Wu or someone else that says something like "Now the battle between good and evil is even closer"). I think things slow down post season 2, and that probably has to do with the fact that the show was never meant to have any more seasons.

An additional reason why i feel he might opt for this way of teaching is because well - he kinda just, knew how to do stuff even in his younger days?? He'd gotten some (off-screen, last i recall) spinjitzu training, however we see him perform a half-baked tornado during the pirates episode, and then immediately after, IN THAT SAME EPISODE, he performs a perfect spinjitzu tornado. To add onto all of that he then ALSO tries summoning a ball of green energy for the first time ever and, for the most part, SUCCEDES (i think it does blow up in his face immediately after but, hey it's the thought that counts). Later during the series there aren't any other moments like these where he's just instantly good at something (unless you count the time he learnt airjitzu which i don't, that was Morro doing it for him), however i think this might lead him to believe that Sora and Arin might have one of those moments where they just - get it; Sora kinda had that when she unlocked her true potential.

Another important thing i noticed only as i was thinking about this is that like - Lloyd has met a LOT of masters with very aggressive teaching methods, huh? Chen + the anacondrai by association, Ras, Egalt, the Five, probably more that i'm forgetting/haven't met seeing as i never watched from season 11 to whatever season there is before MotM, etc.. Having seen all of these more aggressive figures + the negative impact they end up having on their students, i think it's no wonder that Lloyd doesn't want to be so pushy with his own pupils (there's also probably something pertaining to whatever was going on in crystalized, i'm pretty sure Garmadon was trying to make him channel his rage to use his oni form but idk i still haven't seen that season).

While i don't think Lloyd is destined to be a bad teacher, it's clear that he himself still has much to learn on how to properly help his students improve. The ways i can see his character moving forward is A. he decides that the role of teacher really is not made for him and decides to step down (which wouldn't really make sense with what Rontu + Egalt told him but we'll get to that), or B. he takes some inspiration from the way Rontu teaches.

We never really see Egalt do any physical training (i don't think, i can't remember) post-eye injury, he merely offers some words of encouragement for Lloyd at the start of season 2 part 2, however prior to that he's veeeeery hard on all of the ninja, Arin especially, which doesn't help them and if anything, adds to their doubt and possibly makes them more sloppy because now they have the looming thought of "oh man i'm so bad at this, i'm never going to achieve rising dragon technique", which is not helpful, EGALT.

Rontu however is shown actively encouraging Sora and Riyu, and the big thing she does is point out what they could improve on. She doesn't berate them when they fail, simply tells them what they did "wrong" so they can learn from those mistakes, something that Lloyd is lacking. He tends to be more relaxed whilst offering empty (albeit well-meaning) words of encouragement; Rontu on the other hand is a bit more "stern" (barely at all tbh, she'd just more direct i guess), but those who trained under her genuinely seemed to gain some concrete form of knowledge (we see it during Sora's first battle in thr tournament, where she quite literally says "Just like Rontu taught me").

In conclusion, i don't think Lloyd is a bad teacher who's destined to disappoint all of his students, but there's definitely room for improvement, and now that both of his students have gone off with a manipulative furry (Sora is there mostly to help her friend, but still) we might get to see him question his teachings and try and do better.

Anyways main point is uhhh - Stan Rontu, All My Homies Love Rontu

[readingwiththestars]

₊˚⊹♡ NOTHING LIKE THE MOVIES

["Trust me, Lib," I said, picturing her lips. "In a crowd of million ski masks, I'd still be able to find you."]

| ✮ 3 stars |

ᝰ.ᐟ ⊹ arc review thank you to netgalley + simon and schuster for providing me with an e-arc in exchange for an honest review

THOUGHTS ° ᡣ𐭩 . ° . [minor spoilers]

ok. i put this review off for a couple days cause i knew this was gonna be harder to write because i love lynn painter books, really. buuttt i was horribly disappointed with this one. i'm the biggest wesliz fan but... like yeah i cant even form coherent thoughts about it. like this was unnecessary there was no point in shattering their relationship to write this.

like it was good to see wes's pov and everything but it felt so... idk yeah. (see im still struggling so bad to find words.)

one thing i would formally like to invite lynn to STOP doing though is shoving every taylor/ pop culture reference on the planet into the book. like holy shit woman. i few is okay BUT NOT THAT MANY COME ON!!!! they were in the middle of a fucking argument and wes is quoting illicit affairs or some bullshit. usually i love finding little references on page but this felt like too much.

i feel like she's whipped out her computer and gone straight to some dog fanpage or just plainly scrolled through edits seeing people saying "this song is so wesliz coded" and shoved those songs into the book. there is an on page reference to in between reference saying its their montage song.

also um this shit: ”little liz can’t come to the phone right now. why? oh. because she’s dead.” and somehow when jack antonoff was randomly brought up??? like some people are good at weaving taylor swift lyrics into books. lynn you are not.

also lynn take this a plea to never use the word "growl" or "growled" in a sentence ever again when describing your male characters. and to never write this sentence “she’s one of the guys you know? she’s just… different,” EVER AGAIN. PLEASE.

WHAT I DID LIKE THO WAS THE TINY TINY CRUMBS OF BAILEYCHARLIE AND NICKEMELIE (even tho nick was only mentioned and i dont think emelie was even there but eh)

CHARACTERS ° ᡣ𐭩 . ° .

liz - ok so weirdly enough she was the most tolerable and still intolerable at the same time. like she was so different from the liz in bttm the sunshiney, wearing dresses of all different colours and her love of romcoms. she was described as anti-love and was practically a full on different character seriously. if you liked the first book maybe dont have high expectations for nltm. like i do understand she had her heart broken and so obviously that makes sense for some of the change but it had been two years and as liz likes to say SO FUCKING MUCH "she's moved on, she's moved past it, its in the past" well for someone who's moved on you sure like to avoid the past a lot. also idk who tf she was trying to fool with that whole "i don't like wes, im over him." shit like gurl- you were literally kissing 2.5 seconds ago whats with the switching sides. and there was SO much about her leaving "little liz" behind. like what was so wrong with liking flowers and romcoms? and being a hopeless romantic and wearing bright colours?

wes - okay so it was quiet heartbreaking to hear abt wes's side of this book (except for the whole pursuing liz part) and i did feel sorry for him. but like what happened to the sweet, caring wes in the first book. and tell me why i had to read THIS sentence “climb on me like a good girl,” LIKE MY EYES LYNN WTF????? i did not sign up for this wes, like no stop telling me how obsessed you are with liz's lips or how she's a mythological sex goddess- boy sit ur ass down. and don't even get me started on the beginning of the book. WHAT WAS THAT SHIT? why was wes acting like a 7yr old excited for school and talking (so much) abt his love for scootering? SCOOTERING. LYNN PAINTER WHAT THE EVER LOVING HELL? SCOOTERING. DO YOU HAVE SOME OBSESSION WITH THEM OR SOMETHING? WHY DID THOSE DUMB THINGS KEEP SHOWING UP?? like tell me why i needed to read this shit: "i fucking loved the scooters ..... wes + scooters = HEA" ..... lynn.

QUOTES ° ᡣ𐭩 . ° .

im not going to bother to find any of these, see: im too lazy

all in all i still liked some points when both of them were acting normal. which is why its a 3. but i feel like this is leaning towards a hate review but yeah idk i cant actually pin point parts that i remember liking- also the ending??? what was that? it made no sense to me.

[mixelation]

crossover hot takes maybe?

this is kind of vague but ummmmmmm

yeah idk, i don't think this is even a hot take, but i get annoyed when the purpose of a crossover seems to be "look at how much cooler this canon is from this one!!!" with zero thought or respect. like obviously if you stick dbz characters in yugioh they can just fight physically the bad guy and win instantly. obviously. this isn't fun unless you're particularly charismatic at writing jokes. i want to see goku play a card game. i want to see vegeta's insane "this is my card strategy and why you LOST" speech. i want to see krillin possessed by ancient pharaoh and gain dark magic powers which clash humorously with the powers he already has. please give it 3 seconds of thought

also i wish that people doing fusion AUs (characters form one canon existing in a organically different canon, as opposed to transmigrating) would stop trying to box themselves into "this characters needs to be a 1:1 parallel with this character they're replacing in the other canon." often this leads to OOCness or less interesting choices because they're trying to follow canon too closely to actually explore the crossover, OR people will pick a weird cast of characters because they want better 1:1 parallels and then write.... something less coherent than other canon. i understand some people find joy in this sort of mental exercise of finding parallels between characters or just like sticking character A in character B's costume, so i'm not gonna sit here and be like "NO ONE SHOULD DO THIS IT'S BAD." i just which it was more common to take a looser approach bc i think that would be fun and interesting

[ginmoonnet]

ˏˋ°•*⁀➷ Promise ︴˚࿔₊•

[Wanderer 🐈‍⬛]

Summary: Missing someone is difficult, and trying to forget is not easy either. (／_＼)

Genre: Kinda angst(? Idk it has some

♡︎ Wanderer x fem! Reader (I tried to make it gn! Reader but failed miserably, srry)

Note: Use of “Kuni/Kunikuzushi” referring to Wanderer

It's been about a few months since the two of you broke off any kind of contact.

You can still remember the last time you saw each other in person before what happened, you can even feel his warm hug before leaving saying that you would see each other soon, his image is still projected in your head waving his hand saying goodbye to you with a smile for What would seem like just a few weeks, nothing that hadn't happened before... that's why that last call impacted you so much.—Let's break up—. He blurted out abruptly, not even deigning to give you a coherent explanation. You laughed, thinking it was a joke, but the silence on the other end of the line stopped you in your tracks.—What? What do you mean?—. Another silence; It was true that the last few days they had been having disputes but you didn't think it was that serious.�� You’re joking, right? You can’t be for real…Kuni?—. However, you didn't have time to ask anything else since after hearing the beep when hanging up the call he had already blocked or at least deleted you from most of his social networks and you didn't muster the courage to say anything else either.

That's how you didn't call him for sixty days. You felt empty, cold, you even considered finding some vice to distract yourself from that feeling... which you discarded for obvious reasons. Still, you felt like all your attempts to resist calling him or even thinking about it were going down the drain in a matter of seconds, one after the other.

You tried to excuse him, to excuse yourself so you wouldn't feel so guilty in case you lost to yourself and went after him once again. “Maybe he's confused”, “I should call him, it's probably all a misunderstanding”, “we can solve it together”, but you better than anyone knew that it wasn't true and even if they managed to talk, the damage to what they once had was done, which, although it took you a while, you ended up accepting... or so you believed until you couldn't resist it anymore that cold and lonely night.

You waited for a while, feeling more and more regretful with each beep your cell phone made as you waited for him to answer.

When you were just about to chicken out and hang up, you heard a voice on the other end of the line.—…Y/N?—. You felt a lump form in your throat, you could almost see how your nose began to turn red and your eyes glazed over.—I…I'm sorry—. You responded, almost in a whisper.—It’s…okay, Y/N—. He said, no, it wasn't right and he should know it perfectly, right?.—I did it accidentally, it's just... today I saw someone who looked like you and... I thought maybe it was you but…—. Your voice was cut off for a moment, you swallowed heavily and continued.—But you're not here and that's none of my business anymore, I know, it's just that I couldn't help it, I wanted to say hello to you, to know if everything was okay, if You were fine, just that...—.

Kunikuzushi remained silent throughout, letting you talk like he always did, like he always did until that last call. Remembering it made you shed some silent tears, why?. Why, if that time he forced you to swallow your words and doubts, why didn't he did it again? Why did he seem to try to empathize with you? Did he feel sorry for you? for you?. That last thought was the one that gave you the courage to direct your index finger to that red button on the screen but his voice stopped you.—Don't worry, I'm fine... How…how have you been?—. He asked, in the warmest way he had spoken to you in months.

Your chin began to tremble and tears fell uncontrollably, making your head throb.—Kunikuzushi I'm going to hang u…—. You couldn't finish your sentence because he interrupted you without warning. —I'm sorry, Y/N—. A muffled sigh escaped your lips, as if it had been trying to escape from your throat for some time now..—What…?—.

—It wasn't your fault, none of this was your fault, it's just that, I was afraid and I acted without thinking. I was not going through my best moment and I hid it from you for months but I simply couldn't take it anymore, I didn't have the courage to explain myself to you at that moment and I hurt you but that was never my intention, quite the opposite…—. He answered you, calmly, although you could hear the remorse in his voice.—A-after a few days I thought about confessing everything to you, but with what face would I go and explain to you?! After all…the damage had already been done and I thought that not talking to you anymore would be better than trying to clean up my mess, y’know?—. He explained, after that and awkward silence didn’t hesitate to get in the conversation.

—…I waited—. You confessed.—Huh?—. He blurted out, somewhat disconcerted.— I waited, days, weeks and then months. I waited for a call or I don't know, maybe a message?, Any sign that all this could be a mistake... but they never came, Kunikuzushi, they never did—. Silence, the boy didn't know what to respond so you continued.—There are still days that I wish this was all a bad dream, you know?...ha...Even in the mornings when I wake up, I find myself hugging a lot of pillows like I hugged you, but it's not the same and it's sad because I feel like I'm the only one still clinging to the othe—.

—Me too, to be honest—. The blue-haired man stated.

—Huh?, what do you mean?—. You asked.—I also think about you, a lot. I also imagine you with me sometimes…but it's not the same, and it’ll never—.

—Be the same—. You responded.—Yes…—. He confirmed.

After a silence that felt strangely comfortable you spoke again.—So, what now?—. You weren't sure what to do, you wanted to see him, hug him, although, was that really what you wanted?. You were beginning to believe that kicking him to get paid for what he had done to you was also a great option.—I have no idea—. He responded, laughing a little to himself which you also did.—…Thank you for calling me—. He said with regret. You processed his words before responding.—Thank you for responding—. So they both laughed a little again before another silence appeared.

Even when those chuckles and giggles were recents they felt somehow nostalgic for some reason. After a while they both fell silent once again.

—Hey Y/N—. He called you by your name, like he always did.—Yes, Kuni?—.He laughed at the nickname, he hadn't heard it in a while and he was starting to miss it.—I still love you—. You thought for a moment before answering.—Yeah…me too—. You sighed.

Even though y’all had just declared your love after so long, those words felt more like a farewell and, for some strange reason, this time you felt calm.

—I think I'm going to love you for the rest of my life...can I?—. He asked with some shyness and uncertainty. You scoffed at his words and the tone of voice with which he recited them.—Good night, Kuni—. Even though you couldn't see him, he smiled at your words.—Sweet dreams, Y/N—. My dear Y/N…

A/N: TMI!

-NYEHEHRHEHEHE 😼😼😼😼

-I’ll be honest with y’all. I wanted this to be breathtaking, heartbreaking, so sad, horrible miserable, but I didn’t felt like crying that day so ur welcome ig LOL

-It may look as if I was working on everything but the fic that I started and haven’t realized the second part haha hehe hoho…and it’s partially true (I will upload it, someday, I swear) BUT I already got the Xiao and Wanderer one shot finished a while ago and the only thing I did was translate so yeah.

Kisses hugs.

—Moonヽ(^‥^=ゞ). ミ★

Masterlist for other works!

[fantomette22]

GIRL HELP, now we are both in the club of people whose caring for Miquella reached its FULL form because of the DLC hfgfjgdbh I think what I've lacked this whole time was a coherent idea on what his imperfections and flaws were! Because "well you see Bewitching Branch is kinda fucked up concept" didn't give me enough. And I feel like I've struck gold with the whole thing of him not being able to accept Radahn's character development and nature as a warrior. It is soooooo wrong and reminded me of one of the ways to look at Gehrman.

It took me a few weeks but finally me 🤝 you at having the time of our fandom lives with Miquella now

I KNOW RIGHT?!?!?! Yeah it's quite crazy. We took our sweet time but here we are! 🤝

I mean maybe I wasn't way too much invest in elden ring because of the huge bloodborne brain rot taking all my time too 😂 But also Elden Ring is really a lot to digest! You and I really like details and to care about every lil guys! In Bloodborne even if there's lot of characters it stays limited while in Elden Ring it's just SO enormous O_O there's too much and yeah I didn't got that savage brain rot yet while just playing the game a year ago+

And I knew dlc was coming so I guess I didn't get too much invested either? Or at least it was inconsciently.

So yes during and after the dlc and after digesting everything I somehow really learn like Miquella! We know way more now and idk but it's even more interesting now!

Before dlc I saw him like : poor lil guy tried smt to become a god (pls don't it's gonna be bad) screw up really big time & he's dead now 😔 you tried your best... he was too good for this world rip

But now it's more develop! there's actually a following to that! he didn't just fail big time! for now😰

I said a few weeks ago I was gonna wait to finish the dlc and then speak about Miquella and what I think of everything. Well maybe I will do a separate post later but I think it's finally time.

So let's dive in (warning spoilers shadow of the Erdtree DLC)

I know it's a bit of mess between people thinking "I was right he's the ultimate evil!!! He's like Griffith!" (what 💀)"and people being very mad at other or distraught by it bc now this get shown into their face while they were just happy with Miquella being a kind lil guy, to good or pure for this world... I want to believe many people are actually very middle ground on this but hm yeah smt it's not good and quite extreme.

But if that can help (at least I will try here ) with everything we got I might have an interpretation that I hope, could help out a few people. I can't say I'm right, I'm probably far from it but I appreciate what I deduced and put together a lot! (in my head but still) It made me really like and invest more in Miquella character now! And it make me at peace with what the dlc brought to the table. I can accept that more well now. That made everything have more sense and made Miquella really have a bittersweet/tragic path & ending. And I am ok with that and I think others could be as well.

I like Miquella I think he was mostly good, the kindest between this darker lands. But he needed to changed, to grow to succeed in his goals right? Because he got stuck. But by growing up, discarding parts of himself to be a "better version" of himself that would succeed & become a god is what eventually doomed him in the end :

Miquella discarding part of himself tragedy.

This is just so sad and tragic. But it might be oblivious. He wasn't "strong enough" in his current position/eternal childhood etc So he probably thought that make the sacrifice to become a god would succeed in the end. A necessary sacrifice...that he would be stronger able to finally obtain his goals... But by doing that he loose everything that made him himself... without realising it... he abandoned everything. And the more he abandoned, the more he didn't realised he was loosing himself what he cared about... and how it was a mistake. (I suppose that Marika might have gone through the same thing now...)

Trina realised it at some point. That it was wrong,t hat it wouldn't work anyway perhaps. Is it really worth it? Is it really gonna work? Probably not... But it's too late to go back now. She knew Miquella before everything would probably not approve of what he became... of the dangerosity of what he could be...

That just... sorry it's just so tragic I don't know how to express it sadden me so much...

Bewitching people :

We already knew that he somehow "bewitch people" but it wasn't very explained in base game and really up to interpretations. Now we know more. And it sparks a lot of things...

I completely agree that you know, half mind control people and changed people thoughts and individuality, personality etc hm it's bad. it's no good to control masses. BUT but, I can kinda understand why Miquella did it! And I'm gonna try to explain that now.

Ok, imagine you're Miquella. You're trying to get people to join your cause. Of course like for exemple the crab hunter or farmer have other things to do than join your cause so sure you let them be. But then imagine you talk with smn and then they just hate you and is going to say shit to everyone about you and then they're gonna try kick your ass. Wouldn't it be better, even if that's bad on paper, to bewitching them? make allies your enemies?

You can't reason with some people at time even if you try everything, sadly. You can either go away or fight or ask a competent authority to stop them. But if you had a way for them to magically stop wanting to harm you and become more friendly / on your side wouldn't you use it?

Like it's bad but I can understand why Miq did it. But of course forcing people who were neutral bc you think "you're better" is hm... not great too... but it's not clear how much it happened and what went though he's mind. He probably thought it was a good thing. But no but can we blame him for trying to have better world?

And it's still not clear how his mind age but I do think he still have lot of quality/default of what any child mind have. He probably didn't see the wrong of everyone becoming allies and use kindness not violence to it. A child mind (mostly) is innocence, optimistic etc I do think he lost a lot by discarding parts but it has it's backsides. An adult would be more incline to find solution and act accordingly to treat but loose a lot of "childhood good sides" as well. it's quite complicated but nothing is perfect in this. You wanna agin smt you loose another you can't have everything and life's not black & white.

Also about Mogh. Yes he's not fuck up like that! But I understand why Miq bewitching him. Hm Mohg, maybe would have just kill Miquella to get his amazing blood for whatever purpose with the formless mother anyway. So of course Miquella did that to try to gain a potential ally that in other case is very dangerous for him. But still I think Miquella had to improvise after Mogh took him and then when the cocoon didn't work. Yeah I still think Mogh has a LOT of issues. He's not a saint and I don't think it went well with Miquella's plan to have been taken by him.

Radahn thoughts:

I mean I'm still a bit like : wu wut what but why??!!?!? confusion

But it's a bit better now XD I swear if the devs originally had another idea I'm gonna be mad! But it can maybe made a bit of sense. I don't really have much thoughts bc I'm still confuse about it but I think understand the point.

Radahn, when younger, was probably all the noble qualities that had Godfrey.

And Miq was probably like : When Godfrey was Elden Lord it was the golden age everything was great! Nothing was wrong! The lands between had stability. Radahn have the potentiel to be like Godfrey!

Also Radahn : Let's conquer and make war like lord Godrey!!!!!!!!!!!

I mean yeah everything was great between stability and war 😅 so jkefjf help like I can understand ou need smn to fight of ennemies just in case but Miquella that's not gonna work. Like at some point there's pb. Like who you consider anomy.. should you reprimand everyone?? Like Marika and her cycle of violence?! dzbkdsfbhkbhkld

Also I wonder if the great runes didn't made many demigods "change" as well. It gave them more power and maybe it screw their mind too. (And when Miquella great runes break the bewitching spells stop so..... before he got the runes maybe he never used that. And maybe that's why Radahn changed so much too) Power really does change people hm?

So anyway sorry idk if I succeed to organise everything coherently XD I tried. So yes I think Miquella is nuanced but was mostly good because of many conditions and he tried to fix everything but loses everything in the end... by discarding who he really was... a necessary sacrifice, that would ultimately fail...

I got very emotional after beating the final boss and going one last time to Trina. I really cried a lot. Because it's freaking sad. All the sacrifices in vain... they deserved so much but the world was cruel.

And even if we did nothing. What change? Nothing. He never came back in the lands between if we finish the main game. Did you abandoned everything Miquella? Did it not work out? Or like should we blame the poor devs. Idk it's very confusing now. The lands between still a mess, the lands of shadow too. He never came back...

The only ray of hope is us, the tarnished to try to make a better world for everyone. The one they couldn't make themselves...

(Ok so hope make sense 😅 and maybe it will put everything in a new light for people and give them a hand! I got way more invested and happy! Even if that's sad. I started to imaging little story and headcanons about his childhood I would never have before... it's confusing but if I am right the devs succeed! good job)

[the-wisteria-library]

I'm sad and idk why so the children are getting an Angst not-so-mini minific. :3

Little!Venti & CG!Diluc

Tw: alcohol consumption, PTSD, diaper usage, depictions of war, involuntary urination, thunder/lightening, medical padding

It's raining again, thunderstorming actually. And when there's thunder, there's lightening. And we all know what lightening is. Loud.

Venti was sitting at Angel Share like usual, but this time was different, Venti had already paid off his tab, and was staring at his last drink, watching the liquid in the cup as if it would move or something.

Venti was the only person still in the bar besides Diluc, it was late even for drinkers. But Venti wouldn't move. He couldn't. He knew the minute he lifted his head and saw that lightening it'd be all over.

Venti wasn't feeling the greatest you see, today hadn't been a bad day by any means, it was actually quite a good day on paper. But today......see today was Mondstat's Independence Day, and subsequently, the day The Nameless Bard had passed.

And Gods, Venti couldn't even look two feet in front of him without being reminded of him, the Barbatos statutes, the Cecilia blossoms, even the wind itself seemed to be a constant reminder of the friend he'd lost.

Venti couldn't help but wonder; what would he think of Mondstat today? Would he be proud? Or would he hate what the nation had become? Would he be proud of Venti himself?

Venti thought back to that fateful day all those years ago. The day that brought both tragedy and hope. Venti had watched many a friend fall, their cries of pain and agony as they were slaughtered one after another, the staining of red from endless rivers of innocent blood, bones bent in ways they never should of, insides now outsides and outsides ripped away, it was all still clear as day in his mind.

Venti paused, unsure of how to word his question. Would Diluc even understand?

But the worst was him. The Nameless Bard. Seeing him laying there, arrow after arrow stabbed through his small frame, blood oozing from countless wounds as his heart slowed to a painful stop, watching the light leave his eyes as they glazed a cold, empty grey. That was a sight no amount of liquor could dull.

Gods it was all too much. Venti wished he could forget. He didn't want to remember. He didn't want to be hunted by the past anymore. Everything felt too loud. Too close. Venti couldn't breathe, he squeezed his eyes shut, trying desperately to block out the noise. Oh how he hated thunder. He hated rain. He hated wind. He hated everything.

The thunder just seemed to get louder even when Venti covered his ears with his hands. Venti started bro tremble, his breathing unsteady and frantic. Venti didn't know what he was feeling, but he wished it'd just go away. He hated it. He hated it!

Venti was snapped from his panic when he felt someone's arms wrap around him tightly, pulling him into a warm embrace. Diluc. The redhead had noticed Venti's distress and came to comfort him. Venti's lips quivered, he didn't know what to do. What to say.

"D-Diluc...."

Venti stammered weakly, his voice cracking. Venti felt...wrong. Like his body was too big for his brain. The world felt heavy. Venti tried to speak, but his tongue failed him, the words in his brain refused to be vocalized. Venti just looked at Diluc, utterly lost.

"It's okay Venti, you're safe now, all that scary stuff can't hurt you. Not while I'm here."

Diluc's words were more comforting than Venti expected them to be, it was a simple sentence, one anyone could've said, but hearing from Diluc felt different. Like Diluc meant it and would follow through. Diluc would keep him safe.

Venti clung to Diluc tightly, burying his face in the redhead's shoulder. He didn't know what else to do. His brain felt far too mushy to form a coherent train of thought.

Diluc's scent filled Venti's senses, Grapes, Wine, Cologne, ash and smoke, and something uniquely Diluc. A scent that only he had. It was immensely soothing, easing Venti into an easier breathing pattern. The longer Venti stayed in Diluc's arms, the stronger that fuzzy feeling in his head got.

Absentmindedly, Venti's sleeve wandered to his mouth, the bards teeth chewed on the fabric. He wasn't fully why, but it felt like the correct thing to do.

"Let's get you home yea? I think we've had enough excitement for the day."

Diluc stood up, Venti in his arms, preparing to close the bar and head home. Unfortunately, going home meant going outside in the storm to walk back, which Venti was less than thrilled with. Venti teared up again, burying his face in Diluc's shoulder.

"No! I don wanna! It scawy....."

Venti wasn't sure why his words sounded so...infantile, but he was absolutely sure that he did not want to go out in that storm.

The walk home was.....less than ideal. Diluc had a crying, fussy baby squirming in his arms, a crying, fussy, squirmy baby with an adult sized body no less.

Eventually however, they did make it home. Diluc fished out his keys, turning the knob gently and pushing the door open, a burst of warm air rushing the two as they stepped inside.

Diluc gently pried the Bard off of him, placing Venti on the couch. Poor thing was nothing but pouts. Diluc couldn't blame him though, Venti is soaked.

"I think you might need a bath...."

Venti perked up a little at the mention of a bath. He liked baths, a lot. Venti was basically a bird in that regard.

"Baftime?"

Venti cooed, tilting his head like a confused puppy. Venti stood up, only to fall back onto the couch again. His legs didn't seem to be cooperating. Strange.

Diluc smiled a little, Venti was clearly regressed and he didn't even notice. This isn't Diluc's first time caregiving, so he definitely knows how to babysit.

"let's get you bathed little Wisp."

Diluc picked the rain-soaked Bard up, carrying him to the—thankfully heated—bathroom. Diluc had some bath-toys, which he let Venti pick from so he had a "bath buddy" of sorts. Once the bath was filled, and the temperature adjusted, Diluc added some bubble bath mixture, helped Venti out of his wet clothes, and plopped the lil guy in the tub.

Venti had a blast, splashing around and chirping happily, getting water everywhere. Eh, Diluc needed to mop anyways. Diluc tied his hair back, rolled up his sleeves, and grabbed the baby shampoo from the cabinet.

Why does Diluc have all of these things you may ask? Good question, Diluc's a flip! He also takes care of Kaeya, who's a flip with a little lean. Diluc takes care of most of Mondstat's Little's, even those with a "set" caregiver at times.

Diluc squirted some of the shampoo on his hand, rubbing them together to froth the soap before gently rubbing it into Venti's scalp. Venti whined, having to stay still for the hair-washing was interrupting his playtime!

Diluc rinsed the soap out and let the boy play, cleaning up the split water so the wooden floors didn't start to rot.

Once Venti had well and soaked the bathroom, Diluc drained the tub and wrapped a fluffy towel around the boy, lifting him out and gently padding his face dry.

"There we go, much better. Now, let's get a diaper on you, then I'll make you a nice warm bottle, would you like that?"

Venti squeals, far too little for actual words. A bottle did sound nice, he hadn't really eaten today. Venti lifted his arms up so Diluc could pick him up. Venti liked when Diluc held him, it made him feel safe.

Diluc laid the boy down on the table, fastening the changing tables safety straps over Venti's abdomen to keep him from wriggling off the table.

"Easy buddy, the more you wriggle, the longer it'll take."

Venti seemed to understand, pacifying his squirming and wriggling, which made Diluc's job 10X easier.

Diluc made quick work of the diaper change, wiping the bard clean, applying baby powder and fastening the diaper around Venti's waist before grabbing a onesie to slip the boy into. Venti wasn't a fan of pants, so this was the only way to make sure his butt stayed covered.

Diluc scooped Venti up, carrying him to the living room where a playmat was already laid out, some foam blocks and soft stuffed toys lay scattered about, eager to be played with.

"Toys!"

Venti cheered happily, reaching for the mat. Diluc giggled a little, setting the little tyke down. Diluc put a cartoon on for the boy for background noise while Venti occupied himself with a bunny plushie.

Venti had a blast playing pretend with his plushies, using his foam blocks to build towers, stacking them up high only to knock them down with a giggle and restart the cycle again.

While the lil man was preoccupied, Diluc slipped to the kitchen to make a snack; some meat and cheese cubes and fruit cut into little shapes, along with a sippy cup of Mango juice.

"Here baby, I made you a snack."

Diluc sat the plate down, picking up a meat chunk and offering it to the bard, who nearly bit Diluc's finger off to get the food. Lil man is hungry okay?

Venti was pretty tired after his meal, curling up on Diluc's lap with a sleepy coo. Diluc smiled, placing a hand atop the boy's head.

"Sleepy?"

Venti nodded, his thumb finding its way to his mouth.

"Am sleepies..."

Diluc chuckled, picking the baby up into his arms, bouncing him gently.

"okay, let's get you to bed."

Diluc turned off the TV, turning the lights off as he went. Diluc carried the bard upstairs, turning on the light to the nursery.

Diluc's nursery is rather cute, soft pastels and dim lighting, padded floors and rounded table edges. Wooden and foam toys lay scattered on the floor, crib loaded with plushies and blankets.

"Ready for bed pumpkin?"

Venti nods, half asleep already. Diluc placed the boy in the crib, grabbing a pacifier off the nightstand and offering it to Venti, who takes it with little hesitation.

Diluc places a few toys around the boy, ones he's sure Venti will enjoy; a soft bunny, a little Divalin plushie, and an Owl plush.

"Sweet dreams baby, I love you."

Diluc kisses the boy's head, pulls the blankets up to Venti's chin, dims the lights, and leaves the boy to sleep.

Venti might've had a scary past, but with Diluc, the future sure won't be.

[thefinalcinderella]

Tsurune Book 3 Afterword

Full list of translations here

Time for my unsolicited book review!

Tsurune Book 3 is one of the books of all time.

I'm not trying to be funny, that is my true opinion about this book.

I've said before that it feels like the author was forced to write this book in a hurry, and after finishing it, I can only say that those feelings have only grown stronger. I think the author was going for an abstract and spiritual feeling but it didn't really work out. It only made the story hard to follow, and the tendency for the novel to jump from topic to topic seemingly at random didn't help. It's probably super obvious in the author's head, but that doesn't matter if the reader can't follow their thinking. I really do question what the editors are doing because I'm not sure if they're giving the author proper feedback.

The novel also suffers from trying to do a lot but not doing any of it satisfactorily. It introduced a lot of new characters and plot points but never really did anything with them?? The new first-years faded out of the story after the beginning and idek what's going on with Kuon. As for the new school Haneina...the author just gave them one """quirky""" trait each and called it a day. It kinda happened with Tsujimine too but it was more subtle with them, and I think the central relationship of Nikaidou and Fuwa was compelling and well-written. Asahina and Eddie, on the other hand, are just really weird?? I honestly don't understand what their narrative role is supposed to be??

This might be a controversial opinion but I feel like the anime tells a more coherent, polished version of the story. I was rewatching it the other day and I was kind of blown away by how the visual quality improved between the seasons. S1 was definitely not bad looking but S2 is just *chef's kiss*. Idk if there's going be an S3 but it will be interesting to see how (or if) they adapt book 3

Anyways i don't want to say that book 3 is kinda pointless since it did give us some reveals (perhaps unnecessarily) but on the other hand...i feel like book 2 had a nice ending for the series as a whole as well? idk. if there is going to be a book 4, i hope it will be all about Kazemai hunting down Masa-san's bio dad

Thanks for following along with me! I know I've been really slow with this so im glad people are still interested haha

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This happened when I was reading a certain foreign novel’s translated version. As I was reading through the point of view of a character whose first-person pronoun was “私” (watashi), I came across a surprising description. To my surprise, the character I thought was a woman suddenly started to shave their beard. Later, I learned that there was an unspoken rule that men used “watashi” written in kanji, and women used “watashi” written in katakana.

Minato’s personal pronoun is “ore” in hiragana. It encompasses the meaning of “undifferentiated,” someone of unknown gender who is neither male or female, although his physical body is that of a boy. Nanao’s pronoun is “ore” written in katakana, a person of unknown nationality who can’t be classified as either Japanese or foreign, a person who wavers between the two, a hybrid existence that crosses that line. Takigawa Masaki is also someone who hovers between “human” and “not human,” so his name is written as “Masa-san” (マサさん) in the text. Shuu is also a character who is in between.

I’m attracted to such “fluctuating” and “swaying” things. Things that can’t fixed or distinguished in form or state, as changeable as “water.” Kaleidoscopic freedom and loneliness are two sides of the same coin. People who fluctuate cannot stay in one place, and instability follows. Because they can’t be classified, they do not belong anywhere, nor can they be emphasized with. I wanted to somehow hold back those who can’t stop walking. I wrote this story because I wanted them by my side.

Changing the topic, I was on my way home from a domestic trip. After spending a relaxing time listening to the chirping of birds on an isolated island, I heard a large explosion sound when I got off at a certain station in Tokyo. The warning signal of a train entering the station continued to sound, and announcements reverberated from all over. I forgot to bring my earphones, so I was unable to plug my ears and ran all the way to the edge of the platform. Glowing neon lights reflected diffusely, and the words on billboards and other signs crowded in my field of vision like a herd of horses. I almost thought that I had time travelled back to wartime. We had become so accustomed to the flood of sound, light, and text that we don’t realize we’re on the verge of drowning.

Tsurune is the story of masters and disciples and bow friends with the theme of rebirth, and it began as the story of seven archers. The theme of Volume 3 is “Meigen, that is the sound of the dawn,” and I wrote about shari kenshou (seeing true nature through the shot).

I would like to express my sincere gratitude to everyone involved in the making of this book: Koyama Kyugu-sama, who I’ve interviewed, T-sama of the KA Esuma Bunko Editorial Department, Kyoto Animation-sama who was in charge of illustrations, the proofreaders, the novel’s official website, the printing company, and the distributors. The letters I’ve received are my treasures, and I have displayed them in my tokonoma alcove. I would like to thank my beloved kyudo teachers and bow friends, my precious friends, and my supportive family.

Last but not least, I would like to express my deepest gratitude to all the readers who have read this far.

I hope for the day when the beautiful tsurune of the archers will resound.

Ayano Kotoko

Spring 2022

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[jade-of-mourning]

You don't know how glad I am you like my fem!Mako asks! Thank you for encouraging me. Fem!Mako renaissnse 2025 must begin!! Real! Also I totally agree about larger TLOK fandom being exhausting, it's still better than ATLA fandom somehow...

Now for my "Mako's storyline would work better if he was a girl" take. I'll try my best to explain. I don't disagree that it works fine as is, and looking at some story points through female lens could be enough, but in practice there are some issues. Applying female character's tropes to male ones allows to look at a character from a different perspective at least. This practice also usually makes such characters get better writing and they're better recieved by the audience compared to female characters using the same tropes (yay for misoginy?). But for Mako this doesn't work. Because a lot of b1-2 revolves around the infamous love triangle, Mako's protective tendencies can easily be seen not as something left from his backstory (the correct interpretation, but you need to think about it for more than 5 minutes), but as him fulfilling a patriarchal role. All this despite him taking a pretty passive role in the romantic plotline. A lot of TLOK's romances fall back into generic m/f tropes. idk it's pretty weird.

Take this with a grain of salt, but it also seems like the writers started to humiliate Mako as a man (? not sure how to explain it better) from b2 onward. I understand his coworkers making fun of him and stuff, but it's hard to believe that Lin Beifong, who almost definitely got Mako this job, wouldn't take him seriously. Then the whole bodyguard thing in b4, it kind of feels "no real job for you. go ahead and babysit a dude your age, as a patience test". And don't get me started on Remembrances ep with our first 100% mischaracterisation and entire Mako's story revolving around romance for some reason. It's just so unfulfilling narratively for Mako's character, they literally got him to resolve the mystery of his parents' murder in comic form almost 12 years later. There's also writer's commentary on Mako's taking the mech down near the finale that said something similar to "hope him saving Republic city as he almost dies makes up for the love triangle" which is ???

Of course, a lot of these problems could be resolved by removing the love triangle or actually writing it properly. But seeing the fandom's divided reaction to him just makes me think that him being male simply distracts from his backstory, personality traits and issues (especially parentification) and dynamics with other characters (like how Masami would be 1000 times more interesting if Mako was a woman).

Hope this was coherent! I'll gladly elaborate on anything here if needed. I don't mean to sound so self-deprecating, I just spent too long writing this and now my words don't seem real...

Hello again, and thank you for your very thoughtful ask! Don’t worry; you’re very cohesive. I've decided to adopt the Serious Person Capitalization And Grammar™ for this lengthy response, because this is a very interesting subject that I've wanted to write about for a long time but haven't really had the proper motivation to do so until now. Again, thank you for this opportunity to dissect What The Fuck is going on with Mako in LOK. I admit I’m going to go on some mild tangents in this post because I not only want to interact with reading Mako through a female lens, but also have a lot of things to say about Mako all the time. However, I will make sure to touch on all the points that you did cover in this ask! It's over 2.3k so I'm going to just stick it under a cut.

Let’s start with the first half of your ask: female tropes being applied to Mako, a male character, and how effectively they’re conveyed/actively detrimentally they are written. I know since you sent this ask you’ve obviously already thought about much of this, but I just want to lay some points down because I think about it a lot.

Consider the love triangle. While I’ve seen people argue that having two girls interested in one guy is less conventional in teen media, I don’t really consider that to be sufficient enough for relevance. What interests me in regards to gender is specifically Mako and Asami’s relationship (— which, tangentially, I could talk about extensively in the context of Book 1 for their potential that was never meaningfully interacted with by the narrative, something that is an extremely common theme through LOK’s surface level skimming with class and political ideologies that never actually evolves into any kind of social commentary. You guys were so close, Bryke). The fact that Mako is financially dependent on Asami is very striking to me; both in real life and in fiction, it’s not uncommon for women to remain in unfulfilling/bad relationships due to financial dependence, and particularly in fiction, I feel like I’ve never actually seen that position relegated to a male character. (I don’t mean to imply that Masami was an inherently unfulfilling relationship, but rather that regardless of Mako’s comparative affections for Korra, in order to stay in the running for the tournament they needed the Satos’ financial support, and that tournament was both his and Bolin’s livelihoods. Asami, who is ridiculously nice, is probably the only person ever who would continue to support her ex, but Mako has no reason to hold conviction about that during their three-ish week relationship.) As Mako himself says rather callously in The Spirit of Competition, he likes Korra, but “it makes more sense to be with Asami”.

I suppose this is also the first point where you can argue he’d garner more sympathy as a female character, or more accurately, less backlash. As you said, if one thinks about it for all of two seconds, it makes sense from a backstory standpoint as to why he’s viewing Korra and Asami in such an uncomfortably pragmatic way, but it easily comes off as a very objectifying statement, even in context. Similarly, as you say, due to him being a guy, his protective nature can be read very much as him trying to fulfill obligatory Strong Boyfriend duties when, again as you say, it’s because of his and Bolin’s backstory from the streets (— which I’m still shaking my fist at Bryke about the lack thereof, but I’ll talk about that a little bit later on). I would argue that these writing choices under the context of Mako being a male character are thus framed to be more actively misleading than if Mako were a female character. These two instances are both inherently positioned in a way that can easily be attributed to his male-ness, and the narrative doesn’t go out of its way to suggest otherwise (read: expand on backstory). These two instances are also immediately far more forgiveable to the viewer’s eye if Mako were a female character. Having to choose between a fulfilling relationship and financial stability — that’s not an uncommon female experience! Being a protective girl — that’s just how she is, and there’s no possibility that it could have to do with toxic masculinity!

I think I understand where you’re coming from and I don’t think you’re wrong that there are issues in this execution, because the writers fails to explore this sort of gender reversal in a meaningful capacity and instead cultivates an inherent dislike towards Mako. Bryke failed in an almost insulting way when it comes to engaging with Mako’s flaws, because hey, I almost thought he was supposed to be the deuteragonist? (Note that I think the problems with Mako’s writing runs deeper than being resolved by a gender switch, because there’s still no direct engagement with the intersectionality of backstory, class, and race in a story that is so oversaturated with high-status, rich and familiar names while trying to address the validity of various radical political ideologies, but I’ll can it for another day.) (I also think Bryke failed Bolin, though less egregiously in some aspects and more in others. The Bending Bros really can’t afford anything, not even a satisfying narrative. Alas, being poor.)

(Speedrun for more surface-level femininity of Mako that may make me look like all I do in my spare time is stereotype women — he gets kissed by the pursuing protagonist despite expressing uncertainty; he sits and stands like a girl frankly; Eldest Daughter Syndrome; the Goddamned Crop Top and the long coat guys have you seen all those 2012 LOK memeposts about Mako’s fashion?)

I hope I correctly interpreted what you were saying, and addressed it within my rambling! I'm not sure I got everything, so let me know if there’s anything you want me to elaborate on further. Let’s move onto the second half of your ask about Mako’s regression in the plot.

I vehemently agree with you that the writers definitely backpedaled and heavily reduced Mako as a character and, I guess, his dignity and importance after Season 2. I also struggle to articulate that exactly. The writers shifted the focus away from the Krew and towards the expanded cast of characters, a choice that I feel makes almost everyone but Korra fall flat. I actually think there’s at least some intersectionality of this with the idea of Mako as a female character, because I’m a dumbass who latched onto the fact that he “dated the main character then faded into obscurity and never lived up to his potential” [x], but I don’t really have anything meaningful to say about it so I won’t go on. I’m very tempted to do a speedrun on how the fandom treats Mako and how closely it resembles how many fandoms treat many female characters, because it’s so fascinating.

Admittedly, I’ll overlook Book 2. It’s a mess for everyone and the police have to be insultingly incompetent in order for the plot they tried to pull with Mako to work in any capacity, and that includes Lin Beifong. I think the writers were still trying to write Mako seriously, even if Book 2 was not very successful. (One day I’ll talk about Book 2, after one day I talk about Book 1, because there’s something there if you squint sideways and hang blue curtains I swear.) I’m about to get to Book 4 in my rewatch, having actually just finished Book 3 last night. But I do know that Book 4 disappoints me as a Mako fan, even if I enjoy most of it as a Korra fan. In all honesty, I don’t really like Wu and feel like there’s some degradation in Mako being a bodyguard, but I also have to admit that this dislike translating into the job being an indignity isn’t the most rational, therefore I won’t talk about it too much. I suppose there are in-universe reasons that enables this plotline to happen that I actually am more convinced by than narrative reasons. (There are many valid readings on how his interactions with Wu do actually contribute to show his character growth and I respect them, but unfortunately I’m not a blog that talks about those readings.) It’s whatever. I agree with you that Book 4 is just a slog when it comes to what they did with Mako and that for the vast majority of his already limited screentime, it wasn’t relative to any kind of narrative growth. I enjoyed Mako’s role in both Beyond the Wilds and The Last Stand and felt that both did contribute to his storyline, but his involvement in the book as a whole was so minimal and removed.

Remembrances, though — that makes me mad. The episode pulled some absolute bullshit in regards to Mako. You see, I’m almost willing to forgive Bryke for not explicitly going into depth regarding Mako and Bolin’s backstory, because I think you can extrapolate a lot about it if you overanalyze how they act in the present, coins of details, and in other hints throughout the narrative. (For the latter, I would like to argue that you can understand something about their childhood through Amon and Tarrlok’s childhood, but I digress because I still haven’t thought that one through. That’s for another day.) (And also, you can pull a lot just knowing how Industrial Age poverty and homelessness treated child orphans, and knowing that Bryke explicitly pulled Dickensian influences when conceiving the pair of them, and also knowing that only the Triple Threats gang would’ve taken them in as mixed kids. I digress once again.) Backstories don’t need to be spoonfed as flashbacks to the audience to understand that they’ve influence how characters make decisions and participate in their interpersonal relationships… not that Bryke made much of an effort to facilitate an understanding of Mako and Bolin without, which is a critical error and means that my statements about backstory somewhat irrelevant. But clearly with Remembrances, either Bryke doesn’t actually understand their own character, or they bent so far over backwards to try to appease the netizens who were still fuming at the mouth over this mildly socially inept streetrat orphan boy that their attempt to salvage the widespread fan perception of him involved inventing a genuinely baffling “motivation” of “money and fame” — which not only failed to make him more sympathetic, but actually contrived to make him out to look like far more of a jerk that he never was if you considered the actual reasoning behind his actions in the love triangle, and further undercut his character growth (that DOES exist [x] oh my god guys Mako subtly but meaningfully did grow as a person but whatever he’s not the Avatar and he’s not rich so why look below the surface sorry I’m not salty). Also, I’ve never listened to the writer’s commentary, but suggesting that Mako needed to almost die in order to “redeem” himself for the love triangle is actually batshit insane. I wouldn’t put it completely off the table to say that Mako himself may believe that he still needs to redeem himself because he’s probably prone to take on moral culpability for things that aren’t his fault (eg. this is how I personally read his position in the police force), but for the writers to say that from a meta standpoint is so maddeningly out of the left field.

Having addressed the majority of the ask, let’s go back to the main point about Mako’s gender. I think you’re right that him being male does distract subtle dynamics that exist to his character, but I do stand by saying it lands more definitively on LOK’s writing of the character as a whole rather than his masculinity. I appreciate you opening my eyes to this argument — I definitely had to recalibrate some of my own thoughts! Ultimately, I would personally still argue that the problems with Mako's storyline in LOK lies more in Bryke’s failure to follow through on meaningful exploration of his flaws and backstory guiding the viewer’s poor perception of him, and how Bryke attempted to overcorrect, rather than him not being female. I believe that the narrative written for him ends up being very similar to a lot of female characters’, and that as a result he received a curious “reverse-misogyny” from the fandom that I don’t necessarily think would be remedied by him being a girl (— though I do think there would be a greater number of female Mako sympathizers in the year of 2025). I absolutely think your take is a very valid and interesting one that I now have a better understanding of, though. And I think it's clear that my perspective regarding Mako's gender in the context of canon and the show isn't actually influencing my interest in fem!Mako, because I like her very much, and also I’m gay.

Again — I hope that I’ve answered your ask, and if not, feel free to send more and ask further! In fact, I want you to send more because I’m lonely in my LOK kick and I really like talking about Mako instead of going insane in the recesses of my empty Discord server that I keep to organize my thoughts in. I apologize for my extreme and copious tangents because I can’t think straight; I just got out of school for the year. I kind of want to write a semi-cohesive essay now. Also, I’m intrigued by you suggesting Masami would be more interesting with fem!Mako. Do tell?

(The LOK fandom scares me and even so, I can’t get off of Reddit despite its godawful takes. I think I need an echo chamber Discord server with like three other people because that would finally make me stop scrolling, but also, I like to believe that my extensive and continuous exposure to dubious takes I find to be extremely terrible alongside my general conviction about Mako Has Mostly Never Done Anything Wrong and Korra Is The Greatest And Has Also Mostly Never Done Anything Wrong allows me a perspective that’s not too flat. I’m coping and should probably just write more fanfiction to sate my grievances and stay off the rest of the internet.)

[kolic]

i'm not sure how your grammar works / worked historically, but would your Þ/L distinction come from some sorta demonstrative, adjective, classifier? something like, distal /la/ and proximal /þa/ affix onto stuff (so like, "haja" "place" -> "lahaja" "that place", "þahaja" "this place"), followed by whatever grammaticalisation into the modern "laja" and "þaja"

with this pathway it would be something applied productively to any stuff that's useful to mark for this (and would be applied retroactively also once you've got it existed), so that amount of consistency would be p realistic

i'm not sure how it would explain forms where it doesn't occur word initially (ýþ, ýl), something something analogy? flexible historic word order?

idk, i'm not tryna suggest things here, just curious about your clong's history :3 <3

Thank you so much for asking!

The real answer is that I unfortunately have no idea how it came to be and just made it up based on vibes and put a big "rework later when i have the history figured out" sticker on it. Sorry

That being said, flexible word order might very well be the culprit here if I try to reconstruct how it may have came to be (based on the limited resources I actually have made up about the language).

I know that historically, adjectives (and other modifiers filling a similar function) went before the noun they modified (word order was still flexible but that was the default). This can be seen at present in compound words which I haven't yet talked about on this blog - which put a historical -u suffix on the modifying noun, and prefix it before the modified noun (so for example, a doghouse would be "orðukyfð" from "örði" meaning dog and "kyfð" meaning house). But at some point, this word order swapped somehow (I don't know the mechanism but I've been told that it's certainly possible), and now adjectives (and words functioning similarly) go after nouns (so while a doghouse is still "orðukyfð," "a dog's house" would be "kyfð örðin").

Why did I bring this up? Honestly I don't really know, it's midnight so my mind isn't the clearest, but it might somehow tie to the demonstratives "this" and "that" having the characteristic phoneme at the end, while the others have it at the beginning. Maybe something along the lines of "ýþ + ha" being "this place," "ýl + ha" beaing "that place," etc etc, and the ý eventually dropping? That at least sounds plausible on the surface level to my midnight brain lol

(obv. it wouldn't be the exact modern form, if i were to spitball without any further historical evidence i'd say it might've been like. yþ and yl, because i know that <y> represents a sound that used to be much more central and in my uninformed view maybe more likely to be dropped? With the standalone versions later undergoing lengthening to compensate for this very fact)

But unfortunately I can't say anything for sure right now because I don't yet have a coherent system of phonological changes outside of some vowel shifts that i made for the i-umlaut. This is unfortunately an area that I haven't really developed much in Kolic yet, and that I also don't have much experience in or knowledge about yet, but I am definitely going to look more into it in the future and try to make things a bit more realistic :D

And thank you so much for asking! I am always hoping for questions on this blog so that I have some extra motivation to develop something that I otherwise might not have even thought about! And thanks for the tips as well, they are very helpful!

[minquiec]

Some lore stuffs + how her story ends

This is kinda all over the place bc I don't have a coherent idea but I just need to write it all down before I forget

How Jia was bit was on a hot ass day and she basically fell asleep on a spider and gained powers unknowingly

Doesn't find out for maybe a week

Has a weird dream one night where she basically meets a deity in her dream and the exchange was literally like

"You, Jialin Chen, now bear the powers to protect this la-"

"Uhm yea no thanks, pass 😬"

"WHAT?"

And then a comedic exchange occurs between mortal and god haha! Until the deity was like ENOUGH this is your DESTINY you will bear it whether you like it or NOT 👹 so Jia's kinda like alright fine damn 🙄 but obviously we all know how she really feels abt the whole situation (she hates it bc of issues) but anyways

The reason why it took a whole week is cause uhmmm plot hole lelel or smth the deity can't actually interfere directly with the world

EITHER WAY this is basically spoilers for endgame but it's not like I'll ever make a coherent plot bc I'm too lazy and dum but basically

The deity of Jia's universe is border on obsessive with creating a story line and destiny and heroes and stuff like that and ofc it has to be perfect (bc ofc it has to be, totally not cliche or anything)

Anyways this obsession makes them interfere TOO much with Jia's universe because if the deity was never this obsessed

Jia probably would've gotten over her issues (bc she's meets someone to help her copeeee 😋😋 cougjocughcgpuccough)

But bc the deity is an unreasonable shithead, they're literally the root of every problem:

They're responsible for Jia's split soul because of how abrupt her duties were suddenly forced on her

Bc of the split soul problem, it nearly upsets the world balance that could've been very bad for the universe! (the day she had lost the plot and had a existential crisis breakdown I think I posted it here but basically on that day she was flickering between both before Lin took control)

-> the logic is rlly,,, idk nonsensical for this bc what I thought as world making is that you can't have two souls in control at once and it goes again natural laws so it nearly ficked up her world cause it AINT SUPOSE TO HAPPEN ITS NEVA SUPOSE TO HAPPENNN but moving on

So then Lin switches in place of Jia and the world balance is briefly restored YAYY 🎉 everything is fine‼️

❌ WRONG ❌

Cause now Lin went and 'broke up' (idk it wasn't rlly a break up bc she never said 'lets break up' but she kinda did go 'we aren't meant for each other 🖕' and dipped) with hb so NOW HES GOING THRU IT and the rest of her friends back at spider society are like ???? What the??? Fuck???

Lin does manage to spend a few days or more at the hq cause technically she is still Jia but just

Different

But everyone's kinda weirded out cause she's Serious™ now and even Miguel's kinda like wattafack 🧍 plus the fact she has long white hair that spawned out of nowhere so they kinda piece some form of logic together that she's a different Jia

Anyways some time passes and one day an especially big anomaly is warned abt in Jia's (still Lin) universe which is bizarre cause they're not usually this big but it's all because of that STOOPID FUKASS deity GOING AROUND FUKIN THINGS UP and somehow created this ridiculously bad threat as a 'enemy' for the 'hero of their story' to defeat

The biggest problem with the anomaly is that while it doesn't really like, belong in Jia's universe, it doesn't belong in any OTHER universe either BECAUSE THAT DEITY BOUGHT IT UP OUTTA NOWHERE BC THEYRE PSYCHO I need to stop hating on characters that I literally made anyways

So HQ can't exactly deal with it like they usually do but they can try to offer assistance at least

Obviously for obvious (cliche) reasons CERTAIN PEOPLE are gonna be there cause yknow they still care abt Jia even tho she's changed (to Lin momentarily)

Battle occurs blah blah I'm not good with action scenes and things are looking a littttlee bleak for Lin and Co and all the sudden Lin receives a bad injury that nearly knocks her unconscious but thru her ringing ears and muted background noise she hears SOMEBODDYYY CALLING HER NAAMMEEE (god I really wonder who)

Because her state of unclarity from the Blunt Force Head Trauma makes things a little weird, the fine line between Jia and Lin also becomes a little muddled and the Jia that's been hiding behind Lin can hear his voice and it quite literally brings her out of that dark room in her mind to control again so TLDR Jia is back again instead of Lin

Reunion happens for maybe 3 minutes tops before shit hits the fan again and suddenly the deity has teared through time space fabric out of anger to speak directly to them mortal little earthlings on the ground because they're a little bitch

All because they thought Lin was the true protagonist they've been searching for all along and now 'that insolent fool' (hobie) has ruined everything (he does no wrong)'

But suddenly because the deity is in direct contact with the mortal world, they're like wait 🤨 you're not from this universe and sees other things also not from this universe and goes on a tangent about how they don't need to rebuild a 'story' anymore and can just find another 'story' to pilot (TLDR AGAIN: local deity discovers universe theft and wants to ditch this universe cause Jia's spiderman story wasn't perfect and now wants to find another universe to force to become their 'perfect story')

Obviously spider people are like 😨😨😨 UHMMM NO TF UR NOTTT so they start retreating (as they should tbh) and Jia's like helping to round up people to gtfo of her universe before some batshit deity absorbs them or smth

Atp bits of her universe is already crumbling and disintegrating because the deity is already trashing it because it's worthless and imperfect now (ngl me when art 😭😭)

So now it's the last of the people to go back thru the portals and its Jia and Hb :)) (y'all should know what's coming next)

Truthfully, Jia wants to so so badly go thru the portal to stay with the rest of them but she knows that there was the possibility of her connection with the deity of her world and her as a creation from the said deity

So she says goodbyes

Pushes him thru

And throws in her watch before it closes properly so the FUCK ASS DEITY CANT GET ANY KIND OF CONNECTION TO THE MULTIVERSE

And thus it concludes her coming of age plot because she found the proper courage to do what was right in all senses and came to terms with her spider girl identity

Even though she had so much she wanted to do with the rest of them was what she had thought while the thread of her universe on the multiverse crumbled into nothingness

ANYWAYS THE REAL CONCLUSION IS THE DEITY IS THE REAL ANOMALY THEIR OBSESSION DROVE THEM INTO AN ANOMALY AND INTERFERING WITH THE LIVING WORLD but thats kinda what happens when you've been living for centuries, you kinda go a little nuts

Anyways thanks for this long and incredibly messy read, don't kill me ✌️ peaces

[lilunaire]

I'm dying for any ghostflower TWBOS content you have

Can u give us any teaser 🥺 pretty please?

(If it's not too inconvenient off)

TEASER 8 - CH.9 TIL WE BURN OUR SKINS

Hi anon, sorry for answering so late !!

Dont worry, I got your back now 😎 And since I'm so late against, here's two teaser for chapter 9 !

(side note : im so happy to have an ask you can't imagine-)

(teasers below the line)

Teaser 1

Four depressed teenage girls in their pajamas on a bed and a huge tub of ice cream.

They're watching a movie on Webflix, a movie that Margo chose ("It's not so bad," she told them.) And that was perfect, because at the moment, it was an average movie that they needed to watch. With this, they could continue talking while paying a little attention to what was going on.

It's hot in Mumbattan. The three guests each brought a fan, but it wasn't enough. Gwen didn't know she would need a seventy-centimeter-high pot of ice cream in her life until Margo told her it existed on her Earth.

Drowning your sorrows in ice cream, that's the ideal solution!

And by sticking your hands on it, you could be sure of being cooled off.

Gwen also had to admit that she'd seen… better than that. It was a film aimed at young adults (and to be completely honest, female young adults), very cliché and sometimes lame. Fortunately, the two main actors came to save the shaky scenario.

“Margo, I thought you said it was a good movie… Peni whined.

— Actually, I said “not so bad”.

— That’s not the word I would have used to describe it…”

“So, about your parents? Gayatri asked. How's it going?

— Still through divorce, but there's progress! If lawyers are right, just another month and it will finally be behind!"

With the divorce, Margo was already planning a lot of things: for starters, she will finally be able to invite her friends to her dimension without having to hide all the details of their visit. But also organize parties: Margo had parties in her soul.

Her mother was often away for work, and she intended to take advantage of it.

“Cool, I’ll come to squat more then, replied Gwen.

— Only if you bring cakes, it’s not open bar here.

— Deal."

Teaser 2 / CW : Implied nudity

Satisfied with her work, she comes to join him in the bathtub. He, in the meantime, had managed (with great difficulty) to sit down in the water. She comes to settle in too, pressing her back against the wall, which is still a little cold despite the scalding water.

When she opens her arms, Miles understands the message and comes to stick to her, letting her surround his body with her arms. He doesn't need to be asked to put his head back where it was earlier, that is to say against her neck, and once again inhales the comforting smell of peaches.

She lets her hands absently caress his chest and back, rubbing the bath suds onto his skin. He hums in pleasure and contentment, pressing himself deeper into her.

He knows he shouldn't. He had spent the last few hours trying to convince himself that he absolutely had to end this twisted relationship with her before it was too late.

But the feeling of her body against his acted like morphine, and he was addicted to it. He wants this moment to never end. He hears Gwen in the distance asking him if he wants her to wash his hair: that was probably a bad idea given the time. He would probably fall asleep with wet hair, and his mother would go crazy if she saw him do that, especially at this time of year.

But the “yes,” leaves his mouth before he can even form that coherent thought. She makes him to stand up so she can access his shampoos, and grabs the shower head, making sure to lower the water temperature to rinse his hair.

He closes his eyes, and he feels like he's falling asleep almost immediately. But he stays awake just so he doesn't miss what happens next.

IMPORTANT NOTE : hey people who actually speak english unlike me, would you mind helping me ? In Teaser number 1, i said "Four depressed teenage girls". So idk if it's okay in english, but since it doesn't work in french it makes me confused. I don't mean to say that they have depression, just that they're all in a bad mood (but i can't really write that you know ?). But everytime I try to translate it on internet, they all give me "depress". So if anyone can help me on this 🙏

[bisluthq]

So I'm a cynical bitch who wouldn't be surprised by anyone in Hollywood being abusive in some form, no matter their gender, sexuality, race, etc etc etc. but this is the first time I'm doing some sort of double take because Ive been following Justin for like 7 years and he's done so much about toxic masculinity and talked about his own body image issues, etc. I think you nailed it that Blake and Ryan tried to label him abusive was a mistake because they went for the jugular and now hes fighting back.

But also.... And sorry if it's been said,I've been offline for a week.... This is giving me deja vu of joever and Taylor getting dinner and then her friends unfollowing Joe lol. And at the time so many people thought big shit must have gone down and Joe must-have cheated for his bro buddy Ryan to unfollow....just to find out Taylor was cheating in some capacity on him with Matty and Joe didn't actually "do" anything (which is why they broke up lmao). And casual listeners were SO MAD to learn Joe did nothing wrong (simplifying this all of course) and thehaters were even more pissed that someone as powerful as Taylor did him dirty even without saying anything, but just by the mass unfollowing..... And Blake and Ryan's proximity to Taylor and her getting a lot more hate since the release of TTPD and being everywhere online.... Idk I have a lot of thoughts in the air and can't find coherence lmao but I feel like Blake is losing any credibility that he was an abusive partner, I can't believe this was used to launch her fucking shampoo line, why the fuck would Justin hire the same people as Johnny Depp when there are other capable teams who can handle a crisis like this?!?!

Conclusion: they are all incredibly stupid for how they're handling literally everything about this lmao and I hope no one was actually traumatized on this set

Agree but idk if there is anyone more capable to handle this crisis though dude. All crisis PR teams work with terrible fucking people (Justin doesn’t seem that bad but he was up against a very powerful attacker so idk that he should’ve been trying to wing it or that a regular publicist can do a good enough job). It wouldn’t matter which crisis PR firm he hired, they’d all have worked on something nasty in the past. And fwiw his team is doing a HELL of a good job “clearing his name” so 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️ I’m not sure I can blame him for that. He didn’t hire Johnny for his next project, which would’ve been really hypocritical - he hired the women led team that helped to protect Johnny’s reputation. Their job helping Justin is easier lol than it was helping Johnny but they managed the latter so they can def manage the former.

idk man I think Blake and Ryan underestimated Justin and I do think he’s entitled to fight back on this. Especially since we know he TRIED to take the high road and ignore it and praised Blake repeatedly and even said she should take charge of the sequel only for the Reynolds side to straight up drop the (totally unsubstantiated and very vague) abuse allegations. Like I think once those articles dropped, Justin was like “fuck these people” and is determined af to fight back. So far he and his team are doing a great job of that and have the Reynolds side on the back foot and posting about DV all of a sudden (which is kinda too little too late but yeah).