#id love to stay in UK for a while

[sainz]

lets talk about how much it sucks when your best friends move to another city

[faaun]

ok let's catch up quickly

[a-court-of-moonlight-and-ire]

Not to be overly morbid, but do yall ever think about suicide in prythian? Personally, i think killing yourself would be pretty common. I mean, it has to be given how few old people seem to exist in this world even though fae (or atleast high-fae) seem to insanely powerful and difficult to kill

And I dont think its because living in prythian sucks THAT much or even because being immortal is THAT bad, i mean arguably the biggest issue with immortality would be to watch all your loved ones die and thats not something that sjm's fae have to deal with. I think its moreso a thing of people just kinda getting tired of living after a few centuries and being like "welp. ive experienced pretty much everything, time to explore the world beyond" yknow. Thats why I think Velaris would have a pretty high suicide rate, because if youre stuck in a city thats presumably completely stagnant and never changes because its already perfect, youre going to run out of new enjoyable things to do wayyyy more quickly and get tired of your existence. It would also explain how this city full of immortals that can never leave but can reproduce hasnt already collapsed under the weight of overpopulation after over 5000 years

One idea that i like because it could make for some poignant commentary is that suicide rates are really high among faeries because theyre a lot more likely to live in poverty and its really hard to escape poverty and its really fucking miserable so after a few decades most of them decide they dont wanna live like that, and its gotten to the point where the high fae think they just naturally have shorter lifespans for some biological reason when they can actually live just as long as high fae, its just that they take poison or some shit to die in their sleep or something idk. Maybe thats a little very dark for acotar, but then again, sjm is constantly throwing around domestic violence and abuse and rape in this series so

I think suicide rates among high lords would be pretty high as well because I imagine their lives are pretty monotonous and tiring because of their responsibilities and because its not like they can leave prythian for an extended period of time to experience some new things or have some fun adventures, theyre tied to their court geographically. And god, can you imagine what would happen if theres a crisis. Yknow how a while ago the UK went through like 5 prime ministers in two weeks because of some bullshit that was happening? Imagine that but its just all these newly-chosen high lords killing themselves because they cant handle their court for some reason. I actually have a theory that thats what happened in the night court because theres this weird little throaway line where they say like, Mor's family used to be the ruling family but then the highlord power somehow got transferred to Rhys' family and its been driving me insane because WHAT do mean by that??? So basically, I think there was a time when Mor's highlord-chosen ancestors kept killing themselves for one reason or another, none of them wanted to be highlord and the magic of the land kept reaching out further and further until it landed on like, Rhysand's great-granddad who was only distantly related to Mor's ancestors and the ruling line just continued from there

Anyway, Id like to end this post on a more positive note and talk about the demographic that I think is the least likely to kill themselves, and thats the youngest children of noble families with multiple children. As ive said, im mostly basing this off of any given fae's ability to have a lot of new experiences to keep their lives from becoming monotonous and tiresome (combined with their material circumstances) and I think the youngest children of nobles hit the sweet spot of being pretty wealthy and not needing to do a lot of hard labour that would take up their time while also not being tied down by responsibilities that would force them to stay in one place. (Unless its a family of all girls and the youngest is their only son ig because as of acomaf, prythian is super patriarchal but i try not to think abt that ngl)

[hiddleswiftt]

request from @luna2034: Please write more things for Jonah! I really loved this headcanon! Also I was wondering if you could do a part 2?

of course!! id love to!! :)

if jonah hauer-king was your boyfriend! - part 2 (headcannons)

- while it’s movie night, he always keeps a arm around your waist to protect you. (especially during a horror movie - he knows how scared you get, sometimes it’s you protecting him!)

- he invites you to his premieres (if you’re an actress - anti shifters dni!!), and he comes to yours!

- Jonah (he knows he shouldn’t and you tell him not to) always brings a souvenir back from set or press if you’re not there with him.

- he’s definitely become a swiftie (or whatever you listen to) though you. you two are always singing in the car.

- you always persuade him to sing karaoke at a pub when the two of you are in the uk. or even to dance with him, which he’s actually pretty good at!

- tickle fights are CONSTANT. (good fights)

- it’s always fluff between you too. pure romance and fluff.

- when you’re ill, he stays off from work to look after you. even when you say not to.

- his parents love you. your parents love him. they both think you two are absolutely inseparable.

- his work friends are your friends. your work friends are his friends. simple as that!

- you two get a dog together. or a cat (whatever is your liking! Jonah doesn’t mind either way, as long as you are happy).

- you’re always there for casting calls and auditions. he’s always there for you in those things too! (if you’re an actor/actress - anti shifters dni!)

please don’t copy my work! <3

(let me know what you think of this fic by giving this post a like, follow and a comment!)

— h4uerkings

[i-am-the-oyster]

Accessing the Stowe School Recording

What is the Stowe School Recording?

On the 4th of April 1963 (two weeks after the release of Please Please Me) the Beatles played a gig at Stowe School in Buckinghamshire. One of the students present (John Bloomfield) recorded the gig, and recently rediscovered that recording. He donated it to the British Library, which means anyone can go and listen to it (see below for details).

Is it worth it?

Obviously your mileage may vary, but for me that answer is definitely yes. I wasn't expecting the recording to be over an hour long, but I stayed and listened to the whole thing. I reckon I'll go back again if I can fit it in next time I'm in London.

Alright, how do I listen to it?

The recording is free to listen to, and is available in the Sound Archive at the British Library in London. The building is about 2 minutes walk from King's Cross St Pancras. (map)

You need a Reader Pass to access the room. If you're a UK citizen you can just get one on the day, but if you're not then I recommend starting the process online before you go.

You will need:

Photo ID

Proof of address

They give you an ID card that's valid for 3 years. The process was pretty straightforward and the staff are very helpful. They have very good cloakroom facilities and free secure lockers, so if you have carry-on sized luggage with you, you can store it there while you visit.

They're very strict about what's allowed into the reading rooms, so plan to use the lockers.

Once you have your card, go to the Rare Books and Music reading room on Floor 1. Marvel at the ancient tomes people are carefully examining. Find a computer with a set of headphones attached (towards the back right of the room) and set yourself up. If you have your own laptop you can use one of the empty spots in that area.

Search the catalogue for something like "Stowe Beatles". There are pages and pages of other recordings you might also like to listen to.

What's the playlist?

I Saw Her Standing There Too Much Monkey Business Love Me Do Some Other Guy Misery I Just Don’t Understand A Shot of Rhythm and Blues Boys! Matchbox From Me To You Thank You Girl Memphis Tennessee A Taste of Honey Twist and Shout Anna Please Please Me Hippy Hippy Shake I’m Talking About You Ask Me Why Till There Was You Money (there's a section here where the tape got recorded over with an incredibly annoying song) I Saw Her Standing There (reprise)

My highlights

Stowe School was an all-boys school at the time, but it's clear from the recording that there are girls at the gig.

Boys! gets a huge response, and I'm pretty sure it's Ringo singing Matchbox immediately after. Later (around 55m) the crowd starts chanting for Ringo to sing again.

There's a good amount of banter between John and Paul, not all of it very clear. I'd love a chance to sit and listen to those parts over and over again, and see what I can make out. Alas I didn't have time, and I only had the in-browser audio player, which made it basically impossible to hop around.

The crowd starts shouting out requests at some point, and some boys shout for A Taste of Honey. There's some laughter, and the timing of it sounds to me like John is mugging.

Towards the end someone shouts for How Do You Do It and one or John or Paul sings the opening phrase, with an audible smile, but they don't sing it.

Anything else?

If you can, I recommend bringing your own laptop and headphones. There are computers and headphones there, but the browser interface is not ideal for going to specific timestamps, you have limited control over volume, and I think you'd get more out of it with medium to high end headphones.

If you want to skip the truly awful song that got recorded over a section of the tape, the original comes back in around 1:01:25.

In the same building they have some of Hunter Davies's donation on display in the Treasures Gallery. This was a small selection on the day I went, and I was pretty disappointed, but they do rotate those displays every six months. It may also be possible to access the other items for research purposes, I haven't investigated that yet.

[jarvis-cockhead]

roughly 6 years ago i went to a gallery to see an exhibition of old british childrens TV- bagpuss, the clangers, etc. at the same time there was an exhibition of black and white photographs from the 70s of every day things which the photographer correctly predicted would eventually become interesting. in here i came across a photo of a girl standing next to a door in a plain looking room and 14 year old me decided she was the most incredible person id ever seen and i instantly fell in love for the very first time. fast forward to now and i recalled this one evening while procrastinating an assignment at 4am and went hunting through my google photos for the aforementioned incredible girl image because i know id downloaded it and lo and behold it was there. and from there i started scrolling upwards past memories and memories (and horribly cringe stuff id downloaded from tumblr at the time but we ignore that). and there i saw, march 2016, an inexplicable photo of an unopened rare sylvanian family set- the fisher cat family- which id taken on my parents bed. instant confusion. i loved sylvanian families growing up and id recently got back into them, so the moment it was no longer an ungodly hour of the night (id ended up staying up until around 9am) i texted my mum asking if she knew anything. she said she didnt know but shed have a look after she finished her breakfast, that she doesnt remember giving them away, but no promises. and then i heard nothing. i came home from uni that weekend and asked my dad if theyd been found and his non response was immediately suspicious- so they had, then. i was told id ruined the surprise- i thought oh, my mum was waiting to show me herself. oh well, ill just tell her what happened. i tell her and it turns out the surprise in question was 14 years old. the fisher cats were released in the UK in 2009, and they were bought for a christmas or birthday but i never got them because by then id stopped playing with sylvanians, so they were put away to be sold. my mum never sold them- and instead decided to save them for when theyd be appreciated again. shes known about them this whole time. now im 20, im rediscovering my love for sylvanians, and her opportunity has come. shes going away for the entirety of may- my birthday month- and decided theyd be a really nice surprise to leave me. ... that would be if id not, by chance, stumbled across a photo of them from 7 years ago. i cant bring myself to blame the girl in the photo- i have no idea who she is, and shes certainly not to blame for my horrible procrastination. but it did lead me to disappointing my poor mother and crushing her excitement. not that i had any way of knowing, of course. ill see them in a few months and ill be thankful of them while shes away. ill miss her a lot. mum, im sorry.

[sweetchillipeppers]

i was recently diagnosed (<6 months ago) with adenomyosis and my doctor also suspects endometriosis. my edonomyosis symptoms gradually got worse as time went on. i started with heavy periods and painful cramps at about age 14 and i fainted because of it when i was 17. when i was 18 i started getting diarrhoea and then when i was 19 vomiting also joined the party of symptoms plaguing my periods.

this is not normal, period pain should only be mild discomfort. i likely wouldn’t have got diagnosed because i was just happy that doctors could treat my symptoms but my mom advocated for you. if you struggle to advocate for yourself at the doctors, especially if you’ve gaslit yourself into thinking it’s not that bad, please bring someone you know will advocate for you.

adenomyosis mostly affects people who are above the age of 30 and have had a child. i am neither of those things. if something feels wrong please see a specialist. if you can’t afford a specialist (i understand not all countries have universal healthcare - i love the NHS but even i had to go private for gynaecology) learn how to treat your individual symptoms and start noting down what’s going on.

how i treat cramps:

- mefenamic acid (in the UK this requires a prescription)

- hot water bottle or an ice pack (both work for me although you need to make sure you have a tea towel or smth between the ice pack and your skin)

- pretending i’m in battle and have been slain and am waiting for assistance from my friends (while i writhe in pain in bed) if thinking about something fun like your favourite fictional character helping soothe you do it. it’s important your mental health stays healthy while you’re in pain. people with adenomyosis and endometriosis are more likely to develop mental health disorders like anxiety and depression (if i find the study i’ll link it)

- dark chocolate

how i treat diarrhoea:

- loperamide 2mg you can get this at most supermarkets. in tesco you need to be 18. Boots did not ID me. in the netherlands kruidvat did not ID me either.

- having excessive amounts of toilet paper all the time

how i treat vomiting:

- cry

- ginger. ginger is a natural stomach relaxant it should stop your stomach being upset at you. you can drink ginger tea or ginger shots (cold ginger drinks often mixed with apple juice) i had waitrose ginger shots once and it burned worse than tequila so in the uk i use tescos. in the netherlands albert heijn has loads of options for ginger shots so i think we should get them in the uk too.

- bland food afterwards. plain rice, pasta, toast. nothing spicy, oily or too sweet. i am usually sensitive to strong smells when i’m nauseous so i avoid anything too strong smelling, even stuff i like.

- water. please stay hydrated.

this is a mostly comprehensive insight on how i manage my pain (written on a bad flare up day - i spent 4 hours on the toilet with my bin on my lap) and if this post isn’t lost in the void then add your own treatments because i can always use new ideas.

Female reproductive health terms you should know!

(terfs not welcome)

Dysmenorrhea: Period pain that isn't normal, i.e. any pain more than Mild cramping.

Dyspareunia: painful intercourse

Oligomenorrhea: lighter, shorter menstrual flow.

Menorrhagia: heavier, longer menstrual flow.

Ovarian cysts: a mass on or in one's ovary, can be resolved on its own, or can remain and cause complications such as a rupture.

Polycystic ovary syndrome: a chronic condition causing cysts to reoccur on the ovaries and enlarging them. Symptoms include:

Irregular periods

hormonal imbalance

facial hair

weight gain

painful periods/ ovulation

infertility

People with PCOS are at higher risk for endometrial cancer, type II diabetes heart problems and high blood pressure.

Endometriosis: A chronic condition in which a tissue similar to, but different than, the endometrial lining grows outside of the uterus instead of inside. During menstruation this tissue sheds and has nowhere to go, thus irritating surrounding organs.

Symptoms include:

Irregular periods

Dysmenorrhea

Widespread pain

Painful ovulation

Vomiting, fainting, chills, sweating, fever and brain fog during menstruation

Infertility

Severe bloating

This also puts people at a higher risk for endometrial and ovarian cancer. There are four stages to Endo as it is a progressive disease, with 3/4 being more severe. The average time it takes to be diagnosed is 7 years.

Adenomyosis: A chronic disease similar and comorbid to endometriosis in which a tissue similar to the endometrial lining grows inside of the uterine wall. Symptoms are nearly identical to endometriosis but more difficult to detect.

Many people are diagnosed post menopause, by fault of the medical system, but it can and does develop much before then.

Ovarian cancer: cancer of the ovary(ies).

Endometrial cancer: cancer of the endometrium, the inner lining of the uterus.

Endometrial cyst, or chocolate cyst: cystic lesions from endometriosis.

Tilted uterus: the uterus is positioned pointing towards the back or severely to the front of the pelvis instead of a slight tilt towards at the cervix. Can cause painful sex and periods.

Pelvic floor dysfunction: inability to control your pelvic muscles. Comorbid with many things and is highly comorbid with endometriosis. Can cause pain and incontinence.

Vulvodynia: chronic and unexplained pain at the opening of the vagina.

Interstitial cystitis: a chronic condition where cysts form on the inside of the bladder and urinary tract and cause symptoms similar to that of a UTI.

Pre-eclampsia: a condition occurring in pregnancy where the blood supply between the fetus and the pregnant person is affected and can cause irregular blood pressure, swelling, and in more severe cases headache, nausea and vomiting, a burning sensation behind the sternum, shortness of breath and potentially death if untreated.

Endometritis: an infection or irritation of the uterine lining. Is not the same as endometriosis and is treatable but can cause pain, bleeding, swelling, general discomfort and fever, and more.

Pelvic inflammatory disease: an infection of the reproductive organs

Ectopic pregnancy: a pregnancy that is attached to the outside of the uterus. Can be fatal if left untreated.

There are many more I could probably add but if you see something missing, please add it!

[dustvoid]

03.09.24

I still feel a bit homesick. I know it's only been 3 months, but I feel a bit burnt out. I think I need a dating break and to focus on myself a bit more. I was going on one or two dates every week for the last month or two and I'm just exhausted. I'm so tired of doing the same thing over and over again. maybe like everyone says, I'll find it when I'm not looking. I don't think I have any more first dates in me for now. they've become so repetitive that I can't even tell what's a nice date anymore. or I can't appreciate them. they are starting to feel like interviews, and I used to really enjoy dating! so the best thing to do would be to have a break for a while. part of me really wants to make something of myself here, and the other half wants to just make money to survive and live, and enjoy my time here, however long that is. who really knows what will happen. I just hope I evolve and don't stay in the same place. I really don't want to be doing here what I was doing at home, or I will probably go insane. if it gets to that I will just head back home. no point staying here to struggle and not enjoy it.

I didn't really think id miss home so much. I guess I just never appreciated it that much and felt like I was stuck, which I was, but I also love and miss it. I guess both things can be true. I don't think I could see myself being here long term, especially not in London. I couldn't be here for the rest of my life. I miss my family and I'm too close with them. maybe I am just built different, but I don't think I could live on the other side of the world from them forever. I miss my friends too, even if they are all off doing their own thing. I miss Emma though and my sisters. I miss going to the beach and having it be 15 or 50 minutes from me. I miss how small Melbourne is. London and the uk are overwhelmingly big. I miss my weekly pilates classes, and walks through the reserves and suburbs. I miss Northside and the funky little pockets of Melbourne. I'm sure I'll be back one day, I just have no idea when.

-H

[easterneyenews]

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[swanhasshoes]

WELCOME TO MY BLOG!!

This post is gonna basically be my personal boundaries and stuff, I will link the system account at the end of the post if you wanted to follow it!

INTRODUCTION

Hello! My name is Nico or Swan, I use They/Them pronouns and I’m the host of a DID system from the UK. Bodily we are 17, I also identify strongly with being 17. As said I use they/them and I am nonbinary, I’m also asexual Panromantic!

My favourite colour is Navy, I’d love to dye my hair that specific shade one day. My favourite movie it Queen of The Damned, I think it’s a beautiful movie and a lovely follow up to Interview with A Vampire.

My favourite tv show is The Owl House, I am absolutely obsessed with it and 100% the reason we split Hunter (I watched TOH during trauma). My favourite food is chicken drumsticks and it has been my comfort food for ages.

My favourite song is the song Ma Cherie by Palaye Royale, it’s a huge comfort to me.

In headspace my hair is white, my eye colour is like a minty-green colour. I’m 5’9” in headspace. I dress really grungy and I also have 4 tattoos in the innerworld!

BOUNDARIES

I have quite a lot of personal boundaries so I’ll list them post important to least important!

Do not vent in my asks, comments or reblogs

Nontraumagenics please do not interact with me, it makes me really uncomfortable.

Supporters of the above are also not to interact, you all make me VASTLY uncomfortable. Nontraumagenic neutral people are on thin ice. If you bring up discourse I will block you but if you’re just here for content I don’t care.

If you use transharmful ids (aka are radqueer transgender) please please fuck off. You all make me incredibly nauseous.

People who interact with subreddits like r/systemscringe r/fakedisordercringe as well as r/DID and r/OSDD are asked to please not interact. For the first two subs it is because they are something that sets me back in my recovery. If the system or me is posted there please DO NOT tell me but we as a system urge you to campaign for them to be taken down. The last two subreddits are for two different reasons r/DID is because they have become very elitist and are not a safe space for me anymore. r/OSDD is because they enable people to self diagnose with ZERO research. For my safety and comfort if you are involved in them please don’t interact here

I am physically disabled and for that reason I ask that people with the mentality of “you’re too young to be disabled” to please please leave my account.

I suffer from delusions, I have an emote from a custom emotes account I will link in the comments. If I believe I have actively delusional or in a state of psychosis I will put that image in the post. It says “reality check please”. If that emote is not there please do not reality check me.

I have BPD and Bipolar and am prone to manic episodes, if you are someone who will enable dangerous actions then please leave my page.

I am involved with “problematic” media’s, and while I do not support the creators or actions within those media’s I ask those who DO please do not interact.

I have the worst amnesia in the system, if you are someone who uses that to your advantage then please leave my profile because you are dangerous to me.

Those who trigger for fun are not welcome here!

I am in active ED recovery so proED accounts are urged to please stay away.

BEFORE YOU INTERACT

I am literally a traumatised person, so just like…keep that in mind ig?

I follow the rest of the system in their anti-endo view. Literally don’t even come here if you identify as one or support them.

I tend to not to hold my tongue in stressful and traumatic situations and if you stress me out I will just snap at you!

I’m not here for education, if you want education then oh my good use google or go look at our system account HERE

DO NOT INTERACT IF:

You identify as endogenic

Support those who say they are systems without trauma

Are proED

Are radqueer

Trigger people for fun

You do not believe that traumatised people are entitled to “harsh” boundaries

You do not believe traumatised people are entitled to have a DO NOT INTERACT

Are over the age of 21

[sennaverstappendiary]

british grand prix ✩ 09.07.2023

imagine... the beach, the sea, the feeling of sun on your skin; a pina colada in your hand... 🍹☀️🌊🏖️🌴 now, imagine seeing a young person in the periphery of your eye sight, sweating, refreshing their ipad screen every two seconds, despite the terrible wifi. what are they up to, you think to yourself. they seem stressed, a family emergency? maybe a fight with their partner? you decide to take a closer look - maybe you can help!

as you come closer, the ipad screen starts to become more clear to you. the person is looking intensly at the screen, their hands in a praying motion, as if they're asking god themself. and then you see it. a car. all of this over a car. on one of the most beautiful places a person can be, this person is watching a fucking car. on a screen.

you go back to your seat. what the hell dude.

RIGHT so as you can maybe guess!!! that person!!! was i!!! 💥💥💥💥💥‼️‼️‼️ i was celebrating a summer holiday on the beautiful island of kos, greece, when silverstone weekend took place 😵☀️ and instead of being a normal person about it, i told my now ex i needed to watch it, no matter what. LMAO. 💥💥💥

so many good memories from kos. my favorite might be me pulling up to our beach tent, and seeing a FUCKING max verstappen cutout. IN GREECE. BE SERIOUS‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️😵😵😵 I CAN NEVER ESCAPE HIM 🥰🥰🥰💕💕💕💕💌💌 i almost died!!

i watched qualifying on the beach, my ipad overheating and my bladder very very full from all the pina coladas id been sipping (this is the summer i fell in love with pina coladas 🍹💕🥰) - this is the first time i watched something f1 while intoxicated (i can spoil you right now: it will not be the last. not even in 2023. shoutout to qatar U WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS ‼️‼️‼️‼️). anyway, back to quali: i was so stressed. the wifi wouldn't work. the data wouldn't work. there was sunscreen on my ipad and in my mouth and sand everywhere. i think eventually i just followed the timing instead of the livestream? i rewatched quali for this series and didn't recognise it sooo... i was super stressed lol and celebrated his pole by getting another drink #yassss 🌙💕 THE FACT MAX GOT POLE IS SO DIABOLIC i love him sooo much... giving the entirety of the UK hope for a lando pole and then snatching it away. thats my pookie 💕💕💕💕🥰🥰🥰🥰💕💕🌷🌷💌💌‼️‼️💥💥💥 afterwards i realised btw. that uh. the beach tent i was staying at. was showing f1 on their tv #IDIOT 💥💥💥💥💥

the race was... something else. my now ex wasn't too happy i wanted to watch (he was very very hungry) but 🥺 i am too autistic not to watch i can't help it :( anyway the universe punished me by that FUCKASS start. max what the hell dude. i was so so scared. especially because once again, this was a first for me... 🥺🥺🥺🥺💔💔💔 i was so scared!!! and also kinda buzzed!! 💕💕 eventually everything turned out alright of course - thank the fucking lords lol the race itself wasn't toooo interesting to be honest - i don't remember much, but i was very very happy and celebrated with a cocktail soo 😁😁😁💕💕💕🥰🥰���🍹 and how can we forget!!! first rbr win at silverstone since 2012!! how very special 🥺🥺🥺✨✨✨ also yeah the mclaren upgrades were cool lol i used to have mclaren cb soon in my bio on my sennaverstappen blog LOL i manifested it ur welcome lando... 😁😁😁

✩ song of the race: club tropicana - wham!

YOU. will listen to this song right now. this song is literally the entire vibe of the summer. this song transports me right back to kos, watching silverstone on the beach while sipping on a pina colada. i love this song so fucking much. club tropicana drinks are free. fun and sunshine. theres enough for everyone. 💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥🍹🍹🍹🍹🍹🍹☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️🍷🍷🍷🍷🍷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷💌💌💥💥‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️🌊🌊🌊🌊🌊

✩ extra: a small photodump

[jo603kinetictype]

Interview origin: Kiri Te Kanawa - HARDtalk Interview 2010 Interview 3:54-4:29 Dame Kiri Te Kanawa talks to Stephen Sackur about her career and her Foundation.

She talks about her 4 decades of hard work where she built up her career and reminisces on how lucky she was to have found a passion and to be able to continue to do it through her life. She looks back at her "golden years" and appreciates them.

The interviewer mentions that she was adopted into an odd family situation and she answers this awkward question gracefully. She talks about being blessed with her family and being thankful for growing up in New Zealand and never wanting to disappoint.

She started sining after her car trip story, eventually singing for her mother's friends and then singing on the radio and her path continued on from there.

She also mentions that she had a whole ladder of people through her life help her with her singing from the very beginning. She had many teachers and mentors who were strong and strict as they thought her but she says that she's thankful for it.

She talks about how yes its a world for men but she managed to find her own space in the music world.

She still feels part of New Zealand and visits often and stays connected to her origins. She was hoping to settle back in NZ one day.

What she's up to in NZ 2022:

At home with Dame Kiri Te Kanawa: Why she always knew she would come back to Aotearoa 2022 Article

"Dame Kiri has owned the property in the Bay of Islands for 38 years, but until now has not lived here permanently.

When Dame Kiri last talked to the Weekly, she had recently made the decision to move home from the UK to spend more time with her gorgeous 3-and-a-half-year-old grandson Luther.

She was seeing him once a week and she said, "I'm 77 now and I don't know how many summers I have left. I want those summers to be with Luther."

Dame Kiri remains grateful to be living in New Zealand while her friends back in the UK struggle with the Omicron variant. 

Being stuck in the north has not prevented her from continuing work with the Kiri Te Kanawa Foundation, which she began in 2004 to help young New Zealand opera singers when they start out on their careers.

Dame Kiri mentors the young singers and the foundation works to support them and  for a year, the 18 singers she looked after were supported with £800 (NZ$1600) a month."

What shes up to now May 2023

Lunch with ... Dame Kiri Te Kanawa - opera great opens up on her return to New Zealand, family life and her career (id read it but its behind a paywall but I guess it shows that she's still in NZ now!)

Dame Kiri on why she's taking a back seat and loving it March 2023

"When she announced her decision to retire, a Daily Mail headline trumpeted that the then-77-year-old had quit Britain to spend “her last summers” with her grandson in NZ after being kept apart by Covid.

There are no more performances in her; no plans to come out of retirement, not even for an informal get-together in her hometown of Kerikeri, she insists. She likens it to the agelessness of Marilyn Munro after her early death. “She’s never going to change is she? And that’s what I want people to remember - there’s my voice, it’s never going to change.”

If she does feel moved to sing? “I’ll do it in the car so no-one can hear me.” 

“I’m done, I've moved on and you're never going to hear another sound out of me, because that's what I want everyone to remember.” 

“I'm enjoying what I'm hearing and just…[doing] things that I can help with and just be with them and they love me being there. That's the pleasure I'm getting at the moment.”

This is why Dame Kiri set up the Kiri Te Kanawa Foundation some 20 years ago. To nurture and promote young performers coming through from New Zealand - the next generation of Dame Kiris, and, now, the next generation of Phillip Rhodes."

[maryjeanmj]

I first arrive the London airport with several British uncles,they're all the Queen's friends,they came to CQ for saving me to UK. They really not ruin this chance,we finally safely arrive London airport,my bright life begins. They're my best friends all the way,we have no time to travel,directly get home,then quickly opened our cases ,put everything in the right places. And I've got my room,it's a new big family,I always have the opportunity to talk with them,they all welcome me. My English is so brief and useful,all words I've learned can use to different occasions. It's because they've treated me as one of them,and my three bats they help me quietly behind. I never feel dizzy or lost awareness all the way to UK,this time I'm full of safety sense. I took a bath and have supper with them,never be so happy before.I appreciate!From then on,my bats can just help me behind,when they talk to me,nobody knows. I have a warm modern room,it's so beautiful,full of sunlight each day.I'd like to stay inside,but going out also not bad,at least I'm not only one,I can always hang out with my families,they're really the best people I know,we love our family. Then I'd like to each day help them to do the things I can,their tips are so useful for me,I can benefit a lot through their family education. I love to play with children,I'd like to play with them whole day long without rests.Children are so cute,they're my best friends. They've sent me my new British ID card,it's a good one,I cherish it so much.It can be used everywhere when I need. I don't need to care about my medical issues,cause my medicine I can buy everywhere in the pharmacies,and the doctors they're all very kind to me. No matter where I am,people are all very gentle and warm-hearted,they're all very kind to me. My bats help me a lot about some issues that I can't solve myself,I really appreciate for them.Fortunately,we've moved to a new better environment than in CQ. And then,my new family will find me something to do,I believe I can do my best,cause they support me so much. I really can,make them no worries,good job!So that they would love to introduce me to their friends,I'm really happy for that!

版权归作者所有，任何形式转载请联系作者。 作者：张马瑞（来自豆瓣） 来源：https://wWe each Sunday will go to church together,then my heart feel peaceful. We each evening will go for a walk,or after supper,we'll go for a drink to the downtown. We each morning will go for running for several blocks,then back for breakfast. We each holiday will go for camping and boating,sometimes we'll go to the seaside. We each day will work,but not too much. After several days,we'll go to London once for tours,cause we'd like to walk on the street,we'd like to know the spots,broaden my horizon. After several months,the local university sends me an offer,invites me to study with them,they ask me about my willings,I said Yes,I desire to go,please apply a place for me.It's a free oppotunity,they gave me a full scholoship,this time I decide to move out to a school accomodation room.My family could be released now. The campus life is so smooth,each day I have pleasure,as an international student,nobody treats me unfair,they all respect me,we are happy together.My campus life is so helpful,I never drop for any reasons.Well,I each weekend will still come back to my family,taking my gifts to them,cause I have many creative gifts,they never feel bored for that,also not surprised,but they're happy and satisfied that I miss them,need to talk with them,no matter what happened,I should be with them,nothing can change my love to my family. And we go for traveling sometimes,all in Europe,I never feel strange while being with my family,we have many friends and relatives,I can remember their each name.We love the first Christmas we celebrating together,as a Chinese with double nationalities,My life in here is never lonely,I'm as good as all the others,letting the other Chinese can feel my happiness,I allow them to share my happiness,cause it's the real happiness.My happiness is located in here,this land is my second hometown. My family makes me love all the festivals here,my favorite is the Thanksgiving Day,I'll also miss my Chinese New Year,but not too much,cause we are busy during that time. After one year I've finished my language school study,this year I've handled the right ways of studying British English,I begin to love talking about the weather and love.I'm a Briton.

版权归作者所有，任何形式转载请联系作者。 作者：张马瑞（来自豆瓣） 来源：https://www.douban.com/note/833822394/he Britons not too welcome Chinese,but they'd like to go with me,my thoughts my opinions,each time when I have a good idea,makes them so excited,cause they need me,no matter how,cause I'm also a Briton,we are in a big family. I'm such an easygoing person who doesn't know. They like my character,they can't bare any Chinese but they like me so much,I can always make them pleasant,they're enjoying my existence. And I'm a busy girl,I've got a job.It's my British family finds me this job,I work in an office of London,how to describe my work,I'm working as an officer,each day answering the questions of my customers,they're all Londoners,nobles,I'm a very accommodating and understanding person for them,cause our company needs me,I have many workmates,they're all very experienced and caring persons,we cope with each other each day,our working environment is so relaxing and comfortable.,makes me don't want to leave my position,of course I won't,cause the boss is so caring about me,in the first month,he behaves like quite curious about,always asking me questions for living up the atmosphere.I can accept,cause my shortcomings are also so cute in his eyes,the managers are also so humorous,they'd like to joking me,my workmates all like me so much,cause I'm like their sweetheart or something!My internship is so smooth! Time runs fast,they've introduced me several British boyfriends,they all have good works. But I'm 35 year's old already,I really need to live a steady life,like getting married,having several children. By coincidence,I meet a man he's so capital,he's my Mr. Right,and it's my family introduces to me,he's so handsome can bring me safety sense,he's so caring man,each night he hugs me in his strong arms. I move to live with him.

版权归作者所有，任何形式转载请联系作者。 作者：张马瑞（来自豆瓣） 来源：https://www.douban.com/note/833922435/My fiance is an engineer,he's living in a big vila on Orford Street,I really love to talk with him,we each day will date,we date a lot no matter we have got married or just have engaged. Why we need to encounter each other,why we need to each day never feel bored for touching each other's hearts,why?Cause we feel it's so amazing to let the people know that we're together,we never hide. And you know what?He's a so gentle person,he's always appearing at the different corners of some blocks,his fingers are counting my steps,I each time is shocked by his blonde hair and moody eyes,his charming chest and that attractive temperament. He likes to stroll with me everywhere. We always stroll to stroll to some peaceful roads,we'd like to visit his friends on those streets,they're living happily inside,each day greetings and goodbyes,drunk with them,aspire their beautiful yards with sparrows,they'd like to share their works and book shelves. Recently I always forget to work,cause I just hesitate whether I should quit my job and work for my family,cause my family needs to call me back to talk about how to create a career at home. You know I really love to stay with my families and I can't one day go out without hearing a word from them. It's my habitat here,I always invite my fiance to our home for dinners. he's out to be already a part of our family. But our family is so healthy,we don't have any porno issues,we are normal people. It's a point. And I'm trying to do some housework recently for welcoming our Thanksgiving Day. Yeah,exactly. Now I have a biggger independent room at home,with a private washroom. It's good,it's so convenient. I need to take a bath and wear my new nightgown. Mom and dad suddenly call me to their dining room,they tell me that the Queen needs to see me,cause they're all officials,also nobles you know,they're the Queen who allowed to become my British families beforehand. But Her Majesty has never thought of me after I came to UK that day,how come?My parents ask me to think about how to behave,be careful about my conducts,don't be to hypocritical,cause the Royal Family they dislike. I know,I say.We talk too late that night till the early morning,we still are discussing about what the Queen and her Winsor need to know about me,I'm so familiar now,for everyone here I'm not a mysterious person,maybe it's the Queen's success,without her,I'm nobody.

版权归作者所有，任何形式转载请联系作者。 作者：张马瑞（来自豆瓣） 来源：https://www.douban.com/note/833961895/A maid she used to be a witch,she trains me about my ceremony,then let me wear like a Royal family,I've heard a sharp sword's sound when I step into a big room. The Queen Elizabeth II's grandson Prince William's head pieces are waiting over there. Oh,no!A Godfather hand in a big sharp sword,shouting:I've sliced you,my Prince's head into three pieces,how could you hang out again?!Damn!I'm totally shocked and stop my steps. The Prince William's head pieces are like a hamburger,saw me come in,quickly glimpse at me once,then like a child who has done wrongly back to his parent's education today. I have no time to care about where's his body,his head pieces are like listening to his Godfather's words so much. The Queen's like haven't seen me yet,also just stand over there,nervously listening to the Godfather's hawl. I saw the Princess Kate is not there,I feel weird,I secretly come to the Queen's side,I remind her:You know after a long time,the His Majesty's head may couldn't put back to his body then,cause I could see him doesn't have this awareness now. The Queen nods her head,then a glimpse makes the Godfather stops. He quickly call His Majesty's body to come back to his head hamburger,then back to the whole,but just a little bit look like another Godfather,that strange! The Queen leave the room without taking me,she asks me to stay,so I've heard the Prince and Godfather's chatting context. After the Queen and all the others leaving,the Prince William quickly turns to picking up the sword,then plays the sword on the wall,the wall has been wounded now. He tells the Godfather the truth why he needed the Godfather to slice his head into pieces and educated him heavily. Cause if this time successful makes the others think he's already dead,he could quit he himself here,then go with his Godfather to Europe for overseas study. He expresses that he admires my story so much,he needs to learn from me. I've lost words,my heart is broken at the same time. Cause I suddenly think of my promise,I used to dream of letting the Prince William give up his King's position,go with me for travelling whole life.

版权归作者所有，任何形式转载请联系作者。 作者：张马瑞（来自豆瓣） 来源：https://www.douban.com/note/836040036/I guess I'm a little nonsensical about my future.,I'm really brilliant through all fields but just can't stop my life. My steps to tomorrow are too light,to make me can get on the future's rainbow so quickly!I'm happy for my young face. As everybody knows,I have everything,my dream is not called a dream,it's my reality,the hours. After time to time,I may be better,somebody is better than all,that makes people all admire. So I should thank god,gives me so big talent,and just belongs to me,who knows I can never be wiped out of the world,cause I can see the people how much wanting my everything. It's so beautiful to live with my nature and the nature is part of the world already,how mature I am. So great legend happens inside of me each day,I've been surprised and appreciated again and again,I'm moved,totally. In this world,all are along with me,I don't need to ask for anything from anybody,I just each day receive,make them useful. It's a beautiful world,just I forever can't use the sharp things to treat the tender world,cause the world is my world,I should cherish,it's a great work!

[master-john-uk]

Operation Pied Piper. The evacuation of children from London (and other cities considered to be vulnerable to air attacks) began three days before war broke out in September 1939.

Many kids from London were initially evacuated to my area of Kent... just 25 miles south of central London. This was a rather silly mistake, as many German bombers (and later the V1 and V2 rockets) passed over this area en route to London. When the bombing raids began in 1940, some Luftwaffe pilots dropped their payload of bombs early, and many of the V1 and V2 rockets dropped short of their intended targets. Most of the evacuees were later moved to safer areas... but not all.

One group of evacuees who stayed in Kent were from a London County Council children's home which relocated to Crockham Hill, Kent (close to my childhood home of Hever, and my current home near Westerham.) In June 1944 a V1 Doodlebug, possibly flying low after being damaged by anti-aircraft fire, was tipped off course by a tree and landed directly on Weald House (the children's home) killing 21 infants and seven female staff.

As for my parents...

My mother had just entered her teenage years when war broke out. While she still attended school, mother volunteered to help out at a local dairy farm in Hever.

Mum loved the cows. She would sing as she milked them to keep them calm... especially when there were aircraft overhead, or bombs could be heard exploding nearby. Mother stayed in Kent for the duration of the war.

My father was living in what is now my Kent residence. He loved watching The Battle of Britain... the aerial fight between the RAF and the Luftwaffe as Germany sought to gain air superiority before invading the UK.

Being just a few miles south of RAF Biggin Hill, Dad and his mates used to watch the action from the top of the Greensand Ridge, where they could view action over both the Holmesdale to the north, and the Weald valley to the south.

On one occasion, Dad and his friends were watching from the middle of a field near Ide Hill (the highest point in Kent.) A low flying  Messerschmitt flew directly at them... and strafed the field with machine gun fire. Father and his friends ran for cover in the woods.

That German pilot could probably have taken them all out, if he had really wanted to... but, instead he gave them a friendly warning to not be so bloody stupid! I would love to know who that "enemy" pilot was... Vielen Dank. Gott segne!

Father was evacuated to Shropshire in 1942 to finish his education.

An obviously distressed small child being evacuated from London in September 1939. But the expected early attack didn't occur and by mid January 1940 it was estimated that 34% of the people evacuated had returned to London, and the return continued due to a perceived lack of threat or because they were unhappy away from their families and their homes.

Image courtesy of the LIFE Photographic Collection.

[nctdoingthings]

jungwoo said it’s on sight bitch

[cjjohansson]

series masterlist - masterlist

natasha romanoff x reader

summary; you and natasha move forward in your relationship.

word count; 3.1K

warning; SMUT 18+. the full shazam.

an; this chapter contains smut, please read at your own risk. 18+ only

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♡ you said forever♡

chapter 6 ; i promise with all my heart i love you

— two month later —

the past two months had been a rollercoaster. you and natasha had yet to have fallen out, it shocked everyone how quickly you both fell back into a rhythm of a relationship again after so long. within the first month you had flown back over to the UK with everyone in sorting out your things in your house, you made the decision to move back to the compound. alia was very happy about not having to move back to where she called home, it felt normal moving back. tony managed to sort everything out to be moved and within 2 weeks all of your things were safety confided in the compound. and just like that you were settled back into the compound on yours and nats shared floor. tony had refurbished one of the offices on your floor into a room for alia rather than her staying in your bedroom.

you loved watching alia and natasha interact, it was something that you couldn’t help constantly taking pictures of. you don’t think you had ever seen natasha actually fully worn out before but after some days of alias extreme excitement of going out and doing things with you and nat, you often ended up finding alia asleep on nats chest as natasha slept completely still underneath her. no one believed they had ever seen natasha smile so much other than when she was with alia.

for the first month you had slept separately from natasha, you both wanted to ease back into the elements of your relationship slowly - well as much as you could seeing as you both had alia to look after together- mainly because it was new again but also so alia could adjust more to everything happening around her. you didn’t want to overwhelm her more than you could only imagine you already had.

you wanted to talk to natasha about easing into some other parts of your relationship again but you didn’t know how to talk about them. you hadn’t really had any time just the two of you, alia was always around. you had kissed a handful of time in the past two months but you felt yourself wanting more. you had been without physical contact and attraction that you wanted for 4 years. but how can you go about them conversations when you always had a 3 year old on your hip, it wasn’t easy so you went to wanda, alia and nat were out for the day while you chose to stay at the compound. you made your way to wandas floor in hopes of getting out some much needed girl talk.

——

“i don’t know what you’re afraid of y/n, you’re basically back together so just kiss her? wow i never thought id be having this type of conversation with an adult who literally has a child”

“how can i just kiss her when alia is always there wanda? hey im 4 years out of practice just give me a break okay, its hard trying to put myself back out there especially to someone who knows me”

“how about i have alia tonight. me, her and vision can have a much needed sleep over. is that okay? then you can have some alone time with nat, is that what you want?”

flinging yourself into wandas arms and thanking her over and over with a kiss to her cheek, she laughed as you ran back over to the elevator shouting ‘ill bring her round with some stuff when she is back with nat thanks wands love ya!’ and you were already on your way back to your own floor.

——

you had been busying yourself in your kitchen for hours trying to make you and natasha a nice romantic dinner, you had already showered, shoving your hair into a messy bun and changed into some comfy pyjamas hoping for a chilled evening with her.

“MOMMMMYYYYY”

alias voice comes shouting behind you as you quickly turn in her arms to catch her as she comes sprinting right at you. your laugh echos around the room as natasha follows behind taking in the site of the table laid for only 2 people. your tiny conversation with alia about her day has you telling her she will be spending the night with wanda and vision has her cheering, the relief leaves your body as you tell her to go change into some pyjamas and grab whatever she wants to take down. natasha watches the whole interaction with a smile on her face as you turn back to the stove stirring the sauce for dinner. its as if nat suddenly feels an edge of confidence flow through her as she walks up behind you and wraps her arms around your waist to pull you flush against her body. you find yourself choking on a moan as you feel her hand drawing circles on your stomach. soft whispering in your ear has you leaning your head back onto nats shoulder.

“i’ll take her down to wanda, when i come back i’ll quickly shower and then im all yours detka. you just stay here and keep looking pretty in these shorts”

her hand moves from your waist to squeeze your arse cheek as she throws a smirk over her shoulder as alia runs into her arms and they walk to the elevator. your heart beats out of your chest from natashas words and actions. you knew she had been wanting to spend some time with you alone but you hadn’t expected her to be as open as she was, your face blushes as the images pour through your brain of what could happen tonight.

——

“thank you for dinner it was wonderful babe”

she stands from her seating moving over to take your empty bowl from in front of you as she leans down to press a kiss onto your cheek. you watch as she makes her way back to the kitchen and puts everything in the dishwasher to be washed later.

“wanna watch a film baby?”

you find yourself not even being able to produce words as you mindless nod in her direction and take her hand that is outstretched in front of her as she drags you over to the couch in front of the tv. her soft hands makes your whole body heat up, the sight of her toned arms in her tank top has you flushing like a teenager with a crush all over again. you can only shake your head in hopes of getting rid of the thoughts going through your brain.

you both find yourself settled into the couch, your side pressed sideways against natashas as her arm fits comfortably over your shoulders and hovers over your boobs.

you hadn’t been paying any attention to the film whatsoever. not when you were this close with natasha and all you wanted todo was attack her with kisses. your body seemed to be vibrating with adrenalin just being next to her.

lips on your neck has you stiffening first, not expecting natasha to have made a move. your body relaxes as she continues kissing up and down your neck slowly. your head moving to the side to give her more access. natashas hand sudden moves down the front of your top as she pulls you further back into her by your boob. your moans fill the room instantly, you hadn’t been kissed or touched like for so long you felt as though you could cum just from this.

you turn around in her arms, straddling her lap as her hands fell to your ass. you moaned out at the object between her legs as you pressed yourself into her. you kissed her neck harshly hoping to leave your marks as she pushed her hips up into yours.

your mind only felt full of natashas, how her hands felt on your hips as you continued to grind against her and kiss her neck.

you move your lips to hers as you start to kiss slowly, you can feel all of the love pour out between you both in this moment. the moment that feels soft and delicate sudden shifts becoming hot and desirable as she pushes her tongue in your mouth.

“you’re so fucking beautiful y/n”

natashas smirk only seems to rail you up as you move your hands to your hoodie, pulling it off over your head. the sight of you has natasha moaning as she moves her hand from your hips and brushes her thumb over your nipple, you can only whimper in need as your hips start moving frantically on top of her.

you lean forward to whisper in her ear. “please just fuck me already”

that was enough for her to pull you back towards her lips, your hand gripping the back of her head to hold her against you as your tongues fought for dominance, you wasn’t giving in until she pulled your hair making your mouth fall open with a moan and pressing herself in to you. it didn’t feel real, the feeling of natashas lips being pressed into yours as you let out whimpers and soft moans of satisfaction. you wanted to please every part of her.

your hands make the same route of your own as you take off her top and throw her it somewhere in the room, you marvel at her for a second taking her all in. she always was beautiful but seeing her like this always felt different. it always surprised you how her skin would feel so soft in spite of years of torture her body had endured. you wanted too kiss every inch of her skin so she knew how beautiful she was.

your hands squeezed her breasts roughly as you move to start marking her chest, the sounds leaving natashas mouth only making you want her to fuck you even more. her thumbs rubbing over your now hardened buds didn’t falter even in the compromising position, you was like putty in her hands. the persistent grinding of your hips down on natashas strap made you not want to waste any more time, the need to fall apart in her arms instant.

natasha flipped you over, laying you down on the couch. taking her own trousers off as you scurried to remove your own. her strap standing tall over her own stomach had you moaning in place. she places her hips against your core slowly grinding into you as she now moves her head to mark your chest. red and purple bruises littered your chest in a seconds. her grinding stops as she moves her kisses down your body towards your core. she looked down to your core and back into your eyes hesitating.

“are you sure you want this”

“yes! now please fuck me!”

your hips lifting towards natashas face joined your words as you begged for her to fuck you. she felt blinded by the smell of your arousal hitting her senses. she decided not to tease, decided you both had waited long enough for this moment.

she licked a line up from your entrance to your clit, a cry spilling from your mouth at finally being touched made both of you go crazy. natasha circled your clit with her tongue holding your hips down as you tried to case your high you was already so close too. her grip never letting up only making you moan in frustration. she couldn’t stop, you tasted addicting.

she slowly inserted a finger in with ease, your body accepting her easily inside of you. your entrance already spilling with your own juices as she starts pumping slowly, a stark contrast from how her tongue was roughly flicking against your clit, taking her finger out and going back in with two she felt your walls clench around her, curling her fingers inside of you. natasha knew she had hit the right spot when a loud cry left your mouth and you begun fucking yourself against her fingers. your orgasm was rising rapidly as she didn’t let up her actions. natshas name constantly falling from your lips over and over.

“fuck tasha gonna cum.”

“not yet okay”

you could only whine in frustration from being denied. she wanted to taste you more, wanted to see how much more worked up you could get from her being inside of you.

“taste so good y/n fuck.”

“oh fucking hell tash”

your moans turning her on even more as your hands gripped her red hair pressing her further into your core as you roughly ground your hips down onto her tongue, the moans leaving natashas mouth just from your sounds and the taste of you sending vibrations straight through to your clit as she continued to flick her tongue and pump her fingers into you faster and faster.

“cum”

and with that it was as if an explosion went off inside of you. your juices leaking from your entrance onto natashas fingers and chin, dripping from you and onto the couch beneath you.

“that’s it baby, good girl”

she continued pumping slowly helping you ride out your high, when she notices you calming down, she slowly leaves you. a whimper falling from your lips at being left empty. she presses a tender kiss to both of your thighs as she feels you relax onto the couch, tension seeping from your body as she makes her way back up to your face leaving soft kisses on her way back up.

the smirk that lays on her face makes you hungry for more, she can see it in your eyes.

once she is back in front of you it doesn’t take natasha long to kiss you once again, you push her to lay back as you straddles her hips, she can feel how wet your core is as you sit on her stomach continuing to kiss her.

your core presses straight into the strap that lays on her stomach. the moan erupting from deep within your throat as you ground your hips down into her. your slick covering natashas strap instantly. her eyes held darkness but innocence as she looked down at the head on the strap pecking out underneath your core.

her breathe catching as you descend slowly, your lips leaving similar marks to hers down her chest towards her strap. natasha lifted her head up to have the perfect view of you as your lips engulfed her and slowly start bopping your head up and down on her. the sight sending her into a wave of arousal at the way your plump lips looked around the tip. she moves to grab your bun as she lifts her hips up making her strap go deep within your throat. the sight making her moan alone aswell as the strap rubbing against her own core.

“you’re really working for it y/n, shit!”

one of your hands gripping the strap as you continued to circle your tongue around the strap.

your other hand coming towards her stomach scratching down leaving red marks. natasha’s moans filling your ears as she never stopped her movements, popping you up and down along her. you held eye contact while you sucked yourself further down, your nose touching her stomach, the noise from your gagging making her want to fuck you with her strap even more had her pulling you back up towards her by your hair.

natasha aligned the strap up to your entrance as she watched you slowly sink down. a pornographic moan slipping from natasha as she watched you sink halfway down before stopping and looking at her for help. she held your hips and lifted herself up while pushing you down as she bottomed out inside of you roughly. your hands flying to her shoulders to steady yourself as she cursed over and over in russian. moans spilling from you at feeling so full of her.

she moved relentlessly inside of you. you was meeting her thrusts halfway as you jumped up and down her cock. her grip never loosening as both continued meeting thrust for thrust.

“fuck, so fucking deep baby” your words and moans sending her even closer to the edge as her strap rubbed perfectly against her.

“you fuck me so good tash. fucckkk- please don’t stop. please don’t stop”

nat leant forwards taking one of your hardened buds into her mouth. circling her tongue over and over as you grounded yourself into her harder. you was rocking back and forth chasing your high that was fast approaching. she could feel your walls clenching around her strap making it harder for her to push into you, the telltale of your second orgasm fast approaching as your breathing got quicker.

“so fucking tight y/n. you’re a fucking dream”

moans continue to spill out of both of your mouths as you continue to bounce on top of her. her hands gripping your hips, most likely to leave bruises in her wake as she ruts into you just as hard.

“y/n, fuckkk. are you close” she heavily breathed out as you kept rocking back and forth. your head nodding against her as she gripped your hips impossibly tighter.

both of your moans were loud throughout the room, nat pulled you closer to her. your foreheads pressing into one another’s as she continued her assault on her core. everything about this moment with natasha didn’t feel real, like you’d wake up in a second and realise it was all a dream. her consistent moaning of your name sounding like music to your ears.

you both felt your own orgasms approaching fast, the strap having been hitting natashas clit at the right angle all throughout fucking into you.

“cum with me!” she all but shouted as you both continued to rut against each other as your orgasms took over you both.

her hips don’t stop thrusting into you as both your own orgasms take over. her loud moan echoing throughout the room, you’re sure you could cum all over again just by the way she sounds. her body shakes underneath you as you slowly collapsed onto her chest. your lips instantly on her neck as you bite into her while you keep breathing deep and hard as you road out your high, her thrusts slowing down letting the calm take over you both.

she nuzzles her self into your neck pressing gentle kisses up and down until she reaches your ear.

“i am madly and deeply in love with you y/n”

“you promise?” your voice sounding small over the seriousness in her tone.

“i promise with all my heart i love you.”

“i love you too natasha.”

as you lay together on top of the couch laying skin to skin, silence settles over you both as you take in each others words. the sincerity of one anothers love you realise, no matter what has happened and no what what happens you will always somehow end up in each others arms again at some point.